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stalf. ]gu ljjf tg nlgw t`at ygu”rj bgt` wmddmlo tg at djast jxpdgrj w`at `appjljf alf m t`jrj eal bj `jadmlo. Vms ms glj g t`j orjatjst omis ygu eal omvj ygur hatj. Vj smhpdj aet t`at ygu”rj ygu”rj abdj tg ulfjrstalf t`jh alf t`jmr t `jmr jxpjrmjlej gpjls t`j fggr gr t`jh tg rjeglljet. Mt gpjls t`j fggr tg ulfjrstalfmlo t`j brjaft` alf fjpt` g t`jmr fjemsmgls ml t`jmr dmvjs alf ml m l ygurs.
_jjn 0 Ogads Vms dast p`asj g jhpat`y fjvjdgphjlt wj eadd —ojttmlo mt,‘ bjeausj glej ygu”vj oglj t`rguo` t`ms wjjn, ygu”dd nlgw‖w`jt`jr ygu”rj t`j `urt spgusj gr t`j ulamt`ud spgusj‖t`at ygur hatj —ojts mt.‘ @j gr s`j filaddy nlgws `gw add g t`ms ajetjf ygu alf w`at mt egst ygu. Vjy ojt mt alf t`jy ojt w`jrj ygu arj alf w`at ygu”rj jjdmlo. Vms e`aptjr ms t`j s`grtjst g t`j jltmrj wgrnbggn, but fgl”t djt t`at fjejmvj ygu. Vj wgrn ygu wmdd fg t`ms wjjn ms eruemad alf rjqumrjs bgt` g ygu tg fmo fjjp ml ygur jhpat`y tgwarf tgwarf glj algt`jr. Furmlo t`ms wjjn, ygu wmdd bj jleguraojf tg3
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Rjaf t`j igddgwmlo djttjr fjsermbmlo a spgusj”s attjhpt tg —ojt mt.‘ Mt ms al aetuad djttjr wrmttjl by glj gi gur past JHU Gldmlj orgup Gldmlj orgup hjhbjrs, jx`mbmtmlo jhpat`y irgh a bjtrayjf spgusj.
Cg`l, M fgl”t fgl”t nlgw t`at ygu egudf jvjr ulfjrstalf `gw fjvastatmlo ygur bjtrayad ms tg hj, bjeausj M `avj eghj tg ulfjrstalf ygu as a pjrsgl w`g dmvjs a dmj wmt` dgts g orays o rays alf dmttdj eghparthjlts ml ygur hmlf. g ulfjrstalf hy aogly ygu hust first ulfjrstalf hj. ]gu hust first ulfjrstalf t`at w`jl mt eghjs tg dgvj, eghhmthjlt, eghhmthjlt, alf harrmaoj, hy dmj ms vjry absgdutj. absgdutj. Lg orays, lg eghparthjlts, lg sjerjts . . . mt ms bdaen alf w`mtj. Cg`l, bjgrj M harrmjf ygu, hy lahj was Dmsa All Cgljs, a lahj M was vjry prguf tg wjar. ]gu nlgw `gw hue` M afgrj hy at`jr. g wjar `ms lahj brguo`t hj t`j `glgr alf prjstmoj t`at `j spjlt a dmjtmhj bumdfmlo. _`jl M harrmjf ygu, Cg`l, M oavj up t`ms lahj wmt`gut `jsmtatmgl. M t`guo`t M harrmjf a hal t`at was as `glgrabdj as hy at`jr. at`jr. A hal t`at M t`guo`t wgudf djaf hj spmrmtuaddy alf adways ouarf hy bjst mltjrjst. M ljvjr at`ghjf t`at ygu wgudf `urt hj, fmsrjspjet hj, fms`glgr hj, gr eausj hj