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FHICI Xliri”s stmcc `uh ujhir `y stjkirjfmcs wlij Hfvmh stjfccy be`is le`i. M bfj giic mt stmjkmjk fkfmjst `y rfw samj, hiip ujhir tli dihs. @y ste`fbl twmsts, wrmjkmjk grisl jirvis eut fs tli grejt heer sluts, fjh ger f `e`ijt wi oust ceea ft ifbl etlir gre` eppesmti ijhs eg tli cejk berrmher eg eur jiw Wmbtermfj leusi, f trfbt eg pirgibtcy pecmslih weeh ditwiij us, digeri li turjs, swfymjk scmkltcy, tewfrhs tli smttmjk ree`. M tfai f hiip driftl fjh oemj lm`, fflmjblmjk ft ifbl eg tli lfrh difts eg `y liics fkfmjst tli ffleerdefrhs. M `ust jet di fgrfmh. M jiih te ripfmr tlms. [i jiih te ripfmr tlms. “M”vi beeaih hmjjir,” M sfy, trymjk jet te seujh tee jiihy. “Ejcy f strekfjegg. Mt bfj aiip ujtmc te`errew mg yeu”vi fcrifhy iftij.” Li”s gfbmjk fwfy gre` `i, stfrmjk ft eur deeaslicvis tlft tli ujpfbairs lfvi stccih gre` tli dexis. M try jet te tlmja fdeut lew cejk li”s diij keji. M”vi bcifjih up tli dreaij kcfss, swipt fjh sbruddih tli ffleer, fjh hifct wmtl tli t li kfrhij. Fcc ivmhijbi eg ifrcmir rfki lfs diij ri`ev ri`evih. ih. M rmjsih `y `eutl eut fgtir iviry kcfss eg wmji M hrfja mj lms fdsijbi ;
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se li wej”t s`icc mt ej `i. Li heisj”t cmai `i te hrmja. Ejcy ivir f kcfss er twe mj be`pfjy. Jivir fceji. Dut tejmklt M beuchj”t licp mt. Ivij mg M lfvij”t ijtmricy ket tli hmrt eut gre` ujhir `y jfmcs, M”vi slewirih fjh blfjkih mjte f pewhir dcui hriss fjh `ftblmjk liics, fjh put `fai-up ej. Je trfbi eg tifrs fjh stkltmjk. M wfjt us te wfsl mt fcc fwfy. Xlms ms eur grisl stfrt. Eur jiw dikmjjmjk. Mt lfs te di. “M”` jet lujkry.” Li turjs te gfbi `i tlij, fjh M bfj sii f qumit ceftlmjk mj lms iyis, fjh M dmti dfba f suhhij urki te bryy. M tlmja br t lmja tlms i`ptmjiss ms wersi tlfj lms fjkir. Ivir Ivirytlmjk ytlmjk M”vi weraih se lfrh te dumch rifccy ms bru`dcmjk. M hej”t bfri tlft li”s hruja fkfmj. M ejcy wfjt lm` te cevi `i cmai li usih te. Li heisj”t ivij jetmbi tli iggert M”vi `fhi smjbi li ster`ih eut. Lew dusy M”vi diij. Lew M ceea. Lew M”vi trmih. “M”` kemjk te dih,” li sfys. Li heisj”t ceea `i mj tli iyi, fjh M ajew tlft li `ifjs tli spfri ree`. Xwe hfys mjte eur grisl stfrt, fjh li wej”t di sciipmjk wmtl `i. M giic tli brfbas ditwiij us wmhij ejbi `eri. Reej wi wej”t di fdci te rifbl ifbl etlir fbress tli`. Li wfcas bfriguccy freujh `i fjh M wfjt te teubl lms fr` dut f` tee fgrfmh eg lew li wmcc rifbt. Li sii`s hmskustih dy `i. Er pirlfps mt”s lms hmskust ft lm`sicg rfhmftmjk mj `y hmribtmej. “M cevi yeu,” M sfy, segtcy. M lfti `ysicg ger mt, fjh li heisj”t fjswir dut ujstifhmcy bcf`dirs tli stfmrs fs mg M”` jet tliri. M lifr lms geetstips ribihi fjh tlij f heer bcesmjk. Fgtir f `e`ijt eg stfrmjk ft tli t li spfbi wliri li je cejkir ms, cmstijmjk te `y pftblwera lifrt drifamjk, M ke dfba te tli amtblij fjh turj tli evij egg. M wej”t aiip mt ger te`errew. Mt weuch tfsti seur ej tli `i`er `i`eryy eg tehfy. tehfy. Hmjjir”s rumjih. r umjih. [i”ri [ i”ri rumjih. r umjih. M se`itm`is wejhir mg li wfjts te amcc `i fjh di heji wmtl mt fcc. Kit rmh eg tli fcdftress freujh lms jiba. ^irlfps se`i pfrt eg `i wfjts te amcc lm` tee. M”` ti`ptih te lfvi fjetlir kcfss eg gerdmhhij wmji, dut <
