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\µ³ Ipdntb-S¯p Xm{Xn (t\m-hÂ), `qanbnÂ t{]aapÅ Imew-hsc (t\m-hÂ), agbnÂ amem-J-am-cnd-§p¶p (I-YIÄ) F¶nh-bmWv {] kn²o-I-cn¨ ]pkvXI-§Ä. iqc\mSv Ipª³]nÅ-sb-¸än "Hcp kzÀ®-\m-W-b-¯nsâ IY', F.hn. Ip«namfpA½-sb-¸än "Ip«nam-fpA½' F¶n§s\ knUnäv ( C-Dit) \nÀ½n¨Xpw taene cmPtiJÀ kwhn[m-\w-sNbvXXp-amb tUmIyp-saâ-dnIÄ¡v Xnc¡-Ysb-gp-Xn bn«p-−v. tÌPv tjm¡p-th−n alm-ßm-Km-ÔnbpsS PohnXhpw, kzmX{ýk-achpw tImÀ¯nW-¡n tXmÂ¸m-h-¡q¯nsâ kt¦Xw Ipd-¨p-IqSn P\-Io-b-am¡n cNn¨ KmÔn¡q¯mWv asämcp cN\. sI.Sn. am[-h³\m-b-cp-tSbpw hn.Sn. ktcm-Pn\n A½-bp-sSbpw aq¯ aI³. `mcy Pm\n. a¡Ä Bh-Wn, Btá-bv. Aca\, ipI-]p-cw, ae-¸pdw PnÃ-bmWp hnem-kw. ഇ െമയിi [email protected] :


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Malayalam Language HANUMANASAM

Novel By Nandan

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IÀ¯cn{]tbmK¯n\v Hcp \Ã hmIyw-tXSn sshbmI cW-\mb l\q-am³ ]pd-¯n¯n-d-§n§n-bt¸mgmWv FIvkmIc W-\mb kp{Ko-hsâ hnfn-hcp¶Xv. kp{Ko-hmÚ¡p I®pw ImXpan-Ã. òjva{]-Xn-Ú, kp{Ko-hmÚ, ZrV{] XnÚ XpS-§nb kamk§Â {]ikvX§fmW-tÃm. dmw dmw F¶p saUn-tä-äv sNbvXv Ipc§-·mcpsS hr¯me¦mc§-fnÂ\n¶p ]pd-¯pIS-¡m³ ¡m³ l\q-am³ NphSpsh¨p. Hcp ImÂ apt¶m«v `qan-bn-epd-¨v. atä- ImÂ ImÂ ] nt¶m«v BImiw-sXm«v. cma³ F¶ _lpcmjv{S-Ip¯-IbpsS ap{ZWw incÊnep−v. GXpIS-enÂ]-Xn-¡m\mWv? Cu ktµiw incÊm hln-¡pt¶S-t¯mfw -intcmenJnXw `{Zw. h¬, Sp, {Xn. {Xo, Sp, h¬ hmepbÀ¯n ssIhn-cn¨v Igp¯p\n-hÀ¯n ImepIÄ hf-¨v.. Unw... e¦¡pÅ Z£n-Wmb\w-XpS-§n. hmbp]p{X³ _eq-Wm¡n s]mń ]´mbn FXnÀt]m Ìn-te¡p]mªp. FbÀt]mÀ«v H¶nÂ s]mń-h¶ kpck-tbmSp {iol\q-am³ tSmÄUv: dnt«¬Sn¡-äp−v äp−v. aS¡w hcmw. kpck, Nmanw-KvteUn, Nmapt−izcn ]dªp: tUm¬Spsk AÆn-[w. kln-¡m\mhp¶n-Ã. hÃm¯ Zmlw, AXn-tesd-hn-i¸v. hmSm¯ \nsâ ico-cw, hmbpth h mbpth Kw, shbnÂan-¶p¶ kzÀ®tcma§Ä... l\q-am³]-dªp: FÃmw icn, Hs¡ aS¡w aS-§n-h¶p \nhÀ¯mw. kpck k½-Xn-¨n-Ã. t\m t\m. \u ¹okv. \o kabw skäpsN-bvXpsImÄI. Aemdw-apg-§p t¼mÄ Rms\¯pw. \ns¶ ian-¸n-¡mw. apS¡whcn-Ã. tlmfntU D−mhn-Ã. imTy¯nÂ kpck kck-bmWv. ]än-Ã, ]än-Ã. Ct¸mÄ hn«pt]mIcpXv. DÅ-k-abwsIm ഹÜമാനസം

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−pDÅXp ssIbS-¡pI. A{X\nÀ_A{X\nÀ_-ÔamsW-¦nÂ kpctk, \o hmXpd-¡pI. AhfpsS A[c§fpw ]Ãpw ]pfIw-sIm−p. \mhnf-Inadn-ªp. kap{Z-XcWwXs¶. Ipd¨p e¦m]pco-aÀ±\hpw. kck-bpsS hmbtb¡mÄ l\q-am³ hfÀ¶p. ]ckv]cw hfÀ¶pw ]nfÀ¶pw c−pt]cpw {]mtZ-inII£nIfmbn. A²zm\kn-²m´w \S-¯n. {]Xo-£-bpsS sImSpapSn-bnÂ kpck ]camh[n ] nfÀ¯n. kaban-sÃ¶ HmÀ½-bnÂ l\q-am³ kzbw sNdp Xmbn. kvamÄ Cukv _yq«n-^pfmbn \mK-amXmhnsâ AI¯pIqsS ]pd¯pIS-¶p. l\q-am³ ]dªp: tZhamXmsh \ns¶ F\n-¡pth Ww. Ct¸msgsâ a\w-apgph³ koXbpw-cma\pamWv. tkmdn. AhcpsS ktµ-iw-hln-¡p¶ {SmhÂknÂ aäp et¤-PpIÄ \S-¸n-Ã. \obmWp ]n¶oSv icWw. At¶cw \nsâ ]mZ-]-ßmhXnßmhXn-bnÂ F\n-¡picWw-hn-fbn-¡¡-Ww. bm{Xbv¡pXS-Êw-\n-ev¡msXbn-cn-¡pI. Xs¶ \¶mbn ]än¨ l\q-amt\mSv kpck¡p hen-b hmÕeyw-tXm¶n. AsÃ¦nte AhÀ amXmhmW-tÃm. Nm]eyw amXm¡Ä¡p hmÕeyImcW-hpamW-tÃm. kpck k½-Xn-¨p. ]mhw. \nsâ {]iv\§Ä F\n-¡pa\Ên-emhpw. ]d-ªme\pªme\pk-cn-¡m¯ Ipsd \mK-§-sf-\n-¡pap−v. \n\¡pP-bw-t\ cp¶p. koXsb I−p Imad-{]nâv cmas\¯n-¡pI. cma³ £p`n-X\mhs«. \nsâ dnt¸mÀ«nw-Knsâ I\w-sIm−p sIm−p thWw cm£-k-cpsS `cWw-XIcm³. \nsâ _ehpw thKhpw dnt¸mÀ«vsN-¿m³ tZh·À tZh·mÀ \ntbmKn-¨XmsW-s¶. \osbs¶]-än-¨n-«pt]mhpIbmWv «pt]mhpIbmWv. F\n-¡n-jvS-ambn. \o Imcyw-\S-¯m³ tIa\mWv. awKfw-t\cp¶p. kÀÆaw-K-f-aw-Ktey Ktey kpck aS-§n-bXdn-ª-kka - p{Zw Cbmsf hoWn-«p]n«p]n-Sn¡m³]än-sÃ¶dnªp ssa\mIs¯-hn-fn-¸n-¨p. \mK-amXmhn-\p]pdsI ssa\mIw. ssa\mIw bphÀ \mIw. cmasâ satÊ-PmWv l\q-am³ am³ sIm−pt]mIp¶Xv. hI bnÂ cma³ Fsâ IpSpw-_-amWv. hIXn-cn-hnepw A§-s\ ഹÜമാനസം

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¯-s¶. Ah³ hoWpXIcpsa¶p IcpX−. `qan-bn-se I¬t{SmÄdqapambn _-Ôw-apdn-bn-Ã. LÀjWw Ah\p{]iv\aÃ. kpck-tXmä-XmWv tIkv. \o H¶p s]mń-\n¶v Ah\p hn{iaw-sImSp¡-Ww. Ai\hpw ib\hpw Hm^ÀsNbvX ssa\mIt¯mSv l\q-am³ ]dªp: ]mSn-Ã, ]mSnÃ \s½-\½Ä ]msS ad-s¶m¶pw sNbvXpIq-Sm. cmasâ Imcyamhpt¼mÄ A¯mghpw Ań-¡q«pw ] mSn-Ã. D¨-bpd-¡hpw shän-eapdp¡pw eapdp¡pw ]mSn-Ã. \nsâ hnkntä-gvkv_p¡nÂ Rm³ H¸psh¨n-cn-¡p¶p. ]ÀÆXin-Jn-c¯nÂ H¶psXm«psXm«nÃ F¶a«nÂ {XnthWo-kw-K-aw-]mSn ]mSn l\q-am³ bm{XXpSÀ¶p. kap{Z-¯nsâ ]mÀ«n-dndn-tkmÀ«pIfnÂ amdn-amdn-¯makn¡p¶ Ombm{K-lWn tIm«n-«-t]mset]mIp¶ l\qams\ t\m«-an-«p. tIm«phmbn-«p. \obmcv, {KlWn t]cn-tebpÅp, Bfv Ip¶mW-sÃm, l\q-am\p BßK-Xap−mbn. ]pd¯p aq¸À¡pw KZ-]]-Xnhp−v. \mepskân-tâXmWp]-«-bw, A¿mbncw G{IbmWv hncn-hv. hf-¨psI«p thsd-bpw. bpw. l\q-am³ ImcpWy¯nsâ kvs]jyÂ HmÀU-sdm¶pw sImSp¯n-Ã. Ahsf a®pam´pw-t]mse amń-s¸mfn-¨p. kmUnÌv AhfpsS tXbn-et¯m«w Nmbs¸mSn- bm¡n. bm¡n. t_mÀUv FSp¯pamän. t_mÀUpIÄ CÃmXm¡n. kqcy³ `qan-bpsS atä-]-IpXn-bnÂ{]-thin-¨Xpw l\qam³ kap{Z-¯nsâ atä-IcsN-¶p]-än-bXpw H¸-ambn- cp¶p. cp¶p. NcaKncn inckn-chnbpw {]thin-¨nXp Nmcpe¦mtKm]pcmt{K I]o-{µ\pw F¶p Infn-]mSp¶p−v. A¡me¯p hm¨pI−p]n-Sn-¨n-«n-Ãmbn-cp¶Xn-\mÂ kabkq-Nn-Ifmbn kqcy³, N{µ³ F¶n-hsc\n-tbmKn-¨n«p−mbn-cp¶p. X{ń-amsc \nban-¡pw-ap¼mbXpsIm−p chn-h¶n«pw ]pWymlw D−mbn-Ã. Af-hpIfpsS B[n-Iys¯ NphSpIÄsIm−p\n-jv{]-` am¡nb hnjvWphnsâ hma\³, hn.-sI.-F¶nsâ Nm¯³kv F¶n-hcpsS enÌn-te¡mWp l\q-am³ NmSn-b Xv. NmSn-sb¯n-bXv. ഹÜമാനസം

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BcmWp, GXp{_mâmWv koXm F¶p l\q-am\dn-bp ambn-cp¶n-Ã. Su¬apgph³ Aeªp\S-¶p. kzm`mhn-I ambpw Ipän-¡mSpIfn-te¡pw DuSphgn-Ifn-te¡pw Ipc§sâ PnÚmk N]es¸-«p. Nm]eyw IuXpIs¸- SpIbp SpIbp ap−mbn. \¶mbn Hcp ISbpw ]q«n-bn-cp¶n-Ã. ayqkn-b§Ä, Ad-hpimeIÄ, \£-{Xtlm«-epIÄ, PzÃdn-IÄ IÄ þ Hcphenb C³shÌpsaâpÅ ]S-amWv e¦. BsI Hcn-f¡ - w. e¦bnÂ koXsb¯n-¡-gnªØnXn¡v gnªØnXn¡v cmas\¡qSn Chn-sS-sb¯n-¨mÂ B ]mh¯n\p Im«n-eebmsXIgnbmw. koX¡p koXbpambn. e¦bn-emsW-¦nÂ ssItIbn hcn-Ã. cm£-kÀ `cn-t¨-S¯p ]ptcmK-Xn-Iq-Spw. `cW¯n\p ImTn-\yw-Iq-Spw. cma\tXsä-Sp¯mÂ temIm`n-cma \mImw. shdpsX FSp¯psIm−pt]mbn t]cp−m¡mw. Hcp an¨-_-P-äv`cWw-sIm−p e¦mkns\ Ipfn-¸n-¨pIn-S¯mw. cmaP-b. cma³]d-ªpsImSp¯ ]mkvthUv ASn¨p Ipc§³ cm£-k-e¦bnÂIS-¶p. cmasâ ImÀUv Xct¡-sSm¶pan-Ã. Ipc§-·mÀ¡p Hcp c£-bmWv. kv{Io\nÂsXfn-ª-hmIyw Ipc§sâ `mjm hn-cpXns\ AÛpXs¸-Sp¯n. shÂIwSp e£vaokv e¦. e£van koXbmsW-¶n-cns¡ CXnsâ AÀ°sa ´mWv? koX cmhW\p Iog-S-§ntbm? §ntbm? cma³ CsÎvSn-\p sImSp¯ s\mss_Âss{]kv s\mss_Âss{]kv ]n³hen-t¡-−n-hcptam? dnk-]vj\nÂ AhÄ sN¯n-bn-cn-¡pIbmbn-cp¶p. t{ImÀ]-Xn-bmhm³ hgn-hn«p e¦]q-−Ipc§³ Znt{Käv e£vansb hnc«n-hn«p: \o t{Kä-Ã, shdpw tKäpe£van. ]Sn-¸mdp. ¸mdp. e¦me£van-]-dªp: \o Hcp ]mkvthUpsIm−p e¦bnÂam{XaÃ {]thin¨-Xv. F¶n-epamWv. Ah\hÄ¡n«p Hcp Xm§pXm§n. Fs¶ \o sIm¨mt¡-−. AÃÃ, Rm³ hmkvXhw-a\Ên-em¡p¶p. \nsâ ssIbq¡pw hmeq¡pw F\n-¡pa\Ên-embn. Cu Xmeq¡v Rm³ hnSp¶p. ASn-In-«n-bmÂ B\bpw-]n-c−pho-gpw. ASn ഹÜമാനസം

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\¶mbn-cp¶p. e£van {Ukvamän-bn-dd-§n. e£van¡v `mjbnÂ ca Fs¶mcp hn]-cybw D−mbn-cp ¶p. ca bm{Xbm¡nb Ipc§sâ IY ]n¶oSv hen- bIYbIYbmbn. cabpsS bm{XAYh Ab\w ]nÂ¡me¯v cam b\w F¶mbn IYb aa IYbaa F¶p ImIfn-]mSn-s¡m −n-cp¶p. IÀ¡n-S-hn-i¸n-\sXmcp sXmcp Ijmb¡-ªn-bmbn. Rm³ \ns¶ Im¯n-cn-¡pIbmbn-cp¶p. \m·pJ³ {_ÒtZ-h\mWv Fs¶ sU]yq-t«-j\nÂ j\nÂ \ntbmKn-¨¨-Xv. cma\pambn _Ôs¸-Sp¶ HcpImcyhpw \S-¡mXn-cn-¡nÃ. koXsbsIm−ph¶XpXs¶ AXnsâ sXfnhpw apt¶mSnbpw AsÃ? F ¹m³Uv s]mfn-än-Ivkv. s]mfn-bn-Ã. t]mfn-kn-bp−v. e£van Nne Xmt¡mÂhn-hc§Ä Ipc§-\p\ÂIn. AXn-\paps¼ {]thi\m\paXn \ÂIn. ]pcmX\djy F¶p ]nÂ¡meec¯-dn-bs¸-«-cmPyw XIcp¶Xn-\pap¼v _qÀjzmkn Fs¶mcp hÀ¤-ap−mbn-cp ¶p. sbÂkn³tZhsâ AhXmcmý¯nÂ {]f-bap−m IpIbpw A¶pI− sI«pd-¸pÅcmPys¯ IS-seSp¡p Ibpw D−mbn. AXnÂ¸ns¶ ImipImÀ¡v thmUvIIn-«n¯pS-§n. \½psS IY\S-¡pt¼mÄ ¡pt¼mÄ djyXIÀ¶n-«n-ÃmbnÃmbncp¶p. B sI«pIYXs¶ DS-seSp¯n-«p−mbn-cp¶n-Ã. Ã. A¡me¯v _qÀjzmkm Fs¶mcp hÀ¤-ambn-cp¶p e¦`cn-¨n-cp¶Xv. djy¡v 30 Un{Kn sX¡v ]Xn-s\m¶mbncw tbmP\ AIse Hcp Gdp]-S-¡w-t]mse, Hcp Xangv]pen-\Jw-t]mse B{]-tZiwInSZiwInS-¶p. IrXyw-]dd - ª mÂ em¦n-¸q-¡Ä ¡Ä e¦n-¡n-ep§p¶, aq¶p tk-\IfpsSbpw No^v cmhW³ hmkvXh¯nÂ `cn-¨-Ø en. e¦bnÂ Ahsc tjmÀ«mbn cm£km F¶phn-fn-¨p. AXn-semcp {]Xybimkv{X]-camb \ne]mSps−¶pIq-SnIq-«n-t¡mfq. IS-eeIfmbn-cp¶p e¦bpsS ]mhmS-sRmdn. e¦bnse _qÀjzmkmhÀ¤w-t]mse Xnf-¨padn-bp¶ Hcp ISÂXs¶ AhÀ Npäpw Xm−n-sbSp¯p F¶p]-d-bp¶Xmhpw icn. Ncn-{Xw, `qan-imkv{Xw, koXbn-cn-¡p¶ inwin-]- bpsS bpsS am¸v F¶nh e£van-sImSp¯p. e£van-sbP-bn¨ \o e¦sb Pbn-¨n-cn-¡p¶p. ChnsS ഹÜമാനസം

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alme£van-apXÂ a®m¯n-e£van-hsc Rm\mWv. Fńt\sd Np®m¼v e£vao-hn-emkw, -ssXew e£vao-ssXew. \ns¶ Ct¸mÄ F\n¡p a\Ên-embn-¡-gn-ªp. ªp. C\n \ap¡n-hn-Ss¯ `cWw A«n-adn-¡mw. ¡mw. Cu Dt±i¯nÂ ]t− h¶pIq-Sn-bXmWv bXmWv. _qÀjzmkm cmPmhn\p acWw \nÝ-bambn-cn-¡p¶p. Ipd-¨pImew emZ³ Ifn-¨p\ S-¡-s«. At¸mtg¡pw cma\v F¯m\mhpw. am¸v Im«n-s¡mSp¯p e£van-]-dªp. cmhWsâ ]©\£-{XKmÀU-\mWn-Xv. FÃm t¹-¡p apÅ {Ku−mWv. ]eXcw-hr-£§-fp−hn-sS. AtimIh\w F¶mWv t]cv. timIIYIÄ ]eXp−n-hn-sS. sIm−phcp¶ kv{XoIsf hg-¡-a\pk-cn¨v Hmtcmac ¯-W-en-em¡pw. hg§m³Iq«m¡m¯-hsf-bmWv inwin-]Nph«n-em¡pI. sNdnb Idp¯-t_mÀUnÂ knwlf-¯nÂ ¯nÂ aª-A£-c¯n-embn-cn¡pw n¡pw inwin]m Fs¶gpXn-bn-«p−m hpI. AhnsS inwi]-Nph«nÂ _qÀjzmkm\mcn-IÄ¡n-S- bnÂ bnÂ H«pw sân-\n-kw-_m[n-¡m¯ s]s®mcp¯n-sbIm Wmw. ]«psa¯-hcn-¨n-«mepw InS-¡m³Iq-«m¡m¯ kv {Xo. ]mXn-hn-S-cm³Iq-«m¡m¯ I®nÂ cm{Xn-]-IepIÄ IepIÄ t`Zw-Im«p¶n-Ã. ]mXn-am{Xw Dbcp¶Np−pIfnÂ\n¶p ] pd-¯phcp¶ i_vZw Nq−bn-«p]n-Sn-t¡-−n-hcpw. cmaPb F¶mWv ]mkvthUv. t^jyÂsN-¿m¯ t^kv. thmbnÂkmcn. Hmbn-en-Ãm ¯-apSn. HmS-bnÂhen-¨-ico-cw. ]mhw-Ip«n. cmas\^Îv sXfn-bn-¸n-¡m\pÅ sSÌv Syq_v inip. P\n-¨-t¸msg sSÌv Syq_n-embn-cp¶p. bmKw-\S-¡p¶n¡p¶n-Xnsâ ]n¶mse Dg-hp\n-e§-fnÂ\n¶p A\mY¡p«n-Isf-InIn-«mdp−v. Chsfbpw A§-s\In«n-bXm Wv. bmK-amWtÃm cmaIY. tbmKw-sIm−v koXmcma·mÀ cmamko-Xamcmbn. IÃymWw-Ign-¡m¯ ¡m¯ alÀjn-amÀ sIm −p\S¶v cmPm¡-·msS Zm¼Xyw Ipf-am¡n. \nd-sbbmK§Ä\S-¡p¶ ImeambXn-\mÂ bmK-¯nÂ ]s¦Sp¡p¶ hÀ¡pam{Xta Ip«n-Isf In«n-bn-cp¶pÅp. A\mYIp«n-IÄ Dg-hp\n-e§-fnÂ ]q«m³hcp¶hÀ¡v I−pIn-«m³]mI ¯nÂ InS-¶p. cmÚn-amÀ cmPmhdn-bmsX {]k-hn-¨-Ip«nIfpw, cmPm¡-·mÀ¡v cmÚn-amcdn-bmsXbp−mb ഹÜമാനസം

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Ipªp§Ä¡pw Cu kwhn-[m\w c£-bmbn. hm\calmt\, \nsâ ASn-In-«n-bXpsIm−p Rm³ aS§m³ \nÝ-bn-¨pIgn-ªp. ªp. Int«−XpIn-«n-bmÂ tXmt¶ −XptXm¶Ww. AXp−mbn. cmhWsâ \miw Rm\pw aW-¡p¶p. h©n-ap§pw-ap¼v c£-s¸-Sp¶XmWp _p²n. s]®n³ ]n³_p²n F¶p]-d-bp¶p. e£van-¡Xp ap³_p ²n-bmWv. Id-Îvk-abw hnXvt{UmsN-¿pw. Bcpw XÅ-−. ZmicYnsb kq£n-¡-Ww. Ww. _p²n-D]-tbmKn-¡m\pw ¡m\pw atÞmZ-cnsb hiw-tImSp¯m\pw Ah\p]-¯pXebpw Ccp]-XpssIIfpamWv. koXamsc sIm−phcp¶XnÂ atÞmZ-cn¡p {]Xn-tj [antÃ? FXnÀ¸nsÃ? Bsc¦n-epsams¡ thsd-bp−mbmÂ cmhW-s\s¡m −pÅ aÃv Ipd-bpasÃm F¶mImw AhÀ Nnń-¨n-cn-¡pI. skmÃ Ipd-bpw. Ahcmsf-§-s\bmWv? hÃ cma³amscbpw X«n-s¡m− phcmdpt−m? A¿t¿. ]¯pNp−pw Ccp]-XpssIIfpw \qdp hncep IfpapÅ Hcmsf s]mdp¯-hÄ¡p aämsc ]nSn-¡m\m Wv. ]mXn-{hXy¯nÂ AhÄ ^pÄ{hXbmWv. atÞmZ-cn¡pthW-sa¦nÂ C¡mcy¯nÂ koXbpambn Hcp bp²w-\ S-¯mw. tlmwt]Pv Im«n-s¡mSp¯p e¦me£van. _m¡n Xm³ Hm¸³sN-bv bvtXmfmsa¶v hochr-tImZ-c tkmZc³. e¦bnÂ hm\c³ IS-¶Xpw e£van-e¦hn-«Xpw H¸-am bn-cp¶p. e¦bpsS dnkÀÆp_m¦mWv hm\c³ s]mfn-¨-Xv. cmhWsâ Cu hkv{X¯nÂ]n-Sn-¨mWv Ien-Ime¯v alm ßPn `mcXtZ-i¯v ]co-£n£n-¨-Xv. {_n«ojphmgvN-bnbn-te¡v \pg-ªpIbdpw-ap¼v hntZ-ihkv ihkv{X¯nÂ]n-Sn-¨p. Cu ]nSp ¯-¯nÂ I½o-j³]n-Sp§mw Sp§mw F¶pa\Ên-em¡n KmÔn-Im e¯n-\ptijhpw `mcXtZ-i¯v kztZ-in-]-co-£W- ap−m ap−m bn-«p−v. e¦ hÃm¯ Hcp e¦bmWv. e¦pw F¶p]-d-bp¶am Xncn an¶p¶ \K-cn. tImÂhn-f-¡v, taihn-f-¡v, ImÂhn-f¡v, s]t{SmamIvkv, amIvknaw amÀ¡v XpS-§n apgph³ ] ptcmK-a\Nn-Ó-§-fpsS {]Imihpw AhnsS I−p. A[nIw Bkz-Zn-¨p\n-¶mÂ IÅ-¸-«b¯nÂ ]nSn- s¨s¨ഹÜമാനസം

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Sp¯ `qan Xncn-¨p]n-Sn-¡m³ Ign-bn-Ã. F¶mepw H¶p Id§pIXs¶. kapZmbcmPm¡-·mcpsS Aca\IÄ, kzÀ®abamb kzm{ibt¡m«-IÄ, sImSn-ac§Ä, P¸m³knÂ¡psIm− pÅ cà]-XmIIÄ, PzÃdn-IÄ þ hmbp]p{Xs\ Imäphoin-s¡m−pt]mbn.

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s]m¡-tadnb inwin-]-bpsS Nph«nÂ P]-amebpambn koX Pe]m\an-ÃmsX Ip¯n-cp¶p. Bbn-cn-¡pw, CXmbn¡pw koXm½. acymZ-cmasâ ktµ-ihml-I³ H¶p t\m¡n. tamÌv Énw. ImemhØbpw `£-Whpw ]nSn-¡p¶p−m hn-Ã. ]«p\qÂt]mse I®p\oÀ. koXbpsS `qKpcpXzw Ipd-ªn-cn-¡p¶p F¶p apSn-bn-g-IÄ I−medn-bmw. koXsb sh¨p s]mfn-än-¡Âkv ¡Âkv Ifn-¡p¶ cmacmhW ·mtcmSp l\q-am\p Acn-iap−mbn. Ce¨mÀ¯pIÄ¡n-Sbn-eqsS A¼n-fn-sbI− hrtImZ-c³ taLambn ASpt¯ ¡p\o-§n. amKv\äv kzm[o-\apÅ sImebmfn Pbn-en-d-§n§n-hcpt]mse Hcmc hap−mbn. Hcp sNdn-bIn-ep¡w ASn-sh¨p\o-§n. koXm ½¡p kao]w h¶p. ssIhn-cepIÄ, aWn-IWvTw, tXmÄ, Ac, ]mZ-§Ä F¶n-hsbms¡ kzÀ®hpw cXv\hpw-sIm −p Ae¦cn-¨n-«p−v. A[n-I¸-ämb B`cW-§ÄHgn§ÄHgn-hm ¡n-bmÂ BÄhfsc am\y\mWv. [pw... \q]pc[z-\n-tI« koX sNhn-s]m¡n-t\m¡n. koX {]-`phpw cmhW³ Zmkn-bpambn A`n-\bn-¡p¶ shÅ-cn\mS-Iw. cmhW³ Um³kpsN-bvtX¡ptam F¶p koX`b ¶p. Hcp P·¯nÂ Fs´ms¡ ImtW-−n-hcpw? koXsbI−p koXbmbn-cn¡pw F¶p A\pam\n¨ l\q-am³ h¶ tImbn-¯¯-¼pcm³ cmhW-\mhpw F¶pw Duln-¨p. tcma§Ä IqÀ¸n-¨v, tZlw-IqÀ¸n-¨v, sNhnIqÀ¸n¨v kw`mjWw tNmÀ¯n. ഹÜമാനസം

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cmhW-{]-`phnsâ Pev]\w C§s\ tNmÀ¯n-sbSp¯p. kpµ-co, kpiote \osbm¶p a\Ê-dnªp Fs¶ t\m¡q. AÃepw Ae«pambn C½-«mbn-Ign-ªmÂ ªmÂ aXntbm \n\¡v? \o XeIp¯n-adn-ªmepw \n\¡p cma³ {]m]y\Ã. C{XZn-hk-ambn«pw AhÀ \ns¶ At\z-jn-s¨¯ntbm? thsd _Ôw-XpS-§n-bn-«p−mhptam F¶dnbptam? hÃP-´p¡fpw ]nSn-¨pXn-¶n-«p−mhpsa¶p Icp Xn-bn-cn-¡pIbmhpw. ]mÀ«nbpw Kh¬saâpw Ahs\mcpt] msebmWv. \ap¡v t`Z-_p²n-thWw. ]iphpw ]«nbpw H¶ Ã. \nsâ cma\v \obn-sÃ¦nÂ Hcp Im«mf-¯n-bmbmepw aXn-bmhpw. \obpw c−pw c−mbn ImWm³ Ign-bm¯-h fmhcpXv. s]m¶ph¶p hn-fn-¡pt¼mÄ Im¡-s¸m¶n-\pth−n t\mÂ¼pt\män-cn-¡p¶Xv. Rm³ et¦i\mWv. cmas\ X\n cma\m¡n-s¡m−p t]m¶h\mWv. aWhpw KpW-hpanÃm¯ e£vaW\v cm£-ksâ ksâ e£-WwWw-Im«n-s¡mSp¯-h \mWv. Hcp kv{Xo¡pth− kpc£-t_m[w ChcpsS Iq«¯nÂ \n\¡p−mhptam? Rm³ et¦i\mWp F¶p cmhW³ t{]a]qÀÆw ]dbp¶XptI«p et¦is\t¸mse BRvP-t\b\pw Hcp hnImcap−mbn. tXSn-bhÅn ap¶mcw-h¶n-cn-¡p¶p. \n\¡pe¦bpsS cmÚn-bmhmw. Atbm²ybnÂ AXns\m¶pw Xcs¸-Sn-Ã. Xcs¸Spw F¶pIcpXn-bmÂ ssIbn«papS-¡m³ tItIbn-bp−mhpw. bp−mhpw. \n\¡phcm\pÅ ku`mKyw XS-bm³ ap³Iq«n N{I¯nÂ hncen-«hcmWv AhÀ. sImk-d-]-dd-bm³ C\nbpw thsd s]®p§-fp− mhpw Ahn-sS. At¸msgms¡ cma³ sI«pw-]q-«n-bn- dd-§pw. \obo Iodn-bkmcn-bpSp¯paSp¯p ]n¶mse Cd-t§t§-−h fmtWm? tZh·mcpsS cmPm¡Ä¡pIqSn `àn-bpÅ-h\mWp cmhW³. temI¯n\v A`n-hµy³. FÃmck-§fpw \ncpI WvT\mbn sh¨p\o-«pt¼mÄ sNdn-bIp«n-Isf-t¸mse Duw Duw F¶phmin-]n-Sn-¡-cpXv. \miamWphmin. tamihpam Wv. F\n¡v \nt¶mSpff CjvSw Ft¶¡mfpamWv. \obnÃsb¦nÂ F\n¡v kqcy\pZn-¡n-Ã F¶ a«mbn-«p−v. Rm³ \nsâ Zmk-Zmk¸³. \osbsâ cmin. AsÃ¦nÂ Atbm²ybnÂ InS-¶hÄ F§s\ AtimIh\n-bnse¯pw? ഹÜമാനസം

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l\q-am³ ]ndp]n-dp¯p: dp¯p: Ienw-Kw-hcpt¶bpÅq. cmhW³ XpSÀ¶p: \ap¡o ImeN-{I¯nÂ {Kl-§§-fmbn {IoUn-¡mw. ¡mw. tNdnÂ\n-¶phn-cnª XmacI−ptamln-¨-h\mWv. s]m«n¨psIm−pt]m¶p. H¶pNq-Sm\mbn Im¯psI«n-¡n-S-¡pI bmW-h³. bYmÀ°¯nÂ NqVmcXv\w \nsâ Xebn-epÅ-XÃ. ap¼nÂ\nÂ¡p¶ Rm\mWv. \nsâ icocw Fsâ ssIbn-emWv. a\ÊpIqSn F\n-¡pXcWw. AXn-\pam{X \pam{X amWv kaba\phZn-¡p¶Xv. cma\pIq-Sn-bpÅ kabw CXneS-§p¶p−v. anSp¡\msW-¦nÂ apXÂ aS-¡n-sbSp¡-s«. Fsâ sse³ \n\¡pa\Ên-emhp¶pt−m? I®ocv \\¨ aq¡p]n-gnªv gnªv koX samgn-sImSp¯p: F\n-¡n-jvS-ambn ChnsS h¶XÃ. NXn-¡-s¸-«-XmWv. cma³ A§-tb¡mÄ hen-bh\mW¶v bh\mW¶v A§pXs¶ sXfnbn-¨p. thjw-amdn-h¶v ambmPmew-Im«n Fs¶sIm−phcnIbmbn-cp¶p. t\cn-Sm³ ]än-sÃ¶Xn\p CXnÂ]cw sXfnshń\v? bmK-imebnÂ\n¶p tlma{Z-hyw-X«n-sbSp ¡p¶ ]«n-sbt¸mse, ASp¡-f-bnÂ\n¶p A¸w-sIm¯n sIm¯n s¡m−pt]mIp¶ Im¡-sbt¸mse sbt¸mse e¦bpsS cmPmhv hnUvVn-thjw-sI«pIbmbn-cp¶p. F{XtamiambmWv Xm¦Ä {]hÀ¯n-¨Xv. cmP-sIm«mc¯nÂ\n¶p cmas\m¸w Im«n-te¡n-§nbhfmWv koX. cma\ÃmsX koXs¡mcp taml-an-Ã. Bfmbpw AÀ°ambpw {Zhyambpw. shdpsamcp tamjvSmhmb \ns¶ IÅ-s\¶phn-fn-¡mXn-cn-¡p¶sX ¡p¶sX §s\? DNn-XaÃm¯ {]hÀ¯-\w-sIm−p \o \mi¯n\p kzmK-Xw ]-d-ªpIgnªpIgn-ªp. ªp. D]mc§-fn-Ãm¯\miw \nsâaS-bn-te¡v Ibdn-h¶n-«p−v «p−v. \o acn-¨pt]mhpItbbpÅp. {iocmasâ aqÀO \n\¡-dn-bn-Ã. A{XjmÀ¸mWv Ahn-Ss¯ icth Kw. ichWm F¶phn-fn-t¨mSpw \o. AchW-¸mbk-amIpw \o. A\p`hn-¨-hÀt¡ Adn-bq. hnÃpIpe¨p Fs¶ t\Sn-bh\mWp cma³. C\nbpw AXmhÀ¯n-¡pw. Ncn-{XamhÀ¯n-¡pt¼mÄ e¦XIcpw. hnÃpIpe¨psIm−p \ns¶bpw \nsâ Ipet¯bpw \nsâ cmPys¯bpw apSn-¡pw. Ah³ ASn-apSn NqSma¶\mWv. ISÂImbÂt]mse Xm−n-hcpw cma³. \nsâ IS-enÂ Imbw-Ie¡pw. JUvK-saSp¯p cmhW³ Aedn: sImÃpw Rm³ ഹÜമാനസം

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atÞmZcn HmSn-h¶p cmhWsâ taÂ Xq§n. atÞmZ-cn-bpsS `À¯mhv A{X atÞmZ-c\mhcpXv. ] pcpj³ hnsÃSp¡p¶Xp BWp§-fpsS XesIm¿m\mhWw. Rm\ntÃ At§-¡v. F{Xkpµ-cn-amcp−n-hn-sS. As§m ¶paq-fn-bmÂ t]msc. Cu `mKylo-\tbmSp iàn-]-co-£W-sań-\mWv? Ahsf shdpsXhn-SpI. At§-¡pth− Xp GXpssS-¸msW-¶p]-dd-ªmÂaXn-bsÃm. _qÀjzmkm hÀ¤-¯n\p \mco-£maap−mIptam? sskkv]-d-ªmÂt] ªmÂt] msc. \n§ÄhÃXpw {]hÀ¯n-¨mÂ N¯pt]mIpw AhÄ. IYIgn-bmsX \o«n-s¡m−pt]mbmesÃ ]ckyw-In-«q. \n³sc \qdphn-cepIÄsIm−p ao«m\pÅ I«-bpt−m Cu lmÀtamWn-b¯n\v? atÞmZ-cn-bpsS X{´Ú-X¡pap¼nÂ cmhW³ Pmfy Xkzo-Icn-¨p. \mlw-Pmt\. koXbpsS ap¼nÂ ]än-bXÃ PmfyX F¶p\Sn-¨p. icn, hi¯m¡m³ c−pamkw Im¯n-cn-¡mw. Imem hØ H¶pamd-s«. \mepRmäptheIÄ Ign-bpt¼mÄ h¶pthesN-¿mw. k½-Xan-ÃmsX hÃXpw {]hÀ¯n-¨mÂ Fep¼n N¯pt]mIpsa¶mWv atÞmZ-cn-]-d-bp¶Xv bp¶Xv. AhÄ ]d-bp¶Xpicn-bmbn-cn-¡pw. Poh\pÅhcnetÃ Ic Sn-¡pXmev]-cyap−mhq. atÞmZ-cn-¡-dn-bpw-t]mse ]mse BÀ¡ dn-bmw. BÀ¡-dn-ªmepw ªmepw sImÅmw Cuk-ab¯n-\pÅnÂ Chsf ]d-ªpicnªpicn-bm¡n-s¡mÅpI. ap−papdp¡n cmhW³ aS-§n. ap−n-t·Â Ik-hmbn atÞmZ-cn-bpw. pw. C\n F\n-¡mWp _p²n-ap«v, atÞmZcn ]ndp]n-dp¯p. F¸n-tkmUv Ahkm\n-¡pt¼mtg¡p koX¡p k¦Sw_m¡n-bmbn. Cukabw {XnPS aäpIq-«pImtcmSp ]dªp: Bcw henb Bthisam¶pw Im«-−. e¦me£van bpsS sabn-ep−mbn-cp¶p. AhÄ sabn-en-\phn-«p. koX sNdnb ]mÀ«n-sbm¶paÃ. henb tImÀ¸-tdäv kt¸mÀ«p− v. h¿mthen-bnÂ NmS-−. apÅpIp¯pw. ChÄ a\Êpamdn cmhWsâ cmÚn-bmsb¶pIcpXpI. \½psS Imcyw t] m¡mWv. C\n Chsf cma³ c£n¨p cmhWs\ Fs´¦nepam¡n-sb¶pIcpXpI. At¸mgpw \½psSImcyw t]m¡m Wv. H¶phgp¡n-\n-ev¡p¶XmWp _p²n. BcptSbpw ഹÜമാനസം

