CHAPTER I INTRODUCTION Background of the Study: Witnesses are a crucial support to the dispensation of justice in any civilized society (Gana, S., 2000). They becoe the eyes and ears of the court as they provide inforation aidin! in the identification and arrest of suspects. "n the process ho#ever, #itness ay e$perience and suffer fro threats and harassents #hich can affect their #ell%bein! and overall health. They e$perience a state of disbelief and often feel nub, deeply upset and trauatized. Soe of the e$perience physical syptos such as sha&es, sleeplessness and cryin! all the tie. 'lthou!h soe of these #itnesses ay not e$perience traua, ental ba!!a!e occurs as little stresses of everyday life build up. While they carry out their s#orn duties to the state, the stress load they e$perience ay be too uch to ta&e. They can e$perience depression, suffer fro ournin! that they have never overcoe, an$iety, post trauatic stresses, suicidal thou!hts and soe other probles that have not been treated. These stresses have the potential to ne!atively affect an individuals psycholo!ical and physical health ('*+). The delayed reactions to these stresses anifest itself in the for of psychosoatic syptos such as headaches, chronic usculos&eletal pain syndroes, stoach aches, heart palpitations and breathin! disturbances (attilio et al, 200-). ivin! #ith these stresses ay have an ipact on an individuals physical and psycholo!ical health, affect activities of daily livin! and ay threaten the stability of personal relationships thus affectin! /uality of life. 1
The World *ealth +r!anization (W*+) defines uality of ife as an individual1s perception of their position in life in the conte$t of the culture and value systes in #hich they live and in relation to their !oals, e$pectations, standards and concerns. "t is a broad ran!in! concept affected in a cople$ #ay by the person1s physical health, psycholo!ical state, personal beliefs, social relationships and their relationship to salient features of their environent. Several studies focused on the /uality of life of people #ith health probles such as *"3'"S, cancer, psychiatric disorder, deentia and any ore. To the best of the researchers &no#led!e, no study has been reported on assessin! the /uality of life of individuals aditted into the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6. Thus, the researcher feels the need to assess th eir /uality of life in relation to their perspectives on health, current health conditions, and other relevant factors. This study #ill also enable the readers to better understand the daily challen!es e$perienced by such #itnesses.
Reve! of Re"ated #terature "n 789:, the World *ealth +r!anization defined health as bein! not only the absence of disease and infirity but also the presence of physical, ental and social #ell ; bein!. Since then, issues re!ardin! /uality of life becae of !reat iportance in research and health care practice. 's there #ere only five (<) articles re!ardin! /uality of life listed in the =edline database, there had been an increase in the utilization of /uality of life (+) evaluation since 78->.
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'ccordin! to a#ton (7887), + is a ulti%level concept reflectin! both acro% societal and socio%deo!raphic influences and also icro concerns, such as individuals e$periences, circustances, health, social #ell%bein!, values, insi!hts, and psycholo!y. "t therefore encopasses the objective and subjective diensions of a person or a !roup of people. There #ere several literatures revie#ed on /uality of life. +ne of #hich is the /ualitative study by =insuarez (2008). Si$ty%four (?9) participants #ere recruited fro the three (>) dialysis units of @aboan!a Aity naely, the @aboan!a Aity =edical Aenter (@A=A), Western =indanao =edical Aenter (W==A) and the @aboan!a octors *ospital (@*), usin! convenience saplin!. The inforation !athered #ere suarized into several thees these areB 5eaction to ia!nosis Cno#led!e of the isease and Treatent, Dffects of isease and ialysis Treatent in ife, Aopin! Strate!ies, Stren!th to Aontinue ivin!, and lastly, the 'ssessent of their uality of ife. "t has been concluded that the uality of life of the dialysis patients in the > ajor dialysis units in @aboan!a Aity are not lo# as confired by the + scores and the results of the in%depth intervie#. 'nother /ualitative study by Teps&i et. al (2072) adinistered the convenience saplin! ethodolo!y to fifty%si$ (
copetition, unprepared teachers, e$cessive activities, and edical school schedules that deanded e$clusive dedication. The lac& of tie for studyin! due to edical duties, relationships, leisure and rest #ere considered the ain factors of influence. +n the contrary, factors that increased /uality of life #ere !ood teachers, active learnin! approaches, contact #ith patients, and efficient tie ana!eent. Students also reported that eanin!ful relationships #ith faily ebers, friends, or teachers increased their /uality of life. ' /ualitative research done by *anson et. al (2070) revie#ed the e$istin! literature #hich inspected the functional ipact of crie victiization on the /uality of life %related edical, ental health, and eployer costs, and health care utilization. The revie# sho#ed that crie victiization influenced ultiple doains such as parentin! s&ills, reduced occupational functionin!, uneployent and intiate relationships. 'nother research by Silva et. al (2072) done in 4razil aied to analyze the /uality of life and ost%trauatic Stress isorder syptos of youn! adult in%patients #ho #ere victis of interpersonal firear violence. "nitially, one hundred forty%one (797) individuals #ere included as respondents but only ninety%five (8<) finished the study. Siilar to the researchers study, the W*++%45DE #as used to assess the overall uality of ife of the respondents. +utcoe of the study sho#ed that the trauas due to interpersonal firear violence ay result in lo# /uality of life scores and hi!h prevalence of ost%trauatic Stress isorder syptos.
Re$earch %ue$ton:
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What is the /uality of life of #itnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6F
&enera" O'(ectve: To assess the /uality of life of #itnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra (WS4) in @aboan!a Aity, 5e!ion "6.
S)ecfc O'(ectve$B 7. To assess the overall /uality of life of #itnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra (WS4) in @aboan! Aity, 5e!ion "6 re!ardin! theirB a. hysical *ealth b. sycholo!ical *ealth c. Social 5e lationships d. Dnvironent 2. To describe the life e$periences of #itnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra (WS4) in @aboan!a Aity, 5e!ion "6.
Sgnfcance of the Study: This study aied to assess the physical health, psycholo!ical health, social relationships and dealin!s #ith the environent of #itnesses #hich are iportant doains denotin! an individuals perception of /uality of life. The results of this study 5
can help the WS4 iprove the /uality of life of #itnesses and be utilized as a database for future studies.
Conce)tua" *ra+e!ork:
Threat to life
Dnvironent
hysical *ealth uality of ife of Witnesses under the WS4 in @aboan!a Aity, 5e!ion "6
sycholo!ical *ealth
Social 5elationships
*gure ,- Conce)tua" *ra+e!ork
The conceptual frae#or& sho#s the interplay of the four (9) uality of ife constructs naely physical health, psycholo!ical health, social relationships, and environent alon! #ith the threats to life that contribute to a persons #ell%bein!. 'ny influence on these constructs #ould either iprove or #orsen a persons day%to%day functionin! #hich contributes to the /uality of life.
Sco)e and de"+taton: This study #as focused on deterinin! the /uality of life of #itnesses. The respondents of the study #ere liited to those #ho #ere aditted into the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6. o /uestions #ere as&ed about
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their respective cases so as to ensure that the pro!ra #ill not be coproised because of this research.
O)eratona" Defnton of Ter+$:
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Quality of Life: "ndividual1s perception of their life in the conte$t of the follo#in!B Physical Health: refers to the persons condition in ters of ener!y and •
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fati!ue, sleep, rest and #or& capacity. Psychological Health: refers to the persons condition re!ardin! feelin!s,
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spirituality, personal beliefs and concentration. Social Relationship: refers to the persons support syste and relationship
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to#ards others. Environment: refers to the persons safety and security, financial resources and
freedo, Witness Protection, Security and Benefit Program WPSBP!: a pro!ra established under 5epublic 'ct o. ?8:7 that see&s to encoura!e a person #ho has #itnessed or has &no#led!e of the coission of a crie to testify befor e a court or /uasi%judicial body, or before an investi!atin! authority, by protectin!
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hi fro reprisals and fro econoic dislocation. Poor Q"L ; refers to the total ra# scores of the four (9) constructs ran!in! fro 2<% <<
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#oderate Q"L % refers to the total ra# scores of the four (9) constructs ran!in! fro
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CHAPTER II .ETHODO#O&/
Re$earch De$gn: This is a descriptive cross%sectional study on the /uality of life of #itnesses aditted into the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra (WS4) in @aboan!a Aity, 5e!ion "6.
Re$earch Settng:
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This study #as conducted at the +ffice of the 5e!ional rosecutor of the epartent of Hustice, the ipleentin! a!ency of the WS4 in 5e!ion "6, located at the *all of Hustice in Sta. 4arbara, @aboan!a Aity.
The epartent of Hustice (+H) ipleented a Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra (WS4) pursuant to and consistent #ith the provisions of 5epublic 'ct ?8:7 other#ise &no#n as the IWitness rotection, Security and 4enefit 'ctJ created after the Ddsa 5evolution durin! the presidency of Aorazon A. '/uino and enacted on 'pril 29, 7887. The +H ay call upon any departent, bureau, office or any other e$ecutive a!ency to assist in the ipleentation of the WS4 and shall be under le!al duty and obli!ation to render such assistance.
'ny person #ho has #itnessed or has &no#led!e or inforation on the coission of a crie and has testified or is testifyin! or about to testify before any judicial or /uasi%judicial body, or before any investi!atin! authority, ay be aditted into the ro!ra provided that he or she eets the re/uireents set forth under Section > of 5epublic 'ct ?8:7. ('ppendi$ ")
The Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6 covers the rovince of @aboan!a del orte includin! the cities of ipolo! and apitan, rovince of @aboan!a del Sur includin! a!adian Aity, rovince of Sibu!ay, 4asilan rovince includin! "sabela and aitan Aities and @aboan!a Aity
Re$)ondent$: art " ; uality of ife 'ssessent 9
"nclusion AriteriaB 7. Witnesses aditted into the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra (WS4) in 5e!ion "6. 2. Those #illin! to participate in the study. art "" ; "n% depth "ntervie# "nclusion AriteriaB 7. articipants #ho too& the uality of ife 'ssessent Survey
Sa+)"e De$gn: art "B 'ssessent of uality of ife ' convenience saplin! #as utilized. Witnesses #ho #ere present at the *all of Hustice to clai their onthly allo#ance #ere ta&en as respondents. art ""B "n depth "ntervie# urposive saplin! #as utilized in this part of the research. 'fter adinistration of the uality of ife /uestionnaires, participants for the in depth intervie# #ere stratified accordin! to the uality of ife cate!ories (poor, oderate and !ood).
Re$earch In$tru+ent$: uestionnaireB 10
The World *ealth +r!anization (W*+) initiated the developent of a /uality of life assessent due to the need for a !enuinely international easure of /uality of life and a coitent to the continued prootion of a holistic approach to health and health care. 4y callin! for /uality of life assessents in health care, attention is focused on this aspect of health, and resultin! interventions #ill pay increased attention to this aspect of patients1 #ell%bein! (W*+ 788:). The World *ealth +r!anization uality of ife ; 45DE (W*++%45DE) /uestionnaire #hich assessed the uality of life of the respondents #as utilized in this study. The W*++%45DE /uestionnaire has t#o (2) parts. The first part of the /uestionnaire contained the socio%deo!raphic profile of the respondents #hile the second part consisted of a 2?%ite /uestionnaire #hich focused on an individuals o#n vie# of their #ell%bein!. "t contained t#o (2) ites fro the +verall uality of life and General *ealth and t#enty%four (29) ites distributed aon! four (9) doainsB physical (- ites), psycholo!ical (? ites), social relationship (> ites) and environent (: ites). "ntervie# Guide uestionnaireB Eor the in depth intervie#, the researcher forulated a set of !uide /uestions in an open%ended free response forat ('ppendi$ *). This set of intervie# /uestionnaire consisted of /uestions that focused on ho# the respondents describe their /uality of life in ters of their physical health, psycholo!ical health, social relationships and the environent.
Data &atherng Procedure: 11
Witnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra #ho visited the *all of Hustice to clai their onthly allo#ance under the pro!ra #ere approached by the researcher to infor the of the study bein! underta&en on the uality of ife of Witnesses under the said pro!ra. Those #ho a!reed to participate in the study #ere as&ed to si!n an infored consent. Thereafter, a survey #as conducted usin! the W*++%45DE /uestionnaires #hich #ere adinistered privately in one of the conference roos in the *all of Hustice. The /uestionnaires #ere self%adinistered to respondents #ith sufficient ability #hile researcher %assisted /uestionnaires #ere adinistered on respondents #ho had difficulty understandin! and ans#erin! the listed ites. uestions #ere read out and the participants #rote do#n their respective ans#ers on their /uestionnaires. Soe respondents raised soe points for clarifications re!ardin! the survey /uestions, all of #hich #ere ans#ered by the researcher. 'fter ans#erin! the /uestionnaire, the scores #ere coputed and these #ere interpreted and classified as poor +, oderate + and !ood +. +f the forty%t#o (92) #itnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6, thirty (>0) a!reed to participate in the survey. Ksin! the purposive saplin! ethod, ten (70) out of the thirty (>0) respondents #ere chosen for the in%depth intervie# based on their + results. 's there #ere only t#o (2) respondents #ith poor + and four (9) #ith oderate + the researcher decide to include all of the as saples. The reainin! four (9) #ere ta&en fro the t#enty ; four (29) #ith !ood + usin! lottery ethod.
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The in%depth intervie# #as scheduled dependin! on the respondents availability and for security reasons the activity #as held privately in a conference roo in the *all of Hustice. The intervie# #as carried out usin! a forulated intervie# !uide /uestionnaire. ' tape recorder #as used to docuent the intervie# process. The recorded intervie#s #ere transcribed and analyzed data #ere referred bac& to the participants for confiration to ensure accuracy of the !athered data. Transcribed data #ere presented in detailed verbati and #ere translated in Dn!lish to facilitate data processin! ('ppendi$ C). resentation of cases #as done utilizin! a life story approach. Dach narrative #as e$ained to identify ain thees and patterns in a !iven life story.
Data Ana"y$$: The results of the W*++%45DE /uestionnaire provided the uality of ife scores. The ean score of ites #ithin each doain #as used to calculate the doain score. =ean scores #ere then ultiplied by 9 in order to a&e doain scores coparable #ith the scores used in the W*++%700. ' ethod for the anual calculation of individual score is sho#n in 'ppendi$ E. 5a# scor es #ere conve rted after coputin! the doain scores.
The first
transforation ethod converts scores to ran!e 9%20, coparable #ith the W*++% 700. The second transforation ethod converts doain scores to a 0%700 scale. ' ethod of convertin! ra# scores to transfored scores is sho#n in 'ppendi$ G. The interpretation of + score s #as adapted fro the culturally validated W*++%45DE by de e!a (200<). The cut%off for classifyin! + scores #ereB :: and above for !ood +,
to the W*++ Kser =anual (788:), the hi!her the overall score, the better the /uality of life of an individual. Theatic analysis #as done usin! the ethod used by 'ronson (7889). 'fter data collection, the entire intervie# #as recorded and transcribed #here patterns of e$periences #ere listed fro direct /uotes or paraphrasin! of coon ideas. The ne$t step #as done by reco!nizin! all data that related to the already classified patterns #hich #ere e$pounded on. 'll of the tal& that fit under the specific pattern #ere identified and placed #ith the correspondin! pattern, follo#ed by cobinin! and catalo!uin! related patterns into sub%thees. Thees that eer!ed fro the inforants1 stories #ere pieced to!ether to for a coprehensive picture of their collective e$perience. Einally, a valid ar!uent for choosin! the thees #as built by readin! related literatures #here inforation #ere !ained by allo#in! inferences fro the intervie#s.
Ethca" Con$deraton: Dach respondent #as infored of their voluntary participation in the study. "t #as stated in the infored consent that they do not have to ans#er /uestions or ta&e part in discussions or surveys that a&e the uncofortable. 'lso, it #as ade clear that /uittin! anytie durin! the course of the intervie# is allo#ed and #ill be respected. Aonfidentiality #as considered as to the personal profile of the respondents or anythin! that could lead to the identification of their identity. To !uarantee this, only pseudo naes of the respondents #ere used and their #or&places #ere not entioned in this paper.
'lso, to avoid *a#thorne effect, the researcher did not introduce herself as the dau!hter of one of the heads of the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra. 14
"nstead, the researcher plainly introduced herself as a !raduate of the 'teneo de @aboan!a ; School of =edicine.
CHAPTER III RESU#TS AND DISCUSSIONS
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uality of ife 'ssessent '. eo!raphic rofil e Table 7 sho#s the socio%deo!raphic profile of the respondents. Thirty (>0)
respondents participated in the survey. There is a feale predoinance aon! the participants and ajority of the belon! to the >2 to 9> year ; old a!e !roup. The youn!est is 7? years old #hile the oldest is << years old #ith a ean a!e of >>.7> years. ' lar!e nuber of the respondents #ere arried and ost of the obtained a colle!e education.
Table 7. Socio ;deo!raphic rofile of 5espondents ( L >0) ariables
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Se$ Eeale =ale
7? (<>.>) 79 (9?.?)
N20 20%>7 >2%9> 99%<<
2 (?.?) 70 (>>.>) 72 (90) ? (20)
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Aivil Status Sin!le =arried ivin! as =arried Dducational 'ttainent Dleentary *i!h School Aolle!e
: (2?) 7- (
4. +verall uality of ife Scores The fi!ure belo# sho#s the nuber of respondents belon!in! to the different cate!ories of the uality of ife. +f the >0 respondents, 2 or ?.? M have poor +, 29 or :0M have oderate + #hile the reainin! 9 or 7>.> M of the respondents have !ood +.
Ei!ure 2. uality of ife Scores of Witnesses 4ased on e e!as Score "nterpretation
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Ooor + ; ?.?M O=oderate + ; :0M OGood + ; 7>.>M
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The four (9) uality of ife constructs naely physical health, psycholo!ical health, social relationships and the environent play an iportant role in an individuals /uality of life but these are soeties overloo&ed and ta&en for !ranted. "n the succeedin! para!raphs, these four (9) constructs #ere discussed based on the inputs !iven by the respondents.
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hysical *ealth hysical health is aon! the four (9) doains #hich coprise a persons /uality
of life. "t refers to the persons condition in ters of the follo#in!B activities of daily livin!, dependence on edicinal substances and edical aids, ener!y and fati!ue, obility, pain and discofort, sleep and rest and #or& capacity (W*+ 788:). Ero the in%depth intervie# conducted, only t#o (2) facets #ere identified #hich includeB Wor& Aapacity and Sleep and 5est.