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M rismst. M”` tifrguc ijeukl fcrifhy fjh M bfj”t gfbi fjetlir stklt. ^irlfps mj tli `erjmjk wi”cc di stji fkfmj. M”cc ripcfbi tli dettci fjh li”cc jivir ajew M”vi diij hrmjamjk ft fcc. M kfzi eut mjte tli kfrhij digeri stjfccy fflmbamjk tli eutsmhi cmklts egg fjh gfbmjk `y rifflibtmej mj tli wmjhew. M”` f difutmguc we`fj. M ceea fgtir `ysicg. [ly bfj”t li stmcc cevi `i5 [ly bfj”t eur cmgi lfv lfvii diij fs M”h lepih, fs M”h wfjtih wfjtih,, fgtir ivirytlmjk ivir ytlmjk M”vi heji ger lm`5 [i lfvi lfvi pcijty eg `ejiy `ejiy.. Li lfs tli bfriir li hrif`ih eg. M lfvi ejcy ivir trmih te di tli pirgibt wmgi fjh kmvi lm` tli pirgibt cmgi. [ly bfj”t li cit tli pfst ke5 M fccew `ysicg f giw `mjutis” `eri sicg-pmty fs M wmpi hewj fjh pecmsl tli krfjmti surgfbis, fjh tlij t lij M tfai f hiip driftl fjh pucc `ysicg tekitlir. M jiih te sciip. Xe prepircy sciip. M”cc tfai f pmcc fjh ajeba `ysicg eut. Xe`errew wmcc di hmggirijt. Mt lfs te di. M”cc gerkmvi lm`. M fcwfys he. M cevi `y lusdfjh. M lfvi smjbi tli `e`ijt M sit iyis ej lm`, fjh M wmcc jivir gfcc eut eg cevi wmtl lm`. M wej”t kmvi tlft up. M bfj”t.
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CEYMRI Je jf`is, eafy5 Je oeds. Je hucc cmgi tfca. Cit”s tfca fdeut rifc tlmjks. “]eu rifccy sfmh tlft5” “]is. [icc, je,” M sfy. “Li hmh.” @y gfbi durjs. Mt seujhih re`fjtmb ft geur tlmrty mj tli fgtirjeej twe hfys fke wmtl wmtl tli t li strst mccmbmt fgtirjeej Jikrejm, dut jew mt”s cmai se`itlmjk gre` f blifp trfkm-re`be`. Xlmrty-geur-yifr-ech Xlmrty-geur-y ifr-ech we`fj wfcas mjte f dfr fjh ms swiittfcaih dy tli `fj eg lir hrif`s wle turjs eut te di lir jiw dess. El Keh, M wfjt te hmi gre` tli fwgucjiss eg mt fcc. [lft f `iss. “Eg beursi li hmh.” Replmi cfukls fjh m``ihmfticy trmis te step lirsicg. “ Je Je hucc cmgi cmgi tfca . Cmai, el, M hej”t ajew, tli s`fcc gfbt M”` `frrmih.” Rli siis `y gfbi. “Rerry. M ajew mt”s jet tibljmbfccy gujjy, dut mt sert eg ms. Fjh M ajew yeu”ri eut eg prfbtmbi wmtl tli wleci `ij tlmjk, dut lew beuch yeu jet lfvi ajewj gre` tlft li li wfs `frrmih5 Xli jiw dess dmt M”cc cit yeu egg wmtl. Xlft ms sm`pcy dceehy dfh cuba.” “Mt”s rifccy jet gujjy,” M sfy, dut M s`mci. “Fjywfy, `frrmih `ij fri yeur gerti, jet `mji.” “Xrui.” M ajiw Replmi weuch `fai `i giic dittir. [i fri gujjy
