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Cn hkehrhesd fkehkd jdmucmpdwækcd

CN HKEHRHESD FKEHKD JDKUCM_DWÆKCD Zdgwc cn fkehkd. pwcashjhdz x cn wfjhzmd

Fncafkewd Dwuhq Wczjfkhcwc

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Nf pcwzdkf fkehkf jdkucmpdwækcf. zs fsudhmf`ck. zsz wfz`dz mæz zfnufkucz wcbncafk skdz rfndwcz x dwhckufjhdkcz bskefmckufncz ec nf jsnuswf ec dwh`ck. nf vscjlsf-fxmfwf+ Cn hkehrhesd kd zscnc heckuhbhjfwzc jdk skf jfuc`dwíf `ckcwfn jdmd nf ec „hkehd”. „vscjlsf” zhkd jdk wcbcwckucz jdkjwcudz 1zs pfwcaf. bfmhnhf x pscgnd kfufn+ Nf pnckf lsmfkhefe. nf pcwzdkf jfgfn. cz fvscnnf vsc uhckc pfwcaf. cz pfewc d mfewc x czuæ ecbhkhed ck sk jdkuc|ud zdjhfn pwcjhzd+ Nfz pfnfgwfz ldmgwc. msacw . kd uhckck skf uwfesjjhúk c|fjuf fn vscjlsf-fxmfwf+ Nf fpwcjhfjhúk ec zs jscwpd. ec zs uhcmpd. c|fjufmckuc nf mhzmf vsc ck Cswdpf+ Ck czuf pdkckjhf zc pnfkucfwæ ufmghèk nf jsczuhúk ec nf hkbnsckjhf ec nfz jsnuswfz c|ucwhdwcz ck nf jdkbh`swfjhúk ec nfz pcwzdkf vscjlsf-fxmfwf+ _dw ñnuhmd lfwcmdz skf wcbnc|húk `ckèwhjf zdgwc cn ehzjswzd ec nfz wfqfz ck cn _cwñ+ 6

6+ Cn fkehkd 7

´Júmd cz cn hkehrhesd fkehkd4. ´júmd zc hkzcwuf ck cn msked x nd ecbhkc4. ´júmd zc pcwjhgc f zí mhzmd x pwcasq`f fn duwd4 + Nfz wczpsczufz vsc zh`sck zdk cn wczsnufed ec skf c|pcwhckjhf pcwzdkfn. ec sk uwfgfad ec jfmpd ehbszd x fzhzucmæuhjd+ Wcjd`c udef skf rhef ec fkuwdpúnd`d9 6

Czudz uwfgfadz bdwmfk pfwuc ec skf hkrczuh`fjhúk „Zdgwc nf pcwzdkf x nf pfwcaf fkehkfz” vsc jsckuf jdk nf fpwdgfjhúk x cn fpdxd ecn Ecpfwufmckud Zdjhfncz ec nf _SJ_+

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Czuf pwhmcwf pfwuc. „Cn fkehkd”. bsc pwczckufef jdmd pdkckjhf ck cn zcmhkfwhd „Zhk`snfwhefe x pnswfnhefe ck nf heckuhefe pcwzdkfn”. ck Uwsahnnd. Czpföf. ck 6882+ Ufmghèk wcudmf x jdwwh`c cn fwuíjsnd „Ck udwkd fn hkehrhesd fkehkd1 hmæ`ckcz c heckuhbhjfjhdkcz”. ck Fkulwdpdnd`hjf. k¿ 65. _SJ_. Nhmf. 6882+ Zh wcpwdesjhmdz czuf zcjjhúk xf psgnhjfef cz pdwvsc bdwmf pfwuc zdnhefwhf jdk ndz ecmæz ucmfz. x zhwrc ec hkuwdesjjhúk f ndz mhzmdz+

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cz skf mhwfef pwdbczhdkfn vsc zc ksuwc ec wcjscwedz ec nf hkbfkjhf pfzfef ckuwc edmèzuhjdz. jdmpföcwdz ec jnfzc x ec gfwwhd. fmh`dz ec nf asrckuse. `ckuc ec nf jfnnc x ecn jfmpd+ Zc gfzf ck czfz rhrckjhfz x dgzcwrfjhdkcz jdmd ufmghèk ec nfz psgnhjfjhdkcz fkehkhzufz. ec jdkrcwzfjhdkcz jdk jdnc`fz x ec nf ncjuswf ec ndz jfkudz. zcwmdkcz. jsckudz ec nf nhucwfuswf vscjlsf x fxmfwæ+ Kfef ec cnnd `fwfkuhqf dgacuhrhefe9 pdw nd jdkuwfwhd+ Czuf cz skf rcwzhúk pcwzdkfn zdgwc ndz hkehrhesdz fkehkdz+ Ck jdmpckzfjhúk. pwdjswd ck cnnf crhufw ndz ns`fwcz jdmskcz vsc wcphuck ndz pcwsfkdz mæz lhzpfkdz x fsk ndz fkuwdpúnd`dz fkehkhzufz+

Cn uèwmhkd hkehd cz ldx eíf pdjd cmpncfed ck cn _cwñ+ Ndz jfmpczhkdz. wcnfjhdkfedz ec ehzuhkuf mfkcwf jdk skf nck`sf fmcwhkehf. ndz swgfkdz jdk ríkjsndz pcwzdkfncz ec ehrcwzd `wfed x jfnhefe jdk skf jsnuswf wswfn. kd zscnck

jfnhbhjfwzc fzí mhzmdz ec hkehdz + Ck pwhkjhphd. kd fzsmck khk`skd ec ndz zckuhedz kc`fuhrdz vsc cn uèwmhkd ckuwföf. kh ufmpdjd ndz pdzhuhrdz+ Ck jhcwudz jfzdz. pscec vsc ncz jdkrck`f heckuhbhjfwzc d fbhwmfwzc jdmd hkehdz+ Ck duwdz. psceck cmpncfwnd pfwf eckh`wfw f sk duwd+ F rcjcz nd fjcpufk zh ck sk ehzjswzd ecucwmhkfed ckuwföf fsuckuhjhefe pcwsfkf. mfxdw d mæz pwdbskef pcwsfkhefe. d skf rckufaf jhwjskzufkjhfn+ Jdk mæz bwcjsckjhf pwcbhcwck fbhwmfwzc pcwsfkdz. „lsmhnecz pcwsfkdz”. „ndz fsuèkuhjdz”. „ndz kcudz”. pcwd ufmghèk ncz `szuf ecjhw vsc fldwf zdk „mczuhqdz”. vsc xf kd zdk jdmd ndz hkjfz. vsc czuæk mcqjnfedz jdk czpfödncz. d vsc zdk zhmpncmckuc „`ckuc vsc vshcwc pwd`wczfw”+

Ck zs nck`sf. nnfmfk „ldmgwc”. „msacw” f skd ec nf mhzmf jdmfwjf. ec nf mhzmf jnfzc zdjhdjsnuswfn „ldmgwc” x zh uhckc pfwcaf c lhadz+ Ndz ecmæz zdk ldmgwcz. pcwd pdw c|uckzhúk c hkbnsckjhf ecn jfzucnnfkd x ec zs jsnuswf+ Zh ck vscjlsf zc pwc`skuf f fn`shck vshck cz. zc`swfmckuc wczpdkecwæ „Zdx Fkeflsfxnfz”. cz ecjhw. skd zc ecbhkc fkuc sk c|uwföd heckuhbhjækedzc jdk zs pscgnd+ Zh skd cz ecn ns`fw. fkuc nf mhzmf pwc`skuf efwæ zs kdmgwc. zc`shed ec skf wcbcwckjhf fn ns`fw vsc djspf ck skf wce ec pfwckuczjd ,„Zdx bsnfkd lhad ec qsufkd. zdgwhkd ec ufn”(+ Zúnd ck jhcwudz jdkuc|udz ehwæ vsc cz pcwsfkd. zcwwfkd c hkjnszd. hkjnszd. zh czusehf fkuwdpdnd`íf fkuwdpdnd`íf d cz ehpsufed. pscec pscec vsc nc pnfqjf d jdkrck`f fbhwmfw vsc cz ec „nf kfjhúk vscjlsf”9 d zh czuf bwckuc f sk vscjlsf.

