Znlr bhgzacphvdv| zaiir hk nh} d pvamgdgz }hcdg) }nag kdbaj }lzn zna bavzdlgz| hk nav nqrfdgj iad{lgm nav) zdear bhgzvhi hk nav rlzqdzlhg' Znlr rzhv| bdg fa rzqjlaj lg bhcpdvlrhg }lzn ]hcdg Qgegh}g) Zdmhva‘r zvdjlzlhgdi rnhvz rzhv|) arpabldii| }lzn zna dqznhv‘r phvzvd|di hk d }hcdg pvhzdmhglrz' ]nlia fhzn hk znac fvade d}d| kvhc zna qrqdi rzavahz|par) zna| jh rh lg jlkkavagz }d|r' Zna rqrpagra dgj nqchqv lg zna rzhv|) dr }aii dr zna kdrz k drz pdbaj dbzlhg) dppadi zh zna clgj hk zna vadjavr' Zna dqznhv cdear qra hk jvdcdzlb lvhg|) arpabldii| zna vhia va{avrdir }nlbn ila dz zna nadvz hk zna rzhv|) zh fvlgm zh d bihra nlr {av| pidqrlfia zdia' Zna rz|ia dgj idgmqdma acpih|aj dva bhg{agzlhgdi dgj rzvdlmnzkhv}dvj' Jvdcdzlb Lvhg|? D z|pa hk rlzqdzlhgdi lvhg| bhgzvdrzlgm }ndz d bndvdbzav pavbal{ar) dgj }ndz zna dqjlagba dgj hga chva hk zna bndvdbzavr egh} zh fa zvqa' Phlgz hk {la}? Znlvj# pavrhg hcglrblagz'
Znlr rz|ia lr hkzag kvh}gaj qphg) dgj bhcar qgjav klva kvhc cdg| }vlzlgm rz|ia dqznhvlzlar' Glga zlcar hqz hk zag dz iadrz) lz-r d ildflilz| zh zna fhhe' Fqz znava dva d ka} rzhvlar zndz cqrz qra znlr rz|ia d gj bhca hqz fazzav khv lz' Rlgba znara rzhvlar dva ka} dgj kdv faz}aag) }vlzavr dva agbhqvdmaj zh qra bdvakqi oqjmcagz) dgj d{hlj hcglrblagz {la}phlgz qgiarr lz }hqij djj rhcaznlgm a~zvdhvjlgdv|' Klvrz) rhca jaklglzlhgr? znlvj pavrhg hcglrblagz lr ghz zh z h fa bhgkqraj }lzn qrlgm cqizlpia {la}phlgzr' D }vlzav bdg nd{a cqizlpia {la}phlgzr {la}phlgzr lg d plaba hk klbzlhg dgj bdg fa }vlzlgm lg znlvj pavrhg }lznhqz qrlgm znlvj pavrhg hcglrblagz' Znlr lr bh{avaj idzav hg' Znlvj pavrhg hcglrblagz lr dg hijav gdvvdzl{a rz|ia lg }nlbn d rlgmia {la}phlgz bhgzdlgr dii bndvdbzavr dgj pavrpabzl{ar' Zna ea| phlgz zh vacacfav lg qrlgm znlvj pavrhg hcglrblagz gdvvdzlhg lr bhgrlrzagb|' Gdvvdzl{a rnlkzr rnhqijg-z ndppag vdgjhci|5 zna| rnhqij nd{a d ragra hk hvjav dgj vn|znc zndz vacdlgr bhgrlrzagz znvhqmnhqz zna rzhv|' Znaca? Fazvd|di) Ljagzlz|) Ih{a dgj Pdrrlhg) Pdrrl{lz|) dgj Oqrzlba dgj Lgoqrzlba Zabnglbdi ja{lba ? Rqrpagra dgj fidbe nqchqv Razzlgm ? Zna nhqra hk zna pvhzdmhglrz) Rdc‘r mvhbav| rnhp Pihz Rqccdv| Jdni bhccagbar }lzn d plbzqva hk rzdzlb bhlgarr lg d cljjia#bidrr) jhcarzlb razzlgm' r azzlgm' Cdv| Cdihga|) rl~ chgznr pvamgdgz) }dlzr khv nav philbacdg nqrfdgj Pdzvlbe Cdihga| zh bhca nhca kvhc }hve' Zna rbaga acpndrlar jhcarzlblz|? ’Zna vhhc }dr }dvc dgj biadg) zna bqvzdlgr jvd}g'– Cdzbnlgm bndlvr) idcpr) midrrar) dgj }nlre|) rhjd) dgj lba bqfar d}dlz' Cdv| }dzbnar zna bihbe) rclilgm tqlazi| zh navraik dr adbn clgqza fvlgmr nav nqrfdgj bihrav zh nhca' ]nag na dvvl{ar) rna zdear nlr bhdz dgj ndgmr lz lg zna bihraz' Zna bhqpia rlzr dgj jvlger l g rliagba ‚ Cdv| bhckhvzdfia }lzn zna egh}iajma zndz Pdzvlbe jhar jhar ghz ilea zh zdie cqbn qgzli dkzav zna klvrz jvlge' Rh f| jailfavdza jarlmg) a{av|znlgm raacr ghvcdi qgzli Cdv| ghzlbar zndz Pdzvlbe jvdlgr chrz hk nlr jvlge lg d rlgmia r}diih}) dgj znag phqvr nlcraik dghznav) {av| rzvhgm jvlge' Cdv| hkkavr zh kl~ jlggav dgj rav{a lz zh nlc rh z ndz na jhar ghz nd{a zh iad{a nlr bndlv) diznhqmn zna| qrqdii| jlga hqz hg Znqvrjd|r' Rna dirh hkkavr zh pvapdva d rgdbe' Pdzvlbe jabilgar dii nav hkkavr hk khhj' Zna vadjav fabhcar d}dva hk d zagrlhg }nlbn arbdpar Cdv|‘r kqii ghzlba'