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hntcm[w-th−. CS-XmtWm heXmtWm Pbn-¡pI F¶dnbpw-hsc IcpXn-bn-cn-¡pI. {]tXyIns¨m¶pw sN¿−. \½Ä shdpw DtZymK-Ø ·mcmWv. ChÀ c−pt]cpw cmjv{So-biàn-IfmWv. ImÌnw-Kvthm«phsc Imcy§-sf-¯n-tb¡mw. hnò-jW³ jW³ ap¶Wn-amdpsa¶ptIÄ¡p¶p. \msf AbmÄ apJy\mbnh¶mepw \ap¡v XethZ-\bp−mhmsX t\m¡-Ww. ]cn ]qÀ®³h¶mepw `mKykq-àw-sNmÃm³Ign-bp¶h\mWv imń-¡mc³. aq¶pØe¯pP-SbpÅ-hÄ, Ccp¼p AeÀPn-bpÅ-hÄ {XnPS bp²-¯nÂ I£n-tN-cmsX Pbn-¡m³ t\m¡p¶hfmWv. Bbp[saSp¡msX _p²n-sIm−pw \ne]mSn-Ãmbva sIm−pw bp²w-sN-¿p¶hÄ. _yqtdm{Imäv, ]pko-¡mäv, Inäv Imäv. cm£k-bphXn-IÄ¡v X§Ä¡pÅ ku`mKyw koXX «n-sbSpt¡− F¶pÅn-ep−mbn-cp¶p. ]s£ Imcyw-a\ Ên-embt¸mÄ Ahcpw {XnP-S-bpsS sse³ kzoIcn-¨p. {XnP-S¡v Pbvhn-fn-¨p. Hcp PS¡v Pbv c−pP-S¡v Pbv aq¶p PS¡pw Pbv {XnP-S-bpsS aq¶mw-ap¶Wn GsX¦n-epsamcp tNcn-bp ambn ]än-\n-ev¡pt¼mÄ Ahn-sS-\n-ev¡mw. tNcn-tN-cm\bwcm\bwXs¶bmWp \ÃsX¶v BtemNn¨v AhÀs¡ms¡ Hcme kyw-h¶p. koX¡msW-¦nÂ Dd¡-¡pd¡pd-hn-s\mcp kml-N-cyw-IqIq-Snbmbn. inwin-]-am{XamWv XeNmbv¡ms\mcn-Sw. B acw XeXn-cn-bpt¼mÄ cma\mhpw F¶hÄ Biz-kn-¨p. Bß l-Xy¡pw sIme¡pan-S-bnÂ \o§p¶Po-hnXw inwin-] bnÂXs¶ thW-sa¦nÂ Ahkm\n-¸n-¡mhp¶tXbpÅp. Iq«w-Iq-SÂ imámbnh¶p. imámbnh¶p. FÃmP-S-¡mÀ¡pw ab¡w-hoho-Wp. koXam{Xw _m¡n-bmbt¸mÄ Ipc§pcmPm inwin-]bpsSXs¶ Hcp imJn-bnÂh¶p]-Xp§n-bn-cp¶p. \mt\m sS-Ivt\mf-Pn-bp]-tbmKn¨v X\nsb sNdpXmbn-cp¶p. F¶n«p]-Xps¡]dªp. cmaPb ]mkvthUv IrXyw ഹÜമാനസം

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koXbpsS sh_vsskäv sXfn-bm³XpS-§n. ImWn-Ifp s−¦nÂ tUmIypsaâdn kocn-bem¡n hfÀ¯m\pÅ Xmev]cyw B `mjm ]SphnÂ IW-¡n-tesd-bp−mbn. ImÂ, jmÂ F¶n-§s\ BtemNn-¨n-cn-¡pIbmbn-cp¶ l\q-am³ ]d-bm³XpS-§n. (Im\pIÄ ]pcpj·mÀ¡pw jmfpIÄ kv{XoIÄ¡pw F¶ Hcp hymIcW-\n-baw D− mIpw-aps¼): temI¯nsâ \mbI\mWp kqcy³. At±lw apt¶m«p \o-§pt¼mÄ ap¼nÂIbdn-\n¶p ]pd-tIm«p\S-¶p\S¶p hnZyA`ykn-¨-h\mWp Cu cma`à³. CÔ\w-th−. tkmfmdmWv skÃv. B kqcyhw-i¯n-emWv ZicY³ P\n¨-Xv. ]¯phml-\§fpw tkmfmdn-embn-cp¶p HmSn-¨n-cp¶Xv. At±l-¯n\p \mep anSp¡-·mcp−mbn. cmatImaf³, `cXtImaf³, e£vaW-tImaf³, i{Xp Lv\tImaf³. _qÀjzmkmhÀ¤-¯n-s\Xnsc hÀ¤-k-achpambn ]pds¸-«-h\mWv cma³k-Jmhv. ]nXmhnsâ BÚ-b\pk-cn¨v At±lw Hfn-t¸mcn-\mbn Im«n-te¡n-dd§ - n. ]nXr-iqiq-\y{]hÀ¯-\§Ä kJm¡Ä¡p]mSn-ÃsÃm. ]nXmhnsâ tImf¯nÂ \qdmsf FgpXmw, F¶mepw B tImfw Imen-bm ¡n-bn-S-cpsX¶mWv hwi\n-baw. kqcyhw-i¯nsâ ]nXm hnsâ Øm\w AZzn-Xo-bamWv. kqcy³ Xs¶ tPymXn-jnIÄ¡v ]nXmhnsâ ImcIXzw hln-¡p¶p−v. Iym]vä³ ssaYn-en, koXmtZ-hn, t{XXmbpK-¯nsâ ÌmÀ]-Xnsb ]n´pSÀ¶p. t]mtc− F¶p cma\pw _te_tesb¶p koXbpw. ss]Zml-imń mń ]pÃmWv. e^väv\âmbn ssdävlmâv e£vaW\pw IqSn. Hcp lnµphÀ¤o-bhmZn-bpsS thjaWnªv cmhW³ koXsb X«n-s¡m−pt]mbn. Cd§n-¯ncn¨ cmae£vaW·mÀ hgn-¡psh¨v In«nb GIsXfn-hmb PSmbphnsâ Aýsamgn tcJ-s¸-Sp¯n. Hcp `mcy¡pth−n h¡mW-ap−m¡nb _men-kp{Ko-h ·mcnÂ Hcmsf Iq«p]n-Sn¨v aämsf Im¨n. Hcp `mcytbbpw Hcp cmPys¯bpw In«pIbpw ktlmZ-c\mb i{Xp sImÃ s¸-SpIbpw sNbvXt¸mÄ BÚmho-c\mb kp{Ko-h³ cma\pIpsd Ipc§-·mscsImSp¯p. GXpac¯n-semfn-¸n-¨mepw koXsb Is−¯-W-sa¶v ഹÜമാനസം

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BÚ-bpw-sImSp¯p. Hcp IÀ¯-cn-{]-tbmKw-tXSn eoshSp¯n-cp¶ sshbmI cW-\mb F\n¡pw hmtdmeh¶p. hmtdme hmdnte Ah km\n-¡q. \nÀ_ÔkÀÆo-kmWv. `mjmÚm\w hn\bm bn. `mjdn-bnÃ F¶p]-d-bm³ bm³ h¿mXmbn. Rm\pw thjwsI«n-bn-d§n. Ipc§-scs¡m−p NpSptNmdpamń-¡-cpsX¶p]-d-ªªt¸mÄ IcpWm\n-[n-bmb {Zmhn-U³ k¼mXn, kp{Ko-hsâ kz´w-Ig-I¡mc³ F¦nÂ \oIS-evNmSn-t¡m, koXsb k¼mZnt¨m XSn-c£nt¨m F¶mbn. R§Ä Ipsd Ipc§-·mÀ NmSn-¨mSn-\S- ¡pIbmWv ¡pIbmWv. Hcp kp\man-bnÂs]-«-t]mse Rm\n-s§¯n kap{Z-XcWw-hÃm¯ GÀ¸mSmWv. Icn-aeIbäw ITn\w. C\n aS-t§t− F¶mtemNn-¨n-cn-¡pt¼mÄ AXnepw ITn-\w. cma³ R§-sf-t¸mse XmSn-bpw-sh¨v am\k-ssat\hcq F¶p]mSn-\S-¡p¶XpI−v lrZ-bw-IoIo-dn-bn-«mWv «mWvt]m¶Xv. sshbmIcW-s\¶t]mse kwKo-XÚ-\pamWpRm³. Imänsâ apcfn-bq-Xp¶Xp F\n-¡pa\Ên-emhpw. hmbp hmWp kpjn-chmZy§-fptSbpw kwKo-X¯n-sâbpw ASnØm\w. iwJnepw apcfn-bnepw lmÀtamWn-b¯nepw Hgp Ip¶ hmbphnsâ sNdnb A\¡-§Ä {i²n¨p Rm\n-hnsS-sb¯n. ASn-b\phmbp]p{X³ Fs¶mcp sNÃt¸-cpap −v. AXptÆm, koXbpsS Np−pIÄ Xp¼¸q-hn-epWÀ¶p. ]qÀÆw cmaXt]mh\m\n Ka\w lXzmarKw Im©\w sshtZ-lo-lc - Ww PSmbpacWw kp{Ko-hkw-`mjWw _men-\n-{K-lWw kap{Z-XcWw... CXphscbmbn Imcy§Ä. e¦m]pcn-aÀ±\amWv ASp¯ AP-−v. e¦me£vansb HmSn-¨phn-«p. AhfmWv CuØew amÀ¡psNbvX D]-{K-l am¸v X¶Xv. Rm\hÄ¡p am¸p\ÂIn. hen-bk-t´mjam bn. F´psImt−m e£van I®p\o-cWn-ªp. Cuac¡q-«-«-¯n-eqsS Imäph¶p kwKo-Xw-s]mgn-¡p¶Xv ഹÜമാനസം

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inwin-]mcmK-¯n-emWv. B Xmf-¸n-g-bn-emWv Rm³ {i²bÀ¸n-¨-Xv. t{ImÀ]-Xn-sS-ÌpIfnÂ an¡-hmdpw Rm³ Pbn-¨pIbdn. `mKyw. cmaPb ChnS¶t§m«p koXbpw-P-b. tZim`n-am \nbpw koXm`n-am\n-bpamWp ASn-b³. Øm\n lnµphnepw SnIvIÀ®¯nepw kwKo-Xamb l\q-aÂ]Z-§Ä\ne¨p. §Ä\ne¨p. Xw_pcphpw ao«n-bn-Ã. Dd-¡hpw Ipfnbpw `£-ahpw ahpw sXän-¸n-cn-ªn-cn-¡p¶ koXsbt\m¡n hymP-kz-]v\§fp−m¡pIbmtWm a\ sÊ¶p koX¡pkw-ibap−mbn. tI«-X{Xbpw AachmWn-bmWv? CtXXpcmK-N-{I hÀ¯n-bmWv, ]mWn-\n-bmWv Fs¶ms¡-bmbn koX. Xsâ hncmSv]pcpjs\¡pdn¨p ]mSnb ]nSn-Xcm¯ ] pcpj\mcmWv? F\n-¡-hs\ ImW-Ww. ]pcptjm¯-am. l\q-am³ tcmam©w-sIm−v I¼n-fn-¸pX¸mbn. NoÀs¸ Sp¯v ico-c¯nsâ apSn-No-In-sbmXp¡n. Bcpw-ImWm¯ inwin-]mA´¸pc¯nÂ Hc\ys\t¸mse Im¯p\n-¶p. kt´mjw-sIm−p NmSpItbmatämsN-¿ptam F¶p` bw-tXm¶n koXbpsS ImÂ¡Âho-Wp. k\ymkn-bmbn-cp¶ cmhW³ ]pXn-bthjwsIs«-Sp¡p IbmW koXm½¡p kwibambn. Ip¼n-«n-cn-¡p¶ koXtbmSv l\q-am³ tIW-t]-£n¨p: £n¨p: ]mZ-Iae¯nÂ icWmÀ°n-bmbn h¶h\mWp Rm³. ]mZ-Iae§Ä ImWp¶n-ÃsÃm. C§-s\bn-cp¶mÂ F\n¡v \akvIcn-¡m\mhptam? koX¡pNn-cn-s]m«n: AXpcmhW³ Acn-ªn-s«m¶pan-Ã. Acn-hmfnsâ Bfv e£vaW-\mWv. koXbpsS ]mZ-§Ä §Ä Bain-cÊmbn apt¶m«p\o-§n. At½, N]-e\mWpRm³. tImk-ecmasâ Zmk-Zmk-¸\mWv. ]g-b\Ivk-sseämsW-¦nepw Ct¸mÄ cmasâ GPâmWv. _menbpw kp{Ko-h\pw {Kq¸pIfn-¨-Ime¯v Ime¯v kp {Ko-hsâ ôÂUn-ep−mbn-cp¶h\mWpRm³. Im]-Syw-A dn-ªpIq-Sm¯Sm¯-h\mWv. koXapgph\mbn Ahs\t\m¡n. Ipsd-¡meambn Hcpk-Zyt]msebpÅ kwkmcw-tI«n-«v. \chm\cap¶Wn-bpsS sFXnlyw F´mWv? BcmWnXnsâ AUvtlmIvI½nän? ഹÜമാനസം

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FÃmän\pw ImcWw Bhn-S-¶mWv. Ahn-S¶mWv ssl¡-amâv. koX¡pk-am[m\ambn. Xs¶ ad-¶n-«n-Ã. hntZ-i _Ôw Btcm]n-¡msX ssl¡-amâmbn AwKo-Icn- ¡p¶p ¡p¶p −v. Cu tI« tdUn-tbm{]-`mjWw F\n-¡n-jvS-ambn. {] t£-]-I³ Bcmbmepw apJw-ImWn-¡q. apJ-ZmhnÂhcq. `bhpw `ànbpw l\q-ams\ C¡n-fn-Iq-«n. «n. l\qam³ Hcp NphSpapt¶m«pNmSn koXsbsXmgpXp \akvIcn-¨p. GgpNpäp{]-Z-£n-WwsN-bvXp. l\q-am³ hÃmsX sNdpXm bn. \mWn¨v hmÂsIms−mcp hr¯w-hc¨p. CXmWphn-\bw. Ch³ ]Þn-X\pw sshbmIcW\pw kwKo-XÚ-\pw-am{XaÃ, hn\b¯nsâ hey¸q-¸¸-\pamWv. Al-¦cn-¡pt¼mÄ inctÊmfw. hn\bn-¡pt¼mÄ ]mZwhsc. A§-s\bmWv Ipc§-¨mcv. H¶pInÂ Imep]n-Sn¡pw. AsÃ¦nÂ Igp¯p]n-Sn-¡pw. c−n\pw e¦bnÂ kvtIm¸p−v. koXm½-bp−v, ]mZ-\akvImc¯n-\v. AhnSs¯ ]mZ-§ÄaXn. §ÄaXn. cmhWsâ ap¼nÂ BImit¯mfw Al-¦mcw-Im«mw. Iznän-ýmIme¯v BImi¯nsâ {Kmkvdq-«phsc «phsc I− h\mWv l\q-am³. ]s£ H¶pw {i²n-¨n-cp¶n-sÃ¶XmWp k-Xyw. e¦bnse¯pwhsc tatem«v t\m¡n-bn-Ã. t\m«w Ft¸mgpw e¦¡mbn-cp¶p. Hcp_p²n-Po-hn-a«v. ]ns¶ t\m«w IS-en-te¡mbn-cp¶p. IS-ensâ {Kmkvdq«pw I−n-Ã. AsÃ¦nepw {Kmkvdq«v F¶p]-d-ªmÂ ]d-bm\p bm\p ÅXpw ]Wn-sbm¶pan-Ãm¯-t¸mÄ ]d-ªpP-bn-¡m\pap Å-XmWv. IÀ½-¯n¯n-teÀs¸-Sp¶h\p HmÀt¡-−Imcyan-Ã. thsd IÀ½-sam¶pan-Ãm¯-XpsIm−v ImdÂalÀjn {Kmkvdq-«n«n-s\¡pdns¨mcp aqe[\thZw-cNn-¨p. km[\w-a\ Ên-emIm¯-hÀ¡pth−n AXp\mS-Iam¡n. ]ns¶ \mS Iw-Ifn-Xs¶bmbn. CXphsc koXm½-tI« tdUn-tbm{]-t£-]]-Ww-sN sN bvXXv Cu Ipc§-¨mcmWv. Ahk-Xyhn-cp²-asÃ¶pw D¯-ahn-izmk-t¯mSpIq-Sn-bpÅbpÅ-XmsW¶pw CXn-\mÂ {] Xn-Ú-sN-¿p¶p. Ah Ne¨n-{XKm\§Ät]mse Bkz-Zn¨pF¶dn-bp¶XnÂ kt´mjap−v. \obmcmWp hm\cm. sXÃp i¦{]-ISn-¸n¨p koX. koXbpsS DÅnÂ Hcp am³t]-S -t]Sn-t¨mSn. \obmcmWp ambmhn-bmtWm?, cm£-k-eo-ebÃm F¶v ഹÜമാനസം

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F§s\ Dd-¸n-¡m\mhpw? Ipd-¨pap¼p Chn-sS-\n-¶n-d-§n t¸mb cm£-k-cmPmhv thjw-amdn hm\c\m-bn-h¶ XmtWm? ZpxJ-§Ä Hcp inwin-]mhr-£-ambn FsâIq-sSbp−v. AXnÂXesh¨v cmaP-]-hpambn-Ign-bpIbmWv Fsâ Zn\cm{X§Ä. cm£-k-kv{Xo-IfpsS tIm{]m«n-¯-c §Ä thsd. CuIn-S-¶pd-§p¶hsbm¶pw §p¶hsbm¶pw ih§-f-Ã. Poh³sh¨ tNjvS-IfmWnh. Fs¶ k½-Xn-¸n-¡m\pÅ ¡m\pÅ SoamWv. {XnPS, kn¦nÄP-S, Bekyw XpS§n ]et]-cn-epÅhÀ. cm£-k-cmPmhv Xsâ Nm]-eyw-{]-ISn¸n-¡m³h¶n«v ¡m³h¶n«v A [nIw t\cambn-Ã. AXn\p]pdsI h¶n-cn-¡p¶ Ipc§³ cm£-k-\sÃ¶p Rms\§s\ IcpXpw. hn\bw-hen-bamb bmhp¶ kµÀàp−mhnÃ F¶p]-d-bms\m¡ptam? koX Xe ImÂap«pIfn-te¡pXn-cn-¨psh¨p Xes]m¡n sÃ¶pI«mbw-Im«n-bt¸mÄ l\q-am\phn-jaambn. ISÂNm Sn-¡-S-¶ph¶Xv Cu]-cn-`hw-ImWm\mtWm? mWm\mtWm? Xm³ NmSn-bISÂ F{X\n-ÊmcamWv? Cu kv{Xo A\p `hn-¡p¶IS-en-\pap¼nÂ AsXms¡ shdpw ImbesÃ? cmtaiz-cw-þe¦m ZoÀLZq-ckÀÆokv F¶p]-d-bmtam? Dg hpNmenÂ\n¶p P\IsIm«mcw, ZicYsIm«mcw-hgn cm£k-sIm«mcapäwþ CukÀÆokv F{X`b¦camb lnameb bm{XbmWv. Hcp k\ymknbpw Iq«n-Ãm¯ Bßo-bbm{X bbm{X cmaa{´w-sIm−mbn-cn-¡Ww kêamhp¶Xv. cmacmam koXm`n-cmam... A`n-cma... temtIiz-co, Ahn-Ss¯ kNn-h\mWpRm³. cma]-Xv\nsb kpµ-cn-sb¶phn-fn-¡p¶XnÂ hymIcW ¸n-iIpt−m F¶p l\q-am³ Nnń-¨p. Ct¸mgmhiyw B apJw apJw ImÂap‑ ImÂap‑ «pIfnÂ «pIfnÂ\n\n-¶pbcpIb ¶pbcpIbmWv mWv. Bibhn-\n-abw-Ir-XyasÃ¦nÂ Cuhchv shdpw-Ipc §pIfn-am{Xamhpw. Hcp IÀ½-Wn-{]-tbmKhpw Dcp¯n-cn-bnÃ. kpµ-co-F¶ hnfn-tI«mÂ Dbcm¯-kv{Xo-apJ-an-Ã. GXphn-cq-]m£n-tbmSpw {]tbmKn-¡mhp¶ Aä-ssIbmWXv. ]ns¶ knXtbmSn-XpsN-¿p¶XnÂ A]mIXbn-Ã. kwkmcn-¨pKuchw-ssIhcpt¼mÄ A]mIXbp−mbn-cp s¶¦nÂ AXp kzbw ]cn-lc - n-¡s - ¸t«- ¡pw. ¡pw. Cub½ apJ apbÀ¯-Ww. Imcy¯nsâ KuchapÄs¡mÅ-Ww. tem¡ÂI½nän CS-s]-«pXoÀt¡-−Xn\v t]mfn-äv_yq-tdmh cW-sa¶phcp¶Xv icn-bÃ. C\n kJmhpcma³ h¶phn-fnഹÜമാനസം

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¨mepw \o ambmcma\msW-¶p]-dªv apJw-]q-«n«n-Xmt¡mÂ ImÂNph«nÂsh¨mÂ IY Bân-ss¢amIvkmIntÃ? ] nń-cn-¸³iàn-IÄ¡sÃ Ä¡sÃ AXpKpWw-sN-¿q. kÀÆtemI¯-½-amXmth, kpµ-co, Fs¶ kwibn-t¡−. tImk-teiz-csâ Zmk-Zmk-¸¸\ - mWpRm³. hm\c·m cpsS Ae¦mchmemb almcmPmhv kp{Ko-hsâ Hcphmem WpRm³. kqcy]p{X\mWv kp{Ko-h³, Rm³ hmbp]p{X \mWv. R§Ä Ipc§-·mÀ {]Ir-Xn-bpsS a¡-fmWv. t\sc sNmsÆbmWp Uoenw-Kvkv. R§Ä \tcm¯-asâsbm¸w IqSn-bn-«pÅ-hcmWv. \c·mÀt\À¡pt\À Imcy§Ä\S¯m³sImÅp¶hcÃ. cm£-k-am^n-bsbt\cn-Sm³ R§fpw-Iq-Sn-thWw. {]Ir-Xn-kvt\ln-Ifpw Ifpw {]mIr-X·mcpw-IqSn Htcäpap «Â\S-¡pw. `hXn AXn-\p\n-an-¯-ambXmWv. Ahn-S-s¯-P ·w-Xs¶ {]Ir-Xn-bn-emWv. {]Ir-Xn-hn-f-bn-s¨-Sp¯-hfmWv koX. a®n-emWphn-¯v. Ct¸mÄ ac-t¨m«n-emWv. \½Ä {]Ir-Xn-kvt\ln-IÄ IÄ C\n Hcp Im¨pIm¨pw. At½, tZho, almamtb, ambmko-tX, cmatamlntX Nm]-eyap−mhmw. Im]-Syap−mhn-Ã. CXpd-¸v. t\Às]-§-fmWv, Imhn-e½-bmWpk-Xyw. koX¡p DÅpIpS-ªp. Ch³ `mjbpsS Fgp¯-Ñ-\m Wv, ]mWn-\n-bmWv, ]m¡\mcmWv, ]m\o-kmWv. Bßhnizmkwiz-kn-¡p¶ kpJ-ap−v. anen-«-dn-Iym¼v dneo-^vIym¼mhpI bmtWm? koX¡p]-dd-bmXn-cn-¡m³Ign-ªnÃ : t{ijvTm, IÀ¯mhpw IÀ½hpw A\p\mkn-Ibpw hÀ®hn-thN-\hpw \n\¡p\¶mbdn-bmw. \o `mjmam jmtWm? Ip¯pw-tImabpw hf-fnbpw ]pÅnbpw hnkÀ¤hpw h«-¸qPyhpsams¡ \¶mbn-«p−v. Fs¶¸n-cnª cma\p kmln-Xyw-Ibdn-¡q¡q-Sntbm? Sntbm? \o cmasâ ]pXnb Syqj³amjmtWm? Rm³ t]mcpw-hsc \ns¶ I−n-«n-Ã. sFUân-än-¡mÀUv ImWn-¡p¶XpsIm −v hnjaapt−m? kwibn-¡p¶Xp]m]-amWv. B]-¯n-e Is¸-«pIgn-bp¶ F\n¡v kpc£m{Iao-IcW-§Ä ]men¡mXn-cn-¡-h¿. Xnf-¨shÅ-¯nÂ hoW-hfmWpRm³. \o ]¨-shÅ-ambn-cn-¡pw, D¸pshÅw IS-s¶¯n-bh\mbncn¡pw ]s£ Fsâ C¶s¯ am\kn-ImhØbnÂ ]¨ ഹÜമാനസം

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shÅw-I−mepw `bamWv. `tbmÀat²y F¶mWpØnXn. tIÄ¡pIkpµ-co. tjmÀ«mbn ]d-bmw. tUmIypsaâdn{i²n-¡q. amco-Nsâ Poh³ A¼nÂap¡n-sbSp¯paS-§n-b cma³ cmLh³ B{ia¯n-se¯n-bt¸mÄ D−mbXphn-hcn-¡-h¿. Hcp kzÀ®am\n-\p]n-¶mse t]mbbmÄ¡p kz´w-am\ns\ \jvS-ambn. B{ia¯n-sâ Npäpw-t\m¡n. h\w Acn-¨ps]-dp¡n. hnfn-¨n«pw hnfn-¨n«pw hnfn-tI«ntI«n-Ã. am\k-ssat\ hcq, cma³ \o«n-¸mSn. ]m«n\p apdp]m«mbn sNdn-baq-fÂtI«p. AsXmcp R-c ¡-ambn-cp¶p. {]mbw-sIm−p Nnd-Ipapf¨ PSmbp a®nÂ kz´w-tNmc ]ibm¡n H«n-¡n-S¡pIbmbn-cp¶p. cmhW³ Acn-ªpXq-¡nb ico-c¯nÂ\n¶p cma\pÅ-k-tµiw ] nSn-s¨-Sp¯p. koXm½ A]-ll-cn-¡-s¸-«n-cn-¡p¶p. C\n-sbs¶ sIm¶pXcn-I. thZ-\sIm−pk-ln-¡m\mhp¶n-Ã. Poh\pw thZ-\bpw-am{Xam¡n Hcp icocw C«pt]mIcpXv. Fs¶ sIm¶pXcn-I. hn¹-hw-P-bnbn-¡-s«. Kdn-ÃbpsS A`n-hmZy §Ä. ap¡mepw cmhW³ apgpan-¸n¨ tam£-IÀ½-¯n\p cmasâ ssI{In-bIqSn th−n-h¶p. H¶p XtemSn. Nnd-Icnª ]£n-bmbn PSmbp {iocmaN-{µs\ H¶p t\m¡n. càkm£n-bmbn. cmae£vaW-·mÀ At\z-jW-t¯mSp At\z-jW-ambn. CXn-\n-S¡v C¶m]nSnt¨m F¶p]-dªv I_Ô\pw i_cn¡pw [rXn-bnÂ Hmtcm tam£w-sImSp¯p. hnfn-¨n«pw hnfn-¨n«pw I−nÃ F¶Xnsâ HcpXcw hmin-XoÀ¡Â. i_cn Ahkm\izmk-¯nÂ ]dªp: Ejyaq-ImN-e¯n-te¡pt]mbn-t\m¡q F¦n-ehnsS. Ahchn-sS-t]mbn-t\m¡n. c−p`mKymt\z-jn-IÄ, bphtImaf-·mÀ, At¼ń hntÃń AeªpXn-cn-bp¶ps−¶p Câen-P³knse kp {Ko-hsâ Nmchn-`mKw dnt¸mÀ«psN-bvXp. kp{Ko-h³ ^bÂ F\n-¡pamÀ¡psN-bvXp. Rms\mcp ap\n-Ipamc\mbn. AhitImaf-·mscsN-¶p I−p. kÔn-sN-bvXp. c−pNpaenepw Hmtcmcp¯-scsh¨v kp{Ko-hsâ Hfn-¯mhf¯n-se¯n-¨p. ഹÜമാനസം

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slen-tIm]vSÀtbmK-amWv Fsâ ssIshÅ-bnÂ. Hcp k-ap{Zw-sIm−pIgpIn-bmepw ssItcJ-amdn-Ã. Xebn-se gp¯p apSn-IfRmÂt]mhn-Ã F¶ptI«n-«n-sÃ. ssItcJ-amdn-Ã. D¸p]-äpIbpanäpIbpan-Ã. koXm½ZpxJw-{]-ISn¸n-¨p. Fsâ intcmtcJ-t]mse. Chn-sS-h¶n«v apSn-\¶mbnsImgn-ªpt]mIp¶p−v. \½Ä D¸pISÂIS-s¶¯n-bhcmWv. kamćambn-t¸mb c−ptcJ-IÄI−pap«pIbmbn-cp ¶p, Iq«nap«pIbmbn-cp¶p. koXbpsS kwibw-amdn-¯pS¯pS-§n. AhfpsS A[c¯nÂ Hcpag-hn-Ãvsam«n-«pt]mbn. kam \ZpxJ-§Ä kwK-an-¡pt¼mÄ ¡pt¼mÄ {]Xy£-s¸-Sp¶ A]qÀÆa g-hnÂs¡mSn-bmbn-cp¶p AXv. a\Ên\p a\Êns\ a\Ênemhp¶ A]mcaplqÀ¯w. B ag-hn-Ã\p ]Ým¯-eambn eambn aªnsâ t\À¯-hben³ i_vZ-ap−mbn. hbe³kp XWp¯pIn-S-¶p. Hfn-¯mhf-¯nÂsh¨v Rm\pw-e£vaW\pw H¶pw-c− pw-km£n-Ifmbn `mcy\jvS-s¸« c−pt]cpwX½nÂ Icmdp −m¡n. X§-fpsS XIcmdpIÄ ]cn-l-cn-¡msa¶mbn-cp¶p Icmdv. ]ckv]cw `mcyamsc Xncn-¨p]n-Sn-¡p¶Xn-\Å t] mcm«-¯nÂ klmbn-¡msa¶v. klmbw F¶p]-d-ªmÂ Bfv, AÀ°w, ssIbq¡v, X{´w. kp{Ko-h\p F¶n«pw kwibw-_m¡n-bmbn. cma\v A{X kàn-bp−mhptam? cma\sÃ tam³. _men-sIm¶n« Zpµp`n-cm£-ksâ ihw ]ÀÆX ¯nÂIp¶mbvIq-\n-t·Â IpcpIfn-¨pIn-S-¶n-cp¶p. CS-Xp Imensâ XÅ-hn-cÂsIm−v AXpk-ap{Z-¯n-te¡v Fän-ho gv¯n. CXpI−v hnbÀ¯pt]mbn kp{Ko-h³. cmas\sI«n-¸n-Sn¨psIm−p]-dªp: `mcyt]mbmse´m, \ns¶ I−tX`mKyw. l´`mKywP-\m\mw. (C\n P\§Ä¡pw `mKyap−mhs«) cma\phÃmXmbn. {]IS-\w-\nÀ¯n\nÀ¯n-bn-Ã. heXphn-cÂsIm−p As¼bvXp GgpIcn-¼\IÄhogv¯n. ImÂ¡-fnfn-bmWn-Xv Xv. ^pÄ¡-fn-Fs´ms¡-bmhpw F¶pNn-ń¨p kp{Ko-h³ k_q-dmbn. ഹÜമാനസം

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aäpÅ-hcpsS Imcy¯nÂ At¼dpwh¼mWv {iocmaN{µ-\v. kp{Ko-hsâ ]Þn-Xbpw kpµ-cn-bpamb `mcysb kzm[o-\am¡n b _mensb ad-hnÂ¯n-cn-hnÂ Imh SnbmSnbpw HmSn-b³Ifn¨pw cma³Xs¶ sIm¶psImSp ¯p. kz´w-`mcybpsS `À¯mhns\ sIm¶p, ktlmZ-cs\ sIm¶p F¶ A]-cm[§-fnÂ\n¶p kp{Ko-h\p tam£wsImSp¯p. Ifn-¸m\mbv Injv¡n-Ôbpw Ipfn-¨psN-¶Iw-] q-Im³ Xmctbbpw sImSp¯p. cmacma]mln-amw. aq¶v: e£w-Ipc-§p]²Xn

kp{Ko-h\pw tamiam¡n-bn-Ã. ]pXn-bcmPym[n-Imchpw lWn-aqWpw Xocpam\saSp¡m³ Aamń-¨n-Ã. koXm½sb At\z-jn-¡m\mbn ¡m\mbn Hcpe£w-Ipc§p]²Xn \S-¸m¡n. BsI Zn¡pIsf \membn-]-Ip¯p. HmtcmZn-¡n-te¡pw Hmtcme£w-Ipc§-·msc hmenÂIn¡n-fn-bm¡n Ibän-hn-«p. «p. Ibdmw adnbmw BSmw F¶a«nÂ \mepe£w-Hgn-ªpt]mbt¸mÄ kp{Ko-h\p H¶p ]mSmsa ¶mbn. Cu ssk\ys¯ Chn-sS-sh¨ps]mdp¸n-¨mÂ Fs´¦nepw {]iv\§-fp−m¡n-s¡m−n-cn-¡pw. ]pXpa[p hn-[phn-\n-S¡v Ibdn-h¶p Cfn-¨pIm«pw. skmÃ Hgn-hmIpw, hmIpw, XeØm\w hr¯n-bmIpw. Hc¼n\p cmjv{So-b¯n-sâbpw cmPyX{´Ú-XbptSbpw c−p]£n F¶mWpIW¡v. IÀ¯-cn-{]-tbmKw tXSn-bnd-§nb l\q-am\v C¯cw ] e {]tbmK-§-fpsS A\p`h§-fp−mbn. CXnÂ Hcp skänÂ l\qam\mbn-cp¶p t\Xr-Xzw. ]pd-s¸-«-«t- ¸mtg cma³hn-fn-¨p. ¨p. cmaP-b. BZyw-cma³ HchnÂs¸mXn-X¶p. F¶n-«p]-dªp: \n\ ¡pISÂNmtS-−n-hcpw. Ai\ib\§ÄIq-SmsXIgn-¡p I. AhnÂIgn-¡pI F¶Ã, Imcyw-Ign-¡pI. hni¡p t¼mÄ s]s«¶p Zln-¡m¯ Ahn-emWv \ÃXv. hgn-¡p \n¶p AXpan-Xpw-hm§n-¡-gn-¡-cpXv. hbÀtISphcp¯-cpXv. Ahn-S-hn-sS-X§-cpXv. AhnÂ Rm³ a{ń-¨pDuXn-bXmWv. ഹÜമാനസം

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ISÂsNmcp¡n\pw AeÀPn¡pw AhnÂ\¶v. ]ns¶ {iocma³ Hcp tamXn-cw-X¶p. Pbn-¡pw-ap¼p k½m\w Fń-\msW-¶ptNmZn-¨p. \n\t¡ Ahn-sS-sb¯m³Ign-bq. Cu tamXncw koXm tZ-hn¡p \ns¶ a\Ên-em¡m³th−n HcS-bmf-amWv. IrXyambn Hcp sXfn-hn-sÃ¦nÂ B apJw sXfn-sª-¶phcn-Ã. A`n-apJhpw \S-¡n-Ã. a®n-sâaIfmW-hÄ. HcpI SÂsXfn-hp−mbmepw ]pg-bpsS {]kmZw-In-«nbn-sÃ¶ph cpw. ASn-b³Nn-ń¨p: C§-s\sbms¡s\sbms¡-bmhpw Hmtcm cp¯tcmSpw ]d-bp¶Xv. a¦n-tam«n-thjsâ Bim\mWv Fsâ Bim³. A¸Ä ASn-b³ tNmZn¨p: A§p\mepe£w-tamXncw sImSp¯-b¡p¶pt−m? C {Xhenb kzÀ®J\n kzámtWm? P\tImSn-IfpsS IfpsS hniz-kvXPz-Ãdn-bpt−m? {iocmaN-{µ³]-dªp: hnUvVn-¯w-]dd - -bcpXv. aqt¶ap¡mepw \osbmgn¨v Imepw ImÀ¤n-enÂ hocar-Xyp{]m]n-¡pw. kp{Ko-hsâ P\ {]n-b]-cn-]mSn-t\m¡-−. \o−bp²w-Ign-ªv ªv A[n-Imc¯nse¯nb kp{Ko-h\nÂ Aan-X{]-Xo-£-bmhpw Ipc§·mÀ¡v. AXpt−m\S-¡p¶p? PbcmP, PbcmP F¶p tIÄ¡pt¼mgs¯ kpJw Ahn-S-¶t§m«p−mhW-sa¶n Ã. A[n-Imc¯n-sâbpw k¼¯n-sâbpw Hcp apJ-kvXpXnam{XamWXv. \ne\nÀ¯pI AXo-hZpjvIcamWv. cmaP-b. BtamXncw sIm−ph¶n-«p−v. koXm½ hnam \¯nÂ\n-s¶dnª PzÃdn-t_mIvkv kp{Ko-h³ cma\p sImSp¯n-«p−v. AXpI−pcma\v hen-bk¦S-ambn. koX¡pk-¦S-ambn. tamXn-camWp_-Ôw. AXp aS-¡p IbmtWm? F¶mepw kvacW-IfpsS Hcp ]©hmZyw-AhÄ¡pÅnep−mbn. Fs´ms¡tbm A¼pIÄ Fhn-sS-sbms¡tbm Xd-¨p. koXm½-¡pap¼nÂ l\q-am³ am³ `àn-]qÀÆw tamXn-cw-kaÀ¸n¨p. koX ssIhn-«-apXÂ I−pIn-«n-b[r-Xn-bnÂ AsXSp ¯p. koXm½ tamXncw ]cn-tim[n-¨p. ഹÜമാനസം

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cmaap{Z-bp−v. sXmÅmbn-c¯n-¸-Xn-t\gmWv kzÀ®w. X«m³ sIm¯n-b\maw `{Z-amWv. Im©\w Im©\w _ÔphmWv. koX `À¯mhnsâ HmÀ½-bnÂ ]pf-In-Xbmbn. tamXncw incÊnÂsh¨p. F\n-¡nXp shdpw tamXn-caÃ, X¦s¯m¸n-bmWv. I¬ap¶nÂ\n¶p \ocpd-hs]mÅ-\n-«p. cmacma F¶ \oÀ¯pÅn Naªp. l\q-am³ ]dªp. Fsâ Imcyhpw A§-s\¯-s¶. X¦s¯m¸n-Xs¶. XebnÂsh¨mWp Fgp¶Å-¯p\S-¯n¯n-bXv. CXhn-Ss¯ Ss¯ `àn-]qÀÆw Gev]n-¨t- XmsS Fs´¦nepw t]m¡n-cn-¯c §Ä\S-¯m³ tXm¶p¶p−v. C\n-\nÀ¯n-s¡m«pw ioth en-bpsams¡ ]pd-¯pIS-¶n¶n-«pthWw. `mKyw tZhnsb I −sÃm. c−p\£-{X§Ä I−pap«pw-hsc F\n-¡phn-{ia an-Ã. hm\c³ c−Sn ]pd-Ipsh¨p. cma³ sImSp¯-b¨ AS-bmfbmf-hmIy§Ä hm\c³ s] m¡n-¸n-Sn-¨p. koXm½bpw hn«psImSp¯n-Ã. {]mNo-\kvacW-IÄ IÄ XnI«n-Xn-I«n-hcn-Ibmbn-cp¶p. Xncph¼mSnbpw ]md-ta¡mhpw-t]mse A¸gv¡¸tg kvacW-IfpsS IpS-amäw-\S-¶p. ¶p. H¶n-s\m¶v koX ]qÀÆImekvacW-bn-tes¡mgpIn. amb¡pg-¸-§ÄIqSn ]cn-KK-Wn¨v Nne AS-bmf-hmIy §ÄX¶b¨n-«p−v koXmt½. ]d-bq, l\q-am³. h\hmkw Un¢bÀsNbvX ss¢amIvknÂ, ZicY³ XeNpän-ho-gp¶ ko\n-\paps¼, koXm½ ap³]n-¶mtemNn¡msX, thjw-amdmsX {Ko³dq-anse AtXthj¯nÂ tÌPn-tet¡mSn-h¶p. hoÀ¸pap«p¶ B ØeImecminbnÂ tZhn Hcp]-Zw-am{Xw ]ehpcp samgnªp: Rm\pw. Rm\pw hcs« F¶v hywKyw. icn-bsÃ? icn-bmWp l\q-am³. t]mc− _mte F¶p cma\pw Xmcm«p]mSn. B B«-en-\paps¼ Rm\t±l-¯nsâ sXm«nembn-cp¶p. Ct¸mÄ act¨m«n-embn. c−mas¯ AS-bmf-hmIyhpw l\q-am³ ssIamdn. ഹÜമാനസം

