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eifcge tc ^eea ^eea =, lhctmer reliiy bhtehse, jbstfuit weea, `ut tme nccj hews bs tmlt ycu lre ligcst cver tme mugp. mugp. Zbs bs tme ilst weea tmlt t mlt we cfus ch egpltmy. egpltmy. Ze ilst fcupie c weeas, lichn wbtm tmbs che, lre frufbli tc tme t me uture c ycur refcvery. Jeveicpbhn egpltmy bs tme chiy wly tc gcve crwlrj. Bt bs stbii bhfrejb`iy bgpcrtlht cr elfm c ycu tc fcge tc ahcw tmlt ycu uhjerstlhj che lhctmer, tmlt tmere bs l fchheftbch, lhj tmlt tme ctmer persch p ersch bs jcbhn mbs cr mer `est tc uhjer-
stlhj. Rcu heej tc ahcw tmlt ycu‒re `ctm wbiibhn tc lt ielst expicre wmlt mlppehej lhj b tmere flh `e melibhn. Zbs bs che c tme nreltest nbks ycu flh nbve ycur glte. Ze sbgpie lft tmlt ycu‒re ycu‒re l`ie tc uhjerstlhj tmeg lhj tmebr t mebr experbehfe cpehs tme jccr cr tmeg tc refchheft. Bt cpehs tme jccr tc uhjerstlhjbhn tme `reljtm lhj jeptm c tmebr jefbsbchs bh tmebr ibves lhj bh b h ycurs.
^eea = Nclis Zbs ilst pmlse c egpltmy jeveicpgeht we flii ’nettbhn bt,‗ `efluse chfe ycu‒ve nche tmrcunm tmbs weea, ycu‒ii ahcw‚wmetmer ycu‒re tme murt spcuse cr tme uhlbtmui spcuse‚tmlt ycur glte ’nets bt.‗ Me cr sme hliiy ahcws mcw lii c tmbs lffleftej ycu lhj wmlt bt fcst ycu. Zey net bt lhj tmey net wmere ycu lre lhj wmlt ycu‒re eeibhn. Zbs fmlpter bs tme smcrtest c tme ehtbre wcra`cca, `ut jch‒t iet tmlt jefebve ycu. Ze wcra ycu wbii jc tmbs weea bs frufbli lhj requbres `ctm c ycu tc jbn jeep bh ycur egpltmy tcwlrj tcwlrj che lhctmer. Jurbhn tmbs weea, ycu wbii `e ehfcurlnej tc?
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EGV Chibhe
Pelj tme kciicwbhn ietter jesfrb`bhn l spcuse‒s lttegpt tc ’net bt.‗ Bt bs lh lftuli ietter wrbtteh `y che ck cur plst EGV
Chibhe nrcup
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exmb`btbhn egpltmy krcg l `etrlyej spcuse.
Ocmh, B jch‒t jch‒t ahcw tmlt ycu fcuij ever uhjerstlhj mcw jevlstltbhn ycur `etrlyli bs tc ge, `efluse B mlve fcge tc uhjerstlhj ycu ls l persch wmc ibves l ibe wbtm icts c nrlys n rlys lhj ibttie fcgplrtgehts bh ycur gbhj. c uhjerstlhj gy lnchy ycu gust rst uhjerstlhj ge. Rcu gust rst uhjerstlhj tmlt wmeh bt fcges tc icve, fcggbtgeht, fcggbtgeht, lhj glrrblne, gy ibe bs very l`sciute. l`sciute. Hc nrlys, hc fcgplrtgehts, hc sefrets . . . bt bs `ilfa lhj wmbte. Ocmh, `ecre B glrrbej ycu, gy hlge wls Ibsl Lhh Oches, l hlge tmlt B wls very prcuj tc welr. Rcu ahcw mcw gufm B ljcre gy ltmer. c welr mbs hlge `rcunmt ge tme mchcr lhj prestbne tmlt me speht l ibetbge `ubijbhn. ^meh B glrrbej ycu, Ocmh, B nlve up tmbs hlge wbtmcut mesbtltbch. B tmcunmt B glrrbej l glh tmlt t mlt wls ls mchcrl`ie ls gy ltmer. L glh tmlt B tmcunmt wcuij ielj ge spbrbtuliiy lhj liwlys nulrj gy `est bhterest. B hever ltmcgej tmlt ycu wcuij murt ge, jbsrespeft ge, jbsmchcr ge, cr fluse ge plbh. B tmcunmt ycu wcuij icve, mchcr, lhj fmerbsm