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pfwf ehbcwckjhfwzc. zc ecjnfwc d zhckuf „fxmfwæ”+ _cwd nd fjusfkuc. nd jduhehfkd ck nf heckuhbhjfjhúk cz nf bfmhnhf x cn pscgnd ec skd. x kd nfz cuhvscufz `ckcwfncz+ Hkjnszd ndz uèwmhkdz jdmd vscjlsf. fxmfwæ. f`sfwskf . x fldwf. cn fkehkd . zdk zdgwc uded ec szd. x ck pfwuc. jwcfjhúk ec ndz kfjhdkfncz. ec ndz fjfeèmhjdz x pdníuhjdz. kd ec ndz hkehdz +

Ckuwc czfz jfnhbhjfjhdkcz. ck vsc pdjfz rcjcz fpfwcjc cn uèwmhkd hkehd. x cn zckuhmhckud ec zcw ufn. cz ecjhw. kd gnfkjd. kd lhzpfkd. kd mczuhqd. nf wcnfjhúk cz. vsè esef jfgc. jdmpncaf. pcwd kd ecn uded czjhkehef+ Cz pdzhgnc vsc ck cn bscwd hkucwkd cn zckuhmhckud ec zcw hkehd zc pfwcqjf fn cmpncd ecn uèwmhkd+ Wfwf rcq skd zc zhckuc hkehd. ufkud jdmd cz c|uwfdwehkfwhd vsc „zc czjfpc cn hkehd” vsc uded pcwsfkd nncrf eckuwd ,askud f duwfz hmæ`ckcz ec ehzuhkud szd x rfndw1 zcw mczuhqd. gnfkjd. lsfkjfrcnhjfkd. nhmcöd. mfwhed ec ufn msacw. mfewc ec fvscn lhad+++. vsc zc zspcwpdkck. eczpnfqfk x jdkrhrck ck skf mhzmf pcwzdkf(+

Sk „hkehd” lfgnf vscjlsf ck nf hkuhmhefe ecn ld`fw. jdk zs msacw. jdk ndz pcvscödz. ck cn jfmpd+ _cwd ck nf jfnnc. ck jhsefe. zc „uwfkzbdwmf” ck lhzpfkd lfgnfkuc+ _fwf sk „hkehd” lfx czpfjhdz hehdmæuhjdz mæz vsc heckuhbhjfjhdkcz pcwzdkfncz hehdmæuhjfz+ Esed vsc c|hzuf nf hecf „mh nck`sf cz mh pfuwhf” ,f kd zcw vsc zcf ck cn czpíwhus ec fn`skdz hkucncjusfncz x pdníuhjdz hkehfkhzufz(+

Nf ehbhjsnufe ck fzsmhw sk uèwmhkd `ndgfn vsc wdusnc nf wcfnhefe „hkehf” uhckc vsc rcw. vshqæ. jdk nf pwcehncjjhúk ec nf jsnuswf fmcwhkehf pdw nd czpcjíbhjd x nd jdkjwcud+ Nh`fed f czf hkjnhkfjhúk. czuæ cn lcjld vsc ndz ríkjsndz zdjhfncz zc ucack ck uèwmhkdz pcwzdkfncz+ Cn hkehd wclsxc x eczjdkbíf ec nfz wcnfjhdkcz hmpcwzdkfncz+

Jdmd kd lfx sk uèwmhkd `ckcwfn. fjcpufed pdw udedz x ec skf mfkcwf mæz d mckdz skírdjf. cmpncfwcmdz cn kdmgwc szfed pdw ndz fkuwdpúnd`dz ck nf fjusfnhefe.

fkehkd. fkehkd wswfn x swgfkd + Cn uèwmhkd cz fn`d rf`d pcwd kd

czuæ jfw`fed ec nf rhcaf lhzudwhf x ec ndz mfuhjcz jdmpncadz ec nf pfnfgwf hkehd+ Jdk fkehkd kdz wcbcwhmdz f ndz `wspdz c hkehrhesdz ec dwh`ck jfmpczhkd x vsc jdkzcwrfk skf jhcwuf jsnuswf wswfn+ _dewífmdz wcjswwhw ufmghèk f nf ucwmhkdnd`íf ec ndz czpcjhfnhzufz ndjfncz ck ckjsczufz x mcwjfed1 ndz ecn zc`mckud E zdk

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ndz mæz pdgwcz. lfghufk ck nfz jdndkhfz swgfkd mfw`hkfncz d ck nfz wc`hdkcz wswfncz mæz uwfehjhdkfncz. uhckck mdeczudz læghudz ec jdkzsmd „mdecwkd”+ Ndz J zdk ndz E fzjckehedz+ Ndz G zdk ndz J fzjckehedz d ndz F fzjckehedz+ Ndz F zdk ndz mæz whjdz x mdecwkdz. lhzpfkhqfedz x kdwucfmcwhjfkhqfedz+ Ndz fkehkdz zcwífk E x jdkzuhushwífk sk pdwjckufac hmpdwufkuc. zhkd nf mfxdwíf ec ndz J+ _cwd jsfkud mfz zc zsgc ck nfz ncuwfz. mæz zc phcwec cn jfwæjucw èukhjd+ Zhk cmgfw`d. sk kscrd F d G pscec jdkzcwrfw fn`skdz wfz`dz èukhjdz. pdw cacmpnd. pfwuhjhpfw ck nfz fjuhrhefecz wcnh`hdzfz ec zs pscgnd fkjczuwfn+ Cn F x G zdk skdz zc`mckudz ksmèwhjfmckuc mdeczudz pcwd ec `wfk pwczuh`hd pfwf cn wczud ec nfz ncuwfz+

Zh cn fkehkd uhckec f kd fzsmhw skf heckuhefe `ckèwhjf. ´jdk vsè `wspdz x júmd zc heckuhbhjf4 ´Jsæn cz zs fsudhmf`ck4+ Mc pfwcjc vsc zdk edz nfz

hkzufkjhfz bskefmckufncz pfwf cn hkehrhesd fkehkd1 zs pscgnd ec dwh`ck x zs bfmhnhf+ Fmgfz czbcwfz czuæk czuwcjlfmckuc rhkjsnfefz+ Zdk nf wcbcwckjhf zckuhmckufn. zdjhfn. mdwfn. wcnh`hdzf. hkjnszhrc cjdkúmhjf. jckuwfn ck nf rhef ecn hkehrhesd ec wfh`fmgwc vscjlsf-fxmfwf. xsk`f+ Bscwf ecn pscgnd x ec nf pfwckucnf. f mcehef vsc skd zc fncaf ec fmgdz. uded uhckec f ecrckhw bfzjhkfkuc. fuwfjuhrd. pcwd f rcjcz ufmghèk. hkjhcwud. pcnh`wdzd. hnc`íuhmd. d zhk mfxdw hkucwèz+ Sk jfmpczhkd. sk swgfkd ec pwdzfphf jfmpczhkf. ecn zc`mckud J d E. zc zhckuc x dwhckuf zs rhef ck bskjhúk ec zs bfmhnhf ksjncfw. nsc`d ec zs pfwckucnf. nsc`d ec zs pscgnd+ Cn gfwwhd swgfkd edkec rhrc. nc hkucwczf ck nf mcehef vsc ckjsckuwf bfmhnhfwcz. fmh`dz vsc ecrhckck ck pfwhckucz x fnhfedz pfwf cn uwfgfad. pfwf nfz ehrcwzhdkcz x nfz frckuswfz fmdwdzfz+ Cn gfwwhd ec nf jhsefe cz hmpdwufkuc ck nf mcehef vsc zspnc cn pscgnd fkjczuwfn+ Mæz fnnæ ec nf bfmhnhf x ecn pscgnd. ecn gfwwhd zszuhusud. uded cz pdzhgnc x uded rfnc+ X fn mhzmd uhcmpd nc ckjfkufk nfz jdzfz ec nf F. zdgwc uded. zsz jdkdjhmhckudz x zsz ghckcz mfucwhfncz+

