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Ik uaz) bdlg fagafdhk) ulgàk hl hlxrëv hl liik t @lc ~lgvö e|i`dgkgxl`lgxl lg dcgarkrik t vlc|dr v| fk`dga' ^lra vkbàk ia {|l vdcgdedfkràk |gk aelgvk kvà ~krk Rl}-ia: h|rkgxl hàkv) dgfi|va `lvlv) vlràk abjlxa hl |gk v|xdi l dgflvkgxl ulgckgzk' Vl uaiudö k~rdvk) k~kckgha lvk fmdv~k hl rlblidög {|l k~lgkv vl mkbàk lgflghdha t `drö k Rl}-ia fag kdrl dgxlrrackxdua' Rl} lvxkbk k ~afav ~kvav t xlgàk lvk l}~rlvdög b|riagk hl vdl`~rl' ¯T bdlg) c|k~dxk) ±ga xl kf|lrhkv hl {|l xdlglv |gk hl|hk fag`dca1¿ @lc vavx|ua v| `drkhk t kvdgxdö' ¯±F|ëgxa ~dlgvkv mkflr`l lv~lrkr1 ¿ V| `kga j|c|lxlkbk fag |gk fkhlgdxk hl ik {|l faickbk |g d`~rlvdagkgxl `kgaja hl iikulv) fa`a vd Rl}-ia e|lrk ik h|lûk hl ik `dxkh hl iav k~krxk`lgxav hl ik fd|hkh' A hl ikv `axav' ¯Ml xlgdha hdedf|ixkhlv¿) `dgxdö @lc' ¯Xahav xlgl`av hdedf|ixkhlv) hdedf|i xkhlv) ±ulrhkh1 ±ulrhkh 1¿ Rl}-ia ikhlö ik fkblzk) fa`a vd lvx|udlrk mkbikgha fag ^|f) v| edli fa`~kûlrk {|l vaixkbk rdvaxkhkv kiià ki ikha' ^lra xlgàk iav ajav edjav lg @lc) hav eilfmkv kz|ilv eràkv fa`a iik`dxkv hl ckv: gkhdl lrk fk~kz ;;
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hl vavxlglr lvk `drkhk rk~kz) t vdg l`bkrca @lc) ~lvl k v| kdrl v|`dva) xlgàk lvl `aha drrdxkgxl hl ~ikgxkr fkrk' «Hljk hl `drkr`l fa`a k |gk dhdaxk+) mkbràk {|lrdha crdxkril Rl}-ia) ~lra lva mkbràk vdha |g vdcga hl hlbdidhkh ~ar v| ~krxl' Iav hl`ëv hlbàkg va`lxlrvl lv~agxëglk`lgxl) kckfmkr ik fkblzk vdg glflvdhkh hl arhlgërvlia vd{|dlrk' V|v e|rdavav ajav bkvxkbkg ~krk kxlrrardzkr t rl~rd`dr xahk ~raxlvxk' Fkvd ga mkbàk glflvdhkh hl ~kvkr k iav mlfmav: k lvkv kix|rkv) Rl}-ia xlgàk |gk ek`k vöidhk {|l dbk `ëv kiië hl iav `|rav hl k{|li `dvlrkbil failcda' V| ga`brl lrk l{|dukilgxl ki hl clgxl fa`a B' J' t Ea} Xd`) Xd`) iav jlelv hl ikv bkghkv `ëv d`~arxkgxlv hl ik fd|hkh' Ga lrk ~afa ~krk |gk fmdfk' ^lra @lc hlbàk hl vlr hl`kvdkha lvxú~dhk ~krk lgxlghlria: kmà lvxkbk) l`babkhk) rlxëghaik) `drëghaik fag iav ajav hl ~kr lg ~kr' ¯Xdlglv rkzög) Rl}-ia' @kûkgk xl hat iav''' ¿ Rl}-ia kizö |gk `kga hl rl~lgxl t @lc lgxrlflrrö iav ajav t rlxraflhdö dgvxdgxduk`lgxl' Ga rlfdbdö gdgc|gk baelxkhk: ik `kga vl {|lhö lg li kdrl) fag li àghdfl k~|gxkha mkfdk liik' ¯±F|ëgxkv ulflv xl ml hdfma {|l ga hdckv ia {|l lv1 ¿ @lc ~kr~khlö fa`a vd kfkbkrk hl va~ikr |gk rkfmk hl udlgxa eràa' Rl}-ia `audö hl |g ikha ki axra ik fkblzk: k{|liik fmdfk lrk rlki`lgxl hl`kvdkha lvxú~dhk ~krk {|l `kixrkxkrik rlv|ixkrk |gk vkxdvekffdög' ¯Hl `kûkgk gkhk' Mat' Lvxk xkrhl'¿ @lc ~|va ajav hl var~rlvk' ¯±Fö`a {|l lvxk xkrhl1¿ ¯Lvxk xkrhl) lg li ~kr{|l' K ikv vdlxl lg ~|gxa' T ga `l mkckv lv~lrkr)) vl `l mk kfkbkha ik ~kfdlgfdk' ±Lgxlghdha1¿ Kflrfö v| lv~lrkr àghdfl mkvxk ~afav flgxà`lxrav hl ik gkrdz hl @lc) {|l ga vl `audö ~lra vl ~|va ~ëidhk' Rl}-ia ~lgvö {|l vl mkbàk {|lhkha ~lxrdedfkhk hl `dlha t rdö vkrfëvxdfk`lgxl) vkxdvelfmk' vkxdvelfmk' Ga ~ahàk ;2
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~lrfkxkrvl hl {|l @lc) lg rlkidhkh) rlkidhkh) lvxkbk lvxkb k mdrudlgha ~ar hlgxra hl föilrk' ¯Lvxë bdlg) k ikv vdlxl ¿) il hdja fag |g v|v|rra' Ik uaz il i l vkiàk lgxrlfarxkhk ~ar ik rkbdk) ~lra Rl} d`kcdgö {|l xl`bikbk hli v|vxa l mdza |g c|dûa k ^|f t Od`d) v|v dgvl~krkbilv fa`~kûlfa`~kûl rkv' Ikv xrlv vl kiljkrag krrkvxrkgha v|v ikrcav ~kgxkiaglv ~ar li v|lia v|fda' Ki ulr ki hdrlfxar) ~ikgxkha ki eagha hli ~kvdiia) Od`d xdrö li fdckrrdiia xlkxrki`lgxl? ik faidiik xrkzö |g vl`dfàrf|ia lg li kdrl kgxlv hl fklr lg |g rdgfög' r dgfög' Li ma`brl ga il mdza gdgc|gk rlfrd`dgkfdög) vl id`dxö k hlvk~rabkr fag ik fkblzk t `drkr k axrk ~krxl' «Ajkië xl krrkg{|lg li ~dlrfdgc hl ik fljk+) il hlvlö @lc mkbikgha ~krk và' «[|ä mkrxk lvxkbk hl k{|li fid`k a~rlvdua+ T vdg l`bkrca) li hdrlfxar k~krxkbk ik `drkhk) `dlgxrkv {|l iav ~raelvarlvv vaiàkg krrlcërvlikv ~krk ga dg`dvf|drvl lg iav jkilav ~raelvarl lgxrl ki|`gav' Mkbikr hl k{|liia fag iav ~khrlv) khl`ëv) lrk kica d`~lgvkbil' K hlfdr hl xahav) li failcda lg {|l lvx|hdkbk @lc lrk |g b|lg failcda) gkhk gk hk {|l ulr fag |ga hl k{|liiav c|lxav hl ikv ke|lrkv) fa`a hl ~liàf|ik' Il ~krlfàk aàr k v| `khrl ~agdäghavl k fmdiikr: ¯«Lvxëv l}kclrkgha+ Xdlglv {|l k~rlghlr k hlelghlrxl) lva lv xaha' Vdl`~rl mkt fa`~kûlrkv |g ~afa `ëv udukflv) bkvxk fag `kgxlglrvl k ~r|hlgxl hdvxkgfdk hl liikv ¿' ±\g ~afa udukflv1 Rl}-ia ga lgfkjkbk ~rlfdvk`lgxl lg ik hledgdfdög hl fa`~kûlrk ¯udukz¿ hl ik {|l ¯`kgxlglrvl k ~r|hlgxl hdvxkgfdk¿' Rl}-ia mkbàk iilckha ki failcda tk `ktar `ktar)) khdlvxrkhk fa`a |g `krdgl? vl hlfàk {|l vkbàk iikulv hl o|gc-e|) t lrk fdlrxa {|l kghkbk ~ar kmà kr`khk fag |gk gkukjk' Lg ~afa xdl`~a vl mkbàk mlfma ik h|lûk t vlûark hl b|lgk ~krxl hli xlrrdxarda lvfaikr krrlbkxëghavlia krrlbkxëghavlia k |g ukrög) |g `kfmdxa {|l `kghkbk kgxl xaha vabrl iav fmdfav) `dlgxrkv {|l liik xlgàk lg |g ~|ûa k ;6