Table 2. hysical *ealth oain Eacets
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Wor& Aapacity
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Aapacity to #or& had been disrupted Eear prevented the fro perforin! their roles 5espondents responsibilities #ere assued by others
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Sleep and 5est
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Troublin! thou!hts reas 3 i!htares Eeelin!s of restlessness o# ener!y level
'. Wor& Aapacity "ndividuals portray various roles in #or& and faily life that is affected by a #ide ran!e of choices and liitations. =ost of the respondents stated that their capacity to #or& had been distressed since they becae #itnesses. Their capacity to #or& effectively and efficiently #as hindered by thou!hts that fre/uently bothered the. 'lso, fear prevented the fro perforin! their roles in the society and instead others assued the responsibilities that #ere supposed to be theirs. ' respondent said %&es ma'am it had affected me( ) do not do the things ) used to do *efore( ) do not go to the mar+et anymore( #y ife and ) go to the mar+et one a ee+, *ut no it is her and mother ho go to the mar+et and do grocery- ) stopped or+ing . fi/ing vehicles *ecause ) really cannot or+ *ecause there are lots of things *othering my mind( 0he results of my or+ are not that satisfactory1
'nother one also e$pressed, I &es it someho affected my or+( ) stopped or+ing *ecause ) as afraid( ) used to drive a tricycle, *ut since ) *ecame a itness, ) 2ust stopped- ) *ecame fearful that ) ould *e +illed anytime( Since ) stopped driving, ) 2ust stayed at home( ) loo+ after my children and it is my ife ho *ecame the
*readinner *y doing laundry for others(1 +ne respondent said %&es, *eing a itness someho affected my or+ at school and at home( 0here as one instance hen my mother told me to *uy something at a store in ton, hen ) ent home ) reali3ed that ) did not *uy hat ) as told( )nstead, ) *ought something else( #y mother got mad at me( Sometimes ) cannot rela/ and ) am not at ease( ) alays al+ around the house and ) cannot finish my or+( 4or e/ample, ) am supposed to do the laundry5 ) cannot finish that chore *ecause there are many things that enter my mind( #y time is asted on a single chore only(1 18
4. Sleep and 5est Sleep and 5est are iportant coponents of #ell% bein!. 'll individuals need periods of calness and lesser activity so that their bodies can re!ain ener!y. The ris& of sleep issues is increased in those #ho #itnessed tra!ic events directly, an$iety and ne!ative life events (Gen! et.al 207>). Soe respondents #ould often have dreas or ni!htares that caused the to becoe #orried #hile others e$perienced flashbac&s and troublin! thou!hts that ade fallin! asleep difficult. 5espondents #ho had trouble sleepin! felt tired and had difficulty seein! the positive side of daily challen!es in life. With lo# ener!y level and the need for ore tie in bed, soe respondents had difficulty aintainin! interpersonal relationships and adaptin! to the deands of their #or&.
' respondent said, %6t first ) asn't a*le to rela/ that much( ) feel restless( 0he events that happened +eep repeating on my mind(1
'nother respondent said, %But sometimes, even )f ) don't thin+ a*out the things that cross my mind, they still appear in my dreams hen ) sleep( ) alays dream, it's li+e a nightmare *ut they are unclear( When ) a+e up, ) find it difficult to go *ac+ to sleep
again and ) feel e/hausted in the morning(1
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sycholo!ical *ealth sycholo!ical health deals #ith the interaction of behavioral and social factors
influencin! health and illness. "t is an essential coponent of overall #ellness for it affects a persons /uality of life. sycholo!ical health is about the thin!s that !ive a person a sense of fulfillent and enjoyent, sustainin! a healthy and balance outloo& in 19
life and buildin! satisfyin! relationships. ositive and ne!ative feelin!s as #ell as spirituality and reli!ion #ere identified in relation to /uality of life.
Table >. sycholo!ical *ealth oain Eacets
ositive Eeelin!s
5esponses
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e!ative Eeelin!s
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Spirituality and 5eli!ion
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+ptiis *appiness
ac& of self ; #orth Self ;blae Eear of the un&no#n Eear of death Eear of leavin! loved ones behind
Spiritual beliefs Guidin! principles and values Source of stren!th and inspiration Shield fro probles
'. ositive Eeelin!s +ptiis hold t#o concepts that are closely related to each otherB the first is the inclination to hope, #hile the second refers to the tendency to believe that #e live in the best of all possible #orlds. "t is possible to avoid or reduce the ne!ative psycholo!ical and physical conse/uences after a !oal is not achieved. This is done throu!h a process of adaptive self% re!ulation tar!eted at freein! oneself fro an unrealizable !oal and concentratin! efforts 20
on ore attainable objectives (Wrosch et.al 200>) .
espite the trials in life, soe
respondents reained to be positive and ade their o#n choices to#ards happiness. 'n optiistic respondent shared, %)'m happy today( ) feel great-) live ith this clich75 %hen the going gets tough, then the tough gets going(1 6fter all, happiness is a choice- 6s much as ) could, ) 2ust don't let anyone or anything pull me don( )'m 2ust a happy person and ) live my life the ay ) ant to( ) *elieve doc that life is a 2ourney through open fields of unlimited imagination 8 that is, everything in life is possi*le, *oth the good things and *ad things( )t's 2ust a matter of ho a person ould deal ith those things( )'d li+e to say that my life is good, *ecause that's hat ) ant it to *e and *ecause ) ignore all of the *ad things that crosses my path( ) 2ust don't mind it( ) guess that's a ay to have a happy life(1 Tal&in! to another respondent re!ardin! the thin!s that a&e his life !ood, he ans#ered, %Being optimistic in life( Life is not alays all a*out pro*lems( ) *elieve that if ) have a pro*lem no, it ill soon *e fi/ed( ) 2ust don't +no hen(1
ositive feelin!s eanate fro psycholo!ically healthy people. These feelin!s a&e the a#are of their capabilities and the roles that they play. "t also allo#s the to accept theselves and the people around the. Soe respondents #ere very optiistic considerin! the stresses and probles they have encountered. They still ana!ed to loo& at the bri!hter side of life and #or&ed efficiently to attain their specific !oals. ' respondent e$pressed, %) don't consider the rong things that happened to me as *ad( ) ta+e it as a learning e/perience( People
say that it is *etter if e learn from the mista+es of others, *ut ho is that possi*le9 &ou +no, e have different e/periences from each other, the mista+es they had in their lives are not the same ith mine, it may *e similar, *ut it is not the same(1 'nother one disclosed , %) am happy today( ) feel light( 6ll ) can say is that ) am than+ful to every day that ) a+e up to, that ) and my family are alive( ) really don't +no if this life still has meaning *ut ) thin+ *eing alive ma+es my life good(1
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essiis affects a persons /uality of life. essiists nurture little hope for the future and are ore at ris& for depressive and an$iety disorders, #ith subse/uent ipairent of social functionin! and /uality of life (an der elden
et al ;;
ne!ative feelin!s that #ere seen aon! the respondents in this research #ere lac& of self% #orth, fear and self ;blae as supported by the /uotations belo#. +ne respondent related his lac& of self% #orth, %Sometimes ) feel that those ho are physically ill are luc+y *ecause people pity them( 6s for us, e don't have any physical illness that people may see, *ut the effect on us is in the mind, it's li+e e are in traumati3ed or in shoc+( )t is *etter for those ho are sic+ *ecause they can *e treated(1
The other respondents disclosed their fear of the un&no#n, fear of death and fear of leavin! their loved ones behind. ' respondent said %) am someho afraid and orried *ecause ) don't +no hat might happen to me anytime- Because ) can't remove from my mind the fear( ) feel so an/ious(1 ' respondent said, %) am really afraid to die( ) am afraid to leave my parents *ehind(1 'nother one shared, %)f they do not li+e you, they ill really pi=ue on you( ) am afraid that they ill pi=ue on me and they might +ill me, my ife and +id ould *e such a pity( Right no my ife is really having a hard time *ecause ) am not around, hat more if ) ill die( ) am afraid to die, not *ecause ) am afraid of death, *ut ) am afraid of hat might happen to my family if ) ill die(1 Self%blae #as evident in one of the responses of the participants #herein one entioned, %#y life *ecame difficult hen ) *ecame a itness( We used to *e o+ay *efore( #ay*e it as *ad luc+( "r may*e it is 2ust me *ecause ) don't +no ho to handle pro*lems1 and %) don't ant to *e ith them *ecause ) feel that they ill *e in danger *ecause of me(1
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Spiritual #ellness eans different thin!s to different people. Eor soe, it involves havin! a set of beliefs, principles and values that !uide the and !ive purpose and eanin! to their lives. "t also helps the !ain a sense of copleteness #ithin theselves and in their relationship #ith the people around the. 5eli!ion plays an iportant role in the life of any people. "t serves as a source of stren!th and inspiration for soe, #hile others vie# it as their shield fro their probles. Dven those #ho are not very reli!ious by nature consider reli!ion to be iportant. ' !ay respondent detai led, % ) must admit that ) am not very religious and ) don't attend mass every Sunday nor do ) read the Bi*le, *ut ) have this relationship ith $od hich is only *eteen me and Him hich ) guess led me to have a happy life(1 5eli!ion !ives people soethin! to believe in. eople believe that it is fro reli!ion that their stren!th coes fro. "t !ives the the yearnin! to !o out and #or& every day and offer everythin! to the 'li!hty Eather. They do these because they believe there is a sense behind it all. ' youn! lady #ho believes in prayers verbalized, %) light candles at 4ort Pilar( ) pray that He ould strengthen me and +eep me safe alays, *ecause sometimes ) get paranoid( But every time ) thin+ of the Lord, ) *ecome o+ay(1 'nother respondent said, %) 2ust pray and my orries 2ust fade aay( )t is from the Lord that ) get my strength(1
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"t is ost fascinatin! to &no# that relationships are not about thin!s but about people. 5elationships are very iportant because they provide us #ith a sense of #ho #e really are and #here #e fit in. They also !ive us support and cofort that allo#s us to surpass daily challen!es in our lives. Social support is a coon thee #hich #as identified by the respondents. Table 9. Social 5elationships oain Eacets
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Eaily and friends are the source of stren!th *elps overcoe stress in life rovides a feelin! of self ;#orth Aonflict #ith faily Withdra#al fro
'. Social Support Social support refers to the e$periences of bein! valued, respected, cared about, and loved by others #ho are present in ones life (Gurun!, 200?). "t is iportant to have a stron! relationship #ith faily and friends because they are considered a critical help durin! difficult ties. The support !iven by faily and friends is an iportant factor in successfully overcoin! stresses in life. =oreover, social support durin! ties of probles also helps in avoidin! ne!ative events as it provides a feelin! of self%#orth to an individual, thus contributin! to #ell%bein!. Social support fro faily and friends #ere considered iportant to the respondents as they are their source of stren!th and eotional support. +ne participant shared, %#y family, they are really the ones ho strengthen me( 0hey are the reason hy ) still go on life( 0hey are the most important thing in my life- ) get that emotional support 24
from my family( Sometimes, seeing them happy ma+es me happy too(1 ' respondent shared, %) have a good relationship ith every*ody, even in the or+ place5 ) alays *ring out the happy me(1 Eor others, their circustances turned into soethin! beneficial. Eaily ties #ere stren!thened despite the probles that arise. 'nother respondent ans#ered, %)'ve *ecome close to my family *ecause they are someho there to help me( ) had enough time to spend ith them *ecause ) am alays in the house(1 +n the contrary, the special social support needs of the respondents ay result in conflict #ith or #ithdra#al by faily or friends #ho ay becoe annoyed #ith the, tired #ith the crisis, or be other#ise unprepared to help the cope #ith their distress (olen%*oe&sea and avis 7888). ' respondent shared, %6t first, hen a family mem*er +ne a*out my situation, he *ecame scared that my ife, children and other family mem*ers ould *e affected(1 'nother participant, #hen as&ed re!ardin! ho# people treated hi ans#ered, %)t's still the same( >othing's changed really( 0he ay ) treat them and the ay they treat me *efore is still the same( But there are days hen ) don't ant to *e ith them or ) 2ust ant to stay aay from them(1
5espondents #ho elicited ne!ative social reactions #ere those #ho are troubled and #ere not actively copin! #ith their situation. They feel that they are responsible for the occurrence of a condition or a situation #hich led the to have feelin!s of vulnerability and frustration to#ards theselves and to others as confired by their responses belo#. =ost of the respondents avoid socializin! #ith their peers because they feel that they i!ht be blaed if anythin! bad happens to the. +ne participant #ho avoided his friends durin ! ties of isery shared, I) don't ant to tal+ to other people that time( )t seemed li+e 25
) have a orld of my on( ) *ecame distant and ) don't go out ith my friends(1 ' respondent also disclosed , %When ) as imprisoned it as my family ho really supported me( )t came to the point that my conscience is +illing me *ecause despite of hat ) did, they are still there for me(1 'nother one said, %#y family treated me very nicely( But ) thin+ ) am the one ho stays aay from them( #ay*e *ecause ) don't ant them to *e associated ith me, *ecause ) don't ant them to *e part of this pro*lem too( 6s for my neigh*ors, they really pry into my life and they 2udge me right aay( )t's as if they are clean, ithout sin(1
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Dnvironent The environent creates an ipact on the #ay #e thin&, feel and act. "t is
physical, social, natural and an%ade. "t becoes the subjects of our thou!hts and feelin!s #hich are chan!ed by our individual and shared actions. Einancial resources, safety and security are soe of the aspects of the environent that affect a persons /uality of life. Table <. Dnvironental oai n Eacets
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ac& of oney affects +
Worried about threats ac& of &no#led!e about self defense
'. Einancial 5esources "t is #ell &no#n that a persons /uality of life is related to deprivation, poverty, ine/uality and other social and econoic deterinants of health. Dconoic crises are
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therefore ties of hi!h ris& to the ental #ell%bein! of the population and of the people affected and their failies (W*+ 200-). 'lthou!h soe of lifes deands are associated #ith poverty and the /uality of life can be affected by it, the responses of the participants revealed that financial resources did not !reatly affect their lives. When as&ed about #hat a&es life difficult, a respondent replied, %Being poor and not a*le to finish school(1 He further added that %)t is really hard to *e poor( 0he poor *ecomes poorer and the lac+ of education also adds up(1 'nother respondent shared, %#ay*e for me it is the lac+ of money that ma+es life difficult( )f one has no money, there ould *e no food( )t ould *e hard to provide every day's needs(1
'. hysical Safety and Security The iediate nei!hborhood in #hich one lives can have an ipact on a persons life. ivin! in a !ood nei!hborhood and feelin! safe and secured #as said to be iportant to the respondents. +ne respondent shared , %) am really concerned a*out my safety *ecause ) feel ) am really helpless if those people ill come *ac+ for me, ) am afraid they might +idnap me, rape me or even +ill me( ) am a very small lady and ) do not +no ho to protect myself physically, ) don't +no martial arts or hatever(1 'nother said, %&es, ) am still orried of my safety( ) can't really say that ) am in danger, *ut ) can't also say ) am safe1
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"n this section, three (>) case suaries #ere done depictin! the e$periences of a typical #itness #ith poor, oderate and !ood uality of ife. The case suaries #ere presented based on the coonalities !athered fro the survey and in% depth intervie#s.
Ca$e Su++ary ,: Poor %ua"ty of #fe 5ia is a 7?%year%old feale #ho is bothered by her apprehensions about any thin!s. She is the eldest aon! three (>) siblin!s. She has a ten (70) year%old%brother #ho is a fourth (9th) !rader and a t#o (2) year% old%sister. She !re# up in a sall house ade of i$ed aterials in one of the slu areas in the city. *er father is a construction #or&er #ho earns ( 2<0.00) a day and her other is a ve!etable vendor in the public ar&et in the street of =a!ay. With her parents liited incoe, their basic daily needs #ere not al#ays et. 4ecause of this, she helped by sellin! ice candy in her school and used the earnin!s for her school re/uireents and daily allo#ance. 's a second year hi!h school student in a public school, she said that she soeties feels ashaed of attendin! classes because she #as often teased by her classates as bein! too old to be a sophoore student. She said that #hen her father had an accident in the construction site three (>) years a!o, she #as forced to stop !oin! to school because she needed to ta&e care of her father, her siblin!s and at the sae tie help her other earn a livin! for their faily. 't a very youn! a!e of thirteen (7>), 5ia already assued the role of an adult. She did not have tie to play li&e the rest of the children in their nei!hborhood. These events in her life ade her sad and vie#ed life as useless and eanin!less. There #ere ties #hen she /uestioned God #hy these thin!s had to happen to her faily and #hy !ood 28
people e$perience such circustances in life. She said that she really becae sad and felt that she carried the #orld on her shoulders. Several onths after 5ias fathers accident, life #as becoin! !ood for her. ' little s#eetness #as added to her bitter life #hen her father recuperated and #ent bac& to #or& as a construction #or&er. To her, this eant that there could be a !reater chance that she could !o bac& to school, play #ith her friends and be #orry%free. Their life becae better copared to the past years, but her e$periences in the past left a #ound in her heart that could not easily be healed. 4ut fate is really playfulP just #hen thin!s #ere becoin! !ood for her, an une$pected event happened that ade her hate life a!ain. She #itnessed a crie and #as as&ed to testify before the court. 't a very youn!, these events #ere very trauatic for her. There #ere ties #hen she had flashbac&s of the crie she #itnessed and #ould often have ni!htares. She aditted that it is really difficult to be a #itness since she is al#ays filled #ith fears. *er o#n safety is al#ays priority thats #hy she avoided !oin! to places #here the incident happened. She believes that she is no lon!er the sae person she used to be since she be!an hidin! hiself fro people. *er #or &s at school and at hoe #ere also affected. She #as not able to concentrate anyore and lost focus on #hat she does. She said that there #as one instance #hen her father as&ed her to buy a lar!e%sized nail but #hen she arrived at hoe, she realized that she #asnt able to buy #hat she #as told and instead bou!ht a sall% sized nail. This caused her father to !et ad at her #hich ade her very sad. 5ia also becae restless. She &ept #al&in! around the house and cannot finish her #or&. She shared that one tie #hen she #as doin! laundry her other cau!ht her 29
starin! blan&ly in space. She #as not able to finish the chore as there #ere any thin!s that crossed her ind. *er tie #as #asted on a sin!le tas& only. These eotional and psycholo!ical probles she had #ere the results of the incidents that he #itnessed #hich she considers unbelievable. She said that her life becae ore difficult #hen she becae a #itness because she believes that she is too youn! to !rasp all the stresses it brou!ht her. She said that aybe it #as bad luc& that caused all these or aybe it #as just her #ho cannot handle such probles in life.