Zc ehwíf vsc jfef hkehrhesd zc heckuhbhjf jdk skfz hznfz ec ehzuhkudz jdkudwkdz+ Ck jfef hznf czuæ. wczhec pdw sk pcwhded. pdw sk hkzufkuc x uhckec f lfjcwnd jdmd zh czc pwczckuc bsczc cn ñkhjd x cn ecbhkhuhrd+ Fzí. zc`ñk nfz jhwjskzufkjhfz. jfmghf ec ncfnufe1 pdw cacmpnd. sk fednczjckuc. ck skf ec czfz ckdwmcz zfnfz ec gfhnc jdk mñzhjf cncjuwúkhjf vsc fgskefk ck ndz gfwwhdz

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mfw`hkfncz ec Nhmf. pscec zckuhwzc x fjusfw jdmd sk zdnhufwhd jdkvshzufedw1 èn. zdnd bwckuc fn msked+ _cwd f nf zfnhef ecn gfhnc zc ckjsckuwf jdk zs pfkehnnf ec gfwwhd. ckudkjcz èn cz czc `wspd+ Nnc`f f jfzf9 x zs mfewc. cn uíd. ndz lcwmfkdz zdk fldwf x zhcmpwc nd mæz hmpdwufkuc vsc uhckc+ Jsfked nd`wf uckcw kdrhf. kd cz sk hkehrhesd. cz skf pfwcaf9 ckudkjcz cmpcqfwæ cn pwdjczd cmdjhdkfn ec fncafmhckud ec zs bfmhnhf dwh`hkfn+ dwh`hkfn+ Wczhec ck Nhmf x cz cz nhmcöd+ Cmh`wf Cmh`wf f ndz Czufed Skhedz. f rcjcz zc fbhwmf pcwsfkd x duwfz. jdmd sk `whk`d vsc fpckfz lfgnf jfzucnnfkd+ Nf ncafkf c hmpwcjhzf hznf ec ndz pfwhckucz ec ufn uíd pscec fevshwhw sk jdkudwkd pwcjhzd. ecrckhw ck uhcwwf bhwmc x zc`swf. zc`ñk zsz jdkrckhckjhfz x `szudz ecn mdmckud+

Ndz jfmghdz mæz hmpdwufkucz ec czpfjhd cmdjhdkfn. ec bfmhnhf x ec pscgnd zscnck rhrhwzc jdk hkuckzhefe+ Nf nhucwfuswf vscjlsf fzí nd hnszuwf1 cn msjlfjld vsc zc mfwjlf ecn pscgnd. cz eczpcehed jdk skfz jfkjhdkcz x efkqfz. ndz jfjlfwpfwhz. vsc jdmghkfked nf fn`fwfgíf x nf uwhzucqf. nd`wfk sk cbcjud msx cmduhrd+ Ndz aúrckcz fmfkucz rhrck zs fmdw jdmd skf uwfhjhúk vsc mfuf f zsz pfewcz9 fzí. cn ckfmdwfed jfkuf vsc czuf zdnd ck cn msked pscz zs fmh`f zc lf mfwjlfed x zsz pfewcz lfk mscwud+ Cn czjdkehuc edkec uhckck ns`fw zsz ckjsckuwdz fmdwdzdz x bswuhrdz. cz ck nf ckecjlf 'cn pscgnd ec phcewf”. x cnnf cz sk rckfehud vsc èn. rhjsöf ec nfz fnufz pskfz. psed fwwcgfufwnf ecn wcehn ec zsz pfewcz9 zh fldwf cnnf kd rhckc. zh nd fgfkedkf. ckudkjcz zc vscefwæ zdnd ck cn pscgnd ec phcewf. ncadz ecn pscgnd ec ndz ldmgwcz x ecn esnjc wcehn bfmhnhfw+ X kd lfx jdzf mæz uwhzuc vsc kd uckcw bfmhnhf x czufw ncadz ecn pscgnd+ Ckudkjcz skd cz sk

lsfjjlf . sk lsèwbfkd. sk pdgwc. „sk jldnd ec Ehdz zfgc edkec”+

_fwf sk adrck ck gszjf ec fmh`f zcw „sk zhk pfewc kh mfewc” pscec jdkzuhushw skf rckufaf fmdwdzf. sk fuwfjuhrd jdkmdrcedw+ Kd cz fzí pfwf cn fesnud9 cn vsc ckrhsef pwcmfuswfmckuc zc zhckuc rsnkcwfgnc. cn vsc ec wcpckuc zc ckjsckuwf zdnd ck skf jhsefe eczjdkdjhef x zhk pfwhckucz. uhckc ehbhjsnufe pfwf ckjdkuwfw uwfgfad ,pscz ck nfz jhsefecz fkehkfz. cn uwfgfad czuæ íkuhmfmckuc nh`fed f nf pfwckucnf x f ndz lhadz ecn pscgnd kfufn(+ Ufmghèk nf nhucwfuswf vscjlsf hnszuwf nf dwbfkefe fesnuf+ Cz cn jfzd ec Hvmfjlf. sk ecz`fwwfed nfmckud ec skf rhsef. „vsc lf pcwehed zs pfndmf” x vsc fldwf „zdnf. udwkf. rscnf cwwfkuc pdw ndz pæwfmdz zfnrfacz”+

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Cn fmdw pwhmcwd. nf pfzhúk ckuwföf wspuswfz vsc zc c|pwczfk ck nfz mcuæbdwfz ec nfz ckecjlfz1 skf mscwuc ec ndz pfewcz. sk fgfkedkd ecn pscgnd ec ndz ldmgwcz+ Eczpsèz ec czdz ewfmfz asrckhncz. rhckc nf kscrf bfmhnhf. ndz pfwhckucz pdw cn mfuwhmdkhd wcecbhkhedz+ Cn pscgnd mhzmd fevshcwc ckudkjcz sk wdzuwd vsc cz mñnuhpnc1 zdk edz d mæz. cn pscgnd kfufn ec skd. cn ec zs júkxs`c. cn ecn gfwwhd d pscgnd edkec ncrfkufk cn ld`fw+ X lfx fnhfkqfz vsc fbhfkqfw x dgnh`fjhdkcz vsc fzsmhw pfwf jdk czc pscgnd+ Nf bfmhnhf x cn pscgnd fzí `fkfedz. zcwæk nfz zúnhefz hznfz ecn fesnud+

Vshck f nd`wfed skf kscrf bfmhnhf. wcecbhkhw zs pfwckucnf. vsc lf zcwrhed x lcjld zsxd cn pscgnd. czuæ pdjd ehzpsczud f ecafw. f eczecöfw ufncz pnfqfz jdk ufkud flíkjd jdkvshzufefz d uwfkzbdwmfefz+ Zhk cmgfw`d. zfnewæ f mcksed ec cnnfz pfwf jswhdzcfw. pfwf skf frckuswf. pfwf `fkfw ehkcwd. pwczuh`hd. uczdwdz vsc ckwhvscjcwæk zsz hznfz mæz vscwhefz+ Ckuwc èzufz x nfz pnfxfz mæz ncafkfz. lfx jdkufjudz. fnhfkqfz pfzfacwfz d zdwpwckeckucz+

Kd uded jfmghd ec pdzhjhúk cz pcwjhghed x zckuhed ec mfkcwf ewfmæuhjf+ Ndz eczpnfqfmhckudz. ndz uwscvscz ec wdncz x zsz hkzuhusjhdkcz jdwwhckucz zscnck mfkcafwzc jdk zdnuswf x eczckbfed+

F rcjcz czfz msefkqfz zspdkck sk jhcwud czpíwhus nñehjd1 kfef mæz `wfjhdzd x gnfkjd ec gswnfz vsc cn vscjlsf vsc wc`wczf fn pscgnd nsc`d ec pfzfw skdz födz ck Nhmf d ck ndz Czufedz Skhedz9 ndz pfhzfkdz zc gswnfk ec zsz kdrízhmfz mfkcwfz. sk ufkud bdwqfefz. ec jfmhkfw x ec lfgnfw jdmd nhmcöd d jdmd `whk`d+ Cn mdqd vsc uhckc fjuhusecz fnufkcwfz. „uwfhedwfz” lfjhf ndz zsxdz pdwvsc pfwcjc vsc czuæ ckfmdwfed. pscec zcw gnfkjd ec adjdzfz wcbnc|hdkcz+ X ndz zsacudz ec gswnf psceck zdgwcpdkcwzc x wczpdkecw jdk fjuhusecz x bwfzcz `wfjhdzfz+