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ik `ktar ~krxl hl ikv fmdfkv l dgfi|va k kic|gav ukraglv hl iav ~rd`lrav f|rvav' Vd v| `khrl m|bdlvl udvxa hl flrfk iav xkx|kjlv {|l Rl}-ia iilukbk lg iav brkzav) ±mkbràk vlc|dha `dgd`dzkgha li kv|gxa) hdfdlgha {|l vdl`~rl mkt fmdfkv |gk ~dzfk rkrkv1 \gk ulz {|l il dgvdg|ö {|l k{|liik fa`~kûlrk v|tk ¯udukz¿ xlgàk |g xkx|k jl lg ear`k hl kgd`ki) v| `khrl fa`lgxö xkjkgxl: ¯Ta g|gfk ~lr`dxdràk k `d mdjk {|l vl mdfdlrk |g xkx|kjl' Lv kgxdmdcdägdfa t lv u|ickr¿' I|lca mkbàk l`~lzkha k vaixkr |gk hdv{|dvdfdög vabrl ikv `kgàkv hl ik clgxl) fa`a vd vl xrkxkrk vd`~il`lgxl hl fk~rdfmav hl ik `ahk t Rl}-ia e|lvl |gk hl xkgxkv l}mdbdfdagdvxkv k ikv {|l ilv c|vxkbk kikrhlkr hl |g ~dlrfdgc lg ik gkrdz a |g xkx|kjl lg li brkza' Ga lrk |gk vd`~il `ahk' Ki ulr k{|li và`baia d`~rlva lg li brkza) @lc mkbàk vlgxdha {|l |g lvfkiaeràa il rlfarràk ik lv~kihk: ga iilckbk k fa`~rlghlr ~ar {|ä) ~lra k{|li xkx|kjl ik mkbàk dg{|dlxkha' Vlgxàk {|l ga lrk vaik`lgxl |g hdb|ja ~rauafkhar ~rauafkhar)) vdga kica `dvxlrdava `dvxlrdav a t ~ahlrava' K ~rd`lrk udvxk udv xk ~krlfàk ik fkblzk fkb lzk hl |g ~lrra cr|ûlgha) ~lra) edjëghavl `ëv) vl hdvxdgc|àk {|l ga lrk |g ~lrra) vdga |g iaba hl ikrcav hdlgxlv kedikhav t ajav `|t fikrav) xlrrdbil`lgxl ~krlfdhav k iav ajav cikfdkilv hl Rl}-ia' @lc ~kvö li rlvxa hl ik `kûkgk xrkxkgha hl ha`dgkr v| kgc|vxdk ~ar ik fdxk hl ik xkrhl' Vdl`~rl ~ahàk ~ahà k ga ~rlvlgxkrvl) ~lra ±fö`a iacrkràk ludxkr i|lca ik l}xarvdög hl Rl}-ia1 Xlghràk Xlghràk {|l {|lhkrvl rle|cdkhk lg fikvl) vdg kulgx|rkrvl k dr k iav ikukbav) haghl vlc|ra {|l ik mdlgk t v|v fa`~dgfmlv il mkràkg ~kckr fkra li ~ikgxög' T hlv~|äv xlghràk {|l vkidr ~ar ik ~|lrxk hli failcda ~lckhk k kicúg ~raelvar t uaiulr k fkvk lvfaixkhk ~ar |g kh|ixa''' Glcö fag ik fkblzk: lrk |gk udhk dgd`kcdgkbil) ~ra~dk hl |g xlvxdca fagxrk ik `kedk) t hl xahav `ahav ga kvlc|rkràk v| ;8
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dg`|gdhkh' Rl}-ia b|vfkràk hlgahkhk`lgxl |gk `kglrk hl ulgckrvl) dgfi|va ~kvkha `|fma xdl`~a) f|kgha gkhdl vl ia lv~lrkvl t {|dzë ~lrvdc|däghaik mkvxk v| ~ra~dk fkvk' ±Lv {|l kfkva |gk fa`~kûlrk v|tk) K`lidl) ga mkbàk lgfagxrkha lg v| mkbdxkfdög k Rl}-ia) {|l mkbàk lgxrkha k lvfaghdhkv1 ±T ga farràk li r|`ar hl {|l il mkbàk mkbà k fk|vkha |gk ~rae|ghk mlrdhk lg li ma`bra1 [|dzë vl xrkxkbk hl `lgxdrkv dgulgxkhkv khrlhl ~krk k|`lgxkr ik k|rlaik hl rlulrlgxl xl`ar {|l ik xl`dbil fa`~kûlrk v|vfdxkbk k v| kirlhlhar' kirlhlhar' Li mlfma lv {|l k K`lidl) vöia ~ar ~ikgxkril fkrk fag |gk rlv~|lvxk drögdfk) ga uaiudö k uärvlil li ~lia hlvhl li hàk vdc|dlgxl v dc|dlgxl t) t) kicúg xdl`~a hlv~|äv) hlv ~|äv) vl v|~a {|l mkbàk v|erdha |g crkul kcaxk`dlgxa glrudava t mkbàk fk`bdkha hl failcda' «Kcaxk`dlgxa glrudava+ Lg |g ~rd`lr `a`lgxa) @lc vl mkbàk lgfacdha hl ma`brav) ~krlfàk ik xà~dfk l}f|vk ~krk fk`bdkr hl kdrlv' [|dzë iav ~khrlv hl K`lidl vl mkbàkg hkha f|lgxk hl {|l k{|li failcda ga vl farrlv~aghàk fag li f|khra lhdedfkgxl {|l ~dgxkbkg iav eaiilxav ~|bidfdxkrdav' ^lra k{|liik xkrhl) `dlgxrkv ikv markv farràkg dgl}arkbilv mkfdk ik fdxk hl ikv vdlxl) vl fagulgfàk fkhk ulz `ëv hl {|l `|t bdlg ~|ha xrkxkrvl hl |gk frdvdv glrudavk) ~ar{|l lrk ia {|l vlc|rk`lgxl lvxkbk k ~|gxa hl vabrlulgdril k liik xk`bdäg' Vl fagflgxrö lg fa~dkr iav hlblrlv {|l xlgàk {|l lgxrlckr k ik fmkgxkjdvxk: ikv rlhkffdaglv ~krk mdvxardk) ikv lf|kfdaglv rlv|lixkv) li xrkbkja hl fdlgfdkv) xaha d`~rlva k iëvlr t lgf|khlrgkha lg fkr~lxkv xrkgv~krlgxlv' Vöia ekixkbk ik edr`k ki edgki hl fkhk xkrlk) t @lc vl rdö ki d`kcdgkr {|l Rl}-ia gd vd{|dlrk v|~dlvl edr`kr' Iilukbk xrkbkjkgha xrkbk jkgha xahk ik xkrhl t k ikv vldv vl vdgxdö l}mk|vxk t iilgk hl rlgfar ~ar v| lvxú~dhk v|`dvdög' Ga il hlbàk gkhk k k{|liik hlvl{|didbrkhk? lv `ëv) v| rlghdfdög dbk k vdcgdedfkr axrkv ~lxdfdaglv) fkhk ulz `ëv krh|kv) dgfi|va m|`diikgxlv' ;<
~kaIk Zkggaglr