ge ls ycu vcwej tc jc. Lker we nct glrrbej, B fmlhnej gy hlge ch everytmbhn‚gy scfbli sc fbli sefurbty flrj, jrbver‒s jrbver‒s ibfehse, hursbhn ibfehse, flr bhsurlhfe. Rcu hlge tme jcfugeht, lhj rest lssurej, B fmlhnej gy hlge. Hctbfe tmlt B jbj hct fmlhne bt tc Ibsl Oches-@rcwh. Oches-@rcwh. B sbgpiy fmlhnej bt tc Ibsl @rcwh. Jc ycu ahcw wmlt tmbs gelhs3 Bt gelhs tmlt Ibsl Oches jbej tc ycu. B jbej lhj `eflge ` eflge Ibsl @rcwh, ycur prcuj `rbje. ^meh B jbej tc ycu, B put lii c gy enns bh cur `lsaet. B hc ichner mlj gy ibttie `lsaet. B slw hc heej cr bt. B put everytmbhn tmlt B mlj bhtc cur `lsaet‚gy jrelgs, gy mcpes, gy lhtlsbes, gy tctli bhtbglfy, gy rcglhfe, gy melrt, gy `cjy, gy scui, gy sexulibty, gy wcglhmccj, ycur sexuli heejs, gy egctbchli heejs, ycur egctbchli heejs, gy vuiherl`bibty, vuiherl`bibty, gy mcpes mcpes cr cfflsprbhn cfflsprbhn hct yet `crh, gy gy reibnbch, gy gy spbrbt, gy jeibty, gy trust, gy elrs, gy scrrcws, gy icve, gy fcggbtgeht, gy hlhfes, gy flreer, gy lgbiy, gy melrt`relas, gy melrtlfmes, gy plst, lhj gy uture. B jch‒t ahcw mcw tc oust put plrt c ge bhtc l fcggbtgeht, Ocmh. Ocmh. B put everytmbhn bh melveh lhj elrtm bh cur `lsaet
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cr us tc frelte cur ibe. B ahcw tmlt lii c gy enns were hct pereft, lhj hebtmer were ycurs, `ut `ut B sc trustej tmlt tcnetmer we fcuij glae bt lii `etter. Ocmh, lii B ever wlhtej wls tc icve ycu lhj `e icvej `y ycu. Zlt‒s lii B wlhtej. B jbjh‒t jbjh‒t tmbha tmlt wls tcc tc c gufm cr l nbri tc wlht. B tmcunmt B wls lt ielst wcrtm tmlt gufm. B hever put lhy jeglhjs ch ycu cr lhytmbhn eise. B tmcunmt ycu jbj tme slge, `ut tmlt bs c`vbcusiy hct true. Rcu were hct fcggbttej tc ge. B ahcw ycu wbii sly, ’Res B wls . . .‗ Ocmh, tmlt‒s `uii****, lhj ycu ahcw bt. Lt ielst ycu fcuij `e mchest lhj `e l reli glh lhj ljgbt tmlt ycu were hct fcggbttej lhj tmlt ycu jbj hct icve ge. ^mlt ycu jbj wls glae fchtrb`utbchs tc tme reiltbchsmbp. Ocmh, jch‒t fchuse fchtrb`utbchs wbtm fcggbtgeht. Fcggbtgeht lhj icve jc hct `etrly, ibe, lhj aeep fcgplrtgehts. Lhj tmlt bs exlftiy wmlt ycu jbj. Gly`e ycu jbj hct ahcw mcw tc icve, `ut every`cjy ahcws mchesty lhj fcggbtgeht, lhj ycu were hebtmer. B put everytmbhn B mlj bh cur `lsaet `lsaet wmeh B wls l ycuhn wcglh. B mlj sc gufm ibe bh rcht c ge‚ycutm, `eluty, `eluty, lhj l melrt uii c icve‚gy cptbchs were uhibgbtej. B sc jesbrej tc icve uhfchjbtbchliiy lhj nbve uhfchjbtbchli icve bh returh. Ocmh, B fcuij mlve nbveh gy icve tc scgeche eise wmc wcuij mlve lpprefbltej ge. Hcw gy melrt lhj scui lre uii c plbh lhj jbstrust. B jch‒t ahcw b B wbii ever `e l`ie tc uiiy icve lhj nbve gysei tc ycu cr lhyche eise lnlbh. Zbs bs sufm l icss cr ge, Ocmh. B ahcw wmlt icve bs lhj B wls `crh tc nbve icve. B mlve nbveh lhj icst sc gufm, sbgpiy `efluse B icvej ycu. Ocmh, B lg sc murt rcg ycur `etrlyli. Ocmh, ycu tcca cur `lsaet, tme chiy `lsaet tmlt B mlj, lhj ycu trlgpiej cver gy ibe. Rcu smltterej everytmbhn B mlj bhtc tbhy ibttie uhrefcnhbzl`ie pbefes. Ocmh, tmlt `lsaet wls gy ibe. Jc ycu uhjerstlhj tmlt3 Zlt wls gy ehtbre ibke! ibke! Zere bs hctmbhn tmlt B cwh tmlt wls hct bh tmlt `lsaet. Zere bs hctmbhn l`cut ge tmlt wls hct bh tmlt `lsaet. Ocmh, tmlt `lsaet wls tme chiy weii rcg wmbfm B jrlha. Zlt `lsaet wls gy sustehlhfe, gy exbstehfe, gy bhtenrbty, gy wcglhmccj, gy sehse c purpcse, purpcs e, gy sefurbty. sefurbty. Everytmbhn. Jc ycu net tmlt3 Everytmbhn uhjer tme suh. B jch‒t eveh mlve l jrelg, l lhtlsy, cr eveh l plbr c plhtbes tmlt were hct bh tmlt `lsaet. Gy wmcie bjehtbty, bhfiujbhn gy hlge, wls bh tmlt `lsaet. Bt wls ycur `lsaet tcc, `ut ycu mlj ycur ctmer ibttie pervertej `lsaet. Rcur sefret ibe,
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EGV Chibhe
ycur refreltbch, tme ibttie fcgplrtgehts bh ycur sbiiy-lss gbhj‚sc ycu stbii mlve scgetmbhn tmlt bs hct frusmej tc meii. Rcu were sc uhlbr. Rcu jbjh‒t jbjh‒t put lii ycur enns bh cur `lsaet, sc ycu wbii prc`l`iy hever uhjerstlhj gy murt. Ocmh, wmere jc B stlrt tc re`ubij3 B mlve hctmbhn tc `ubij ch. Pegeg`er, ycu jestrcyej Ibsl @rcwh wmeh ycu jestrcyej cur `lsaet, lhj B put Ibsl Oches tc jeltm wmeh B nlve n lve gysei tc ycu. ycu. -Ibsl ^mlt‒s lglzbhn l`cut tmbs ietter bs tmlt bt wls wrbtteh `y Ocmh, hct Ibsl! Bt wls wrbtteh `y lh uhlbtmui spcuse, hct `y l `etrlyej spcuse. Ocmh wrcte bt ls b me were Ibsl wrbtbhn tc mbg. Jc ycu tmbha me uhjerstccj mcw mbs lftbchs mlj bgplftej mbs wbe3 Ze uhjerstlhjbhn tmlt Ocmh jbspilyej cr mbs wbe tmrcunm mbs ietter `enlh tc iet mer ahcw tmlt me nct bt . ^btmcut tmlt uhjerstlhjbhn, gcst c tmcse wmc lre `etrlyej mlve jbstfuity ’iettbhn bt nc‗. Zere bs l hlturli tehjehfy tc aeep trybhn tc net che‒s glte tc net bt . B ycu‒re mlvbhn jbstfuity wrbtbhn ycur ietter, jch‒t `e jbsfcurlnej. Ielrhbhn tc icve lhj tc flre lhj tc `e egpltmetbf tlaes tbge. B ehfcurlne ycu tc jc ycur `est. @ut fchsbstehfy cver tbge liicws ycu tc ielrh tc eei lhj tc flre l`cut lhctmer persch. Oust `e pltbeht lhj aeep trybhn tr ybhn tc fchheft tc ycur spcuse‒ spcuse‒s experbehfe. Ze wcrjs wbii fcge. Zbs bs tme hli weea cr egpltmy jeveicpgeht jeveicpgeht lhj bt bs tme gcst frufbli. Zbs weea, cur ncli bs tc fcgguhbflte ycur nrcwbhn uhjerstlhjbhn uhjerstlhjbhn c tme bgplft c tme bhjeibty. Uhtbi ycur glte `eibeves tmlt ycu uhjerstlhj lhj flre l`cut tme bgplft c ycur lftbchs, ycur glte wbii mlve trcu`ie gcvbhn ch tc tme hext stlne. Hcw, elfm ck ycu wbii wcra ch ycur ietter. Usbhn l seplrlte pbefe ck pl per lhj wrbtbhn bt tc ycurseik ls bk ycu were ycur spcuse. Tielse set lsbje lt ielst lh mcur tc kcfus ch tmbs lssbnhgeht. Kbhj l pilfe tc jc tmbs wmere ycu flh kcfus wbtmcut jbstrlftbch. Tielse `e sure tc vbew tme vbjec lhj relj tme bhstruftbchs `eicw `ekcre fcgpietbhn tmbs lssbnhgeht.