Ca$e 0: .oderate %ua"ty of #fe 'naliza, is a >-%year%old public school teacher, arried and #ith &ids. She had been arried for the past ten (70) years to a ilitary soldier. *er first born is a !irl #ho is already nine (8) years old, her second child is a boy #ho is five (<) years old and she is at the oent three (>) onths pre!nant. *er faily rents an apartent in a subdivision soe#here in the Dast coast of this city. 5aised by her adoptive parents #ho are both public teachers as #ell, she felt !rateful #ith the thin!s that she has ; !reat parents, lovin! husband, #onderful &ids and a decent job. 't the a!e of nineteen (78) she learned that she #as adopted by her aunt and uncle, #hen her biolo!ical other left her. Knli&e other people #ho becae an!ry upon &no#in! that they #ere adopted, 'naliza did not share the sae sentient. "nstead she #as !rateful of her adoptive parents for ta&in! care of her and !ivin! her a !ood life. She shared that she could not ia!ine life #ithout her nanay and tatay.
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ife has its ups and do#ns. She described her /uality of life as fair because nothin! in it is ever peranent. She shared that there #ere ties #hen life #as really !ood to her #hich ade her thin& that she ust have done soethin! ri!ht to deserve any blessin!s. 4ut life is not al#ays a bed of roses. There #ere also ties #hen life seeed dar& for her. She recalled that #hen she and her husband #ere startin! out at arried couples, there #ere challen!es that #ere too hard for her to handle. 'ccordin! to 'naliza, adjustin! to arried life #as hard. "t #as only #hen she !ot arried #hen she learned about the differences she and her husband have. =onths after their #eddin! they started fi!htin! over petty thin!s, she started to !et jealous over her husbands past lovers and she &ept na!!in! hi until her husband burns out. 4ut believin! that nothin! in life is peranent, a!ain, thin!s #ent sooth for her. ' year a!o, 'naliza becae a state #itness. She said that bein! a #itness soeho# affected her life. "t #as hard for her to ana!e any responsibilities at a tie. There #as an instance #hen she had to ju!!le bet#een attendin! trials and havin! her pre%natal chec&%up #hich #as scheduled at the sae day. 'lso, there #ere ties #hen she needed to be absent fro her #or& every tie she #as suoned to court. She shared that she has fears and #orries but it never involved her bein! a state #itness as she never received any threats fro anyone. She #orries a lot about her pre!nancy and her health. 'lso, she often coplained of dealin! #ith the chan!es accopanied by pre!nancy such as nausea and voitin! that ade her lazy and lose interest in the thin!s that she does.
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She considers the pro!ra as a bi! help to her because she &no#s that she is protected. She is very fle$ible #hen it coes to thin!s or events that re/uire chan!es and doesnt #ant coplain about petty issues as this #ill only ruin her ood. 'naliza is a very contented #oan, she defines /uality of life as the thin!s that a&e a person life coplete. She believes that those people #ho have the sae situation as her should never lose hope and should al#ays believe that God is al#ays there to help the.
Ca$e Su++ary 1: &ood %ua"ty of #fe
'ir is a >:%year old accountantP he is sin!le and proud to say that he is !ay. *e cae fro a proinent faily in @aboan!a Aity and is an only son. *e finished his colle!e de!ree and pursue d a de!ree in 4usiness 'dinistration. *e is one of the successful youn! professionals #or&in! in one of the ban&s in the Aity. *e had the best of everythin! ; faily, friends and a #ell%paid job. 4ein! sin!le, he never felt lonely as he #as too busy #ith #or& to even thin& of findin! hiself a partner and he has !ood friends #ho &eep hi copany. *appiness, accordin! to hi is a choice. *e believes that he is responsible for the thin!s that he chooses and that it is just a atter of turnin! the ne!ativities in life into a positive one. *e had a happy, #orry%free life, until that one ill%fated day #hen he #as betrayed by his friend. *e joined an investent venture years a!o and his friend ran a#ay #ith all the oney aountin! to illions of pesos. *is friend ade it appear that it #as hi #ho
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too& the oney. *e #as accused because of the treacherous act of soe people. 4ut still he fou!ht for truth. This event had a !reat ipact on hi because his nae #as tainted by soeone he trusted. urin! these troubled ties, he received support fro his parents and friends. espite bein! betrayed, he never !ave up on his other friends. *e still trusts the but this tie he #as cautious. Still the happy person that he is, he still spends tie #ith the %sin!in!, partyin! and havin! clean fun *e did not let the bad situation coe in bet#een the #ay of his dreas. espite all that he #ent throu!h he reained to be than&ful for every blessin! that he received. *e !oes to church to li!ht candles and as& for stren!th and !uidance fro the ord. 'ir ana!es to stay happy even if he has probles. *e described hiself as a stron! person and believes in the sayin! that !oes I When the going gets tough, the tough
gets going1( *e described his /uality of life as !ood. 'nd that life is all about bein! happy and free fro #orries. With a happy disposition in his face, he stressed that he has to reain !ood even if the #orld is cruel.
CHAPTER I2 SU..AR/3 CONC#USIONS AND RECO..ENDATIONS Thirty (>0) #itnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6 #ere respondents of this study !athered throu!h convenience and purposive 33
saplin!. ata #ere !athered throu!h survey utilizin! the W*++%45DE /uestionnaire and in%depth intervie# utilizin! an intervie# !uide /uestionna ire. This study provided a /ualitative depiction of the /uality of life of #itnesses under the said pro!ra. This study focused on assessin! the overall /uality of life of #itnesses by deterinin! their physical health, psycholo!ical health, social relationships and interaction #ith the environent as #ell as to describe their life e$periences. The results of the study sho#ed that ajority of the respondents have oderate uality of ife scores follo#ed by respondents #ith !ood and poor + scores. These findin!s #ere confired by the results of the in%depth intervie#s done aon! the ten (70) selected participants #ho have !ood, oderate and poor overall + scores. Three (>) case suaries #ere ade to describe the life e$periences of #itnesses fro each of the cate!ories. "n conclusion, the /uality of life of #itnesses in the WS4 is not lo# contrary to notions that individuals #ho e$perience stresses that pose threats to life have a poor /uality of life. The resul ts can be attributed to havin! a !ood eotional and support syste. "t is recoended that future studies on the /uality of life should be assessed every 9 #ee&s after the initial assessent to deterine the chan!es in their uality of ife. *o#ever, future studies involvin! respondents #ith security issues are discoura!ed. "t #as difficult to e$tract stories fro the respondents since they are interestin! topics that they are not allo#ed to share. B'"ogra)hy
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5oy%4irne ., Geraci =., Khde, T. (78:?). Life Events and the "nset of Panic ?isorder( 5etrieved fro ub=ed AentralB httpB33###.ncbi.nl.nih .!ov APPENDI4 A PER.ISION #ETTER
Hanuary 27, 207> 'tty. eter . =edalle +"A ; 5e!ional rosecutor +ffice of the 5e!ional rosecutor epartent of Hustice, 5e!ion "6 35
*all of Hustice, @aboan!a Aity ear 'tty. =edalle, Greetin!sQ " a Cristina Carylle S. 'raojo, a !raduate of the 'teneo de @aboan!a Kniversity ; School of =edicine ('@K%S+= ) and currently ta&in! y =asters e!ree in ublic *ealth. " a at the oent #or&in! on a re/uireent involvin! research entitled Iuality of ife of Witnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!raJ. The subject of y research bein! #itnesses aditted in the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra in 5e!ion "6, " #ould li&e to respectfully see& your perission for #itnesses of the said pro!ra to act as respondents of y research study. " shall be visitin! your office to personally e$plain the ethodolo!y and other aspects of the sae. 's said research is a ajor course re/uireent, " earnestly hope " could !et your approval of y herein re/uest. 5est assured that all inforation !athered by the undersi!ned #ill be treated #ith utost confidentiality so as to protect the identity and interest of said #itnesses%respondents.
Than& Rou. ery truly yours, C5"ST"' C'5RD S. '5'+H+ =.. =aster in ublic *ealth 'teneo de @aboan!a Kniversity %School of =edicine oted byB r. Servando . *alili, Hr. ean of the Graduate School 'teneo de @aboan!a Kniversity APPENDI4 B RESPONDENT IN*OR.ATION Pa+agat ng Pag5 aara ": uality of ife of Witnesses under the Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra Taga)ag$a"k$k: Cristina Carylle S. 'raojo I.BITAS/ON UPAN& #U.AHO6 SA PA& AARA# NA ITO 36
Cayo ay iniibitahan na luaho& sa pa!%aaral na ito upan! asuri an! inyon! pisi&al at say&olohi&al na &alusu!an, panlipunan! relasyon at pa&i&itun!o sa &apali!iran na itinuturin! na ahala!an! aspeto na &ua&ata#an sa &alidad n! buhay n! isan! indibid#al. #A/UNIN N& PA&SASA&A7A N& PA&5AARA# NA ITO
'n! pa!%aaral na ito ay na!lalayon! alain an! &alidad n! pauuhay o an! Iuality of ifeJ n! !a testi!o na nabibilan! sa Wintess rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra. 'n! !a testi!o ay ay !a pina!dadaanan sa &ani%&anilan! buhay na aarin! a&aape&to sa pisi&al at say&olohi&al na &alusu!an n! isan! indibid#al, sa !a !a#ain n! pan!%ara#%ara# na pauuhay at !a banta sa &atata!an n! !a personal na relasyon. 'yon sa World *ealth +r!anization (W*+) an! Quality of Life ay tuutu&oy sa panana# n! isan! indibid#al sa &anilan! posisyon sa buhay sa &onte&sto n! &ultura at !a ba!ay na pinapahala!an na ay &au!nayan sa &anilan! !a layunin, paantayan at !a alalahanin. 'n! pa!% aara l na ito ay isasa!a#a sa paaa!itan n! pa!sa!ot n! survey =uestionnaires at pa&i&ipa!panaya sa !a &alaho& sa isan! pribadon! lu!ar. 'n! ta!apa!sali&si& an! siya ison! a!%babaha!i n!a !a survey =uestionnaire forms na a!%isan! sasa!utan n! !a &alaho&. =aaari din! tuulon! an! ta!asali&si& &un! ay !a hindi naiintindahan an! &alaho& sa !a tanon!. 'n! ta!apa!sali&si& an! sya ison! a&i&ipa!panaya sa &alaho& !ait an! !a !abay na tanon!. .&A HINDI .A&ANDAN& EPE6TO NA .AARIN& .AIDU#OT N& PA&5 AARA# NA ITO
Walan! anuan! pan!anib an! posiblen! an!yari sa !a &alaho& sa pa!%aaral na ito. =aarin! an! ilan sa !a &alaho& ay a&araranas n! pa!%aalinlan!an haban! sinasa!utan an! survey /uestionnaire. 'n! pa!%aaral na ito ay hindi a&a&aape&to sa !a natatan!!ap na benepisyo o serbisyo n! !a &alaho& na nan!!a!alin! sa Witness rotection, 4enefit and Security ro!ra.
BENEPIS/O N& PA&5AARA# NA ITO
'n! pa!% aaral na ito ay a&a&atulon! sa !a &alaho& na aintidihan! ai!i an! !a ibat% iban! aspeto na &ua&ata#an sa &alidad n! buhay n! isan! indibid#al. 'n! pa!%aaral na ito ay a&a&a!bi!ay n! iporasyon tun!&ol sa estado n! !a testi!o na na&a&aranas n! !a banta sa &ani%&anilan! buhay. Sa paraan! ito aiintidihan n! public an! &ala!ayan n! !a testi!o. TU#ON& NA .ATATAN&&AP
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Walan! atatan!!ap na anuan! hala!a an! inyon! pa!laho& sa pa!%aaral na ito. 'n! pa!%aaral na ito ay hindi rin huihin!i o nan!an!ailan!an n! anuan! pa!&a&a!astusan n! &alaho&. BO#UNTAR/ON& PA&SA#I
'n! lahat n! !a &alaho& sa pa!%aaral na ito ay hihin!an n! pahintulot sa paaa!itan n! pa!la!da n! isan! &onsento atapos aipali#ana! sa &anila an! !a layunin at proseso n! nasabin! pa!%aaral. PA&TITI7A#A 8CON*IDENTIA#IT/9
'n! !a &alaho& sa pa!%aaral na ito ay a&a&asi!uron! proprote&tahan an! &anilan! pa!&a&a&ilanlan. Tan!in! an! pseudo names , edad at &asarian laan! n! !a lalaho& an! !a!aitin sa pa!% aaral na ito. 'n! !a iporasyon na a&u&uha sa pa!% aaral na ito ay !a!aitin laan! sa nasabin! pa!%aaral. .&A I.POR.AS/ON TUN&6O# SA TA&APA&SA#I6SI6
an!alanB Cristina Carylle S. 'raojo DdadB 2? years old Curso na ataposB octor of =edicine Aellphone uberB 087-%-77%>877 Cun! ay !a &atanun!an po &ayo, hu#a! a!%atubilin! ite$t an! nuero na na&ala!ay sa itaas.
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'&o ay puapaya! na a!in! &alaho& sa binabala& na pa!%aaral n! ta!apa!sali&si&.
inapatunayan &o naB 7. aipali#ana! sa a&in an! layunin at proseso sa pa!sasa!a#a n! pa! ;aaral na ito. 2. aipali#ana! sa a&in an! !a bene pisyo na aari n! aidulot n! pa!%aaral na ito. >. a!&aroon a&o n! pa!&a&ataon! a&a pa!tanon! ! anuan! ba!a y na ay &inalaan sa isasa!a#an! pa!%aaral. 9. asabihan a&o na aari &on! ba#iin an! a&in! nila!daan! pahintulot at iti!il an! a&in! pa&i&ilaho& sa anuan! oras &o nais.
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APPENDI4 D 7HO%O#5BRE* A'out /ou
4efore you be!in #e #ould li&e to as& you to ans#er a fe# !eneral /uestions about yourself by circlin! the correct ans#er or by fillin! in the space provided.
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APPENDI4 E 7HO5%O# BRE* %UESTIONNAIRE
The follo#in! /uestions as& ho# you feel about your /uality of life, health, or other areas of your life. " #ill read out each /uestion to you, alon! #ith the response options. P"ea$e choo$e the an$!er that a))ea r$ +o$t a))r o)rate- "f you are unsure about #hich response to !ive to a /uestion, the first response you thin& of is often the best one. lease &eep in ind your standards, hopes, pleasures and concerns. We as& that you thin& about your life n the "a$t four !eek$40
7. *o# #ould you rate your /uality of lifeF
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&UIDE %UESTIONS *OR IN DEPTH INTER2IE7
7. Aould you please describe to e your ood todayF 2. *o# has your e$perience as a #itness to a crie affected your daily activitiesF >. What are your concerns, fears and #orriesF 9. *o# do you cope #ith thisF <. What is your source of stren!thF ?. o you have any for of eotional supportF -. *o# are you !ettin! alon! #ith faily and friends as a result of this e$perienceF :. 4ein! a #itness, does it burden you and your failyF *o#F 8. Thin&in! about your life as a #hole, #hat is it that a&es your life !oodF 70. What a&es it badF 77. What is your o#n understandin! of Iuality of ifeJF 72. What essa!e #ould you li&e the people to &no# about #itnesses li&e youF 47
APPENDI4 I REPUB#IC ACT NO- <=>, . ' 'AT 5+""G E+5 ' W"TDSS 5+TDAT"+, SDAK5"TR ' 4DDE"T 5+G5'= ' E+5 +T*D5 K5+SDS.