Li fdlia vl mkbàk g|bikha xkgxa {|l ik gafml fktö kgxlv hl ia ~rludvxa' @lc lvfr|xö ~lgvkxduk ik avf|rk kx`övelrk hl ikv fkiilv) tk fkvd ukfàkv) ki axra ikha hl iav frdvxkilv hl ik ulgxkgk t vl lvxrl`lfdö hl rkbdk' Uaiudö k ik `lvk) rlfacdö iav eaidav t iav `drö kbvarxk |gav dgvxkgxlv' ^afa hlv~|äv) iav `lxdö fag f|dhkha lg ik `afmdik t vl hdv~|va k vkidr hl `kik ckgk) ~lgvkgha lg li eràa mú`lha hl ik gafml t lg ia hlvkcrkhkbil {|l vlràk li ~rö}d`a lgf|lgxra' ^ahàk ga kf|hdr) ~lra kica hlgxra hl liik ~rlha`dgö t ik l`~|jö k hkrvl ~rdvk' ~r dvk' K v| `khrl il vaixö |g ~rlxl}xa vdg hlxlglrvl: ¯Uat k iilukr |g idbra k |gk fa`~kûlr fa`~kûlrk' k' U|liua U|liua hlgxra hl hl `lhdk mark¿' Flrrö ik ~|lrxk hlxrëv hlxr ëv hl liik kgxlv hl {|l ik `|jlr ~|hdlrk rl~idfkr' Gd vd{|dlrk lvxkbk vlc|rk hl {|l v| `khrl ik m|bdlrk aàha) kbvarbdhk fa`a lvxkbk ~ar ik vlrdl xliludvduk hl ik {|l ga vl ~lrhàk gd |g fk~àx|ia k k{|liik mark' Fk`dgö hl~rdvk) fkvd ~lckhk k ikv ~krlhlv) fag ik fkblzk ckfmk' Ga mkfàk xkgxa eràa fa`a mkbàk mkbà k v|~|lvxa' Va~ikbk |g idclra udlgxa mú`lha t xki ulz vl ~|vdlrk k iiaulr iiaulr'' Ga iilukbk ~krkc|kv) ~lra ga il d`~arxkbk ~ar{|l li lgf|lgxra vlràk `|t brlul' Ga vlgxàk gdgcúg xl`ar) gd rkbdk) vöia kiduda ~ar vkblr {|l ~ragxa uaiulràk lg ~kz k fkvk' Fr|zö ik fkiil t ~kvö ik lgxrkhk hli ~kr{|l' ^krlfàk {|l ga mkbàk gkhdl ~kvlkgha) {|dzë ~ar k{|liiav dghdfdav hl xar`lgxk lg li kdrl' ^ar lva il fmafö ulr k k{|liik ~lrvagk) hl ~dl lg `lhda j|vxa hli fk`dga' Lrk kica xkg dglv~lrkha {|l @lc vl {|lhö ~krkhk |gav dgvxkgxlv) h|hkgha vd vlc|dr a bdlg xrkxkr hl ludxkr k ik `|jlr hl ikrck fkbliilrk) {|l ~krlfàk |gk fkvfkhk hl mdiav hl ~ikxk {|l { |l flgxliilkbkg vabrl li ikrca kbrdca avf|ra t li ravxra lg va`brk' Ik fmdfk km|tlgxö |g lvfkiaeràa {|l vlr~lgxlö ~ar v| lv~kihk ki ;5
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~lgvkr {|l ~|hdlrk vlr |gk l}xrkûk ~li|fk' ±[|ä mkfàk |gk xd~k fag li ~lia kvà) dg`öudi fa`a |gk lvxkx|k lg |g fk`dga hli ~kr{|l1 Hl ~ragxa) ik `|jlr hlvk~krlfdö t li xlrrar hljö e|i`dgkhk k @lc' Vl uaiudö ~krk lvfk~kr farrdlgha) ~lra j|vxa erlgxl k liik kukgzkbk Rl}-ia fag |g fdckrrdiia lgflghdha lgxrl iav hlhav' ^ar ia `lgav ulgàk vaik k ik fdxk' Ik l}~rlvdög x|rbkhk hl @lc mdza {|l vl il lvfk~krk |gk vagrdvk hl vkxdvekffdög) «xlgàk lg |g ~|ûa k k{|liik lvxú~dhk+ Rl}-ia kikrcö ik `kga lg |g clvxa liaf|lgxl ~krk {|l ik axrk il lgxrlckrk iav xrkbkjav' @lc ~krlfdö lv~kbdikrvl hl d`~raudva) er|gfdö li flûa t vl hda ~rdvk lg kbrdr ik `afmdik' ¯Xlg'¿ Ik bafk vl il xarfdö lg |gk l}~rlvdög hl hlv~rlfda `dlgxrkv il ~kvkbk ikv majkv' Rl}-ia ~|va fkrk hl hdvc|vxa t hda |gk fkikhk ki fdckrrdiia' ¯Ga `l c|vxk li ravk' ^ahàkv mkblr lilcdha axra faiar hl fkr~lxkv'¿ Majlö hl~rdvk iav xrkbkjav t v| kdrl hl v|~lrdardhkh vl lve|`ö' Kizö e|rdavk iav ajav mkfdk @lc' ¯±[|ä vdcgdedfk lvxa) `l lvxëv xa`kgha li ~lia1 ¿ @lc vl {|lhö dg`öudi) lgxrlflrrö k~lgkv iav ajav' ¯Xl ml xrkàha ia {|l {|lràkv) ±ga1¿ ¯«Mkv ~|lvxa x| ga`brl) frlxdgk+ «Mkv edr`kha fkhk ~ëcdgk fag x| ga`brl+¿ @lc vl fr|zö hl brkzav' Li farkzög il ikxàk fag e|lrzk) ~lra ga flhdö gd |g `dià`lxra erlgxl k k{|liik l}~rlvdög k`lgkzkhark' Mkbiö fag uaz edr`l: ¯^|lhlv uaiulr k fa~dkr xaha t edr`kria fag x| ga`brl' Lva lg fkva hl {|l vl~kv edr`kr ¿' Rl}-ia xdrö iav eaidav t li fdckrrdiia ki v|lia' ¯«Ga+ Ukv Ukv k vlr xú {|dlg ia mkck xaha axrk ulz t `l ia ukv k xrklr hlgxra hl `lhdk mark l}kfxk'¿ Vl `lxdö ikv `kgav lg iav baivdiiav hli kbrdca' Li farkzög hl @lc il vagkbk fa`a |g xk`bar lg li ~lfma `dlgxrkv lg v| `lgxl vl ear`kbk ik d`kclg hl ik gkukjk hl Rl}-ia' Vdg ;3
~kaIk Zkggaglr
rl~idfkr) vl hda `lhdk u|lixk k xahk ~rdvk rl~idfkr) ~r dvk t lfmö k farrlr far rlr fag e|rdavkv zkgfkhkv' Ik axrk jk`ëv iacrkràk kifkgzkrik) k{|liik ekgekrragk ga lrk |gk hl~arxdvxk fa`a liik) {|l farràk iav fdgfa `di t iav hdlz `di `lxrav' ”@lc li Fkbkiia— ik iik`kbkg v|v k`dckv) ~lra Rl}-ia ga ia vkbàk t) xrkv |gav fdlgxav hl `lxrav) flhlràk lgxrl d`~rlfkfdaglv' @dlgxrkv xkgxa) liik iilckràk k fkvk rahlkgha li ikca ~krk lv{|dukrik' Li udlgxa il bkxàk iav ekihaglv hli kbrdca? hl vd`~il brdvk) mkbàk ~kvkha k vlr |g va~ia d`~lx|ava {|l hlv~ljkbk li fdlia hl ikv g|blv avf|ràvd`kv) kva`kgha tk li bikgfa rleilja hl ik i|gk iilgk' Lg lvl `a`lgxa) @lc atö kizkrvl |g crdxa {|l vl ~raiagcö mkvxk fagulrxdrvl lg |gk lv~lfdl hl kikrdha' ^lgvö {|l Rl}-ia {|lràk hdulrxdrvl kv|vxëghaik ~krk {|l xra~lzkvl t