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\Kcw-hn-«p. F¶mÂ ImsS-¯n-bn-Ã. A§-s\\S¡pIbmWv aq¶pt]-cpw. At¸mgXm ImWp¶p Hcp Ipän-¡mSv. `hXn-]-dªp: CXpImSmbn- ¡-W¡m¡-Ww. Ww. icn-bmWp l\q-am³. Xmak-Øew XS-¦em¡n {]Jym ]n-¡p¶sXms¡ cmPm¡-·mÀ¡n-S-bnÂ ]Xn-hpÅ-XsÃ? Rm\Xp]-d-ªp. ªp. F\n-¡msW-¦nÂ H¶pIgn-¨pIq-«m³ [rXn-bmbn-cp¶p. At¸mgpw cmta«³ Fsâ s]m¶pkzman Ft´mXS-Êw-]-dªp. ª p. _mte F¶p]mSn. Fsâ apJw hmSn. C\n-bpap−v tZho AS-bmf-hmIyw. ]dbq l\q-am³. tIÄ¡p¶tX]pWyw. Poh³Xn-cn-¨p In-«p¶Xpt]mse. GXS-bmf-hmIyamWv A§tbmSp]-dªXv. Ahn-Sp¶v tZho, cmasâ hncense IÃptamXncw Ducn¡-fªntÃ? F¶n-s«mcp ]{X¡pdn-¸pan-d-¡n. ¡n. IÃp]-Xn-¨-tamXncw amXncw dmWn¡v B]-¯p−m¡pw. ¯p−m¡pw. Icn-¼m d-bnÂ cma]mZw-]-Xn-ª-t¸mÄ Al-eymkpµcn hncn-ªp. Cu cXv\¡-Ãn-se§m\pw ]mZw -sXm«mÂ cXv\¡-ÃnÂhnÃnÂhncnª Ihn-Xbmbn Hcp kpµ-cn-bp−mbmÂ. Ak-ab¯v aWn-bd-bnÂ Hcp kpµ-cn-sbImWm³h¿. icn-bmWp -l-\q-am³. icn-bmWv. hfsc icn-bmWv. A§-s\Rm³ Xami Imcyambpw Imcyw Xamibmbpw]dªp. GXpkv{Xo-bmW-Xpk-ln-¡pI. ¡pI. AleybpsS IY sbms¡ tIÄ¡p¶hÀ¡psImÅmw. tIÄ¡p¶hÀ¡psImÅmw. GI cma{hXw -A\p jvTn-¡p¶ F\n-¡-sXm¶pw ]nSn-¡n-Ã. atÞmZ-cn-bÃsÃm Rm³. Rm³t]m¶tijwXs¶ i_-cym{ia¯nÂsN¶p tPyjvTm\pP-·mÀ Ft´m Ceń-¸-gw-hm§n-¯n¶p ¯n¶p Fs¶ms¡ ]d-bp¶XptI«p. th−m¯-sXms¡ Chn-sSbn-cp¶mepw Adn-bpw. th−sXm¶pw Adn-bn-Ã. XS- hnepw hnepw kam[m\an-Ãm¯ Pohn-Xambn-t¸mbn. F´psN-¿mw. F\n¡msW-¦nÂ Fsâkzman cmta«-\nÃmsX h¿. Fs´m s¡-bmbmepw F\n-¡n-jvS-amWv. Hcp]mSn-jvSw. AXpsIm −p−mhp¶ Acn-jvS-ambn-cn-¡mw. F¶mepw F´mbmepw Fsâ amc³ cma³Xs¶. CsXms¡ tZhn¡pw cma\pw- am {Xadn-bp¶ cl-ky§-fmsW¶p cma³ {iocma³ {iocmaNഹÜമാനസം

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{µ³ ]d-ªª-b¨n-«p−v «p−v. icn-bmWp l\q-am³. CsXms¡-Rm\o cm£-kn-Ifp Ifp ambn N§m¯w-Iq-Sm³th−n-t¸mepw ]d-ªnªn-«n-Ã. CXp]p d-¯-dndn-bp¶ GIhyàn \obmWv. F¶mepw Cu cm£-kns¸-®p§-sfms¡ cmasâ ^m\pIfmbn«p−v. Rm\n§s\ ]nSn-¨p\nÂ¡p¶XpsIm−p AhÀ¡p AÛpXam Wv. Cu cma³ Bçm Fs¶mcp `mhamWv! tZho Cu AS-bmf-hmIyw Ft¶mSp am{XamWp]-d-ªªXv. \mepe£w-hm\c·mÀ tZhn-sbXn-cªp \mep`mK-t¯ ¡p \o-§n-bn-«p−v. Hcpe£w Fsâsbm¸w D−mbn-cp¶p. Nnescms¡ hgn-¡pASÀ¶pho-Wp. Fsâ -H¸w DÅ-h scms¡ kap{Z-Xo-c¯pX¼Sn-¨n-cn-¡pIbmWv. Fsâ ZuXy¯n\p Biw-kbpw {]mÀ°\bpambn Xo\pw-Ip Snbpw\S¯n¡gn-bpIbmW-hÀ. Fsâ Cuhchv ]cmP-b s¸-«mÂ AhcpsS BbpÊ-hkm\n-¡pw. kp{Ko-hcmPmhv FÃmh\c·mÀ¡pw Hcpamks¯ ka bamWv A\phZn-¨n-«pÅ-Xv Xv. kabw-Ign-ªn«v ªn«v koXm½-sb ImWmsX aS-§n-h¶mÂ FÃmän\pw in£ IWvTtOZ-sa ¶mWv {]Jym]n-¨n-«pÅ-Xv Xv. kp{Ko-hsâ D¯-chpIÄ¡v tNmZy§-fn-Ã. R§Ä aÀ¡-S-·mcmsW-¦nÂ R§-fpsS cmPmhv aÀ¡-S-IÀ¡-i\mWv. At\z-jW-kwLw \mephgn-¡p\o-§n. ktX¬sdbnÂthbpsS P\dÂamt\P-cmbn Fs¶ \ntbmKn-¨p. s {Sbv\nsâ kab¯nÂ hnizmk-apÅ-XpsIm−v Rm³ BImiw kzoIcn-¨p. Hcp F\n¡v BZyta In«n-bn-cp¶ph tÃm. ]qc¯nsâ IpS-IÄ Xmgv¯n-s¡-«n. «n. Ceªn-¯-dd-taf-am bn-cp¶p c−mfptSbpw DÅnÂ. kpa\ÊpIfpsS alm]qcamWp\S-¶Xv. shSn-s¡-«p]n-t¶¡pamän-sh¨p. Icn-acp¶p bp²mhiy¯n\p amän-sh¨p. Hcp Zm¼Xy¯nsâ clkyw l\q-am\pap¼nÂ shfns¸-«p. {]nbl-\q-amt\, Hcp am³ Fs¶¸-än-¨-Xnsâ hnjaw tX«n-tX«n-hcn-IbmWv. A§-bpsS hen¸w F\n-¡pt_m[ys¸-«p. ISepNmSn-¡-S¶hs\s¡m−p ZpxJ-§Ä¡-dpXnhcpsa¶p DÅp]-d-bp¶p. inwin-]-bpsS Nph«nÂ [ym\\ncXbmbn-¡-gn-bp¶ Fsâ t_mt[mZbw shdpsXbmhn-Ã. Fsâ kpJ-ZpxJ-§Ä Rm³]-d-bmsX \obdn-ªntÃ? ªntÃ? ഹÜമാനസം

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AtX]SnsN¶p]mSpI. H«pw-shÅw-tNÀ¡- −. −. \oämbn ASn-¨p]q-kmbn B Du¡nÂh¶p Fs¶sIm−pt]mhs«. cmhWsâ UyqtUäv c−pamk-t¯msS Xocpw. AXn-\p ÅnÂ XoÀ¡mhp¶s{]mP-IvSmhWw A{]q-hvsN-t¿− t¿− sX¶p {]tXyIw ]d-bWw. AXphsc Rm³ ]nSn-¨p \nÂ¡mw. inwin-]-bpsS Nph«nÂ t_mt[mZ-bw-D−mbXn-s\ ¸än ]d-ªpIgnªpIgn-ªp. ªp. inwin-]b - psS sIm¼nÂshs¨mcp t_mt[mZ-bw-D−mhcpsX¶p HmÀ½n-¸n-¡-Ww. sIm−pt] mIq Fs¶bm am©ph«nÂ F¶v \o«n-¸mS-Ww. NmSnbpw HmSnbpw ]mSp¶ \o ÌmÀknw-K-dtÃ? dtÃ? cmhWsâ k]vXkz-c§Ä R§-sf-Sp¡p¶p−v Sp¡p¶p−v. t\cn«psN¶v koXm½-bpsS hnhcw AhnsS Adn-bn- ¡p¶p−v ¡p¶p−v. A{Xbpw th−n-hcn-Ã. AsXms¡ Hcp Hô-jyÂ I¬^Àtaj\mWv. tamj³aq-hvsN-bvXpIgn-ª-a«mhpw. Cf-In-bpÅ\nÂ]v. Hcp ]mtbapUv, ]nt¨-apUv... Hcpi _vZw-tIÄ¸n-¡¡-Ww. A{Xtbth−q. H¶dn-bmsX Xp½n-bmepw ]S-bn-§pt]mcpw. ]´f-t¯¡v cmas\ Fsâ slen-tIm]vSÀtbmK-¯nÂ ¯nÂ B\bn-¡pw. e£vaW-tImaf-\pap−mIpw. ]ns¶ cmhWt\mSp tImgn-b¦w-Xs¶. AwK-t¯mSv AwKw. A¦t¯mSv A¦w. kmjvSmw-Kw. Kw. he¼n-cn, CSw-]ncn ]ncn Bªpsh«n- atä Xe¡Â thsd-sh«n... FÃmsh«n-¡o-dndn-¯-c§fpw \S-¡pw. cmhWsâ sh«n-¡o-dndn-¯cw Ahkm\n-¸n-¡pw. ¡pw. Ahsâ ]ctaiz-c³sImSp¯ t_ms−ms¡ Ign-ªp. ImivaS-¡n-s¡mSpt¡-−n−n-hcpw. hcpw. l\q-amt\mSpÅ kvt\lw-sIm−p hmbv]-hm§nb £a koXm½ aS¡n-s¡mSp¯p. Cu_-Umbn-sbms¡ tams\ F\n-¡n-jvS-ambn. IjvSnhmemÂPänÂ Ibdn-t¸m¶p. cmae£vaW-·mÀ¡v kap{Zw-IS-¡m³ ¡m³ Hmcp Hmt«mt¯m Wn-sb¦nepw In«ptam? IpXn-cbpw tXcpw AhÀ¡phiap −v. A¼ptImÀ¯p]mew-sI«m\pÅ-hn-Xn-bÃsÃm Ad-_n¡-S-en-\v. Ipcpapf-In-\phcp¶ ]mb¡-¸-epIÄ ASn-bnse ]mdX«n C§-Sp¡m³IqSp¡m³Iq-«m¡p¶n«m¡p¶n-sÃ¶v Chn-sS-bmtcm ]d-bp¶ XptI«p. AXpsIm−p kmaq-Xn-cn¡p tImfmbn. Imäpw-tIm fpw-IS¶p Ad-_n_n-IÄ sNÃpt¼mÄ XncphmXn-cRmäpthe ഹÜമാനസം

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bpsS Sqdn-kw-Im«n Ign-ªpIqªpIq-SpIbmWp aq¸À. tImgnt¡m«pImc\Ã I®qÀ¡mc\mWv kmaq-Xn-cn-sb¶pw tIÄ¡p¶p. tZhn-bpsS Bi¦¡p Hcpadp]-Sn-tbbpÅp. Rm\n-hnsS F¯n-bXv. GI{]q-^v, _pÅ-äv{]q^v CubpÅ-h³Xs¶. `hXn-bpsS ap¼nÂ ^pÄssk-kmbpw lm^vssk-kmbpw Hm^vssk-kmbpw Ign-¨pIq-«nb cma`à³, koXm`à³ l\q-am³. cmaPb, koXmP-b, skÂ^pP-b. A¡-scbn-¡sc \n¶mse§s\ \n§sS BiXocpw? BiXocpw? shdpsX a\Êphn-jan-¸n-¡-−. −. Fsâ tjmÄU-dnÂXs¶ Ahsc¯pw. Cu sjÂ«Às]mfn-¡pw. CXnsâ HmWsd Iodns¸m fn¡pw. Hmtcmcm£-ksâ Xeamńs¸mfn-¡m\pw Imep]n-Sn-¨phen-¡m\pw amdnÂ t]³ap«m\papff hm\c·msc Cd-¡pw. \c\pw hm\c\pw \mbcpw BcmWpbp²-¯nÂ Pbn-¡m¯-hÀ? cm£-kp¡-fpsS "B' R§-sf-Sp¯pamäpw. AhÀ c£ ÊpIfmbn ]ªmhqÀa\¡ÂsImSp¡p¶ a[pcw-Ip dª ]mÂ¸mbkw `pPn-¡¡-s«. Pbn¨p Atbm²ybnÂhmgp¶Ime¯v koXm½-cma s\m¸w e¦ImWm³hcWw. c£-ÊpIfpsS \K-cambncambn-«p −mhpw e¦. a¦n-IÄ R§Ä... e¦bpsS t^kv amäpw. t^jyÂsNbvXp. Cu Idp¯-]pÅn-Isf Isf FSp¯pIf-bpw. _neo-hvao. eohvan. {iocmasâ eÆn\pw _neo^n\pwth−n Hcp kntá-¨ÀXcn-I. \mev: Hmt«m-{Km^v

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NqSpÅ Nne hÀ¯-am\w tlm«Ìv AS-bmf-hmIy§Ä. Ccp]-Xpan-\p«phsc \ofmw. ]cky¯n\pÅk-abw-Ign-¨mbmepw-aXn. ]¯pan\p«n-\v. ]d-bmw. ]d-bpt¼mÄ cl-kyambn-]-d-bWw. R§Ä c−pØe ¯msW-¦nepw lkv_âv ssh^mWv. F¶mepw \n¶nÂ hnizmkw-hcWw. \n¶nÂ hnizmkw-h¶mte \o]-d-bp¶ XnÂ hniz-kn-¡q. \o]-ddbp¶XnÂ b - p¶XnÂ hniz-kn-¨mte Fs¶ hniz-kn-¡q. Fs¶ hniz-kn-¨mte ^ben\p izmkw-hcq. s]s«-¶p\o-¡Ww. NmW-I¯n-\pXo-]n-Sn¨ kz`mh¡mc \mWv. FÃmw sasÃ. l\qamt\ koXmt½ ]d-bmw. \mWw-h¶n«v Imcyan-ÃsÃm. Rm\pw cma\p Hcp Hmt«m{Km^vXcmw. AXpIm«n-s¡mSp¯mÂ \ns¶ ] mÊm¡pw. ]co-£-hsc FgptX−n-hcn-Ã. hnhml-¯n-\pap¼v Nm]w-Ipe¡m³h¶Xmbn-cp¶p cmta«³. Rms\t¸mgpw Fsâ kzman F¶p]-d-ªmWpioªmWpioen-¨n-«pÅ-Xv. BÄhenb Bkman-bmWv. A¶v, C¶se¡-gn-ªª-t]mse Rmt\mÀ¡p¶p, anYn-e bnse sIm«mchcm´bnÂ Rm\n-cn-¡pt¼mÄ \ne¡-®m Sn-bnÂ Hcp kpµ-ccq-]w-I−p. DZym\¯n-se¯nb {iocma N-{µsâ {]Xn-Ombbmbn-cp¶p AXv. Ombt]mcm ]pamsâ kzcq-]w-Xs¶ H¶pImW-W-sa¶ptXm¶n. hcm´bn-end§n Rm³ DZym\¯ntes¡m¶p F¯n-t\m¡n. kv^Sn-IP-emib¯nse sXfn-ª-P-e¯nÂ Fsâ t\m«w kzman-bpw-I−p. At±lw Xncn-ªpt\m¡n. A®³ t\m¡n-\m³ Ahfpw t\m¡n-\mÄ \mÄ¡p\mÄ \odm\pÅ Hcpt\m«w... apgpan-¸n-¡m\m hmsX Rm\It¯-t¡mSn. hnsÃmSn-¡tW cma³ F¶{] mÀ°\sIm−p tZlw Iq¼n. koXm½ GtXm hn{àmImcamb NnÍfnÂ B−pt] mbn. hm\c³ hmen-f-¡n-\n-¶p. GtXm apÖ-·_Ôw Ahsc hnf-¡n-\nÀ¯n. ഹÜമാനസം

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koX an−n-¸-dbm³XpS§n: bm³XpS§n: hnÃpIpe¨pt\Sn F¶ IYIfn-sem¶pw R§-fpsS hnhml-]qÀÆ{]-W-ban-Ã. Fsâ DÅnÂ Bbncw \ne¡®mSn-Ifpw AXnÂ \ndsb Fsâ kzman-bpsS cq]-§-fpam bn-cp¶p. kzman-bpsS DÅnepw kv^Sn-IXSmIambn-cp¶n-cn¡-Ww. sIm«mc¯nsâ KÌvluknÂ Xmakn-¨n-cp¶ kzman¡v {]nbXam t{]ateJ\w F§-s\sbgptX−q F¶p c−phcn kJn-hiw sImSp¯-b¨p. hm\c³ ]ns¶bpw Syq¬sN-bvXpsIm−p\n-¶p. ASp¯v hcs«... tami¡mcsÃm ChÀ. IS-¶pt]m¶ISÂ C{X Cc¼n-bn-«n-Ã. koXbpsS tÌj\nÂ\n¶p Ne¨n-{XKm\§-sfmgpIn-h ¶p. At¶¡v hnhmlw-Ign-ªnªn-cp¶p. Atbm²ybn-emWv. A¯mgw-Ignªp Rm\pw A\pP-¯n-amcpw hÀ¯-am \w- ]-d-ªnªn-cp¶p -k-abw-sImdnsImdn-¨p. sshIn-apdn-bn-se¯n-b t¸mÄ Bß\mY³ aWn-a©¯nÂ IÅ-bpd-¡w -\Sn-¨p In-S-¡pIbmbn-cp¶p. Dd-¡¡-ambtÃm F¶pIcpXn i_vZ-an ÃmsX Rm\Sp¯psN-¶p. A[cw-apXÂ Np_n-¨pt]m¶p. cmta«-\pWÀ¶p. {io l\q-amt\mÀ¯p: hnhml-¯n-\pap¼mWp t]mÌpam\mth−n-bn-cp¶ Xv. ]s£ Ct¸mgmWptbmKw sXfn-ª-Xv. hn[n-hnhn-ln-X tamtcm¶v ... Cuc−v... ap½q-¶v.. koX¡p Xmfn-tX¨pIpfn-¨-t]mse incÊv Hgn-ªp. Hcp ]mSpt]-\pIÄ N¯pt]mbn. l\q-ams\ \s¶ t_m[n-¨p. `mj\¶v, hmKzn-emk-ap −v, AÀ¸-W-ap−v, hniz-kvX\mWv. kv]oUnÂ kv]otUm ao-ä-dmWv. Cu Iriicocn BImi¯p¡qsS _eq¬t] mse s]mń-F¯n-bXmWv. AhÄs¡mcp \\p¯-Nn-cn tXm¶n. hmbp`q-XamWv. Bs« amtj hntcm[w-tXm¶cpXv. Hcev]w hocyw AI¯psN¶mepw hm\c·mscms¡ CuImWp¶ hen-¸atÃ D−mhq. \n§Ä cm£-k· - msc icn¡pw I−n-«pt− m? F{X òamImc·mcmW-hÀ? hen-b]ÀÆX§Ä. \n§-sf§s\ Ahsc t\cnSpw? AXpt_m[ys¸-Spt¯-−Xp−v. koXm½¡p kam[m\ ap−mhs«. DÅnÂ l\q-am³IcpXn. ഹÜമാനസം

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kzn¨n-«-t]mse kzbw hepXmbn. UnjyqwUnjyqw F¶pImWn-¨p. aXn-aXn F\n-¡pImW-−, koXNn-cn-¨psIm−p]dªp: Rm³tNmZn-s¨-¶pam{Xw. l\q-am³]-dªp: e¦bnÂX«n-¯-S-bm³]-äm¯{X äm¯{X R§-fpsSbmfpIÄ h¶p\n-d-bpw. kp{Ko-hsâ apJyam\ a{ń-bmWpRm³. At±l-¯nsâ am\w-Im¡-emWptPmen. Hcpac¡¼pw Hcp CS-hgn-s]-cphgn-bpw-hn-«pIf-bmsX hm\c·mÀ \nd-bpw. \tcm¯-asâ H¸w R§-fp−mhpw. fp−mhpw. \c·mcpw R§-fpw-X ½nÂ H¶pc−phyXymk-ap−v. AXpa\Ên-em¡m\m hmsXXs¶ cm£-k· - mÀ Ipg-§pw. R§Ä Ipc§-·mÀ Nncn-¡mdn-Ã. Cfn-¡pItbbpÅp. ¡pItbbpÅp. \S-¡pIn-tÃmat\ Hcp\m fpw. NmSpItbbpÅp. koX]-dªp: F\n-¡phn-izmk-ambn. ip²-cnÂ ip²-\mWp\o. \o e¦bnÂip²n-Ieiw-\S-¯pI. \n\¡-Xpkm[yamIpw. cm£-ÊpIsf c£-ÊpIfm¡pw. ISÂIS-¡m³ ¡m³ Aamń-¡−. \nsâ]-¡¡-epÅ NqUmcXv\hpw Fsâ IYIfpw cmL th«-\p\ÂIpI. e£vaWm\pP-t\mSpw kpJmt\z-jWw ] d-bpI. Ahcpw kp{Ko-h\pw \n§-sf-Ãmhcpw thK-sa ¯m³ t\m¡-Ww. hcnI hcnI kl-P-tc.. hgn-bnÂ _tµm lÀ¯mtem D−mhmXn-cn-¡-s«. \nsâ t\cw ]pe cmdmbn. Dd-¡-samgn-¨-£o£o-Whpw bm{Xm£o-W-hpantÃ \n\¡v? F\n-¡n-hnsS FÃmt\chpw Hcpt]msebmWv. cm£-kn-IfpsS I®nÂs]-tS-−. Ahsc shdpsXhn-Sn-Ã. cmhWsâ aln-fmhn-`mK-asÃ. l\q-am³ AIta A\mZn-bmb B\µ-a\p`hn-¨p. cma Pb F¶pa{ń-¨psIm−p tZho-{]-Xn-jvT¡p aq¶phew-sh ¨p. hnÃpt]mse\n¶ hmsemgn¨v kÀÆmwKw \akvIcn-¨p. hmevhnÃv ]qPyam¡n, Nn·p{Z-bm¡n. ZpxJn-¡-cpXv. Rm³hcs«. R§Ä DS-s\hcpw. H¶pw Ign-¡m³Xcm³]-äp¶ ØnXn-bn-eÃsÃm Rm³. bm{Xbpw Dd¡-samgn-¸pw. \n\¡p\ÃXphcs«. bm{Xaw-K-famhs«. NncRvPo-hn-`hx cmaP-b.. koXm`n-cmam... l\q-am³ aq¶padn-ªp. tZhmw-ikw-`hsâ ambmhnഹÜമാനസം

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emkw XXv¡mew ad-ªp. ªp. Nn´mhn-jvS-bmb iymaf Abhn-d¡n: X{´l-\q-am³. iàn-am³. Adn-hpam³. thK-am³. `mj am³ cmas\§s\ dn{Iq-«psNbvXp Cu t]mÌpams\. ^bÂhm\pw-Iq-Sn-bmsW¶p msW¶p koX Adn-bm³In-S¶p. ¶ - p. s]s«¶p e¦hn-«pt]mcp¶sX§s\? BsIsam¯wImcy§-f-dn-b−. t]mfn-äv_yqtdm Gev]n-¨p]-Wn-Ign-ªp. F¶mepw Hcp ko\n-bÀt\Xmsh¶ \ne¡pNne at\m[À½-§Ä \S-¸n-emt¡t−. A[À½s¯ Iq¨phn-e§n-«n sÃ¦nepw Iq¨phn-e§nSpw F¶ kqN\ \ÂtI−. hm\c ·msc¡pdn-¨pko-Xm½ {]ISn-¸n¨ kwib¯n-\padp]-Sn\ÂtI−. cm£-tk-iz-cs\ Hcp apJ-ZmhnÂ ap«-Ww. P\ {]n-bamIm³ AtXXcapÅp. AXn-s\´phgn F¶p henbmhmbnÂ Nnń-¨n-cns¡ kl-PPa - mbkz-`mhw Ipc§\p D]-tZ-iw-sImSp¯p. X«n-\n-c¯n-tb¡v. Cu SqdnÌptI{µw XaÀ¯Ww. inwin-]-sbmgnsI FÃmw-\n-çm¡mw. inwin] Ct¸mÄ kz´w ]mÀ«n-bm¸oktÃ? cmhW\v Gko-apdn-hn-«p]pd-¯nd-t§-−n-hcpw. henb sk{I«-dnN-aªv F{X\mfn-cn¡pw? Nnezm\w-t]mIpIbsÃ? ]IÂsh«n-s¡mÅbpsS ]qt´m« amWv. t\cw-]pecpIbmWv. apSn-s¸mfn Bcw-`n-¡mw. ]qt´m«-amsI Ipc§-\pIn-«nb ]qamebmbn. l\q-ams\m¶p BsI ho£n-¨p. euen-KmÀU³. XIÀ¡ms\´pck-ambn-cn¡pw? F\n¡pXs¶ euen-bmbmÂ cmhW-s\{X{]n-bs¸-«-XmIpw? XmIpw? càw-Xn-f-¡-s«. inwin-]-bpsS ]pd-t¯-¡pÅ imJn-bnepw hmsem¶pX «ntbm F¶p ]nÂ¡mes¯mcp hmZ-ap−mbn. B ]nÅ-hm Xsam¶pw Gsd-I¯n-¸-SÀ¶n-Ã. hoW-Xv, apgph³ hoW-Xp Xs¶ Gsd-bp−tÃm. BImi¯p\n¶p tZh·mÀ \S-¯p¶psh¶mtcm]n-¡s¸-SmdpÅ ]pjv]-hrjvSn l\q-am³ kXyam¡n. hm\c ·mÀ¡pw ]pjv]-hrjvSn BhmasÃm. CeIfpw ]q¡fpw ] mdn-¸-d-¶p. hr£-§Ä §Ä XIÀs¯-dn-bpt¼mÄ ]q¡fpw ImbvIfpw ]g-§fpw ZicYsâ N{Iw-t]mse Ducns¯-dnഹÜമാനസം

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¨p. shÅ-¨m«-t¯¡mÄ at\ml-camb B hm\ckr-jvSnbnÂ hÅn-s¨-Sn-IÄapXÂ hen-bac§Ähsc hogp¶ knw^Wn-bnÂ ]£n-IÄ kwLKm\ame]n-¨p. Cu {]`m Xt`cn-tI«v DZym\]meIÀ NIn-Xcmbn. `bs¸-«-hÀ `b¶p hn-d-¨p. k¦S-s¸-«-«h - À Icªp. hensb s\bnw-t_mÀUp IÄ shdpw XIc§-fmbn. fmbn. Cet¯m«-§Ä N−n-¡q¡q-¼mc ambn. ]qamebnÂ {]IS\w ImgvN-sh¨pt]m¶ almhn-¹h¯nsâ sNbÀam·mcmbn-cp¶ ]qÀÆn-IÀ ]qt´m«w-Xs¶ XIÀ¡p¶XpI−p ]nXr-temI¯ntemI¯n-cp¶p ]p©n-cn-¨p. (Ckvsabn-evUv) hn¹hw CÆn[w hnP-bn-¡psa¶hÀ IcpXnbn-Ã. ANypXm, \mian-Ãm¯-ht\sb¶p \in-¸n-¡p¶hs\ t\m¡n s]mXpk-aqlw hnfn-¨pIq-hn. dntkmÀ«pIfnÂ Ań-¡pd-§msX Ign-¨pIq-«nb «nb s] ®p§Ä Ip¸mbhpw _mKpsaSp¯psIm−p ]dªp: C\n Smäm kJm¡sf B Smä¡pw CSn-ªphoªpho-g-epIÄ¡pw epIÄ¡pw \SphnÂ cm£-k {]-`p¡Ä {]Xybimkv{X{]-Xn-k-Ôn-bnÂ s]«p. koXsb Iu¬knÂsN-¿m³ ¿m³ \nbpàcmbn HmUn-täm dn-b¯nÂIn-S-¶pd-§nb cm£-k-s¸-®p§Ä koXbpsS ASpt¯-t¡mSn. Fs´mcp s]mfn-¸-\mWn-h³. C{Xbpw kà\mb Hcp ¯s\ R§Ä I−n-«n-Ã. cm{Xn \nsâbSp¯ph¶n cpt¶m? \osbm¶pw ]d-ªnsÃ? F´mWo Ipc§sâ A {UÊv? t^m¬ \¼À In«ptam? R§Äs¡m¶p _Ôs¸Sm\mWv. hen-bIcp¯³Xs¶. Icpt¯m¯-a³. koX]-dªp: A_-ebmWpRm³. Bcmcpan-Ãm¯-\mfnÂ Bsctbm[ym\n-¨pIgn-bp¶hÄ. cm£-k-ambbnÂ XS-hd-bn-se¯n se¯n bhÄ. _ehm·mcpsS A`ymk-§Ä F\n-¡-dn- ªpIqªpIq-Sm tXmgo... F\n-¡-dn-ªpIq-Sm. Sm. cm£-k-ambIÄ a\Ên-emhp ¶n-Ã. R§-fpsS \m«n-sem¶pw C§-s\sbmcp]-Xn-hn-Ã. C§s\ Hcp Ipc§s\ KmÀU-\n-te¡pIbän-hn-Sn-Ã. I− n«v F\n-¡pt]-Sn-bmhp¶p. hÃms¯mcp kÀ¡-Êv. {S¸okv hoÀ¸pap«ntb t\m¡n-\nÂ¡m\mhq. s]®p§Ä cmhW³tIm«-bn-te¡p ]mªp. AXn-Ime¯pWÀ¶ cmhW³ saUn-tä-j\pap¼p Hcp sNdn-bIp«nsb Ifn-¸n-¡pIbmbn¡pIbmbn-cp¶p. ഹÜമാനസം

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X¶nse hen¸w ]pd-s¯-Sp¡m\pw Sp¡m\pw CutKm hf-hÀ¯nsbSp¡m\pw cm£-k-cmPmhnsâ ssIbnÂ ]e\pdp§p s]mSn-ss¡-Ifpap−mbn-cp¶p. hen-bcmhWsâ s]mSn ss¡. Ip«n-bpsS ssIshÅ-bnÂ H¶pc−phn-cepIÄ sh¨p]-d-bp¶p: \Sphn-semcp hmg-sh¨p Npäpw then-sh¨p hmg-Ipe¨p IÅ³h¶p. sh«n-s¡m−pt]mbn. hmXnÂ¸pd-¯p ]cmXn-]-d-bm³t]mb s]®p§Ä ImXpIqÀ¸n-¨p. FÃmw-\¶mbn-cn-¡p¶p. A\pjvSp¸nsâ ASp¯pIn-S-¡p¶ Hcp D¸p−v. AXn-emWp{]-tbmKw. tbmKw. Ipªnsâ ssIbnÂhr-¯w¯w-hc¨pIn-S-¡p¶ cmhWsâ cN-\s¡mcp hr¯-ap−v, XoÀ¨. F¶mepw C{X... cmhW³ Ifn-¸n-¡Â ¡Â XpS-cpIbmWv cpIbmWv. sNdn-bhn-cen-t\mSv tNmZn¨p: Ip«n-¸-d-t§mSm \o It−m Ceym. tamXn-cs¸m¶mt\y \oIt−m s]m¶m\ow I−n-eym. N{ah«w-Iq-SnSn-I−n-eym. \Sphn-en-Sw-ItWy \oIt−m s¿m. eysÃm. Np−n-t·ÂNp−mtWy ·ÂNp−mtWy \o It−m A¿t¿m eymsÃm. AtXs¸m AtXs¸m \¶mt¿. Xhf-t¸m¡mtÿ \o It−m? Duw. lpw. Bcpw I−n-eym... ¶m.. CtZyt]mbv CtZym t]mbv t]mbv hcpt¼mÄ.. I£-¯pC¡n-fn-bn-«psIm−p «psIm−p Ip«nsb Nncn-¸n-¨psIm− p et¦i³ Nncn-¨phiw-sI«p. hoWn-Ã. At¸mgmWp I« IpetXSn DSa ASn-asb ]d- ªªb¨nb - ¨ncn-¡p¶p F¶hn-hcw h\n-XmcXv\§Ä h¶dn-bn-¨-Xv Xv. Bcm Ahs\ kvt]m¬kÀsN-bvXXv, cmhW- \edn. \edn. Aed-temS-ed-embn. kn.-sF.-F. _Ôapt−m? Ah³ ]qt´m¸pw ]qt´m¸nse act¯m¸w XIÀ¯p. I½yq-Wn-ÌmsW¶mWv ]d-bp¶Xv. \in-¸n-¡m³ anSp¡\mWv. DZym\amfnI NnÃpw-N-«-bpambn s]mSn-¨pIf-ªp. ImhÂ¡mscsbms¡ Ime]pcn-¡-b¨p. t]Sn-sbs´¶dnഹÜമാനസം

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bm¯-Hcp P´phmWv. Ct¸mgpw t]m¡n-cn-hn-in-jvS-tkh\w \S-¯n-s¡m−n-cn-¡pIbmWv ¡pIbmWv. F{X kzÀ®saU-epI fmWmthm hm§n-¡q-«pI. Hfn-¼n-Ivknsâ Du¡mW-h\v h\v. cmhW³ NmSn-sbgpt¶äp. s\än-Npfn-¨p. ss\än-se¯n-bh³. ss\änÂ Ibdm¯h³. hen-bI£n-bmWsÃm. Icn-hmsâ BebnÂ\n¶p cmIn-s¡m−ph¶ Bbp[ §Ä apgph³ ]pd-¯phcs«. \miamIp¶Xn-\\pk-cn¨v ] pXnb HmÀUÀ t]ms«. Hcp ]nń-cn-¸³ aqcm¨n-tbbpw shdpsXhn-S-cpXv. Ahbn-e_nÄ I½n-änIqSn Ahs\ t\cn«v Hcpe£w hf-−n-bÀamÀ sNÃs«. HcptImSn Xpe ¡v. Hcp Ipc§\pw s\Kn-fnfn-¡−. Ipc§-·msc `ban-Ãm¯ Hcpe£w AWn-bWn-bmbv e£w-e£w ]n¶mse F¶p]-dªp ]mªpsN-¶p. e£-W-sam¯-hÀ Bcp−n-XnÂ, l\q-am³ hnfn-¨ptNm Zn-¨p. e£-Ww-t\m¡-−, \nsâ Ahe£-Ww-XoÀ¡p¶p−v R§Ä, AhÀ Aedn. C\n-bpapd-s¡, C\n-bpapds¡ C\n-bpapds¡ F¶ ap {ZmhmIyw cmhW-I£n-IÄ hnfn-¨pIq-hn. i_vZ-¯nÂ tXmÂ¡psa¦nÂ l\q-am³ A¸tg tXmtä-s\. ]−p hn¹hhymtaml-bpK-¯nÂ CXn-sâsbm¸w apjvSn-Npcp«pI Fs¶mcp ]Xn-hp−mbn-cp¶p. Ct¸mÄ ap{ZmhmIywam{X ambn. hn¹-hcmin-hn«v anYp\¯n-te¡pIS¶p apjvSn. \obmcv \n§-fmcv R§Ä e£w Rm³ e£Ww R§Ä cmhWsâ hn¹-hI£n-bnÂs]«-hÀ ]penIÄ. ]pÅn-¸pen-Ifpw shÅn-\£-{X§-fpw. fpw. CXp ]pen-bm WpsI«m F¶p aXn-ent·Â FgpXn-sh¨-hÀ. \n§-fmcmWv, GXpaª-¸¸-{X¡mc³? \oe¨n-{X¡mc³, aqcm¨n, ImgvNb - nÂXs¶ R§Ä e£-§§f - mWv. _m¦nÂ tImSn-IfmWv. \otbm ]pÃmWv. \obS¡w R§-ffÃm¯Ã - m¯-h scms¡ ]pÃmWv. \nsâ ap«n-s¸mfn-b{´w-sIms−mcp Imcyhpan-Ã. tXbn-et¯m«w N−n-bm¡p¶hnZy F¶pw F{Xtbm ho«-½-amÀ sN¿p¶XmWv. cm£-k-¸-S-sN¶]msS l\q-am³ knwl-ambedn. HmSnഹÜമാനസം

