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Raj’s grandmother died on August 10th 1990. His grandfather died within 2 weeks of her death. Raj’s father told that his father used to stare at his wife’s photo for hours together before he died of grief. They were married for for 60 years. And And he was 88. What a fantastic love story this is? Will my my husband die within weeks of my death grieving for me?

I have seen from the families nearby that often men want to present their wives as fools in front of visitors. They scold their women women and mock their women. But essentially it seems every major decision in their houses are the women”s final words. First time in my life I saw a man shivering while having sex. Krishnan, this sweet fellow I met didn’t enjoy his sex. He was guilty g uilty.. Because he was engaged to a sweet girl called Shruthi! Can our men learn something from this? Krishnan talks a lot about Shruthi. He said he met her only for 20 minutes before the engagement and they got engaged. He says they know more about each other only after the engagement. eng agement. Isn’t it crazy? Krish wants to know what will be the name of our baby. baby. I asked him why he wants to know that. He says, I have taken an oath that my first baby will have my father’s name or my mother’s name. Technically this is my first baby. Will you name after my parents? He asked me innocently. We decided to settle down for Ram or Lalitha. Indians are sentimental. Emotional! But it seems the sentiments and emotions make this country survive the impacts from other cultures.

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India is a populous country. country. But it seems babies ba bies are not born bor n here as an a n alternative to Christmas turkeys. turkeys. Every baby is born as a result of passionate love between between a man and a woman. Unlike us, where baby process is often considered irritable. Today Raju showed me a small gold chain. He says it belongs to his h is mother. mother. His fatherr had to sell it off becaus fathe becausee of short of cash. But he retrie retrieved ved it after after he earned his first salary. salary. What type of people they are? How can such a small thing can become a focus focus of their lives? lives? Murali’s wife Praveena is a wonderful lady. How it’s possible that somebody has not declared their love for 16 years and still get married to the person they loved? loved? Praveena Prav eena talks a lot. Murali says she used to be the chatterbo chatterbox x in the school. But she never spoke a word with Murali before her marriage. WoW! WoW! I want to carry carr y Krish’s baby. baby. I want to bring him up with the same emotions as an Indian’s. Indian’ s. Is it possible? We We teach to dial 911 to call police if our parents beat us. But here in India I heard Raj’s father used to whack Raj with a leather belt during his childhood days. But Raj still loves his father. How it’s possible? We change men in our lives as our clothes. When I saw Raj’s father has kept all of Raj’s clothes, books and toys right from his first year, I was appalled. We revolve around money. They revolve around love. What if my son grows-up grows-up to be an American? American? America has money. But no love. India has no money. But love is everywhere. I know I am pregnant. I know it’s the small Krish inside.

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God Am I crazy to think Krish’s marriage should break-up and he should marry me. No. I am sorry Shruthi. Krish is yours.

I slept with Krish for the 3rd time. He is passionate with me now. After my relationship with him I don’t feel like having sex with anybody else in my life again. Will my my son be with me forever? I want him to be. When I hold his hands and teach him walking; when I hold his hand walking as a faint old lady with him! Today Krish gave g ave me his photograph before we left. He told me every baby has the right to know his father. father. If our son ever asks for his dad, tell him that it’s me. Few minutes back I asked him whether he told about our relationship to Shruthi. To my surprise, he said yes. Another thing he told me astonished me. He told me that it was Shruthi who asked him to give give that photograph to me. Hats-off Hats-off Shruthi.

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