Section 7. ae of 'ct. V This 'ct shall be &no#n as the DWitness Protection, Security and Benefit 6ct(D Sec. 2. "pleentation of ro!ra. V The epartent of Hustice, hereinafter referred to as the epartent, throu!h its Secretary, shall forulate and ipleent a Witness rotection, Security and 4enefit ro!ra, hereinafter referred to as the ro!ra, pursuant to and consistent #ith the provisions of this 'ct. The epartent ay call upon any departent, bureau, office or any other e$ecutive a!ency to assist in the ipleentation of the ro!ra and the latter offices shall be under le!al duty and obli!ation to render such assistance. Sec. >. 'dission into the ro!ra. V 'ny person #ho has #itnessed or has &no#led!e or inforation on the coission of a crie and has testified or is testifyin! or about to testify before any judicial or /uasijudicial body, or before any investi!atin! authority, ay be aditted into the ro!raB rovided, ThatB 48
(a) the offense in #hich his testi ony #ill be used is a !rave felony as define d under the 5evised enal Aode, or its e/uivalent under special la#sP (b) his testiony can be substantially corroborated in its aterial pointsP (c) he or any eber of his faily #ithin the second civil de!ree of consan!uinity or affinity is subjected to threats to his life or bodily injury or there is a li&elihood that he #ill be &illed, forced, intiidated, harassed or corrupted to prevent hi fro testifyin!, or to testify falsely, or evasively, because or on account of his testionyP and (d) (d) he is not a la# enforceent officer, even if he #ould be testifyin! a!ainst the other la# enforceent officers. "n such a case, only the iediate ebers of his faily ay avail theselves of the protection provided for under this 'ct. "f the epartent, after e$aination of said applicant and other relevant facts, is convinced that the re/uireents of this 'ct and its ipleentin! rules and re!ulations have been coplied #ith, it shall adit said applicant to the ro!ra, re/uire said #itness to e$ecute a s#orn stateent detailin! his &no#led!e or inforation on the coission of the crie, and thereafter issue the proper certification. Eor purposes of this 'ct, any such person aditted to the ro!ra shall be &no#n as the Witness. Sec. 9. Witness in e!islative "nvesti!ations. V "n case of le!islative investi!ations in aid of le!islation, a #itness, #ith his e$press consent, ay be aditted into the ro!ra upon the recoendation of the le!islative coittee #here his testiony is needed #hen in its jud!ent there is pressin! necessity thereforB rovided, That such recoendation is approved by the resident of the Senate or the Spea&er of the *ouse of 5epresentatives, as the case ay be. Sec. <. =eorandu of '!reeent With the erson to be rotected. V 4efore a person is provided protection under this 'ct, he shall first e$ecute a eorandu of a!reeent #hich shall set forth his responsibilities includin!B (a) to testify before and provide inforation to all approp riate la# enfor ceent officials concernin! all appropriate proceedin!s in connection #ith or arisin! fro the activities involved in the offense char!edP (b) to avoid the coission of the crieP (c) to ta&e all necessary precautions to avoid detection by others of the facts concernin! the protection provided hi under this 'ctP (d) to coply #ith le!al obli!ations and civil jud!ents a!ainst hiP (e) to cooperate #ith respect to all reasona ble re/uests of officers and eployees of the Governent #ho are providin! protection under this 'ctP and (f) to re!ularly infor the appropri ate pro!ra official of his current acti vities and address. Sec. ?. 4reach of the =eorandu of '!reeent. V Substantial breach of the eorandu of a!reeent shall be a !round for the terination of the protection 49
provided under this 'ctB rovided, ho#ever, That before terinatin! such protection, the Secretary of Hustice shall send notice to the person involved of the terination of the protection provided under this 'ct, statin! therein the reason for such terination. Sec. -. Aonfidentiality of roceedin!s. V 'll proceedin!s involvin! applicati on for adission into the ro!ra and the action ta&en thereon shall be confidential in nature. o inforation or docuents !iven or subitted in support thereof shall be released e$cept upon #ritten order of the epartent or the proper court. 'ny person #ho violates the confidentiality of said proceedin!s shall upon conviction be punished #ith iprisonent of not less than one (7) year but not ore than si$ (?) years and deprivation of the ri!ht to hold a public office or eployent for a period of five (<) years. Sec. :. 5i!hts and 4enefits. V The #itness shall have the follo#in! ri!hts and benefitsB (a) To have a secure housin! facility until he has testified or until the threat, intiidation or harassent disappears or is reduced to a ana!eable or tolerable level. When the circustances #arrant, the Witness shall be entitled to relocation and3or chan!e of personal identity at the e$pense of the ro!ra. This ri!ht ay be e$tended to any eber of the faily of the Witness #ithin the second civil de!ree of consan!uinity or affinity. (b) The epartent shall, #henever pract icable, assist the Witness in obtaini n! a eans of livelihood. The Witness relocated pursuant to this 'ct shall be entitled to a financial assistance fro the ro!ra for his support and that of his faily in such aount and for such duration as the epartent shall deterine. (c) "n no case shall th e Witness be reoved fro or deoted in #or& becaus e or on account of his absences due to his attendance before any judicial or /uasijudicial body or investi!atin! authority, includin! le!islative investi!ations in aid of le!islation, in !oin! thereto and in coin! therefroB rovided, That his eployer is notified throu!h a certification issued by the epartent, #ithin a period of thirty (>0) days fro the date #hen the Witness last reported for #or&B rovided, further, That in the case of prolon!ed transfer or peranent relocation, the eployer shall have the option to reove the Witness fro eployent after securin! clearance fro the epartent upon the recoendation of the epartent of abor and Dployent. 'ny Witness #ho failed to report for #or& because of #itness duty shall be paid his e/uivalent salaries or #a!es correspondin! to the nuber of days of absence occasioned by the ro!ra. Eor purposes of this 'ct, any fraction of a day shallconstitute a full day salary or #a!e. This provision shall be applicable to both !overnent and private eployees. (d) (d) To be provided #ith reasonab le travelin! e$penses and subsistence allo#ance by the ro!ra in such aount as the epartent ay deterine for his attendance in the court, body or authority #here his testiony is re/uired, as #ell as conferences and intervie#s #ith prosecutors or investi!atin! officers. (e) To be provided #ith free edical treatent, hospitalization and edicines for any injury or illness incurred or suffered by hi because of #itness duty in any 50
private or public hospital, clinic, or at any such institution at the e$pense of the ro!ra. (f) "f a Witness is &illed, because of his partici pation in the ro!ra , his heirs shall be entitled to a burial benefit of not less than Ten thousand pesos (70,000.00) fro the ro!ra e$clusive of any other siilar benefits he ay be entitled to under other e$istin! la#s. (!) "n case of death or peranent incapacity, his inor or dependent children shall be entitled to free education, fro priary to colle!e level in any state, or private school, colle!e or university as ay be deterined by the epartent, as lon! as they shall have /ualified thereto. Sec. 8. Speedy *earin! or Trial. V "n any case #here a Witness aditted into the ro!ra shall testify, the judicial or /uasijudicial body, or investi!atin! authority shall assure a speedy hearin! or trial and shall endeavor to finish said proceedin! #ithin three (>) onths fro the filin! of the case. Sec. 70. State Witness. V 'ny person #ho has participated in the coission of a crie and desires to be a #itness for the State, can apply and, if /ualified as deterined in this 'ct and by the epartent, shall be aditted into the ro!ra #henever the follo#in! circustances are presentB (a) the offense in #hich his testi ony #ill be used is a !rave felony as define d under the 5evised enal Aode or its e/uivalent under special la#sP (b) there is absolute necessity for his testionyP (c) there is no other direc t evidence available for the prope r prosecution of the offense coittedB (d) his testiony can be substantially corroborated on its aterial pointsP he does not appear to be ost !uiltyP and (e) (f) he has not at any tie been convicted of any crie involvin! oral turpitude. (f) 'n accused dischar!ed fro an inforation or criinal coplaint by the court in order that he ay be a State Witness pursuant to Section 8 and 70 of 5ule 778 of the 5evised 5ules of Aourt ay upon his petition be aditted to the ro!ra if he coplies #ith the other re/uireents of this 'ct. othin! in this 'ct shall prevent the dischar!e of an accused, so that he can be used as a State Witness under 5ule 778 of the 5evised 5ules of Aourt. Sec. 77. S#orn Stateent. V 4efore any person is aditted into the ro!ra pursuant to ne$t precedin! Section he shall e$ecute a s#orn stateent describin! in detail the anner in #hich the offense #as coitted and his participation therein. "f after said e$aination of said person, his s#orn stateent and other relevant facts, the epartent is satisfied that the re/uireents of this 'ct and its ipleentin! rules are coplied #ith, it ay adit such person into the ro!ra and issue the correspondin! certification. "f his application for adission is denied, said s#orn stateent and any other testiony !iven in support of said application shall not be adissible in evidence, e$cept for ipeachent purposes.
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Sec. 72. Dffect of 'dission of a State Witness into the ro!ra. V The certification of adission into the ro!ra by the epartent shall be !iven full faith and credit by the provincial or city prosecutor #ho is re/uired not to include the Witness in the criinal coplaint or inforation and if included therein, to petition the court for his dischar!e in order that he can utilized as a State Witness. The Aourt shall order the dischar!e and e$clusion of the said accused fro the inforation. 'dission into the ro!ra shall entitle such State Witness to iunity fro criinal prosecution for the offense or offenses in #hich his testiony #ill be !iven or used and all the ri!hts and benefits provided under Section : hereof. Sec. 7>. Eailure or 5efusal of the Witness to Testify. V 'ny Witness re!istered in the ro!ra #ho fails or refuses to testify or to continue to testify #ithout just cause #hen la#fully obli!ed to do so, shall be prosecuted for contept. "f he testifies falsely or evasively, he shall be liable to prosecution for perjury. "f a State Witness fails or refuses to testify, or testifies falsely or evasively, or violates any condition accopanyin! such iunity #ithout just cause, as deterined in a hearin! by the proper court, his iunity shall be reoved and he shall be subject to contept or criinal prosecution. =oreover, the enjoy ent of all ri!ht s and benefits under this 'ct shall be deeed terinated. The Witness ay, ho#ever, pur!e hiself of the contuacious acts by testifyin! at any appropriate sta!e of the proceedin!s. Sec. 79. Aopelled Testiony. V 'ny Witness aditted into the ro!ra pursuant to Sections > and 70 of this 'ct cannot refuse to testify or !ive evidence or produce boo&s, docuents, records or #ritin!s necessary for the prosecution of the offense or offenses for #hich he has been aditted into the ro!ra on the !round of the constitutional ri!ht a!ainst selfincriination but he shall enjoy iunity fro criinal prosecution and cannot be subjected to any penalty or forfeiture for any transaction, atter or thin! concernin! his copelled testiony or boo&s, docuents, records and #ritin!s produced. "n case of refusal of said Witness to testify or !ive evidence or produce boo&s, docuents, records, or #ritin!s, on the !round of the ri!ht a!ainst selfincriination, and the state prosecutor or investi!ator believes that such evidence is absolutely necessary for a successful prosecution of the offense or offenses char!ed or under investi!ation, he, #ith the prior approval of the departent, shall file a petition #ith the appropriate court for the issuance of an order re/uirin! said Witness to testify, !ive evidence or produce the boo&s, docuents, records, and #ritin!s described, and the court shall issue the proper order. The court, upon otion of the state prosecutor or investi!ator, shall order the arrest and detention of the Witness in any jail conti!uous to the place of trial or investi!ation until such tie that the Witness is #illin! to !ive such testiony or produce such docuentary evidence. Sec. 7<. erjury or Aontept. V o Witness shall be e$ept fro prosecution for perjury or contept coitted #hile !ivin! testiony or producin! evidence under copulsion pursuant to this 'ct. The penalty ne$t hi!her in de!ree shall be iposed in case of conviction for perjury. The procedure prescribed under 5ule -7 of the 5ules of Aourt shall be follo#ed in contept proceedin!s but the penalty to be iposed shall not be less than one (7) onth but not ore than one (7) year iprisonent. 52
Sec. 7?. Aredibility of Witness. V "n all criinal cases, the fact of the entitleent of the Witness to the protection and benefits provided for in this 'ct shall not be adissible in evidence to diinish or affect his credibility. Sec. 7-. enalty for *arassent of Witness. V 'ny person #ho harasses a Witness and thereby hinders, delays, prevents or dissuades a Witness froB (a) attendin! or testifyin! before any judicial or /uasiju dicial body or investi!atin! authorityP (b) reportin! to a la# enforceent officer or jud!e the coission or possible coission of an offense, or a violation of conditions or probation, parole, or release pendin! judicial proceedin!sP (c) see&in! the arrest of another person in connection #ith the offenseP (d) causin! a criinal pros ecution, or a proceedin! for the revoc ation of a parole or probationP or perforin! and enjoyin! the ri!hts and benefits under this 'ct or attepts to do so, shall be fined not ore than Three thousand pesos (>,000.00) or suffer iprisonent of not less than si$ (?) onths but not ore than one (7) year, or both, and he shall also suffer the penalty of perpetual dis/ualification fro holdin! public office in case of a public officer. Sec. 7:. 5ules and 5e!ulations. V The epartent shall proul!ate such rules and re!ulations as ay be necessary to ipleent the intent and purposes of this 'ct. Said rules and re!ulations shall be published in t#o (2) ne#spapers of !eneral circulation. Sec. 78. 5epealin! Alause. V 'll la#s, decrees, e$ecutive issuances, rules and re!ulations inconsistent #ith this 'ct are hereby repealed or odified accordin!ly. Sec. 20. Eundin!. V The aount of Ten illion pesos (70,000,000.00) is hereby authorized to be appropriated out of any funds in the ational Treasury not other#ise appropriated to carry into effect the purpose of this 'ct. D$penses incurred in the ipleentation of the ro!r a ay be recovered as part of the cost or indenity iposed upon the accused. Eurtherore, other fundin! schees or sources, subject to the liitations of the la#, shall be allo#ed in furtherance hereof. Sec. 27. Separability Alause. V The declaration of unconstitutionality or invalidity of any provision of this 'ct shall not affect the other provisions hereof. Sec. 22. Dffectivity. V This 'ct shall ta&e effect after fifteen (7<) days follo#in! its publication in t#o (2) ne#spapers of !eneral circulation.
6pproved: 'pril 29, 7887
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APPENDI4 ? TRANSCRIPTIONS 8*I#IPINO9
"TD5"DW 7 "ntervie#erB Good afternoon. Than& you puaya! &a a! paintervie#. 5espondentB Good afternoon din ate. +&ay lan! ate, #a! lan! a! video ha. Ho&e lan!
"ntervie#erB a, &austa &a an n!ayonF Causta an! ood oF 5espondentB +&ay lan! ate. =asaya an a&o n!ayon. Galin! &asi a&o na!siba &anina, so o&ay a&o. "ntervie#erB 'h o&ay. iba n!a testi!o &a sa isan! crien, na&aape&to ba ito sa daily activities o or un! !a !a#ain o sa ara#% ara#F 5espondentB +o, na&aape&to &ahit papaano yun! pa!i!in! #itness &o sa !a trabaho &o sa es&#ela pati sa bahay. =insan inutusan a&o n! nanay &o na buili sa tindahan sa to#n, pa! u#i &o narealize &o na hinde &o nabili yun! pinapabili niya. "ba pala yun! nabili &o. a!alit an! nanay &o sa a&in. =insan naan hinde a&o a&arela$ asyado, hinde a&o apa&ali. a&ad a&o n! la&ad sa loob n! bahay, #ala a&o natatapos na trabaho. Cun#ari a! laba a&o, hinde &o yan natatapos &asi arai puapaso& sa uta& &o. asasayan! an! oras &o sa isan! ba!ay lan!.
"ntervie#erB 4a&it o naan na&aliutan un! !a inuutos sayoF
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5espondentB un! una hinde tala!a a&o a&apa! rela$. *inde a&o apa&ali. abali& bali& &asi sa uta& &o an! !a pan!yayari. =insan n!a sa school na&a tulala lan! a&o, tapos hi nde na rin a&o puapas o& insan &asi n!a tinat aad na a&o hasta sa na!stop nalan! a&o a! aral.
"ntervie#erB So n!ayon, out of school youth &aF 5espondentB +o ate. e$t year na a&o a!bali& a! aral. Tinaad din ba &asi a&o. "ntervie#erB =ay !a ta&ot &a ba or !a pan!aba na !uu!ulo sayoF 5espondentB +o eron. ta&ot yan a&o na ba&a bali&an ba a&o nun! &abilan! !rupo. Casi dati a! threat yan sila sa a&in. a syepre a&ata&ot din yun. *indi &o an &asalanan na ay na&ita !a ata &o. =a!ulo ba ate sa uta&.
"ntervie#erB So ano !in!a!a#a o para a&a cope upF 5espondentB a, dasal tala!a ate. =a!sindi n! &andila sa Eort ilar. "%pray &o yan na pala&asin nya an! loob &o and un! safe ba a&o la!i. a &asi insan apranin! an yan a&o. ero pa! isipin &o na nanjan si ord, o&ay nay an a&o ate. "ntervie#erB San &a &uu&uha n! la&as para a! porci!i sa buhayF 5espondentB Cay ord ate, pati sa pailya &o ate.sa nanay &o at sa &apatid &o na bunso. Wala naan an! tatay &o so la!i &o yan iniisip na a&o nalan! an! aasahan n! nanay &o. buti sana &un! ayaan &ae. obre lan! &e noh. "ntervie#erB Dotional support &anino &a &uu&uhaF 5espondentB Sa nanay at &apatid din te. =insan sa &aibi!an, pero hinde &o lahat sinasabi &asi syepre arai an yan !a chisosa dibaF *aha. "ntervie#erB Saba!ay, ay point &a an din. aano yun! relasyon o sa pailya at !a &aibi!an oF =ay na!ba!o ba ula nun! na!in! parte &ayo n! pro!raan! itoF 5espondentB areho lan! ate. Wala an na!ba!o. =abait pa rin sila sa a&in and #ala tala!a na!ba!o. "ntervie#erB =asasabi o ba na na!dudulot n! pa!hihirap sa inyo un! pa!i!in! parte o sa pro!raaF aanoF 5espondentB *indi rin un! sobran! pa!hihirap. ara sa a&in o&ay lan! an. =insan lan! naiicip &o ba&it nan!yari to, pati a&o ba nadaay. a pero #ala naan a&o a!a#a. "ntervie#erB "n !eneral, ano yun! !a ba!ay na na!papabuti or na!papa!aan sa buhay nyoF 5espondentB Run! ala &o na ay a&ain &ae n! nanay &o pati &apatid o&ay na yun sa a&in. 'nd iniicip &o la!i, as arai pa dyan na iba yun! as alala pa un! nan!yari sa &anila &esa sa a&in ate. 55
"ntervie#erB "n !eneral, ay !a ba!ay po ba na asasabi niyon! &ada hilanan n! pa!&a&aroon nyo n! pan!it na pauuhayF 5espondentB #ala a&o aicip ate. aran! o&ay an lahat. "ntervie#erB Sa pa!&a&aintindi o, ano an! Iuality of ifeJF 5espondentB ara sa a&in, u. Kn! buubuo or un! &uu&upleto sa buhay o. aran! sa !a !ait ba ate, &un#ari sa ref, un! !a !inait para abuo un! ref un yun! a!sasabi &un! ano yun! value nya ate. "ntervie#erB Wo#, ay e$aple &a pa ha. 4a!o tayo a! end, eron &a ban! !ustin! sabihin sa !a tao tun!&ol sa sit#asyon o as testi!oF 5espondentB =as#erte &ayo na #ala sa &ala!ayan &o. Wa! nyo isipin na por&et na!in! #itness a&o, paran! ala o yun cool na tin!nan. *inde &aya. Syepre hinde rin naan p#ede na hinde &o to !a#in, para sa a&in, eto &asi yun! taa. Cun! p#ede lan! /uiet nalan! a&o, o& an yun. =ahirap, pero &a&ayanin. "ntervie#erB ery positive &a tl!a. ice yan. Than& you. 5espondentB *ehe. Welcoe ate. Salaat din.