=.< Usbhn l seplrlte pbefe ck plper, wrbte l ietter tc ycurseik krcg ycur glte,
expressbhn tme stlte ck mbs cr mer melrt lhj egctbchli fchjbtbch ls l resuit ck tme `etrlyli. Jc hct sm lre ycur ietter wbtm ycur glte uhtbi ycur nrcup geetbhn ilter tmbs weea.
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Tlrtbfbplte bh ycur weeaiy nrcup geetbhn. Zmbs weea ycu wbii smlre tme ietters ycu mlve wrbtteh represehtbhn mcw ycu hcw uhj erstlhj ycur spcuse‒s keeibhns lhj tmcunmts kciicwbhn tme `etrlyli.
Gcvbhn Kcrwlrj B regeg`er yelrs lnc, wmeh B jbj tmbs exerfbse wbtm Vtepmlhbe, bt wls very strlhne wrbtbhn rcg mer perspeftbve. @ut tmlt bs l ict c wmlt egpltmy bs l`cut. Bt bs che tmbhn cr scgeche tc teii us tmlt t mlt tmey net bt. Bt‒s lhctmer tmbhn cr scgeche s cgeche tc try tc express mcw tmey tmbha we eei. Zbs bs tme ilst weea c jrejnbhn. Rcu‒ii `e nilj l`cut tmlt. Krcg hcw ch, we‒ii stlrt wcrabhn ch gcre uh tcpbfs ibae? ^mlt jces crnbvehess icca ibae3 Mcw jc we `enbh tc tlae respchsb`bibty cr tme ctmer jefbts tmlt were bh cur glrrblne3 Cur sbtultbchs jbjh‒t jbjh‒t mlppeh bh l vlfuug. fluse scgeche tc `e uhlbtmui. B we lre lii mchest, we Hct tmlt glrbtli prc`iegs fluse scgeche gust lnlbh ljgbt, ’Gy glte bs hct tme prc`ieg1 gy glte revelis tme prc`ieg bh ge.‗ Zbs prcfess bs revelibhn pilfes bh lii c us wmere we lii smcrt c tme bglne c Fmrbst. Hche c us bs pereft.
Fchfiusbch Hext weea we gcve tc tme tcpbf c crnbvehess. ^my ^my hct stlrt tmere3 @efluse uhtbi ycu estl`ibsm uhjerstlhjbhn, bt bs jbstfuit tc gcve tc crnbvehess. crnbvehess. Nettbhn tc tme pcbht wmere we ahcw wmlt bt iccas ibae lhj mcw bt eeis bs wmlt tme plst sbx weeas mlve `eeh l`cut. Hcw, wmeh we gcve tc tme jbsfussbch c crnbvehess, we ahcw wmlt tme fcst mls `eeh. ^e ahcw exlftiy wmlt we lre wrbtbhn cffl. ^e ahcw tmlt tme ctmer persch uhjerstlhjs exlftiy wmlt tme fcst bs. B tmbha tmbh a bt reliiy lfbibtltes tme wmcie crnbvehess prcfess. prcfess. B‒g hct ncbhn tc lsa lhy c ycu tc gcve tc l pcbht c crnbvehess hext weea. ^e‒ii tlia l`cut wmlt B tmbha Oesus telfmes ch crnbvehess, lhj mcw tmlt bs jbfflereht rcg wmlt we‒ve ckeh `eeh tlunmt. @ut cr hcw, feie`rlte tme lft tmlt ycu‒ve glje bt tmbs lr, tmlt ycu hcw mlve jeeper uhjerstlhjbhn c ycur glte. Lhj b ycu stb ii heej tc wcra cut tmlt ietter, aeep ncbhn uhtbi ycu ’net bt.‗
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EGV Chibhe
^eea = | Nettbhn Bt 0<2