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¸-än-\n-¶p]-dd-bm³XpS-§n. emÂk-emw. CXp I¨-hS-amWv. R§Ä ]S-bmfn-If-Ã. e¦bpsS UoenwKvkv \S-¯p¶ shdpw t{_m¡ÀamÀ. Xm¦sf Iq«ns¡m−phcm\mWp D¯-chv. I½o-j³hm§nb ]cn-NN-bta Bbp[cw-K¯pw bp²w-Ifn-bnepw R§Ä¡pÅp. GXpcwK¯pw F¶p]-d-bmw. aäpÅ-hÀ¡pbp²hpw R§Ä¡p kam[m\hpw BWp]-Xn-hv. C§s\ Hcp ]Xnhv Iogvs¡S D−mbn-«n-Ã. cmhWsâ at\m\n-et]msb¶ptXm¶p¶p. \qän-\membn Un{Kn-sb¶ptIÄ¡p¶p. bqWn-thgvkn-änän-IÄ aÕcn-¨psImSp¡p¶XmtWm F¶dn-bn-Ã. l\qam³k-Jm th, R§-sf-´mWpsN-t¿−Xv. cmhWsâ hn¹-hI£nbpsS D¶X·mcmWpR-§Ä. R§fpsS ]nXm¡-·mÀ a {ń-amcmWv. tÌävsaâv, {]kvdn-eokv F¶n-hsbms¡ bqWn-thgvknän ]T\Imet¯ Bcw-`n-¨-XmWv. kJmsh, R§sf sImÃWtam hfÀ¯-Wtam F¶p Xm¦ÄXo-cp am\n-¡pI. {]Xn-kÔn ]cn-l-cn-¡m\pÅ ko\n-tbmd«n R§Ä¡n-Ã. ]pd¯v R§Ä Iqhn-bmÀ¡p¶Xpkmcam ¡-cpXv. R§-sfms¡ Im¼kvsk-e£³ ]nÅmcmWv. shbn-epsIm−v inean-Ã. a®pw agbpw PetZmjhpap−m ¡p¶ tZl-apÅhcmWv. F´mWp \n§Ä¡pX¶ SmÀPäv? AP−bn-ÃmsX NÀ¨-sb§s\? b§s\? Icmsd-§§s\. s - \. Hcp h¬ ssSw skänÂsaâv. As§m¶v HXp§n-¯-c Ww. F´pthW-sa¦nepw Xcmw. At§-¡p`mhn-bnÂ ChnsS bp²w-sN-¿m\pÅ FÃmkuIcy§fpw Xcmw. At§-s¡-Xnsc `mhn-bnÂ D−mIp¶ hn¹-h{ia§Ä {ia §Ä \nc ćNÀ¨-IfnÂ ap¡n-¡-ff-bm³ tIm^n-lukpIÄ XpS§mw. {]Xn-]-££-t\Xmhm¡mw. cmhWsâ ktlmZ-c³ Bib{]-Xn-k-Ôn-bnÂ s]«n- «p «p −v. At±ls¯ Iqdpamämw. R§-sfms¡ {ioe¦mtÌj \nÂ\n¶p ]m«ptIÄ¡pt¼mÄ At§mÀ XrÈqÀ\n-eb ¯nÂ\n¶p ]m«ptIÄ¡pw. t]cv hnò-jW³. R§-fpsS òjWn-¡p]-Icw Xcm\pÅ-h³ F¶À°w-hcp¶ t]cv òjWn-s¸-Sp¯p¶h\p hnP-bw-\ÂIp¶h³. l\q-am\p sNmdn-ªpIbdn. {]ISn-¸n¨n-Ã. ]ehn-hc §fpw e`n-¡pIbmWv. l\q-am³ Hcp apJyam\ a{ń-bm sW¶v Cu a{ń-Ipamc·mÀ¡-dn-bn-Ã. Cu ]o¡n-cn-]-¿ ഹÜമാനസം

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`t¡m sXmSm³h¿m¯ FsâcmPy¯nsâ ]cam[n-Imcs¯ Hcp shdpw-Ipc§³sXm«v Aip²-am¡n-bn-cn-¡p¶p. Cht\mSp BcpP-bn¡pw? cmhW³tIm«-IÄ sI«pIYI fmhpIbmtWm? cmhW-cmPmhnsâ Cf-btam³ A¶¡nfn Nn¶¡nfn A£-bIpamc³ ]cw-]n-Xmhns\ kam[m\n-¸n-¨p. AÑm, kam[m\n-¡v. at\mZpxJw- am\nIÄ¡v acW t¯-¡mÄ `bm\Iw. AI¯p`bwIS-¶mÂ ]pd¯p acWw h¶p\nÂ¡pw. sNdn-bho-gvNIfn-Ifn-eqsS Ah³ AI ¯pIS-¡pw. AÑ³ temIt]meo-kmsW¶v HmÀ½-thWw. thWw. cmPm¡-·mcnse htey«³. hn¹-h¯nsâ _mte«³. {]Xy bimkv{Xk-ap{Z-§sf XÀ¸-Ww-sN-¿p¶h³. AÑm kam [m\n-¡v. Rm³t]mbn l\q-ams\ sI«n-s¡m−phcmw. CXpw-tI«psIm−p sIm«mc¯nsâ ASpt¯¡v NmSnsb¯nb l\q-am³ Cfn¨ph¶p. Cf-b¨mÀ¡pt\sc Ft´mFSps¯-dn-ªp. A£-bIpamc\v A£-btemI t¯-¡pÅ Sn¡-ämbn-cp¶p AXv. Ipc§-¨mÀ Bcm¨mcmb XnÂ icn¡pw {XnÃnsâ hnsÃmSn-¨p. cmhW³, hnÃ³ hnÃmfn-ho-c³ aq¯-aI³ C{µ-Pn¯ns\ sI«n-¸n-Sn-¨p, s]m«n-¡-cªp. A\n-bsâ acWhpw AÑsâ apdp¡n-¸n-Sp¯-hpw-IqSn C{µ-Pn¯pw Pn¯pw hnja¯n-em bn. cmhW³ {]kvXmh\ Cd-¡n. ¡n. Cf-bIpamcsâ AýIÀ½-§Ä Cu Ipc§s\ sIm¶n-«-tijw aXn. AXphsc tÌPnÂ ico-cw-In-S-¡-s«. IÀ«³Xmgv¯-−. Rm\n-dd-§pIbmWv. t\cn-«n-d§pIbm Wv. cmhW³ Cd-§n-bXnsâ êamWn-sXÃmsa¶p C{µ-Pn¯n-\dn-bmw. C\nbpw t\cn-«n-d§n Fs´ms¡ s]mÃm ¸mWv cm£-tk-iz-c³ hcp¯n-sh¡pI Bthm. C{µ-Pn¯v C{µn-b§sf Pbn-¨-h\mWv. koXsb X«n s¡m−ph¶p B]-¯nÂs]« ]cw-]n]n-Xmhn-t\mSp C§s\ AcpÄsNbvXp: Ipc§³ Nmhm³Iq-«m¡m¯-h\mImw. Rms\m¶pt\m ¡-s«. Ie¸-bpsS Aä¯v tNsd-¶t]mse Rm\hs\ {_Òmkv{Xw-sImt−m h©\mkv{Xw-sImt−m AÑ-sâbSpt¯¡p sIm−phcmw. a\pjy·mÀ¡p \s½-P-bn ¡m³ ]än-sÃ¶pd-¸mWv. B ]Wn hm\c³ Gsä-Sp¡pI ഹÜമാനസം

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bmtWm F¶p kwibap−v. GXmbmepw Ipc§pth«¡p A§n-d§§ - -−. F\n-¡ptijw BtemNn-¡mhp¶tXbp Åp. ta\Ibdn-ªmÂ {]iv\amIpw. C{µn-b§-sf-P-bn-¨h\pw ta\Isbt]-Sn-¡-Ww. Ww. C{µ-Pn¯p hml-\saSp¯p. ssIbnÂ ¥ukpw XebnÂ slÂaäpaWn-ªp. t\scbn-Sn¨p Xes]m«-−, \J¯nÂ Nfn-bmh−. sseän-«p. «p. tlmW-Sn-¨p. ÌmÀ«mbn. l\q-am³ kl-\¯nsâ \qdpUn-{Kn-Ihn-ªp. ªp. IYIfnbn-se¶t]mse Aedn. ÌqfnÂ\n-¶pNmSn. taevt]m«pNm Spt¼mÄ ÌqÄ X«n-bn-«p. CµPn¯v AXmkz-Zn-¨p. l\q-am\mims\ CjvS-ambn. Bim\pw BkzmZ-Is\ Bkz-Zn-¨p. AXn-\mÂ AhÀ A´Êmbn t]mcmSn. A´Êmciq-\y ambn AS-cmSn. s]mSn-]mdn. ASn- ]md-I−p. shÅ- ¯n¯n-\p]Icw tNmcI−p. I−p\n-¶hÀ¡pw \ÃtImfmbn-cp¶p. an\naw Hcp Xp½-se¦nepw el-f¡v kz´w-hI Hmtcmcp ¯cpw Dd-¸phcp¯n. Xet¨mdv, lrZ-bw, IcÄ, hr¡ F¶n-hsbms¡ e£y-am¡n bp²w-\S-¶p. Ahbh tem_n {]Xo-£-tbmsS Im¯psI«n-¡n-S¶p. ictaäv \ne¯phoW l\q-am³ Hcp XqWp]n-gpsXSp ¯psIm−p Fgpt¶äp. C{µ-Pn-¯nsâ ÌnbdnwKpw t {_¡pw ]nSn-¨-bmsf XqWpsIms−dn-ªpsIm¶p. DSs\ XqWpw Hcmbp[ambn bp.-F³.-Hm. AwKo-IcnIcn-¨p. XqsWm scmcmbp[nsb at\mÚmbp[n-bm¡n tZi`àn-Km\ap− mbn. ss{UhÀ Ducn-s¯-dn-¨-hml\w Aán-bnÂIcn-ªp. aPo-jy³ C{µ-Pn¯p Pn¯p ]pXn-bhml-\¯nÂ {]Xy£-s¸-«p. «p. C{µ-Pn-¯nsâ Ip¸mbhpw hml-\hpw amdn-bn-cp¶p. l\q-amsâ hoWpt]mb Hcp tcmas¯ \membn-]n fÀ¯m³hsc C{µ-Pn-¯n\p ¯n\p km[n-¨p. C{µn-b§-sf-P-bn-¨ hs\ AXpIgnbq F¶mW-s{X. Ahkm\w C{µ-Pn¯v Pn¯v {_tÒmkvhn-«p. {_Òmkv{X¯n-\pap¼nÂ KXyćanÃmsX l\q-am³ hn\bw-\Sn-¨p. ssIIq-¸n. ¸n. ssIIq-¸pwaps¼ {_tÒmknsâ BLmX¯nÂ ]pÅn-ho-Wp. I®pXn-cp½nhoW l\q-ams\ C{µ-Pn¯p IbdpsIm −phcn-ªpapdp¡n. cmhWsâ ap¼n-te¡psI«n-henhen-¨p. hn¹-hm`n-hmZy§Ä t\À¶p. Xp−pIbdnÂsI«n-sbSp¯Xpw X\nsb {_Òmkv{Xw hntämsN-¿s¸-«p. F¶t¯bpw-t]mse Cu hotäm ImgvN-¡mÀ¡v Hcp hnämbn. Xp−p ഹÜമാനസം

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IbdnÂ hm\c³ AhiX I]-S-ambn A`n-\bn-¨p. C{µ-Pn¯p Acpfn: ssl¡-amtâ, F´psN-¿mw. Cu Xo{hhmZn-sbsIm−p h¶p. tZio-b[mcbnÂ ebn-¸n-¡mw. \ntcm[n¨p \pW-]dªp hiw-sISp¯mw. cmPyt{Zml-¯n-\phn-NmcW-sN ¿mw. Ipd-¨pk-abamw-cY¯nÂ Ch³ Imesâ GPâpN-a bpIbmbn-cp¶p. Ch³ Ime\mWv. hme\mWv. l\q-am³ ]dªp. AÃ Ip«o. t]m¯n³]pd-¯phcp¶ ¯phcp¶ FÃmhcpw Ime ·mcÃ. Im¡-Ifpw Ipbn-epIfpap−mhmw. \n§-sfms¡¡qSn Fs¶ sI«n-hen-¨¨-XpsIm−p Fs¶ Ime\mbn IcpXcpXv. Imes\ BÀ¡pw sI«n-bn-Sm³ ]än-Ã. Ime³ Ime¯nsâ LSn-ImcamWv. Ah³ Bscbpw sI«n-s¡m −pt]mIpw. F¶mepw Iq«o Ime\Ã. cmhW³ anen-«dn No^n-t\mSp \nÀt±in-¨p: {]l-kvX³, {]l-kvX³ IrXyambpw Aä³j\mbn-\n-¶p keyq«vsN-bvXp. \o Chs\ -]-dªpssIbn-seSp¡-Ww. AXn-\mWv \n\¡v {]l-kvX³ F¶pt]-cn-«n-cn-¡p¶Xv. Imcy§Ä apgph³ \of¯nepw hoXn-bnepw s]cp¡n-t\m¡-Ww. temK-cn-Xw-D]-tbmKn-¡mw. Xcn-In-S-Isfm¶pw \S-¡n-Ã. almXcn-In-S-Xnt´mw BWv. kuays¸-Sp¯n-t\m¡q. C{Xbpw kvt^mS-\§Ä \S-¯nb Ch³ tIhew Xo{hhmZn-bÃ. Ahsâ ]n¶nÂ Hcp AÂJz-bvZ-bp−v. lem¡nsâ sImSn-bp−v. AXmcm Wv, F´mW-hcpsS D¶w, Fhn-sS-bmWpØm\w Fs¶ms¡ ss\knÂ tNmZn-¨pa\Ên-em¡pI. NqSpIpcp D−mhcpXv. sNmdn-ªp{hW-am¡-cpXv. {hW-s¸-Sm³am{Xw sNmdn-bcpXv. {]l-kvX³, No^vamÀjÂ\b¯nÂ tNmZn¨p: hm\cm, A§-bpsS kvt]m¬kÀ BcmWv? Cu cmPk-`bnÂ A§p kXyw-]-d-bWw. bWw. ChnsS IÅ-hpan-Ã, NXnbpanÃ FtÅmfw s]mfn-hN-\§-fn-Ã. sI«n-bhÀ¡p sI«-gn-¨phn-Sm\pw samgn-sNmÃm\pw-Ignbpw. kXyw-]-d-ªmÂ ªmÂ \ns¶ Agn-¨phn-Smw. Cu k`t\m¡q. {_Òk-`¡pXpeyamWv. e¦bnÂ A[mÀ½n-Iambn H¶pan-Ã. FÃmw [mÀ½n-IamWv. ഹÜമാനസം

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l\q-am³ k`bnse apJ-§Ä t\m¡n. IÅ-¡-S-¯p ¯p ImÀ, Bbp[n-C-S-]mSpImÀ, a\pjy¡-S-¯pImÀ, Id³knhn-XcW-¡mÀ, ]nSn-In-«m¸pÅn-IÄ, Ggmw-Iq-en-IÄ, sIme bmfn-IÄ.. A§s\ Bscbpw I−n-Ã. l\q-am\p FÃmhcpw- Hcpt]msesb Hcp t]msesb¶mWv ¶mWv tXm¶n-bXv. Cu hI Imcy§-fn-sem¶pw At§mÀ¡phIXn-cn-hp−mbn-cp¶n-Ã. Hcpcmjv{S-¯nsâ ]cak-`, ]uc·mÀ¡p i{Xpk-`, P\m[n-]-Xy¯nsâ ]cw-tImhnÂ, \nba\nÀ½mW-hn-XcWk-`, HmP-Êpff hr²-aµncw. l\q-am³ I®S-¨p. Im¡-tW, tW, cmaP-bko-Xm`n-cmam... cmacq]w DÅnÂ sXfn-ª-t¸mtg D¡pIq-Sn. cmhW-]£-¯ÅÅ - -htcmSp tIm]w-Iq-Sn. Cu\bsams¡ IÅ-¯-c amWv. l\q-am³ A`n-kw-t`m[\sN-bvXp. ]ca]q-Py\mb Py\mb {iocmatZ-hsâ Aw_mkU-dmWv Rm³. amcpXn-F¶pw ]d-bmw. At±l-¯n-\n-t¸mÄ cmPyanÃ. `mcybpan-Ã. Fsâ tZhs\¸-än, cmaN-{µ-s\¸än Npcp ¡n-¸dd - -bmw. cmPyk-`¡p hnhcap−mhs«. AsXmcm{K-lwam{XamWv. kz´w-]n-Xmhnsâ hm¡pk-Xyam¡m³ ktlmZ-c\mb e£vaWt\mSpw `mcybmb koXmtZ-hn-tbmSpw-IqSn h\¯nÂ ]mÀ¡p¶ Ime¯n-¦Â FtSmcmhWm, Fhn-S-¯p Imc\mWp\o, \o t]mbn koXmtZ-hnsb tamjvSn-¨psIm −ph¶ntÃ? \n\¡pR-§-sf-¸än F´dnbmw? {iocmamN{µ³ amXw-Km{ia¯nÂsh¨p kp{Ko-h\pambn Icmsdm¸n«p. Icmdnsâ hcn-kpJw H¶p \pWtªmfq. ho t_m¯v _neo-hvZmäv sse^v Cukv F h−À^pÄ sKbnw Bâv hn BÀ UnäÀssaâv Sp s¹ Cäv Sp Zn ^n\njv. hn _neohv Zmäv ItdPv Cukv FIyqÀ t^mÀ Fhcn tkmtdm. (Aäw-hsc Ifn-tbmSpIfn-bmWv. h¬À^pÅps −¦nÂ H¶pw sXm«p\¡m\n-sÃ¦nepw Ifn-Imcyam tb¡pw. kpJ-samcp _nµp, ZpxJ-samcp _nµp. _nµp ഹÜമാനസം

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hnÂ\n¶pw _nµphn-tes¡mcp s]³UpeamSp¶p. ss[cyw AXp ss[cyw.) Cu Icmdnsâ IS-emkv If-dvamdpw-ap¼v C{µ-]p{X\mb _men-sbs¡m¶v InjvIn-´bpsS ´bpsS B[n-]Xyw kp{Ko-h\p \ÂIn. {]Xyp]-Imcambn D]-ImckvacW ]{X¸-ckyw-sNbvXp. F¶n«v Hm¸-td-j³ koX F¶p]-dªp \mep`mKt¯¡pw Hmtcme£w Ipc§-·msc Ab¨p. AhcnÂ Hcm fmWv, Hcp Ipc§³am{XamWpRm³. sX¡³Imänsâ Hc e. ebpsS ]n¶nÂ Hcp e£-aps−¶pIq-«n-t¡mfq. I−p Rm³ koXsb. Im«pac§Ä HSn-¨n-SpI hm\ckz- `mham `mham Wv. acsamSn-¡m¯-Ipc§s\ sImÅn-Ã. sR−v Cdp¡p ¶Xpt]msebpÅ Hcp P·kz-`mhwþ \obXp Imcyam¡−. tIm¬{K-ÊpImÀ ÊpImÀ JmZn-bn-Sp¶XpImcyam¡-−. {]l-kvX³ BZ-c]qÀÆw tNmZn¨p: At¸mÄ BfpIsf-sIm¶tXm? \obtÃ sIm¶Xv? l\q-am³ Xebm«n. ssdäv. Ahscs¶ sImÃm³h¶XpsIm−sÃ? Ah scs¶ ]qPn-¡m\mWph¶sX¦nÂ ¡m\mWph¶sX¦nÂ Rm³ {]kmZn-t¨-s\. AhÀ XÀ¡-¯n-¶mbncp¶ph¶sX¦nÂ XÀ¡n-t¨-s\. hncp¶n-\mWph¶sX¦nÂ hncps¶mcp¡n-tbs\. ]s£ Ahscms¡-h¶Xp sImÃm\mWv. tIm]hpw Bbp[hpam bmWph¶Xv. acW-`ban-Ãm¯ HcpPo-hn-bpan-Ã. A[n-Im cw-t]msebmWpP-·w. AXpIn-«n-bmÂ ssIhn-«pIf-bm³ hÃm¯ `bamWv. Bßc£mÀ°w s]mcpXpI auen-Im hImiamWv. `cW-LS-\bpsS hIp¸n-Ãm¯ `mKw km[qIcn-¡p¶XmWv. Bßl-XybmWp]m]w. XybmWp]m]w. Bßc£mÀ° w \ÂIp¶ ]mXI§Ä¡v tImSXn am¸pXcmdp−v. tImSXn-be£yw-]mSn-sÃt¶bpÅp. e¦bnse \oXn-]o-T¯n\p AsXms¡ a\Ên-emhpsa¶p Rm³ IcpXp¶p. Icp Xs« ]«mf¡mcm, s]mcpXq ta[mho.. \nsâ cmhWsâ AWn-Isf-bmWp Rm³ sIm¶paqSn-bXv. CXp\n-e\nÂ] n\pÅ kacambn-cp¶p. Aýw-hscbpw kacw-sN-¿pw. AXpIgn-ªmepw sN¿pw. F{X{]mbambmepw kz´w-i cocw BÀ¡pw {]nbs¸-«-XmWv. Im¡-¡pX³ta\n s] mt·\n F¶mWv. kz´w ico-c¯n-\pth−n-bpÅ t] mcm«w \oXo-Icn-¡-¯-¡-XmWv XmWv. H¶n-s¨m¶n¨p Bfp IÄh¶v FXnÀ¯-t¸mÄ F\n-¡p\n-hr-¯n-bn-ÃmXmbn. ഹÜമാനസം

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A©pam{XbnÂ aq¶£-csa¶tXmXnÂ Hmtcmhcn-bnepw \mepK-Ww-hcp¯n. ImIfn-s¯äv Hcp sXä-Ã. Nnet¸mÄ ImhyIebpsS {]tem`\¯nÂ hg§n c−mas¯-hcnbnÂ Ahkm\s¯ c−£-cw-Ipd-hph¶n-«pap−mImw. «pap−mImw. AsXmcp AsXmcp hymIcW-s¯-äÃ F¶p ]mWn-\n-bpsS `cW-L S-\bn-ep−v. BcmWp hm\cm cmasâ ktlmZ-c³? U_n-fmWv. kn¦n-fn-Ã. e£vaW-Ipamc\pw `cXIpamc \pw. ]mÀ«n-hymtaml-¯nÂs]«v ]mÀen-saâdn hymtaml-ap t]-£n¨h\mbn-cp¶p e£vaW³. X\n-cma\mb cmas\ t^mtfmsN-¿m³ DuWpd-¡-¯nsâ ssSwtS-_nÄNp«ps]m «n-¨-h³. Hcp ]cn-¸phSbpw I«³Nmbbpw In«n-bmÂ Hcp kt½-f-\w-apgph³Ign-¨pIq-«pw. Ct¸mÄ kJmhn-sâ sbm¸w Im«n-en-fw-Infn Infn am\s¯-ss¸-¦nfn. ]mÀ«n-bn-S-s]«v ]mÀen-saâdn-]mÀ«n t\Xmhmbn XpS-cp ¶bmfmWp `cX³. Hcp Ifw-hc¨v `cn-¡p¶h³ `cX³. Atbm[ybnÂ I½yq-WpIsfms¡ HcpamXncn icn-s¸-Sp ¯n-¡-gnbp¶p. cmasâ saXn-bSn-bmWv saXn-bSn F¶mWp aq¸-scSp¯n-«pÅ am{ń-IhSn. \n\¡n-t¸mÄ thZ-\tXm¶p¶pt−m. {_tÒmkvsIm−p ]Xn-¶mepsk-¡âv XeNpän. kvamfn\pw AXnsâ Hcp In¡p−mht− A{Xam{Xw. ansskepw kvIUpw kss¹-sN-¿p¶Xp HtcIq-«-cmWv. {_ÒmZn tZh·mÀ X¶n-«pÅ hc{]-kmZ§Ä Hcp]mSv FsâssIbnÂ tÌm¡p−v. F\n-¡pacW-an-Ã, Ip«n-I tf. ]cmP-bhpan-Ã. cmaP-b... b... AXÃmsX F\n-s¡-´p−v ´p−v? _Ô\Øs\¶a«nÂ Chn-sS-sb¯n-bXn-s\mcp s\mcp e£yap−v. t_m[hÂ¡-cWw. kz´w kvIoamWv. cmh W³ Bib]m¸-c¯-§-fnÂ\n¶p fnÂ\n¶p ]pd-¯pIS-¡Ww. {] Xybimkv{X]-camb ]caZmcn-{Zyw-\o-t¡-−Xv _p²n-Po-hnIfpsS IS-abmWv. _p²n-bpÅbpÅ-hcpsS Iq«-¯nepw Pohn-I fpsS Iq«¯nepw Fs¶s¸-Sp¯mw. Adn-hpIpd-ªª-hsc Adn-hpÅ-hÀ ]dªpt\scbm¡-Ww. AÚm\n-IÄ¡v IÄ¡v Btßm]-tZ-iw-\ÂtI−Xv ÂtI−Xv almßm¡-fpsS IS-abmWv. cmhW³ HmÀ½n-¸n-¨p: dnsa¼À Zmäv Rm³ \r]-\mWv. F\n-¡p\ns¶ in£n-¡m\mhpw. l\q-am³ kam[m\n-¸n¨p: ഹÜമാനസം

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kmcan-Ã. Rm³ \r]-\paÃ N{IhÀ¯n-bpaÃ. \n\ s¡s¶ in£n-¡m\pw ]«n-Wn-¡n¡n-Sm\psam¶pw Ign-bn-Ã. F\n-¡p\ns¶ icWw-{]m]n-¡m\pw-Ign-bn-Ã. CutemIKXn-sb¸än KXn-tISpsIms−¦nepw Nnń-¡m³ kabambn«p−v. \osbmcp am^n-bbmhcpXv. Icn-aWÂhgn-IfnÂ\n¶p ]pd-¯pIS-¡-Ww. Ww. kwkm-ct¢i¯nÂ apgpIcp Xv. kmK-ct¢iw A\p`hn-¨-h\mWpRm³. \nsâ hwialn-asbms¡ tIaamWv. ]n¶oSv t^mt«m Bb]-ecpw \nsâ Ipe¯n-ep−mbn-cp¶p. Imaw tem`w tamlw XpS§nb ZpÀhn-Imc§-fnÂs]tS− Hcmf-Ã\o. AXn\pw aotX.. AXn\pw aotX \nev¡m³Ign-bWw. ]pjv]-IhnIhn-am \aS¡w FÃmkuIcy§-fnepw fnepw apgpIn-¡-gn-bp¶ \n\¡v C\nbpw s]mdpXn-In-«p¶n-Ã. Ã. \nsâ apJ¯v Al-´bpsS ´bpsS Cd-¨n-¡¡j - vW§Ä Xq¡-¡¡-«n-bmbn-«p−v «p−v. \nsâ taml§Â aäptemIcmPy§-fn-te¡pIS-¡p¶p. \¶Ã. CutemIw FÃmhcptS-XpamWv. Akpc³, tZh³, a\p jy³, ]£n, arKw, DcKw, sNSn, {]mWn... FÃmhcptS-Xp amWv. tZlmßNn-ÍÄ hen-bhÀ¡p]mSn-Ã. {]Ir-Xn-KpW-]]-chiXbm _²-\mbvhcpw {]mW-tZ-l§§ - f - mßmhÃdn-sItSm.. sItSm.. tTm Xz¡v, amwkw, taZ-kv kv, AØn, aq{Xw, aew þ ]©\£{Xtlm«-emWv ico-cw. ImWpt¼mÄ XesbSp¸p−v. Al¦cn-¡mw. Imcyw-t]m¡mWv. APoÀ®w, Aan-Xt`mKw, sImf-kvt{SmÄ. Uoenw-KvknÂ cmhWm Cu tlm«-epIfpw Bkv]-{Xn-Ifpw-X½nÂ F´pt`Zw? acp¶pw `£-Whpw X½ntem? ambmtaml-apWÀ¯p¶ D]-Nmcw, \Ã_n-Ãv. tIma¬tImUv. c−n-sâbpw sImSn-bS-bmfw tZlm`n-am\ amWv. ZpxJw, acWw, hmÀ²Iyw F¶nh c−n-sâbpw ]cnk-c¯v Id-§n-\S-¡p¶p−mhpw. \o tZlm`n-am\w-hn«p Bßm`n-am\w-t\SpI. Bßm hns\ cmjv{So-bhÂ¡-cn-¡pI. AtXmsS ]d-bms\¦nepw hÀ¤-kn-²m´w ssIhcpw. cmacma F¶pNn-ń-¡pI. e¦ bnÂ {]amWn-N-abmsX sshIpWvT¯n-se¯m³ t\m¡Ww. AXmWv s]Àa\âv IpWvTw. a\Ên-epÅ Ipkr-Xn Isf ssh¸v-Hu«v sN¿Ww. ]c{Z-hyw, ]cZmcw, ]cZqjWw CsXms¡ ]m]-IcamWv. \o Ipsd Ifn-¨p\S-¶h\mWv. dn«-bÀsaâpImew-hcpw. hcpw. \nsâ _tbmUmä \¶m¡n-sbSp¡pI. {Kmäphn-änän-If-b−. IÃd-t]msebmWp ഹÜമാനസം

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tam£w. AXn-\I¯ps]-«mÂ P·w-XoÀ¶p. \obXn-\p{i an-¡-Ww. \nsâ Ct¸mgs¯ ]cm{Ia§-fpsS ]IpXn-sa\ t¡-Sn-Ã. cmhW³ kam[m\hmZn-bmbn: Iq«sc hmsdms¡ ] ns¶. Ct¸mÄ th−Xv ]okmWv. Chs\ ]okp]o-km¡p km¡p I. c−ptcma§Ä Hcp IjvW-¯nÂs]-ScpXv. a¦n-\½sf tUm¦n-Ifn-¸n-¡pIbmWv. kmK-ct¢isams¡ Ahsâ Cc«n-Ign-ª-h\mWp Rm³. BcmWpcma³? \nsâ ZmhqZv C{_mlnw?. cmas\ sImÃpw. e£vaWs\sImÃw. koXsbsImÃpw. l\qamt\ \ns¶bpw-sImÃpw. sImÃpw sImÃpw. aq¶p l ]dªp s]m«n-¨n-cn¨p cmhW³. l\q-am³ cmhWs\ Ifn-bm¡n. bm¡n. sImÅmw Iptª \n¶n-jvSw. \qdp\q-dmbncw dmbncw cmhW ·mÀh¶mepw t\m¡v Cu sNdphn-cÂsIm−p Ddp¡p−m ¡pw. Cu sNdphn-censâ \Jw-sh«n-bmÂaXn Ddp¡mhpw. cmhW³ Aedn Bchn-sS-a¡sf Bcmsâ a¡sf sImÃn-hnsS IÅs\ tamń-¡ph¶hs\ tam´¡pc§s\ Hcp cm£-k³ HmSn-h¶p. Rm³ sIm¶pIf-bmw. Ipc§-s\sIm¶mÂ hnhcw ta\I Adn-bcpXv. AhÀ Chä-IfpsS c£-IbmWv. Ah scs¶Xq-¡n-en-t«-¡pw. ¡pw. amcpXn-bpsS ]gb HmW-dd-_nÄ HmW-dpamWv. Chs\s¡m¶mÂ cmasâ {]iv\w-Xo-cpw. AXp]mSn-Ã. ame¸-S-¡w-t]mse {]iv\§-fn-sÃ¦nÂ shdpsXDcp−p IqSn D]-tZ-in-¡p¶hÀ¡p c£-bp−mhn-Ã. cmPmhv hymP D]-tZ-jvTm¡sf Xncn-¨-dn- bpw. bpw. A§s\ Xncn-¨-dn-hn-\pÅ kabap−mbn-¡q-Sm. ZuXykw-L¯n-\p]-Wn-thWw. hnò-jW³ CSs]-«p. «p. sImÃ−. Chs\ sImÃmsXhn-«mse ImsW-¡msW Imcyw cmaN-{µ-\dn-bq. sIm¶mÂ AhÀ ]d-ªphn« \mepe£w Ipc§-·mcnÂ N¯-XnÂ H¶mbn-am{Xw Icp Xpw. ho«pImÀt¡m atäm Hcp sNdnb s]³j\pw-sImSp ¯psIm−v Imcyahkm\n-¸n-¡pw. HcS-bmf-ap−m¡n-hn-SഹÜമാനസം

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Ww. Bsf-X«n-s¡m−pt]mbn sImÃpI. tem¡-¸nÂ \nÊlmb\mb Bsf GI]-£o-bambn aÀ±n-¡pI F¶sXms¡-t¸mse \oNmÂ\o-N-XcamWv ZqXs\ Im¨n-hn-Sp¶ Xpw. \½Ä cm£-k-Ipe¯nsâ A´Ên-\ptN-cp¶XÃ. P\m[n-]-Xyhn-cp²-amhcpXv t]m¡n-cn-¯-c§Ä. cmhW\v Znimt_m[ap−mbn. Ipc§³ {ian-¨n«pw e`n¡m¯ t_m[w hnò-jWsâ Ipdn-¸nÂ\n-¶pIn-«n. \mepw \mepw F«v F«pw c−pw ]¯v F¶n-§s\ ZniIfpsS InS-¸p]n-Sn-In«n. cmP-Iev]-\bnÂ cmhW³ H¸n-«p. s_©p¢mÀ¡v hnfn-¨p]-d-ªp. ªp. AkpchmIyw i_vZ-ap−m¡n. Ipc§s\ sImÃp¶n-Ã. Ipc§-·mÀ¡v hntijn-¨pÅ hmenÂ F®, s\¿v, {Kokv XpS-§n-bh ]pc«n XpWn-Npän XosImfp¯pI. hmÂI¯p¶Ipc§s\ \K-chmknchmknIÄ¡v Hcp kvs]jyÂtjm B¡pI. Hcp HmÀ¡-kv{Sbpw Bhmw. cm{Xn-bnÂ h¶IÅ-\mWn-h³ F¶phn-fn-¨p]-d-bp I. hmensâ shfn-¨-¯nÂ Ahsâ actam´ FÃmhcpw ImW-s«. s]mÅn-bhmepambn aS§n hm\c·mcpsS-Iq-« ¯n-se¯pt¼mÄ Cu \mW-t¡-S-dn-ªmÂ ªmÂ kvamÀ¯-hnNmcw-\S¯n Chs\ ]pd-¯m¡pw. ¯m¡pw. sIm¶mÂ FÃmw Hä-bSn¡pw Ign-bpw. t\«-ap−mhn-Ã. sIm«mcw DtZymK-Ø·mÀ¡p Sqdn-ÌphmcmtLmjw-I gnªp H¶p hoWpIn-«-bXmWv. cm{Xn¡pw ]Ien-\pw-th −n {Sjdn {]hÀ¯n-¨p. cm£-k-·mÀ mÀ {Sjdn Xpc¶p. Ipc§\pw kl-Icn-¨p. \mevImiv In«n-t¡ms«. Ipc§sâ hmev XSn¨pw hepXmbpw Ccp¶p. tÌmdnse tÌm¡v XoÀ¶t¸mÄ kao-]-{]-tZ-i§-fnÂ\n¶pw ]ehn-[ XpWn-¯-c§-sf-¯n. ¯n. Hcp Pufn-¡-S-Sa - pgph³ sI«n-sh¨p. Hm¬bphÀ amÀ¨v... G{]nÂ.... H¬, Sp, {Xo... Unw Unw Unw hmZy§Ä tLmjn-¨p. apg-¡-bm{XIÄ XpS-§n. Iq¸p tee¯nsâacw -temdn-bnÂsIm−pt]mIpw-t]mse l\qam³ \S-¶p. hmenÂ Nq«pI¯n. FÃmhÀ¡pw ktµ-isa ¯n-¡m³In-«n«n-bAhkcw D]-tbmKn-¡pIbmbn-cp¶p cmasâ anjW-dn. c−p`mK-t¯¡p ssIIq-¸n¸n-s¡m−p l\q-am³ hn\b hme\mbn hmense {]Imi¯nÂ Ahsâ apJw-Xn-f-§n. ഹÜമാനസം

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IÅ-\mWn-h³ tamjvSmhv tamjvSmhmWn-h³ X\n-IÅ³ F¶n-§s\ `P-\kwLw ]mSn. cmacma F¶p l\qam\pw ]mSn. I¶Sbpw \mtSmSnbpw tNÀ¶ Hcp kq¸Àkvs]jymenän tjm Bbn-cp¶p AXv. PmYbnÂ ]ehn[ ]m«pIfpap−mbn. A§-s\¯s¶ knµm_mZv R§-sS-cmhW³ koXsb sIm−¶m §s¡´m l\qamt\. s]cp¼d-IfpsS apg-¡w, ]Sn-ªmsd-t¡m«bpsS FSp ¸v, P\_mlpeyw. l\q-am\v kwba\w-t]mbn. BÄ \s¶ sNdpXmbn. BImtcm {lkzmx \ln-\ln ]ns¶ hf-schepXmbn. sI«pIsfms¡ s]m«n-t¸mbn. Xo¡-jvW§Ä § - Ä ]«-ambn-]mdn]mdn-\S-¶p. BZyw ]mepsImSp¯-ssI¡pXs¶ ISn-¨pIpc§³. ¨pIpc§³. Gän-s¡m−ph¶ Gdm³aq-fn-Isf sIm¶n-«p. «p. F¶n«v ]Ýn-atKm]pc¯n-¦ te¡v NmSn-¡-bdn. Imad-IÄ HmSn-\S-¶p. Ipc§sâ XebnÂ sXcn-It]mse N{µ\pw BImi ¯p\n¶p hmeäs¯ Xo¡pÞw Hcp Nq«pt]mse ]nSn¨p Hmtcm -amfn-Ibn-te¡pw NmSn-¡-bdn. ta sF Ian³ F¶v Hmtcmamfn-Iap¼nepw sN¶ptNmZn¨p. ]ó-cmw-hSn-ho-inbpw thK-¯nÂ \n-¶\n-ev]nÂ h«wId-§nbpw an¶p¶ {]IS-\w\w-ImgvN-sh¨p l\q-am³. Hmtcm Nm«-¯nepw Hmtcm hoSn-\papIfnÂ Xos¡m¼pIÄ\m«n. kzámbn hoSn-Ãm¯-hÀ¡p hen-bl-cambn. NqSpw-shfn-¨hpw Nm«-hpambn Ipsd-bmfpIÄ X½nÂ X½nÂ CSn-¨p. hdp¯-]-¨¨-cn-bn-Sn-¨pXÅpw anSp¡n ]m¯p ½-amcmbn. ]m¯p½-bpsS BSmbn. BS-temSmS-embn. BStemS-Iambn. temUmbn. sI«n-S§§ - -fpsS a−bpw ]Åbpw s]m«n-ho- Wp. Wp. Xo Xncamebmbn. tImaUntjm {SmP-Un-bmbn. Aeapd Hceamd-bnepw HXp§n-\n-¶n-Ã. Ah Sn¦nÄ Sn¦nÄ enänÂÌmÀhscsb¯n. Xo sk{It«-dn-bän-te¡p ]SÀ¶p. ^bÂ H¶p]-Xps¡ഹÜമാനസം

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bmbn. I¯m³ CjvSw-t]msebp−mbn-cp¶p. hIp¸pta[m hn-IfpsS Xmak-Øe§Ä, a{ń-aµn-c§Ä, hn{iatI{µ §Ä, tImamfn-amfn-IIÄ, B\¸-ń-IÄ, ]ń-t`mP-\im eIÄ, IpXn-cmeb§Ä, cY¸pcIÄ, ]m«pIt¨-cn-IÄ, anen-«-dn-Iym¼pIÄ, Nn¶ho-SpIÄ, Nn¶w-hn-fn-¡p¶ hoSp IÄ, ayqknbw F¶n-hsbms¡ Xo¡mhSn-bmSn. Aán-Pzm eIfpw l\q-am\pw hmtfmSv hmfv tXmtfmSv tXmfv aÕcn¨p. IÀ¸q-cm`n-tjIhpw `kvam`n-tjIhpw \S¶ k¶n-[m\ambn e¦. koX¡pNpäpw Aán-ip²n-hcp¯n hcp¯n l\q-am³. koXbpsS Imcyw ]n¶oSv cma³ t\m¡n-t¡mfpw. hnò-jWsâ Krl-¯n-te¡v l\q-am³ Ibdnbn-Ã. hmense Xobpw Ibdn-bn-Ã. hnjvWphnsâ `àn-{]-Øm\ ¯nÂ At§mÀ BIr-jv jvS\mbn\ - mbn-cp¶tÃm. Aán-bptSbpw Aeapd-bptSbpw ]Ým¯-eKo-Xn-bnÂ acWw t{_IvUm³kv \S¯n. cm£-k-cnÂ Bib¡pg¸w aqÀÑn-¨p. Ahcpw ]ckv] cw ]gn¨v HmSn-\S¶p. HmSn-\S\S-¡p¶hcpsS tZiambn e¦. C\n cmas\ms¡-h¶v icn-¡pÅ-bp²w-h¶mÂ C§s\ HmSn-\S¶Ifn-¡m³ ¡m³ l\q-am\v ]än-Ã. acymZ-cm a\p \qdp\n-ba§-fp−mhpw. t`Z-K-Xn¡v aq¶nÂc−p`q-cn-] £-hpw-th−n-hcpw. XosImfp¯nb hmen-t·Â hm\cieyw Kwò-cambn. e¦Xn-f-§n. DbÀ¶Xobpw Xm]-\n-ebpw sNbÀam³ cmhW-\pt\ scbpw D−mbn. sNdn-b_-©p¢mÀ¡v hsc cmhW³ icnbÃm¯-XpsIm−mWp CuhIIpg-¸§Ä F¶p]-dbm³XpS-§n. AbmfpsS `cW-¯n-\pIpg-¸-ap−v. I¿q¡pw Nmcn-{Xy`w-Khpw `wKn-bÃ. Ch Xncn-¨-Sn-¡-s¸- Spw. Spw. BsI s]Spw. Ch³ ]pen-bÃ, ]q¨-Xs¶bmtWm F¶pkw-ib amWv. Ct¸mÄ IpSn-¨-XpIªn-bÃ. am^n-b`cWw amdWw F¶n-§s\ cm£-kcpw ]d-bm³XpS-§n. CuamXncn {]Xntj[¯nsâ hnf-¡psImfp¯¡psImfp¯-emWv l\q-amsâ hmenÂ \S-¯n-bXv. e¦bnÂ ]cn-{ian-¨phiw-sISm¯-hÀ aq¶pt]-cmbn-cp ¶p. H¶v km£mÂ l\q-am³ c−v AcpabmÂ koX ഹÜമാനസം