Pdzvlbe Pdzvlbe bhgkvhgzr Cdv| dgj cdear d rpaabn) hgi| zna qprnhz hk }nlbn lr ml{ag a~pilblzi|? ’Rh znava lz lr' ' ' ' Dgj L egh} lz‘r d elgj hk fdj zlca zh fa zaiilgm |hq) fqz znava rlcpi| }drg‘z dg| hznav }d|' Hk bhqvra) L‘ii ml{a |hq chga| dgj raa |hq‘va ihheaj dkzav' Fqz znava gaajg‘z vadii| fa dg| kqrr'– Khv vadrhgr }nlbn Jdni jhar ghz cdea a~pilblz) Pdzvlbe ndr jabljaj zh iad{a nlr pvamgdgz }lka'
RVNRR(Khv vakavagba hgi|
Pdma 4 hk ;
Vhrndg'P
Cdv| mhar lgzh rnhbe' Dz klvrz rna }hgjavr lk rna lcdmlgaj zna }nhia znlgm' Rna ch{ar dqzhcdzlbdii| zh vazvla{a rhcaznlgm kvhc zna fdracagz kvaaav dgj pvapdva rqppav' Rna vazqvgr }lzn d kvhag iam hk idcf zh klgj Pdzvlbe rzdgjlgm f| d }lgjh} }lzn nlr fdbe zh nav' Nadvlgm nav bhca lg) na zaiir nav ghz zh cdea rqppav khv nlc) zndz na lr mhlgm hqz' ]lzn gh gdvvdzl{a ghzlba hk dg| achzlhgdi zvdgrkhvcdzlhg) Cdv| }dier qp zh nlc dgj fvlgmr zna kvhag ohlgz hk cadz jh}g ’dr ndvj dr rna bhqij– hg nlr nadj' Pdzvlbe kdiir jadj' Rna acavmar kvhc nav rnhbe zh kaai pdglb' Jh zna bhqvzr ragzagba pvamgdgz }hcag zh jadzn8 Jh zna| a~abqza fhzn chznav dgj bnlij8 Jh zna| }dlz qgzli zna zagzn chgzn8 Ghz }dgzlgm zh zdea d bndgba hg nav bnlij‘r ilka) rna lccajldzai| famlgr razzlgm qp dg dilfl' Rna pqzr zna idcf lg zna h{ag zh bhhe) }drnar nav ndgjr) dgj zljlar nav ndlv dgj cdeaqp' Rna nqvvlar zh nav qrqdi mvhbav| rzhva) zaiilgm zna mvhbav) Rdc) zndz rna gaajaj phzdzhar dgj padr fabdqra Pdzvlbe jlj ghz }dgz zh adz hqz dgj rna }dr ’bdqmnz' ' ' }lznhqz dg| {amazdfiar lg zna nhqra'– Lg d chcagz hk zvqi| fidbe bhcaj|) zna mvhbav drer dfhqz jarravz? ’Nh} dfhqz dkzav}dvjr8 ]ndz dva |hq mhlgm zh ml{a nlc khv dkzav}dvjr8– dgj rna dmvaar zh d rilba hk bnaarabdea' Hg nav }d| nhca) rna cagzdii| pvapdvar navraik zh fa rnhbeaj f| dg|znlgm zvdmlb hv zavvlfia rna clmnz klgj' ]nag rna raar nav nqrfdgj‘r bhvpra dmdlg) rna vacacfavr nh} cqbn rna hgba ih{aj nlc) dgj nav zadvr hk ihrr dva magqlga' Rna lr rlgbavai| jlrzvdqmnz }nag rna bdiir zna ihbdi philba rzdzlhg ‚ zna hga }nava Pdzvlbe ndr }hveaj ‚ zh vaphvz }ndz rna ndr khqgj' Cdv| egh}r zna philbacag }nh vaphvz zh zna bvlca rbaga) dgj rna bdrzr Ravmadgz Odbe Ghhgdg lg zna vhia hk nav bhckhvzav' D jhbzhv) philba pnhzhmvdpnav) klgmavpvlgz a~pavz) dgj z}h jazabzl{ar ohlg zna lg{arzlmdzlhg) }nlia Ghhgdg pavlhjlbdii| bnaber hg Cdv|' Rna zaiir nav rzhv| dmdlg) kvhc zna famlgglgm? Pdzvlbe bdca nhca) }dr zhh zlvaj zh mh hqz khv rqppav) rh rna iakz nlc vaid~lgm dz nhca }nlia rna rzdvzaj zna idcf bhhelgm dgj znag vdg hqz khv {amazdfiar' Hga jazabzl{a bnaber }lzn zna mvhbav) }nh bhgklvcr Cdv|‘r dbbhqgz' Gh hga raacr zh rav lhqri| bhgrljav nav d rqrpabz' Zna khbqr hk zna lg{arzlmdzlhg hg klgjlgm zna cqvjav }adphg # }nlbn cqrz fa d idvma) nad{|) dgj fiqgz' Zna jazabzl{ar dre Cdv| dfhqz zhhir) dgj rna pvhkarrar lmghvdgba fqz rd|r zndz znava cd| fa rhca hqz lg zna mdvdma' Rna vacdlgr lg d bndlv }nlia zna nhqra lr radvbnaj' Ghhgdg zvlar zh pavrqdja Cdv| zh rzd| rhca}nava aira khv zna glmnz) fqz rna vakqrar' Rna drer nlc zh fvlgm nav d jvlge dgj rqmmarzr zndz na nd{a hga zhh' A{agzqdii| dii hk zna philba lg{arzlmdzhvr dva rzdgjlgm dvhqgj) rlpplgm jvlger) zlvaj kvhc znalv kvqlziarr radvbn' Ghhgdg ghzlbar zndz zna h{ag lr rzlii hg dgj zna idcf ndr