paml. M t`guo`t ygu wgudf dgvj, `glgr, alf e`jrms` hj as ygu vgwjf tg fg. Aijr wj ogt harrmjf, M e`alojf hy lahj gl hy jvjryt`mlo‖hy sgemad sjeurmty earf, frmvjr”s frmvjr”s dmejlsj, lursmlo dmejlsj, ear mlsuralej. ]gu lahj t`j fgeuhjlt, alf rjst assurjf, M e`alojf hy lahj. Lgtmej t`at M fmf lgt e`aloj mt tg Dmsa Cgljs-Brgwl. Cgljs-Brgwl. M smhpdy e`alojf mt tg Dmsa Brgwl. Fg ygu nlgw w`at t`ms hjals7 Mt hjals t`at Dmsa Cgljs fmjf tg ygu. M fmjf alf bjeahj Dmsa Brgwl, ygur prguf brmfj. _`jl M fmjf tg ygu, M put add g hy joos ml gur basnjt. M lg dglojr `af hy dmttdj basnjt. M saw lg ljjf gr mt. M put jvjryt`mlo jvjr yt`mlo t`at M `af mltg gur basnjt‖ hy frjahs, hy `gpjs, hy altasmjs, hy tgtad mltmhaey, hy rghalej, hy `jart, hy bgfy, hy sgud, hy sjxuadmty, hy wghal`ggf, ygur sjxuad ljjfs, hy jhgtmglad ljjfs, ygur jhgtmglad ljjfs, hy vudljrabmdmty, hy `gpjs gr gsprmlo lgt yjt bgrl, hy rjdmomgl, hy spmrmt, hy fifjdmty, hy trust, hy jars, hy sgrrgws, hy dgvj, hy eghhmthjlt, hy filalejs, hy earjjr, hy ahmdy, hy `jartbrjans, hy `jartae`js, hy past, alf hy uturj. M fgl”t nlgw `gw tg cust put part g hj mltg a eghhmthjlt, Cg`l. M put jvjryt`mlo ml `javjl alf jart` ml gur basnjt gr us tg erjatj gur dmj. M
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nlgw t`at add g hy joos wjrj lgt pjrjet, alf ljmt`jr wjrj ygurs, but M sg trustjf t`at tgojt`jr wj egudf hanj mt add bjttjr. bjttjr. Cg`l, add M jvjr waltjf was tg dgvj ygu alf bj dgvjf by ygu. Vat”s add M waltjf. M fmfl”t t`mln t`at was tgg hue` gr a omrd tg walt. M t`guo`t t `guo`t M was at djast wgrt` t`at hue`. M ljvjr put aly fjhalfs gl ygu gr alyt`mlo jdsj. M t`guo`t ygu fmf t`j sahj, but t`at ms gbvmgusdy lgt truj. ]gu wjrj lgt eghhmttjf tg hj. M nlgw ygu wmdd say, —]js M was . . .‘ Cg`l, t`at”s budd****, alf ygu nlgw mt. At djast ygu egudf bj `gljst alf bj a rjad hal alf afhmt t`at ygu wjrj lgt eghhmttjf alf t`at ygu fmf lgt dgvj hj. _`at ygu fmf was hanj egltrmbutmgls tg t`j rjdatmgls`mp. Cg`l, fgl”t eglusj egltrmbutmgls wmt` eghhmthjlt. Eghhmthjlt alf dgvj fg lgt bjtray, dmj, alf njjp eghparthjlts. Alf t`at ms jxaetdy w`at ygu fmf. Haybj ygu fmf lgt nlgw `gw tg dgvj, but jvjrybgfy nlgws `gljsty alf eghhmthjlt, alf ygu wjrj ljmt`jr. M put jvjryt`mlo M `af ml gur basnjt basnjt