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aq¶v sImfp¯mÂ hnò-jW³ Gsd-k-t´mjn-¨Xv Aán-`K`K-hm\mbn-cp¶p. hen-bk-Zy Xcs¸-«-Xnsâ kt´mj¯nÂ HmSn-\S-¶pip²o-Icn-¡pI bmbn-cp¶p Xo¸-´w. H¶Ãªq-ddÃ - n-XtIt«m Bbn-c amtW ]´§Ä. e¦bnÂ\n¶p Cu Xo ]ns¶t¸mbXv tIcf-¯nse ap{ZmhmIy§-fn-te¡mbn-cp¶p. koX¡pl-\q-aÂtkh IrXyambpw t_m[ys¸-«p. hnò-jW\pw ]pXn-b{]-Øm\s¯-¡pdn¨v Bizmkw tXm¶n. l\q-am³ ho−pw koXsbsN-¶pI−p. \akvIcn-¨p. F¶n«p ]dªp: £an-¡pI. CsXms¡ Hcp \¼dmWv. HcmÄ ImWm\ps−¦nÂ R§Ä N]-e·mÀ ]e A`ymk-§fpw ImWn¡pw. A§-s\Iq-«n«n-bmÂaXn. Ipd-¡-−. koXm½¡v {Ku −v kt¸mÀ«v sdUn-bmbn-«p−v «p−v. hnò-jW³ sse³amän-bn«p−v. th−{X B`yćIel-§Ä C\n-bp−mbn-s¡m Åpw. cma\mcmsW¶p koXmtZ-hn-bn-eq-sSbpw F¶n-eq-sSbpw-thWw a\Ên-em¡m³. B\n-e¡pÅ ]´w-sImfp¯n {]-IS-\amWv. cmhW\pw Aä-ssIsbm¶pw sN¿n-Ã. Hcp F¡mi¦D−mhpw Ad¸v F¶p ]d-bp¶n-Ã. cm£-k·mÀ¡p Ad-¸p−mhn-Ã. ¹m\pw FÌn-taäpw ]dªp ka bw-If-bp¶n-Ã. dnt«¬t_mbn-§n\p kabambn. F¶mÂ tKmbnw-Kv. A¡-scsb¯p¶p. csb¯p¶p. cma`K-hms\ ImWp¶p, Pbvhn-fn-¡p¶p, e¦bnÂ\n-¶p sIm−pt]mb tX§ DS-¡p¶p. ¡p¶p. e£vaW\pw kp{Ko-h\p apÄs¸-sS-bpÅ ^pÄSow ]pd-s¸-Sp¶p. ^pÅmbn-cn-¡pw. Ahn-Ss¯ a\ÊnÂ H«pw hnjaap−mhcpXv. ss[cyambncpt¶mfq. Fs¶ hniz-kn-¡mw. B£³ ss^hvl¬ {UUv D−mIpw. tcmK§Ä ]¼IS-¡pw. ¡pw. l\q-amsâ hn\b`mjtbmSv koX lrZ-bw-Xpd¶p: Fsâ lrZ-b\mYsâ Zpµp`n Rm³ tI«p: A¡sc \n¶p \o sIm−ph¶ hmÀ¯-IÄ at\mZpxJ-an-ÃmXm¡n. Fsâ kzman-sb¡pdn-¨-dndn-bm¯ bm¯ Znhk-§Ä §Ä F\n-s¡-ń\mWv? kJmhpIcsª-¯pw. hn¹hw \S-¡pIXs¶sN-¿pw. ¿pw. henb A«n-adn-Ifpw A[n-ImcamäImcamä-§-fpamWphcm³t]mIp ¶Xv. _qÀjzm k-JmhmIpw. kJmhp _qÀjzmbmIpw. ] mÀ«n Ip¯-It\Spw. Ip¯I ]mÀ«n-t\Spw. ഹÜമാനസം

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AsÃ¦nÂ hnclw -k-ln-¨p -Ignb−. Fsâ tXmfnÂIbdn-bn-cpt¶mfq. c−p\£-{X§sf ho−pw I −pap«n-¡mw. Nt{µmZbw C\nbpw ]pjv]-ameyamhs«. koX]-dªp: \n\¡-Xn-s\ms¡ Ign-bpw. ]s£ AXpam{Xw-t]mc sÃm. ISÂhän-¨nt«m A¼p]meap−m¡n-bnt«m XIÀ¡m \mhm¯ hnizmk-ambn cma³ amtd-t−. temIIÅs\ h [n¨v temIt]meo-kmtht−. t_mIvkv-Hmôkv amaq-ep IÄ ths−¶psh¨pIq-Sm. `mhn-bnse ^m\pIÄ i]n¡pw. koX t\cs¯ t]m¶p F¶p A]-cm[w-]-d-bpw. cm {Xn-bnÂ \nsâsbm¸w Hfn-t¨mSn-t¸mbmÂ Fsâ t]cn\p If-¦ap−mhpw. \ns¶bpw If-¦n-X³ F¶p]-d-bpw. s]mcp Xn-P-bn-¨pt\Ss« ho−psas¶. Hcphn-sÃmSn-¨pXpS-§n-b XmWp ]mhw. Rm³Po-h³If-bmsX Im¯n-cpt¶mfmw. t]mbn-hcn-I. \·t\cp¶p. cmasâ c−mas¯ {]W-bbp²w Pbn- ¡¡-s«. l\q-am³ cmaPb F¶p ssIho-in- ]-d-ªp. ªp. ssIhoin ssIhoin kap{Z-`mK-t¯-¡pad¡pad-ªp. ªp. hS-¡³ISÂ Xncn-¨pNmSn. t]mIpt¼mÄ I− iey§sfm¶pap−m¡n-bn-Ã. Im¯n-cp¶p £oWn-¨n-«p−mhWw. ImcW]qcpjw ImcpWykmKcw {iocmaaoiw icWw-K-tXmkvan.. kvssaÂ ¹okv `qan-bpambn _Ôw-hn-Sn-Ã. LÀjaw-aqew A[n-IXm]-ap −mhn-Ã. D]-{Klw ASp¯-tXmsS ]ÀÆXin-J-c¯nÂ ] md-s]mSnªp ]mS-e§-fp−mbn. fp−mbn. _ln-cmImit]-SIw \¶mbn-\n-e¯n-d-§n. `qan-X«n l\q-am\nÂ\n¶v Hcp KÀÖ-\ap−mbn. _eq¬amet]mse Im¯psI«n-¡n¡n-S¶ Ipc§-·mÀ ·mÀ Dcp−pIq-Sn. KÀÖ-\¯nsâAebmbn Ipsd KÀÖ-\§\§-f hcp−m¡n. l\q-am³hn-fn-¨p]-dªp. koXsbI−p. koXsb I−p. £oc_e \qsäm¶mhÀ¯n-¨p. l þ Tm þ Zm, FÃmhÀ¡pw kt´mjambn. l\q-am³ AWn-Isf kwt_m[\sN-bvXp.p. koXsbI−p. e¦bnÂ kvt^mS-\]-c¼cIÄ \S-¯n. ¯n. ഹÜമാനസം

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cmhWs\ t\cn-«phn-c«n-hn-«p. cmaP-b. cmaPb F¶ ap{ZmhmIyw am\w-aps« apg-¡n. Pmw_-hm³ XpS§n FÃm {_mâpIfpw l\q-ams\ sI«n-¸n-Sn-¨p. ¨p. \o Ipe¯nsâ am\w-Im¯tÃm Ip«m F¶p]dªp Npw_n-¨p. Bdv: e¦m-hn-tijw

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Iaâdn ]Xn-hn-Ã. Ifn-ImWm¯-hÀ¡pÅ dnt¸mÀ«nw-KmWv. kz´w-apSn hncepIÄsIm−ptImXn l\q-am³ i_vZwIpd-¨psIm−p XpSÀ¶p: jo Cukv F s{]än-tKÄ hn¯v kzoäv Bâv euen-F Ivkv{]-j³ Bâv euen tKmÄU³ tIÄkv. BÄ tlÀ aq^vaâvkv BÀ Iyp¡v Bâv t{Kkv^pÄ. BÄ lq saäv slÀ AUvatbUv slÀ. i_vZpapbÀ¯n ]d-ªª-X{Xbpw s]mXpIpc§·mÀ¡mbn hnhÀ¯-\w-sNbvXp l\q-am³: dºÀ_mâpw Hmbnepw CÃm¯ XeapSn. ]d-]-dm¶v. Øew AtimIh\n-bnse inwin-]mhr-£-¨phSv. c−pNp hSv Rm\hsc I−p Ihn-fnÂ I®o-cnsâ Xnf-¡w. shÅw-hän IpgÂIn-W-dmb dmb I®pIÄ. A¶w-Ign-¡msX ¡msX XS-¨pt]mbn-cn-¡p¶p. BÀÖ-hhpw A\pI¼bpapÅ {] Ir-Xw. BÀ¡pw CjvSmhpw. cm£-k-kv{Xo-IÄ apÅpthen-t]mse Npän-bn-«p−v. koXmtZhn cmacma F¶ Hscmä-P-]-¯n-emWv. {]W-bhnhmlw XS-bm³ XS-¦en-em¡-s¸-«-«I - \yIsbt¸mse Hscm ä-hn-Nmcw-am{Xta AhÀ¡pÅp. cmakw-Kaw. ]mhw ImWm³h¿. iq\ythf-bnÂIqsS AhÀ AXpam{XamWv {]tabam ¡n-bXv. cmhW³h¶p koXmtZhnsb X«n-s¡m−pt]mbXpw kp{Ko-h\pambn kJyap−m¡n-bXpw _meo-h[hpw koXmt\z-jW-¯n\v kn.-_n._n.-sF.-bpsS ]Wn-Ipc§-·msc Gev]n-¨Xpw Rm³ hnhcn¨p. Rms\s¶ ]cn-N-bs¸-Sp¯n. Ahn-Ss¯ ]mZmchn- µµ§ - fnÂ \akvIcn-¨p. cmhWsâ s{Xt«m cm£-k-kv{Xo-I fpsS sekv_n-b³ s{Xt«m H¶pw AhnsS \S-¡n-Ã. \Ã [o-cbmWv, tZi`àbmWv. cmaPb F¶mWp tZi`ànKm\w. ssZhw-Xs¶tZiw. FÃmän-sâbpw N¦pd-¸n-\p]q-«n«mWp t]m¶Xv. òjWn¡v Hcp hnò-jWnbp−v. cmahr-¯m´hpw AS-bmf-hmIy§fpw tZhnsb hÃmsX hnkvab¯n-em¡n. tamXn-cw-I−p AhÀ¡p \nb {´Ww-s]m«n. B tamXncw AW-¡m¯ HcpØehpw AhÀ¡n-Ã. Ipsd-¡meambn ¡meambn \nb{ń-¨p\nÂ¡pIbtÃ? Bizmkhpw ss[cyhpw AhÀ¡p−v. sIm−pt]mb sXms¡ Rm\pw sImSp¯n-«p−v. kyqbn-sskUv Aäw]väv ഹÜമാനസം

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ImWn-¡n-Ã, thK-sa¯Ww F¶mWv ]dªn-«pÅ«pÅ-Xv. BÄ tIm¬^n-UâmWv. inhinh. jo Unkvss{I_vUv FIvkv]ocn-b³kkv Hm^v ssNÂUvlpUv Bâv tKÄlpUv Bâv tlÀ tUbvkv \nbÀ inwin-]m. Ipªmbn-cns¡ t_mIvknÂInS¶p izmkw-ap«m¯-hfmWv koX. ]ns¶bmtWm Cu cmhW³tIm«. koX¡n-sXms¡ kln¡m³]-ämsXhcW-sa¦nÂ cmasâ PmXIw amä-Ww. l\q-am³ Kuchw-]q-−p. HcpIjvWw kz´w-hmbnÂ XncpIn-atä-IjvWw cma\p\ÂIn. cmas\am{Xw amän\nÀ¯n. kÀ, AS-bmf-hmIy§-fpsS fpsS Hcp ^bÂ Ct§m«pX¶n«p−v. sZ³ NqSn-bn-cp¶Xpw NqSm¯-sX¶pt]-cpÅ-Xpamb NqUm cXv\w X¶b¨n-«p−v. l\q-am³ cma\XpssIamdn. cma³ D¯-a]pcpj³ GIhN\w NqUmcXv\w-]cn-tim [n-¨p. At±lw I®p\n-d-¨p. a\w-\n-d-ªn-cn-¡-Ww. Ww. aWw Adn-ªn-cn-¡¡-Ww. X¦ta \osbs¶sb{XIm¯p. (Xm¦v bp t^mÀ shbvänw-Kv) F¶p cmasâ DÅw-XpSp¯p. NqVmaWn D¯ co-b¯nÂ]n-Sn-¸n-¨psh¨p kz´w tjmtIknÂ {]ZÀin-¸n¨p. amdn-S-¯n-esXmcp saU-embn. koXbpsS incÊv kaw cmasâ lrZ-b`qan Fs¶mcp hmIyw Aico-cn-bmbp−m bn. ]nÂ¡me¯pw AXp kXyambn. cmasâ lrZ- b`qb`q-anbpsS ImTn\yw koXbpsS Xebn-segp¯mbn. tZhIÄ hÃm¯-Iq-«-cmWv. AhcpsS hN-\§Ä sXän-Ã. ImWm ¯n-S-t¯¡p I®pÅ hmIy§-fmWv Ahcp−m¡pI. AXnse {KmaÀ a\pjy·mÀ¡p a\Ên-emhn-Ã. cma³ koXbpsS ktµiw ]ns¶bpw ]ns¶bpw tI«p. cm{Xn-]-I epIÄ cma\nÂ hn§n-s¸m«n. FÃmw HmÀ½-IÄ F¶p cma³]mSn. ]mSm¯-ho-Wbpw ]mSpw F¶p l\q-am\pw HmÀ¯p. henb kwKo-XÚ-\msW-¦nepw C¯cw kµÀ` §-fnÂ ]ms«m¶pw l\q-am\phcmdn-Ã. h¶mÂXs¶ t\cnb lmkyapÅ aqf-epIÄam{Xw. epIÄam{Xw. lnaKn-cn-X\sb...tl...-aetX F¶n-§-s\. kwK-Xn-Isfms¡bp−mIpw, {ipXn-bp−mIpw. ]mSm³th−n Ip¸mbwamäp¶]-Xn-hn-Ã. ഹÜമാനസം

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l\q-am³ \oho−pw ]d-bq, cma³ Bhiys¸-«p. icn-kzman, l\q-am\p I®p\ndªp. IY]-d-¨nepw ¨nepw sI«n-¸n-Sp¯Sp¯-§-fpambn l\q-am\pw kp {Ko-h\pw cmas\m¸w Ign-¨pIq¨pIq-«n. kp{Ko-h³ tNmZn¨p: l\q-ams\ \n\s¡-´ptXm¶p¶p. HcmßIYsbgpXm³ tXm¶p¶p. \n\s¡{X BßIYIsf-gptX−n-hcpw? NncRvPohn Fs¶mcp im]w \nsâtaepÅ ØnXn¡v BßIYm{]-Im i\w-Xs¶ ]c¼cbm¡mw. kp{Ko-h³ ]dªp: Pohn-Xk-ap{Zw-Xs¶bmWp \o NmSn-¡-S-¶Xv. A¡-sc sc sb¯m³Xs¶ ]mSv. \n\s¡mcp ]mSpap−mbn-Ã. \o t] mbn-h¶Xnsâ Hcp ]mSv Ct¸mÄ cmasâ D¯-co-b¯nÂ ImWp¶ NqUmcXv\amWv. D−mb]msSms¡ e¦bn-em Wv. kap{Z-¯n\¸pdw CS-dndn-ho-tg-−XmWv. \o Xncn-¨pw¨pw-t]m ¶p. NncRvPo-hn-bmhm³ AXpXs¶aXn-bsÃm. buÆ\ ¯nÂ\n¶p hmÀ²-Iy¯n-te¡mWpt]mhpI. Xncn-¨ph¶ XpsIm−p\n-\¡p buÆ\w-Xs¶In-«n. \o hfsc sNdp¸ambn-cn-¡p¶p. CXn-semcp imkv{Xap−v. cma³ AXp icn-sh¨p. sNdp¸w hos−Sp¡p¶Xn\v C\n-bpsamcp ImcWw-Iq-Snbp−v. l\q-amsâ hmbpthKw. {]Imit¯-¡mÄ thK¯nÂ bm{XsN-bvXmÂ Ime¯nsâ ]nd-InIn-se¯pw. C¶nÂ\n-¶pÅ \msf¡p bm{XsN-¿p¶Xn-\p]-Icw thKw-sIm−v \msf-bnÂ\n¶p C¶n-te¡pbm{XsN-¿mw. \o km[n-¨-XXmWv. \o NncRvPo-hnbpw _p²n-Po-hnhn-bpam Wv. cmaP-b. _p²n-Po-hn¡pw Hcp NncRvPo-hn-Øm\w A§p Iev]n-¨pXcWw. A§-bpsS apJw-t]mse sXfn-äpÅXpw ¢o³tjhpaÃ R§-fptSfptS-Xv. AXn-\mÂ R§Ä A]-l-kn¡-s¸¸-Sp¶p−v F¶pw A§-dn-bWw. cma³ A\p{K-lw-\ÂIn. `mhn-bnÂ\n-s¶t¸mepÅ XXz-Nn-ÍÀ¡pw _p²n-Pohn-IÄ¡pw sshbmIcW-·mÀ¡pambn Rms\mcp hcw Iev]n-¨p\ÂIpIbmWv. AhÀ¡pNpcp§n-b]£w l\q (XmSn)bnse¦nepw \ns¶t¸mse tcmaap−mhpw. Ahsc A§s\ P\w-Xn-cn-¨-dn-bpw. \o shdpw l\q-am\Ã. `àlഹÜമാനസം

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\q-am\mWv. A´w-hn« Hcp Nmbvhv _p²nPohn-IÄs¡m s¡-bp−mhpw. AXn-cn-¡s« \o Fń-\mWp e¦Np«ps]m «n-¨-Xv. F§s\bmWXv km[n-¨-Xv. `àl-\q-am\mbXpsIm−pXs¶ {]t`m. hmep−mb XpsIm−v. hmen-Ãm¯-h\p c−pImenÂ \s«-ÃpbÀ¯n \S-t¡-−Xp−v. `à\p Hcp ssZhap−tÃm. kvt] m¬kÀjn¸v Hclw-Imcw-IqIq-Sn-bmWv. GXp]o-dt{]m{Kmapw \S-¯mw. \o sNbvXXn-s\¡pdn¨v Ct¸msg-´ptXm¶p¶p? ptXm¶p¶p? IÀ¯-cn-{]-tbmKw tXSn-bn-d-§n-bh\mWv. sNbvX {Xbpw IÀ½-Wn-{]-tbmK-§§-fmWv. cma³ ho−pw A\p{K-ln¨p: \n\¡p IÀ¯-cnbpw In«pamdmIs«. IÀ½-Wn-bn-eqsS eqsS \o IÀ¯-cn-bn-se¯pw. \n\¡Xpt\Sm\mhpw. kzman, cmakzmao Ahn-S-¶mWv Fsâ IÀ¯mhv. B \ne¡pÅ IÀ¯-cn-hmIyw In«psa¶p hcw-XcWw. XoÀ¨-bmbpw. A§-\sb kw`hn-¡q. Bs« e¦ F§s\bp−v. hen-b\K\K -cw-Xs¶bmtWm? s¶bmtWm? XoÀ¨-bmbpw cmP³. e¦bnse h³taS-IfpsS ]pd¯mWv BImiw hn{ian-¡p¶Xv. BImiw-ho-gmXn-cn-¡m \pÅ ImcWw asäm¶Ã. B sI«n-S-§Ä §Ä s]mfn-¨mÂ BImiw \new-s]m¯ptam. cmhWsâ BImiw hogpsa¶pd-¸mWv. \ap¡-Xp{] iv\aÃ. temI¯v FÃmbn-S¯pw _qÀjzmkmhÀ¤-¡mcp −v. AhÀ¡p aWn-taS-Ifp−mhpw. Ah BImiw-Xm§n\nÀ¯-s«. AsÃ¦nÂ bp²-¯n-\pap¼p cmtaiz-cs¯¯n tKm]pcw-sI«mw. tKm]pc\S-bnÂ hmk-Ń-{µnI tKmtcm N-\sagpXs«. A§s\ BImiw kwc£n-¡s - ¸-Ss - «. kp{Ko-h\pasämcp kwibap−mbn. \o cm£-k-hÀ¤-s¯-¸än ]d-ªp. _qÀjzmkmhÀ¤s¯-¸-änbpw ]d-bp¶p. c−pw H¶pXs¶bmWp kzman. FÃmw-]-d-¨n-esÃ kp {Ko-hkzman. Hs¡ \½Ä ]mÀ«n-¡mcpsS a«pXs¶ hen-b hyXymk-sam¶pan-Ã. kp{Ko-hs\mcp Ipkr-Xn-tXm¶n. Ipkr-Xn-bnÂ\n-s¶mcp ¶mcp tNmZyap−mbn. \mhnÂ\n-¶Xp ]pd-¯ph¶p. cm£-k-·mcpsS `qansb e¦ F¶p -hn-fn-¡p¶p, \c·m ഹÜമാനസം

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_men-bpsS `àn-bnÂ hoWpt]mIptam F¶`bhpw kzman³ At§-¡p−mbn. kp{Ko-hkzman-bpsS Xe¡n-«pNhn-«psImSp¡p¶XpI−mWv F\n¡v _men-tbmSp shdp ¸mbXv. C§s\ ASp¸-¯n¯n-\pw ]-I¡pw Hmtcm ImcW-§fp−mhp¶p. sNdp¸w-apXte Hc½-bpsS- emf\ F\n¡p In«n-bn-«n-Ã. koXm½ F\n¡v A½-Xs¶bmWv. {]mbw t\m¡-−. Poh\À¸n¨pw Ahsc t\Sn-sbSp¡pw. AÑ-\½amsçän tI« IYIÄaqew Hcp hmin-¡mc\mbn Rm\pw hfÀ¶p. kzman cma\pw koXmtZ-hnbpw Fsâ apÖ-·kp Ir-XamWv. ap«p¶h\p Xpd-¡psa¶pw -hn-izmkw c£n¡s«sb¶pw As¶m¶pw Bcpw-]d - -ªnªn-Ã. AsXms¡ ] d-bpt¼mtg¡p t{XXmbpKw Ahkm\n-¨n-cp¶p. {iocma\p kwibn-¡m\pÅ-sImXn _m¡n-h¶p. l\q-amt\ kzmao \o cmhWs\ icn¡pw I−ntÃ? AbmÄ¡p ]¯pX ebpw Ccp]-XpssIbpapt−m? sbhn-sS... shdpsX]-dbp¶XmWv. ]¯pXebpsS _p²n-ImÞhpw Ccp]-XpI¿nsâ IÀ½-ImÞhpaps− ¶p kn.-sF.-F. {]N-cn-¸n-¡p¶XmWv ¡p¶XmWv. \½fpw XXv¡mew AXpXs¶ Gäp]n-Sn-¨mÂaXn. Pbn-¡pt¼mÄ AXn-s\mcp Xnf-¡w-Iq-«m³ «m³ \¶v. Gdn-bmÂ BdpImÞw-sIm−p Xs¶ \ap¡p cmambWw hmbn-¨pXoÀ¡m\mhpw. A {Xt¡ ]Wn-bp−mhq. icn `àm \o e¦bpsS kvsI¨v Xcn-I. Hm¸-td- j³ j³ koÌmÀ DSs\ ¹m³sN-¿Ww. `àin-tcmaWn AImen-ZÄ am¸v a®nÂ hc¨pImWn ¨psImSp¯p. CXm ko. kobpsS \Sp¡v {XnIpS-ae. AX nsâ \Sp¡pS-¯nÂ Hcp skh³ÌmÀ knän-bmWv e¦. kotem¬ F¶p Ad-_n-aebmfw. luknw-Kv Kvtem¬ F¶p _m¦paebmfw. IS-en-seGIm´hcm´. kz]v\w-Im Wm\pw Bßl-XysN-¿m\pw ]än-bØew. tKmÄU³ sbtÃm If-dnÂ tImw]u−phmÄ ImWmw. tIm]u−v Câd-Ìpt]mse Aäw-ImWn-Ã. GXpshfn-¨-¯nepw sh«n¯n-f-§p¶ s]bnâv. I®p]pfn-¡pw. hnam\¯nsâ BIrXn-bmWv \K-c¯n-\v. hnam\m[n-]-\mWp cmhW³ F¶dn I. D¸pkw-kvIcn-s¨-Sp¯XmWs{X Sp¯XmWs{X CÔ\w. as®®bpw s]t{Smfpw Ahn-sS-bn-Ã. ]¨n-eImen-¯o-äbmtbm äbmtbm DW-¡nഹÜമാനസം

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¡pw. HmtcmP-·hmk-\bmWv. hmk-\m_-ew-Iq-Spw. Znhkhpw hnjvWpN-{Is¯ ]d-ªªb - ¨v HcpamXncn hr¯nbm¡nb e¦bn-embn-cp¶p Ipt_-c³ h¶ptNÀ¶ Xv. cmhWmZn-IÄ {_ÒmhnÂ\n¶p temIP-b¯n-\pÅ Nne Bbp[§fpw kq{XhmIy§fpw k¼mZn¨p DZvLm S\w tIaam¡n. ktlmZ-c\mb Ipt_-cs\ e¦bnÂ\n¶p B«n-¸mbn-¨p. Ipt_-csâ hml-\amb ]pjv]Iw sXmSm³k-½-Xn-¨n-Ã. Ipt_-c\sÃ]mÀ«n, Fhn-sS-thW-sa¦nepw skän-emhm \pÅ I¸mkn-än-bp−sÃm. KÔamZ-\]ÀÆX¯nÂ Ipd¨mbncw hf-¨psI«n. cmhW\p Hcp im]-hpw-\ÂIn. cmh W-sâ hml-\amhmsX cmhWs\ sImÃp¶hsâ hml-\ amIs« ]pjv]Iw F¶mbn-cp¶p im]w. ]pjvt]m¯p\n¶n-d-§pt¼mÄ A{XthZ\¨n-cn-¡Ww Ipt_-c³. cma, \ap¡v ]mhw Ipt_-csâ im]w kêam¡- Ww. Ww. cma³ ]d-ªpt]mbn : Ipt_-cs\{X]mhamWv. kp{Ko-h³ ]dªp : koXsb sIm−phcm\pÅ hml\w sdUn. l\q-am³ XpSÀ¶p: A\y·mcpsS apXepsIm−mWv s\K-fn-¸v. \in-¨pt]m IpItbbpÅp. ]mXmf-\n-hmkn-Ifmb cm£-k-·msc apgp h³ aq¸À e¦¡p sI«n-sbgps¶Ån-¨p. XÃpsImÅm\pw Nmhm\pw N§-e]n-Sn-¡m\psams¡¡m\psams¡-bpÅ AWn-Ifp−v cmhW-\v. AXnsâ Al-¦mcamWv ¦mcamWv. cm£-k-·mÀ¡v Al¦mcw F¶p]-d-bn-Ã. Ae¦mcw Ft¶]-d-bq. e¦bnÂ a®nÃ kp{Ko-hm, AhnsS a®nsâ a¡ÄhmZhpan-Ã. a®n-Ãm¯-HcpØe¯v a®n-sâ]p{Xn koX¡v F§s\ Ccn-¡-s¸mdpXn-bp−mhpw? bp−mhpw? KcpU³ ]−pt]-£n¨ £n¨ HcmabptSbpw B\bptSbpw Ahin-jvS-§fpw AhsIm¯n-¯n-¶m³th−n Ccp¶ IS¼phr£¯nsâ t^mkn-epIfpamWv epIfpamWv e¦bpsS Pntbmf-Pn. \½Ä ]pcmhkvXp¡Ä AhnsS J\\w-sN-¿p- ]]X - n\p apt¼ Adn-ªn-cn-t¡− Imcy§-fmWv CXv. J\\w Ffp ¸-am¡m\pw J\\w sN¿p¶ -Zn-hkw-Xs¶ ]{Xk-t½-f-\w \S¯n Imcy§Ä hniIe\w-sN-¿m\pw KpW-amIpw. ]»nIvdn-tej³ImÀ AX\pk-cn¨v ap³Iq«n kv{In]väv FgpXnsht¨ms«. ഹÜമാനസം

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e¦m\K-cn-bpsS BÀ¡n-sSIvSv hniz-IÀ½mhmWv. ab \mWp F©n-\n-bÀ. ]Wn-bnÂ Hcpabhpw-ImWp¶n-Ã. hnizw H¶n¨p IÀ½w-sN-bvXXpt]msebp−v Ft¶m IÀ½w H¶n¨p hnizw-N-a¨-t]msebp−v Ft¶m ]d-bmw. \K-cn-bpsS \Sp¡mWv ]¯pXebsâ amfn-I. ]¯p\nebmWv. \nebn-Ãm¯ B]-¯mWv. ]¯p\n-eb\mWv `mjmćw-sN-¿s¸«p ]¯pXeb\mbXv. Ahs\ \nebnÃm¡-b¯n-em¡msX F\n-¡pk-ln-¡p¶nÃ ¡p¶nÃ cmPm¡-·m tc. ]¯p\n-eamfn-I¡pNpäpw a{ń-amcpsS H¼Xp\n-eamfnIIfmWv. e¦bnse tPymÕy·mÀ \h{K-l-§-fmbn Cu iey{K-l-§-sf-bmWp k¦ev]n-¡p¶Xv. Fsâ ImÀInÂ Hm¸-td-j\nÂ B sI«n-S§-fn-eqsS Rm³ kq¸Àam\mbn NmSn-\S-¶p. a{ń-a{ń-c§Ä H¼Xpw H¼XpcXv\ §Äs¡m−mWp AWn-bn-s¨mcp¡n-bn-cn-¡p¶Xv. Nne t¸mÄ shdpw s]bnâmIpw. H¶pw-]-d-bm³]-änän-Ã. Ipt_-c³ Imin-«paq-Sp¶h\mWv F¶Xpicn. cmhW³ hns¯-Sp¯p hn-ev¡p¶h\mWv. AXn-tesd-ckw B a{ń-aµn-c§-fnÂ Xmakn-¡p¶h cp−sÃm, AhÀ Npacphsc amń-¯n-¶hcmWv. \½sfm¶p sXm«psImSp¡pItbth−q. amfn-IIÄ \new-s]m ¯n-¯-cpw. cmhWsâ Aca\ \hcXv\¡pdpabmWv. Hmtcm\ne Hmtcm cXv\§-fpsS amÀ_nÄemâmWv. aµn-c]-cn-k-cs¯¯pt¼mÄ kqcy³ A´w-hn«v hgn-amdmdp−s{X. AXp sIm−v ]IÂX«m¯ ]e`mK-§fpw B sIm«mc¯n-ep− v. F¶n«pw cmhW\p ]pd-¯n-d§m³ F§s\ kabw-In«p¶p cmPmth. AXmsW-\n-¡pa\Ên-emhm¯-Xv. {iocma³ ]dªp: F\n¡pw a\Ên-emhp¶n-Ã. Cu cXv\abhpw ambmabhpsams¡ t]mhpw. FÃmabhpw t] mIm\pÅ {]hÀ¯-\atÃ cmhW³ sNbvXpsh¨-Xv. Zzm]cbpK-¯nÂ e¦¡mscs¡m−v bp[n-jvTn-csâ cmP-kq-bb Ú-¯nÂ tNmdphn-f-¼n-¡pw. ¡pw. Ien-bpK-¯nÂ BZyw ]penItfbpw ]ns¶ kam[m\tk\tbbpw ]d-ªphn-Spw. {iocma³ tNmZn¨p: Cu cXv\¯n-f-¡§-fnÂ fnÂ koX¡p {àap−mIptam? l\q-am\p hnjaambn. Ahn-S-s¶´mWp]-d-bp¶Xv? kuIcy§-fpsS cm£-kഹÜമാനസം

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·mcmWp AhÀ. \mK-cn-IXbpsS FÃm]-In-«pIfnepw apgp In-¡-gn-bp¶hÀ. \½Ä {]Ir-Xn-bpsS a¡Ä¡v CXnsem¶pw {àw-tXm¶n-Ã. Cu {à¯n-\pÅnÂ in£Ww \ap¡p−mbn-«n-ÃsÃm. koXmtZ-hn¡pw D−mhn-Ã. ]ns¶ sb´p {àX? {_Òmhnsâ {Sjddn-bnÂ hnP-be£van F¶t]-cnÂ ] Wn-sbSp¯ HcphÄ¡v ]n¶oSv e¦bpsS F³{Sn-bn-te¡v t]mkvänwKv In«n. Rm\hnsS sNÃpt¼mÄ tKäpe£van hnkn-änw-KvImÀUnÂ t{Käv e£van F¶p Xncp¯n-¡-gn-bpI bmbn-cp¶p. ASn-In-«n-bmÂam{Xw ]Tn-¡p¶ Hcp shÅm\ ¡p«n. ASn-InIn-«mªmtem X\n-P-´p. cmaP-b, A§-bpsS ASpt¯-¡-hÄ ]qIn-bntÃ? D−p−v. Ct¸mg-hÄ kXytemI¯v NmÀsÖ-Sp¯n-cn¡pw. {Sm³kv^n-s\ms¡ Hcp t]mfn-kn-bn-Ãm¯-XpsIm−p \nsâ in]mÀin \S-¶p. koXm½-sbImWpw-hsc Rm³ PmK-cq-I\mbn-cp¶p. cp¶p. FÃmw-\n-b{ń-¨p\nÀ¯n. Ahn-thIw-Xn-cn-bn-«pt\m¡nbmÂImWn-Ã. NqU-cXv\hpw-hm§n Xncn-¨p\S-¶tXmsS Nm]-eyap−mbn. A_ebpsS NqVmcXv\¯nsâ Hcp iàn-hn-tijw. e¦ Nm¼em¡n ASn-b³. tXm«hpw tXm«¡mscbpw \mi\miam¡n. C\n cma\p{]-hÀ¯n-¡mXn-cn-¡m\n-Ã. timI¯nsâ ko\pIÄIgn-ªp. C\n Ipd-¨Sn ^nenw CSn-¸¸S-S- -amhpw. XoÀ¨. cma³, {iocmaN-{µ³ hnImcm[o-\\mbn. koXbpsS \nizmkw P]n-¨q-Xnb NqUmcXv\¯n\p hntijap−v. \nń-cphSn F¶p\n-§Ä hnfn-¡p¶p. Rm³Xs¶ hSn-sbSp¡p¶]-cph¯n-embn-«p−v. cm£-k-ho-csâ aIs\ ASn-b³sIm¶p. A§-s\bpw C§-s\bpsams¡-bmbn Hcn-cp]-¯n-b©piXam\s¯ Rm\§pIbdn kwhcWw-sN-bvXp. Ibdn-t¸mIs«. AhÀ¡pw-tht− ht− ]ctemIs¯mcpK-Xn. ihs¸-«n-IÄ¡pth−n I®Sbpw ]gb HmhÀtIm«pan«v \S-¡pIbmWp cmPyc£ma{ń. H¸w Hcp cm£-kn-s¸-®p ap−v. AhfmWs{X Imsi®pI. a{ń¡v thsd ]Wn-bm Wv. Fsâ \pg-ªpIbäw-sIm−p Gä-hpw-sa¨-ap−mbXv AbmÄ¡mWv. Ipd-¨pZn-hkw-Iq-Sn-Ign-ªn«pt]m ഹÜമാനസം

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bmÂt¸msc F¶t\z-jn-¨p. apgph³ cm£-k-·mÀ¡papÅ ihs¸-«n¡p HmÀUÀsImSp¯p I½o-j³hm§n-t¡m, Rm\pSs\ Xncn-s¨-¯p¶p−v F¶p ]d-ªª-b¨p. Hcn-S-thf-In-«n-bmÂ Ah\p]-Ww-kzbw ASp¡n-sh¡ma tÃm. cmaP-b. koXm`n-cmaP-b. Xocpam\§Ä C\nbpw sshIn-¡-cpXv. sshIn-bmÂ B cmPyc£ma{ń-bpsS im]-ap−mIpw. DSs\ ]S-\o\o-¡-amcw-`n-¡-Ww. tIm]w-XWp ¡pw-aps¼ Imcy§ÄIgn-bWw. Nmbbpw ]¸Shpw bp²hpsams¡ NqSn-emWp AXmhp¶Xv. Hmtcm I«³Nm bbpw ]cn-¸phS-bpw-Ign¨v ]XmIbpsaSp¯p \ap¡p]pds¸-Smw. kp{Ko-h³ asä-t´mNn-´bnÂs]bnÂs]-«p]-dªp: dªp: sO... l\q-am³ kuay\mbn-]-dªp: t]mfn-äv_yq-tdmsb sk³{SÂI½nän Xncp¯pIbmsW ¶pIcpXcpXv. \½Ä hn¹-hImcn-IÄ A{Xbpd-¸n¨p sO F¶p]-d-bmdn-Ã. sN Ft¶ ]d-bq. {iocmaN-{µ³ Ipd-¨pt\cw Nnń-¨psIm−p\n-¶p. F¶n-«p]-d-bm³XpS-§n. kp{Ko-hm, \nsâ a{ń l\q-am³ hmbpiàn-sIm−p kap{Zw-NmSn. ssIbq-¡psIm−v ¡psIm−v e¦bnse dntkmÀ«pIÄ s]mfn-¨n-«p. Ct¸mÄ hmKzn-emkw-sIm−p \s½ ssIbS¡n. kp{Ko-h³ icn-sh¨p. FÃmw-icn-bmWpkzman. cmakzman-bpsS Cu `à³ F¶pw F\n¡p hniz-kvX\mWv. hniz-kvXXtbmsS F¶p FgpXn H¸nt« Fs´¦nepw ]d-bq. apJyam\a{ń am{X aÃ ]d-ª-XpsN-¿m³ DÕmln-¡p¶h\pamWv. hm¡v ] mgmhn-Ã. cma³]-dªp: aXn, F\n-¡-XpaXn. CXp\ÃaplqÀ¯-amWv. RmbÀsXm«p i\n-hscbpÅ {Kl-§Ä §Ä A\pIq-eamWv. H¶papXÂ ap¸-XphscbpÅ Xn¿Xn-Ifpw A\pIq-eamWv. koX¡p cmhW³ A\phZn-¨-Zn-hk-§Ä §Ä Ipd-hmWv. AXp cma³]s£ ]d-ªnªn-Ã. c−p`à·mÀ¡n-S-bnÂ cma³ ssZhw-Xs¶bmWv. apSn-aqew s]m³aq-eamWv \£-{Xw. Akpc·mcpsS P· \£-{XamWv. \msf D{Xw-DZn-¨pbÀ¶mÂ ]Wn-XpS-§mw. ഹÜമാനസം