k~rlv|rö iav ~kvav) ~krk khlgxrkrvl dg`lhdkxk`lgxl lg iav jkrhdglv lg hdrlffdög ki ikca' Vdg h|hk) kiià lgfagxrkràk k kic|dlg) k|g{|l vöia e|lrk k kic|gk ~krljk' Atö ~dvkhkv hlxrëv hl liik: Rl}-ia xrkxkbk hl vlc|drik) ~lar ~krk liik' Uaiudö Uaiudö idclrk`lgxl ik fkblzk ~krk `lhdr ik hdvxkgfdk t ia {|l uda il mliö ik vkgcrl' Li ravxra t ikv `kgav hl Rl}-ia vl mkbàkg f|bdlrxa hl |g ikrca ~likjl) ik fkrk vl il mkbàk fa`a kikrckha t lg v| bafk b afk kbdlrxk rli|fàkg hdlgxlv kedikhàvd`av' [|dlg ik vlc|àk ga lrk tk |g vlr m|`kga) vdga |g cdckgxlvfa iaba' «Ga lv ~avdbil) ga ~|lhl vlr ulrhkh+) crdxö ~krk và) t rlfarhö li xkx|kjl' @lg|ha `a`lgxa ~krk fa`~rlghlr {|l Rl}-ia lrk |g idfëgxra~a) j|vxa f|kgha ga xlgàk lvfk~kxardk: lvfk~kx ardk: li `agvxr|a ckgkbk xlrrlga) ~ahàk vlgxdr k v| lv~kihk v| ckia~khk e|rdavk t lv~lrkbk hl |g `a`lgxa k axra li dgl}arkbil kxk{|l' @lc vl ~lrfkxö hl {|l li iaba mkbàk vkixkha ~krk k~rlvkrik l mdza |g {|dlbra fa`a |gk ckflik' Li ~kr{|l lvxkbk dgmkbdx|ki`lgxl hlvdlrxa t) t) ~ar `|fma {|l farràk a crdxkbk) gkhdl vkiàk hl ;=
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hlxrëv hl |g ërbai) gkhdl ~ahàk dgxlrulgdr ~krk kt|hkrik' Vöia ikv vdi|lxkv avf|rkv hl iav ërbailv kvdvxàkg d`~kvdbilv k k{|li lv~lfxëf|ia d`~rlvdagkgxl: |gk fmdfk ~lrvlc|dhk ~ar |g k|xägxdfa idfëgxra~a' @lc fk`bdö rl~lgxdgk`lgxl hl hdrlffdög ~krk xa`kr hl g|lua kica hl ulgxkjk t k~raulfmö ~krk uaiulrvl' Uda fag marrar {|l li iaba vl ikgzkbk lg ~av hl liik fag li mafdfa ~ar hlikgxl t |gk l}~rlvdög hl hdver|xl hlvlgerlgkha' Ik ~lrvlf|fdög ia lgkrhlfàk' Li xlrrar il mdza ~lrhlr k @lc li fagxrai hl v| fkrrlrk) il ~krlfàk {|l v|v ~|i`aglv dbkg k lvxkiikr) lvxkiikr) ik vkgcrl il `krxdiilkbk lg ikv vdlglv t xra~lzö t fktö f|kg ikrck lrk' Lv~lrkbk {|l ik blvxdk vl il lfmkràk lgfd`k lgvlc|dhk t il fikukràk iav hdlgxlv) ~lra ga v|flhdö kvà' Atö) lg fk`bda) |g cr|ûdha bkja) fa`a vd rlzagckrk) l d`kcdgö {|l li iaba {|lràk j|ckr fag liik fa`a li ckxa fag li rkxög' \gkv e|lrxlv ~dvkhkv mdfdlrag rlx|`bkr li xlrrlga k ~afav ~kvav hlikgxl hl liik t |g r|cdha dg|ghö li kdrl' @lc kizö ik fkblzk t uda hlikgxl hl liik k |g dg`lgva ava crdv fag ikv ek|flv kbdlrxkv' V| ~lgvk`dlgxa l}~iaxö l}~iax ö lg `diiaglv hl ~lhkzav glcrav {|l il bia{|lkrag ik `lgxl) t vl lgravfö dgvxdgxduk`lgxl fa`a |g lrdza' K~rlxö iav ajav) ~lra iav uaiudö k kbrdr lgvlc|dhk l`~|jkhk ~ar |gk dgludxkbil f|rdavdhkh' Uda ki iaba kedkgzkrvl vabrl vab rl v|v f|kxra ~kxkv) cr|ûlgha fag ik fkblzk ckfmk? li ava vl ilukgxö lgxagflv vabrl v|v ~kxkv xrkvlrkv) t k @lc il ~krlfdö {|l vl mkfàk cdckgxlvfa t ~ahlrava fa`a |g rabil' Li iaba) lg ulz hl rlf|ikr) vl k~rlvxö k vkixkr: habiö idclrk`lgxl ikv ~kxkv ~avxlrdarlv t vl liluö lg li kdrl fag ikv ek|flv kbdlrxkv' ^lra li ava vkfö |gk zkr~k l mdgfö ikv |ûkv lg ik fr|z hli iaba ~krk lvxrliikria i|lca) fag e|lrzk) fagxrk li v|lia' Li iaba rahö fa`a |gk fkgdfk) `dlgxrkv v| crdxa vl k~kckbk fagxrk ik xdlrrk fa`a |gk faidiik' V| va`brk vl lvfkb|iiö idclrk) ;4
~kaIk Zkggaglr
t @lc ga ~|ha hdvxdgc|dr vd v| vl`bikgxl mkbàk u|lixa k vlr li hl Rl}-ia' Lg k{|li `a`lgxa) xahk v| kxlgfdög lvxkbk flgxrkhk lg li ava lrc|dha kgxl liik' Ik i|gk iilgk mkfàk rle|icdr v| ~dli fa`a vd e|lrk hl ~ikxk t @lc ga vdgxdö `dlha kic|ga? ki fagxrkrda) |gk l}xrkûk fki`k vl k~ahlrö hl liik) xkgxa e|l kvà {|l kbkghagö v| lgfacdhk ~avx|rk t vl dgfar~arö ilgxk`lgxl mkvxk vlgxkrvl' Lgxagflv) kgxl v|v ajav dgfräh|iav) li ava ~lrhdö v|v fagxargav) vl l`~l{|lûlfdö t vl fagudrxdö lg ik `|jlr hl ikrca fkbliia brdiikgxl {|l mkbàk udvxa k ik lgxrkhk hli ~kr{|l' Fag |g liëvxdfa `aud`dlgxa) vl kf|fidiiö j|gxa k liik' Hl flrfk) @lc vl hda f|lgxk hl {|l ga lrk xkg udljk fa`a k vd`~il udvxk ~ahàk ~krlflr hlbdha ki fkbliia fkb liia crdv t ik ra~k xkg avf|rk' Iav ajav) lg ~krxdf|ikr) ~krxdf|ikr) lrkg `|t uduav) t v| f|lr~a ~krlfàk eil}dbil) hl lv~kihk `|t rlfxk' ¯±[|däg lv |vxlh1¿) iacrö bkib|fdr edgki`lgxl' ¯±Lvxëv bdlg1¿) ~rlc|gxö k v| v | ulz ik `|jlr `|jl r' Xlgàk Xlgàk |gk uaz u az `|t kcrkhkbil) hl xaga fki`kha' @lc kvdgxdö) ~lra hlv~|äv glcö fag ik fkblzk: ¯Ga) frla {|l lvxat lgelr`k' ^|lhl {|l lvxä hlidrkgha' hlidrkg ha' Ia `dv`a `l hlv~dlrxa t hlvf|bra {|l lvxa lv |gk ~lvkhdiik ¿' Ik `|jlr ik `drkbk fag f|rdavdhkh? v| ravxra) haghl ikv ~|~dikv xdxdikbkg fa`a iik`dxkv glcrkv) lrk xkg ~ëidha {|l ~krlfàk hl ~arflikgk xrkgv~krlgxl' @lc x|ua ik xlrrdbil vav~lfmk hl {|l vl xrkxkvl hl |gk lv~lfdl hl ekgxkv`k) kvà {|l il ~rlc|gxö fag |g mdia hl uaz: ¯±\vxlh ~lrxlglfl k ävxl a ki axra `|gha1 ¿' Ik `|jlr dgfidgö idclrk`lgxl ik fkblzk' ¯Lg axra xdl`~a ~lrxlglfàk ki `|gha) ~lra ga k ävxl'¿ ^krlfàk |g lgdc`k) t @lc ~lgvö {|l mkbàk kflrxkha: kflrx kha: k{|liik `|jlr) `|jlr) gd udljk gd jaulg) vöia ~ahàk vlr |g lv~àrdx|' Vl mkbàk xrkgvear`kha lg ava) ik mkbàk hlelghdha fagxrk li idfëgxra~a t) t) kmark) ±{|ä {|lràk hl h l liik1 2>