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tekitlir. [i cfukl. Rli”s fj fbtriss dy trfhi ‒ fctleukl wi jivir hmsbuss lew sli lfsj”t weraih eutsmhi eg twe XW berpsis mj yifrs ‒ fjh, hispmti lir fggfmrs, lfs diij `frrmih te f `usmb ixib ger ivir. [i `it ft eur JBX bcfssis, fjh fctleukl eur cmvis fri viry hmggirijt, wi dejhih. Rivij yifrs ej fjh wi”ri stmcc hrmjamjk wmji. “Dut jew yeu”ri cmai `i,” sli sfys, wmtl f bliiry wmja. “Rciipmjk wmtl f `frrmih `fj. M giic ciss dfh fdeut `ysicg fcrifhy.” “M hmhj”t sciip sciip wmtl lm`. Fjh M hmhj”t ajew li wfs `frrmih.” Xlft cfst pfrt msj”t qumti trui. Dy tli ijh eg tli jmklt, M”h lfh f pritty keeh mhif. Xli urkijt priss eg lms dehy fkfmjst `mji fs wi amssih, eur lifhs spmjjmjk gre` kmj. Xli suhhij drifa fwfy. Xli kumct mj lms iyis. Xli fpeceky. M bfj”t he tlms . Fcc tli ticcs wiri tliri. “Eafy, Rjew [lmti. M”` oust ixbmtih tlft yeu jifrcy ket cfmh. Lew cejk”s mt diij jew5” “M rifccy hej”t wfjt te tlmja fdeut tlft. Hiprissmjk `i gurtlir gurt lir wej”t licp wmtl `y burrijt bur rijt prihmbf`ijt,” M sfy, sfy, digeri hrmjamjk `eri eg `y wmji. M jiih fjetlir bmkfritti. Fhf` ms tubaih up fjh gfst fsciip fjh wej”t `evi ujtmc drifagfst fjh sbleec. M bfj ricfx. Li heisj”t lfvi jmklt`fris. Li heisj”t sciipwfca. Xlfja Keh ger s`fcc `irbmis. “Fjh tlms ms fcc @mblficf”s gfuct fjywfy,” M bejtmjui. “Mg sli”h bfjbiccih digeri M ket tliri, jeji eg tlms weuch lfvi lfppijih.” Replmi”s ket f pemjt tleukl. Mt”s diij f cejk tm`i smjbi M”vi ivij fflmrtih wmtl f `fj, cit fceji ket hruja fjh amssih eji. Lir cmgi ms hmggirijt. hmg girijt. Fcwfys surreujhih dy jiw fjh mjtiristmjk piepci. Briftmvi typis wle cmvi `eri griicy, hrmja ujtmc cfti, fjh cmvi cmai tiijfkirs. Dimjk f smjkci `u` mj Cejhej iamjk eut f cmvmjk fs f psyblmftrmst”s pfrt-tm`i sibritfry heisj”t ixfbtcy kmvi `i f luki ju`dir eg eppertujmtmis te tlrew bfutmej te tli wmjh fjh ke eut iviry jmklt mj tli lepi eg 64
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`iitmjk fjyeji, cit fceji “@r Tmklt”, fjh M bfj”t gfbi Xmjhir er @ftbl er fjy eg tlesi etlir smtis. M”vi amjh eg ket usih te dimjk ej `y ewj. ^uttmjk fcc tlft ej lech ger f wlmci. F wlmci tlft ms turjmjk mjte fj mjfhvirtijt cmgistyci blembi. “Xlms wmcc bliir yeu up.” Rli puccs f oemjt eut eg tli tep pebait eg lir rih berhurey ofbait. “Xrust `i, yeu”cc stjh ivirytlmjk iviryt lmjk gujjmir ejbi wi”ri dfaih.” dfaih.” Rli siis tli t li ricubtfjbi ej `y gfbi fjh krmjs. “Be`i ej, Ceu. Mt”s f spibmfc ebbfsmej. ]eu”vi ] eu”vi ixbiccih yeursicg. Rjekkih yeur jiw `frrmih dess. Xlms ms kijmus. M sleuch kit kit se`ieji te wrmti tli stc`. M beuch pcfy yeu.” “Keeh,” M sfy. “M”cc jiih tli `ejiy wlij M”` strih.” M bfj”t stklt Replmi, fjh M hej”t wfjt te, fjh seej wi”ri smttmjk eut ej tli s`fcc dfcbejy eg `y tmjy fflft, wmji, brmsps, fjh bmkfrittis ft eur giit, pfssmjk tli wiih ditwiij us, kmkkcmjk. Yjcmai Replmi, wle se`ilew ri`fmjs lfcg-tiijfkir, kittmjk lmkl ms jet mj fjy wfy pfrt eg `y jer`fc reutmji ‒ tliri msj”t tli tm`i er tli `ejiy wlij yeu”ri ej yeur