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tXmfnÂ\n-¶pNmSn. aäphm\cscms¡ AXn-ibn-¨p. Cu Ipamc³ tamiaÃ sÃm. \½psSt¸mse NmSm\dn-bmw. e£vaW³ cmas\ hW-§n. §n. \nÀt±iw-a\Ên-em¡nb cma\pw HcpNm«w-NmSn. l\q-am \mbXpsIm−v Igp¯pfp¡n-bn-Ã. Chscms¡ ISÂ¡-cbn-se¯pt¼mÄ se¯pt¼mÄ kqcy³ap§n. kqcys\¸-dªn«pw -ªn«pw Imcyan-Ã. `£-Ww, hn{iaw, kÔymhµ\w F¶n-§-s\bmbncp¶p cm{Xn-]-cn-]mS-IÄ. cm{Xn-bnÂ ssZh¯nsâ ssIbnen-cn-¡-Ww. cm£-kcpsS ssIbnÂ s]S-cpXv. AXn-\pÅ GÀ¸mSpIfpambn \oe\pw Iq«cpw HmSn-\S-¶p. ¶p. cm£-k·mÀ ambmhn-IfmWv. cm{Xn-bnÂ amb¡mgvN-IÄ¡p N´wIq-Spw. ]¨¸-IemWp koXsbsIm−pt]mbXv. kqcy³ap§n-tbS-¯p\n¶p N{µ³ Xes]mń-¨p. ]c Imb{]-thiw. t£{X{]-thi\hn-fw-_-cw. B¼en\p hncnªp\nÂ¡mw. XmacXÂ¡mew hncn-bp¶nÃ Fs¶mcpS¼Sn. N{µ-apJnbpw \nemhpw In\mhpIfpw cmas\ hnja¯nem¡n. D¯-co-b¯nÂIp¯nb NqVmsaUepw cmas\Ip ¯n-t\mhn-¨p. Nm«-¯n\v l\q-am\v koXsImSp¯ saUÂ hÃm¯ HmÀ½-IfmWv cma\p−m¡p¶Xv. A¡sc koXm tZ-hn-bp−mhpasÃm Fs¶mcpNn´ cmasâ incÊn-t\bpw t\mhn-¨p. CtXk-abw cmhWsâ sIm«mc¯nÂ ssk\n-It\ XrXzw l\qamsâ \pg-ªpIbäw hcp¯nb \jvS-§fpw ØnXn-K-Xn-Ifpw hnebn-cp¯pIbmbn-cp¶p. cmhW³ D]-kw-lmcw lmcw F¶ Ahkm\AP-−shSn, −shSn, BZykw-lmcw lmcw F¶m¡n. F¶n-«pXpS§n: \mW-amhp¶p ta\n-t\mhp¶nÃ F¶pam{Xw. ]cm{Ianbmb cmhW³ `cn-¡p¶ e¦bn-emtWm CXpkw-`hn¨Xv? Cu a{ímebnÂ C{XeÖmIcamb Hcp ØnXn NÀ¨sN-¿m³ \mw IqSnbn«n-Ã. Hcp hm\c³ BImi¯pIqsS hcp¶p. AXpXs¶ ] pjv]-Ihn-am\apÅ et¦is\ Ifn-bm¡-emWv. \mw sIm −ph¶v XS-hn-en« h\n-XtbmSv cm{Xn-Ime¯ph¶v kwkm cn-¡pI F¶XpXs¶ s]mdp¡mhp¶XÃ. F\n-¡n-tX hsc lrZ-bw-Xpd¶p kwkmcn-¡m³t]mepw ASp¡m¯-h ഹÜമാനസം

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cmhWsâ ZpxJw Ipd-s¨m¶pXWp¯p. ]Icw CutKm I¯n. Dd-¡-amdpamkw DWÀÆmdpamkw F¶IW-¡nÂ\n¶p IpÌÀ®\pWÀ¶p. AXdnªp cmhW\v kt´mjambn. cmhW³ l\q-amsâ hymIcW-s¯-äpIsfms¡ Ipw` IÀ®t\mSv hnkvXcn-¨p. Bdpamk-sa¦nepw Dd-§m³Ignbp¶Xv F{X`mKyamsW¶v IpwÌÀ®\mtemNn-¨p. cmhWsâ ]²-Xn-b{Xbpw-Xs¶ Xs¶ \nXyamb Dd ¡-¯n-te¡v \bn-¡p¶sX¶v At±l-¯n-\pa\Ên-embn. embn. IpwÌÀ®³ cm£-k-cmPmhn-t\mSv ]d-ªp: `qan-bn-sePo-hn-Xt¯-¡mÄ t{ijvSw bp²-`q-an-bnÂt\ Sp¶ AacXz-amWv. AXmWp\ÃXv. F¶mÂ cmhWm \n§ÄX½nÂ apJmapJw-I−mÂ \n\¡p B AaXcXzw In«pw. tÌmdn XoÀt¡-−sb¶ps−¦nÂ \n\¡v cmas\ B{ibn-¡pIbmWpsa¨w. AsXmcp tImÀ¸-tdäv tIkm Wv. Hcp km[mcW-a\pjy\mbn IcpX−. \nsâ aqe[\ kn-²m´sam¶paÃ Ah\v. koXsb I−p \o tamln-¡-cpXmbn-cp¶p. B shÅw ASp¸nÂ\n¶pw hm§n-sht¨-¡v. `qjW-aÃ F¶dn-ªp sIm−v \o hmin-{]-ISn-¸n-¡pIbmWv. koXtbmSp\n\¡v ]d-bp¶t]msebpÅ {àsam¶pan-Ã. {]Xm]-¯n-\pth−n \o {àw- ImWn-¡pIbmWv. {KÙ§Ä k¼mZn-¡p¶Xn\p ¡p¶Xn\p c−pt±iap−v. hmbn¡p¶h\p AXphmbn-¡m\mWv. NnecXp {KÙ¸pcbpsS {]Xm]w-Iq-«m³th−n hm§n-¡p¶hcmWv. AhcXphmbn¡n-Ã. B ]pkvXI§Ä hme³Ip¯n Bcmepw-hmbn-¡s¸-SmsX aªpI« Aen- bpwbpw-t]msebmIpw. \o koXsb A]-l-cn-¨Xv shdpsX shdpsX {]Xm]w-Im«m\mWv. koX¡p Hcpamkw kaba\phZn¨v \o aoUnb ssIbS¡pIbmWv. C§s\ aoUn-bmam\nb sIm−p\S-¡tWm? aoUn-bs¡mcp kz`mhap−v. A¶¶pI−Xv hmgv¯p¶ amap\n-amcmW-hÀ. aoUn-bbpsS cmPmhmWv \mcZ³. tNmZy§-fp¶bn¨v Ncn-{X¯nsâ KXn amän-¡-fbpw. ASn-Øm\]-cambn hnjvWp]-£-t¯mSmWv Nmbvhv. Fhn-sSbpw F¯pw. BÀ¡pw GXphn-hchpw \ÂIpw. kzX{Ńm\Â F¶p]-d-bmhn[w Ft§m«pw Nmbpw. \yqkvhmeyp Fs¶m¶nÂam{XamWv AhÀ¡v I®v. \mc Z³ F¶ s\än\v Hcp ]mkvthUp−v. Hmw \sam \mcmb ഹÜമാനസം

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cmhWsâ ssk²mń-I\mb A\n-b³k-Jmhp hnòjW\pw Ahn-sS-sb¯n. ]mÀ«n-bpsS CubnSs¯ t] m¡nÂ Jn¶\mWv. Jn¶·mcpsS sImSn-bmf-ambn-«p−v Ct¸mÄ. tPyjvTm, cm£-k-hÀ¤-¯nsâ t£aamWp \½psS e£yw. hyàn-]-camb C-jv jvSm\n-jvS-§-tf¡mÄ ]mÀ«n-Xm ev]-cyamWphepXv. CâÀ\mjWÂ _qÀjzmkn-bmb cma t\mSv cmhW-\Ã BÀ¡pw Pbn-¡m³]¡m³]-än-Ã. tImÀ¸-td-äpIfpambn kacw-sN-¿pIbpw `cWw ]¦n-Sp IbpamWv \Ã sse³. BtKmfo-IcWw B kao- ]]-\¯nemWv kzoIcn¡s¸Sp¶Xv. Chscm¶pw a\pjycÃ. Bcm sW-¶dn-bm\pw \nhÀ¯n-bn-Ã. henb kzm[o-\iàn-bm Wv. GsX¦nepw Hc{U-Ên-te¡v \ap¡v {iocmas\ Xmgv¯n-s¡-«m³ ]än-Ã. \nch[n AhXmc§Ä \S-¯nb I£n-bmWv. temssII\mY\mWv. Xo{hhmZ-¯n-s¶Xnsc `mhn-temI¯nsâ {]Xo-£-bmWv. hm\c·msc¡qSn ap¶ Wn-bn-seSp¯-Xphgn hen-sbmcp ktµ-iamWv cma³ \ÂIp¶Xv. CsXm¶pw ImWmXn-cn-¶pIq-Sm. Hcp]mSv sNdp¸-¡mcmb Ipc§-·mÀ¡v sXmgn-epIn-«pIbmWv. F´pwsN¿mw al-Xm F´pw-sN¿pw hjfm F¶mWv. \n§Ä c−pt]cpw F´psN-¿psa¶v ]d-bm³h¿. F´pwsN-¿m³ ssek³kpÅ-hcmWv. Xm¦Ä ambmPme¡mc\mWv. sIm«n-tLmjn-¡-s¸-SpwSpwt]mse ]eXebpÅ-h\mWv. cmasâ koXsb sXmgp¯p amän-s¡-«nb tIa\mWv. em]vtSm¸nÂ ta¡-¸pkm[\ §fpw amPn-¡vkm[\§fpw sIm−p\S-¡p¶h\mWv. cm£-k-Ipe¯nsâ sNbÀam\mWv. \nch[n-t]mcm «§fnÂ hnP-bw-t\Sn-bh\mWv. hnP-b³Xs¶bmWv. Nm\ epIfpw ]{X§fpw taSn-¡ÂtImtf-PpIfpw \S-¯p¶h ¯p¶h \mWv. sNcn-¸papXÂ ^À®n-¨Àhsc Dev]mZn-¸n-¡p¶h\pw B hgn sNcp¸pIp¯n-apXÂ Bimcn-amÀhscbpÅ-h cpsS Akq-bm]m{Xambh\mWv. i{Xp¡sf Ime]pcn-¡b¡p¶ dn{Iq-«n§v GP³kn \S-¯p¶h\pw AhcpsS FÃn³Iq-¼mc¯nsâ hen-¸w-I−v kt´mjn-¡pIbpw sN¿p¶h\pamWv. FÃm am^n-bIÄ¡pw A`bkz-cq-]-\m Wv. Agn-aXn-¡mÀ¡v tdmÄtamU-emWv. krjvSn-ØnXn ØnXn kwlmcIÀ¯mhmWv. ]nXr-kz¯v ]nXr-iqiq-\yambn ssIImcyw-sN-¿p¶h\mWv. Bscbpw F´pw-hn-fnഹÜമാനസം

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−v. ÌmÀknw-KÀ l\q-am\v e¦bnÂ\n¶p CusabnÂ{]hml-amWv. Ip«n-Isfms¡ Cu kq¸Àamsâ Bcm[Icm Wv. koXsbI−p ]mhw cmas\tbmÀ¯p `àn-s¸-«-hÀ, l\q-amsâ t]m¡n-cn-¯-c§ÄI−p c§ÄI−p `àn-iàn-s¸-«-hÀ, cmas\tI«p `àn-s¸-«-hÀ F¶n-§s\ aq¶pXcw-s]-«-hÀ Çtg \ap¡pNpäpap−v. Ch¡n-S-bnÂ¡n-S-¶XpsIm− mWv e¦ Zzo]mWv F¶p Rm³ ]d-bp¶Xv. C\n B kpµc³ kpapJ³ hnÃmfn-ho-c³ Chn-sS-h¶pIbdn-bmÂ cm£k-kv{Xo-Isfms¡ Nmc{]-hÀ¯-\w-XpS-§pw. koX¡p A§-s\bpw Hcp XethZ-\bp−mhpw \oImcWw. cma³ ^m\pIÄ kÀÆ{Xh¶mÂ BÀ¡mWp B Imäv XSp ¡m³Ign-bpI? Ignhpw kÂ_p²n-bpapÅ-hsc hi¯m¡pI. Ahcp ambn tImþHm¸-td-äohv skmsskskmssk-än-bmhpI. A§sb A§sb B]¯nÂ NmSn¨p sIm¶mÂ A§-bpsS a{ń-amÀs¡-´mWv? F\n-s¡mcp ktlmZ-c\mWp\jvS-s¸-«-«X - v. bp²w-Ifn-bnÂ Hcp]mSpPo-h\pw [\hpw \jvS-s¸-Sp¯-cpXv. ]IÀ¨-hym [nbpw AWp_m[bpw D−m¡-cpXv. a{ń-amcnÂXs¶ F {Xt]-cp−mhpw F¶dn-bm³h¿. Icp¯-·msc ]nW-¡n¡n-hn«n«p F´pImcyamWv t\Sp¶Xv. Hcp C¯n-cn-t¸m¶ koXtbm? Ahsc§m\pw sI«n¯q-§n-bmtem? \n\s¡Ãmw t]mbntÃ? awK-fw-t\cp¶Rm³. cmat\mSv CW§n temIImcy§fnÂ hnP-bw-t\SpI. cmhW\p tIm]w i{Xphmbn: i{Xp¡sf `bt¡-−Xn-Ã. an{i`mh¯n-en-S-s]-Sp¶ arZpcmK-§-sf-bmWv kq£n-t¡-−Xv. sImSn-sbSp¯p\S ¡p¶hÀ apgph³ kJm¡-f-Ã. IÅ-·mcpw D−v. Ahsc hniz-kn¨mÂ acW-amWpêw. hnò-jWm, \obn-t¸mÄ ] d-ª-sXms¡ acW-ImcW-amWv. \ns¶ sImÃmXn-cn-¡m³ Hcp ImcWhpw ImWp¶n-Ã. C¶pXs¶ Fs¶ ktlmZ-c s\sIm¶h³ B¡msX Øew-hn-SpI. ImWm¯n-S-t¯¡pt]mIpI. IS-enÂNmSn Ft§ms«-¦nepw \ońc£-s¸SpI. \nsâ cmas\¦nÂ cma³. s]g-¡m³t\m¡v ¡m³t\m¡v. B]-£¯p\n¶p \nsâ Igp¯nÂ XneIw-NmÀ¯m³ Fsâ N{µlmkw XpSn-¨psIm−n-cn-¡pIbmWv. ]mÀ«n-bnÂ \o c−m a\mth−h\mWv F¶p ad-¶pt]mbn. hnò-jW\p henb sse^v s{X«p−mbn. ഹÜമാനസം

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cm{Xn-bnÂ hoSn-\pt\sc ItÃdp−mbn. hnò-jW³ ]ndp]n-dp¯psIm−n-cp¶p. kJm¡Ä¡p ]Wn-bmbn. cmhWsâ H¼XwK ssk\n-Ia{ń-k-`bnÂ \ÃIme ¯pam{Xw Ign-bm\n-jvS-s¸-Sp¶ \mept]-cp−mbn-cp¶p. Ahcpw hnò-jWsâ {Kq¸n-te¡pamdn. Hcp sNdnb hnam \¯nÂ hnò-jWs\ Xnc¡n-bn-cp¶p. AhÀ cm{Xn-¡pcm {Xn Øew-hn-«p. cma\mbn hbÀseÊnÂ _Ôs¸-«p. kap{Z-Xo-c¯ph¶n-d-§pt¼mÄ cmasâ GPâpamÀ hml-\hpambn Im¯p\n-¶n-cp¶p. AhÀ I−]mtS ]mSn: cmacmaPb ]mSn-hs¶mcp ss]¦n-fn-s¨¨-¡-s\... emÂkemw emÂkemw emÂkemw kJm¡tf hnò-jW\pw a{ń-amcpw {iocmat\mSv sFIyZmÀVyw {]ISn-¸n-¨p. AhÀ \nehn-epÅ cm£-k-hyhØn-Xn¡v FXn-cmsW¶p Adn-bn-¨p. ap¶Wn-_-Ô§Ä s]mfn-s¨-gp XmsX atXXcXzhpw P\m[n-]-Xyhpw hmgn-sÃ¶p a\ÊnembXmbpw Adn-bn¨p. cm£-k-·mÀ, Ipc§-·mÀ F¶n§s\ c−phÀ¤-§Ä tNcn-Xn-cn-ªp\nÂ¡pt¼mÄ Ipc §-·mÀs¡m¸w \nÂ¡ms\ X§Ä¡p Ignbq F¶dn-bn¨p. cma³ ]ptcmK-a\mib¡mc\mWv. `mhn-bpsS hmKvZm\ amWv. hmKvZm\§-fpsS `mhn-bmWv. a\pjy³, Xncy¡p IÄ, Ømhc§Ä, Øm]-\§Ä F¶nhtbmSv A`ywKw t`Z-_p²n-bn-Ãm¯ cmasâ ka`mh\ X§Ä AwKo-Icn¡pIbmWv. kp{Ko-h\p hnizmk-¡pd-hp−mbn. Hcn-¡Â]äv ]än-b XmWv AbmÄ]-dªp: FWo-¡n³ ambPme§Ä hmXnÂXpd¡pw a{´hmZn-I sf, cmhWsâ A\n-b\mWn-h³. hn òjW-\mbmepw U»yq òjW-\mbmepw. X{´¯nÂ Nnet¸mÄ tPyjvT \pamhmw. Xe]-¯n-sÃ¦nepw As©®sa¦nepw ImWpw. Bbp[w-\n-d-¨-hn-am\hpw \mep Im_n-\äw-K-§§-fpambmWp hchv. Iqdpamäw {]Jym]n-¨¨-tijw Nmc{]-hÀ¯-\w-\S-¯nbmtem. Ashbve_nÄ I½nän IqSn F´p sX½mSn-¯ chpw \S-¯mw. i{Xp]-£s¯ am\n-¡mw. kz´¡mcmbn A`n-\bn-¡p¶htc¡mÄ i{Xphn-s\¯s¶ hniz-kn-¡p ¶XmWp \ÃXv. ChcpsS {Kq¸pk-amIy§Ä \ap¡-dn-bnÃ. kahmIyamhnÃ Ak-aamIpw F¶q-ln-¡mw. C\n ഹÜമാനസം

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ChnsS h¶p {Kq¸pIfn-¨mtem. \ap¡n-hsc th−. hnam\w Cd-¡mt\ A\phZn-¡-cpXmbn-cp¶p. C\n-sbms¡ ssl¡-amân-\phn-Sp¶p. Cu {]tabw-hgn CXpNÀ¨-sNbvX hÀ¡nw-KvI½nän Xocpam\¯n\p cmas\ NpaXes¸-Sp¯p IbmWv. sImÃmsa¦nÂ sImÃmw. hfÀ¯-W-sa¦nÂ hfÀ¯mw. P\m[n-]Xyw Cu bp²-apJ¯pw hnP-bn- ¡¡-s«. sSen-t^m¬ _q¯pI½nän apXÂ tZio-bhÀ¡nwKv I½n-än-hsc tcJ-s¸-Sp¯nb `n¶m`n-{]mb§Ä Imän-eSn-¨p t]mbn. cmaP-b.. cma³ Xocpam\saSp¡-s«. cma³ R§sS ssl¡-amâv. BÚm]n¡q Iev]n¡q e£w et£m]-e£w ]n¶mse, ap¶mse. {iocma³ \nco-£-It\mSv dnt¸mÀ«mhiys¸-«p. l\q-am³ ]dªp: t]mkn-äo-hmWv. _n t]mkn-äo-hmWv. Ct¸mtg \ap¡v hntamN\ t\Xmhmbn hnò-js\ {]Jym]n-¡-Ww. B`yć¡pg-¸-§Ä¡§Ä¡-XpaXn. Rm\hnsSsN¶v hoSpIÄ I¯n-¨-t¸mÄ hnò-jWsâ _w¥mhp a\¸qÀÆw Hgn-hm ¡n. At±l-¯n\p ¯n\p \t½mSpÅ NmbvhpIq«m\pw aäpÅhÀ¡p kwibw hfÀ¯m\pambn sNbvXXmWv. C§-s\bÃmsX asämcp ]cn-Wmaw D−mhn-Ã. hoSpt]mhm¯-h\v \mSpt]mbn. \½psS ]mÀ«n¡v Bfn-Ãm¯n-S¯v hnaXsc t {]mÕmln-¸n-¡-Ww. ]mÀ«n-ImÀUn-sÃ¦nepw \½psS Øm\mÀ°nØm\mÀ°n-bm¡-Ww. cmaPb koXm`n-cmaP-b. cmIjk-Ipe¯n-emWp hnò-jW³ P\n-¨-sX¶pÅXv Hcp {]iv\tabÃ. P\n-¨n-tÃ, Pohn-¨n-cn-¸ntÃ BÄ? hwi ip²n-bpsS Imcysam¶pw \½Ä ]d-b−. \¶Ã. Hs¡ A½-s]ä a¡-fsÃ? FÃmän\pw AÑ-·mcp−mhn-sÃ? tNmc tNm¸sÃ? lotamt¥m_nsâ Af-hn-\sÃ thcn-tbj \p−mhq. Xn¶m³ FÃmän\pw A¶w [m\y§Ä tht−? IpSn-¡m³ shÅw-tht−? \nco-£-I\p]-d-bm\pf-fXp]-dªp. C\n Xocpam\w ssl¡-amân-s\Sp¡mw. {iocma³, hm\ç-S-bpsS ssl¡-amâv, cma¸-S-bpsS hniz-kvX\mbI³, Atbm²ybnÂ \¼À sS³ hk-XnbnÂ Xmakn-t¡-−Xn-\p]-Icw bp²w-sN-¿m\pÅ GtIm ]-\k-anXn \bn-t¡-−n-h¶ Bcm[\m]m{Xw {]Jym]n ¨Xv klÀjw ssIbSn-¨psIm−p ]S-sbm¶msI kzoIcn¨p. hnaXt\Xmhmb hnò-jWs\ \mw ]n´pW-¡p¶p. ഹÜമാനസം

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At±lw Hcp hn¹-ha{ń-k-`bp−m¡pIbmsW-¦nÂ \mw AwKo-Icn-¡pw. ¡pw. sFIycmjv{S-k-`bpsS AwKo-Imc¯n\p {ian-¡pw. FÃm D¨-tImSn-bnepw cm{Xn-tImSn-bnepw ]s¦Sp ¸n-¡pw. P\m[n-]Xyw hnò-jWsâ ssIbnÂ `{Z-ambnambn-cn¡pw. Xo{hhmZs¯ t{]mÕmln-¸n-¡p¶ \bw cmhW³ amän-tb]-äq. hwihn-UvVn-¯¯§ - Ä¡pÅ Hcp adp]-SnSn-Iq-SnbmWn-Xv. kt´mjw-sIm−p hbdpap«nb hm\c·mÀ XeIp¯n \n-¶p. ssa¡v Hm^vsN-bvXpsIm−p ]mÀ«n-¡mtcmSmbn ]ctam ¶Xt\Xmhv \ne]mSphn-iZo-Icn¨p: B{ibw-tXSn-hcp¶hsc \mw ssIhn-S-cpXv. F{XsNdnb ]mÀ«n-bmbmepw Hcp tImÀ¸-td-js\¦nepw sImSp¡Ww. ]pd-¯pÅ-hÀ¡p sImSp¯mÂ AI¯p ASn-Ipdbpw. temIw Hcp Xd-hmSmsW¶p a\Ên-em¡n Xd-hm«nte¡p aS-§p¶hsc tZio-b[mcbnÂ ebn-¸n-¡-Ww. cmasâ \nÀt±ia\pk-cn¨p kp{Ko-h³ hnò-jWsâ ] mÀ«n-t\Xm¡sf AIt¯¡v £Wn-¨p. AhÀ h¶]msS `£-W-taibn-te¡v B\bn-¡-s¸-«p. «p. ]mÀ«n-Xs¶bmIs« BZyw. {iocma³ ]dªp: hcWw e¦m[n-]m, a{ń-amcpap−tÃm. h¶hÀ AsXmcp ip`kq-N-\bmbn FSp¯p. AhÀ XmWpsXmgpXp. \bX{´w sImgp¯p. hnò-j³ s]s«¶p bYmÀ° cma`à\mbn. hn¹-ht\ Xmhmbn. t]mcm«-§-fpsS hÀ²n-Xho-cyambn. `cW-X{´ Ú-\mbn. \·bpsS BÄcq-]-ambn. ]Þn-X\mbn. cmak ¶n-[n-bnÂ C§-s\sbms¡-bmWtÃm ]Xn-hv. `àP-\§Ä ]pd¯p DÃmk-hm·mcmbn. hnò-jW³ cmas\ kvXpXn-sIm−p ]qaq-SÂ\S-¯n. i {Xpkw-lmc]q-P-sNbvXp. `K-h³, hniz-\mYm, cmhWsâ ZpÀ`cW-¯nÂ Ak-lnjvWpXsIm−mWp R§Ä Cu kmlkw sNbvXXv. C\n-apXÂ R§Ä Xm¦fpsS `à·mcmWv. FÃm {]tab §Ähgnbpw ssl¡-amân\p Xocpam\w-hn-Spw. ssl¡amânsâ GXpXo-cpam\hpw inckmIÀ½Wm ImeW A\pk-cn-¨psImÅmsa¶p ap{Z-¡-SmknÂ km£n-k-lnXw lnXw ഹÜമാനസം

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H¸n-«pXcmw. temIw Hcp {Kmw BWv. BtKmf-hXv¡-cW-a ÃmsX am\hcmin¡p thsd Intem{KmanÃ. Ht¶m ct−m \qäm−pIfn-te¡pam{XapÅ cm£-k-{]-Xybimkv{X§Ä C\n hnP-bn-¡n-Ã. A[À½-¯n\p [À½w am{Xta c£-bp Åp. ]mÀ«n A¨-«-¯nÂ hoÀ¸pap«n tXmSps]m«n-bhcmbn R§Ä. DNn-Xamb Im¯n-cn-¸nsâ kabw XÅn-¡f- ªp. ªp. l\q-amsâ hchnÂ FÃmNm\epIfpw Xpd-¶pIn-«n. R§Ä Bthi`cn-Xcmbn. Ahk-cw-h¶t¸mÄ R§Ä¡v CsXms¡ Xcmbn. hen-bt]mcm«-¯n\p X¿m dmWv. ]{Xk-t½-f-\w-Xs¶ \S-¯m³ X¿mdmWv. AhnS¶p \nÝ-bn-¡p¶XmWp R§-fpsS ]pWy]m]-§Ä. tImÀ¸-tdäv coXn-IÄ R§Ä I−p]-Tn-t¨mfmw. ]emb\wsIm−p IpSw-_-\jvS-s¸Sp¯nb R§Ä¡-dnbmw euInIhn-ja§-fpsS \ncÀ°IX. euInIw ZpxJ-ImcW-amWv. BßmhmWp icn. amhpIfnÂ aÂtKmhbmWp Bßmhv. Btemfw amsh¶XmWp AXnsâ Hcp ]mN-Iw. A§ bpsS Bßmhns\ Xncn-¨p]n-Sn-¡m\pÅ bp²- ¯nÂ ¯nÂ R§Ä ap¶Wn-t¸mcmfn-IfmIpw. IfmIpw. At§-¡mWp ¡mWp Ań-a hn-P-bw. AXpd-¸m¡n-bmWp cmPyw-hn«v R§Ä A`bw-tX Sn-bXv. A§-bpsS {]XyiamÀ¤-¯nÂ R§Ä ]cn-]qÀ® hn-izmkw-tcJ-s¸-Sp¯p¶p. cma³ ssIbSn-¨p. k¶n-ln-XcpsSsbms¡ ssI k¶n]n-Sn¨p H¸w hnd-¨p. ASn-tbmSSn ssIbSn Imen-«-«-Sn-¨p. \mw k´pjvS-\mbn-cn-¡p¶p. koX¡pth−n-bpÅ t] mcm«w am\hcminsb iàn-s¸-Sp¯pw. Fsâ Ic§Ä¡p \n§fpw Icp¯p]-IcpI. \n§Ä¡n\n ZpxJ-ap−mhn-Ã. A{Xio-en-¨p−mhpw. tImÀ¸-tdäv klmbw FÃmXe ¯nepw D−mIpw. t]mtc? aXn-tbaXn ]qń-¦tf. Rm\pw R§fpw cwK- ¯pIm ¯pIm WmsX R§sf ]n´pW-bv¡p¶hcpw [\ycmbn. R §Ä `mKyhm·mcmWv. euIn-IkpJ-§-fnÂ fnÂ R§Ä¡p Xmev]cyw Ipd-hmWv. Ahn-Ss¯ NcW-§fnÂ `àn-bp −mhs«. A§-bpsS A\p{K-l-ap−mhs« F¶mWmi. {iocma\pw Aamń-¨n-Ã. CXpIgn-ªpthWw ASp¯]-Wn. `à·mcpw Úm\n-IfpambhcpsS a\ÊnÂ koXm k-taXapÅ cq]w D−mhpw. D−mhmXn-cn-¡n-Ã. \o aäpÅhÀ¡p Hcp amÀ¤-tcJ-bmhs«. hcpw-bpK-§-fnepw C¯-cw{Kq-¸pamd-epIfpw I£n-amä-§fpw IqSpamd-epIfpap−mh ഹÜമാനസം

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kp{Ko-hm, \o kqcy]p{X\mWv. Xmaçq-amebn«v s]m«p sXm«-h\mWv. hm\ccmPmhmWv. cm£-tk-iziz-csâ hmbvsamgn hcsamgn-Isf \o am\n-¡. _men Fsâ ktlmZ-css\ tkmZ-c\mWv. \obpw Bhgn Xmbvhgn ktlmZ-c\mWv. ktlmZ-c³\n-an¯w _lpIr-Xthjw F¶mWv. ktlmZ-c·mcmb \mw Fń\p hntcm[w-]p eÀ¯-Ww. ]pecpw-hscbpw ]peÀ¶mepw kmtlmZ-cy¯n\p hIbn-semcp _Ôsams¡ Iev]n-¨pIq-«-t−. hntcm[§Ä AkvXan-¸n-¡Ww. Ipc§m \obpw Rm\pw-X ½n-seń\v? am\n-\nsb Rm³ Hcpam\mbn h¶psIm−ph ¶p. Rms\mcp ta³. AXn\p \o l\q-amt\ ]d-ªª-b¨p Xncn-¨p]n-Sn-t¨-¡v. InjvInÔ \Ã ØeamWv. sXep ¦mWp `mj. HK-Sn, c−p, aqUp, \mepKp F¶n-§-s\ bmWv F®¡w. \obpw ]Sbpw dnt«-W-Sn¨psImÅpI. IrXyambn dnt«-W-Sn-¨mÂ ]ngbS-t¡−n-hcn-Ã. th−mXo\¯n-en-S-s]-SmXnSmXn-cn-¡pI. cm£-k-·mcpsS iàn-tNmcn-Ã. iàn-bnÂ R§Ä¡p ap«m\pÅXp tZhiàn-tbmSpam{X amWv. Ipd-¨p\mfmbn sI«n-¡pSp§n-\S-¶n-cp¶ Ipc§-·mÀ P\iàn-Im«n. ipIsâ apJ-¯n-«psImSp¯p. cm£-ksâ apJw AhÀ CSn¨p Ipc§p]-cpham¡n. Ipc§papJw-h¶ cm£-k³ sse³amän. cma\ÃmsX ssZhapt−m AXnepw hen-sbmcp ssZhapt−m cmacma Im¡-tW... F¶n-§s\ §s\ ]m«pakmebmbn. cma\n-S-s]«p Nph¶ImÀUv Im«n ipIs\ Hu«m¡n. C\n Ahs\ XpSÀaÕc§-fnÂ ]s¦Sp¸n-t¡− F¶p hn[n-bp−mbn. \oth− th− icWw {]_-tZy... Rm³sN¶v cmhW\v F´p]-ZyamWp sNmÃn-s¡mSp t¡-−Xv? kp{Ko-h³ \bw-hyàam¡n. _men-sbsIm¶hÀ R§Ä¡v _men-bpsS hIbnÂ ktlmZ-c³ ]pÃmWv. {Kmkpdq-«nÂ \in-¸n-¡m\n¡m\n-d-§n§n-¸pd s¸« kJm¡-fmWp R§Ä. ssZhw klmbn-¨n«v {Ku−v hÀ¡v `wKn-bmbn \nÀÆln-¨n¨n-«p−v. t]mfnäv _yqtdm CS-s]«p: Chs\ imkn-¨p\nÀ¯phn³. izmkw-hn-t«ms«. ]pd-¯n ¯n d-§n-\S¡-cpXv. tImSn-X¶mepw ]pX¸n-¡pIbpw-th− hn«psImSp¡pIbpw th−. ഹÜമാനസം

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]cm{IaWw \nÀ¯n-sh¡m³ \nÀt±iw-In-«nb hm\c ¸S ipIs\ sI«n-bn-«p. koXmtZhn kzbw-hcw-sN- bv bvtXmcp t{XXmbpK-¯nse {iocma³ AS-hp\bw ssIs¡m−p. hnhcw-tI«-dnª cmhW³ cma]-£s¯ [À½-NypXnsb¸än hnj®\mbn. Ipd-¨p]-c¼cIÄ ]pe`ysagpXn-hn«p. cma³ X½nÂt`Z-s¸« Ipc§-·mcpambn IS-se§-s\I S¡pw F¶p NÀ¨-sN-bvXp. ISte ]qt´mWn F¶ \nÀt±iw BZyw thm«n-\n«p tXmäp. c−äw \of-apÅ Hcp {imhp−mhpI, AX\§msXIn-S-¡pI, AXn-t·se t·se \S¶p A¡-sct¸mhpI F¶{]tabw thm«n-\nSmsX XÅn. Ahä-bpsS taÂ hgp¡-ep−mIpw F¶p ko\n-bÀ kJm¡Ä Nq−n-¡m«n. ¡m«n. ]g-baÕymhXmctamÀ¯n-«mtWm F¶dn-bnÃ cma³ H¶pNn-cn-¨p. ImWmbIS-ensâ apXemfn hcpW-\mWv. ]pd-t¼m¡neqsS Hcp k©mc¯n\p hgn-s¸-Sp¯n-¯¯c - ptam F¶t]£n-¨pt\m¡pI. {iocma³ k½-Xn¨p: sImÅmw Iptª \n¶n-jv jvSw. aq¶p\mÄ a\Êm£n-bpsS kzc¯n-\pth−n cma\p]m kn-¨p. [\yamb Hcp]mk-\. I£n-IfpsS kÀÆhn-[k ½À±¯nÂ\n¶pw hn«p\n¶p. kap{Zw hen-bI£n-btÃ? Cu Im«n-¡q-«-ensem¶pw Cf-In-bn-Ã. {iocma\p \nb{´Ww-hn-«p. e£vaWm, ]mÀ«n-bpsS ImU-td, GXp ImÀUpw ên¡n-sÃ¦nÂ As¼Sp¡v. hnsÃSp¡v. kap{Zs¯ Nm¼em ¡pw-Rm³. Cu shÅ-¯nÂapgph³ ¯nÂapgph³ t¢mdn³s]mSn-hn-X dpw. Chsâ kmÄ«v Rms\Sp¡pw. Chs\ `qan-bn-te¡p]c¯n-hn-Spw. a\pjy·mÀ Cu Al-¦mcs¯ ImepIgpIm \p]-tbmKn-¡-s«. Ipc§-·mÀ¡p ·mÀ¡p kap{Z-¯n-eqsS \S¡m³]mIamhs«. XncIf-{Xbpw {Xbpw XqhepIfmbn ]c¶p\S ¡-s«. kap{Z-¯n\p hmbpt£màp−mbn. XncIÄ Hm¡m\am bn. kap{Zw \mWw-sI«p. a¨nÂ tÌm¡psh¨ cXv\§Ä cmasâ ImÂ¡Âsh¨p. kap{Zw Hcp In−n-bn-tes¡mXp §n. In−n Ian-gv¶p. Xnc\pcIÄ cma]mZ-¯nÂ AebSn¨p. ഹÜമാനസം

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AhÀ k_q-dmbn. kema¯mbn. emÂk-emambn. HmwXÂk-embn. FÃmw H¶mbn. Hm¦mcs¸mcpfmbn. N§m¯w hnfn-¸mS-Isebmbn. C\n-sb¶pw ImWpw \½Ä, Xncame sasÃs¨mÃn. samgn-sNmÃp¶ {]iv\tabn-sÃ¶v aq¶ph«w IqIn. \njvIf-¦\pw \ncmab\pw ambmab\pw \nXy{]-kw-K-I \pamb eoemIr-jvWm, F¶pw t{imXmhpw aqV\pamb Rms\§s\ A§sb Adn-bm\mWv? ISÂ shdpsX ISesImdn-¨psIm−n-cp¶p. taemhnÂ\n¶p Iev]n-¨pIq-«p¶ in£-bnÂ aq-V\mb Rm³ t\Àhgn-¡mc\mIs«. \nsâ apSn-t¦mepX«n sXfn-¨hgn-bnÂ \S-¡s«. A§-bpsS ]Wn-Xs¶ DZvt_m[\hpw \nhr-¯n-bn-sÃ ¦nÂ tam£w-XcepamW-tÃm. tImÀ¸-td-äpco-Xn-bmW-Xv. kzman-icWw. ]mZ-__-ew-Xm, Xm, tZl-_-ew-Xm. Gń-hnhn-S-¿m, XÅn-hn-S-¿m. Rm³ e¦¡p hgn-sh«mw. ]¼mK-W]] - -Xsb\ax C\n \o«n-s¡m−pt]mIp¶XnÂ AÀ°an-sÃ¶p cma³ a\Ên-em¡n. \osbmcp e£yap−m¡v. Hcp e£yw Xm. IcmdnÂ H¸n-Sv. »m¦v sN¡p Xm. hcpW³ hg-§n-\n-¶p. F´pthW-sa¦nepw FgpXn-sbSpt¯mfq. Rms\mcp sslth¡p Øew-Xcmw. \oebman\o Xoc`q-an-bnÂ \ohcq cmatZ-htX... Ipd-¨p]pd¨p]pd-t¼m¡v Øeap−v. iey ¡mcpw IÅ-·mcpw IhÀ¨-¡mcpamW-hn-sS. _ÀapU-bpsS ieyhpap−v. A[n-Ian-Ã, apt«mfw. AhnsS \nçm¡ns¡mÅpI. Poh\pÅ A]-IS-§sfms¡ Xhn-Sps]mSn-bmbn. kvIUvan-ssk-epIÄ ]mªpsN¶p Øew hr¯n-bmbn. bmbn. ]mew-]-Wn¡v hcpW³ aqfn. \f-s\¶ tIm¬{Sm IvSÀ¡v ]Wn-sImSp¡mw Fs¶mcp \nÀt±ihpw-sh¨p. AP´minÂ]-§-fpsS psS Bim\mWpt]mepw Bim\mWpt]mepw \f-hm\c³. Izt«-j\n-ÃmsX ]Wn-tbÂ]n-¨p. ASn-bńcw Fs¶ gpXn Nph¶\mS-sIm−v sI«nb ^bÂ \fs\ GÂ]n-¨p. ^bÂXq-¡n-sbSp¯p \f-s\m¶p IpS-ªp. ¹m\pw FÌn-taäpw ]d-]-dd-¶p. CsXms¡ ^benÂ\n¶p Cd-§n§n-hcs«, \f³]-dªp. ഹÜമാനസം