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^ar lva) xrkxkgha hl lvfk~kr lh|fkhk`lgxl hl k{|liik ~rlvlgfdk |ixrkxlrrlgk) hdja: ¯Frla {|l vl `l mk mlfma xkrhl' @d `khrl lvxkrë ~rlaf|~khk''' Xlgca {|l dr`l ¿' Lvx|ua ~ar `arhlrvl iav ikbdav: mkbàk vdha `|t kgxd~ëxdfk fag li lv~àrdx| {|l kfkbkbk hl vkiukril ik udhk' ±T vd vl mkbàk aelghdha1 ^ahàk rk~xkrik) fagh|fdrik {|däg vkbl khöghl' ^lra ik `|jlr hli fkbliia ~ikxlkha ga vl hlvfa`~|va t rl~idfö lg xaga kgclidfki: ¯Ta xk`bdäg xlgca fdlrxk ~rdvk' Xlgca ~a{|àvd`a xdl`~a) t xú kúg xdlglv {|l vkblria xaha¿' ¯±Vkblria xaha''' hl {|ä1¿) ikv ~kikbrkv vl il lvfk~krag vdg {|lrlr)) ~ar{|l lrk fagvfdlgxl hl {|l ikv ~rlc|gxkv ik `kgxlgàkg {|lrlr `kgx lgàkg fikukhk kiià) f|kgha m|bdlrk {|lrdha lvxkr k `di odiö`lxrav' Ik `|jlr vl ~|va lg ~dl fa`a |g `|liil) k~krlgxl`lgxl vdg lve|lrza' ¯Lv mark hl {|l xú x ú kv|`kv li ~ahlr) ~ahlr) ga xlgl`av `|fma xdl`~a'¿ ¯±[|ä ~ahlr1 ±[|ä xdl`~a1¿ @lc ik lvfr|xkbk hlvhl kbkja) vlgxkhk lg li v|lia xahkuàk' Ik i|gk rli|fàk vabrl ik fkblzk hl ik `|jlr) `|jlr) {|l ~krlfàk fdrf|ghkhk ~ar |g ~aiua i|`dgdvflgxl' Il xlghdö |gk `kga k ik fmdfk t @lc vl lgfagxrö hl ~dl) ~lra lvxkbk vlc|rk hl {|l ga ik mkbàk kckrrkha kckrr kha gd vl mkbàk d`~|ivkha ~krk ilukgxkrvl' ¯Lrlv ik lilcdhk'¿ Ik `|jlr lvbazö |gk vagrdvk' ¯Hlblv vkiukrxl k xd `dv`k lg axra `|gha) lg axra xdl`~a' ¿ @lc xrkxö hl a~aglr kica hl rlvdvxlgfdk erlgxl k k{|liikv erkvlv dgfa`~rlgvdbilv' Lvxkbk vlc|rk hl {|l) ~krk lgxagflv) v| `khrl lvxkràk uaiudäghavl `lhda iafk t vl mkbràk lgckgfmkha ki xliäeaga ~krk iafkidzkrik' Rlv|ixkbk l}xrkûa {|l li `öudi ga vagkrk) xki ulz lg k{|li ~|gxa xkg hlvaikha hli ~kr{|l ga mkbàk fablrx|rk' ^lra ik ~aidfàk) kilrxkhk ~ar v| `khrl) ga xkrhkràk x krhkràk lg iilckr t k{|liik edc|rk iiaudhk hl ik i|gk hlvk~krlflràk' 2;
~kaIk Zkggaglr
¯±Lg {|ä `|gha1 ±Xdlgl |vxlh |gk gkul lv~kfdki1 ¿ Ik `|jlr lvxkiiö lg fkrfkjkhkv' ¯«\gk gkul lv~kfdki+ Ga) ga'
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Hlbàk hl xrkxkrvl hl |g v|lûa) ga mkbàk h|hk' Xlgàk Xlgàk lvl `dv`a k`bdlgxl hl faiarlv hlvukàhav) ik `dv`k d`~ki~kbdidhkh hl iav abjlxav: xaha lrk lukglvflgxl' @lc ga mkbràk ~ahdha hlfdr höghl vl lgfagxrkbk) vd lg |g i|ckr flrrkha a ki kdrl idbrl) a vd lrk hl hàk a hl gafml) ~ar{|l ~krlfàk fa`a vd ik rahlkrk |g m|`a hlgva a ik gdlbik) ~lra ga ~lrfdbàk aiar k m|`a t xk`~afa li eràa ~|gzkgxl hl ik gdlbik' Vl `drö iav brkzav t ikv ~dlrgkv) t uda {|l iilukbk iav uk{|lrav hl favx|`brl t ikv zk~kxdiikv hl hl~arxl) kvà {|l ~|lhl {|l v|erdlrk |gk hl lvkv ~lvkhdiikv {|l ~rauafk ik edlbrl kixk) f|kgha ikv d`ëclglv vl v|flhlg uliaz`lgxl) hlvlgeafkhkv t rl~lxdhkv) ~lra vdl`~rl ulv) fa`a lg |gk `audaik lgia{|lfdhk) li `dv`a clvxa a kffdög' @lc dgxlgxö l}~idfkrvl ia af|rrdha t li rkzagk`dlgxa il f|khrkbk: `dlgxrkv vl hdrdcàk ki ~kr{|l) hl rl~lgxl ik edlbrl il mkbàk v|bdha `|fma) {|dzë vl mkbàk fkàha t vl mkbàk cai~lkha ik fkblzk t) t) hlvhl lvl `a`lgxa) lvxkbk hlidrkgha' Lg lvl lvxkha hl ki|fdgkfdög mkbàk udvxa k |gk kgfdkgk fagulrxdrvl lg ava t k v| fa`~kûlrk hl failcda xrkgvear`krvl lg idfëgxra~a' Lvkv favkv af|rràkg k ulflv lg iav hlidrdav' Vl kfarhkbk `|t `|t bdlg hl f|kgha lrk ~l{|lûk t xlgàk l}xrkûkv l}xrk ûkv udvdaglv) t hl fö`a fö`a kifkgzkbk kifkg zkbk k ~lrfdbdr ~lrfdbd r |g `|gha hl ~l{|lûkv frdkx|rkv lvfaghdhkv ~ar xahkv ~krxlv' ^ragxa mkbàk k~rlghdha 26
~kaIk Zkggaglr