Skd zc ecbhkc ck pwhmcwf hkzufkjhf pdw zs bfmhnhf x zs pscgnd+ _cwd. czjsjlf lhzudwhfz. rf f nf czjscnf. f nf bcwhf. fn caèwjhud. rc ucncrhzhúk x zc zhckuc mæz pcwsfkd vsc jsfnvshcwf+ Cmh`wf f nf jhsefe. uwfgfaf ck cnnf. zs gfwwhd. zs jnsg pwdrhkjhfkd. wccmpnfqfk d zdk skf pwdndk`fjhúk ec zs pscgnd9 ckudkjcz zc lfjc ec nf jhsefe. nf uwfkzbdwmf. zc zhckuc x cz nhmcöd+ X zh lfjc nd mhzmd

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ck ndz Czufedz Skhedz. czufwæ dw`snndzd ec zcw lhad fedpuhrd ec czf kfjhúk+ Fzí. sk mhzmd fesnud zc zckuhwæ x fbhwmfwæ. zc`ñk nf djfzhúk. jdmd sk „kcud”. sk „hkehd eczjckehckuc ec ndz hkjfz”. sk lhad ec Jlhphspfuf. d „mczuhqd”. ec ufn pwdrhkjhf. nhmcöd. pcwsfkd. kdwucfmcwhjfkd+ X udedz czdz wúusndz ndz fzsmhwæ jdk zhkjcwhefe x jfwhöd9 pcwd jnfwd. cn pscgnd kfufn jdmd nf bfmhnhf ksjncfw zdk ndz pwhmcwdz x mæz ckuwföfgncz czpfjhdz heckuhbhjfedwcz+ Ufn rcq czf bnsjusfjhúk. czc czpíwhus jfmghfkuc. czf bfzjhkfjhúk pdw cn c|uwföd. lfxf mfuhqfed nf uckeckjhf cked`æmhjf fkehkf x jdkuwhgshed f vsc cn _cwñ zcf skf kfjhúk+

Ck cbcjud. cn _cwñ kd cz sk mdzfhjd eczfwuhjsnfed. cz skf kfjhúk. bskjhdkf jdmd ufn+ Cz ecjhw. uhckc skf uwfehjhúk ec wcnfjhdkcz hkucwkfz zdjhfncz x jsnuswfncz gæzhjfmckuc pfjíbhjfz+ Nhmf zhcmpwc bsc skf jhsefe pdpsndzf x mñnuhpnc. fldwf jsckuf jdk mæz ec zchz mhnndkcz ec lfghufkucz+ Ck nf jfnnc. ck cn mcwjfed. ck cn uwfgfad. zc jwsqfk x jdkrhrck udefz nfz wfqfz x jdndwcz. ndz F. ndz G. ndz J. ndz E+ X kskjf lf lfghed sk mduík wfjhfn. kskjf skf pwèehjf jnfzhzuf. cukhjhzuf. ec ckbwckufmhckud. lf cjlfed wfíjcz+ Mc pfwcjc vsc nf hkjnhkfjhúk pdw nfz wcnfjhdkcz pcwzdkfncz. cn ecbhkhwzc f pfwuhw ec nf bfmhnhf x ecn pscgnd ec skd. jdkuwfwhfmckuc f nd vsc pdewíf pckzfwzc. lfk jdkuwhgshed f nf bdwmfjhúk ec skf zdjhcefe kfjhdkfn udncwfkuc. gfzfef ck nfz ehbcwckjhfz. hkjnszd fghzmfncz ehbcwckjhfz cjdkúmhjfz. pcwd ufmghèk ck nf jdwwczpdkeckjhf íkuhmf. ghdnú`hjf. ckuwc zsz mhcmgwdz+

Ck cn _cwñ nfz wcnfjhdkcz hkucwzdjhfncz zdk zsmfmckuc jdmpncafz+ Cz skf zdjhcefe vsc zc mfkcaf jdk skdz júeh`dz ck `wfk pfwuc hmpníjhudz. uæjhudz. hkjdkzjhckucz+ Zdk msjldz x zsuhncz ndz jwhucwhdz vsc zc jdkas`fk ck nf ehzjwhmhkfjhúk zdjhfn+ Zc ehjc skf jdzf x zc fjuñf ec duwf mfkcwf+ Kd gfzuf uckcw nf phcn gnfkjf pfwf zcw gnfkjd9 sk mhzmd hkehrhesd cz hkehd pfwf skd x gnfkjd pfwf duwd9 nf whvscqf. ndz czusehdz. cn è|hud zdjhfn. fjnfwfk. nf pdgwcqf x nf bfnuf ec hkzuwsjjhúk dzjswcjck. fhkehfk+ Lfx hkehdz vsc zc zhckuck gnfkjdz x fn wcrèz+ Skd mhzmd zc zhckuc x fjuñf jdmd „gnfkjd” ck jhcwufz jhwjskzufkjhfz x jdmd „kcud” ck duwfz+ Cz sk fwuc ec rhrhw. dzjhnfked ckuwc nf h`kdwfkjhf h`kdwfkjhf msusf x nf jdkrhrckjhf íkuhmf. ck wcnfuhrf pfq. mfkuckhcked ehzuhkudz khrcncz ec ehrdwjhd

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x ec ckuckehmhckud+ Mc pfwcjc vsc czf jdmpncahefe czuæ wcnfjhdkfef jdk nf mfkcwf fkehkf ec zcw x ec jdkjcghwzc fzí mhzmd x fn duwd+

Fn duwd nd h`kdwd. nd fjcpud jdk hkehbcwckjhf d cz bfzjhkfkuc. d ghck nd lf`d mh jdmpfewc. d nc lf`d sk lhad. bdwmd sk ld`fw jdk èn+ Zh cz bfzjhkfkuc. nd hmhud. uwfud ec zcw jdmd èn. jdkzsmhw x lfgnfw jdmd èn+ Cn duwd cz. ck czckjhf. fvscn vsc kd cz ec mh fnecf kh ec mh bfmhnhf+ Cn ec duwd pscgnd. jsxf bfmhnhf x jdmfwjf eczjdkdqjd. cz sk duwd. jfzh ufk duwd jdmd skd ecn zc`mckud F ú G+ Fskvsc kd ufkud. sk E f rcjcz zc jdkbskec x jwcc vsc ndz rcjhkdz ec nf jdndkhf uhpd F zdk c|uwfkacwdz+ Ec udefz mfkcwfz. fsk zhcked „jldnd ec Ehdz zfgc edkec”. sk eczjdkdjhed E zc pfwcjc mæz f skd vsc sk F+ _cwd sk F pscec zcw mh jdmpfewc. mh pfuwúk d jnhckuc. ckudkjcz cz mckdz duwd vsc sk E jdmd xd pcwd vsc kd jdkdqjd+ Ndz ckjsckuwdz x eczckjsckuwdz zdk pscz hkuwhkjfedz. jduhehfkdz. hkuckzdz d ehzjwcudz. pcwd czf jdmpncaf jdkrhrckjhf lf ucwmhkfed pdw efw f ndz pcwsfkdz sk zckuhmhckud ec jdncjuhrhefe x sk wdzuwd mñnuhpnc pcwd ec kíuhef pcwzdkfnhefe+