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"ntervie#erB Good ornin! Sir. Causta po &ayo n!ayonF 5espondentB Good ornin! din aa. B !ayon, eh o&ay naan a&o. "ntervie#erB 'no po yun! o&ay ibi! sabihin n! o&ay sa inyoF 5espondentB =asaya po a&o n!ayon. !ayon paran! an! !aan n! feelin! &o. "ntervie#erB Good naan &un! !anun. So dba sir, tuesti!o &ayo, na&aape&to po ba ito sa !a !a#ain nyo sa ara#% ara#F 5espondentB +o na&aape&to ito sa trabaho &ahit papaano. Tui!il tala!a a&o sa pa!trabaho. Casi syepre natata&ot a&o. 4uabyahe a&o nuon, na! aaneho n! tricycle, pero siula n! na!in! #itness a&o, na!stop na una a&o. "ntervie#erB 4a&it naan &ayo na!stopF 5espondentB atata&ot a&o &asi ba&a aaya patayin nalan! a&o bi!la. Siula n! na!stop a&o a!byahe nasa bahay nalan! a&o, a&o na una an! na!bantay sa !a ana& &o, tapos an! asa#a &o na an! na! hanapbuhay, na!labandera siya sa iban! !a tao. "ntervie#erB =ay !a ta&ot po ba &ayo or un! !a inaalalaF 56
5espondentB atata&ot po a&on! isipin na ba&a an!yari yun sa a&in o sa a&in! asa#a o sa a&in! !a ana&. *an!!an! n!ayon inaalala &o pa rin an! &ali!tasan n! a&in! pailya. a sana ay hindi sila adaay. "ntervie#erB =ay !a !ina!a#a po ba &ayo para a&ayanan itoF 5espondentB 'ya# &on! pa!%usapan asyad o an! !a nan!yari lalo na &un! di naan &ina&ailan!an. =as !usto &o pa na na&a&aliutan &o siya at hindi na naaalala. 4inubuhos &o na lan! an! a&in! oras at panahon sa iban! ba!ay. ainsan na!hahanap na lan! a&o nan! a!a!a#a para hindi lan! a&aalala. "ntervie#erB 'no yun! na!bibi!ay sa inyo n! la&as para a!patuloy sa buhayF 5espondentB 'n! pailya &o, sila tala!a an! na!papala&as n! loob &o. Sila an! na!bibi!ay n! dahilan para a!patuloysa buhay. Sila an! pina&aiportanten! ba!ay sa a&in! buhay. "ntervie#erB So sa &anila din ba &ayo &uu&uha n! eotional supportF 5espondentB *indi naan a&o yun! tipo na ahili! ilahad sa iba &un! ay !uu!ulo sa a&in. ero si!uro yun! eotional support na yan ay natatan!!ap &o ula sa a&in! pailya. ainsan a&ita &o lan! silan! asaya, natutu#a na rin a&o. "ntervie#erB Run! trato sa inyo n! faily and !a &aibi!an nyo, na!ba!o po ba siula n! na!in! testi!o &ayoF 5espondentB +& lan! naan un! trato nila sa a&in. un! una, eron sa !a pailya &o, yun! !a na&a&ala, an! natata&ot din na ba&a adaay an! asa#a sa&a un! ana& &o o yun! iba nain! !a pailya. ero hindi &o naan &inu&#ento sa !a tao. Caya &o&onti lan! an! na&a&aala at o& naan n!ayon an! pa&i&itun!o nain! sa isat isa. a&ita &o un! !a tao ba na hinde tala!a a&o ii#an. "ntervie#erB a!in! burden po ba ito sa inyoF aano poF 5espondentB Siyepre, &ahit sino naan an! nasa lu!ar &o un an! araradaan. 'n! una naan aaape&tohan ay an! !a tao na ahala!a sa buhay &o. *indi lan! &asi buhay &o an! naiila!ay sa pan!anib eh, un! &ali!tasan n! iban! tao, lalo na an! pailya &o an! na!dada!da! din n! pa!%alala. a!u!uluhan lan! a&o lalo haban! inaalala &o an! !a ito. "ntervie#erB Cun! titin!nan nyo un! life nyo in !eneral, ano yun! !a ba!ay na na!papabuti ditoF 5espondentB 'n! asasabi &o lan!. na!papasalaat a&o &ada ara# na !ui!isin! a&o na buhay a&o at an! pailya &o. *indi &o ala &un! e iban! ibi! sabihin pa an! buhay na ito, pero sa !a tulad &o si!uro yun na an! isan! ba!ay na na!papa!anda n! buhay nain. "ntervie#erB Kn! !a ba!ay naan na na!papahirap sa inyoF 57
5espondentB =ahirap pa rin an! buhay. i pa rin na!baba!o yun. areho pa rin hirap sa pera. *ahaha. Si!uro para sa a&in &a#alan n! pera an! na!papahirap sa atin! lahat. Cun! #alan! pera, #alan! pa!&ain. =ahirap tustusan an! !a &e&ailan!anin sa pan!%ara#%ara#. Catulad n! sit#asyon &o, tatlo an! ana& &o, lahat yan na!% aaral na. =ala&i na an! !astos sa es&#ela, &asi ay dala#an! hi!h school a&o tapos isan! eleentary. Celan!an &o tala!an! !uastos para sa baon pa nila, tapos &elan!an pa a! tabi n! pera para sa ara#% ara# na pa!&ain. =aproblea pa n!ayon &asi n!a huinto a&o sa pa!trabaho, edi #ala a&on! &ita n!ayon. =ahirap tala!a pa! #alan! pera. "ntervie#erB 'no an! pa!&a&aintindi o sa Iuality of ifeJF 5espondentB 'n! /uality of life para sa a&in ay yun! buhay &a at na&a&a&ain &a n! tatlon! beses sa isan! ara#, aluso! &a at apayapa an! iyon! buhay. "ntervie#erB 'no un! !sto nyon! ipahatid sa !a tao or dun sa !a &atulad nyoF 5espondentB Sana aintindihan n! iban! tao na hindi arai an! pipili n! !ua#a n! taa sa batas haban! sinusu!al an! sarilin! buhay niya pati na rin sa &anyan! pailya at !a ahal sa buhay. ero painsan ay !a taa na dapat lan! ipa!laban &ahit buhay an! &apalit. "ntervie#erB ice naan nun. Than& you tala!a sa inyo sir 5espondentB Salaat din. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%D%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% "TD5"DW > "ntervie#erB Good ornin! aa. 5espondentB Good ornin! taen doc.
"ntervie#erB =ay !a /uestions po a&o re!ardin! sa /uality of life. =!a siplen! tanon! lan! po to aa and #ala naan ri!ht or #ron! ans#ers po 5espondentB +&ay.
"ntervie#erB Causta po &ayo n!ayonF 5espondentB *inde asyadon! o&ay.
"ntervie#erB 4a&it naan yan nasabiF 5espondentB a!&asa&it &asi a&o ba!o% ba!o lan! tapos edyo nahilo a&o &anina. "ntervie#erB *ala pasensya po aa. Sure &ayo icontinue lan! natin itoF 5espondentB +&ay lan! an aa. 58
"ntervie#erB o& aa. So dba #itness &a n!ayon, na&a ape&to ba ito sa pauuhay oF 5espondentB +o. =eron tala!a &ahit papaano. Casi buntis a&o n!ayon, a! t#o onths na. =eron tala!a yan! !a ara# na nahihilo a&o tapos nasusu&a pa. Tapos insan tinataad tala!a a&o puunta dito sa *all of Hustice, pero &elan!an an tala!an! puunta. =eron yun insan, ay schedule a&o for pre%natal chec& up, hinde a&o na&apunta &asi pinapunta n!a a&o dito sa opisina.
"ntervie#erB " see. =eron &an! !a fears o !a &ina&ata&utanF 5espondentB +o "ntervie#erB 'no an yun! !a yun aaF 5espondentB =edyo ta&ot a&o &asi n!a buntis a&o, tapos &un! ano ano na yan! !a naiisip &o. Tulad n! vitains &o, yun! everyday na !astos &o, yun! !a na! papa#orry sa a&in. Casi aliit lan! an! s#eldo &o as saleslady, &elan!an &o tala!a a! ipon para sa pa!bubuntis &o, sa !a dait n! bata and !atas. Tapos iniisip &o na a!ad un! !a a!i!in! !astos sa hospital pa! an!ana!ana& na a&o.
"ntervie#erB Run! pa!i!in! #itness nyo hinde ba yan na! papa%#orry sayoF 5espondentB *inde a&o na! #o%#orry. Wala naan a&o natatan!!ap na !a threats sa iba.
"ntervie#erB +&ay &un! !anun. 5espondentB ero insan, &ahit hinde &o iniicip yun! !a !uu!ulo sa isip &o, lualabas pa din ito sa pana!inip &o. a!i yan a&on! nanana!inip. aran! ban!un!ot ba, pero hinde naan &laro. a! na!isin! na a&o, nahihirapan na yan a&o a&atulo! ulit, tapos pa&irada &o pa!od na a&o sa ua!a.
"ntervie#erB ano &a na!cocope sa !a chan!es sa buahy o pati sa !a ni!htares na yanF 5espondentB asanay nalan! a&o. 'ya# &o na a!re&lao or ano. Cun#ari ay schedule yan a&o sa doctor tapos eron pa iban! dapat !a#in, &esa asira pa ara# &o, a!pa chan!e nalan! a&o n! schedule.
"ntervie#erB Run! sa dreas o, ano !ina!a#a oF 5espondentB a! pre%pray a&o. Tapos na#a#ala lan! yun! !a #orries &o. Cay ord lan! yan a&o &uu&uha n! la&as n! loob. 59
"ntervie#erB a! alun!&ot &a, &anino &a huihin!i n! supportF 5espondentB pa! !a !anyan! ba!ay, asa#a &o an! tuutulon! sa a&in. Casi ahal tala!a nain! an! isat isa. Run! paran! a!&aibi!an tala!a yan &ae. ahat n! problea &o ala nya, #ala a&on! tinata!o sa &anya &ahit aliliit na ba!ay. Sa tin!in &o yan yun! dahilan &un! ba&it na&a&ayanan &o an! !a problea &o.
"ntervie#erB aano yun! relasyon o sa pailya o pati sa !a &aibi!an oF =eron ban! na!ba!o since na!in! part &a n! pro!raF
5espondentB un! una, na! aa#ay &ae n! asa#a &o &asi ay !a &anya &anya &aen! iniisip, tapos hinde na!&a&asundo. ero nun! tua!al na, na!in! o&ay na &ae. Sa !a &apitbahay nain!, hinde &o tala!a sila &ilala &asi ba!on! lipat lan! &ae. "ntervie#erB Siula n! suali &a sa pro!ra, na!in! pabi!at ba ito sayoF 5espondentB *inde. =ala&in! tulon! to sa a&in &asi ala &on! eron! tuutulon! at na!proprote&ta sa a&in. Cahit sino, &un! ala nilan! ay puo%prote&ta sa &anila, syepre a!i!in! o&ay an! pa&irada. =ala&i an! tulon! na bi!ay sa ain n! pro!ra, &asi tulad sa allo#ance na na&u&uha &o, da!da! na yun sa !a pan!%!astos nain! sa ara# ;ara#.
"ntervie#erB 's a #hole aa ano yun! !a ba!ay na na!pabuti sa buhay oF 5espondentBEaily &o. &asi since bata pa a&o, #ala na yan a&on! nanay pati tatay. !ayon na eron na a&on! o#n faily, para sa a&in, un un! pina&a iportante sa buhay &o.
"ntervie#erB 'no naan yun! !a ba!ay na aituturin! o na asaa sa buhay oF 5espondentB ara sa a&in, #ala. Casi &ontento na a&o sa anon! eron a&o. Tapos bina!yan pa &ae ni ord n! ana&.
"ntervie#erB 4asta ay ti#ala lan! &ay ord, a!in! o& lan! naan yan, dibaF ara sayo, ano an! uality of lifeF
5espondentB ara sa a&in, yan yun! &uu&upleto sa isan! tao. a! na%feel o na narratin! o na yun! !a !sto on! a%achieve sa buhay, afi%feel o yun! sense of copleteness.
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"ntervie#erB =eron &a ban! !ston! iparatin! sa !a tao re!ardin! sa situation o bilan! #itnessF 5espondentB ara sa !a #itnesses na &atulad &o, #a! lan! &ayo a#alan n! pa! asa &asi prote&tado naan tayo. 'nd la!i lan! isipin na nandyan si ord &asi tinutulun!an niya naan tala!a tayo. ara dun sa !a tao na hinde a#are sa sit#asyon nain!, !sto &o lan! sabihin sa &anila na ahirap iton! pina!dadaanan nain!. ero &un! an!yari an ito sa iba, dapat la!i nilan! isipin yun! taa. *inde dapat adaot and ita!o yun! &atotohanan. Sa tin!in &o yun lan!.
"ntervie#erB Than& you so uch for your tie. 5espondentB #elcoe. o proble.
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"ntervie#erB Good ornin! Sir. Causta an an! ood nyo n!ayonF 5espondentB Good ornin! din. +& ln!, edyo ta&ot lan! na &ina&abahan &asi di &o ala &un! anon! an!yayari sa a&in ano an! oras.
"ntervie#erB 4a&it nyo naan po nasabi yunF 5espondentB Casi d &o ba aalis sa uta& &o un! ata&ot. aran! hinde a&o apa&ali ba.
"ntervie#erB 'y !anun poF So un! pa!testi!o nyo na&aape&to po ba ito sa !a !a#ain nyo sa ara#% ara#F 5espondentB +o, aa na&aape&to tala!a. *inde &o na na!a!a#a yun! !a na!a!a#a &o nuon. *inde na a&o naaalen!&e. Casi once a #ee& an yan &ae naaalen!&e n! asa#a &o, n!ayon sila nalan! n! nanay nya an! na!papalen!&e pati a!% !rocery.
"ntervie#erB =ay trabaho po ba &ayo sirF Run! pa!i!in! #itness o na&aape&to ba ito sa trabaho nyoF 5espondentB a!stop na una a&o sandal sa trabaho, sa pa! ayos n! !a sasa&yan. Casi hinde &o tala!a &aya a!trabaho &asi adain! !uu!ulo sa isip &o. a!i!in! palpa& an! resulta n! trabaho &o.
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"ntervie#erB =ay !a &ina&ata&utan po ba &ayo, !a inaalala o !uu!ulo sa icip nyoF 5espondentB =ana!inip a&o insan ba. ero =alabo. Caya pa! !icin! &o ata&ot nay an a&o a ba na ba&a bali&an a&o at !a pailya &o ba. Sana po atulun!an nyo a&o ba. 'ya# &o n! !anito. i &o na po abubuhay an! pailya &o. &aylan!nan &o a! hanapbuhay.
"ntervie#erB 4a&it o nasabi na hnde o na abubuhay an! pailya oF 5espondentB 'yo&o na a!trabaho. =ata&ot na a&o. Cun! a!trabaho a&o tapos apatay a&o, na &a#a#a pailya &o. =ahirap ln! &ae ba. "ntervie#erB =ay !ina!a#a &ayo para alapasan yan! pina!daraana nyoF 5espondentB Gua!a#a na ln! po a&o n! !a !a#ain! bahay. =insan na!tatani po n! !a !ulay sa li&od na bahay po a tapos ibenta yun. "ntervie#erB 'no un! rason o para a!%continue sa buhayF 5espondentB =!a taon! tuutulon! po sa a&in a. Kna is un! pailya &o at !a &apatid &o. "ntervie#erB So eotional support sa &nila dinF 5espondentB =insan po sa &anila. =insan huihin!i a&o n! tulon! sa ia, jan lan! alapit sa bahay nain. *uihin!i po a&o n! payo. "ntervie#erB aano naan yun! pa&i&itun!o o sa pailya o at sa iban! taoF 5espondentB a!in! close po a&o sa pailya &o &asi &ahit papaano anjan po cla tuutulon! sa a&in na!in! as alapit a&o sa pailya &o po a. =as nabibi!yan &o sila n! oras &c po sa bahay na ln! po a&o. "ntervie#erB na!&aroon to n! epe&to sa buhayo un! na!in! additional na probleaF 5espondentB =ala&in! epe&to po sa a&in at sa pailya &o. =insan un! !a ana& &o natata&ot na din luabas at na! aabsent na ln! po sa is&ul. 'sa#a &o na ln! po insan an! na!hahanap buhay sa ain. =insan sa isan! ara# #ala na po &i a&ain.&aylan!nan &o pa a!trabaho na &aso ta&ot po a&o. "ntervie#erB Try nyo po icipin yun! buhay nyo as a #hole, ano un! !a ba!ay na na!pabuti dito o un! na!pa!inha#aF 5espondentB ailya, trabaho tsa&a un! ala o ba na safe &a. "ntervie#erB Run! !a ba!ay na na!pasaa sa buhay nyoF 5espondentB a!in! ahirap ln! an! buhay &o a nun! na!in! #itness a&o. ati o& an po &i. =inalas ba &asi. + si!uro nasa a&in lan! &asi hinde tala!a a&o arunon! a!ha#a& n! proble ba. "ntervie#erB Sa pa!&a&aintindi nyo po ano an! /uality of lifeF
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5espondentB para sa a&in yan yun! asuportahan &o an! pail ya &o at asaya po abuhay. Kn! tipon! ala o #ala &an! &asalanan.a&a!ala# &a n! aayos at #alan! &ina&ata&utan. "ntervie#erB 'no un! !sto nyon! ipahatid sa !a tao or dun sa !a &atulad nyoF 5espondentB *uihin!i po a&o n! tulon! at pa! una#a. Sana bi!yan po tl!a &i n! pansin at sana dip o a! sasa#a un! opis na a!tulon! sa ain at sa pailya po nain!.