ewj ‒ dut cfukltir difts brymjk fjy tm`i, fjh M suba mj f cujkguc eg swiit, gerdmhhij s`eai. “Mt beuch ejcy lfppij te yeu,” sli sfys. “]eu lmh5” M jeh, s`mcmjk ft tli be`ihy eg tli `i`ery m`fkmjih tlreukl se`ieji icsi”s iyis. “M beuchj”t tlmja eg fjytlmjk icsi te he. M hmvih mjte tli temcit fjh stfyih tliri. [lij M bf`i eut, li”h keji. Li heisj”t stfrt ujtmc te`errew. Li wfs kittmjk tli gucc teur gre` Hr Ryais.” “[mtl lms wmgi.” “]ip, wmtl lms wmgi.” M ri`i`dir lew keeh tliy ceeaih tekitlir tek itlir mj tlft drmig, fwguc `e`ijt eg rifcmsftmej. F difutmguc beupci. “Lew cejk hmh yeu stfy mj tli temcit ger5” “Xwijty `mjutis.” “El, Ceu.” Xliri”s f pfusi, fjh tlij wi detl lfv lfvii tli kmkkcis, wmji 62
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fjh wiih duzzmjk eur lifhs, fjh ger f cmttci wlmci wi bfj”t step. “M wmsl M beuch lfvi siij yeur gfbi,” Replmi sfys. “]ifl, wicc, M”` jet ceeamjk gerwfrh te siimjk lms gfbi wlij li siis `y gfbi.” Replmi slruks. “Li”s tli `frrmih eji. Mt”s lms slf`i. Li bfj”t sfy fjytlmjk te yeu.” Rli fdsecvis `i eg `y kumct, dut M bfj stmcc giic mt bcmjkmjk, fcejk wmtl tli sleba. Xli kut pujbl eg tli we`fj M”h kcm`psih dy lms smhi digeri M hfslih mjte lmhmjk. Lms difutmguc difutmg uc wmgi. Icikfjt. Hfra-lfmr Hfra-lfmrih ih fjh ecmvi-sam ecmvi-samjjih jjih mj fj Fjkicmjf Oecmi wfy. Xlft amjh eg `ystiry fdeut lir. Ixbiptmejfccy scm`. Xli eppesmt eppesmtii eg `i. Xli sjfpslet eg lir ms durjih mjte `y drfmj. M beuchj”t m`fkmji lir ivir pfjmbamjk fjh lmhmjk mj f temcit gre` fjyeji. Mt stujk mj f wfy mt sleuchj”t lfvi, jet fgtir eji hrujaij hr ujaij fgtirjeej, fjh jet ejcy dibfusi `y bejstbejsthijbi lfs rifblih reba dette`. Xli tlmjk ms, M”h cmaih lm` ‒ rifccy cmaih lm`. M bfj”t ticc Replmi fdeut tlft. Lew M lfhj”t tfcaih te fjyeji cmai tlft mj f cejk tm`i. Lew lfppy M”h gict gict te di fflmrtmjk wmtl wmt l se`ieji wle wfs fflmrtmjk fflmr tmjk dfba, fjh lew M”h gerkett gerkettij ij lew krift k rift tlft ixbmti`ijt eg se`itlmjk petijtmfccy jiw wfs. @y cmgi ms, fs f ruci, f dcur eg ijhciss reutmji. M kit Fhf` up fjh tfai lm` te sbleec. Mg M”` weramjk fjh wfjt te stfrt ifrcy, li keis te drifagfst bcud. Mg M”` jet weramjk, M `fy spijh fj leur er se drewsmjk blfrmty sleps ger hismkjir bfst-eggs tlft wmcc stt tli bcmjmb”s sudtcy ixpijsmvi ceea. Xlij mt”s oust beeamjk, bcifjmjk, sleppmjk, ujtmc Fhf` be`is le`i, fjh tlij mt”s le`iwera, tif, dftl, stery, dih ger lm` fjh wmji fjh dfh sciip ger `i. [lij li keis te lms hfh”s ger f wiiaijh M”` tee tmrih te he fjytlmjk `ubl etlir tlfj cmi mj fjh tlij wftbl brfp X W. Xli mhif tlft tlms beuch di `y cmgi ujtmc Fhf`”s ft cifst stgtiij er se qumitcy tirrmstis tirr mstis `i, se M hej”t tlmja t lmja fdeut mt. Dut tlij `iitmjk tli `fj-mj-tli-dfr `fhi `i ri`i`dir 68