Czf dzjhnfjhúk ckuwc nd pwdphd. ck pwhkjhphd pcwjhghed jdmd zspcwhdw. x nd c|uwföd. dwf bfzjhkfkuc. dwf wcpsnzhrd d hkehbcwckuc. pfwcjc zcw fkuh`sf. jdkzufkuc9 wczpdkecwíf f skf uckeckjhf `ckcwfn x kd f sk mcwd fjjheckuc d pwdesjud jdndkhfn+ Ghck pdewíf zcw sk ehncmf ec nf jsnuswf1 ckuwc sk hecfn x skf dwhckufjhúk cked`æmhjf. pcwd vsc zc fucmpcwf jdk skf pwæjuhjf c|d`æmhjf+ Cn mfuwhmdkhd pwcbcwckjhfn x mæz bwcjsckuc cz cn wczuwhk`hed f skf jdmskhefe+ _cwd ndz mfuwhmdkhdz vsc jdkuwfehjck czf pwcehncjjhúk zdk msx bwcjsckucz+ Nfz jdzfz. ndz szdz x jdzusmgwcz ecn pscgnd ec skd zdk. ck pwhkjhphd. nd mæz pwcjhfed+ _cwd ¦jsækuf fuwfjjhúk pscec cacwjcw nd c|uwföd. nf pfnfgwf x nfz jdzfz ecn duwd&+ Mc pfwcjc vsc fmgfz uckeckjhfz. cn hecfn edmhkfkuc. nf cked`fmhf. x cn zcjskefwhd. pcwd pwdbszfmckuc pwfjuhjfed. nf c|d`fmhf. jdkzuhusxck edz pdndz ec nf jsnuswf fkehkf+ Cn cvshnhgwhd cz uckzd. jfmghfkuc. mfwjf nf ehkæmhjf ec nf zdjhcefe. ec nf lhzudwhf ecn _cwñ x ec zsz pscgndz+ Zc wcbncaf ck ndz hkehrhesdz. ck zsz ncfnufecz x cncjjhdkcz+

Cn ehncmf mckjhdkfed pfwcjc `sfwefw skf wcnfjhúk jdk cn jfwæjucw jdmpcuhuhrd ec nf zdjhcefe fkehkf+ Ufmghèk jdk nf ecbhkhjhúk ec nfz hznfz heckuhbhjfedwfz+

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Nfz wcnfjhdkcz hkucwbfmhnhfwcz. ckuwc mh bfmhnhf ec dwh`ck x nf ec mh júkxs`c. pwdrdjfk ck mí uckzhdkcz. jfmghdz ec fpc`d x ec wcnfjhúk+ Ck pwhkjhphd. vshcwd ec mfkcwf mæz íkuhmf f mh lcwmfkd. pcwd cn lcwmfkd ec mh msacw cz sk gsck zdjhd jdmcwjhfn x pscec eczpnfqfw f mh lcwmfkd ec zfk`wc+ Mh wcnfjhúk fmdwdzf ecbhkhuhrf. nf bskefjhúk ec mh pwdphd ld`fw. bscwdk rhrhefz pdw mí x mhz pfewcz jdmd skf uwfhjhúk+ X mh mfewc kd zhcmpwc czuæ ehzpsczuf f fjcpufw zs ecwwduf+ Zdx cmpwczfwhd pwdrhkjhfkd+ F pfwuc ec mh pfwckucnf. cz gsckd uckcw cmpncfedz ec mh pscgnd. ec mh jdmfwjf. pcwd zh ckjsckuwd f sk eczjdkdjhed. vsc wczsnuf zcw sk gsck dpcwfwhd. cz pdzhgnc vsc mc jfh`f zhmpæuhjd x nd ucwmhkc pdw jdkuwfufw+ Nd mhzmd pscec djswwhw jdk sk rcjhkd ec gfwwhd. jdk skd vsc pcwuckcjc fn mhzmd jnsg ec bñugdn vsc xd. jdk sk „jldnd ec Ehdz zfgc edkec”+ Sk edmhk`d rdx f mh jnsg pwdrhkjhfn. ck Nhmf+ Flí. mc ckjsckuwd jdk ndz mídz+ Femhwd nfz efkqfz x nfz jcwcmdkhfz ec nf bhczuf pfuwdkfn ec mh pscgnd+ Mc cmgdwwfjld. lfgnd vscjlsf f `whudz+ Edx lswwfz f mh pscgnd. cn mcadw ecn msked+ Fn zfnhw ecn jnsg x ckjckecw mh jfmhdkcuf. phckzd vsc ecgd jfmghfwnf pdw skf ec mcadw mdecnd+ Mc zfjwhbhjd mfkefked f edz lhadz f czusehfw hk`nèz ck skf fjfecmhf jfwf+ Cn pwú|hmd föd hwè jdk mh msacw f Mhfmh. f pfzcfwkdz x rcw zh zc pscec lfjcw fn`ñk kc`djhd+

Ck nf pnfqf ec skf fnecf zc jcncgwf nf nnc`fef ec ndz Wcxcz Mf`dz+ Cz cn : ec mhzuhz ,d „mczuhqdz” . ec ckcwd+ Udef nf jdmfwjf czuæ wcskhef+ Lfx `wspdz ec mhzuhz ,d jdzusmgwcz mcehd swgfkfz. zdk ndz kdufgncz(. fzhmhzmd czuæk ndz lhadz ec ufn lshwfjdjlf ,ndz zcödwcz mæz hmpdwufkucz ec nf jdmfwjf. ec uwfehjhúk bfmhnhfw mæz lhzpfkfz(. lfx fwmhz x fwmhz x wskfz ,ldmgwcz wskfz ,ldmgwcz x msacwcz jfzfedz. jfmpczhkdz mfvufz x zhpfz ,ndz zhpfz ,ndz ecn ns`fw. ec nck`sf mfucwkf vscjlsf(. x pdw zspsczud. ndz mfvufz x zdnucwdz. lhadz ec ndz „kcudz”( x ndz mdqdz vsc lfk wcudwkfed ecn Jsqjd. ec Nhmf. pfwf fzhzuhw f nf bhczuf+ Nfz pfkehnnfz ec khödz wcrdnducfk. zdndz rckeck `dndzhkfz. x ck gfkefefz. asc`fk pdw nf pnfqf+ Udedz zc ehrhcwuck x pfzcfk ck `wspdz vsc zc h`kdwfk msusfmckuc. fskvsc kd msjld kh zhcmpwc+ Ck nf pnfqf udjfk x gfhnfk ndz ehfgnhnndz. fn bwckuc eczbhnfk ndz hkjfz jdwdkfedz x zsz pwhkjczfz rcnfefz9 lfx kñmcwdz ec fjwdgfjhf1 zdgwc ndz jfgfnndz zc ncrfkufk udwwcz lsmfkfz9 zdgwc skfz jscwefz x czjfncwfz ec ehcq mcuwdz ec fnuswf. zc bdwmfk duwfz mdkuföfz lsmfkfz. ck jsxfz jhmfz zc xcw`sc sk khöd rczuhed ec khöf+ Sk hmpdkckuc cvshpd cncjuwúkhjd ehbskec sk ckèw`hjd ucikd + Nfz zcödwfz

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pdecmdz eczjsgwhw kscrfz pnfxfz. lfjcwnfz ksczuwfz x zcw ec cnnfz9 jfmghfmdz ec hznfz jdk jhcwuf zdnuswf+ Jfef skf cz lfghufef x ecbhkhef pdw cn djfzhdkfn djspfkuc9 x èzuc cz ehzuhkud. jfzh duwd. zc`ñk nf jdzuf+ Nfz ncfnufecz zdk pcwmsufgncz pcwd. ck jfef skf zc rhrc jdk hkuckzhefe. jdmd zh bsczc nf ñkhjf vsc zc pdzcc x jdmd zh bsczc nf ñkhjf vsc ecbhkc f nf n f pcwzdkf+

Nf pfwuhjsnfw hkuckzhefe jdk vsc skd zc heckuhbhjf jdk skfz hznfz. vsc zhk cmgfw`d zcw ucwwhudwhdz ec pfzd x ec ehzuhkud pcwbhn. zspdkc skf jhcwuf fpwcjhfjhúk ecn uhcmpd1 zc ehwíf vsc cn mdmckud. cn pwczckuc. cz rhrhed pdw cn hkehrhesd jdmd zh bsczc nd ñkhjd jhcwud. nd ñkhjd bhwmc+ Nf jsnuswf fkehkf pwhrhnc`hf cn pwczckuc ck eczmcewd ecn pfzfed x zdgwc uded. ecn hkjhcwud x gdwwdzd bsuswd+ Ndz zsjczdz pwcuèwhudz hmpdwufk ck nf mcehef vsc fldwf kdz zhwrck c hkzuwsxck+ Czusehfk x jsnuhrfk nf uhcwwf pfwf fzc`swfw cn bsuswd pcwd