w`jl M was a ygulo wghal. M `af sg hue` dmj ml rglt g hj‖ygut`, bjauty, bjauty, alf a `jart udd g dgvj‖hy gptmgls wjrj uldmhmtjf. M sg fjsmrjf tg dgvj uleglfmtmgladdy alf omvj uleglfmtmglad dgvj ml rjturl. Cg`l, M egudf `avj omvjl hy dgvj tg sghjglj jdsj w`g wgudf `avj apprjematjf hj. Lgw hy `jart alf sgud arj udd g paml alf fmstrust. M fgl”t nlgw m M wmdd jvjr bj abdj tg uddy dgvj alf omvj hysjd tg ygu gr alyglj jdsj aoaml. Vms ms sue` a dgss gr hj, Cg`l. M nlgw w`at dgvj ms alf M was bgrl tg omvj dgvj. M `avj omvjl alf dgst sg hue`, smhpdy bjeausj M dgvjf ygu. Cg`l, M ah sg `urt rgh ygur bjtrayad. Cg`l, ygu tggn gur basnjt, t`j gldy basnjt t`at M `af, alf ygu trahpdjf gvjr hy dmj. ]gu s`attjrjf jvjryt`mlo M `af mltg tmly dmttdj ulrjegolmzabdj pmjejs. Cg`l, t`at basnjt was hy dmj. Fg ygu ulfjrstalf t`at7 Vat was hy jltmrj dmij! dmij! Vjrj ms lgt`mlo t`at M gwl t`at was lgt ml t`at basnjt. Vjrj ms lgt`mlo abgut hj t`at was lgt ml t`at basnjt. Cg`l, t`at basnjt was t`j gldy wjdd rgh w`me` M fraln. Vat basnjt was hy sustjlalej, hy jxmstjlej, hy mltjormty, hy wghal`ggf, hy sjlsj g purpgsj, purpgs j, hy sjeurmty. sjeurmty. Jvjryt`mlo. Fg ygu ojt t`at7 Jvjryt`mlo ulfjr t`j sul. M fgl”t jvjl `avj a frjah, a altasy, gr jvjl a pamr g paltmjs t`at wjrj lgt ml t`at basnjt. Hy w`gdj mfjltmty, mledufmlo hy lahj, was ml t`at basnjt. Mt was ygur basnjt tgg, but ygu `af ygur gt`jr dmttdj pjrvjrtjf basnjt. ]gur sjerjt dmj, ygur rjerjatmgl, t`j dmttdj eghparthjlts ml ygur smddy-ass hmlf‖sg ygu
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stmdd `avj sghjt`mlo t`at ms lgt erus`jf tg `jdd. ]gu wjrj sg ulamr. ]gu fmfl”t fmfl”t put add ygur joos ml gur basnjt, sg ygu wmdd prgbabdy ljvjr ulfjrstalf hy `urt. Cg`l, w`jrj fg M start tg rjbumdf7 M `avj lgt`mlo tg bumdf gl. Rjhjhbjr, ygu fjstrgyjf Dmsa Brgwl w`jl ygu fjstrgyjf gur basnjt, alf M put Dmsa Cgljs tg fjat` w`jl M oavj o avj hysjd tg ygu. ygu. Dmsa _`at”s ahazmlo abgut t`ms djttjr ms t`at mt was wrmttjl by Cg`l, lgt Dmsa! Mt was wrmttjl by al ulamt`ud spgusj, lgt by a bjtrayjf spgusj. Cg`l wrgtj mt as m `j wjrj Dmsa wrmtmlo tg `mh. Fg ygu t`mln `j ulfjrstggf `gw `ms aetmgls `af mhpaetjf `ms wmj7 Vj ulfjrstalfmlo t`at Cg`l fmspdayjf gr `ms wmj t`rguo` `ms djttjr bjoal tg djt `jr nlgw t`at `j ogt mt . _mt`gut t`at ulfjrstalfmlo, hgst g t`gsj w`g arj bjtrayjf `avj fmſteudty —djttmlo mt og‘. Vjrj ms a laturad tjlfjley tg njjp trymlo tg ojt glj”s hatj tg ojt mt . M ygu”rj `avmlo fmſteudty wrmtmlo ygur djttjr, fgl”t bj fmseguraojf. Djarlmlo tg dgvj alf tg earj alf tg bj jhpat`jtme tanjs tmhj. M jleguraoj ygu tg fg ygur bjst. But eglsmstjley gvjr tmhj addgws ygu tg djarl tg jjd alf tg earj abgut algt`jr pjrsgl. Cust bj patmjlt alf njjp trymlo tr ymlo tg eglljet tg ygur spgusj” spgusj”s jxpjrmjlej. Vj wgrfs wmdd eghj. Vms ms t`j filad wjjn gr jhpat`y fjvjdgphjlt fjvjdgphjlt alf mt ms t`j hgst eruemad. Vms wjjn, gur ogad ms gr ygu tg eghhulmeatj ygur orgwmlo ulfjrstalfmlo ulfjrstalfmlo g t`j mhpaet g t`j mlfifjdmty. Zltmd Zltmd ygu bjdmjvj b jdmjvj ygur hatj ojts mt, ygu wmdd egltmluj `avmlo trgubdj hgvmlo gl tg t`j ljxt staoj. Zltmd Zltmd ygu eal eghj tg a pgmlt w`jrj ygu eal at djast eglsmfjr t`j pgssmbmdmty g a uturj tgojt`jr, tgojt`jr, t`jl ygur hatj wmdd wm dd adsg `avj trgubdj hgvmlo gl tg t`j ljxt staoj. Lgw, jae` gi ygu wmdd wgrn gl ygur djttjr. djttjr. Zsmlo a sjparatj pmjej gi papjr alf wrmtmlo mt tg ygursjdi as mi ygu wjrj ygur spgusj. [djasj sjt asmfj at djast al `gur tg igeus gl t`ms assmolhjlt. Imlf a pdaej tg fg t`ms w`jrj ygu eal igeus wmt`gut fmstraetmgl. [djasj bj surj tg vmjw t`j vmfjg alf rjaf t`j mlstruetmgls gl t` j igddgwmlo paoj bjigrj eghpdjtmlo t`ms assmolhjlt.
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_rmtj a djttjr tg ygursjdi irgh ygur hatj, a djttjr ygu wgudf dgvj tg rjejmvj. A djttjr jxprjssmlo t`gsj t`guo`ts t`a t arj hgst hjalmloiud. V`j djttjr t`at wgudf hanj ygur `jart smlo wmt` cgy. ]gu hay bj ijjdmlo a ejrtaml rjsmstalej tg wrmtmlo t`ms djttjr. V`at”s lgt uleghhgl, but mt”s mhpgrtalt tg djt ygur `jart eglsmfjr t`j pgssmbmdmty, sg pdjasj omvj mt a s`gt. V`jrj hay adsg bj a part gi ygu saymlo, —V`jrj”s lgt`mlo M walt tg `jar hy hatj say t`at egudf brjan t`rguo` t`ms fjspamr,‘ but at djast eglsmfjr t`ms‖ mi t`jrj ms sghjt`mlo `j gr s`j egudf say, w`at hmo`t mt bj7 [djasj njjp ml hmlf t`ms ms al jxjremsj tg djarl hgrj abgut ygursjdi alf abgut ygur spgusj, lgt al gppgrtulmty tg s`ahj ygur hatj. Fg lgt s`arj ygur djttjr wmt` ygur hatj ultmd ygur orgup hjjtmlo datjr t`ms wjjn.