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t_mw_n-«p\in-¸n-¡pI, AhnsS ]p\À\nÀ½mW-{]hÀ¯-\§Ä \S-¯pI F¶XmWp temI\o-Xn. Bip]{Xnbpw tem¡-¸pw-t]mse Bbp[nbpw Zpcn-Xmizmk-hpw-t] mse Hcp _Ôw. _Ô§-sfms¡bpw hyÀ°sa¶m Inepw tkXp_-Ô\w ]Wn-XpS-§n. temIamk-Iew tImÀ¸-tdäv IoÀ¯n-]]-c¶p. hcpW³ Øew-hn-«Xpw ]Wn XIr-Xn-bmbn. tkXp hnsâ ]Wn-Ign-¡psa¶p \f³ Dd-¸n¸n-¨-a«mWv. \f-]mew Fs¶mcp ioepXs¶bp−v. GXp]mN-I¯n\pw ]mIw iothen-sb¶mWv AÀ°w. t{XXmbpK-¸-IÀ¨-tbmsS \f]mIw F¶mbn amä-¯w. Hcp Ip¡okv \f-Z-abń IYbp ap−mbn. ZqXhmIyw-t]mse Ihn-Xmabambn ]mew-]-Wn. hm\c ¸S h·c§fpw ]mdIfpw sIm−ph¶p \nd-¨p. AhÀ¡v Cu]mew XIÀ¡m³ h¿m¯ hnizmk-ambn. cma\pw koXbv¡pan-S-bn-epÅ ]mew. A®md-¡®\pw X¶memb Xv. ]Wn-¯n-c¡n-\nsS Hmtcm]mbmcw-]-d-bp¶Xn-\nsS Btcm hnò-jWsâ Hcp Iq«mfn-tbmSp tNmZn-¨p. \n§-sf-§s\ cmhW-kk-`hn-«p. hm¡u«v\S-¯n. F¶nt«m d¬-Hu«mbn. `mKy¯n\p ChnsS hm¡v C¶mbn. \mepU-btemsKms¡ Im¨n-bnsÃ? ]¸-Sw-Im¨pwIm¨pw-t]mse hnò-jW³ Im¨n. F¶n«v Cd-§n§nt¸m¡p\S-¯n. atä-]-£-tam. Dd-§n-t¸mbn. cmhWsâ Xmcm«pw tIaamWv. CS¡v sR«nbpW-cpt¼mÄ ssIbSn-¡pw. ]mew-]-Wn-¡nsS ¡nsS cma³ Hc¼ew-]-Wn-Xp. koXsbt¯-Sn-bpÅ bm{XbnÂ cma\mZyw HmÀ½-h ¶Xv ]−pIpe¨ Nm]-ambn-cp¶p. AXn-¶[n-Imcn ]cainh\mbn-cp¶p. ]cain-h³ F¶mÂ ]camh[n \·, sh«n¯n-f-§p¶ sh¬a F¶p `mjyw. cma³ inhs\¯s¶ {]Xn-jvTn-¨p. shfn¨hpw Ipd-b−. F¶n«p t£{X¯n\pw ]me ¯n\pw cmtaizcw Fs¶mcp t]cn-«p. \aÈn-hmb. Im¡-tW. ഹÜമാനസം

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tkXphnÂ ap§n-¡pfn-¡pI, cmtaiz-cs\ \nhÀ¶p sXmgpI, Imin-¡p\S-¶pt]mIpI, KwKbnÂ Ipfn¨p Hcp IpSw shÅw Npa¶ph¶p cmtaiz-c\v A`n-tjIw-sN-¿pI þapàn-¡pÅ Hcp amÌÀ¹m\pw AtX NS-§nÂ {]Jym]n¡-s¸-«p. «p. Icn-s¸-«n-bn-«pXn«pXn-f-¸n-¡pI, ¡pI, Np¡pw IpcpapfIpw Xpfknbpw tNÀ¡pI, Ijmb¯n\p tas¼mSn-bmbn sIm¼³PmXn-Kpfn-Ibpw Ign-¡pI F¶n-§s\ hn]peam sbmcp ]\n-Nn-In-ÕbmWp hnò-jW-\ptXm¶n-bXv. C\nbpw A`n-{]mbw tcJ-s¸-Sp¯n-bmÂ Hcn-S-hpap−mhnsÃ¶XpsIm−p Xami]-d-ªn-Ã. \maapd¨p \mS-apdn-¨pXpS-§nb ]mew-]Wn BZyZn-h kw-Xs¶ ]Xn-¶meptbmP\ \o−pt]mbn. \o−p\o−p Ccp]-XptbmP-\, Ccn-]-¯n¯n-sbm¶p tbmP-\, Ccp]-¯n-c −p tbmP-\, Ccp]¯n aq¶p tbmP\ F¶n-§s\ A©mw-Zn-hkw thIpt¶cw tZio-bKm\w-]mSmsa¶mbn. ]mSmsa¶mbn. A©p\mÄ tZit_m[w-sIm− Ipc§-·mÀ¡v asäm¶pw Nnń-¡m\p−mbn-cp¶n-Ã. ]mew-]Wn XpS-§n-¡¡-gn-ªXpw ªXpw hm\c·mÀ \mepIm enÂ NSp]n-SpXs¶ ]mewIS-¶p. \o−pIn-S-¡p¶ ¡p¶ I¼n-¨p cpfpIÄ Cf-Ipw-t]mse Hcp ]S-\o-¡w. {iocmatZ-h³ l\q-ams\ hml-\am¡n. e£vaW³ AwK-Zs\ hml-\am¡n. A¡sc kpt_-e]ÀÆX¯nÂ ]mew-IS-¶]S X¼Sn¨p. ]q¡-ff-¯n-\p\Sp¡v ap¡pän-t]mse ]S-bpsS \Sp¡v kpt_-ebpsS aqÀ²-\y¯nÂ cma³ Hs¶Sp¯p]n-Sn-¨p\n¶p. Chn-sS-sbhn-sStbm koXbp−v F¶ Adnhp B t\m«-¯n-ep−mbn-cp¶p. kzÀ®s¡mSn-ac§Ä, tIm«-hmXn-epIÄ, hf-¨phmXnepIÄ, aWn-¨n-{X¯mgpIÄ, Xnf-§p¶ amfn-IIÄþkoXh ¶ps]« e¦ tamln-¸n-¡p¶ Øen-bmsW¶v cma t\mÀ¯p. \cö-dpIfpw A¼e{]mhpIfpw ImjvTan-«mepw Adn-bm¯-hn[w cm{Xn-bnÂ tKm]pc§Ä {]Imin-¨n-cp¶p. ChnsS Hcp AUo-jWÂ kqcy\p−v. AYhm DÅ kqcysâ Uyq«n Ccp]-¯n¯n-\mepaWn-¡qÀ BsW-¶ptXm ¶p¶p. KpUvtamWnwKpw KpUvss\äpw Chn-sS-bpt−m bpt−m Bthm. cmasâ BImw-£b - psS kqwse³knÂ cmhWsâ ഹÜമാനസം

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km¶n²yw Zriyambn. Xan-gvkn-\n-abnse knwlmk-\w, ] m«pko-\n-ses]-®p§Ä, Xm]-k-¡q-«-«§-§f - psS XmSn-t]mse Beh«-§fpw sh©mac§fpw (koX Nmªn-cn-¡p¶acw I−n-Ã) þ sshäv luknÂ temIt]meo-kn-cn-¡p¶ ImgvN cmasâ I®nÂs]-«p. «p. Atlm BÝcyw Cu Im©\¯n-sem¶pw koXbn-Ã. Ã. cmasâ \bX{´w ]pd-¯pNmSn. sI«n-¸q-«n-s¡m−ph¶ ipIs\ hn«-b¡pI. ipIsâ N§-ebgn-¨p. ipI³ aq¶pNmÂ \S¶v Xncn-ªp\n¶p cma\p keyq«psImSp¯p. Xncn-tªmSn. ipIs\¡− cmhW³ ]mSn. \osbt´ sshIn-h¶p ]qwXn-¦tf.. ipI³ ]dªp. Xn¦f-ÃtIkv. ss{^tU-bmtbs\. bmtbs\. cm£-k-taml\m XS-¦en-embn-cp¶p Rm³. Ct¸mÄ hn«-b¡-s¸«-XmWv XmWv. ZqXs\sImÃp¶Xv A´mcmjv{S IcmdpIÄ¡pw acymZIÄ¡pw FXn-cmbXpsIm−p Poh³In-«n. CsÃ¦nÂ ss {^sN-bvtXs\. AhÀ hmdm³h¶hcmWv. koXsbsImSp ¯psIm−p thW-sa¦nÂ bp²-samgn-hm¡pw. A§p bp²w sXcsª-Sp¡pw F¶ hnizmk-¯n-emWp Cu Hm^À F¶p tXm¶p¶p. F´mbmepw ZqX³ F¶ \ne¡v Fsâ ssIhiw ]d-tªÂ]n¨ Hm^dmWnXv. I£n-IÄ Ip¶n-t·Â _w¥mhp−m¡n IqSn-bn-«p−v «p−v. Im cyw-]-d-bpIbmsW-¦nÂ Cu Hm^À Xct¡-sSm¶pan-Ã. e¦t]mhn-Ã. l\q-amsâ ssIbnÂ\n¶p XÂ¡mew c£s¸-«-hÀ¡p C³jqd³kv s¢bnw In«pw. cma\pw e¦bpsS IÅn a\Ên-emhn-Ã. AXn-s\mcSn-sImSp¡mXn-cn-¡p¶Xv \¶v. hnò-jW-almcmPmhv F¶pw hntZ-is¯ Hcp hn¹ht\Xmhmbn-¡-gn-bpw. e¦ sXm«pIq-«m³ In«n-Ã. cmas\ sImSn-tbän-\S-¡pIbmWn¡pIbmWn-t¸mÄ. t¸mÄ. cma\mWp cmas\¶wKo-Icn-¡-Ww. koXm½sb aS-¡n¡ns¡mSp¡-Ww. bp²-samgn-hm¡hm¡-Ww. cmamZn-IfpsS Ignhpw iànbpw F\n¡p t\cn«p t_m[ys¸-«XmWv. shdpsX B]-¯nÂs]-ScpXv. temIw-`cn-¡p¶Xp Im«n-embmepw \m«n-embmepw cma\mWv. Atbm²ybnÂ At±l-¯nsâ acsaXn-bSn knwlmk-\¯n-en-cn-¡p¶p. e¦ hnò-jW-s\ ഹÜമാനസം

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s¡m−p `cn-¡pw. ]mhkÀ¡mcns\ sFIycmjv{S-k` ] n´pW-¡pw. hnò-jW³ t]mcmfn-IfpsS t\XmhmWv. Ipim{K-_p ²n-bmWv. th−k-ab¯v {Kq¸pIfn-¨p. cmhW\pw cma]£w-kzoIcn-¨mÂ hnò-jWsâ ap³ssI t]mIpw. kwib§-fps−¦nÂ Adn-hpÅ-htcmSp tNmZn-¨pt\m ¡q. cmaPb F¶ ]mkvthUv \n§sf ]pXnb sskän-se ¯n-¡pw. ]pXn-btemIw, ]pXnb Adn-hv, ]pXn-bkw-thZ-\ §Ä. cmhWm, -cmasâ sskän-semcn-¡Â Ibdn-bmÂaXn, Cu hnUvVn-¯hpw Al-¦mchpw ¦mchpw Dt]-£n-¡pw. cmako-Xamsc A¡-scbn-¡sc \nÀ¯n-bpÅ Ifn kZm Nmchn-cp²-amWv. koXmhÃ`\mb cmas\ tkhn-¡p¶ XmWv _p²n. kz´w `mhn-t\m¡p¶h\mWp C¡me¯v hn¹-hImcn. kz´w Imcyw-t\m¡m¯ hnUvVn-Isf hnUvVn-Iq-ivamÞw F¶ AÀ°¯nÂ kpµ-chnUvVn F¶phn-fn-¡pw. B s\bnw-t_mÀUpsh¨v \in-¸n¨v sjbnw F¶m¡pw. C¯cw {]hÀ¯-\§Ä¡p temI ¯n\p P·hmk-\bmWpÅ-Xv. -Bcpw Syqjs\Sp¡−. cmhW³ Aemdw-sh¨-t]mse Aedn. FtSm \obmcmWp ipIm, ipI]pc¯pImct\m? Ipf¡-Sh - ntem BÂ¯-db - ntem Hs¡ Aeªp hÃ hmÀ¯bpw In«ptam F¶pt\m¡v. sX−n-¯n-cnªp D]Po-h\w-Ign-t¡− \o cmPmhnsâ aotX N{IhÀ¯n-N-abp IbmtWm? \obmcmWp cmPmhns\ D]-tZ-in¡m³? \n\¡v cm£-k-Ipes¯-¸än F´dn-bmw. Poh\nÂsImXn-bps− ¦nÂ DSs\ Øew-hn-t«m. càw-t\m¡n Iq«pIq- Sp¶h Sp¶h \mhWw. X©w-t\m¡n-\S-¡p¶h³ ¡p¶h³ hÀ¤-i{XphmWv. hÀ¤-i{Xp Cu hmIyw-tI«Xpw XSn-sbSp¯p. CXp tIÄ¡m³ Im¯p\nÂ¡pIbmbn-cp¶psh¶ptXm¶p¶p. hmsamgn-sbms¡ sImÅmw. Ahs\ sImÃm³ A¼pIjWw D]-tbmKn-¨mÂ AXp tZio-b\jvS-ambn-cn-¡psa¶p cmhW-\ptXm¶n. cm£-k¡p¸mbaps−t¶bpÅp Nm©m«-¡mc\mWp ipI³. almk-tµ-ln. ]mÀ«n-hn-Zym`ymkwZym`ymkw-t]mcm. D−mbmepw t\scbmhm¯-h\mWv. Nmc{]-hÀ¯n-\¯n-\p]äpw F¶ \n-e¡mbn-cp¶p \nba\w. AXn-\pw-sImÅ-cpXm¯-h\m bn. cmhWsâ ap¯-È³ ameyhm³ Cusbmcćo-£-¯nഹÜമാനസം

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te¡p hSn-Ip¯n-h¶p. ap¯-È\mbmepw Ccp¯m\pÅ cmhWsâ Ignhp A]mcambn-cp¶p. Ccp¯m\h\p Ccp]XpssIIfmWv. ko\n-bÀ knäo-k¬, k®nsâ k®n-t\mSv ]d-ªphnªphn-d¨p. \osbsâ t]c¡p«n-bmWv bmWv. Ip«n-bnse hnIr-XnXn-¯-c §Ä \o Dt]-£n£n-¨n-«n-Ã. Ip«n-¡met¯ \n\¡p taPÀskäv ]cm{Ia§-fmWv. t]c¡p«n F¶p]-d-bm³ h¿m¯-hn[w \o s]cp¯pt]mbn. t]ccm£-k³ F¶p hn-fn-¡-Ww. cm£-k-Ipe¯n\p \o Ae¦mcamWv. e¦ bpsS ap¯mWp \o. apt¯mSp apt¯, ap«-t¯msS. s] m¶n³ Ik-th, ]p¶mçq-amt\ Adn-hnsâ XesbSp¸p Ifpw IÀ½-tijn-bpsS ssIIfpw \nsâ PmXIamWv. ]s£ Imew ssIbpw-Xebpw ]pd-¯n-S-cpsX¶p HmÀ½n-¸n-¡p¶ NneXpsIm−phcpw. NneXpsIm−phcpw. Ah \nan-¯-§-sf-s¡m−dn-bW-sa¶p F\n¡p tXm¶p¶p. H¶psIm−dn-bWw c−nsâ _em_ew. c− psIm−dn-bWw aq¶nsâ _em_-ew. A§s\ Iq«n-t\m ¡v. \n\s¡´pw Xocpam\n-¡mw. _m¡n-bpÅ-hÀ am\n¡pw. AtX \S-¡q. ImcWw \o Ft¶¡mÄ {]Xm]nbpw [n¡mcnbpw A[n-Imcnbpw Ct¸mÄ Awiw tat\m\pam Wv. F¶mepw ZpÀ\n-an-¯§Ä § - Ä Adn-bmsXt]mhcpXv. Nph ¶agbpw InW-dpIÄ ImWmXmhepw \Ãe£-W-aÃ. kp\man-¯n-cIÄt]mse Ipsd Ipc§-·mÀ hS-t¡-Xo-c t¯¡p ]mªph¶Xmbpw tIÄ¡p¶p. koXbmWp e¦bpsS ZpxJw. cmaN-{µsâ IhnX cmhW³ Xncp¯n. e¦bmWp koXbpsS ZpxJw. koXbmWp cmasâ ZpxJw. hmÀ²-Iyhm³ ameyhm³ HmÀan-¸n¨p: cmaN-{µsâ Ihn-XXn-cp¯m³am{Xw ]{Xm[n-]-cmtbm \o? koXh¶apXÂ e¦bnÂ A]-iIp\§-fmWv fmWv. cm£ks\ Ipc§-·mÀ B{Ian-¡p¶Xpw \c\pw hm\c\pwIqSn kJyap−m¡p¶Xpsams¡ \madn-bp¶p. ]iphn-s\¸ änbpw tNmcsb¸-änbpw NneÀ IYIfp−m¡p¶p. ]qPn¡p¶ hn{K-§-fnÂ\n¶p hnbÀ¸pNmepIÄ HgpIn-hcp ¶p. ]IÂapgps¡ CSn-apg-§pIbmWv. cma³ ]t− Hcn-SnഹÜമാനസം

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apg-¡-¡mc\mWv. koXsb In«m³ Ah³ ]t− Hcn-Sn-apg¡n-bh\mWv. l\q-ams\t¸mse N]-ecmbhcpambmWv Ah\p Iq«v. AhÀs¡´pw AhÀs¡´pw tNcpw. F´mW-hÀ Im«n-¡q-«pI «pI F¶p ]dbm³h¿. e¦bnÂ AhÀ¡p \jvS-s¸-Sm\pÅXp koXam {XamWv. \aps¡mcp cmPyap−v. Ipt_-cs\ tamln-¸n¨ Øen-bmWn-Xv. koX¡p\jvS-s¸-Sm\pÅXp ImWm¨-§-e IÄam{Xw. t\Sm\pÅXv kzÀ®¨-§-eIfpw Hcp temIhpamWv. B t_m²yw DÅn-epÅ-hÀ DÅ-dnªp t]mcmSpw. tamiw-ImeamWv. Ahn-S-hnsS \ntXy\sb¶pXs¶ ]d-bm hp¶ tdmU-]-IS-§Ä, IpXn-cIÄ Nmhp¶p, Agn-aXn-bm tcm]-W-§Ä. tZhImcy§-fnÂt]mepw henb hmÄ]-bäp IfmWp \S-¡p¶Xv. Aev]-Ú-·mÀ kÀÆÚ-cmbn-bn\S¶p tLmjn-¡pIbmWv. {Iak-am[m\w A{Ia¯n-emWv. _p²n-Po-hn-IÄ IÄ F´p s\dn-tISpw FgpXn-¸n-Sn-¸n-¡m³ hnet]-ipIbmWv. Cu \mSv Ft§m«mWp cmhWm. ZpÀ\n-an-¯-§-fmWp kÀÆ{X. thWtam \ap¡o koXsb. Ahsf cmas\Spt¯ms«. Ah\\p`hn-¡-s«. kuIcy`mKy§-sfms¡ Hcp hntZ-ih\n-X¡pap¼nÂ ASn-bd-hpsh¡-cpXv. cmas\ \ap¡w-Ko-Icn-¡mw. hntcm[w shSnªp shSn-\nÀ¯ÂIcmdnÂ H¸psh¡mw. Im¸ntbm IqSn-btXm IpSn¨p ]ncn-bmw. Úm\kv\m\¯nsâ hgn AXmWv. cma\mWp cma³. temIm`n-cma³. kÀÆÚ-cma³. At¼ń hntÃń hmtf-ńbpw InjvIn-µ-·mÀ e¦bpsS skIyq-cn-än-t]mÌphscsb¯n. Ahä almtamiamWv. hwic£-¡pÅ D]mbw Is−¯-Ww. Ww. D]mbwsIm−v Hm«-bS-¡Ww. AXp]-ddªpXtc−Xv ª pXtc−Xv Hcp ko\n-bÀ knänk-®nsâ ISabmWv. cmhWsâ taÂhcn-¸-ÃpIfpw Xmgvhcn-¸-ÃpIfpw I¼h en-¨psR-cn-ªp. Hcp Ipcp¯-t¡-SpIqSn hm§n-shbv¡m³ kabambn-cn-¡p¶p. bp²w A\n-hmcyamWv amXmalm. A§p cmasâ Bfmbn H¶pw ]d-b−. th−k-ab¯v A§sb Bh iyapÅ-t¸mÄ sIm«mc¯nÂ\n¶p Bfphcpw. At¸mÄam {Xw apdp¡m³s]mXn FSp¯pt]mcmw. an{Xambpw `rXy \mbpw ktlmZ-c\mbpw h¶ cma³ Ct¸mÄ ap¯-È\mbnഹÜമാനസം

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h¶n-cn-¡p¶p. F\n¡p ImW-−. ^m³kn {UÊnsâ Bim·mÀ Hcp]mSp−p sIm«mc¯nÂ. cmhW³ tImÂ¡-fn-bpsS ssÌenÂ \mhpw Nhn-«pIfnbpsS sÌ¸nÂ ImepsaSp¯p AIt¯¡p Kan-¨p. a{ń-k` ASn-bń-cambn hnfn-¸n-¨p. H¼Xv: bp²w

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At§-bäw N]e{]-Ir-X\pamb l\q-am\mWp asämcpI £n. Cu I£n-\nebpsS lp¦v cma`àn-bmWv. cmacmPyw F¶ \S-¡m¯ Hcp tkmjyen-k-amWv ChcpsS apt¶m«p shbv¡p¶ sFUn-tbmf-Pn. Pn. \S-¡p¶ ¡p¶ tkmjyen-kk-amWp \½psS {]Xybimkv{Xw. e¦bnÂh¶p B Ipc§³ \S-¯nb òIcm{IaWw \mw t#mÀ¡p¶ntÃ? h³ sI«n-S-§Ä¡paosX CSn-¨pIb ¨pIb dpIbpw e¦ apgph³ Xo¸n-Sn-¸n-¡pIbpw ¡pIbpw sNbvXntÃ? Cu òIc·msc \mw s]mdp¸n-¡tWm? Cu òIcXbpambn \mw kÔn-sN-¿tWm? AhÀ¡pth−n h¡me¯pambn-h cp¶ kam[m\hmZn-Isf \mw Xncn-¨-dn-bt−. a{ń-k` Xcn-¨n-cp¶p cmhWsâ {]`mjWw-tI«p. I −p. ssIbSn-¨p. A−n-¸-cncn-¸psImdn-¨p. sImdn-bn-ÃmsX ] mÊm¡n. cmacmhW-bp²w F¶p ]n¶oSp t]cn-Sm\pÅ bp²w Bkq-{XWw-sN-bvXp. ]Sn-ªmtdtKm]pc¯nÂ taL\mZ³ tk\sb\n-b {ń-¡pw. ktX¬do-Pn-b³ h{P-Zw-jvS³ Gsä-Sp¡Sp¡-Ww. CuÌvtImÌnÂ {]lkvX\mWp NmÀÖv. C\n hS-¡p−v ¡p−v. hS-¡³ho-cKmY cmhW-t¨-IhÀXs¶sb¶pw A¦w-Ipdn¨p. cma\pw hm\c·mcpw ]pÃmWp F¶ Im]vj³ AwKoIcn-¨p. ]Ww-]pÃmWv F¶ bp²-_-P-änsâ Im]vj\pw Im_n-\äp AwKoIcn-¨p. kmtd kmtd km¼mtd F¶phnfn¨p kIehm\c·mcpw cm£-k-·mcpsS ap−pcn-bm\n-Sbp−v F¶ Câen-P³kv P³kv dnt¸mÀ«v Im_n-\änÂ Nncn-]SÀ¯n. cma]-£hpw tNcpw-]-Sn-tNÀ¡m\pÅ Icp¡Ä\o-¡n. {]l-kvXs\Xnsc \oesâ ]mÀ«nsb Cd-¡msa¶p ¡msa¶p BZyta [mcW-bmbn. ]oV\w tamiamhnÃ F¶mbncp¶p IW-¡v. AwK-Zs\ sXt¡m«p\n-ban-¨p. l\q-am³ ] Sn-ªmdpt\m¡msat¶äp. hS-¡pw-`mK¯v tNIhÀs¡Xnsc cma³Xs¶ A¦w-Ipdn-¡pw. cmhW-\pt\sc cma³ bp²w-\bn-¨mÂ hm\c·mÀ¡p henb Bthiap−m¡pw. AhÀ¡-sXms¡ aXn. ]nSn-s¨ Sp¯ `qan koXbmIbmÂ cmhWs\ cma³ hÃmsX sh¨p\o-«n-Ã. h{P-ZwZw-jv{Ss\ t\cn-Sm³ AwK-Z³ Z³ A[n-Iam Wv. taL\mZs\ hmbp]p{X³ ag-¨md-em¡pw F¶Xmbncp¶p Hcp IW-¡v. c−pimkv{Xw aq¶p kmaq-ly]mTw. \mep `mjbpw. ഹÜമാനസം

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hnkn-eSn-¡msX Ifn-XpS-§n. §n. Ien-XpS-§n-sb¶pw ]-dbmw. cmhWs\ I−p cma\pw cmas\¡−p cmhW\pw Ien-h¶p. hm\ç-S-bpsS kwJym_ew I−pIW-¡m ¡m³ ]¯pXebpw \qdphn-cepw t]msc¶p cmhW\p shfn-]mSp−mbn. e£vaWsâ ssIbnÂ\n¶p cma³ hnÃpX«n-¸-dn-¨p. aghn-ÃpXnÀ¡p¶ cmhW-In-coSw I−pk-ln-¡m\mhmsX As¼bvXp. IncnSw ag-¨md-embn \ne¯pho-Wp. XpS¡w \¶mbn. bp²w XÂk-ab{]t£]-WW-¯n\p ]mIambn Zriyab ambn. At¼m At¼mSp¶Xv, hntÃm hnsÃmSn-bp¶Xv, hmtfm hmÄ¯-ean-¶p¶Xv, amtdm amdn-S-§Ä Nph¡p¶Xv, ]cn-Ntbm ]cn-N-bmÂ XSp¡-s¸-Sp¶Xv, agpthm sh¬agp]mdp¶Xv, Ip´tam Ip´w tNmc¡p¶Xv, hSntbm hSn-IÄ hoienÂ AZr-iyamhp¶Xv, apk-etam apk-eapbcp¶Xv, KZ-Itfm KZ-IÄ ap¼nÂ sX¶n-amdp¶ Xv, s]mSntbm s]mSn-]mdp¶Xv... A¦¡-en, Nn¶w-hfn, hmSmt]mSmhn-fn. aq¶Sn ]nt¶m«p HcSn ]nt¶m«v NmSn-s¡«n Nhn«n henªv AaÀ¶pw CS-Xpsh¨pw heXpsh¨pw aqt¡mSpaq-¡pcp½n sImt¡mSp sIm¡pcp½n sIm¡-csIms¡ms¡-bmbn. hncephn-censâ ImXnÂ tImÀ¯p ssIIÄ ]ckv]cw Dń-\n-¶v.... apÄ¯-Sn-Ifpw N{I§fpw dqÄhSn-Ifpw ]cn-L§fpw XncphSn-Ifpw ]md-Ifpw ac¯-Sn-Ifpw Ad-¸phmfpIfpw... cY§fpw arK-§fpw ta\n-s¡mgp¸pIfpw ]mªp\ S¶p tNmc{]-f-b¯nÂ\n¶p IhnX tI«p. BchnsS a¡-sf, Bcmsâ a¡sf bp²w i_vZ-abambn. hochmZ-§fpw shÃphn-fn-Ifpw Ifpw hmXpsh¸pIfpw sh¸p hmXn-epIfpw hmZytLmj§fpw RmsWmÏfpw Rms\m¨-Ifpw BÀ¸phn-fn-Ifpw AeÀ¨-Ifpw kwbpàm `ymkw \S-¯n. B\IfptSbpw Aiz-§-fptSbpw hm\c·m cptSbpw ]oc¦n-beÀ¨-Ifp−mbn. BI¸msS kzmX{ýZnഹÜമാനസം

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\hpw dn¸-»n¡pw BtLmj§Ä tNcpw-]-Sn-tNÀ¶t]m sebmbn Imcy§Ä. BImiw `qan-bmbn `qan BImiambn B `qan \miambn \mitImiambn. (BImi¯p\n¶pw `qan-ImcWhpw Hmtcmcp¯À¡p ] Wn-t]mbn.) bp²w-sImgp¡pw-aps¼ tÌUn-bw-\n-d-ªp. ªp. IS-eþI¸-e −n-þNmbþtkmU-sbms¡ AXn-thKw _lpZqcw hnävXoÀ¶p. hnäpXoÀ¶t¸mÄ ambw-tNÀ¯v hfn-¸p−mbn. Ifn-tamiambmepw Xoä-tamiamhcpXv. C{µmZn-tZ-hIÄ, Inw]pcjÀ, Atlm\mcn-IÄ, Blm In-¶cÀ, Bhq-K-ÔÀÆ·mÀ, A¿t¿m b£-·mÀ, iviq Dc K-§Ä, lmbv lmbv kn²-·mÀ, lmlm hnZym[c·mÀ, bmbm NmcW-·mÀ InSn-InSn \mcZmZn-alÀjn-amÀ XpS§n Xd-hm«pImÀs¡ms¡ ^man-en-]mkp−mbn-cp¶p. p¶p. ssIbSn, tImf-IpSn, ]qhn-XdÂ, XdÂ, FgpXn-¸n-Sn-¸n¨ XpWns]m¡n¡m«Â... bp²w F³tPmb_n-fmbn. sân-\nkw t]mcm. sân\n-k-¯nsâ NnÃIfpw sN\¨§fpw ]pcpjta[mhnXzw Acn-ªpXÅn-bImeambn-cp¶p.... cp¶p.... caWobw B Imew. Nm\epIÄ IY¡p]pdsI IYtImÀ¯v BbncwImÂa Þ]hpw Bbn-cs¯m¶p cm{Xn-Ifpw XoÀ¯p. aÕc ¯nÂ BZyw-{]-t£-]n¨-XnXn-\phn-cp²-ambpw ]d-ªpsh ¨p. ]pcmW-§-fnÂ IeÀ¸mbn. kzXz-¯nÂ kXzw IeÀ¶p. {_Òmhp F¶ {_Ò¯nsâ Bßmhv \mepZn-¡pIfnte¡pw ImgvN-¡mcsâ apJ-sa¯n-¨p. t\mÀ¯v-þCuÌv-þshÌv-þku¯v F¶n-§s\ \mep`mKs¯ hÀ¯-am\ §epw IqSn-¡¡-eÀ¶v \yqkv D−mbn. BImihmWn¡p AXpsIm−p hmbn-¡mdmbn. CsÃ¦nÂ hmb\mioew \s¶ ]cp§-emhpw. \mcZ³ F¶ s\äv kwhn- [m\w [m\w bp²-`q-anbpw X{´\o-¡-§Ä\S-¯p¶ AI¯-ff§fpw § - fpw A´¸pc§fpw H¸w IhÀsN-bvXp. Bbp[§-sf-¡mtfsd IhdpIÄ ssIamäw-sN-¿s¸s¸-«p. hmÂs]m¡ns¡m−p hm\c·mÀ e¦hfªp Hcp Nen¡p¶ then-Xs¶ sI«n. ]ns¶ AhÀ ]ct¶mSn-\S-¶p. ഹÜമാനസം

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\S-t¶mSn. IÃpw ac¯-e¸psams¡ e¸psams¡ hÃ`À¡mbp[ambn. ac¯-eIÄt¡-dmbn. GXÑ³h¶mepw Fgp¯-Ñ³h¶mepw tISv A½-¡msW-¶t]mse Hmtcm Bbp[hpw e¦sb tISphcp¯n. l\q-amsâ C¡mcy¯n-epÅ epÅ huiv ]d-bmsXh¿. kam[m\tk-\hscsb¯nb e¦bnÂ BZys¯ ]´wsImfp¯n-bXv Pbvl\qam\mbn-cp¶nsÃ? p¶nsÃ? cm{Xn-Ime§-fnÂ cmhWsâ tk\bnÂ\n-¶p−mb Hcp \pg-ªpIbähpw cmassk\yw A\phZn-¨n-Ã. Nmc ·msc s]cpamdn Nmc\n-d-¯n-em¡n HmSn-¡pIbmbn-cp¶p hm\c·mÀ. CXp kz`mhl-Xybmbn Ime¯n-d-§n-b]b]-{X §Ä A]-e]n-¨p. P·\mSphn«v hm\c·mÀ \S-¯p¶ BZybp²-¯nsâ B{I BtLmjambn. ASn-In-«nb cm£-kNmc·mscs¡m −p \qän-sb«pXhW G¯-an-So-¸n-¡pIbpw ¡pIbpw aq¡psIm−p \ne¯p £ hçn-¡pIbpw cma\v Pbv hnfn-¸n-¡pIbpw sNbvXp. Ahscms¡ cmhW-sâbSpt¯-¡psN-Ãpt¼m Ãpt¼m tg¡pw Icn-¦men-Ifmbn-amdn. Imensâ \ndw F{XthK-am Wpamdp¶Xv! GXpk-achpw s]mfn-¡m\pÅ A\p`h Úm\n-Ifmbn. cm£-k-·mcpsS taÂam{XaÃ kz´w-\n-e¡pw Ipc§·mÀ BtLmjn-¨p. icn-¡pÅ jmws]-bn\pw ]pdsa tNmcbpw jmws]-bn-\mbn. mbn. bp²w s]bn³^pÅmbn. Dd¡whcm¯ Hcn-S-thf-bnÂ cmhW³ koXbpsS ASp t¯¡v HmSn-s¨-¶p. Hcp amPnIv Im«n-s¡mSp¯p. cmasâ incÊpw hnÃpw koX¡v Fdn-ªpsImSp¯p. kztX £oWn¨ B bphXn sR«-ä-]pjv ]pjv]-ambn \new-]-än. än. cmhW³ bp²-Øet¯-¡p\o¡p\o-§n. \nbpàet¦i³ hnò-jWsâ `mcy Hmk-ca Cuk µÀ`w#p]-tbmKn-¨p. AhÀ koX¡-cn-In-se¯n. koXbpsS ssI]n-Sn¨p ap¯-an-«p. koXm½m, Ahn-S-s¶sâ sFiz-cytZ-hXbmWv. e£van e£van sshIpWvTamWv. Cu P·¯v Fsâ hnò-jW³tN-«³ cmP-]]-Z-hn-bn-se¯psa¶p IcpXn-bXÃ. cma³ acn-¨psh¶pI−Xv cmhWsâ ]e sFäw-\¼dpIfnÂ H¶mWv. cma]-£w-apt¶dn-hcp¶XmbmWp dnt¸mÀ«v. \o ZpxJn-¡-cpXv. I−Xp ISpw-N-Xn-bmWv. cmhWs\ Ft¸mÄthW-sa¦nepw sImÃmw. ]s£ Hcp]-£- ¡mew¡mewഹÜമാനസം

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Iq-Sn-¡gntª AXp−mhq. AXp−mhpIXs¶ sN¿pw. koX¡p \mfs¯ {]Yah\n-Xsb hnizmkw-tXm¶n. hnò-jW³ cmasâbSp¯v A`bw-tXSn-bXpw A`n-hmZy §Ä AÀ¸n-¨-Xpsams¡ Ahf-dn-ªpIgnªpIgn-ªnªn-cp¶p. hnòjWsâ e¦bnÂ atÞmZ-cn-bmhpI kcabmIpw. Hm kc a, \mfs¯ dmWn-akmes¸mSn-bmWn-hÄ. I®nÂs]mSn bn-S-Ww. cma\nÀt±i{]-Imcw AwK-Z³ cmhW-t\mSv Iog-S-S§m § - m \mhiys¸-«p. kam[m\¯nsâ eLpteJ-IÄ [mcmfambn cmhW-]-£¯p hnXdphm³ hm\c·mÀ¡p Ignªp. cm£-k-·mÀ km£-c·mcmhm³ Iq«m¡n-bn-Ã. hnXdn-b t\m«o-kpIÄ \ne¯pIn-S¶p. ¶ - p. AwK-Z³ hnfn-¨ptNmZn¨p: FtSm ]¯pXebm \nsâ Xe¡-I¯p BÄ¯mak antÃ? acW-¯nsâ RmsWmen \o tIÄ¡p¶ntÃ? kvs] jyÂ Hm^À Adn-ªn«pw \o B«-¡¡-f¯nÂ -¯nÂ Cd-§p §p IbmtWm? \nsâ _Zmw-]-cn-¸pRms\Sp¡pw. \nsâ e¦bnÂ R§Ä bp²w Ifn-¡pIbmWv. \nsâ tImÀ«nÂ. \o hmXn-epIf-S-¨n-cpt¶m. B hmXn-epIÄ \n³sc taÂ hogpw. AÆn-[amWv R§-fpsS Hm¸-td-j³. Cu bp²-`q-an bnÂ \o koXsb kaÀ¸n-¡v. {iocmas\ \n\¡-dn-bn-Ã. bp²-¯nÂ\n¶p cmPn-sh¨v \o cma\pambn cays¸-SpI. kz´w XSnbpw cmPy¯nsâ XSnbpw Im¡pI. cmhW³ apSn-bSn-hn-d-¨p. s]cpw-hn-cenÂ \ns¶mcps]cp¸w Xe¸mhphsc Ibdn-t¸mbn. cmhW³ Aedn: Chs\ sImÃv. Chsâsbmcp Hm¸-td-j³ ssaYn-en. sImÃm³h¶hscsbms¡ AwK-Z³ InÃn. ico-c¯nÂ\n¶v sNsÅ-Sp¡pw-t]mse t]mse cm£-k-ih§Ä Fdn ªpXÅn. cm£-¡q«-§§-fpsS B{IaW-¯nÂ\n¶p IpXdn AwK-Z³ Z³ cma\Sps¯¯n. sIm«mc¯nse sIm¨pIp«n-IÄ tXmWn-bp−m¡n-¡-fn¨n-cp¶ cmhW³tIm«-bpsS InS-§pIÄ l\q-amsâ t\XrXz-¯nÂ tdmUm¡n. kptjW³, IpapZ³, \f³, KP³, lhb³, Khm£³ XpS-§nbhcpw \mep`mK-¯p\n¶pw l\q-ams\ klmbn-¨p. GsXSp¯mepw Fs´¦nepw \jvS-s¸-Spw-hn[w bp²w ഹÜമാനസം