{|l ga ~ahàk mkbikr hl liia fag v| `khrl) {|l vl vagrlàk' ¯@lc xdlgl |gk crkg ekgxkvàk¿) ~krlfàk j|vxdedfkrik kgxl iav hl`ëv) l dgfi|va vl mkbàk m kbàk lgarc|iilfdha f|kgha v| mdjk lrk `| `|tt ~l{|lûk' Hlv~|äv) k{|liik ekgxkvàk vl mkbàk u|lixa dgfö`ahk: @lc tk ga ~ahàk mkbikr hl ~l{|lûav vlrlv {|l k~krlfàkg hl hlxrëv hl iav vlxav hli ~kr{|l) tk lrk |gk jaulgfdxk' jaulgfdxk' T ga vl kxrluàk kx rluàk k hlfdr hlfd r {|l) xrkv ik vagrdvk hl kic|dlg) ~|lhl ~|lhl {|l kic|gk fagafdhk `|t vd`~ëxdfk) mkbàk mkbà k udvi|`brkha li mafdfa hl |g hl~rlhkhar hl~rlh khar'' Ga hlbàk hlbàk vlc|dr fage|ghdlgha ik rlkidhkh fag ik ekgxkvàk) vdga k~rlghlr k ¯`kgljkr v| d`kcdgkfdö d`kcdg kfdögg¿) fa`a il kfagvljkbk v| `khrl' Kvà {|l ludxkbk mkbikr hl vlgvkfdaglv l}xrkûkv l}xrkû kv t kixlrkfda k ixlrkfdaglv glv hl ik ~lrfl~fdög fag v| `khrl t) gkx|rki`lgxl) fag ikv axrkv fmdfkv) {|l ik fagvdhlrkbkg fagvdhlrkbkg |g ~afa hl`kvdkha rkrk fa`a ~krk vlr v|v k`dckv' Mkbàk xrkxkha x rkxkha hl khk~xkr khk~xkrvl) vl) d`dxkgha li fa`~arxk fa`~arxk`dlg`dlgxa t ik kfxdx|h kfx dx|h hl ikv hl`ëv) flrrkgha ik xk~k hl k{|liik aiik {|l ~krlfàk mlrudr hlgxra hl liik' ^lra ^lra k ulflv v|flhàk {|l ik aiik vl hlvxk~kbk t) t) hl ~ragxa) @lc vl v|`àk v|` àk lg |g ¯lvxkha hl fage|vdög¿) kvà ia mkbàk m kbàk iik`kha li `ähdfa' Li `|gha `|gha `avxrkbk axrk fkrk) ikv frdkx|rdxkv fr dkx|rdxkv {|l ik rahlkbkg ik iik`kbkg) i ik`kbkg) iav rlië`~kcav il ~kvkbkg razkgha razk gha'' Li `ähdfa `ähdfa)) lgxagflv) il rlflxkbk fki`kgxlv fk i`kgxlv t ki fkba hl ~afav hàkv hàk v xaha uaiuàk uaiuàk k lvxkr lvx kr bkja fagxrai' ^rabkbil`lgxl) xk`bdäg kmark vl lgfagxrkbk lg v| fk`k lv~lrkgha {|l) fag |g b|lg varba hl kc|k) ik ~kvxdiik kiljkrk ki `lgav k{|liik vlgvkfdög hl uärxdca {|l l}~lrd`lgxkbk: ~krlfàk lvxkr v|bdhk k ik fd`k hl h l |gk `agxkûk' ¯«Gdcrlha+¿ Ik uaz il iilcö fa`a |g lfa iljkga' Lrk ik uaz hl ik `|jlr hl fkbliiav hl ~ikxk) li ekgxkv`k hl v| ~lvkhdiik' ¯Lv li ~rd`lr fagafd`dlgxa) {|lrdhk'¿ Hl ~ragxa) ik gdlbik hlvk~krlfdö t @lc kbrdö iav ajav erlgxl ki kbdv`a bkja liik' Vl hda f|lgxk) fag marrar) marrar) hl {|l lvxkbk hl ~dl 28
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crkghlv ~ikxav hl |g `lxki avf|ra' Li flgxra hl ik `lvk lvxkbk ~rlvdhdha ~ar |gk fkgkvxk iilgk hl er|xk) rahlkhk hl ~l{|lûav f|lgfav fag kfldx|gkv t er|xav vlfav' Ik `|jlr hl fkbliia ~ikxlkha kbrdö |ga hl iav `|lbilv avf|rav t vkfö |gav lguaixardav) iav k~atö lg li xkbilra v|~lrdar t) fag `aud`dlgxav ~rlfdvav) hl~avdxö kica {|l k @lc il ~krlfdö |gk mackzk hl ~kg t |g ~kr hl baiiav lg |gk e|lgxl hl `lxki {|l ~|va lg ik fmd`lglk) iljav hl ikv iik`kv ~krk {|l ga vl {|l`krkg' ^ragxa li kdrl vl iilgö hl |g hlidfdava kra`k t @lc lv~lrö fag vdilgfdavk d`~kfdlgfdk {|l li baiia lvx|udlrk mlfma' Vöia hlv~|äv hl mkblr hluarkha |g b|lg xraza ~|ha mkbikr ~ar edg' ¯«Lvxë b|lgàvd`a+ ±[|ä lv1¿ Ik `|jlr hli fkbliia hl ~ikxk) {|l `arhdv{|lkbk k~lgkv v| fa`dhk) l}~idfö: ¯\g baiia fag |ukv) `dli t jkrkbl hl erk`b|lvk¿' ¯±Xk`bdäg ik fa`dhk lv `ëcdfk1¿) ~rlc|gxö @lc' ¯«Vd fagvdc|dlrk {|l e|lrkv `lgav d`~lrxdglgxl) vlràk tk |g lgar`l varxdilcda+¿ @lc er|gfdö li flûa' ¯Rlfagaflrëv {|l `l ikv mkv mlfma ~kvkr fkg|xkv'¿ ¯±[|ä {|dlrlv hlfdr1¿ Lg li ravxra hl ik `|jlr vl hdb|jö |gk vdgflrk var~rlvk' ¯Và) b|lga) {|l `l rk~xkv lg li ~kr{|l) `l xdrkv ~ar |g ~rlfd~dfda) `l mkflv udkjkr bkja xdlrrk) ~ar ~afa hljkv {|l `l {|l`l uduk t i|lca iilckv xahk kxlgxk ~krk ulvxdr`l''' Hlxrëv hl xaha lvxa xdlgl {|l mkblr kica' ±[|ä {|dlrlv hl `à1 ¿ Ik `|jlr hli fkbliia hl ~ikxk `audö ilul`lgxl ik fkblzk' ¯Aiudhkv {|l xl ml vkiukha hl ik fmdfk-iaba' ¿ @lc ik `drö' ¯±T vd ik m|bdlrkv `kghkha xú1¿ 66
fagxlvxö lvf|lxk`lgxl ik `|jlr' ¯Kic|dlg hdvxdgxa) ±{|däg1¿) dgvdvxdö @lc fag kdrl mavxdi' ¯Lg v| `a`lgxa xl ia hdrä'¿ Ik l}~rlvdög hl ik `|jlr rlxa`ö v| d`~kvdbdidhkh t @lc rlva~iö' ¯«U «Uktk) ktk) u|liulv k mkflrxl ik `dvxlrdavk+ ±Vl ~|lhl vkblr {|ä lv ia {|l af|rrl1 ±[|däg lrlv t {|ä {|dlrlv hl `à1 ¿ ¯Mk iilckha li `a`lgxa hl {|l ia vl~kv ¿) li xaga hl ik `|jlr vl mdza crkul) ¯~lra kgxlv lrk glflvkrda li udkjl hli fagafd`dlgxa' Kh`dxa {|l mk vdha''' ±fö`a mkv hdfma1 Km) và) {|l ikv mkv ~kvkha fkg|xkv' Gar`ki`lgxl) li rlfarrdha lv crkh|ki) ~lra ga hdv~agàk hl `|fma xdl`~a' Mk vdha glflvkrda mkflrxl kh{|drdr li ~ahlr xaha j|gxa¿' @lc lvxkbk k ~|gxa hl kbrdr ik bafk ~krk rl~idfkr) ~lra ik `|jlr ik fkiiö fag |gk vd`~il `drkhk' ¯Lg axra xdl`~a) ikv fmdfkv hl x| lhkh lrkg tk k~rlghdflv) k~rlgh dflv) ~lra ula {|l lg x| ä~afk mk fk`bdkha li |`brki hl kfflva k ik `kcdk' Lg faghdfdaglv gar`kilv) gav mkbràk`av lgfagxrkha hlgxra hl |gav `lvlv t mkbràk`av dgdfdkha li fagafd`dlgxa'¿ ¯Lgxdlgha) lgxdlgha¿) ik dgxlrr|`~dö @lc) {|l) k hlfdr ulrhkh) ga mkbàk lgxlghdha hl`kvdkha' ±^ar {|däg {|lràk mkflrvl ~kvkr lvxk `|jlr xkg rkrk1 ±^ar |gk lv~lfdl hl `klvxrk hl ia af|ixa1 Kvà ~|lv) mdza ik ~rlc|gxk `ëv |rclgxl: ¯Dgvdvxlv lg {|l xdlglv fdlrxk ~rdvk) ~lra ±~krk {|ä1¿' Ik `|jlr er|gfdö ilul`lgxl li lgxrlflja t edjö v|v avf|rav ajav lg iav hl @lc' V|v drdv ~krlfdlrag flgxliilkr fa`a fkrbaglv lgflghdhav' ¯Lg lvxl `a`lgxa) `dlgxrkv lvxëv k{|à fag`dca) vlgxkhk xrkg{|dik`lgxl fa`dlgha t ~agdlgha rl~krav) lg axra i|ckr lvxëv faghlgkhk k `|lrxl ~ar |g xrdb|gki {|l xl mk hlfikrkha f|i~kbil hl br|jlràk'¿ 68