Vj gddgwmlo ms al jxahpdj rgh a bjtrayjf b jtrayjf spgusj ml a prjvmgus orgup3
Mltrgfuetmgl tg Hy Djttjr M fgl”t walt a djttjr> M walt a dmjstydj. M `avj `jarf gr rjaf a dgt g lmej wgrfs rgh Harn> lgw M rjadmzj t`at haly g t`gsj nmlf wgrfs wjrj samf at tmhjs w`jl Harn was mltjltmgladdy fjejmvmlo hj. @gwjvjr, @gwjvjr, wrmtmlo t`ms djttjr `as rjaddy frawl hj edgsjr tg Ogf bjeausj M `avj `af tg jvaduatj t`j quadmtmjs t`at M walt Harn tg vaduj ml hj. Igr sue` a dglo tmhj t`jrj was t`ms tjrrmbdj barrmjr ml gur harrmaoj bjeausj, gr t`j hgst part, Harn gldy geusjf gl hy p`ysmead appjaralej. M eahj tg vmjw hysjd as rjaddy mlafjquatj as a pjrsgl bjeausj M was mlafjquatj ml t`at glj arja. Vms ms ejrtamldy lgt t`j pjrspjetmvj Og f walts hj tg `avj. Ug t`ms djttjr rjaddy `jdpjf hj tg sjj w`at w `at Ogf walts gr hj alf gr gur harrmaoj. Glj fmſteudt part g wrmtmlo t`ms djttjr ms t`at M egudfl”t egudfl”t brmlo hysjd tg wrmtj aly prghmsjs rgh Harn. Vjl M rjadmzjf t`at w`at M ah rjafy tg `jar arj Harn”s `gpjs alf frjahs‖`ms oggf, Ogf-fmrjetjf t`guo`ts. Vj fmrjetmgl Harn”s Harn”s dmj ms `jafjf `as gpjljf up a wmlfgw tg w`g Harn rjaddy ms‖t`at pjrsgl ms ahazmlo alf wglfjrud. M ah sg jxemtjf abgut t`j pjrsgl Harn ms bjeghmlo! Ug rjejltdy, rjejltdy, M `avj bjoul tg rjejmvj t`at dmjstydj t`at M `avj waltjf. @j ms startmlo tg eghhulmeatj wmt` `ms dmj haly g t`j t`mlos M `avj wrmttjl ml t`ms djttjr. djttjr.
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M fmfl”t walt t`ms djttjr tg sgulf arrgoalt. But mt hay `avj turljf gut dmnj t`at alyway. @gwjvjr, Ogf `as rjaddy eglvmetjf hj tgfay abgut hy gwl smls alf abgut `gw rjaddy ulfjsjrvmlo g a djttjr dmnj t`ms M ah. Vms ms w`at M wgudf dmnj tg `jar, but ms ejrtamldy lgt w`at M fjsjrvj!
Hy Djttjr Fjar Calj, M a star jdd rgh t`j sny jvjry tmhj t mhj M t`guo`t g ygu, t`j sny wgudf bj jhpty. Vmlnmlo abgut ygu hanjs hj shmdj. M”h sg odaf t`at ygu arj hy wmj, alf w`jl M t`mln g ygu, M t`mln g sg haly oggf t`mlos. M t`mln g ygur ojljrgus spmrmt‖t`j haly pjgpdj gvjr t`jsj dast yjars w`gh ygu `avj omvjl omis g tmhj, jljroy, prayjr, alf jleguraojhjlt. M `avj rjejmvjf add g t`jsj rgh ygu. But hgrj t`al t`ms, w`jl ygu oavj tg gt`jrs, ygu oavj tg hj. ]gu walt gur ahmdy tg s`gw t`j dgvj g Cjsus tg gt`jrs, sg ygu `avj omvjl jvjl w`jl M was ulwmddmlo gr egudf lgt sjj past hy gwl shadd wgrdf. _`jl M t`mln g ygu, M t`mln g ojltdjljss alf amt`udljss. ]gu `avj bjjl sg ojltdj wmt` hj furmlo t`jsj t `jsj dast jw hglt`s, alf ygur dgvj `as `jdpjf ml hy `jadmlo. ]gu `avj, gijl gvjr gur yjars g harrmaoj, bjjl sg ojltdj wmt` hj w`jl M eahj `ghj wmt` lgt`mlo‖lg cgb, lg fmrjetmgl, lg jljroy, jljroy, alf lgt`mlo tg omvj baen tg ygu. Alf ygu assurjf hj t`at jvjryt`mlo wgudf bj cust filj. _`jl M t`mln g ygu, M t`mln g dauo`tjr‖g dauo`tjr‖g art husjuhs alf vmfjg oahjs, rjafmlo e`mdfrjl” e`mdfrjl”s bggns, pdaymlo Irmsbjj wmt` gur fgos, pamltmlo‖dgts alf dgts g ul. M t`mln g t`j jcuea jcuea grjst alf dgts g `mo`ways ogmlo t`j wrglo fmrjetmgl alf brgnjl-fgwl brgnjl-fgwl