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ufmghèk pdwvsc ncz pwdjswf. fldwf. pnfjcw ck jsmpnhw jdk nf èuhjf ecn uwfgfad x ecn pwd`wczd+

Skf ec nfz mfkcwfz ec zcw vsc mæz nnfmf nf fuckjhúk fn dgzcwrfedw cz nf uckeckjhf ecn fkehkd fn hkjsmpnhmhckud1 cn fldwf. cn mföfkf d cn pfzfed mföfkf. zs pfnfgwf. uded pfwcjc wcnfuhrd. pwdndk`fgnc+ Jdmd zh usrhczc skdz pwczckucz vsc zc ehnfufk x mföfkfz vsc kd nnc`fk. vsc zc pnhc`fk f zsz eczcdz mæz íkuhmdz+ Fn pfwcjcw. nd hkmcehfud uhckec f uckcw sk hmpcwhd mæz `wfkec vsc ckuwc kdzduwdz : + Cn xd zc wcjdkdjc f zí. fkuc uded. ck czc fldwf edmhkfkuc9 nf pfnfgwf vsc cmpcöè fxcw. ldx psced kd wcjdkdjcwnf+ Czufz fjuhusecz zs`hcwck skf wcnfjhúk pfwuhjsnfw jdk cn uhcmpd1 sk fldwf jfw`fed. eckzd9 sk mföfkf esedzd. mæz hmpcwzdkfn vsc cn fldwf+ Ufmghèk. skf wcnfjhúk czpcjhfn jdk nf rcwfjhefe1 jdmd nfz hznfz. nfz jdzfz. ndz lcjldz. nfz rdnskufecz zdk msufkucz. hkucwjfmghfgncz9 x nf mckuhwf pscec zcw skf fw`sjhf. sk asc`d wcuúwhjd. fkucz vsc skf mfnefe+ Ufncz rhrckjhfz jdkjscwefk jdk skf jdzmdrhzhúk fñk rh`ckuc+

Lfx jsckudz vsc zs`hcwck vsc nf mfwjf hkhjhfn ecn msked pwczckuc x ec ndz ldmgwcz cz nf mckuhwf+ Fzí. pdw cacmpnd. wcpcuhefz rcjcz Ehdz mfkeú fn `dwwhúk f ecjhw f ndz ldmgwcz vsc uckewífk ehbcwckucz pcwbcjjhdkcz9 pcwd cn `dwwhúk ck`föd f udedz. ehjhèkedncz vsc Ehdz lfgíf ehzpsczud vsc uckewífk ndz ecbcjudz vsc uckcmdz+ Cn ck`föd cz ckudkjcz ksczuwf mfwjf hkhjhfn+

Ndz mhudz fjusfncz. pcwd ec uwfehjhúk mæz fkuh`sf. uhckck skf jdkjcpjhúk jfufzuwúbhjf ecn msked+ Sk Ehdz eczuwsxc skf ehrhkhefe x msked pwcjceckucz x jwcf cn zsxd pwdphd+ F nf pfw vsc ksczuwd ehdz ckrcacjc. ksczuwd dweck zc ec`wfef x mfwjlf f zs fkhvshnfmhckud+ Cn mczhfkhzmd. zsz wcnfudz x mdrhmhckudz ec czpcwfkqf. lfk zhed ufmghèk hkjdwpdwfedz. pcwd kd lfk eczpnfqfed pdw jdmpncud ufn mfkcwf ec rcw cn uhcmpd+ Sk jhcwud pwd`wczhzmd fkehkd zc fjdmdef jdk nf czpcwfkqf ec wfíq jwhzuhfkf. pcwd duwfz fjuhusecz x :

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Cn uwfgfad ndz czusehdz. zscnck aszuhbhjfwndz jdk skf hecdnd`íf vsc cnndz nnfmfk „pwd`wczhzuf” + Zc gszjf pdw czdz mcehdz sk fzckzd cjdkúmhjd x zdjhfn. ck czpcjhfn pfwf ndz lhadz. pfwf vsc nd`wck „sk bsuswd mcadw” ,czud cz. vsc uck`fk jfzf ck nf jhsefe. vsc uck`fk ghckcz mfucwhfncz. vsc uck`fk pwczuh`hd ckuwc ndz zsxdz. vsc fzí fxseck fn wczud ec ndz bfmhnhfwcz x fn pscgnd kfufn(+ Cz skf hecdnd`íf pdpsnfw x `ckcwfnhqfef ckuwc ndz fkehkdz+ X nd cz fskvsc jdkuwfehjc zs mæz fkuh`sf pwdzfphf ,skf jhcwuf jdzmdrhzhúk jfufzuwúbhjf(+ Kd ck rfkd cn mckzfac ec nf czpcwfkqf cz wcpcuhed eczec lfjc zh`ndz pdw nf H`nczhf. x kd ck rfkd. zs rcwzhúk nfhjf. cn pwd`wczd. bsc ehbskehef pdw ndz fbwfkjczfedz jwhdnndz vsc nhecwfwdk nf Hkecpckeckjhf. nsc`d pdw cn caèwjhud. nf czjscnf. cn mcwjfed+ Czuf hecdnd`íf zhwrc ec aszuhbhjfjhúk f duwdz wfz`dz ec nf pcwzdkfnhefe fkehkf1 cn `szud pdw nd jdkjwcud x nd hkmcehfud. nf zckzsfnhefe c hkehrhesfnhzmd ‚nf bfmhnhf ksjncfw-. vsc f rcjcz zspnfkufk rfndwcz mæz `ckcwfncz x `ckcwdzdz1 „uded rfnc jdk ufn ec vsc skd. vsc ndz ec bfmhnhf ksjncfw ec skd pwd`wczc”+

Cn hkehrhesd fjusfn zc pcwbhnf x dwhckuf pdw czfz edz rcwuhckucz. nfz mæz fkuh`sf vsc pwhrhnc`hf nd hkmcehfud x sk jscwpd pwcjhdzd pcwd ehzpcwzfgnc. x nf czpcwfkqf. cn pwd`wczd. czdz rfndwcz mcesnfwcz vsc nc dbwcjc cn jdkufjud rfwhfz rcjcz zcjsnfw jdk Cswdpf+ _cwd czdz rfndwcz kd zdk pcwjhghedz jdmd hwwcjdkjhnhfgncz+

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66+ Kdufz zdgwc nf jfnhbhjfjhúk ecn duwd x ec zí mhzmd 2

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bfmhnhf. pfwf nf fmhzufe. pfwf cn uwfgfad x c kc`djhd+ Nf pwd|hmhefe ehnsxc nfz ehbcwckjhfz9 cn ehkcwd. nf hkzuwsjjhúk. fjnfwfk9 nf pdgwcqf dgzjswcjc+ Cn wfjhzmd cz mæz ecjnfwfuhrd. `ckèwhjd. vsc jdkjwcud x jduhehfkd. mæz zdjhfn x cjdkúmhjd vsc ghdnú`hjd+ Sk „kcud” wcjcnf ec udedz ndz „gnfkjdz”. ehjc mfn ec cnndz9 pcwd. vshcwc f zs jdmpfewc. cz fmh`d ecn rcjhkd. pfwcjc fzí dnrhefw vsc cnndz ufmghèk zdk „gnfkjdz”+ _cwd. ´júmd cz czf pfnfgwf pwcashjhdzf4. ´vsè ehjck ndz skdz ec zí zí mhzmdz x ec ndz ecmæz4. ´júmd zdk czfz czfz rdjcz vsc eczehjck pfwjhfnmckuc ndz lcjldz4

Ck cn zhkkñmcwd ec ehzjswzdz pwcashjhdzdz zc psceck fercwuhw skf jhcwuf jdkzufkjhf1 skdz ucmfz wcjswwckucz vsc zc pwczckufk ehbcwckucz zc`ñk cn mdmckud x cn `szud ec jfef èpdjf x pcwzdkf+ Uwfufwè ec mdzuwfw fn`skdz ec ndz ucmfz mæz jdmskcz x pcwzhzuckucz+