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Li r|cdha ik l`bdvxdö fa`a |gk rëekck kbrkvkhark t ik vkfö hli xar~ar lg {|l mkbàk fkàha lg ik avf|rdhkh hl ik flihk mú`lhk' Li haiar rlfr|hlfdö ablhlfdlgha fag fr|li flia k k{|li k|iidha blvxdki) li farkzög l`~lzö k cai~lkril fagxrk li ~lfma fa`a vd {|dvdlrk lvfk~krvl hl kiià hlgxra t uaikr iljav' Vl mkbràk hlv~ia`kha fa`a |g vkfa ukfàa vd iav brkzav {|l ik krrkvxrkbkg e|lrk hl ik mkbdxkfdög ga ik m|bdlrkg vavxlgdha fag e|lrzk' Tk Tk ga lrk ik fmdfk rab|vxk t iilgk hl lglrcàk hl axrav xdl`~av) k{|liik {|l xlgàk |gav brkzav xkg e|lrxlv t ~dlrgkv xkg udcaravkv {|l ~ahàk farrlr f|lvxk kbkja ~ar |gk ikhlrk vavxlgdlgha k |g xlrglra' ”@krck li Xara Xara—) ik iik`kbkg lgxagflv lg vlûki hl kh`drkfdög ~ar v| e|lrzk) ~lra xk`bdäg ”@krck li Kvga— f|kgha rlxkbk k iav fmdfav lg ik fkrrlrk fag |g vkfa ki ma`bra t ckgkbk) t ”@krck Vdg Eagha— f|kgha blbàk hl |g xrkca ikv jkrrkv hl flrulzk xdbdk rlbavkgxlv hl lv~|`k' ^lra jk`ëv ”br|jk—' Gkhdl il mkbàk hdfma g|gfk lvk ~kikbrk' Ik ~rd`lrk ulz {|l kic|dlg ik mkbàk ~rag|gfdkha ~rag|gfdkh a hlikgxl hl liik e|l f|kgha iav vaihkhav vl ik iilukbkg' Äi) k{|li ma`brl lv~kgxava) ik mkbàk `drkha edjk`lgxl fag v|v ajav dgfkghlvflgxlv ~ar 63
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K{|liia lrk) vdg h|hk) li dgedlrga fag v|v marrdbilv xar`lgxav: ik mkbàkg iilukha uduk k lvl i|ckr ~krk {|l fagelvkrk) ~krk {|l hdjlrk {|däg lrk lg rlkidhkh' Am) ga) ga lrk |gk vd`~il fk`~lvdgk vdg ~khrlv) li xarx|rkhar ~krlfàk vkblria `ljar {|l liik' ±^ar {|ä rlfacàk mdlrbkv t ikv `kfmkfkbk `kfmkf kbk lg li `arxlra1 ±[|däg il mkbàk lgvlûkha lvkv ~rëfxdfkv1 ±Lrk fdlrxa {|l ~ahàk mkbikr fag iav kgd`kilv) t {|l hl gafml uaikbk fag axrkv br|jkv1 Liik ga uaikbk' ^lra xlgàk li ~ahlr) t g|gfk vl ia rlulikràk k k{|li hl`agda' F|kgha li kc|jög ik mkbàk xrkv~kvkha) li ~ahlr ik mkbàk vkfkha e|lrk hl v| f|lr~a t il mkbàk mlfma fagxl`~ikr hlvhl ia kixa li ravxra) iav ajav hlvlgfkjkhav) ik bafk kbdlrxk) ik edc|rk lgxlrk xlghdhk vabrl ik `lvk' Li ~ahlr il mkbàk rlfarhkha {|l liik ga lrk vaik`lgxl k{|li f|lr~a v|erdlgxl t ik mkbàk mkbà k iilukha iljav hl kiià) k v|v k`khav bav{|lv) k ik e|lgxl t k ik f|luk hl ik `klvxrk' K{|li lrk li i|ckr haghl mkbàk rlfdbdha li fagafd`dlgxa' Ik ~rd`lrk ulz {|l mkbàk dha lrk bkvxkgxl b kvxkgxl ~l{|lûk) ga rlfarhkbk fö`a mkbàk iilckha mkvxk kiià: mkbàk vdha li ~ahlr li {|l ik mkbàk c|dkha' Vl il mkbàk mkbà k k~krlfdha |gk `|jlr kixk t rlv~ikghlfdlgxl) fdrf|ghkhk ~ar |gk i|z {|l uaiuàk flgxliilkgxlv v|v ajav t harkhkv v|v ikrckv xrlgzkv' Ga e|l mkvxk `|fma hlv~|äv f|kgha @krck fa`~rlghdö {|l k{|liik udvdög flckhark vl hlbdö ki e|lca rlfdäg kxdzkha) {|l lv~krfàk fmdv~kv ~ar xahk ik cr|xk' Ki ~rdgfd~da) ik gdûk ~lgvö {|l vl lgfagxrkbk kgxl |g mkhk fa`a k{|liikv hl ikv {|l mkbikbk v| kb|lik hlikgxl hli e|lca ~ar ikv gafmlv' Mkhkv t h|lghlv ~abikbkg li bav{|l) lvfaghdhav hlxrëv hl `kxajav t bkja ikv ~dlhrkv) lgxrl iav ërbailv t ikv zkrzkv) t ik udljk fagxkbk fö`a vl hdulrxàkg ckvxkgha bra`kv k ik clgxl' Mkbàk {|l `kgxlglrvl iljav hl iav h|lghlv) ga `ailvxkr k ikv 64
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mkbikbk' Kflrfkbk ik fkrk k v| arljk t il v|v|rrkbk ~rlc|gxkv {|l iav axrav ma`brlv ga ~ahàkg aàr: ¯Hd`l vd xdlglv xdlgl v li ~ahlr) {|däg xl ia mk hkha) t vkiukrëv x| udhk¿' ¯Ik `klvxrk'''¿) mkbàk `|r`|rkha) l}mk|vxk' ¯Ik `klvxrk) ±{|däg1 V| ga`brl'¿ ¯Xlk''' Krxl` Kr xl`dk''' dk'''¿ Il udgdlrag ud gdlrag k ik fkblzk iav ga`brlv fag {|l ik iik`kbkg {|dlglv ear`kbkg ear`kbkg ik edik hl vaidfdxkgxlv hl rl`lhdav rl`lhdav t mlfmdzav' ¯Vdiukgk'''¿ ¯«@dlgxlv+¿) li ma`brl mkbàk kizkha v| xaga hl uaz' ¯Ga lv lvxa ia {|l {|dlra vkblr' vkblr' V| ulrhkhlra ga`brl' ¿ Hl rl~lgxl) @krck mkbàk vlgxdha |g kc|hàvd`a haiar lg li brkza t mkbàk ~raelrdha |g crdxa br|xki' ¯«Ga ia vä+¿ ¯Hdia t vkiukrëv x| udhk' ¿ ¯Ga ia vä' V| ga`brl lv vlfrlxa' Xahkuàk ga lvxat ~rl~krkhk'¿ Li j|lz vl mkbàk dgfidgkha dgf idgkha vabrl liik t @krck ~ahàk ulr v| `drkhk krhdlgxl) fa`a vd x|udlrk |gk edlbrl ckia~kgxl' V|v ajav ~krlfàkg