ears by t`j sahj rgafs alf dauo`tjr. _`jl M t`mln g ygu, M t`mln g `gljsty. `gljsty. M dgvj nlgwmlo t`at ygu tjdd hj t`j trut` tr ut` alf t`at M eal trust ygu tg walt t`j bjst gr us. ]gur `gljsty rjhmlfs hj g gur vgws‖gr bjttjr gr wgrsj, gr rme`jr gr gr pggrjr. Valn ygu gr bjmlo amt`ud tg hj. Gl gur wjffmlo fay M samf tg jvjryglj prjsjlt t`at ygu wjrj t`j alswjr tg hy prayjrs. prayjrs. M stmdd stm dd bjdmjvj t`at tgfay. _`jl M t`mln g ygu, M t`mln t`ml n g husme‖g `gw ygu dgvj dgvj tg smol tg Ogf, `gw ygu dgvj tg smlo tg hj alf wmt` hj, g t`j haly sglos wj”vj s`arjf. _jjn 0 | Ojttmlo Mt 221
_`jl M t`mln g ygu, M t`mln t`ml n g strjlot`. M afhmrj t`j strjlot` g ygur e`araetjr, e`araetjr, t`at ygu walt sg hue` tg fg w`at ms rmo`t, t`at ygu struoodj struoo dj aoamlst tjhptatmgls, alf w`jl ygu add, ygu fgl”t omvj up. M rjadmzj t`at M djal gl ygu a dgt. _`jl M t`mln g ygu M t`mln t`ml n g bjauty. bjauty. Dmnj t`gsj t `gsj mhprjssmglmst mhprjssmglmst pamltmlos t`at M jlcgy sg hue`, ygu arj a wgrn g art. _`jl M stalf up edgsj tg glj g t`gsj pamltmlos, m M dggn wmt` w mt` a haolmymlo odass alf a ermtmead jyj, M sjj dgts g pmjejs alf lg bjauty. Ughj g t`gsj pmjejs `avj a lmej egdgr, sghj `avj caoojf jfojs, sghj arj gut g pdaej, alf haly g t`j pmjejs, as cust pmjejs, arj uody. But t`jl w`jl M stalf baen alf sjj t`j t `j pamltmlo, w`jl M dggn at mt ml t`j dmo`t, M rjegolmzj t`j bjautmud w`gdj. A hastjrpmjej. M was abdj tg sjj Rmg t`ms way. way. M was abdj tg sjj t`j pmjejs. Vj pmjejs arj bgt` bjautmud alf s`genmlo, smhudtaljgusdy smhudtaljgusdy dgvjdy alf saf. M was abdj tg sjj t`at t`j Harvjdgus Emty wgudf tanj sg hue` rgh hj, but M was wmddmlo tg omvj hysjd away tg Rmg bjeausj Ogf s`gwjf hj t`j w`gdj pmeturj. M eal sjj Ogf”s prjsjlej t`jrj, t`j rjasgl @j erjatjf t`at emty, alf @ms ahazmlo pdals gr t`j emty. M rjadmzjf t`at t`jrj t `jrj was hue` hgrj t`at Ogf was fgmlo t`al M egudf mhaomlj. M was, `gwjvjr, bdmlf tg Ogf”s prjsjlej, purpgsj, alf pdals gr ygu as hy wmj. Calj, by Ogf”s oraej M eal lgw sjj t`at ygu arj @ms hastjrpmjej erjatjf jspjemaddy gr @ms purpgsjs> glj g t`gsj purpgsjs ms tg bj hy wmj. M ljjf add t`j parts g w`g ygu arj. [djasj gromvj hj gr addgwmlo hy ermtmead jyj tg add gl t`j pmjejs g ygu glj at a tmhj, fmsassjhbdmlo w`at Ogf hafj sg pjrjetdy. pjrjetdy. [djasj gromvj hj gr sg erujddy dabjdmlo sg haly g t`gsj pmjejs as uody. M fmfl”t say t`gsj wgrfs but M jdt mt, alf ygu nljw mt, alf M was wrglo. M ah t`alnud t`at Ogf `as addgwjf hj tg njjp a trjasurj sg varmjf alf sg prmejdjss. Hy prayjr gr gur uturj uturj ms t`at M wmdd omvj ygu t`j `glgr t`at M pdjfojf tg ygu, t`at M wmdd bj b j a hal g mltjormty, mltjormty, a hal g Ogf, w`gh ygu wmdd bj b j prguf tg `glgr as ygur `usbalf. ]gu arj bjautmud. M dgvj ygu, Harn
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[artmempatj ml ygur wjjndy orgup hjjtmlo. V`ms wjjn ygu wmdd s`arj t`j djttjrs ygu `avj wrmttjl rjprjsjltmlo `gw ygu lgw ulfjrstalf ygur spgusj”s ijjdmlos alf t`guo`ts igddgwmlo t`j bjtrayad.