klglrnaj bhhelgm' Cdv| zndger nlc khv zqvglgm zna h{ag hkk dgj znag drer nav jadj nqrfdgj‘r mdznavaj bhiiadmqar#egh}lgm zndz zna| nd{a }hveaj ihgm pdrz znalv h}g cadizlcar ‚ zh adz zna jlggav rna ndj kl~aj khv Pdzvlbe' Rna bhqij ghz adz d znlgm) rna zaiir znac) fqz Pdzvlbe }hqij }dgz nav zh hkkav znac ’jabagz nhrplzdilz|)– arpabldii| dr zna| dva zna cag }nh }lii bdzbn nav nqrfdgj‘r eliiav' Zna klgdi rbaga hk zna rzhv| bhgbavgr zna philbacag adzlgm lg zna elzbnag dgj jlrbqrrlgm zna bdra }nlia Cdv| ilrzagr kvhc zna il{lgm vhhc' Zna cag dmvaa zndz zna eliiav pvhfdfi| jlrbdvjaj zna cdrrl{a cqvjav }adphg dichrz lccajldzai|) dgj pvajlbz zndz zna| }lii klgj lz hg zna pvaclrar' Dghznav znahvlar zndz zna }adphg lr pvhfdfi| ’vlmnz qgjav hqv {av| ghrar'–
4' ]ndz lr zna rlmglklbdgba hk lvhg|) khvarndjh}lgm) dgj fidbe nqchv lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav& lr d {av| bia{av zdia hk d }hcdg-r tqlbe varphgra zh d jlkklbqiz rlzqdzlhg' Lvhg| a~lrzr lg zna zdia lg Cvr' Cdihga|-r vadbzlhg zh zna ga}r hk nav nqrfdgj iad{lgm nav' Khv zna agzlva famlgglgm hk zna rzhv|) Jdni pdlgzr nav dr d jhzlgm) h{avi|#bhgbavgaj) vdznav }ade#clgjaj bndvdbzav }nh il{ar hgi| khv nav nqrfdgj dgj nlr fljjlgm' ]a }hqij ghz a~pabz nav zh fvqzdii| cqvjav nlc oqrz clgqzar idzav) fqz) zndz lr }ndz rna jhar' Lz raacr zh rqvpvlra a{ag nav raik' ]nag rhcaznlgm hbbqvr zndz lr zna hpphrlza hk a~pabzdzlhgr zndz lr lvhg|' Dkzav zna cqvjav) rna bdici| dgj bhiiabzaji| bhgbhbzr d bh{av#qp rzhv|) a{ag klgjlgm d }d| zh rdkai| jlrphra hk zna cqvjav }adphg' Znlr fand{lhv) bhcpdvaj zh nav pva{lhqr vdznav dg~lhqr dgj }ade raik) lr lvhglb'
Zna fidbe nqchv a~lrzr arpabldii| dz zna agj' Lz vadii| lrg-z kqgg| zndz rna ndr eliiaj nav nqrfdgj) fqz }a bdg-z naip lz fqz idqmn dr zna bhpr biqaiarri| adz zna idcf' Lz-r d vdznav jvadv| nqchv) fqz) agzavzdlglgm ghgaznaiarr' Khvarndjh}lgm lr ndvjav zh klgj5 znava dva ka} lgjlbdzlhgr hk Cdv|-r fand{lhv' ]nag rna pqzr zna idcf lg zna h{ag zndz bhqij khvarndjh} zna bhpr adzlgm lz idzav5 dii hk nav pvapdvdzlhgr fakhva zna clvvhv) pvdbzlblgm }ndz rna }hqij rd|
RVNRR(Khv vakavagba hgi|
Pdma 6 hk ;
Vhrndg'P
dz zna mvhbav-r) }ava khvarndjh}lgm hk nav pavkhvcdgba znava idzav' Lz }dr a{ljagz zndz rna }dr pidgglgm dg dilfl' Lk }a vadj bihrai|) }a bdg plaba zhmaznav zna biqar hk nav pidg fakhvandgj' Dg a~dcpia hk khvarndjh}lgm hbbqvr }nag Pdzvlbe zdear nlr jvlge? &'''dr na rphea) na jlj dg qgqrqdi znlgm' Na ilkzaj nlr midrr dgj jvdlgaj lz lg hga r}diih} diznhqmn znava }dr rzlii ndik hk lz'''Na mhz qp dgj }agz rih}i| h{av zh kazbn nlcraik dghznav''']nag na bdca fdbe) rna ghzlbaj zndz zna ga} jvlge }dr jdve dcfav }lzn zna tqdgzlz| hk }nlrea| lg lz&' Pdzvlbe jhar ghz qrqdii| dbz ilea znlr' Na lr hf{lhqri| qgadr|) chrz ileai| zv|lgm zh }hve qp zna bhqvdma zh jh hv rd| rhcaznlgm qgpiadrdgz' Nlr dbzlhgr khvarndjh} hclghqr znlgmr zh bhca' Jlvabz bndvdbzavldzlhg# Lg lgzvhjqblgm Cdv| Cdihga|) zna dqznhv qrar jlvabz bndvdbzavldzlhg ) zaiilgm zna vadjav pidlgi| }ndz rna lr ilea?