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"ntervie#erB Good ornin! sir. Than& you po for allo#in! e to have this intervie# #ith you. 5espondentB Good ornin! din po do&tora. Walan! anuan po. "ntervie#erB Causta naan po an! ood niyo n!ayon! ara#F 5espondentB =ood poF K, edyo o&ay po. "ntervie#erB #ede nyo po ban! i%e$plain po &un! ano po yun! Iedyo o&ayJ sa inyoF 5espondentB u, edyo o&ay po, eanin! hinde po a&o asaya, hinde rin po alun!&ot. Run! paran! neutral lan! po docc. "ntervie#erB " see. So yun! pa!i!in! testi!o nyo po ba, na&aape&to po ba ito sa daily activities ninyo or un! !a !a#ain nyo sa ara#% ara#F 5espondentB opo. Cc dati po noral po an! pauuhay &o. "ntervie#erB ano po an! ibi! sabihin nyo n! noralF 5espondentB Run po ban! #ala a&on! iniisip na p#eden! asaan! an!yari sa a&in. ati #ala po a&on! #orries na apahaa& a&o, pero n!ayon edyo na! %iin!at na, lalo na sa public places. Capa! na!in! testi!o po &asi tala!an! a!a!alit yun! &abilan! party. "ntervie#erB asabi nyo po dba na na! iin!at &ayo n!ayon, eron po ba &ayon! !a concerns, ta&ot o pan!an!abaF 'no po an! !a itoF 5espondentB ay opo, natata&ot din po a&o. Syepre hinde po aii#asan un! scenario na yun! !alit n! suspect or n! pailya apunta po sa a&in, as alala po ba&a adaay pa po pailya &o. "ntervie#erB So pano po &ayo na&a&a cope o paano nyo po na&a&ayanan itoF 5espondentB nun! una po, hinde &o po ala an! !a!a#in, in san na#alan na po a&o n! pa!%asa. Run! paran! lahat nalan! n! problea nan!yayari na sa a&in. asal 63
po tala!a an! na&atulon! sa a&in at yun! pailya &o po. "ba po tl!a yun! pa&irada na ala &on! nandyan an! pailya &o. 4ahala na ara#%ara# a&on! naooblea, basta ala &o ay tuutulon! sa a&in. "ntervie#erB Saan po &ayo &uu&uha n! la&as po para a! porci!i sa buhayF 5evie#erB God, syepre. Cahit insan a!ulo an! uta& &o, positive na tao po a&o. ara sa a&in #ala nain! iban! dapat !a#in &undi a! ove on o abuhay. "ntervie#erB Dotional support po, &anino &ayo &uu&uhaF 5espondentB Sa asa#a &o. ero ay ara# na hinde &ae o&ay, noral naan yun si!uro sa a! asa#a. a! a!&aa#ay &ae, sa !a &aibi!an, yun! pa&i&ipa! usap lan!, na&a&atulon! tala!a. ero insan hinde pa rin o&ay, &asi hinde naan nila p#eden! alaan an! totoon! sit#asyon &o. "ntervie#erB Causta naan po yun! relasyon nyo sa pailya at !a &aibi!an nyoF =ay na!ba!o ba ula nun! na!in! testi!o &ayoF 5espondentB Ganon pa rin naan. *inde naan tala!a na!ba!o un! pa&i&itun!o &o sa &anila and sila sa a&in. ero ay !a ara# tala!a na paran! aya# &o sila a&asaa or !usto &on! luayo ba sa &anila. "ntervie#erB 4a&it naan !anun an! nararadaan nyoF 5espondentB basta, yun! paran! ano ba, yun! aya# &o sila a&asaa dahil feelin! &o apapahaa& sila sa a&in. 'yo&o din na !anun an! an!yari. =ay &onsensya din a&o. "ntervie#erB =asasabi nyo po ba na isan! burden yan or yun! na!dudulot n! pa!hihirap sa inyoF Sa paanon! paraan poF 5espondentB 'y opo. 4urden siya para sa a&in dahil hindi na tulad n! dati un! !a na!a!a#a &o. ati &ahit saan &o !uston! puunta ayos lan!, n!ayon po, hinde na p#ede. "ntervie#erB Subu&an nyo pon! isipin un! buhay nyo in !eneral. 'no po yun! !a ba!ay na na!papabuti or na!papa!aan sa buhay nyoF 5espondentB Run! pa!i!in! positibo &o pa sa buhay. *inde naan po la!i na ay problea nalan!, nanini#ala a&o na &un! n!ayon ay problea, aayos din yan. *inde &o n!a lan! ala &un! &ailan. "ntervie#erB "n !eneral po, ay !a ba!ay po ba na asasabi niyon! &adahilanan n! pa!&a&aroon nyo n! pan!it na pauuhayF 5espondentB Kn! !a nasayan! po na opportunidad. Cahit anon! ba!ay po na p#ede pan! isalba pero hnde po naisalba, na&a%frustrate po un. "ntervie#erB #ede nyo po ban!, u i&#ento &un! ano XtoF 5espondentB Casi nun! na!in! testi!o po a&o, arai !a !uu!ulo sa icip &o, ay !a ta&ot a&o, and insan a&ala &o nasisiraan na a&o n! ulo &asi pranin! na 64
ba a&o. 'n! nan!ayari, hnde na a&o na!in! paran! o&ay na tao, na!in! taad na a&o, sa bahay nalan! a&o and uiino nalan! sa bahay. a syepre na!a!alit din an! asa#a &o. asayan! po un! !a ara# &o sa #alan! &#entan! pa! ino at pa!i!in! taad ba. "ntervie#erB so pa!&a&aintindi nyo po, ano an! Iuality of ifeJF 5espondentB uality of life, para sa a&in yan yun! !a ba!ay na buubuo sa pa!&atao &o. Cun! ano yun! !a ba!ay na yan, &un#ari abutin! ba!ay , an! labas, abuti o aayos an! buhay &o. *inde tala!a a&o si!urado &un! taa. ero un an! pa!&aintindi &o. "ntervie#erB ast na pon! tanon!, eron po ba &ayon! !uston! ipahatid sa !a tao tun!&ol sa !a testi!o na &atulad nyoF 5espondentB 'no lan! po, un! respeto po ba. Casi ay !a tao tala!an! ahili! a! jud!e ba. Kn! insan iniisip nila na pa! &asaa nila &e apapahaa& sila. =insan n!a naisip &o ba yan na s#erte pa yun! ay !a totoon! sa&it sa &ata#an ba, &asi &ina&aa#an sila n! !a tao. a &ae, #ala an &aen! sa&it na a&i&ita n! !a tao, pero un! epe&to ba sa ain, e#an &o &un! sa uta& ba yan, un! paran! traua ba or nashoc& &asi a&o. =as o&ay pa n!a na a!&asa&it a&o, &asi a!a!aot pa. Run lan! an, un! sana aintindihan rin ba sana a&o, pero si!uro iposible ba din yan. Sana lan! ba. "ntervie#erB than& you tala!a sir. Kn lan! an !a tanon! &o. Salaat tl!a sa tie nyo. 5espondentB o&ay lan! aa salaat din &asi paran! nailabas &o din yun! !a !sto &o sabihin ba. %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%D%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% "TD5"DW ? "ntervie#erB Good afternoon. Than& you dahil bini!yan o a&o n! tie para sa intervie# na ito. 5espondentB o&ay lan! doc. Welcoe. "ntervie#erB Causta &a n!ayonF Causta an! ood oF 5espondentB o&ay po, " in a !ood ood. "ntervie#erB Run! pa!i!in! testi!o o, ay !a naidulot ba iton! pa!baba!o sa !a usual na Ga#ain o sa ara#% ara#F 5espondentB +o. =ahirap tala!a na puno &a n! ta&ot. 'fter nun! incident na yun ejo ui#as na a&on! duaan sa lu!ar na yun, " dont care if apapalayo sa dadaanan &o, as lon! as " &no# as safe &un! doon a&o sa iban! #ay dadaan. "ntervie#erB 'pe&tado &a sa nan!yari, &asi nasabi o na tala!an! naiiba an! ruta oF 5espondentB +o. 65
"ntervie#erB ano an! !ina!a#a o para a&a cope up &a sa !anitoF 5espondentB 'n! totoo na!%aaral a&o sa lu!ar na yun dati. *indi tala!a a&o lua&i sa lu!ar nay un para hindi na ata&ot pati buali& sa isip &o un! nan!yari. 'fter iso n! school year na yun is ualis na sa lu!ar na yun at luipat sa lu!ar as ala &on! safe a&o. "ntervie#erB saan &a &uu&uha n! la&as para a! porci!i sa buhayF 5espondentB Sa pailya na sobran! supportive "ntervie#erB Dotional support &anino &a tuata&boF 5espondentB Sa &anila din. "ntervie#erB Causta naan yun! pa&i&itun!o o sa faily o and sa iban! taoF 5espondentB Wala naan a&on! asyadon! napancin na pa!baba!o. =aayos nuon, !anun rin n!ayon. "ntervie#erB a&aape&to ba un! sit#asyon o n!ayon sa relasyon o sa pailya at sa !a iban! tao o !a &aibi!an oF 5espondentB un! una oo. Casi napaparanoid na a&o, insan hinde na a&o puapaso& sa es&#ela. Tapos aya# &on! &ausapin an! iban! tao nuon! tie na y un, paran! ay sarilin! undo yan a&o, paran! napalayo a&o sa &anila. *inde na din a&o suasaa sa bar&ada. "ntervie#erB a!in! ahirap ba ito para sayo o para sa pailya oF 5espondentB +o sa part &o is, sa ba#at ara# na duadaan ay as lalo a&on! na! aalala &asi as napaparanoid a&o sa ba#at adaanan &un! tao na iniisip &o na !anun lan! nila &abilis !a#in an! isan! incidente na !anun. "sa rin an! studies &o is ape&tado, &ailan!an &o pan! luipat at a!hanap n! iban! school institutions para a assure un! safety &o. ati an! failya &o ay ape&tado &asi inaalala nila na ba&a an!yari sa&en an! !anun! insidente or bantaan din nila a&o. ahil isa a&o sa na&a&ita &un! anon! nan!yari. "ntervie#erB Cun! titin!nan o yun! life o as a #hole, ano un! !a ba!ay o rason na asasabi on! na!pa!aan sa buhay oF 5espondentB Si!uro outloo& sa buhay. Cahit insan paran! napaparanoid a&o, la!i &o yun! yan iniicip na&o a!i!in! o&ay lan! lahat and hinde a&o apapahaa&. "ntervie#erB 'no naan yun! !a asasabi on! dahilan n! pa!&a&aroon o n! pan!it na pauuhayF 5espondentB Wala ata. "ntervie#erB ara sayo ano an! /uality of lifeF 5espondentB =abuhay n! asaya at n! ay ta&ot sa iyos. "ntervie#erB 'no un! !usto on! alaan n! !a tao tun!&ol sa sit#asyon o n!ayonF
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5espondentB =ahirap an! sit#asyon na &ailan!an on! piliin &un! an! safety o o an! &apa&anan n! iba. ero &elan!an po tala!an! a!decision. 4uti nalan! pareho &o iton! pinili. "ntervie#erB un lan! po sir !a &atanun!an &o. Salaat tl!a. 5espondentB #elcoe and salaat din
%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%D%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%% "TD5"DW "ntervie#erB Good afternoon. Than& you dahil puaya! &a a!pa intervie#. Causta &a n!ayonF 5espondentB Good afternoon. Welcoe po. =edyo probleatic. 4i!la &asi na!&aroon n! problea. "ntervie#erB +&ay lan! po ba &un! tanon!in &ita tun!&ol ditoF 5espondentB =as o&ay po sana &un! hinde nalan! po natin pa! usapan aa &asi every tie po na naiisip &o ito as hinde po a&o napapa&ali. "ntervie#erB asensya na po. 5espondentB +& lan! a. asensya din po. Sana po naiintindihan niyo a&o. "ntervie#erB Sa ne$t /uestion na po tayo. 5espondentB +&ay. "ntervie#erB "ton! pa!i!in! #itness nyo, na&aape&to ba to sa !a daily activities oF 5espondentB ati oo. aalala &o hinde a&o basta a&apunta &un! saan saan &asi tl!an! ay bantay n!a a&o, &asi ay &aso din sinapa sa a&in tapos #itness din a&o. =insan un! asa#a &o an!an!a& sa General *ospital tapos &opli&ado pa yun! &aso nya, an! hirap tala!a nun! panahon na yun &asi n!a hinde naan a&o an! p#eden! a!in! runner para buili n! !a !ait nya pati !a !aot nya. Wala din tala!an! iban! aasahan nun! panahon na yun &asi an! nanay at tatay &o atanda na, d na nila &aya asi&asuhin yun! asa#a &o. 'n! nan!yari an! !a tao sa #itness protection an! tuulon!. ero a&o nandun din a&o sa hospital, &asaa din n! !a bantay, so hinde tala!a a&o a&a&ilos n! aayos. "ntervie#erB =eron &a ban! !a &ina&ata&utan o !a #orriesF 5espondentB Syepre un! safety &o po at n! asa#a &o pati un! baby nain &asi n!ayon #ala a&o sa tabi nya. Casi nasa loob an a&o n! preso. "ntervie#erB Cahit nasa loob &ayo natata&ot &a pa rin sa safety oF 5espondentB +o. =a!ulo aa sa loob tapos arai pa dyan na iba an! ta&bo n! uta&. 67
"ntervie#erB 'non! ibi! sabihin n! iba an! uta&F 5espondentB a! aya# nila sayo, itrippin! &a tl!a nila. a&a&ata&ot &asi ba&a ay a!trippin! sa a&in, tapos ba&a apatay a&o, &a#a#a naan an! asa#a &o pati baby nain. !ayon pa lan! n!a nahihirapan na siya dahil #ala a&o, ano nalan! &un! aatay a&o. Ta&ot a&o aatay hnde dahil yun! sabihin natin na na&a&ata&ot ito, ta&ot a&o sa an!yayari sa pailya &o pa! naatay a&o.
"ntervie#erB So pano o to nalalapasanF 5espondentB hinde &o na tala!a ala paano. Aontinue lan! a&o sa life &o, !o #ith the flo# lan!. binabale#ala &o lan! an! problea. =insan !anun c!uro yun! adalin! solusyon, yun! i#asan an! problea. ero sa totoo lan! hinde &o na to asasabi na problea, paran! parte na to n! buhay &o na nandito a&o sa preso. Sanayan lan! tala!a. "ntervie#erB Saan &a &uu&uha n! la&as para a! patuloy sa buhayF 5espondentB Sa asa#a &o at sa ana& nain. Eirst baby &asi nain! yun tapos lala&e pa. iba tala!a pa! lala&e yun! pan!anay. "ntervie#erB Canino &a &uu&uha n! eotional supportF 5espondentB Sa asa#a &o pa rin. a&i&ini! lan! yun, insan na! bibi!ay n! !a advise. *inde &o tl!a ala ano an!yari sa a&in &un! #ala siya. 4uti n!a hinde nya a&o inii#an. "ntervie#erB Siula nun! nan!yari ito sayo, eron ban! na!ba!o sa pa&i&itun!o o sa pailya o o sa !a tao sa pali!id oF ano naan un! pa&i&itun!o nila sayoF 5espondentB un! na&ulon! a&o an! pailya &o !rabe an! suporta sa a&in, to the point na na&o&onsensya na a&o, &asi &ahit ay &asalanan a&o, nanjan pa din sila. Run nain! !a &apitbahay nain! !a chisosa, an! la&as n! !a loob a!bisya n! tao, a&ala o &un! sino sila !a alilinis at #alan! &asalanan. Sabi &o sa asa#a &o #a! na din nya pansinin !a naririni! nya, &asi nun! tie nay un buntis sya nun at ba&a a&asaa yun sa &anya. "ntervie#erB a!dala ba n! problea sayo or sa pailya o yun! sit#asyon o n!ayonF aanoF 5espondentB +o sobra, &asi hinde lan! an a&o #itness dito. =ay &asalanan din a&o. Galit na sa a&in yun! na! &aso sa a&in, tapos !alit din si!uro yun! !a &asaa &o sa a&in. "ntervie#erB Cun! titin!nan o an! buhay o in !eneral, ano yun! !a ba!ay na na!pa!aan dito or un! !a ba!ay na na!dulot n! abuti sa buhay oF 5espondentB 'side sa faily &o, #ala na a&on! iban! aisip. "ntervie#erB 'no naan un! !a ba!ay na asasabi on! asaa na na!papabi!at sa buhay oF 68
5espondentB Run! pa!i!in! ahirap at #alan! natapos. =ahirap tala!a &asin! a!in! ahirap. =ahirap &a na n!a as na!i!in! ahirap &a pa. Tapos hinde pa na&atapos a! aral. "ntervie#erB 'no an! pa!&a&aintindi o sa uality of ifeF 5espondentB Run! abuhay n! aayos, ay a&ain ara#%ara#, ay aayos na bahay &asaa an! pailya at yun! alayo sa problea. Tin!in &o #ala a&o nun. (lau!hs) "ntervie#erB 'no un! essa!e na !usto o sabihin sa !a tao tun!&ol sa &ala!ayan o n!ayonF 5espondentB Sa lahat n! ba!ay la!i tala!a isipin &un! ano yun! taa, hinde dahil !ina!a#a ito n! arain! tao, ibi! sabihin taa na ito. Casi nasa huli tala!a an! pa!sisi. Sana dun sa !a taon! !rabe a!bisya, sana alain niyo una an! !a nan!yari. Casi a&o pa! a&ita a&o n! iban! tao na ay posas pa! puupunta sa opisina, !rabe sila a&atin!in. Sana i&a# aa hinde &a nata&ot sa a&in. "ntervie#erB *inde naan sir. Salaat sa tie o. 5espondentB #elcoe and than& you din.
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"TD5"DW 7 "ntervie#erB Good afternoon. Than& you for allo#in! e to have this intervie# #ith you. 5espondentBGood afternoon also. "ts o& as lon! as you #ont docuent it on videotape. (jo&in!ly)
"ntervie#erB So ho# are you no#F *o# is your oodF 5espondentB " a o&ay. " a happy no# because " just cae fro church so " feel o&ay.
"ntervie#erB +&. So, has your e$perience as a #itness to a crie affected your daily activitiesF *o#F 5espondentB Res, bein! a #itness soeho# affected y #or& at school and at hoe. There #as one instance #hen y other told e to buy soethin! at a store in to#n, #hen " #ent hoe " realized that " did not buy #hat " #as told. "nstead, " bou!ht soethin! else. =y other !ot ad at e. Soeties " can not rela$ and " a not at ease. " al#ays #al& around the house and " can not finish y #or&. Eor e$aple, " a supposed to do the laundryP " can not 69
finish that chore because there are any thin!s that enters y ind. =y tie is #asted on a sin!le chore only. "ntervie#erB Why did you for!et #hat you #ere as&ed to doF 5espondentB because the events &eep playin! on y ind thats #hy " can not concentrate. Soeties " have blan& stares. Soeties at school, " just have blan& stares and " do not classes anyore because " have becae lazy until " eventually stopped !oin! to school. "ntervie#erB So you are no# out of schoolF 5espondentB Res ate. e$t year " plannin! to !o bac& to school. 5i!ht no# " feel lazy.
"ntervie#erB o you have any fears or #orries that bother youF 5espondentB Res ate( " a afraid that the other party #ould coe bac& for e because before the other party #ould threaten e and that is scary. "t is not y fault that " #itnessed soethin!. "t is very ind bo!!lin!.
"ntervie#erB So #hat do you do to cope upF 5espondentB rayers. " li!ht candles at Eort ilar. " pray that *e #ould stren!then e and &eep e safe al#ays, because soeties " !et paranoid. 4ut every tie " thin& of the ord, " becoe o&ay.
"ntervie#erB So #here do you !et your stren!th to !o on #ith life. 5espondentB Ero the ord ate and fro y faily, that is y other and youn!er siblin!. " dont have a father anyore, so " al#ays put in ind that " a the only one y other could rely on. "t is o&ay if #e are rich, but #e are only poor.