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lew keeh mt wfs te giic se`itlmjk. Fs f we`fj. Mt `fhi `i giic fcmvi. M”h ivij tleuklt fdeut kemjk dfba te tlft dfr fjh siimjk mg li”h turjih up te stjh `i. Dut, eg beursi, cmgi msj”t f re`be`. Fjh li”s `frrmih. Fjh M”vi diij fj mhmet. M”` jet dmttir, `iricy sfh. M bfj”t ticc Replmi fjy eg tlisi tlmjks dibfusi tlij sli”h giic serry ger `i, fjh M hej”t wfjt tlft, fjh mt”s oust ifsmir te stjh mt fcc gujjy. Mt ms gujjy. Fjh mt”s jet cmai M smt ft le`i di`efjmjk `y smjkcihe` iviry jmklt, fs mg je eji beuch ivir di be`pciti wmtleut f `fj. Mj tli `fmj, M”` pritty lfppy. M”` f krewj-up. M beuch lfvi mt wfy wersi. Xlms wfs eji `mstfai. M lfv lfvii te hifc wmtl mt. M sbeep up f lfjhguc eg Hermtes fjh Replmi heis tli sf`i. “Burvis fri tli jiw tlmj,” wi sfy mj ujmsej, digeri brf``mjk tli brmsps mjte eur `eutls fjh jifrcy bleamjk fs wi cfukl fkfmj. M tlmja fdeut `i lmhmjk mj tli temcit gre` lm`, gucc eg pfjmb fjh hmsdicmig. Mt ms gujjy. Ivirytlmjk ms gujjy. Mt `mklt di ciss gujjy te`errew `erjmjk wlij M lfvi te gfbi tli `usmb, dut ger jew M bfj cfukl. Mg yeu bfj”t cfukl ft yeur ewj guba-ups, wlft bfj yeu cfukl ft5 “[ly he yeu he mt5” M sfy cftir, wlij tli dettci eg wmji ms i`pty ditwiij us fjh tli ivijmjk i vijmjk ms hrfwmjk te f bcesi. “Lfvi fggfmrs5 Frij”t yeu lfppy wmtl Ofy5” “Eg beursi M f`,” Replmi sfys. “M cevi lm`. Mt”s jet cmai M”` eut hemjk mt fcc tli tm`i.” Xlms ms predfd predfdcy cy trui. Rli”s fj fbtriss1 sli ixfkkirftis ger tli sfai eg f stery se`itm`is. “Dut wly he mt ft fcc5” Rtrfjkicy, mt”s jet se`itlmjk wi”vi rifccy tfcaih fdeut tlft `ubl. Rli ajews M”` ujbe`gertfdci wmtl mt, jet dibfusi sli heis mt ‒ tlft”s lir dusmjiss ‒ dut dibfusi M ajew fjh cmai Ofy. Li”s keeh ger lir. [mtleut lm`, sli”h di sbriwih. Fs mt wiri. “M lfvi f lmklir six hrmvi tlfj li heis,” sli sfys, ivijtufccy. “Fjh six msj”t wlft `frrmfki ms fdeut fjywfy. Mt”s fdeut dimjk wmtl ye yeur ur dis distt grmi grmijh. jh. Ofy Ofy”s ”s `y dis distt grmi grmijh. jh. Dut wi wi”v ”vii dii diij j 69
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tekitlir stgtiij yifrs. Cust bfj”t `fmjtfmj mtsicg. M `ifj, wi stmcc he mt, se`itm`is, dut mt”s jet cmai mt wfs. Fjh lfvmjk f blmch blfjkis tlmjks. ]eu spijh se `fjy yifrs siimjk ifbl etlir fs pfrijts rftlir tlfj cevirs, mt”s lfrh te kit tlft pfssmej dfba.” M tlmja eg `y ewj slert-cmvih `frrmfki. Xli cust hmhj”t hmi wmtl us. Dut tlft hmhj”t step lm` cifvmjk fgtir geur yifrs te di wmtl se`ieji icsi wlij eur sej wfs dfricy twe yifrs ech. @fydi sli lfs f pemjt. M hej”t tlmja M ivir sfw `y ix, Mfj, fs `y dist grmijh. “Mt oust sii`s f dmt sfh te `i.” Fjh mt heis. “Xlft”s dibfusi yeu dicmivi mj trui cevi fjh lfppy ivir fgtir mj f gfmry tfci wfy. Xlft”s jet lew cmgi ms.” “He yeu tlmja li”s ivir bliftih ej yeu5” M fsa. “Li”s histjmticy lfh lms fflmrtftmejs,” sli sfys. “Xliri wfs f smjkir li weraih wmtl f cejk tm`i fke. M tlmja `fydi tliy lfh f tlmjk ger f wlmci. Dut wlftivir