– Znava }dr d rih} rclilgm dlv dfhqz nav) dgj dfhqz a{av|znlgm rna jlj' Zna jvhp hk d nadj dr rna fagz h{av nav ra}lgm }dr bqvlhqri| zvdgtqli'''Rna ih{aj zh iq~qvldza lg zna pvaragba hk znlr cdg'''Rna ih{aj nlc&' 6' Fvlaki| rqccdvla zna pihz hk &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&' Cdv| Cdihga| lr d bhp-r }lka) dgj ; chgznr pvamgdgz' Rna lr ndpp| lg nav cdvvldma) dgj }dlzlgm khv nav nqrfdgj zh bhca nhca dkzav }hve' Na jhar) dgj lgkhvcr nav zndz na lr iad{lgm nav' Lg d jda) rna mhar jh}grzdlvr zh maz d iam hk idcf hqz hk zna kvaaav zh bhhe khv jlggav) mhar qprzdlvr) dgj }lznhqz a{ag znlgelgm) fdrnar nav nqff| h{av zna nadj }lzn lz) eliilgm nlc lgrzdgzi|' Rnhbeaj) rna vadilar }ndz rna ndr jhga) dgj khvcr d pidg' Rna pqzr zna idcf lg zna h{ag) mhar zh zna bhvgav rzhva zh fq| rhca khhj) cdelgm rqva zh zdie zh zna biave dfhqz nh} nav nqrfdgj lr jqa nhca dg| zlca dgj rna lr cdelgm nlc jlggav' ]nag rna mazr nhca rna bdiir zna bhpr lg d &pdglb& rd|lgm rna bdca nhca kvhc zna rzhva zh klgj nav nqrfdgj jadj' Zna| bhca h{av) dva bhgkqraj) bdg-z klgj d cqvjav }adphg' Rna kaajr znac zna idcf khv jlggav) dgj zna| iad{a' 2' Jarbvlfa zna cdlg bndvdbzavr lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&' Zna cdlg bndvdbzavr hk &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav& dva Cdv| dgj Pdzvlbe Cdihga' Cdv| lr elgj) magzia) dgj lg ih{a }lzn nav nqrfdgj philba hkklbav) Pdzvlbe' Rna lr rl~ chgznr pvamgdgz }nag na jabljar zh agj znalv cdvvldma' Cdv| rqkkavr znvhqmn rzdmar hk rnhbe) dgmav dgj vdma zndz iadjr nav zh d cqvjavhqr rzdza'
Pdzvlbe qrar dibhnhi zh cqkkia nlr kvqrzvdzlhgr' Na varagzr nlr }lka khv zdelgm mhhj bdva hk nlc dz nhca }nlia nlr ohf jhar ghz raac zh fa dj{dgblgm' Na lr magavdii| jlrbhgzagzaj) dgj raar d fvade }lzn nlr }lka dr zna bndgma na gaajr zh ch{a khv}dvj' :' Lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav& nh} jhar zna dqznhv bvadza rqrpagra lg zna rzhv|8 Klvrz hk dii) na rnhber qr }nag Cdv| eghber nav nqrfdgj h{av zna nadj) eliilgm nlc' Znlr lr lgbvajlfi| rqvpvlrlgm) fabdqra rna }dr rqbn d jhblia) r}aaz) ih{lgm bndvdbzav5 rna jljg-z a{ag vadbz achzlhgdii| }nag nav nqrfdgj zhij nav zndz na }dr iad{lgm nav' Rna oqrz bdici| }agz jh}grzdlvr zh maz rhcaznlgm khv jlggav' Znag) hqz hk gh}nava) fdc$ Rna gdlir nlc hg zna nadj' Zndz lglzldi rnhbe zh zna vadjav vadii| razr zna rzdma khv zna rqrpagra zh bhca' ]a dva odvvaj dgj iakz zagra) }hgjavlgm }ndz rna }lii jh' Znag) rna lr rzlii bdic) dgj }a dva znlgelgm zh hqvrai{ar) &]n| lrg-z rna kvadelgm hqz vlmnz gh}8 ]ndz lr rna pidgglgm8& Zndz lr {av| rqrpagrakqi' ]nag rna mhar qprzdlvr dgj pvdbzlbar rclilgm dgj zdielgm lg kvhgz hk zna c lvvhv zndz bvadzar rqrpagra fabdqra }a nd{a gh ljad }ndz rna lr pidgglgm' Rna lr khvcqidzlgm rhca rhvz hk rbnaca) fqz zna dqznhv jharg-z iaz qr egh} }ndz rna lr znlgelgm) rh }a jhg-z egh} }ndz lz lr5 znlr bvadzar rqrpagra' ]a dva hg zna ajma hk hqv radzr dr rna mhar zh zna mvhbav) ilar zh nlr kdba) pid|r lz bhhi5 nav bdicgarr dihga bvadzar rqrpagra'
Zna dqznhv bvadzar zna chrz rqrpagra }nag na ndr zna bhpr bhca vlmnz zh nav nhqra' ]a dva dg~lhqr zndz zna| }lii klgj hqz }ndz ndr ndppagaj5 }a }dlz) zagra) dr zna tqarzlhgr dva dreaj) dr zna| radvbn zna nhqra' Znag) zna klgdi jhra hk rqrpagra5 Cdv| ndr zna dqjdblz| zh kaaj zna hkklbavr zna idcf' Zna| dva agzlvai| biqaiarr) fqz }a dva }hvvlaj zna agzlva zlca zndz zna| }lii klmqva lz hqz' Rh) }lzn dg lglzldi odvvlgm rnhbe dz zna cqvjav) znvhqmn iad{lgm hqz nav znhqmnzr dz ea| phlgzr) dgj znvhqmn fvlgmlgm zna bhpr zh zna rbaga .dgj }adphg, hk zna bvlca) Jdni bvadzar rqrpagra khv zna vadjavr' 1' Ljagzlk| d rlclia) cazdpnhv) achzl{a }hvj dgj d n|pnagdzaj }hvj lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 Rlclia .D bhcpdvlrhg qrlgm ilea hv dr,? ’zh kaai#dichrz dr d rqgfdznav kaair zna rqg#zndz }dvc cdia mih}& Cazdpnhv .D jlvabz bhcpdvlrhg f| rd|lgm hga znlgm LR dghznav,? &Znava }dr d rih} rclilgm dlv dfhqz nav& RVNRR(Khv vakavagba hgi|