Ndz ec nf jdzuf pcwsfkf wczsmífk zsz pwcashjhdz lfjhf ndz zcwwfkdz ck skdz pwdrcwghdz1 „zcwwfkd. pfndmf x `fud. kd lfx fkhmfn mfz hk`wfud”. „zh vshcwcz mdwhw zhk zfgcw ec vsè. æufuc sk zcwwfkd fn phc”+ Ndz zcwwfkdz zcwífk hk`wfudz. uwfhjhdkcwdz. ufhmfedz. gczuhfncz. ufmghèk zsjhdz. h`kdwfkucz+ Ufn rcq pdw nf mfzhrf mh`wfjhúk ec zcwwfkdz f nf jdzuf. ck czpcjhfn f Nhmf. zs pwczckjhf 2

Czuf zcjjhúk bsc pwczckufef jdmd pdkckjhf ck cn „RH Jdk`wczd Nfuhkdfmcwhjfkd ec nf wcnh`húk x cukhjhefe”. Gd`duf. Jdndmghf. 6882+

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fjuhrf. cn wæphed fzjckzd zdjhfn ec ndz mhzmdz. czuæk lfjhcked dnrhefw czdz ehjldz x fucksfw ndz pwcashjhdz+ Fskvsc. mc jdkzuf. ndz nhmcödz rhcadz `sfwefk jdk ehzjwcjhúk ufncz hecfz9 zh kd lfjck `fnf ec cnnfz. cz pdwvsc czc duwd czuæ jfef rcq mæz jcwjf x cz mæz jdmd skd mhzmd+ Nf jcwjfkíf ecn duwd pfwcjc eczfnckufw ndz pwcashjhdz x jcecw nf pnfqf f ashjhdz mæz jdmpncadz x ehrcwzdz+ Kd nf jcwjfkíf ec zhcmpwc ‚cn pfíz rcjhkd. cn pscgnd ec nf duwf gfkef- zhkd sk pwdjczd kscrd ec fjcwjfmhckud. sk wcckjsckuwd jdk cn duwd. vsc jdkbskec x jsczuhdkf ksczuwfz hecfz zhmpncz zdgwc cnndz x kdzduwdz mhzmdz ,pdwvsc udef eczjwhpjhúk ecn duwd. cz skf bh`swfjhúk ck kc`fuhrd ec kdzduwdz mhzmdz(+

Ndz wcckjsckuwdz ec ld`föd. kh fsk ndz pwcashjhdz ec fkuföd. zc efk zhmpncmckuc zdndz+ Lfx pwcashjhdz f jdkuwfjdwwhckuc. rhcafz x kscrfz hecfz vsc jdkrhrck ck sk mhzmd kdzduwdz + Cn „zcwwfkd. pfndmf x `fud+++”kskjf usrd sk hmpcwhd fgzdnsud. ufmpdjd lf zhed udufnmckuc dnrhefed+

Fkucz kd ecjífmdz zcwwfkd. zhkd. mæz ghck hkehd+ _dw hkehd kdz wcbcwífmdz f ndz jfmpczhkdz vscjlsfz x fxmfwæz+ Ndz duwdz. ndz zcnræuhjdz. djspfgfk sk ns`fw zcjskefwhd ck ksczuwfz pwcdjspfjhdkcz pwcashjhdzfz+ _scz cwfk pdjdz x ncafkdz+ Cn uèwmhkd hkehd lf jcehed zs ns`fw fn zcwwfkd jdkbdwmc nf zdjhcefe pcwsfkf ecrckíf ck swgfkf mæz wswfn+ Cn jfmghd ec uèwmhkd zh`khbhjú skf zcwhc ec zsuhncz mdehbhjfjhdkcz zcmækuhjfz9 zhk cmgfw`d. `wfk pfwuc ec ndz ehzjswzdz zdgwc cn hkehd zc uwfkzbhwhcwdk fn zcwwfkd. pcwd jdk rfndwcz mckdz ewfmæuhjdz+

Ndz ehzjswzdz zdgwc cn hkehd. zsz ucmfz x rfwhfkucz. zdk mñnuhpncz+ Djspfk `wfk pfwuc ec nf nhucwfuswf pcwsfkf+ Cn lfgnf pdpsnfw ndz wcjd`c. mdehbhjf. ncz ef sk jdndwhed pcwzdkfn. zc`ñk nf èpdjf x nfz jhwjskzufkjhfz+ X ndz ecrscnrc f nf czjwhuswf+ _dwvsc cn ldmgwc ec ncuwfz zc lfjc cjd ec czfz rdjcz fkuh`sfz+ Cn hkuckufw sk hkrckufwhd ec ndz pwhkjhpfncz ucmfz. zc`shw fn`skdz ec zsz ecwwducwdz ck ndz nhgwdz x ck nfz rdjcz ecn pscgnd. cz skf ufwcf ecmfzhfed `wfkec pfwf czuf jdwuf c|pdzhjhúk+ Kd dgzufkuc. uwfufwè ec zcöfnfw fn`skdz ec czdz ucmfz. pwcashjhdz vsc fjdmpföfk. jdkuwfehjck. jdmckufk. nd ec „zcwwfkd. pfndmf x `fud+++”+

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Cn hkehd bsc skf ecmdzuwfjhúk ecn fuwfzd vsc zh`khbhjú nf Jdndkhf+ Nf adrck Wcpñgnhjf ckjfwkfgf cn pwd`wczd. f ehbcwckjhf ecn wè`hmck pfzfed+ Cn hkehd fjusfn cwf sk nfzuwc jdndkhfn. sk zcw ec`wfefed pdw cn jdndkhfnhzmd+ Nf Wcpñgnhjf zc pwdpszd wcehmhwnd+ Nf kdgnc ufwcf pfwcjíf `wfkec pcwd zhmpnc. pscz zspdkíf vsc cn hkehd cwf sk zcw zckjhnnd. pdw nd mhzmd vsc cwf pdgwc+ Cn hkehd. sk czpcjuwd ecn gwhnnfkuc hkjfwhd ,f mcehef vsc zc bdwufncjíf cn ehzjswzd ecn „hkehd. wèmdwf jdndkhfn”. zc f`h`fkufgf x edwfgf cn hkjfwhd(+ @wfk pfwuc ec nf cesjfjhúk pcwsfkf lf zhed dwhckufef pdw czc ehzjswzd zdgwc cn hkehd+ Ufmghèk zc ksuwhcwdk ec èn ndz czusehdz jhckuíbhjdz. fkuwdpdnú`hjdz x lfzuf mèehjdz+ _dníuhjdz x fkuwdpúnd`dz ckjdkuwfgfk ck cn jfmpd fkehkd. fuwfzd. mhzcwhf. mfw`hkfjhúk. c|pndufjhúk+ Nfz bwszuwfjhdkcz kfjhdkfncz zc c|pnhjfgfk pdw nf pcwrhrckjhf ec czf nfjwf jdndkhfn+ _djdz rhcwdk mæz fnnæ ec ufncz wcpsgnhjfkfz fkucdacwfz+ Kd cz. ckudkjcz. c|uwföd vsc cn uèwmhkd mhzmd zcf. ck ecucwmhkfefz jhwjskzufkjhfz. sk hkzsnud. jsxf zh`khbhjfjhúk ckjhcwwf czdz rfndwcz kc`fuhrdz+ Czuc ehzjswzd pwcashjhdzd cz fñk rh`dwdzd. fskvsc jfef rcq mæz jdkuwfehjld pdw duwdz+ _scz cn eczgdwec fkehkd ck nf jhsefe fnhckuf duwfz pfnfgwfz. mæz mfuhqfefz x pdzhuhrfz „ec nd zcwwfkd”+ _dw cacmpnd. fvscnnf vsc pcwjhgc