mt wfs, mt hmhj”t fggibt us. Jet rifccy.” Rli `fais mt seujh se rifsejfdci. Fcc M bfj tlmja eg ms tli pfmj eg ditrfyfc M gict wlij Mfj cigt. cig t. Lew wlft li hmh fggibtih fg gibtih lew M sfw `ysicg. Lew wertlciss M gict mj tlesi ifrcy hfys. Lew ukcy. Xli slert-cmvih re`fjbi li cigt `i ger hmhj”t cfst imtlir, dut tlft hmhj”t `fai `i giic dittir. “M hej”t tlmja M”cc ivir ujhirstfjh mt,” M sfy. “Iviryeji lfs sibrits, Ceu,” sli sfys. “Iviryeji sleuch di fccewih tlimr sibrits. ]eu bfj jivir ajew ivirytlmjk fdeut f pirsej. ]eu”h ke `fh trymjk te.” M wejhir, fgtir sli”s cigt fjh M”` bcifjmjk up tli hidrms eg eur ivijmjk, mg `fydi Ofy wfs tli eji wle bliftih strst. @fydi tlft”s Replmi”s sibrit ft tli lifrt eg lir letic-ree` trysts. @fydi mt”s fcc heji te `fai lirsicg giic dittir er te qumitcy kit ivij. [le ajews5 M”` predfdcy evir-tlmjamjk mt. Evir-tlmjamjk ms `y spibmfcmty. Ifbl te tlimr ewj, M ri`mjh `ysicg. Rli sii`s lfppy fjh tlft”s keeh ijeukl ger `i. 67
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Mt”s ejcy f cmttci pfst tij tlmrty, dut M”` ixlfustih, fjh M piir mj ft Fhf` ger f `mjuti, f seetlmjk be`gert te di geujh mj wftblmjk lms pifbiguc sciip, burcih up tmjy ej lms smhi ujhir lms Rtfr [frs huvit, ^fhhmjktej ^fhhmjktej tubaih ujhir eji fr`, fr `, fjh tlij bcesi tli heer fjh cifvi lm` te mt. Mt”s hfra wlij M wfai up mj tli dftlree`, stfjhmjk mj grejt eg tli `mrrer, fjh digeri M”vi rifccy rikmstirih wliri M f`, M giic tli slfrp tlred mj `y slmj wliri M”vi wfcaih mjte tli s`fcc cfujhry dfsait mj tli berjir. @y lifrt rfbis, fjh swift bcmjks te `y lfmrcmji. Fs rifcmty sittcis freujh `i, tli jmklt tirrer slfttirs, cifvmjk ejcy grfk`ijts mj `y lifh. M ajew wlft mt wfs tleukl. Fcwfy Fcwfyss tli sf`i hrif`. F vfst dumchmjk, cmai fj ech lespmtf lespmtfcc er erplfjfki. Fdfjhejih. Fhf` ms trfppih se`iwliri mjsmhi mt, fjh M ajew, M oust ajew, tlft mg M bfj”t kit te lm`, tlij li”s kemjk te hmi. Li”s bfccmjk eut ger `i, fgrfmh. Re`itlmjk dfh ms be`mjk ger lm`. M”` rujjmjk tlreukl berrmhers trymjk te rifbl lm`, fjh gre` tli wfccs fjh bimcmjks tli slfhews stritbl, fs mg tliy”ri pfrt eg se`i tirrmdci ivmc fcmvi mj tli dumchmjk, fjh wrfp tli`sicvis freujh `i, trfppmjk `i. Fcc M bfj lifr ms Fhf` brymjk fs M try te isbfpi tli hfra, stmbay strfjhs hitir`mjih te aiip `i gre` lm`, te bleai `i fjh hrfk `i mjte tli ijhciss hfrajiss. Mt”s f lerrmdci hrif`. Mt bcmjks te `i cmai tli slfhews he mj tli jmklt`fri mtsicg. Xli hitfmcs `fy blfjki scmkltcy gre` jmklt te jmklt, dut tli jfrrfjfr rftmvi ms fcwfys tli sf`i. Lewivir `fjy tm`is M lfvi mt, M”cc jivir kit usih te mt. Xli jmklt tirrers hmhj”t stfrt wlij Fhf` wfs derj ‒ M”vi fcwfys lfh tli`, dut digeri lm` M weuch di stkltmjk ger `y ewj survmvfc. Ceeamjk dfba, tlft wfs dittir, ivij mg M hmhj”t ajew mt ft tli tm`i. Xliy”ri tli dfji eg `y cmgi. Xliy amcc `y blfjbis eg f hibijt jmklt”s sciip wlij dimjk f smjkci `u` tmris `i eut ijeukl. 6;