"ntervie#erB Where do you !et eotional supportF 5espondentB Ero y other and y siblin!. Soeties fro friends, but " do not tell the everythin! because any are just nosy. 5i!htF (lau!hs)
"ntervie#erB Rou have a point. With re!ards to your relationship #ith your faily and friends, has anythin! chan!ed since you entered the pro!raF 5espondentB it #as just the sae. othin!s chan!ed. They are still !ood to e. othin!s chan!ed really. 70
"ntervie#erB *avin! e$perienced this, could you say that this has caused you sufferin! or difficultiesF *o#F 5espondentB ot that uch difficulty. Eor e, it #as not uch. Soeties " #onder #hy this has happened to e. 4ut " cant do anythin! anyore.
"ntervie#erB oo&in! at life as a #hole, #hat are the thin!s that a&e your life !oodF 5espondentB Cno#in! that ", y other and siblin! could eat, that is already fine #ith e. " al#ays thin& that there are others #ho have #orse probles than ine.
"ntervie#erB 's a #hole, are there thin!s that you could say that a&es your life badF 5espondentB " cant thin& of anythin!. "t sees li&e there is none.
"ntervie#erB "n your o#n understandin!, #hat is Iuality of ifeJ 5espondentB Eor e, it is the factors that coplete ones life. Ta&e for e$aple the refri!erator, the thin!s used to a&e the refri!erator a !ood one defines its #hole #orth or value. "ntervie#erB Wo#, you still have an e$aple. 4efore #e end, #hat #ould you li&e others to &no# re!ardin! your situation as a #itnessF 5espondentB They are very luc&y because they are not in y shoes. o not thin& that it bein! a #itness is cool, because it is not. +f course, " could not refuse to do this, because " &no# this is the ri!ht thin! to do. "f " could only &eep /uiet, that #ould be !reat. "t is difficult, but " &no# " #ill surpass this.
"ntervie#erB you are very positive. Thats niceQ Than& you. 5espondentB Olau!hsO Welcoe ate( Than& you also.
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"TD5"DW 2 "ntervie#erB Good ornin! Sir. *o# are you todayF 5espondentB Good ornin! too =aa. Today, " o&ay. 71
"ntervie#erB What do you ean by o&ayF 5espondentB " a happy today. " feel li!ht. "ntervie#erB Well then, !ood. Rou are #itness, ri!htF *as this affected your activities of daily livin!F 5espondentB 't first, " cant rela$ that uch. The events coe bac& repeatedly on y ind. 4ut that soeho# helped e because " !ot used to reeberin! it until " cae to a point #hen " i!nore it. "ntervie#erB o you have any fears or #orriesF 5espondentB " a afraid that #hat " sa# #ould happen to e, y #ife and y children. Kntil no# " still thin& of y failys safety that they #ill not be dra!!ed into this. "ntervie#erB "s there anythin! you do to surpass thisF What are theseF 5espondentB " have to. "d prefer to for!et and not reeber anyore. " spend y tie on other thin!s. Soeties " find thin!s that " can #or& on just so " #ont reeber. "ntervie#erB What are these thin!sF 5espondentB ideo&e and beer. "t a&es e for!et thin!s #hen " drin& and enjoy.
"ntervie#erB Who or #hat !ives you stren!th to continue #ith lifeF 5espondentB =y faily. They are really the ones #ho stren!then e. They are the reason #hy " still live life. They are the ost iportant thin! in y life "ntervie#erB So is it also fro the #here you !et eotional supportF 5espondentB " a not the type #ho loves to share thin!s that bother e. 4ut aybe " !et that eotional support fro y faily. Soeties, seein! the happy a&es e happy too. "ntervie#erB The #ay your faily treats you, has it chan!ed since you becae a #itnessF 5espondentB "ts o&ay % the #ay they treat e. 't first, #hen a faily eber &ne# about y situation, he becae scared that y #ife, children and other faily ebers #ould be affected. 4ut " really dont tell everyone about this, thats #hy only a fe# people &no# and their treatent to e is !ood. 4ecause of this " have &no#n the people #ho #ill not leave e.
"ntervie#erB *as this becoe a burden to youF *o#F 5espondentB of course. 'nyone #ho #ould be in y place #ould also feel the sae #ay. The first people #ho #ould really be affected are the people #ho are close to y heart. "t is not only y life that is in dan!er but also theirs #hich a&es e #orry even ore. "t just confuses e every tie " thin& about the. 72
"ntervie#erB oo&in! in your life as a #hole, #hat are the thin!s that ade it !oodF 5espondentB 'll " can say is that " a than&ful to every day that " #a&e up to, that " and y faily are alive. " really dont &no# if this life still has eanin! but " thin& bein! alive a&es y life !ood. "ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that a&es it bad or difficultF 5espondentB ife is still difficult. That #ill never chan!e. "t is still oney atters. (au!hs). =aybe for e it is the lac& of oney that a&es life difficult. "f one has no oney, there #ould be no food. "t #ould be hard to provide every days needs. "ntervie#erB *o# do you understand Iuality of ifeJF 5espondentB Eor e, /uality of life is bein! alive and able to eat > eals a day. "t is bein! healthy and at peace. "ntervie#erB o you have any essa!e to others re!ardin! your situation no#F 5espondentB " hope they #ill understand that not everyone #ill choose to do #hat is ri!ht at the e$pense of ones life and faily. 4ut soeties there are really ri!ht thin!s that should be fou!ht for even if it puts ones life at sta&e. "ntervie#erB Thats very nice. Than& you very uch. 5espondentB Than&s as #ell.
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"ntervie#erB " have /uestions for you re!ardin! /uality of life. These are siple /uestions and there is no ri!ht or #ron! ans#ers. 5espondentB +&ay.
"ntervie#erB *o# are you todayF 5espondentB ot o&ay. 73
"ntervie#erB Why did you say soF 5espondentB " !ot sic& recently and " feel dizzy. "ntervie#erB " very sorry. 're you sure you #ant to !o on #ith this intervie#F 5espondentB "ts o&ay.
"ntervie#erB +&ay aa. 's a #itness, did it have an effect on your daily activitiesF 5espondentB Res. "t had soeho#. 4ecause no# " a 2 onths pre!nant and there are days that " feel dizzy and #ant to voit. Soeties " feel very lazy to coe here in the office. 4ut " need to. There #as a tie #hen " had a pre%natal schedule. " #asnt able to !o because " have an appointent here.
"ntervie#erB " see. o you have any fears or #orriesF 5espondentB Res.
"ntervie#erB #hat are thoseF 5espondentB " a afraid because " a pre!nant and " tend to thin& too uch. i&e y vitains, y daily e$penses. These a&e e #orried. "ntervie#erB oes bein! a #itness a&e you #orryF 5espondentB ot uch. " dont receive threats fro anyone.
"ntervie#erB "f thats the case, then !ood. 5espondentB 4ut " often have these dreas. " thin& those are ni!htares, but not al#ays. 4ut those dreas are not clear.
"ntervie#erB ni!htaresF *o# do you cope #ith the chan!es in your daily life and all these 5espondentB " just !ot used to it. " just dont #ant to coplain or #hatever. D$aple, #hen it coes to y schedule, "d rather have y schedule chan!e than to have y ood ruined.
"ntervie#erB So ho# about those ni!htaresF 5evie#erB " just pray and then y #orries just fade a#ay. "t is fro the ord that " !et y stren!th.
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"ntervie#erB Eor e$aple you are sad and you #ant to cry, #ho !ives you supportF 5espondentB When it coes to those thin!s, it is y husband #ho supports e.
"ntervie#erB *o# is your relationship #ith your faily and friendsF *as anythin! chan!ed since you enrolled in the pro!raF 5espondentB 't first, y husband and " fi!ht. 4ut as tie passed, #e becae o&. With re!ards to y nei!hbors, " dont really &no# the because #e just oved in our ne# place.
"ntervie#erB 4ein! a part of the pro!ra,, has this becoe a proble to youF 5espondentB not. " consider this as a help because " &no# soeone is protectin! e. 'nybody #ho &no#s that soeone is protectin! the #ould feel fine.
"ntervie#erB 's a #hole #hat are the thin!s that a&e your life !oodF 5espondentB y faily. 4ecause since " #as a child " dont have a other and father. o# that " have y o#n faily, " consider this iportant in y life.
"ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that a&e your life badF 5espondentB for e, there is none because " a very contented #ith #hat " have. lus #e are !iven a child by the ord.
"ntervie#erB 's lon! as you !ave faith in the ord everythin! #ill be o&ay, ri!htF So for you aa #hat is uality of lifeF 5espondentB Eor e, it is the thin!s that a&e the life of the person coplete.
"ntervie#erB o you have other thin!s to say to others re!ardin! ypur situationF 5espondentB To all the #itnesses li&e e, dont ever lose hope because #e are protected. 'nd al#ays thin& of God because *e #ill help us. Eor those people #ho arent a#are of our situation, " #ould li&e to tell the that bein! in this situation is hard. "f for e$aple this happened to others, they should al#ays thin& of the ri!ht thin!. They should not be selfish to hide the truth. " thin& thats all.
"ntervie#erB Than& you so uch for your tie. 5espondentB #elcoe. o proble
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"ntervie#erB Good ornin! Sir. *o# is your ood todayF 5espondentB Good ornin!. " a &ind of o&ay. " a soeho# afraid and #orried because " dont &no# #hat i!ht happen to e anytie.
"ntervie#erB Why did you say thatF 5espondentB 4ecause " cant reove fro y ind the fear. " feel so an$ious.
"ntervie#erB "s that soF 4ein! a #itness, has this affect your daily activitiesF 5espondentB "t had a bi! effect aa. " cannot perfor soe thin!s that " used to before. Dven to !o out of the house a&es e afraid.
"ntervie#erB What are the thin!s that you cant do no#F 5espondentB Go to the ar&et. *an! out #ith friends. " really love to drin& and han! out #ith friends. "ntervie#erB o you have any fears or #orries that bother youF 5espondentB Soeties " drea. 4ut they are not clear. Thats #hy #hen " #a&e up " becoe afraid that they #ill !o after e and y faily. " hope that you could help e. " dont #ant this. " cannot provide for y faily anyore. " really need to #or&.
"ntervie#erB Why did you say that you cannot provide for your faily anyoreF 5espondentB " dont #ant to #or& anyore. " a already afraid. What if " #or& and " !et &illed, y faily #ould be a pity. We are just poor.
"ntervie#erB o you do anythin! to copeF 5espondentB " do household chores. Soeties " plant ve!etables at our bac&yard and sell the. "ntervie#erB What are your reasons to !o on #ith lifeF 5espondentB The help " !et fro y faily and y siblin!s. "ntervie#erB o you also !et eotional support fro theF 76
5espondentB Soeties " see& their help. Soeties " as&ed help fro the stays in front of our house. " as& for advice.
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"ntervie#erB So ho# is your relationship #ith your faily and other people since youve becoe a #itnessF 5espondentB "ve becoe close to y faily because they are soeho# there to help e. " becae close to the aa. " had enou!h tie to spend #ith the because " a al#ays in the house. "ntervie#erB *as this e$perience becoe a burden to youF *o#F 5espondentB "t had a !reat effect on e and y faily. Soeties even y children are afraid to !o to school. "t is only y #ife #ho #or&s for us. There are ties #hen #e do not have food to eat and " realized " already need to #or& but " a afraid. "ntervie#erB Try to thin& of your life as a #hole, #hat are the thin!s that a&es your life !oodF 5espondentB =y faily and #or& and &no#in! that " a safe. "ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that a&es your life badF 5espondentB =y life becae difficult #hen " becae a #itness. We used to be o&ay before. =aybe it #as bad luc&. +r aybe it is just e because " dont &no# ho# to handle probles. "ntervie#erB What is /uality of life for youF 5espondentB Eor e, bein! able to support y faily and have a happy life. "t is &no#in! that " did not do anythin! bad to others and " can ove around #ithout fears.
"ntervie#erB What is it that you #ant people to &no# re!ardin! your situationF 5espondentB " a as&in! that they try to understand us. " hope the office #ill not !et tired of helpin! e and y faily.
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"ntervie#erB *o# is your ood todayF 5espondentB =oodF "ts sort of o&ay. "ntervie#erB Aould you please e$plain to e #hat I"ts sort of o&ayJ eansF 5espondentB K, sort of o&ay eans, " a neither happy nor sad. "ts li&e a neutral thin! doc. "ntervie#erB " see. So, bein! a #itness, has this affect your daily activities or the thin!s that you do everydayF 5espondentB Res, because before " used to live a noral life. "ntervie#erB What do you ean by noralF 5espondentB " dont thin& of anythin! bad that i!ht happen to e. 4efore " dont have #orries such s !ettin! cau!ht in a bad situation, but no# " ta&e e$tra care especially in public places. +nce you testify soethin! surely the other party #ill !et ad. "ntervie#erB Rou have entioned that you are a lot ore careful no#, do you have any concerns, #orries or fearsF What are theseF 5espondentB Res, " a also afraid. +f course #e cant al#ays avoid scenarios #herein the other party becoes ad and #ould !o after e of y faily. "t #ould be #orst if it is y faily that they #ill run after. "ntervie#erB So ho# do you cope #ith thisF 5espondentB 't first " really didnt &no# #hat to do. Soeties " a already losin! hope. "ts as if all probles are happenin! to e. "t is really prayers that helped e and y faily. "ts a different feelin! &no#in! that " have y faily, its li&e its o&ay to have probles all the tie as lon! as " &no# they are there to help e.
"ntervie#erB Where do you !et the stren!th to !o on #ith lifeF 5espondentB God, of course. Dven if soeties y ind is confused, " a still an optiistic person. Eor e there is no other thin! to do but to ove or just live. "ntervie#erB Dotional support, #here do you !et thisF 5espondentB Ero y #ife. 4ut there are ties #hen #e are not in !ood ters, " thin& that is noral. Whenever #e fi!ht, i !o to y friends. Hust tal&in! to the really helps. 4ut soeties it is not o&ay because they are not supposed to &no# y real situation. "ntervie#erB *o# is your relationship #ith your faily and friendsF *as anythin! chan!e since youve becoe a #itnessF
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5espondentB "ts still the sae. othin!s chan!ed really the #ay " treat the and the #ay they treat e before is still the sae. 4ut there are days #hen " dont #ant to be #ith the or " just #ant to stay a#ay fro the. "ntervie#erB Why do you feel that #ayF 5espondentB " dont #ant to be #ith the because " feel that they #ill be in dan!er because of e. " dont #ant that to happen. " have a conscience. "ntervie#erB Aould you say that this situation is a burden on you or has brou!ht you difficultiesF "n #hat #ayF 5espondentB Res. "t is a burden for e because the thin!s " do today are not the sae as before #here " can !o any#here " #ant to !o. o# that is not al#ays possible. "ntervie#erB Try to thin& of your life in !eneral, #hat are the thin!s that ade your life !ood or easyF 5espondentB 4ein! optiistic in life. ife is not al#ays all about probles. " believe that if " have a proble no#, it #ill soon be fi$ed. " just dont &no# #hen. "ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that caused you difficultiesF 5espondentB issed opportunities. 'nythin! that could be saved, but for soe reasons #asnt ; it is very frustratin! for e. "ntervie#erB Would you ind tellin! e ore about thisF 5espondentB When " becae a #itness there are a lot of thin!s that bother e. " have fears and soeties " thin& " losin! y sanity because "ve becoe paranoid. What happened #as, " felt " #asnt o&ay anyore. "ve becoe lazy and " just stay at hoe and drin&. These cause y #ife to !et ad at e. " #asted y days on useless drin&in! and bein! lazy. "ntervie#erB *o# do you understand uality of lifeF 5espondentB uality of life, these are the thin!s that coplete or a&es up y bein!. These are the thin!s for e$apleP a !ood input #ould have a !ood output in y life. " a really not sure if y ans#er is ri!ht but this is ho# " understood it. "ntervie#erB astly, do you have anythin! to tell others re!ardin! your situationF 5espondentB "ts just respectP because there are really people #ho love to jud!e. =aybe soeties they feel that they #ill be hared if they are #ith us. Soeties " feel that those #ho are physically ill are luc&y because people pity the. 's for us, #e dont have any physical illness that people ay see, but the effect on us is in the ind, its li&e #e are in trauatized or in shoc&. "t is better for those #ho are sic& because they can be treated. Thats all " #ant to say. " hope they #ill try to understand us, but " thin& that is ipossible. 4ut " still hopin!. "ntervie#erB Than& you. Thats all " #ant to as& fro you. Than& you for your tie. 79
5espondentB "ts o&ay aa. Than& you too because " #as able to pour out #hat "ve #anted to say.
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"ntervie#erB *o# are you todayF *o# is your oodF 5espondentB "ts o&ay. " in a !ood ood.
"ntervie#erB 4ein! a #itness, has this brou!ht chan!es to the usual thin!s that you do everydayF 5espondentB Res. "t is difficult to be filled #ith fears. 'fter the incident " tried to avoid the place #here that incident happened. " dont care if "t #ould cause e to ta&e a lon!er route, as lon! as " feel that " #ill be safe if " #ill ta&e a different route. "ntervie#erB So you #ere really affected by #hat happened because youve said you really ta&e another routeF 5espondentB Res.
"ntervie#erB So #hat do you do to cope up #ith thisF 5espondentB The real thin! is, " used to study in that place before. " left that place ri!ht after " finished the school year and " chan!ed to another place #here " feel " #ill be safe.
"ntervie#erB Where do you !et the stren!th to !o on #ith lifeF 5espondentB Ero y supportive faily.
"ntervie#erB Who do you run to for eotional supportF 5espondentB Ero the also.
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"ntervie#erB *as your situation affected your relationship #ith your faily, friends or other peopleF 5espondentB 't first yes because " becoe paranoid. Soeties " dont !o to school anyore and " dont #ant to tal& to other people that tie. "t seeed li&e " have a #orl of y o#n. " becae distant and " dont !o out #ith y friends. . "ntervie#erB *as this becoe difficult for you or your failyF 5espondentB for y part yes. 's tie passed by " becae #orried because " becoe paranoid every tie " thin& ho# people could do such thin!s. 'nother thin! is, y studies are affected. " had to chan!e to another school institution to be assured of y safety. =y faily is also affected because they are also #orried about e% that the sae incident " #itnessed #ould also happen to e or the other party #ould threaten e because " #itnessed the incident.
"ntervie#erB oo&in! at your life as a #hole, #hat a&es it !ood or #hat a&es it easy for youF 5espondentB " thin& it is y outloo& in life. Dven if " !et paranoid soeties, " al#ays thin& that everythin! #ill be o&ay and " #ill not be hared.
"ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that a&e your life bad or difficultF 5espondentB " thin& none. "ntervie#erB Eor you, #hat is /uality of lifeF 5espondentB "t is leavin! a happy life and fearin! God.