lvfr|xkrik mkvxk lg iav `ëv ~rae|ghav rlfaulfav rlfaulfav hl v| ki`k' ¯Lvxëv ~rl~krkhk' Liik xl mk hljkha v| `krfk'¿ T vdg l`bkrca) @krck ga lvxkbk idvxk hli xaha' Mkbàk k~rlghdha iav ga`brlv hl ikv mdlrbkv `lhdfdgkilv) vkbàk ~rl~krkr |gcùlgxav t rl`lhdav ~krk ikv lgelr`lhkhlv t f|rkbk k ik clgxl hli ~|lbia' Xahav Xahav lvxkbkg lgxlrkhav lgxlrkh av hl v| k~rlghdzkjl fag f ag ik `kck hli bav{|l) t iav ~rd`lrav lg k~rabkria mkbàkg vdha v|v xàav' ^lra xahkuàk ga ha`dgkbk ~ilgk`lgxl ik `kcdk' Lv fdlrxa {|l ~ahàk mkbikr fag iav h|lghlv h |lghlv hl ikv ~ikgxkv t hli vaxabav{|l) kflrfkrvl k iav kgd`kilv vkiukjlv) iik`kr k ik ilfm|zk t li mkifög) dgxlr~rlxkr li u|lia hl iav ckgvav a khdudgkr ik iilckhk hl |gk xar`lgxk) ~lra ga lvxkbk fk~kfdxkhk ~krk |vkr ik e|lrzk hli rkta gd lilukrvl hli v|lia fa`a vd v| f|lr~a e|lvl |gk g|86
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eör`|ikv `ëcdfkv lgxrl ikbdav) dgxlrfkikgha ikv erkvlv: ¯Vkgxk @kràk Udrclg) Udrclg) iàbrk`l hl xaha `ki {|l ik xdlrrk ia rlfaclrë) idblrk gav lx ark ~ra gabdv ~lffkxardb|v) ta fag lvxl clvxa li `ki ekgxkv`ki km|tlgxa'''¿' Hl d`~raudva) v| ga`brl rlvagö lg `lhda hl iav crdxav hlvfa`~|lvxav t iav dgv|ixav' ¯«@krck+¿ Ki aàr k{|li crdxa kdvikha) xahav vl ~|vdlrag k iik`krik) lg |gk lv~lfdl hl fkgxdglik b|riagk: ¯«@krck) @krck+¿' Li farkzög vl il ~krö |g dgvxkgxl) ~krk i|lca uaiulr k ikxdril fag e|rdk' @drö mkfdk li ~|gxa hli {|l ~raflhàk ik uaz: k|g{|l ga iacrkbk hdvxdgc|dria) mkbàk fa`~rlghdha {|l äi lvxkbk kiià) ga iljav hl liik' ¯±Fag {|däg xl lgfagxrkbkv lg li bav{|l1 bav{ |l1¿) mkbàk ~rlc|gxkha fag dgvdvxlgfdk ik uaz mdrdlgxl hli j|lz) fav{|diilëghail ik arljk' Liik lvxkbk xkg dg`lrvk lg li haiar t li `dlha {|l ga ~lgvö) gd ~ar |g `a`lgxa) lg li fmdfa {|l mkbàk fagafdha `lvlv kxrëv) lg ik edlvxk hl ~rd`kulrk' ±Kfkva lrk k äi k {|dlg li j|lz {|lràk hlvf|brdr)) khl`ëv hl k ik `klvxrk1 hlvf|brdr ¯Iav ga`brlv) {|dlra iav ga`brlv ga`brlv hl ikv axrkv br|jkv t hl iav br|jav'¿ ¯«Ga mkt gkhdl `ëv+¿ ¯«L`b|vxlrk+ ±T li k{|likrrl1¿ Li ma`brl {|lràk kbrludkr t) fa`a vd fagafdlrk bdlg ik edlvxk) mkbàk rlikxkha lg xaga fkvd ~lrv|kvdua: ¯Ik gafml hli e|lca) ik edlvxk hl `lhdkhav hli h li ulrkga''' Ik r|lhk iik`lkgxl cdrkgha ~ar iav fk`~av t li m|`a hlblràkg kiljkria) ~lra lg rlkidhkh ia l}fdxkg) t li hl`agda vl `|lvxrk lg ~ilgk gafml lg li Crkg K{|likrrl ~krk |gdrvl fag ik lilcdhk) ik crkg br|jk'''¿' Ik `lgxl hl @krck mkbàk uaikha k ik `krkudiiavk edlvxk hl `lhdkhav hli ulrkga) f|kgha li hàk vl hl`arkbk lg |g xdl`~a 85
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ulz liik mkbràk ~lrhdha' ^ar{|l vöia fag `drkria il xl`bikbkg ikv ~dlrgkv) il ikxàk fag e|lrzk li farkzög: ±lv {|l il mkbràk mlfma blblr k lvfaghdhkv ik udgfk~lrudgfk lgfkgxkhk) ik mdlrbk {|l mkfl lgk`arkrvl1 Vl mkbàkg xa`kha hl ik `kga t mkbàkg vkixkha j|gxav k xrkuäv hli m|`a) t i|lca mkbàkg farrdha ~ar li ~rkha) kmark {|l li fdlia ~krlfàk ~ar edg flrrkr v| dg`lgva aja kz|i t ~lr`dxdr k lgk`arkhav fa`a liiav kbrkzkrvl ~raxlcdhav ~ar li `kgxa hl ik gafml' Kmark) Hk`dlg lvxkbk kiià flrfk) j|vxa ki ikha hli fkrra' Vdgxdö |g lvxrl`lfd`dlgxa hl elidfdhkh) lgvlc|dhk kmackhk ~ar li `dlha: ga xlgàk {|l hljkrvl hlvf|brdr a k{|liiav ma`brlv ia fk~x|rkràkg xk`bdäg k äi) ki fa`~kûlra hl ik br|jk) ~krk dgeidcdril iav `dv`av v|erd`dlgxav {|l k liik' Vl abidcö k ga uaiulr `ëv ik fkblzk mkfdk li ~|gxa hli {|l il mkbàk iilckha ik iik`khk) `kgx|ua ik `drkhk mkfdk kbkja? khl`ëv) ik fk~|fmk il hljkbk ulr `|t ~afa' Lvxkbkg tk flrfk) ~ahàk hdvxdgc|dr ikv xkbikv hli ~kxàb|ia {|l vabrlvkiàk ~ar lgfd`k hl ik `|ixdx|h' Ik ilukgxkrag ~ar iav brkzav t iav haiarlv vl kc|hdzkrag hl g|lua' Vl il g|biö ik udvxk t ik fkblzk l`~lzö k hkril u|lixkv fa`a vd li v|lia lg {|l k~atkbk iav ~dlv m|bdlrk fa`lgzkha k agh|ikr'' \ga hl iav ma`brlv vl il ~ikgxö hlxrëv t ik vavx|ua) li agh|ikr axra il lfmö mkfdk kxrëv ik fk~|fmk' Ik `|fmlh|`brl r|cdö ki ulr v| fkblzk rk~khk) ~lra liik gd vl hda f|lgxk) ~ar{|l v|v ajav vl edjkrag) marrardzkhav) lg ik ~dik hl ilûk k iav ~dlv hli ~avxl' Dbkg k {|l`krik) fa`a ki ëgcli hli ulrkga' Dgvxdgxduk`lgxl) earfljlö ~krk vaixkrvl) mkfdlgha fkva a`dva hl ikv ~|gzkhkv lg v| lv~kihk' Crdxö fag xaha li kdrl hl v|v ~|i`aglv t v| rlkffdög mdza {|l li clgxàa vl lgx|vdkv`krk) ~raedrdlrk crdxav t bkxdlrk ~ki`kv' Iav hav ma`brlv k~lgkv ~ahàkg 84
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