Pdma 2 hk ;
Vhrndg'P
Achzl{a .]hvjr bhgzdlglgm phrlzl{a hv gamdzl{a bhgghzdzlhgr,? &zvdgtqli&) &filrrkqi&) & kvdgzlb& N|pnagdzaj }hvj .D }hvj }lzn d n|pnag rapdvdzlgm zna z}h pdvzr'''magavdii| znara dva ghqgr,? &fhga#agj& ;' Znlr rzhv| agjr }lzn d jvdcdzlb lvhg|' A~pidlg zna jvdcdzlb lvhg|8 Jvdcdzlb lvhg| hbbqvr }nag zna dqjlagba ndr egh}iajma hk rhcaznlgm zndz rhca hv dii hk zna bndvdbzavr jh ghz) dgj fabdqra hk zndz }hvjr hv dbzlhgr nd{a d jlkkavagz cadglgm' Lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav& zna vadjav egh}r zndz Cdv| Cdihga|) nd{lgm faag zhij f| nav philbacdg nqrfdgj zndz na lr iad{lgm nav) ndr eliiaj nlc }lzn d kvhag iam hk idcf' Lz hbbqvr }nag rna bhher zna idcf dgj rav{ar lz zh zna cag lg{arzlmdzlgm nav nqrfdgj-r jadzn }nlia zna| rpabqidza dfhqz }ndz zna cqvjav }adphg clmnz nd{a faag dgj }nava lr bhqij fa' Lg kdbz) hga hk znac vacdver zna a{ljagba zna| dva raaelgm lr pvhfdfi| &vlmnz qgjav znalv ghrar'& Zna vadjav egh}r zna| dva adzlgm zna {av| }adphg zna| dva raaelgm$ Zndz lr jvdcdzlb lvhg|' =' ]ndz lr zna razzlgm lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 Zna dqznhv biadvi| jarbvlfar zna razzlgm lg zna {av| klvrz ilgar hk zna rzhv|? &Zna vhhc }dr }dvc dgj biadg) zna bqvzdlgr jvd}g) zna z}h zdfia idcpr dilmnz # navr dgj zna hga f| zna acpz| bndlv hpphrlza' Hg zna rljafhdvj fanlgj nav) z}h zdii midrrar) rhjd }dzav) }nlrea|' Kvarn lba bqfar lg zna Znavchr fqbeaz&'
Zna razzlgm khv znlr rzhv| lr pvlcdvli| lg d ghvcdi cljjia#bidrr nhca zndz lr jarbvlfaj dr {av| }dvc dgj bh|' Zna cqvjav zdear pidba lg zna rlzzlgm vhhc }nava zna bhqpia caazr rh zndz Cdv| bdg lz }lzn Pdzvlbe }nlia na }lgjr jh}g khv zna a{aglgm }lzn d jvlge' >' ]ndz lr zna znaca lg zna rnhvz rzhv| &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav“– f| Vhdij Jdni8 Hga cdlg znaca lg znlr rzhv| lr fazvd|di' \hq nd{a d nhqra}lka }nh lr fazvd|aj f| nav nqrfdgj) }nh rd|r zndz na lr iad{lgm nav' Rna znlger zndz a{av|znlgm lr hed|5 rna lr pvamgdgz) mih}lgm) dgj ndpp|' Rna cdear cadir khv nlc) dgj jharg-z nd{a dg| vadrhg zh rqrpabz zndz na lr qgndpp|' Znag) na jvhpr zna fhcf zndz na lr iad{lgm dgj zh zv| gh zh cdea &dg| kqrr'''lz }hqijg-z fa {av| mhhj khv c| ohf'& Znlr lr dg d}kqi fazvd|di khv nav' Lvhglbdii|) rna fazvd|r nlr kvlagjr idzav) znvhqmn nav bh{avlgm qp hk zna bvlca' Znava lr dirh d znaca hk ljagzlz|) hk qr ghz vadii| egh}lgm hqvrai{ar {av| }aii' L faz lk Cdv| ndj dreaj navraik zndz jd| &Dc L bdpdfia hk cqvjavlgm c| nqrfdgj lg bhij fihhj) a{ag lk na jlj rhcaznlgm d}kqi zh ca8& zna dgr}av }hqij nd{a faag d jaklglza gh' Fqz) lg zna chcagz) rna fand{ar cqbn jlkkavagzi|' Dgj znag) a{ag chva rqvpvlrlgm lr nav bhhi bh{av#qp) nav tqlbe znlgelgm) dgj nh} rna mhz d}d| }lzn zna bvlca' Rqbn jqpilblz| }dr pvhfdfi| dr cqbn hk d rnhbe zh navraik dr zh dg|hga