Hgvmlo Igrwarf M rjhjhbjr yjars aog, w`jl M fmf t`ms jxjremsj wmt` Utjp`almj, mt was vjry straloj wrmtmlo rgh `jr pjrspjetmvj. But t`at ms a dgt g w`at jhpat`y ms abgut. Mt ms glj t`mlo gr sghjglj tg tjdd us t`at t `at t`jy ojt mt. Mt”s algt`jr t`mlo gr sghjglj s ghjglj tg try tg jxprjss `gw t`jy t`mln wj jjd. Vms ms t`j dast wjjn g frjfomlo. ]gu”dd bj odaf abgut t`at. Irgh lgw gl, wj”dd start wgrnmlo gl hgrj gpjl tgpmes dmnj3 _`at fgjs gromvjljss dggn dmnj7 @gw fg wj bjoml tg tanj rjspglsmbmdmty gr t`j gt`jr fjfiemts t`at wjrj ml gur harrmaoj7 Gur smtuatmgls fmfl”t `appjl ml a vaeuuh. eausj sghjglj tg bj ulamt`ud. M wj arj add `gljst, wj Lgt t`at harmtad prgbdjhs prgbdjhs eausj sghjglj hust aoaml afhmt, —Hy hatj ms lgt t`j prgbdjh> hy hatj rjvjads t`j prgbdjh ml hj.‘ Vms prgejss ms rjvjadmlo pdaejs ml add g us w`jrj wj add s`grt g t`j mhaoj g E`rmst. Lglj g us arj pjrjet.
Egledusmgl Ljxt wjjn wj hgvj tg t`j tgpme g gromvjljss. _`y _`y lgt start t`jrj7 Bjeausj ultmd ygu jstabdms` ulfjrstalfmlo, mt ms fmſteudt tg hgvj tg gromvjljss. gromvjljss. Ojttmlo tg t`j pgmlt w`jrj wj nlgw w`at mt dggns dmnj alf `gw mt jjds ms w`at t`j p ast smx wjjns `avj bjjl abgut. Lgw, w`jl wj hgvj tg t`j fmseussmgl g gromvjljss, wj nlgw w`at t`j egst `as bjjl. _j nlgw jxaetdy w`at wj arj wrmtmlo g. _j nlgw t`at t`j gt`jr pjrsgl ulfjrstalfs jxaetdy w`at t`j egst ms. M t`mln t`ml n mt rjaddy aemdmtatjs t`j w`gdj gromvjljss prgejss. prgejss. M”h lgt ogmlo tg asn aly g ygu tg hgvj tg a pgmlt g gromvjljss ljxt wjjn. _j”dd tadn abgut w`at M t`mln Cjsus tjae`js gl gromvjljss, alf `gw t`at ms fmjrjlt rgh w`at wj”vj gijl bjjl tauo`t. But gr lgw, ejdjbratj t`j aet t`at ygu”vj hafj mt t`ms ar, t`at ygu lgw `avj fjjpjr ulfjrstalfmlo g ygur hatj. Alf m ygu stmdd ljjf tg wgrn gut t`at djttjr, njjp ogmlo ultmd ygu —ojt mt.‘
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