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Xlms tm`i M”vi wfca wfcaih ih `eri tlfj M”vi heji mj f wlmci. Jer`fccy M wfai up, bejgusih, stfjhmjk imtlir dy `y ewj dih er Fhf`”s, egtij mj tli `mhhci eg f jejsijsmbfc, tirrmstih sijtijbi. Mt lfppijs se egtij mt heisj”t ivij detlir lm` mg li wfais up fjy `eri. Dut tlij li”s ket lms gftlir”s prfbtmbfcmty. Xlfjaguccy, li”s `y sijsi eg lu`eur. M put tli cmklt ej, ceea mjte tli `mrrer, fjh krefj. Hfra bmrbcis hrfk tli samj ujhir `y iyis hewj, fjh M ajew geujhftmej msj”t kemjk te bevir tli`. Jet mj gucc hfycmklt. El keeh. M ri`mjh `ysicg tlft mt heisj”t `fttir wlft tli-`fj gre`-tli-dfr gre`-tl i-dfr faf faf el-brfp-li”s-`y-jiw-`frrmih-dess tlmjas eg `i. Lepiguccy, li”cc di giicmjk i`dfrrfssih ijeukl te mkjeri `i fcc hfy. @y ste`fbl stmcc bcijblis tleukl, fjh `y lifh tlu`ps gre` tee `ubl wmji fjh tee `fjy bmkfrittis. bmkfrittis. [e`fj up, M ticc `ysicg. Mt”cc fcc di gerkettij mj f hfy er se. Oust ke mj fjh he yeur oed. Mt”s ejcy geur mj tli `erjmjk, fjh M hrmja se`i wftir, wftir, tlij turj tli cmklt eut fjh briip dfba te `y ewj dih lepmjk ft cifst te hezi ujtmc tli fcfr` keis egg ft smx. M rigusi te tlmja fdeut tli wfy lms `eutl gict ej `mji fjh lew keeh mt wfs, mg ejcy drmiffly, te lfvi tlft surki eg hismri. Xe giic tlft tlf t bejjibtmej wmtl se`ieji. M stfri ft tli wfcc fjh bejti`pcfti beujtmjk sliip, fjh tlij M rifcmsi tlft ujhir `y jirvis M”` fcse ixbmtih te sii lm` fkfmj. M krmt `y tiitl tiit l fjh bursi `ysicg fs fj mhmet. M f` jet tlft tlft we`fj.
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FHICI M wfvi lm` egg wmtl f s`mci fs li cifvis ger lms strst prepir hfy ft tli bcmjmb, fjh tli ichircy cfhy jixt heer ceeas ej fpprevmjkcy fs sli tfais lir s`fcc, iqufccy grfmc hek eut ger lms wfca. [i fcwfys fppifr subl f pirgibt beupci, Hfvmh fjh M. M cmai tlft. Rtmcc, M cit eut f smkl eg ricmig wlij M bcesi tli heer fjh lfvi tli leusi te `ysicg, ivij tleukl tlft ixlfcftmej giics cmai f s`fcc ditrfyfc. M cevi lfvmjk Hfvmh liri wmtl `i, dut wi”ri jet yit dfba ej wlftiv wlftivir ir ivij kreujh wi”v wi”vii briftih ger eursicvis, eursicvis, fjh tli t li ft`espliri ms gucc eg ivirytlmjk iviryt lmjk ujsfmh. Xlfjaguccy,, tli jiw leusi ms dmk ijeukl tlft Xlfjaguccy t lft li bfj lmhi mj lms stuhy fjh wi bfj pritijh ivirytlmjk ms stji fs wi bfutmeuscy `evi freujh ifbl etlir. M he, lewivir, giic scmkltcy dittir tlfj M hmh wlij li bf`i le`i hruja. [i hmhj”t hmsbuss mt tli jixt `erjmjk, `er jmjk, eg beursi1 hmsbussmej ms jet se`itlmjk wi he tlisi hfys. Mjstifh, M cigt lm` te lms pfpirs fjh wijt te smkj us detl up ft tli cebfc lifctl bcud, wlmbl ms sumtfdcy ixpijsmvi, fjh tlij wfcaih freujh eur jiw blmb frif, fdserdmjk mt fcc. M cmai te ceba cebftmejs mj pcfbi. Xe di fdci te sii tli`. Mt `fais `i giic `eri be`gertfdci. Mt licps `i ricfx. M wfcaih ger jifrcy twe leurs, `ijtfccy cekkmjk sleps fjh 6=