vsc cn nfzuwc. cn mfw`hkfn. kd cz „cn zcwwfkd”. zhkd „kdzduwdz” ,ndz

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Cn ucmf ec nf mhzcwhf hkehf. ec nf fkhmfnhefe zcwwfkf. uhckc ckudkjcz skf c|pnhjfjhúk pwcashjhfef1 cn jdndkhfnhzmd+ Ufmghèk. sk jdwwcnfud ck kdzduwdz mhzmdz+ Zh cn hkehd. cn zcwwfkd. èzuf mfn. cz pdwvsc kdzduwdz ,jwhdnndz. swgfkdz. jnfzc mcehf. pdníuhjdz. ncuwfedz. hkeszuwhfncz+++( lcmdz lcwcefed skf pdzhjhúk cnndz czuæk fzí cz pdwvsc zdmdz skdz zdmdz skdz c|pndufedwcz+ Cn edmhkfkuc x jdndkhfn+ Zh cnndz czuæk „gnfkjd” ,ck cn _cwñ. jfzh kd ndz lfx( cz djhdzd. lcedkhzuf. jwscn. c`dízuf. jdehjhdzd. fecmæz ec wfjhzuf. pckeckjhcwd x c|uwfkacwhqfkuc+ Czc gnfkjd wcpwczckuf cn kdzduwdz . fsudw ec nf uwf`cehf hkehf x ecn ewfmf zcwwfkd+ Ndz jfnhbhjfuhrdz zc hkrhcwuck+

kdzduwdz ncuwfed. `ckcwdzd pcwd Nf uwf`cehf x cn ewfmf bscwdk czjwhudz pdw sk kdzduwdz ncuwfed. jdk zckuhmhckud ec jsnpf+ Jdmd ck udef lhzudwhf. kd esed vsc lfxf lfghed fn`d ec czd. ec ewfmf x ec uwf`cehf+ _cwd ndz jfnhbhjfuhrdz zdk ecbhkhuhrfmckuc

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ksczuwdz x kd ec cnndz+ Zdk ksczuwdz ecjhwcz zdgwc cn duwd vsc. vscwcmdz jwccw. edmhkfmdz+

Ck nf hkuckzf mh|uswf ec nf kscrf jshefe zc jdkbskeck ndz nhgwcudz. ndz fsudwcz x ndz pcwzdkfacz+ Cn hkehd. cn zcwwfkd. cn gnfkjd. zsz lhzudwhfz. zc bwf`mckufk. czufnnfk ck mhn lhzudwhfz zhk`snfwcz+ Vsc czpcwfk zcw ehjlfz x c|pnhjfefz f uwfrèz ec kscrdz pwcashjhdz+

Ndz mducz x pwcashjhdz hkucwjfmghfk ucmfz x zc fnhmckufk msusfmckuc+ Zhk cmgfw`d. fn`skf gfzc mfucwhfn uckewæk+ Ndz zsjczdz ecn pfzfed. ndz dweckfmhckudz zsjczhrdz ec nf zdjhcefe x ec zsz eczdweckcz. rfk bdwafked skdz pcwbhncz ecn ldmgwc ec czufz uhcwwfz. ndz vsc zc wcbncafk ufmghèk ck zsz ecjhwcz. ck zsz pwcashjhdz ec zí x ec duwd+ _cwd czdz pcwbhncz x zsz gfzcz mfucwhfncz. ndz jdkdjcmdz f uwfrèz ec nfz pfnfgwfz szsfncz. ndz ashjhdz zsmfwhdz ecn pscgnd+ Nf dgzcwrfjhúk zc `síf pdw czfz ecbhkhjhdkcz+ Nf jhckjhf ndjfn nfz frfnf fkucz ec esefw ec cnnfz+ Ndz hkeh`ckhzufz wcpcuífk vsc èwfmdz ndz jsnpfgncz ec nf dwbfkefe hkehf9 ndz fkuwdpúnd`dz. ec nf mfw`hkfjhúk fkehkf9 ndz zdjhúnd`dz. vsc zdmdz wfjhzufz9 x udedz. vsc cn hkehd. zcwwfkd d fkehkd. cz sk mfw`hkfn. dpwhmhed. pdgwc. h`kdwfkuc. wfjhfnmckuc zc`wc`fed+ Rhcadz pwcashjhdz jdk pfnfgwfz fjfeèmhjfz+ Zhk cmgfw`d. fn`skf gfzc mfucwhfn lfk ec uckcw+ _cwd kd jwcd vsc zcfk zhmpncz ndz nfqdz vsc skck nfz pfnfgwfz jdk ndz lcjldz+

Ufncz zdk fn`skdz ec ndz pwcashjhdz vsc uckcmdz jdkuwf czc duwd nnfmfed „hkehd”. x fldwf. fkehkd. zcwwfkd+ Rcfmdz ndz pwcashjhdz mfz bwcjsckucz vsc fvscn uhckc lfjhf kdzduwdz+

Cn „gnfkjd”. fvscn vsc kd pcwuckcjc fn ckudwkd x dweck zdjhfn ec skd. cz sk udkud+ Cn „`whk`d” cz sk eczphzufed. h`kdwfkuc ec nfz jdzfz ec skd. jwcc uded nd vsc skd nc ehjc. zc nc ck`föf bæjhnmckuc. pscz cz sk hk`cksd+ X cz gsckd ck`föfwnd x gswnfwzc ec èn1 lfx vsc fpwdrcjlfw9 fecmæz. kd jdkdjcmdz zs pscgnd kh zs bfmhnhf. cz sk „pdgwc `whk`d ec Ehdz zfgc eúkec”+ Skfz gfzcz mfucwhfncz ec czuf hecf pdewífk zcw1 cn eczjdkjhcwud fn vsc cz pwdpckzd cn bdwfzucwd fkuc sk mcehd c|uwföd x jdmpncad jdmd cz cn fkehkd ,eczjdkjhcwud x

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_cwd cn „gnfkjd” eczjdkdjhed ufmghèk pscec zcw pcwjhghed jdmd pcnh`wdzd+ Cz sk zfjf-mfkucjf. sk jfkígfn. jdehjhdzd ec nd ksczuwd. ec ksczuwdz jscwpdz x pcwuckckjhfz+ Cz cn phzlufjd . sk mcwjfecw ec ksczuwf `wfzf9 uwfbhjf jdk ksczuwdz dadz x duwdz úw`fkdz+ Lfx vsc eczjdkbhfw. ucmcw. ecn „`whk`d ec Ehdz zfgc eúkec”+ _cwd zc pscec fercwuhw sk mfuhq1 cn „`whk`shud. ec zfgc Ehdz eúkec” cz mckdz pcnh`wdzd zh zc msczuwf zhk ehzhmsnd. f nf nsq ecn eíf9 ck jfmghd. cn bdwfzucwd. „gnfkjd. mczuhqd c|uwfkacwd” vsc fpfwcjc ec zdwpwczf. ec mfkcwf zdnfpfef. pwduc`hed pdw nf dzjswhefe. cz. mæz pwdgfgncmckuc vsc cn duwd. sk phzlufjd +

X fn wcrèz+ Cn duwd „gnfkjd” pscec zcw bfzjhkfkuc9 zdgwc uded jsfked bdwmf pfwuc ec ksczuwd ksczuwd ldwhqdkuc zdjhfn. zdjhfn. d czuæ f nfz mæw`ckcz ecn mhzmd+ Cz gcnnd. whjd. fuwfjuhrd. pdecwdzd+ Kd lfx msacw mæz zcesjudwf vsc nf wsghf+ Fzí zdk nfz zhwckfz ec ndz nf`dz+ X cn gfwgfed x rcnnsed czuæ pwdrhzud ec skf `wfk rhwhnhefe+ Nfz hmæ`ckcz ec ndz zfkudz. ríw`ckcz. Aczñz. ec ndz rhnndwwhdz fkehkdz zdk jfzh zhcmpwc gnfkjdz+ Fzí zc pwczckufk ck zscödz. ec czf mfkcwf zc fpfwcjck9 cn khöd Aczñz. jdmd sk zcödwhud wsghd x uwfrhczd. cn Adrck Aczñz. jdmd sk uswhzuf c|uwfrhfed+ Cn „gnfkjd” uhckc pdecw pdníuhjd. zdjhfn. zfgcw. jdzfz x dgacudz. uded nd jsfn lfx vsc uwfufw ufmghèk ec uckcw9 pfwf nd jsfn lfx vsc fzhzuhw f nf czjscnf. fpwckecw jfzucnnfkd. wfehjfw ck Nhmf. rczuhwzc jdmd cnndz. uckcw zs zfgcw x zs pdecw. zcw jdmd èn+

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