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Inep¡n-¡p¯m³XpS-§n. It¼mSpI¼v lnwk-\S-¶p. ht¼mSv h¼v Al´ ]mdn. Ipw`tbmSp Ip` Iq«n-ap«n. hmÄ¯-e¸pIfpw tXmÄhf-Ifpw ssIhf-Ifpw ]cn-l-kn¨pNn-cn-¨p. AwK-Z³ C{µ-PnPn-¯nsâ tXcmfnsb sIm¶p. tXcpX IÀ¯p. taL\mZ³ ]pXn-bhml-\¯nÂ ]qPn-¡msX ¡msX Ibdn. cm£-k³ Pw_pamen l\q-amsât\À¡v thÂ Fdn ªp. lcltcm thembp[ F¶p]mSn l\q-am³ AXv Im¨v sNbvXp. BZyw tXcmfn ]ns¶ tXcv F¶n-hX IÀ¯v Pw_pamensb amen-¡-b¨p l\q-am³. lcw-Xo cmªv ltcmltcm F¶p NmSn-\S¶p ]pÅn-am³. kp{Ko-h\pw {]l-kvX\pw X½nÂ tImÀ¯p. cmlphpw hnò-jW\pw t]mcSn-¨p. ]ckv]cw Kp«³kv Adn-bmhp¶hcmbXpsIm−p IpSÂamebpsS _«³kv t]m«n-¡p¶ ssItbä-ap−mbn. almK-P³ X]-\sâ Imä-gn-¨phn-«p. cma³ FXn-cn-Sm³sN¶ kv]jyÂSo-anse ]s¯- ®hpw ®hpw BZydu−nÂXs¶ kvt^mS-\¯nÂs]«p. c£-[z[z-P³, Aán-[z-P³ XpS-§nb [zP-§Ä hoWpIn-S-¶p. t\À¡pt\À AwK-Z-t\mSp ]cmPn-X\mb C{µ-Pn¯v ambmPmew-Im«n am\¯v t]mbvad-ªp. AXpI−p`b¶p kqcy\pw ad-ªp. C{µ-Pn¯v -BImi¯v Bbn-cw-Im´mcn ]q¡p¶ C{µPmew-{]-ISn-¸n¸n-¨p. slhn-tUmkpÅ tUmkpÅ \mKmkv{Xw Im¨n. e£vaWmZn-IÄ In¡mbn \ne¯pho-Wp. Kmedn ssIbSn-¡msX ssIIÄ aosXaosX ]nSn-¨p. IctLmjapbÀ¶n-Ã. tX§-epIÄam{Xw DbÀ¶p. cmam cmam F¶p DtZz-K-s¸-«p. tZh·mÀ Kmedn-hn-Sp¶Xn-s\¡p dn¨v BtemNn-¨p. cm£-kk-]£w Inco-Sw-t\SnbmÂ Kmednbn-te¡v B{IaW-ap−mIpsa¶p Btcm]-d-ªp. Hcp SÀ¡n-S-ÆÂ kt´mj]qÀÆw hoin-s¡m−p D½Xcmw cm£ko F¶p]mSn-s¡m−p C{µ-Pn¯v cmhWsâ sIm«mc¯n-te¡p Ibdn-t¸mbn. BSv hnf-bmSv ]m¸m. kIeXo-{hhmZn-Itfbpw ASn-¨-aÀ¯n F¶p{]-Jym]-\ap−mbn. Ipc§-·mÀ¡pÅ Imä-dnw-Knsâ NpaXebmbn-cp¶p ഹÜമാനസം

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hnò-jW-\v. e¦bnÂ \Ã`£Ww Fhn-sS-sbms¡ In«p sa¶dn-bp¶ Hcmsf Gev]n-¨-XmWv. Cu NpaXe\nÀÆln ¡m³ ]pd-¯pt]mbn-h¶t¸mgmWv ^vfmämbn-In-S-¡p¶ e£vaWmZn-Isf I−Xv. `£Ww sshIn-t¸mbXpsIm− mbn-¡ptam F¶p kw{àn¨ hnò-jW³ hnhcw cmaN {µs\ Adn-bn-¨p. ss]¦n-fn-ô-¨-dnsâ t^mt«mt]mse PohOh§Ä hcn-hcn-bmbn InS-¶p. sN´mac¡-®sâ I¬IfnÂ IcSpho-Wp. cma³ hnò-jW-s\t\m¡n. \¶mbn hnò-jWm F¶p ]-cmXn-tbmsS ]d-ªp. iImcw tamiam¡n-bn-Ã. cmh Wsâ ktlmZ-cs\ Imcy§Ä GÂ¸n-¡pt¼mÄ HmÀt¡−Xmbn-cp¶p F¶pw-Iq-«n-t¨À¯p. ¨À¯p. hnò-jW\pw hms]mfn-¨p. tZh·mcpw Xm]-k-·mcpw hnò-jW-·mcpw X§-fpsS `àn-bpsS \ncÀ°IXbnÂ thZ-\n-¨p. ssZhta F¶phnfn-¨p. cma³ I®S¨p [ym\\n-cX\mbn. heXpI ®nÂ\ns¶mcp dntam«vknáÂ knÌw {]hÀ¯n-¨p. knáÂ ]Sn-ªm«pt]mbn. Ahn-sS-\n¶p Hcp Päv Nodn-h ¶p. AsXmcp tImÀ¸-tdäv CS-s]-S-ensâ iàn-sXfn-bn-¨p.p. AÞISml-§Ä §Ä Ipep¡n sshIpWvT¯nÂ\n¯nÂ\n-s¶mcp hnam\hmln\n DbÀ¶p. AXnsâ Nnd-IpIÄ Cf-InIn-btX bp²-ImcyteJ-I·mscms¡ KcpU-\p]pd-sIbmbn. AhÀ KcpU-kvXpXn-IÄ ]mSn-¸pIgv¯n. KcpUsâ Hcp XqhÂ hncn-¨mÂ Hcp sNdnb kZy¡pÅ Bsf Ccp¯msa¶p hsc AhscgpXn. GXpIS-epIfn-tebpw XncameIÄ ssIIq-¸n-\n-¶p. ¶p. GgpkmK-chpw KcpU-kvXpXn Gäp]mSn. GgpcmK-§Ä hnkvXcn-¨p. Ggp]ÀÆX§fpw Hs¶gpt¶äp\n-¶p. FÃm ¯n\pw GgptNÀ¯ IW-¡pambn KcpU³ F¯n. IW ¡ä Imäphn-Xdn. e¦bnÂ FÃm¯n\pw ]¯mbn-cp¶p IW-¡v. Hmtcm `mKykw-Jysh¨p Hmtcmcp¯À apt¶dpw. ]d-¡pw¡pw-Xfn-Ibmbn KcpU³ hgn-Isfms¡ ]d-s¶¯n. temIw-I−XnÂsht¨-ä-hpw-henb BImihn-am\ambncp¶p AXv. Ggmw BImi¸-S. cmasâ Bimhn-am\w. A´ÊnÂ]men-b¯-Ñ³. -]-cm ]cm ]-cm ]ca]mlnamw F¶p]mSp¶XnÂ Fgp¯-Ñ³. ഹÜമാനസം

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{iocma]mZ-¯nÂ KcpU³ emâpsN-bvXp. AXnsâ Du¡nÂ \mKmkv{X_v\[\w X\nsb Agn-ªp. \mK§Ä X\nsb Agn-ªpt]mIp¶ Ft´m Hcp Znhyiàn KcpU-\p−v. tamlmekys¸-«-hscms¡ bp²w-sNbvX £oWw-am dm³ H¶pd§n FWo-ää-t]mse Djmdmbn. KcpU³ _qÌv Zn ko{I«v Hm^v F\ÀPn cma³ KcpU-s\t\m¡n ]p©n-cn-¨p. ]p©ncn hm§n-sh¨p KcpU³ Xncn-¨p. KcpU³ Xncn-¨pt]mIpt¼mgpw cmhWsâ sIm«mcw Ipep§n. h¶mepw Ipg-¸w, t]mbmepw Ipg-¸w. hm\c·mcpsS I¬tSm¬ tÌj\pambpÅ _Ôw hn«p. AhÀ Fs´ms¡tbm sNbvXpIq-«n. Iq«n-ap«n. cmap P-bv. hnfn-¨psIm−n-cp¶p. ac§fpw ]md-Ifpw Ifpw ssieJÞ§fpw Ifn-¸m«¸m«-am¡n. Ahn-S-hnsS HmSn-\S-¶p. cmhWsâ bp²-hn-imcZ-·mÀ¡v ]än-bXmbn-cp¶nÃ Cu Ipc§-·mcptS-Xv. AhÀ¡v hÀ½-sam¶pw Adn-bn-Ãmbn-cp ¶p. ZqX·mÀ cmhWsâ sIm«mc¯n-te¡v AXn-itbmànIfpsS `mÞhpambn HmSn-£o-Wn-¨p. Hfn-¼n-Ivkn-emsWemsW¦nÂ kzÀ®w In«n-tbs\. C{µ-Pn¯p h¶pIbdn-btXbpÅq, ]ns¶bpw cmasâbmfpIÄ¡v Poh³sht¨m F¶p cmhW\Xnib ambn. F´Xn-ibta cmasâ Iq«À F{X`b¦cta.. ]mät]mse Chä Fhn-sS-\n-¶mWp ¶mWp s]mSn-ªphcp¶Xv? kp{Ko-hmZn-Ifmb D{K-hmZn-IÄ cmhW³tIm«-bpsS tKm]pc§-fnÂIbdn-\n-¶p. \nÂ¡-s]mdpXn-bn-Ãm¯-Xn \mÂ Cf-In-\n-¶p. hn«-§-fnÂ ssIImÂtImÀ¯p\n-¶p. hmenÂ Iogv¡mXq-¡pXq-§n§n-¡n-S¶p. F¶n-«-hÀ cmhW-t\mSp hnfn-¨ptNmZn¨p: A¼n-fn-b½mhm s\sâ Iq¼n-fn-se´p−v? \mWn-¨n-cn-¸mtWm sIm¼\m\¸pd¯v? atÞmZcn cmhW-t\mSpWÀ¯n¨p: \mW-amhp¶p, ta\n-t\mhp¶p. C\nbpw Dd-§n-¡nS-¡cpXv. Ign-ª-P-·¯nÂ Rm³ Hcp s]m«-¡n-W- änse änse Xhfbmbn-cp¶p. A§-s\bmbn-cps¶¦nÂ Rms\m¶pw ]d-bnÃmbn-cp¶p. C¶§-s\bÃØn-Xn. bp²w-sIm−p kam[m \an-ÃmXmbn. ഹÜമാനസം

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bp²w kam[m\¯n-\mWv, cmhW³ kam[m\n-¸n-¨p. DSs\ [q{am£sâ ZuXykw-Ls¯bnd-¡n. ¡n. Hcp ]©hmZyw skämbn ]Sn-ªmsd-tKm]pcw-hgn [q {am£sâ B£³Sow ]pd-¯pIS-¶p. l\q-ams\bmbncp¶p D¶w. D¶w-]n-Sn-¨psN-¶hcpsS hcpsS X¦¡n-\m¡-sfms¡ D¶w]n-g-¨pt]mbn. bp²-¯nÂ Hcp]mSpt]À ]ng-¨pt]mbn. l\q-am³ hgpXn-t¸mbn. a\pjy\nÀ½n-Xamb Bbp[n-Ifmbn-cp¶p [q{am£sâ {Kq¸n-\pÅ-Xv. aä-hÀ {]Ir-Xn-kvt\ln-IfmbnIfmbn-cp¶p. IÃv, acw, ae¡-jvWw, ae¡w-adn-¨n-epIÄ, ImsS-hnsS IqsS hnsS Ihn-XIÄ.. Hcp]mSpPo-hßm¡Ä ]camßm¡-sf-t¯-Sn-t¸mbn. l\q-am\pw [q{am£\pw X½nÂ tImgn-b¦w-\S-¶p. ]c kv]cw sIm¯n-\n-¶p. sIm¡n-¸-d-¶p. sIm¡p tImÀ¯p. ]pd-¯pIbdn. sIm¡-ct¡m Iqhn. ZznXo-bm£-c{]mkhpw Aým£-c{]mkhpw ¹mkn-bp ²hpw \S-¶p. Ncn{Xw ]uc[À½s¯ B{Ian-¨p. tXcpt]mbn, tXcmfn-t]mbn, Hcp]mSpIq-«mImcv t]mbn. F¶n«pw [q{am£³ am{Xw acn-¨n-Ã. Ah³ KZsIm−v l\qams\ ASn-¨p. ASn-In-«n-bmÂ hm\c\v Du¡pIq-Spw. Hcp ]ÀÆX¡jvW-saSp¯p [q{am£s\ Fdn-ªp. [q{am£³ Iq«pIm cpsS-hgn-¡pt]mbn. Ah³ cmhWsâ sIm«mc¯n-te¡p aS-§n-bn-Ã. tbmK-ap−mbn-Ã. Ã. h{P-Zw-jv{S-\mbn-cp¶p ]pXnb AhXmcw. A[À½-¯n s\Xnsc h{P-¸-ÃpIÄ Im«nbpw h{P-¸-iXp¸nbpw sXs¡tKm]pcw-hgn aq¸À Cd§n. hmÄ, ikv{X§Ä, Akv{X §Ä, iàn, {]Xybimkv{X§Ä, hnSphmb¯-§Ä F¶nh hÀjn¨tXäv AkwJyw hm\c·mÀ Xe¡pssI sh¨p arXn-bS-ªp. cm£-k-·mcpsS mcpsS ]¯w-KK-ssk-\yhpw apdn-thäpIn-S-¶p. \Ã lotamt¥m_n³ DÅ-hcmbn-cp¶p cm£-k-·mcpw hm\c·mcpw. tNmcXs¶ km£n. tNmc·mcpsS `wKw-h¶ AwK§Ä HgpIn-\S-¶p. càhn-¹-hw-I−p tÌUn-b¯nÂ\n¶p ssIbSn-bp bÀ¶p. hoÀ¸pap«n Ign-ª-k-abs¯ tISpXoÀ¡pIbmbn cp¶p AhÀ. BÀ¸phn-fnbpw hnkn-eSnbpw D−mbn. ഹÜമാനസം

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e£van Naªp Pohn-¡pIbmW-hÄ. Hcp]s£ A§-s\ bmbn-cn-¡ptam? koXsbsIm−pt]mcpt¼mÄ cmasâ ss]eäv hml-\amWp sIm−pt]mIp¶sXt¶mÀ¯n-Ã. ss{]häv hml\w Ft¶IcpXn-bpÅp. Ing-¡³tIm«-bnÂ s]mcpXm\n-d-§nb {]l-kvX\pw \oet\mSp \new-]-cn-imbn. \oe\sÃ tam³? sNdnb hn{I ÊpImc\mtWm? Pmw_-hm\pw NnesImeIÄ \S-¯n. Ipw`l³, ZpÀapJ³, alm\mZ³, kap¶X³. H¶pw sNdn btIk-Ã. kvtImÀ \ne \s¶ ]cp§-en-emhpIbmWv. Ifn-I−n-cn-¡p¶hcnÂ hmXpsh¸phyhkmbw GI]-£o bambn-¯pS-§n. {]W-b]ÀÆX¯nse IpcpXn-Iq-Sn-¡q-SnSn-hcn-IbmWv. koXbpsS hnÂ]-hÀ IqSn-hcnhcn-IbmWv. cmasâ A¼p]-hdpw. cma³ ]mew-IS-¶tXmsS koXbpsS ]{XmkpIq-Sn. At§-bäw cmat\mSv _lpam\amWv. hm\c·msc kwLSn-¸n¨v N§m¯-ap−m¡nb \c³. \tcm¯-a³. a³. {] iv\§-tf-sd-bp−mbn«pw \c¡m¯-h³. ]s£ koXsb kzám¡-Wsa¦nÂ cmas\ÎvSp CÃmXmhWw. {]Imi ¯n-tâbpw {]Xn-OmbbptSbpw kn²m´§Ä s]mfn-¡Ww. Ipd-¨pIm¯n-cn-t¡-−n−n-hcpw. ]s£ {]W-b¯nb¯ns¶mcp cmhW-]ÀÆw D−mhpw. {]W-bw-sIm−p ]gp¯ cmhW³ sN¼gp¡ bp²-cw-Kt¯¡p sX¶n-\o-§pIbmWv. bp²hpw cmhW-s\mcp {] W-bamWv. ico-chpw a\Êpw AÀ¸n-Xamb c−hØI fmWv bp²hpw {]W-bhpw. c−pw bp²-amWv. a\ÊpIfnte¡pÅ A[n-\n-thiamWv. kam[m\w-sISp¯p¶XmWv. kam[m\amhpw-hsc bp²w sNbvXpsImt−bn-cn-t¡-−XmWv. tXcphcs«. FÃmw Kwò-cambn. kzÀ®cYsa¯n. sh¬sImä-¡pS hncn-ªp. Bbn-cwIpXn-cIsf ]q«n-bcY¯nÂ cmhW³ Ccp¶p. Beh«§Ä, sh©mac§Ä, \oe¯-g-IÄ, ap¯p¡pS-IÄ XpS§nb cmP-Nn-Ó-§Ä §Ä I−p\nÂ¡p¶XnÂ aXn-¸pf-hm¡n. Xnf-¡-¯nsâ sImSpapSn-bmbn bmbn Inco-Sw. lmc§fpw B`cW-§fpw D¯-co-bhpwsIm−p Aew-Ir-Xamb cm£-tk-iz c³ Ccps¶gp¶Ån-bXpXs¶ Ik-dn. ഹÜമാനസം

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B AhØbnÂ tamiambn-«-Ã, F¶mepw Ae¦mc t¯mfw hcm¯Xv cmhW³Xs¶bmWv. apgph³ ]mÀensaâw-K-§fpw bm{Xbb¡ms\¯n. a¡Ä, acpa¡Ä, t]c ¡p«n-IÄ XpS§n A[n-Imchn-\n-tbmK-¯nsâ sa¨-¯n\p tbmK-apÅ-hscms¡ AI¼Sn-tk-hn-¨p. ssk\ym[n- ]]-·mÀ AhcpsS D¯-chmZn-¯-¯n\p ¯n\p ]camh[n \nd-¸-In-«p \ÂIm³ {ian-¨p. kqcyshfn-¨-¯nÂ Xnf-§p¶ §p¶ Xncamebmbn apt¶m«p ]-XsªmgpIp¶ cmhW-¸-S-sbI−n«p cma\pw AXn-ib ap−mbn. AXp ad-¡m\mbn cma³ Ifn-hm¡p]-dªp: hnò-jWm \Ã hoc·mÀ hcp¶Xpt\m¡q. alm`mcXw XpS-§p¶Xp kÀ¸-k-{Xt¯msS-bmWmWv. kÀ¸-k-{X¯nsâ Ahkm\amWp hen-b\mK-§Ä Cd §n-hcp¶Xv. ChnsS kÀ¸-k-{X¯n\p ]cn-k-am]vXn-hcn-I bmsW¶p tXm¶p¶p. \o Chsc a\Ên-em¡n-¯¯-cWw. cmhWs\ am{Xsa a\Ên-emhp¶pÅq. hnò-jW³ ]dªp. A§p kq¸ÀÌmdns\ a\Ên-em¡n-btÃm. \ndª Npäp]mSnÂ hnekp¶bmÄ. icn-bmWv A§p As¼ bv¯nÂ sIm¼\mWv. e£yw-am{Xambn-cn¡pw ImWpI. AsXmcp e£-Wa - mWv. cma³ I®psN-dpXm¡n ]p©n-cn-¨p. knwl-Nn-ÓapÅ cYw-I−ntÃ? AXn-en-cn-¡p¶bm fmWp C{µ-Pn-¯v. C{µ-Pn¯v Pn¯v F¶ptI«mÂ cmhW-]p{X \msW-¶ptXm¶n-Ã. ]s£ cmhW-]p{X\mWv. \½sf tXmÂ]n¨p HmSn-Hfn-¨-bmfmWv. icn, B \of-apÅ hml\wI−n-tÃ, AXn-semcp AXn-Imb s\I−n-tÃ. AbmfmWp AXn-Imb³. Imb_-ew-Iq-Spw. Imbw-I¦mbw s]cp¦mbw. icn. Gg-cs¸m¶m\¸pd¯v bp²-¯n-\n-d-§p¶hs\I−ntÃ, Ah³U atlmZ-c\mWv. hbdmhp. Hcp sXep¦\mWv. BtcmKw-t]mse N−n-bmW-h³. Fgps¶Ån-¸ptIaam Wv. ssIbn-en-cn-¸nepw tamiaÃ. icn. Ip´w-Id¡n IpXn-çpd-¯n-cn-¡p¶h³ \cmÍ\m Wv. ഹÜമാനസം

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icn. shÅ-¡mf-bpsS ]pd-¯n¯n-cn-¡p¶Xv {Xnin-cÊmWv. Cw¥o-jnepw jnepw kwkvIrX¯nepw aebmf-¯nepw Ah\p aq¶p incÊmWv. iqew-Ipep¡n \S-¡p¶ cmhWsâ aI \mWv. Hcp apJw-sIm−p thZw-sNmÃpw. HcpapJw-sIm−p aZy]n-¡pw. HcpapJw-sIm−v temIw-ImWpw. Htck-abw aq¶pin-cÊpIÄ aq¶pIÀ½-¯nÂ, aq¶ptemI¯nÂ GÀs¸-Spw. pw. _lp{ho-ln-t]msemcp ]msemcp kamk-amWv. icn. AXn-\¸pdw tXcnÂhcp¶h³ tZhmÍ\mWv. icn sXm«-Sp¯v IpwÌ\mWv. IpwÌÀ®sâ ]p{X³ h{P amebmWv A½. icn. IpwÌsâ A\n-b\mWp ]cn-Ltbń \S-¡p¶ hnZzm³. \nIpw-`³. Hä-hm¡p\nÀ¯n cmasâ adp]-Sn-hmN-I§-fmbn. \¶mbn. FÃmhtcbpw H¶n¨p I−tÃm. Fsâ ^manen-XIÀ¯-h³ ^man-en-bpambn ap¶nÂh¶p\nÂ¡pIbm Wv. C¶pXs¶ Cu IY Ign-¡pw. IYIY IkvXq-cn. thW-sa¦nÂ Hcp {Kq¸p t^mt«m FSpt¯ms«. {Kq¸pI fn¨p \in-¨-Xnsâ Hchkm\s¯ t^mt«m. cmhW³ Xsâ IqsS-bpÅ-hsc H¶p t\m¡n. h¦·mÀ. \n§-sf-Ãmhcpw Fs¶ Npän-¸än \n¶mÂ e¦m]pcn-bnÂ AhÀ IS-¶pIbdpw. NneÀ Ahn-S- ¯s¶ ¯s¶ \nÂ¡-Ww. Hcp ImhÂthWw. Chsc Rm³ t\m¡n-t¡m fmw. Xcw-In-«n-bmÂ Ipc§-·mÀ ·mÀ IpSpw-_¯v IS-¡pw. ¡pw. Hcp cm£-k³ tNmZn¨p: F¶mÂ XpS-§pIbtÃ cmPmth Bhmw. cmPmth, iwJq-XtWm? iwJq¯pw N−sIm«epw H¶pw th−. AXp Ipcp t£-{Xbp²-¯nte th−q. AXhÀ sNbvXpsImÅpw. CX{X¡n-Ãym¶v t−m? AÃÃm tIaambn-«-s¶. ssa\kv H¶mw-temIalm bp²w F¶dn-bs¸-Spw. cmacmhW-bp²w ¶v tjmÀ«v lmâv. hm\c·msc Hmtcmcp¯-scbmbn FbvXpXÅn cmh ഹÜമാനസം

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W³ XpS-¡-an-«p. «p. Hmtcm Aan«pw Cd§n-s¸m«n. FÃps]m «p¶ i_vZw. cmam, tPymjvTm F\n-s¡mchkcw XcWw. Fs¶¸-än¨-h\mWn-h³. A{]qhvUv. _«v e£vaWm Ch³ ambmhn-bmWv. Nn{X IYbn-set]mse ]d-¶p\S-¡pw. koXsbsIm−pIm³ ss [cys¸-«-h³. F´pISpw-ssIbpw sNbvtX¡pw. inh`à \mWv, kwlmcio-e\mWv. N{µ-lmkw F¶ hmfpssIbn ep−v. AsXSp¯mÂ BÄ shfn-¨-s¸-Spw. lnt¿m Fs¶mcp i_vZ-ap−m¡pw. Ien-Ibdn-bXmbn A`n-\bn¡pw. \½Ä¡mWp t_m[w-t]mhpI. l\q-am³ H¶pw-tIÄ¡m³ \n¶n-Ã. hmenÂ XosImfp ¯m³ BÚ-\ÂIn-bh\mWv. l\q-am\dn-bmsX hnfn-¨p t]mbn: A¡fn Xo¡fn kq£n-t¨m. t\sc tXÀ¯-«nÂ emâpsN-bvXp. emhW-sât\sc ssItbm§n. ssIsh«n-bmÂ AXp hn¹-hamIpsa¶p cmh W³ `b¶p. cmhWsâ apJw Idp¯p. Hcp ]´w-sImfp ¯n-¸-S-bpsS \ng-epIÄ cmhWsâ apJ¯p {]IS-\w-\S¯n. Idp¯-apJw Nph¡m³am{Xw HcSn-sImSp¡m³ l\qam\v c−maXv BtemNn-t¡-−n-h¶n-Ã. bp²-¯nsâ \bX{´hymIcW-aÃ tIm]-¯n-tâXv. cmhW³ hoWpt]mbn. ASn-In-«n-bmÂ cmhW\pw hogpw. Fgpt¶tämfpw. FtSm cmhWm \ns¶s¡mÃm³ h¶h\mWp Rm³. Fs¶ Hgn-hm¡v. F¶n«p ta\n-\Sn-¡v. BZyw -am\wIm¡v. F¶n-«paXn `qan-bnÂ Ifn. ]´w-I− s]-cp¨mgn-sb t¸mse t\m¡n-t¸-Sn-¸n-¡¡sÃ. s - Ã. I®pan-gn-¨pt]mbn cmhW³. \o aqfn-¡pc§-Ã. Fsâ sNhn-bmWp aqfp¶Xv. \o Hcp Km\amWv. aqfn-¸m«mWv. AXptI«Xpw l\q-am\v Bbn-cw-hm«v iàn-Iq-Sn. cmhWm, \n\s¡-´phn-tijw? F´p\·? Fsâ HcSnsIm−p \o N¯nÃ. \o ià\mWv. \aps¡mcÂ]w bp²w-sN-¿mw. hmNIw apgpan-¡pw-ap¼v cmhW³ l\q-ams\ XÃn. Ncn {Xw BhÀ¯n-¨p. £oc_-ebmbn. ebmbn. l\q-am³ hoWp. ഹÜമാനസം

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khpw hm§n \½psS `mjIeÀ¸pÅ-Xm¡tWm? Hc`n-{]mbw tcJ-s¸-Sp¯n-bXn\p _p²n-Po-hnbpw alm kmXzn-I\pamb hnò-jWs\ \o ]mÀ«n-bnÂ\n¶p ]pd¯m¡n. Ahsâ H¸w tI{µ-¡-½n-änän-bnse aq¶p\mept]cpw-Iq-Sn. `cW-apÅ-XpsIm−p apJ-kvXpXn-]-d-bm\pw ]¦p]äm\pw ]ecpw D−mhpw. Xcw-In-«n-bmÂ adpI−w-NmSpw. HmSpw. \nÂ¡nÃ. _qÀjzmkn¡p hn¹-hImcn-bmhm\pw hn¹-hImcn¡p _qÀjzmkn-bmIm\pw sNdnb Hc\p`hsa BhiyapÅp. Ipd¨p shÅn-¡mimbmepw aXn. Hcp tcmKw-h¶mÂ \nco-iz-c³ Cuiz-cs\hn-fn-¡pw. Cuiz-c·mÀ Cuiz-cs\ ]gn-¡pw. B]-¯ph¶mÂ Cuiz-c·mÀ Akpc·msc hnfn-¡pw. A¸pd-an-¸pdw \n¶p Htc ] ÀÆXwsIm−p IS-bpw. ap¶Wn-bp−m¡m\pw s]mfn¡m\pw H¶n\pw aSn-bn-Ãm¯-ImeamWv. AXmWv temI \o-Xn. Hcp Itk-cbpw taibpap−mbmÂ ]pXnb Hmôkmbn. BfpIsf sImgn-¨psIm−p−m¡p¶ hnPbw \ne\nev¡ptam cm£-k-cmPmth? XqhepIÄ sImgn-¨pIfªmÂ Hcp ]£n¡p Aćo-£-¯nÂ \nÂ¡m\mhptam? kIeKpW§fpw ]pd¯pt]mbmÂ CuImWp¶ sIm«m c§Ä¡p \o AhImin-bmhptam? Ahscms¡ CXn-\I ¯mbmepw \oXs¶bsÃ cmPmhv? \nsâ Øm\¯n-\ph en-¸w-Iq-SpIbsÃ sN¿pI? \ns¶ ]gn-¨n«pw Imcyan-Ã. IjvS-Ime¯p \·sN-¿m \mÀ¡pw Ign-bn-Ã. ]mÀ«n-bpsS IjvS-Ime¯mWp \ns¶t¸mepÅ-hÀ Dbc¯n-se¯pI. ap¯-Ñs\ \o ]dªphn«p. F{Xk-acw \bn¨ hock-Jmhmbn-cp¶p. B\Ibdnb Icn-¼n³tXm«-ambn \½psS {]Øm\w. \o \nsâ Ncn-{XZuXyw \nÀÆln-¨pIgn-ªp. C\n BÀ¡pw CXpt\scbm¡m³ Ign-bn-Ã. C{Xhen-b{]Øm\w Ipc§-·mÀ¡pssIamtd-−n-hcpatÃm Ft¶mÀ¡pt¼mÄ IpwÌÀ®\mb F\n-¡n\n F§s\ Dd-¡w-hcm\mWv? AhcXp Ip«n-t¨mdm¡pt¼mÄ D®m³ \mamcpw D−m hn-Ã. \ns¶ Rm³ H¶pw ]d-bp¶n-Ã. Ip¼fw Ip¯n-bn-«mÂ a¯-\p−mhn-Ã. B]-¯pIpgn-¨n-«mÂ ZpxJ-¯nsâ Ce ഹÜമാനസം

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Itf hncn-bq. e¦bnÂ ]¯n\v henb aXn-¸mbn-cp¶p. B]-¯nÂ ] ¯p−v. AXnsâ aXn-¸phne DbcpIbmWv. \n\¡p]-d-ªpXtc− ªpXtc− sk{I«-dntbsäms¡ shdpw Gdm³aq-fn-¡mcmbn-t¸mbn. ImetZ-imhØIsf hniIe \w-sN-¿m\hÀ¡-dn-bn-Ã. amwkmlmchpw aZyhpw In«n-bmÂ Hcp Znhks¯ hn¹-hw-XoÀ¶p F¶pIcpXpIbmWnhÀ. ]ns¶ hn¹-hsams¡ thsd-bmWv. Ah\hsâ BZy ImeØnXn HmÀ½-bnÃm F¦nÂ Ncn-{Xt_m[anÃ F¶mWÀ°w. ]ns¶s¯ ØnXn HmÀ½-bn-sÃ¦nÂ Nmcn-{Xy t_m[anÃ F¶À°w. A¶¶s¯ Imcyw HmÀ½-bn-sÃ ¦nÂ BÂjn-tagvkv t_m[anÃ F¶À°w. Ip¶pw Ip¶m bvabpw ]dªp kabw-If-bpIbÃ {]Xybimkv{XNÀ¨. Bhmt¡ \½psS Iq«À adp¶pImWpw. AsÃ ktlmZ-cm. \b§Ä A\p\b§Ä NÀ¨-sNbvXp cq]-s¸-tS-−Xm Wv. ]Xn-hpt−m? Hmtcmcp¯À¡v Hmtcm \bw F¶XsÃ \½psS \bw? AShpw XShpw BtWm \bw? Ashbve _nÄ I½n-än-t\m¡n amIvknaw Ashbve_nÄ F¶ XmtWm \bw? i{Xphnsâ _ehpw Imehpw hocyhpw hnebn-cp¯m³ \ap¡mhp¶pt−m? kabapt−m? \o koXbn-e§s\ tamln-¨ptamln¨p ]ucpj¯n\p ¥m\n-hcp¯n-bsÃm ktlmZ-cm. a[yØcpsS A`n-{]mbtam Nmc·mcpsS dnt¸mÀ«nwtKm \o Iq«m¡p¶n-ÃsÃm. kuJyhpw IoÀ¯nbpw ]mSnÃ ]mSnÃ \s½ \½Ä F¶p]mSpw-hsc \o \n¶psImSp¡p¶sXń-\mWv? \n\¡pw H¶p Nncn-¨p IqsS tamt\? C§s\ tXm¶ymkw-Im«n _ew-]n-Sn¨p apJw-hen-ªpapdp¡n \S-¡tWm? ¡tWm? \n\¡pw acW-antÃ? HcmÄ A\p`hn-¡mhp¶ ùXn-I kpJ-asÃ \n\¡pw kzoIcn-¡m\mhq. Hcp HmS-¯nÂ Hcp ]m«-shÅw sImÅptam? HcmÄ¡n{X Hu¬kp`£ Ww, C{X Dd-¡w, ¡w, C{X C¶bn¶ kpJw F¶p−v. AsXm¶pw IcIhn-bnÃ tamt\. IctbmKw amäm\mhn-Ã. Nncn-tbmKta amäm³ Ihn-bq. IctbmKw I−p]n-Sn-¨-h tcmSv tNmZn-¨pa\Ên-em¡v. \n\¡p \Ã a{ń-amcn-Ã. IpXn-cIfpw B\Ifpap−m bn-cn-¡pw. [À½w Adn-bp¶hcn-Ã. sImSp¡p¶hcpan-Ã. \nsâ CbÀ{U-½n\p lnXapÅ i_vZw-am{Xw-tIÄ¸n¨v ഹÜമാനസം

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ho£-W-amWv. Hcp hmÄ^m³t]mse Hä-bn-cn-¸v. Igp¯pw Xebpw am{Xw At§m«pan-t§m«pw Nen-¡p¶p. CbmÄ¡p e¦ Fs´¦nepw Bhp¶hsc Dd-¡-an-sÃ sÃ ¶ptXm¶p¶p. ChnsS \½psS ]cn-¸pthhn-Ã. Hcp ]pXnb hgn¡p ajn-t\m«-an-«p. ]mXmf-¯nÂsN¶p Ahn-S-¶t§m«v l\q-amsâ hmÂt¡m«-hsc Hcp Xpc¦ap−m¡n. B sat{Smbn-eqsS AhÀ hmÂt¡m«-bn-Â IS-¶p. ssIbnÂIcpXnb t¢ mtdmt^mw ShenÂap¡n cmae£vaW³amsc tamln-Xcm ¡n. tamln-Xsc, kvt\ln-Xsc, ktlmZ-csc AhÀ ]mXmf¯n-te¡ sslPm¡v sNbvXp. ]mXmf-]-ctZ-hXbpsS, ]mXmf-Imfn-bpsS \S-¡Â c− pico-c§fpw Hcp Bßmhpamb cmae£vaW-·msc InS¯n. Imfo-amXmhn\p hmI¨mÀ¯mbn ChcpsS càw F¶p {]mÀ°n-¨p. _en-]q-P-¡pÅ ¡pÅ GÀ¸mSpIÄ XpS§n. Hcp ambmhn ]dªp: Ipc§-·mscbpw mscbpw sIm−phcmambn-cp¶p. AXn-\padp]-Sn-bp−mbn: \c_-en¡p Ipc§sâ càw tNÀ¯mÂ ambamhpw. Imfn-i]n-¡pw. Ahä-bä DWÀ¶mÂ BsI tXm¶ymk-a bamIpw. Fs´ms¡-sbm¶p t\m¡Ww I½o-j\Sn-¡m³. Hcp cmPyamWv In«m\pÅ-Xv. \jvS-s¸-Sm³ _en-ar-KK-§§-fpsS tNmcam{Xw. CXn-\Iw l\q-am³ c−pt]-cpsS \jvSw ]nSn-s¨Sp¯ncp¶p. tIm«-¡Iw apgph³ Xncªp. hnò-jWsâ t\XrXz-¯nÂ Xpc¦¯n-eqsS Nq«pw s]t{SmamIvkpambn PmY \o§n. ]mXmf-Imfn-bpsS ]S-apä¯p _en-\S-¶p. ¶p. ]mXmfk-tlmZ-c§sf sN¶ kwLw _en-bÀ¸n-¨p. _en-¡ptijw ]mXmf-cmhWsâ ]p{X³ kpamensb ]mXmftZ is¯ Awiw A[n-Imcn-bm¡n. ]mhkÀ¡mcns\ Ah tcm[n-¡pt¼mÄ AhÀ Biw-k-bÀ¸n¨p: \obn-\n sIm¶pw Xn¶pw Pohn-¡pI. ]mXmfw icn-s¸-Sp¯msa¶p kpamen kXy{]-Xn-Ú-\ S-¯n. cmhW\p C\n H¶pw t\m¡m\n-Ã. tÌm¡nÂ Btcbpw sImÃn-¡m\n-Ã. sImÃmt\m acn-¡mt\m Bbn ഹÜമാനസം

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cmW-\n-d-§n. H¶pInÂ koX AsÃ¦nÂ koX¡pth−n PohmÀ¸-Ww. cmhW³ hn¡-äpho-gv¯n. atl-{µ-_mW-¯nÂ ]¯pXeIÄ NnXÂ]päpt]mse ASÀ¶pho-Wp. hbänÂ\n¶p ]−phn-gp§nb ]mbks¨¼p ]pd-¯pNmSn. ]mÞn-Xy¯nsâ ]¯pin-cÊpIÄ Aäpho-W-XpI−p ]Þn-X\pw sshbmIcW-\pamb l\q-am\p lÀjap−mbn. l\q-am\nse sshbmIcW³ XebpbÀ¯n. hmÂNpcp −p. l\q-am³ Adn-bmsX ]dªp: cmaInÂUv cmhW. IÀ½-Wn¡p IÀ¯-cn-hmIyw In«pIbmbn-cp¶p. Xsâ Xs¶ IÀ¯mhmbn l\q-am³ am³ cmas\ k¦Â]n-¨p. Xm³ Xncªn-d§ - nb IÀ¯cn Is−¯n. AXnsâ {] tbmK-`w-Kn-bnÂ l\q-am³ BhÀ¯n-¨psIm−n-cp¶p: cmaInÂUv cmhWm. cmam InÂUv cmhW. A]mcamb \µn-tbmsS `àl-\q-am³ a{ápcphn«p: cmaP-b. AXptI« Ipc§-·mÀ AXp ap{ZmhmIyam¡n.


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