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dfrs fjh ristfurfjts ujtmc M lfh tli` sfgicy sterih mj `y lifh, tlimr m`fkis su``ejfdci ft wmcc, fjh tlij M deuklt se`i drifh gre` tli cebfc frtmsfj dfairy, fjh se`i ecmvis, scmbih lf`, lu``us, fjh suj-hrmih te`fteis gre` tli hicm ‒ fcc eg wlmbl wiri hibfhijtcy ixpijsmvi fjh hrfmjih `y leusiaiipmjk leusiaiip mjk bfsl ‒ fjh `fhi us fj mjheer pmbjmb ger cujbl, ivij tleukl mt wfs wfr` ijeukl te smt eutsmhi. M hej”t tlmja li wfjts te ke mjte tli kfrhij yit. ]istirh ] istirhfy fy wi wijt te tli bcmjmb, fjh M blfr`ih tli sijmer pfrtjir Hr Ryais, fjh tli vfrmeus etlir hebters fjh jursis wi `it. ^iepc ^iepcii rispejh te difuty difuty.. Mt seujhs vfmj, dut mt”s trui. Hfvmh ejbi tech `i tlft ourers wiri gfr `eri cmaicy te dicmivi keeh-ceeamjk keeh-ceeamjk piepci mj tli t li heba tlfj fvirfki er ukcy ejis. Mt”s ejcy tli cuba eg samj fjh dejis, dut M”vi cifrjih tlft mt heis lfvi f `fkmb. ]eu hej”t ivij lfvi te sfy viry `ubl, dut sm`pcy cmstij fjh s`mci, fjh piepci dijh evir dfbawfrhs ger yeu. M lfvi ijoeyih dimjk difutmguc. Xe sfy fjytlmjk icsi weuch di f cmi. M wera lfrh te aiip `ysicg difutmguc ger Hfvmh. Ivirytlmjk M he ms ger lm`. Hfvmh”s jiw egstbi ms tli sibejh cfrkist mj tli dumchmjk gre` wlft M beuch sii, tli sert M weuch ixpibt lm` te lfvi mg li”h ivir tfai up f pesmtmej mj Lfrciy Rtriit. Xli bfrpit ms brif` fjh pcusl, tli cfrki hisa ms sumtfdcy estijtftmeus, fjh eutsmhi ms f viry cuxurmeus ribiptmej frif. Xli dcejhi fjh fttrfbtmvi ‒ mg yeu cmai tlft sert eg tlmjk ‒ we`fj dilmjh tlft hisa sburrmih fwfy digeri wi beuch di mjtrehubih, wlmbl fjjeyih `i ‒ dut Hr Ryais dfricy sii`ih te jetmbi fs li tfcaih ft `i fjh dcuslih wlij M cfuklih ft lms tirrmdci lfcgoeais. M tlmja M hmh viry wicc kmvij lew `ubl `y lifrt wfs fblmjk. Hfvmh `ust lfvi diij pcifsih tee, dibfusi li segtijih f cmttci fgtir tlft. [i fri lfvmjk hmjjir ft Hr Ryais” leusi tejmklt fs fj mjger`fc wicbe`i. M fcrifhy lfvi `y hriss pmbaih eut fjh ajew lew M wmcc he `y lfmr. M guccy mjtijh te `fai Hfvmh 4>
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preuh eg `i. M bfj di tli keeh wmgi. Xli jiw pfrtjir”s wmgi. Hispmti `y prisijt werrmis. M giic bfc`ir tlfj M lfvi smjbi wi `ev `evih. ih. M ceea up ft tli bceba wlesi tmba buts tlreukl tli vfst smcijbi mj tli leusi. Mt”s stmcc ejcy imklt f.`. Li”s predfdcy oust kittmjk te tli egstbi jew. Li wej”t `fai lms strst bfcc le`i ujtmc icivij tlmrty. M lfvi tm`i. M ke up te eur dihree` fjh cmi ej tep eg tli bevirs. M”` jet kemjk te sciip. Dut M he bcesi `y iyis. M tlmja fdeut tli bcmjmb. Hfvmh”s egstbi. Xlft pcusl brif` bfrpit. Xli pecmslih `flekfjy eg lms hisa. Xli tmjy sbrftbl ej tli berjir. Xli twe scm` beublis. Gmr` sifts. Xli hitfmcs. M tfai f hiip driftl.
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