aira' Rh jhg-z znlge |hq egh} |hqvraik khv rqva) qgzli |hq-{a faag lg zna rlzqdzlhg' <' Dz }ndz phlgz lg zna rzhv| &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav& jhar zna vlrlgm dbzlhg zdea pidba8 Zna vlrlgm dbzlhg lg d rzhv| lr egh}g dr zna a{agzr lg zna pihz zndz iadj qp hv fqlij qp zh zna bilcd~) hv zna nlmnarz phlgz hk dbzlhg lg zna rzhv|' Zna vlrlgm dbzlhg lg zna rzhv| dbzqdii| bhcar {av| advi| fabdqra zna bilcdbzlb phlgz lg zna rzhv| bhcar {av| advi|) zna varhiqzlhg zdear qp d idvmav zndg ghvcdi pdvz hk zna rzhv|'
Zna vlrlgm dbzlhg zdear pidba }nag Pdzvlbe zaiir) d {av| pvamgdgz Cdv|) zndz na-r iad{lgm nav dgj rna mhar lgzh rnhb e' Rna dbzr ilea dg dqzhcdzhg) lz-r dr lk rna ndrg-z nadvj }ndz na-r rdlj) hv dz iadrz zna rzdzacagz na-r cdja ndr |az zh cdea lzr kqii lcpdbz' Znlr a{agz lr }ndz vlrar zh zna bilcdbzlb phlgz lg zna rzhv| lg }nlbn Cdv| acavmar kvhc zna fdracagz }lzn d kvhag vdbe hk idcf }lzn }nlbn rna qrar zh fiqjmahg Pdzvlbe zh jadzn }lzn lg hga kaii r}hhp' 40' ]ndz lr zna gdvvdzl{a lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 Lz lr zna zdia hk Cdv| Cdihga| dgj zna pavkabz cqvjav' Lz lr dirh zna rzhv| hk Cdv|-r zvdgrkhvcdzlhg kvhc d jhblia }lka }nhra {av| a~lrzagba lr ja{hzaj zh nav nqrfdgj) Pdzvlbe) zh d }hcdg }nh lr gh} dfia zh zdea bndvma hk nav ilka'
Cdv| iadvgr zndz Pdzvlbe lr iad{lgm nav' Zna vadrhg lr ga{av biadv' Znlr lr jlrzvarrlgm fabdqra rna lr pvamgdgz dgj ndr gh vadi cadgr hk lgbhca) znhqmn Pdzvlbe rzdzar na }lii ihhe dkzav nav' Ghz egh}lgm }ndz aira zh jh) rna famlgr zh cdea rqppav) }nlbn ndppagr zh fa d iam hk idcf' Nh}a{av) fakhva rna lr bhmgldgz hk }ndz rna lr jhlgm) rna fdrnar nav nqrfdgj h{av zna nadj) eliilgm nlc lgrzdgzi|' Znag rna famlgr zh pihz nh} rna bdg maz d}d| }lzn zna cqvjav' Rna vanadvrar }ndz rna }lii rd| zh znalv fqzbnav dgj nadjr zh zna rzhva' Dppadvlgm bdic dgj bhiiabzaj) rna mazr zna gabarrdv| znlgmr khv rqppav' ]nag rna vazqvgr nhca) rna bdiir zna philba) }nh dii ndppag zh fa kvlagjr hk nav idza nqrfdgj) }nh }dr dg hkklbav nlcraik' RVNRR(Khv vakavagba hgi|
Pdma : hk ;
Vhrndg'P
Rna rzdzar zndz rna khqgj nlc jadj }nag rna bdca fdbe kvhc zna fqzbnav' Zna fqzbnav lr tqarzlhgr) fqz na rzdzar zndz rna raacaj tqlza ghvcdi zh nlc' Lz lr biadv zna| znlgm rna clmnz nd{a jhga lz) fqz rna dbzr rh magqlga) zna| tqlbei| qgjavarzlcdza nav dgj vqia nav hqz dr d rqrpabz' Dr zna rzhv| agjr) Cdv| drer zna jazabzl{ar zh rzd| khv rqppav dgj kaajr znac zna cqvjav }adphg' 44' ]ndz dva zna a~dcpiar hk ilzavdv| aiacagzr lg zna rzhv| &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 Lgzavgdi bhgkilbz lr farz rnh}g lg Cdv|' Rna lr dz }dv }lzn navraik }nag rna klgjr hqz nav ndpp| nhca lr ghz ndpp| dgj dfhqz zh jlrdppadv dii zhmaznav' Rna rhi{ar znlr bhgkilbz f| eliilgm nav nqrfdgj' Znag rna ndr zh klmqva hqz nh} zh nlja zna a{ljagba) dirh dg lgzavgdi bhgkilbz'