"ntervie#erB What do you #ant to tell others re!ardin! your situationF 5espondentB it is difficult to be in a situation #here one has to choose bet#een ones safety or the #elfare of others. 4ut still a choice has to be ade, !ood thin! " chose both.
"ntervie#erB Thats all sir. Than& you. 5espondentB #elcoe and than& you also.
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"ntervie#erB Good ornin! Sir. "d li&e to than& you for allo#in! e to conduct this intervie# #ith you. 5espondentB Good ornin! too ocQ Roure #elcoe. Rou could call e aa. (lau!hs) "ntervie#erB +&ay sir3aa (lau!hs), ho#s your ood todayF 5espondentB " happy today. " feel !reat.
"ntervie#erB *o# do you ana!e to stay happyF 5espondentB " live #ith this clichYP I#hen the !oin! !ets tou!h, then the tou!h !ets !oin!.J 'fter all, happiness is a choice.
"ntervie#erB +h " see. 4ut didn t your e$perience as a #itness affected your daily activitiesF 5espondentB i&e #hat " said, it #as tou!h at first. 't first " #as #orried about y safety but in the lon! run " !ot used to it.
"ntervie#erB What are your concerns, fears and #orriesF 5espondentB AoncernsF erhaps the tie " spend durin! court hearin!s ; it eans bein! absent fro y #or&. " dont fear anythin!. " a not afraid of threats or #hatsoever.
"ntervie#erB *o# do you cope #ith thisF 5espondentB " avoid the topics that i!ht cause e to reeber. i&e no#, "d li&e to avoid it, but " believe " ust ans#er your /uestions. Hust &iddin!. (lau!hs). 4ein! happy. " try to stay happy. " believe that happiness is a choice. 's uch as " could, " just dont let anyone or anythin! pull e do#n. " just a happy person and " live y life the #ay " #ant to.
"ntervie#erB What &eeps you !oin! or #hat is your source of stren!thF 5espondentB The love of y parents and friends. " ust adit that " not reli!ious and " dont attend ass every Sunday nor do " read the 4ible, but " have this relationship #ith God #hich is only bet#een e and *i #hich " !uess led 82
e to have a happy life. *avin! a happy life &eeps e livin! in this aazin! #orld.
"ntervie#erB o you have soe for of eotional supportF 5espondentB Res. " have a best friend. " tell her thin!s that " not cofortable tellin! y parents or #hoever else. "ntervie#erB *o# are you !ettin! alon! #ith faily and friends as a result of this e$perienceF 5espondentB " have a !ood relationship #ith everybody, even in the #or& placeP " al#ays brin! out the happy e.
"ntervie#erB So bein! a #itness doesnt burden you and your failyF 5espondentB ot at all octora. " live alone. =y failys out of the country already and " sure they are safe there. " thin& it is y faily #ho is really #orried about e.
"ntervie#erB "t sees to you e that a #itness you that " ri!htF 'nd also bein! said that you arehasnt happyaffected #ith your life, SouchF #hat is' it that a&es your life !oodF 5espondentB *avin! a happy faily, havin! y o#n house, stable job and of course a healthy se$ life doctoraQ (lau!hs)
"ntervie#erB Rou really have a !ood sense of huor (lau!hs). +n the other hand, #hat is it that a&es your life badF 5espondentB There is nothin! ajor that a&es y life bad or sad. =aybe soeties " issin! y faily ; y parents and sister. " a alone but not epty.
"ntervie#erB Sir, could you please e$plain to e the phrase you said Isin!le but not eptyJF 5espondentB Well soe of y friends thin& that " have a sad life due to the fact that " live alone. 4ut " actually a not sad. " happy to be livin! aloneQ " ean " enjoy y job, y salary. " pay y o#n bills, " dont have curfe#, " have a carin! faily and " have real friends. These thin!s and people fill e up #ith happiness.
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"ntervie#erB What is your understandin! of Iuality of ifeJF 5espondentB " believe doc that life is a journey throu!h open fields of unliited ia!ination ; that is, everythin! in life is possible, both the !ood thin!s and bad thin!s. "ts just a atter of ho# a person #ould deal #ith those thin!s. "d li&e to say that y life is !ood, because thats #hat " #ant it to be and i!norin! all of those bad thin!s that crosses y path. " just dont ind it. " !uess thats a #ay to have a happy life.
"ntervie#erB " have learned a lot of positive thin!s fro you sir, lastly, #hat essa!e #ould you li&e the people to &no# about #itnesses li&e youF 5espondentB Well not all #itnesses are stron! li&e e. I char1Q "t just so happened that " dont have y o#n faily (as in #ife and children) and y parents are already abroad thats #hy " not scared that the other party #ill !o after the. " not scared of deathP " just scared that there #ould be no se$ after deathQ (lau!hs)
"ntervie#erB Than& you very uch sir for your tie. 5espondentB o proble adaQ Roure very uch #elcoeQ Good luc&Q
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"ntervie#erB Good afternoon Sir. Than& you for allo#in! e to have this intervie# #ith you. *o# are you todayF 5espondentB Good afternoon. Welcoe. Cind of probleatic. " a recently havin! probles. "ntervie#erB "s it o&ay if " as& you about thisF 5espondentB " thin& it #ould be better if #e just dont tal& about it aa because everytie " thin& about it " just dont feel at ease. "ntervie#erB " sorry. 5espondentB "ts o&ay. " sorry also. " hope you understand e. "ntervie#erB "ll proceed to the ne$t /uestion. 5espondentB +&ay. "ntervie#erB 4ein! a #itness, has this affected your daily activitiesF 84
5espondentB Res, before. " can still reeber " cannot !o any#here because " al#ays have security #ho !oes #ith e. " #as accused of soethin! and at the sae tie " a a #itness. There #as this tie, #hen y #ife #as pre!nant ; and it #as a coplicated pre!nancy, she #as about to !ive birth at General *ospital and that event is very hard for e because " cant even be around to buy the thin!s she #ould be needin! and her edicines. That tie there #as really no one " could rely on because y other and father are already old and they really cannot attend to the needs of y #ife. What happened #as it #as the people fro the #itness protection #ho helped us. 4ut all those ties " a at the hospital to!ether #ith the security, thats #hy " really cannot ove around. "ntervie#erB o you fear anythin! or do you have any #orriesF 5espondentB +f course y safety, y #ifes and our babysP because " a not al#ays at their side because " a in prison. "ntervie#erB Rou ean to say even "f you are in prison you still #orry about your safetyF 5espondentB Res. ife in prison is very coplicated and there are other people inside #ho thin& differently. "ntervie#erB What do you ean differentlyF 5espondentB "f they do not li&e you, they #ill really pic& on you. " a afraid that they #ill pic& on e and they i!ht &ill e, y #ife and &id #ould be such a pity. 5i!ht no# y #ife is really havin! a hard tie because " a not around, #hat ore if " #ill die. " a afraid to die, not because " a afraid of death, but " a afraid of #hat i!ht happen to y faily if " #ill die. "ntervie#erB So ho# do you !et throu!h #ith thisF 5espondentB " really dont &no# ho#. " just !o on #ith y lifeP " just !o #ith the flo#. " just disre!ard y probles. Soeties " thin& that is the best solution, to just avoid the proble. 4ut " really cant say that " consider this a proble, " believe this is just a part of life that " a here in prison. "ts just a atter of !ettin! used to it. "ntervie#erB Who do you !et stren!th froF 5espondentB Ero y #ife and y child. "t so happened that y child is a boy. "t is really a different feelin! if your first born is a boy. "ntervie#erB *o# about eotional supportF 5espondentB Still fro y #ife. She just listens but soeties she !ives advice. " really dont &no# #hat to do if shes not around. "ts a !ood thin! that she doesnt leave e. "ntervie#erB Since this happened, #ere there any chan!es in the #ay your faily or the people around you treats youF 85
5espondentB When " #as iprisoned it #as y faily #ho really supported e. "t cae to the point that y conscience is &illin! e because despite of #hat " did, they are still there for e. 's for y nei!hbors, they really pry into y life and they jud!e e ri!ht a#ay. "ts as if they are clean, #ithout sin. " advised y #ife not to pay attention to #hat she is hearin! becaus e that tie she is pre!nant and it i!ht be bad for her. "ntervie#erB id this e$perience becoe a proble to you or your failyF *o#F 5espondentB Res, very. 4ecause " a not just a #itness, " a also a suspect. The people #ho filed a case a!ainst e are ad and " thin& y copanions are also ad at e. "ntervie#erB oo&in! at your life in !eneral, #hat is it that ade your life easy or !ood 5espondentB 'side fro y faily, " cant thin& of any. "ntervie#erB What are the thin!s that ade it badF 5espondentB 4ein! poor and not able to finish school. "t is really hard to be poor. The poor becoes poorer and lac& of education also adds up. "ntervie#erB *o# do you understand uality of ifeF 5espondentB To live a !ood life, able to eat every day, a !ood life #ith failyP a#ay fro all the probles, " thin& " dont have that (lau!hs) "ntervie#erB o you have any essa!e to the people re!ardin! your situation ri!ht no#F 5espondentB "n everythin! it is al#ays iportant to thin& of #hat is ri!ht, not just because any people are doin! it eans it is already the ri!ht thin! to do because re!ret al#ays coes last. To those people #ho love to jud!e, " hope they try to &no# the real story, because soeties, people see e #ith handcuffs #henever " coe here and they !ive e these stares. " hope " didnt scare you aa. "ntervie#erB +f course not. Than&s for your tie. 5espondentB Welcoe and than& you too.
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"TD5"DW 8 "ntervie#erB Good afternoon aa. Than& you for allo#in! e to conduct this intervie# #ith you. 86
5espondentB "ts nothin!. Roure #elcoe.
"ntervie#erB *o# are you feelin! today aaF 5espondentB " feelin! !ood today, but " a soeho# bothered.
"ntervie#erB What is this you are bothered about aaF 5espondentB " bothered about the result of y e$aF
"ntervie#erB What e$a is this aaF 5espondentB =y e$a in school. " a afraid " i!ht not pass. " have a tar!et !rade so that " can attain a !rade of -
"ntervie#erB So you #erent ready for that e$aF 5espondentB " #as, but " just dont understand the lesson. o atter ho# " tried to understand it, " just cant. " cannot focus.
"ntervie#erB Why did you say you cant focusF 5espondentB " dont &no#. Dven in class " just dont #ant to listen to the teacher, " just loo& outside the #indo# or the door.
"ntervie#erB oes this have anythin! to do #ith your e$perience as a #itnessF 5espondentB " a not sure. 4ut aybe soeho# it has. o#, " dont han! out #ith friends anyore outside our school. " prefer to !o hoe ri!ht a#ay.
"ntervie#erB o you #orry about soethin! or fear soethin! thats #hy you dont #ant to han! out #ith your friends anyoreF 5espondentB Res, " a still #orried of y safety. " cant really say that " a in dan!er, but " cant also say " a safe.
"ntervie#erB So #hat do you do to cope #ith thisF 5espondentB " just play coputer !aes. " for!et everythin! once " a in front of the coputer and it a&es e happy because " !ained ne# friends online. 87
"ntervie#erB Rou play coputer !aesF 5espondentB Res, coputer !aes are not for !uys only (lau!hs)
"ntervie#erB ont you thin& coputer is the reason #hy you have been failin! your e$asF 5espondentB " really cant say.
"ntervie#erB Rouve said that coputer a&es you for!etP #here else do you !et your stren!thF 5espondentB Ero y parents. " believe that faily is really iportant ore than anythin! else.
"ntervie#erB Since you becae a #itness, has anythin! chan!ed #ith re!ards to your relationship #ith your friends or failyF 5espondentB They treated e very nicely. 4ut " thin& " a the one #ho stays a#ay fro the.
"ntervie#erB Why is that soF 5espondentB =aybe because " dont #ant the to be associated #ith e, because " dont #ant the to be part of this proble too.
"ntervie#erB 4ein! a #itness, has this becoe a burden to youF 5espondentB Res, because li&e " said " started to avoid people and " a failin! y subjects. 4ut even if " a li&e this, even if people thin& that " a not the sae person as before, " dont believe the. " &no# yself better than the, and they do not &no# #hat " a !oin! throu!h.
"ntervie#erB With all these thin!s that happened in your life, do you consider any !ood in itF 5espondentB Res of course. ife itself a&es y life !ood.
"ntervie#erB What do you ean by thatF 5espondentB 4ein! alive a&es y life !ood because " a really afraid to die. " a afraid that to leave y parents behind.
"ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that a&e your life badF 're there anyF 88
5espondentB one. " a contented #ith #hat " have and " accept #hat " do not have. " believe that everythin! happens for a reason.
"ntervie#erB Eor you #hat is /uality of lifeF 5espondentB " thin& it is havin! a peaceful life and a rela$ed ind, " thin& thats it.
"ntervie#erB astly, do you have any essa!e to those people #ho i!ht not &no# about your situationF 5espondentB robles are part of everyday life, " dont &no# of any person #ho doesnt have any probles. eople have probles, it just doesnt sho#, aybe it has soethin! to do #ith ho# they carry their lives. "t is really iportant to really be positive in life.
"ntervie#erB Than& you very uch aa. 5espondentB Welcoe and than& you also.
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"ntervie#erB Good afternoon aa. Than& you for the tie you have !iven e for this intervie#. 5espondentB Roure #elcoe aa.
"ntervie#erB So ho# are you feelin! todayF 5espondentB " feel !ood today.
"ntervie#erB Aould you tell e ore about itF 5espondentB " feel !ood in the sense that " a happy because y health is already o&ay.
"ntervie#erB o you ind tellin! e about itF 5espondentB ot at all. " just had an operation a onth a!o because y appendi$ #as reoved. o# " have already recovered thats #hy " feel !ood. 89
"ntervie#erB So you are a #itness to a crie ri!htF 5espondentB " a a victi and at the sae tie a #itness.
"ntervie#erB " see. So has this becoe hard for you, bein! a victi and #itness at the sae tieF 5espondentB Res it #as really hard for e because #hat happened to e #as very trauatic. " a a &ind of person #ho has abitions in life and " really #ant y faily to have a !ood life. " tried to find a decent job abroad thats #hy " e$erted so uch tie, effort and oney on it. 4ut #hat happened #as " #as fooled and instead of havin! a decent job, " ended up havin! the job no #oan #ould ever #ant.
"ntervie#erB *as this e$perience brou!ht you #orries or fearsF 5espondentB Res. That e$perience ade be distrustful of others. o#, " dont ri!ht a#ay believe other people especially if " really dont &no# the. " a afraid that if " #ill trust others, all they #ill do is just fool e and step on y dreas.
"ntervie#erB 's a #itness, do you have #orries or concernsF 5espondentB Res. " a really concerned about y safety because " feel " a really helpless if those people #ill coe bac& for e, " a afraid they i!ht &idnap e, rape e or even &ill e. " a a very sall lady and " do not &no# ho# to protect yself physically, " dont &no# artial arts or #hatever. (lau!hs)
"ntervie#erB So #hat do you do to cope up #ith thisF 5espondentB " too& up enhanceent courses. " spent y days studyin! and !oin! to school instead of doin! nothin!, #hich #ould only cause e to #orry about the bad e$perience. 'nd " &no# that if " #ill finish this course, " #ill be able to find a decent job. "ntervie#erB Rou see li&e a stron! lady, #here do you !et your stren!thF 5espondentB " thin& y stren!th coes fro y desire or perseverance to succeed. Thats #hat &eeps e !oin! aside fro the fact that " a doin! this for y parents.
"ntervie#erB id you ever brea&do#n because of thisF 5espondentB Res, " used to cry a lot before. 'nd " #as really sad that " dont eat and " dont socialize anyore. 90
"ntervie#erB So #ho #as there to cofort you durin! those tiesF 5espondentB =y faily. 4ut " #as ore of cofortable confidin! #ith y sister. She is just a year older than e and #e !re# up to be very close. She is li&e y best friend.
"ntervie#erB *as this e$perience chan!ed your relationship #ith other peopleF "n #hat #ayF 5espondentB " #ould say yes. 4ut it chan!ed in a positive #ay.
"ntervie#erB What do you ean by thatF 5espondentB " thin& it is noral for other people to avoid soeone #hose life is endan!ered or #hose security is at ris&. 4ut for e, the people around e coforted, aybe because they pity e for #hat happened to e. " never felt bein! +., you &no#, out of place.
"ntervie#erB Rouve said earlier younot dont other people ri!ht a#ay, so ho# #ill they cofort you if that you do trusttrust theF 5espondentB 'h, " dont trust other people, you &no#, ne# people. 4ut the people #ho cofort e and are al#ays there, " #ill al#ays trust the.
"ntervie#erB *avin! e$perienced this, do you consider this a burdenF 5espondentB 's a victi, " #ould say yes because y life #as essed up. 4ut as a #itness, " thin& not, because " feel li&e " have soeone #ho #ould protect and help e.
"ntervie#erB oo&in! at your life as a #hole #hat are the thin!s that ade your life !oodF 5espondentB " thin& it is havin! a sense of self% a#areness. 4ecause there #as a tie #hen " felt li&e " do not &no# yself anyore and it too& e a lon! tie to put yself bac& to noral. " thin& if " dont have that self% a#areness, " #ouldnt !ive iportance to y life anyore.
"ntervie#erB *o# about the thin!s that ade your life badF 5espondentB " dont consider the #ron! thin!s that happene d to e as bad. " ta&e it as a learnin! e$perience. eople say that it is better if #e learn fro the ista&es of others, but ho# is that possibleF Rou &no#, #e have different e$periences fro each other, the ista&es they had in their life is not the sae #ith ine, it ay be siilar, but it is not the sae. 91
"ntervie#erB "n your o#n understandin!, #hat is /uality of lifeF 5espondentB " thin& bein! happy and havin! nothin! to #orry.
"ntervie#erB o you #ant to add anythin! to thatF 5espondentB " thin& thats all. "ntervie#erB 4efore #e end, is there anythin! that you #ould li&e to tell the people re!ardin! your situation, li&e a essa!e to theF 5espondentB =y sister al#ays tells e this, to reain !ood even if the #orld is cruel to you. " live #ith this sayin! that she told e. 4ecause if " becoe bad just because the people around e is bad, #hen #ould !oodness coe inF
"ntervie#erB Thats very inspirin!. 5espondentB Than& you
"ntervie#erB Thats all for this intervie# aa. " hope you retain that s#eetness in you. 5espondentB (siles) Welcoe.
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