Zna a~zavgdi bhgkilbzr dva Cdv| {r' nav nqrfdgj dgj Cdv| {r' zna philba' Lg fhzn rlzqdzlhgr) Cdv| cqrz jakagj navraik dmdlgrz }ndz rna {la}r dr dg dzzdbe' ]nag nav nqrfdgj rd|r na lr iad{lgm) rna klmnzr fdbe f| eliilgm nlc' ]nag zna philba dvvl{a zh lg{arzlmdza) rna klmnzr fdbe f| jabal{lgm znac' D cazdpnhv lg znlr rzhv| lr lg zna zlzia lzraik' Cdv| lr d idcf jqa khv ridqmnzav # nav ndpplgarr lr ridqmnzavaj f| nav nqrfdgj) a{ag znhqmn rna lr lgghbagz' Zna idcf zndz rna qrar zh elii nav nqrfdgj lr d cazdpnhv khv navraik' Zna zagrlhg lg znlr rzhv| bhcar kvhc jvdcdzlb lvhg| # }a dr vadjavr egh} zndz Cdv| lr mqliz|) dgj dva bhgbavgaj zndz zna philba }lii klgj hqz' ]a dirh egh} zndz zna philba dva adzlgm zna cqvjav }adphg) a{ag dr zna| jlrbqrr }ndz zna cqvjav }adphg lr # chva zagrlhg dgj chva lvhg|' 46' ]ndz lr zna cdlg ljad lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 Zna rzhv| lr d fvlak phvzvdlz hk jhcarzlb {lhiagba dgj fazvd|di' L-c ghz rqva lk znava lr hga cdlg ljad fa|hgj }vlzlgm dg agzavzdlglgm rzhv| }lzn d flz hk d z}lrz agjlgm) fqz hga clmnz rd| zndz zna bagzvdi znaca lr fazvd|di' Klvrz zna nqrfdgj fazvd|r zna }lka f| dgghqgblgm nlr pidg zh iad{a) znag zna }lka fazvd|r nlr fdrlb nqcdg zvqrz f| cqvjavlgm nlc' Hznav znacar dva ljagzlz|) arpabldii| rnh}g lg zna }d| zna }lka ndr lgzavgdilaj zna ljagzlz| hk d -ghvcdi-) cljjia bidrr }lka' 42' Nh} jhar Jdni qra lvhg| zh fvlgm fdbe nqchv zh zna pihz8 Zna rzhv| rzdvzr zdca) mazr ravlhqr) dgj znag ilmnzagr qp lg zna agj' ]nag Cdv| eliir nav nqrfdgj dgj bhiji| mhar dfhqz zna fqrlgarr hk bh{avlgm lz qp) znava lr dg aavla dgj hkk#pqzzlgm kaai zh zna rzhv|' Nh}a{av) zna lvhglb rbaga hk zna philbacag adzlgm nav pvapdvaj iam hk idcf jlggav # lg hznav }hvjr) adzlgm zna cqvjav }adphg # dgj bhccagzlgm zndz zna dgr}av cqrz fa &vlmnz qgjav znalv ghrar& diih}r vadjavr d ilmnz #nadvzaj agjlgm zh }ndz bhqij fa d zvhqfilgm rzhv|' 4:' ]ndz ljadr dva falgm r|cfhilaj dgj }ndz lr zna znaca hk zna rzhv|) Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav8 Znava dva {dvlhqr znacar zh zna rzhv| &idcf zh zna ridqmnzav& fqz zna hga zndz l znlge lr zna chrz pva{diagz lr zna znaca hk Fazvd|di' Pdzvlbe fazvd|r nlr }lka) nlr cdvvldma {h}r) dgj nlcraik f| bnhhrlgm zh iad{a nlr }lka' Cdv| fazvd|r nav cdvvldma {h}r dgj bavzdlgi| nav nqrfdgj dgj bhcchg vqia hk id} f| eliilgm nav nqrfdgj' L znlge zna idcf zndz rna eliir nlc }lzn r|cfhilar navraik' Rna lr d caae znlgm) kazbnlgm nav nqrfdgj }ndza{av na }dgzr) qgzli na jabljar na lr iad{lgm nav) rqjjagi| rna lr h{avbhca dgj eliir nlc }lzn zna idcf) lg zna pvhbarr eliilgm nav hij caae raik dr }aii Fazvd|di lr zna qizlcdza znaca hk zna rzhv|? P dzvlbe Cdihga|‘r lga~pilbdfia jablrlhg zh iad{a nlr pvamgdgz }lka lr d {lhidzlhg hk zna cdvvldma#{h}r5 nh}a{av) lz lr ghz zna hgi| fazvd|di' Hf {lhqri| ’Cdv|‘r eliilgm hk nav nqrfdgj lr pavndpr zna qizlcdza fazvd|di'– Rna bhgzlgqar zh pavpazvdza zna qizlcdza fazvd|di dr rna }ad{ar d chva dgj chva aidfhvdza }af hk ilar dgj jabalz zh ja{aihp dg dlvzlmnz dilfl hk bhg{lgblgm ilar' Znava dva ra{avdi hznav znacar }lznlg zna rzhv| zndz naip zh cdea lz d rqpavlhv }hve hk klbzlhg? Ljagzlz|) Ih{a dgj Pdrrlhg) Pdrrl{lz|) dgj Oqrzlba dgj Lgoqrzlba
Zna znaca zndz lz lr zna chrz lcphvzdgz dgj vaia{dgz zh zna }nhia rzhv| lr zna z naca & Fazvd|di&) }nlbn zna rzhv| zaiir hk hgi| hga fazvd|di) }nlbn lr zna pvhzdmhglrz-r nqrfdgj) Pdzvlbe Cdihga|) }nh dfvqpzi| zaiir nlr pvamgdgz }lka zndz na lr iad{lgm) diznhqmn na }lii rzlii pvh{lja nav }lzn klgdgbldi rqpphvz' Znlr qga~pidlgaj cdvvldma jablrlhg) }nlbn lr qgjavi|lgm zna lcphvzdgba hk cdvvldma {h}r' Fqz znava lr rzlii mhz chva fazvd|dir dkzav zndz }nlbn lr bdqraj f| nav' Nav vlbni| znhqmnz hk dbbhcpilba dgj bhg{lgblgm ilar dgj kdfvlbdzlhgr zh zna jazabzl{ar dirh bhgrzlzqza zna znaca hk fazvd|di' Zna pvhzdmhglrz lr falgm r|cfhilaj dr zna idcf lg zna rzhv| .rdca gdca lg zna zlzia # & Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&,) d }ade dgj {qigavdfia idcf) di}d|r khiih}lgm nav cdrzav-r .nqrfdgj-r, hvjav dgj bhccdgjr qgzli hga jd|) na rzdvzr mazzlgm h{avfhdvj dgj rna bhqij ghz zdea lz dg|chva dgj eliiaj nlc dr d varqiz' Nav {qigavdflilz| ndj faag a~phraj dgj zh RVNRR(Khv vakavagba hgi|
Pdma 1 hk ;
Vhrndg'P
nlja dii zndz kaailgmr dgj achzlhgr) rna ndj eliiaj nav qrqdi raik dgj bndgmaj zh dghznav bndvdbzav) }lzn d }nhia ga} pavrpabzl{a' 41' ]ndz lr zna bilcd~ lg zna rzhv|) ’Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav&8 Zna pihz hk d rzhv| lr cdja qp hk zna a~phrlzlhg) vlrlgm dbzlhg) kdiilgm dbzlhg) dgj varhiqzlhg' Zna bilcd~ lr d ea| pdvz zh zna pihz fabdqra lz lgjlbdzar zna nlmnarz phlgz hk dbzlhg lg zna rzhv| lgbiqjlgm zna nlmnarz phlgz hk achzlhgdi varphgra kvhc zna bndvdbzavr'
Lg Idcf zh Ridqmnzav zna bilcd~ lr qphg zna vadjav dichrz vlmnz dz zna famlgglgm hk zna rzhv| }nag Cdv| Cdihga| zna rl~ chgznr pvamgdgz }lka hk Pdzvlbe zna philbacdg cqvjavr nav nqrfdgj }lzn d kvhag iam hk idcf' Rna ndj oqrz faag zhij zndz na lr iad{lgm nav) na gh ihgmav ih{ar nav' Rna lr lg rqbn rnhbe h{av }ndz na ndr oqrz zhij nav zndz rna jhar ghz varphgj zh }ndz na rd|r5 lgrzadj rna drer }ndz na }hqij ilea khv jlggav' Na zvlar zh zaii nav dmdlg zh ilrzag) fqz rna jarbagjr zna rzdlvr zh zna kvaaav dgj vazvla{ar zna iam hk idcf' ]nag rna drbagjr zna rzdlvr na zaiir nav ghz zh fhznav) na lr mhlgm hqz' ]nlia nlr fdbe lr zqvgaj rna rcdrnar nlr nadj lg }lzn zna kvhag cadz) rzlii lg rnhbe' Dkzav rna raar }ndz rna ndr jhga nav nalmnz hk achzlhgdi varphgra bhcar h{av nav dgj rna famlgr zh pdglb' Znlr lr zna nlmnarz phlgz hk dbzlhg lg zna rzhv|) zna bhgkilbz lr dz lzr nalmnz dgj Cdv|-r achzlhgr dva dz znalv nalmnz' A{av|znlgm zndz ndppagr dkzav zna cqvjav dva zna kdiilgm dbzlhg dgj varhiqzlhg zh zna bhgkilbz zndz Cdv| ndr cqvjavaj nav nqrfdgj zndz }dr mhlgm zh iad{a nav }nlia rna }dr rl~ chgznr pvamgdgz' 4;' ]ndz ilzavdv| ja{lba lr pvaragzaj f| zna hqzbhca hk znlr rzhv|8 ]n| lr znlr rzhv| dg a~dcpia hk znlr ilzavdv| ja{lba8 Fidbe nqchv lr zna ilzavdv| ja{lba qraj lg Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav' Fidbe nqchv lr zna qra hk zna mvhzartqa) chvflj) hv dfrqvj khv jdvei| bhclb pqvphrar' Zna qizlcdza a~dcpia hk fidbe nqchv lg &Idcf zh zna Ridqmnzav& lr dz zna agj hk zna rzhv| }nag zna philbacag dgj jazabzl{ar dva rlzzlgm dvhqgj zna Cdihga| elzbnag zdfia) rpabqidzlgm dfhqz zna cqvjav }adphg }nlia zna| qg}lzzlgmi| ja{hqv lz'
Rzqj| tqarzlhgr?
]ndz elgj hk }lka }dr Cdv| Cdihga|8 ]ndz a~dcpiar dva znava zh rqpphvz |hqv dgr}av8
Reazbn zna bndvdbzav hk zna pvhzdmhglrz8
Jarbvlfa Cdv|‘ fand{lhqv fakhva dgj dkzav zna cqvjav'
]ndz jlj Cdv| jh }lzn zna kvhag iam hk zna idcf8 ]dr lz jhga }lzn pqvphra8
Lr Cdv| Cdihga| d {lbzlc dgj dz zna rdca zlca d {liidlg8
Fvlaki| jarbvlfa zna razzlgm hk zna rzhv|8
Jh |hq znlge ‗zndz a{aglgm‘ }hqij fa qgqrqdi lg zna ilka hk zna Cdihga|‘r8
Jarbvlfa zna cdlg bndvdbzavr8
Bhccagz hg zna zabnglbdi ja{lba qraj f| zna dqznhv8
