IS GOSPOTI
Ab Albert Camus Sambahsa tarjem
PRETER DEIL I Mamma mohr hoyd. Au maghses ghes, ne woidim. Ho recept un telegramme ex id gerosdom : “Mater decess. Dafan cras. Sellsto namos.” To maynt neid. Kad to eet ghes. Id gerosdom est in Marengo, octgim kilometers dalg ud Alger. Emsiem id autobus ye dwo saat ed arrivesiem in id posmiddien. Katha, ghehdsiem wakhe ed gwirlaysiem cras vesper. Ho budto dwo diens ud mien bes ed is ne poiss mi refuse ia face un lik excuse. Bet is ne kwohk masrour. Ho hatta saygen ei : “To ne est mien fault.” Is ne mi hat antwohrden. Ho tun mohnen od ne habiem tohrben sayge to ei. In summ, io ne hieb ad ouzer. Anter is ge tohrb mi porge sien taziya. Bet is kwehrsiet to aundwoi poscras, quan is me vidsiet traurnd. Ye tod moment, est lyt kamsei mamma ne habiet mohrt. Pos id dafan, to sessiet pagen re ed hol habsiet esposen un officialer aspect. Ho emt id autobus ye dwo saat. Id weter eet chald. Ho mejen in Célestes restaurant, kam adet. Quanti spruv maung aytan dia me ed Céleste mi hat sayct : “Hams tik ein mater.” Quando ho abgwahn, me hant hamrahn tiel id dwer. Eem lyt sturdiht ob ho tohrben stighes do Emmanuels hem kay laune ud iom un swordo cravat ed un brachar. Is hat lusen sien oncle, oik munts pre. Ho curren kay ne lipses id asimat. Tod hast, tod drahsa, ob to hol aundwoi, addiht ibs takans, ei naftodor, ei reverberation ios strad ed ios waurn, ho vinarct. Ho swohpt unte quasi id hol itner. Ed quando ho gohrt, eem kneigvend protiev id flank uns askari qui mi hat smiht ed me hat sprohct an io gwohm dalgtos. Ho saygen “ya” kay neti tehrbe tolke. Id gerosdom est dwo kilometers dalg ud id village. Ho kwohrt id itner ped-ye. Ho vidskwt mamma fauran. Bet is bawab mi hat saygen od io tohrb ghate iom director. Dat is eet besic, ho skohpten lyt. Unte tod hol wakt, is bawab hat tolct ed dind, ho viden iom director : is me hat primen in sien bureau. Est un smulk veut, samt id Légion d’honneur. Is me hat spohcen med sien clar okwi. Dind is me hat mussafahet tem diu quem io vidieum quosmed oistrage mien hand. Is hat perlisen un dossier ed mi hat saygen : “Potnia Meursault entrit hetro tri yars pre. Yu eete ays wahid demskwr.” Ho credihn od is mi miembh semject ed ho biexplien ei. Bet is me hat interrupt : « Yu ne tehrpte justifie vos, dorgv yuwen. 1
Ho list id dossier vosters mater. Yu khiek subvene ays naudhs. Ia tohrb un liekwakht. liekwakht. Voster salairs sont modeste. modeste. Ed, final-ye, final-ye, ia eet norocter her. » Ho saygen saygen : “Ya, poti Director.” Is hat addihn : “Yu woid, ia hieb prients, leuds os sien oumer. Ia ghohd diles con i sem interesses qua sont alyios tid. Ste yun ed ses con vos sollit plictisse iam.” Eet ver. Quando ia eet domi, mamma passit sien wakt apterspehcend-ye me silent-ye. Unte sien presta diens in id gerosdom, ia plieng ops. Bet to eet ob id adet. Pos oik munts, ia habiet plangen sei ia habiet est oistract ex id gerosdom. Semper ob id adet. Lyt ob to unte id senst yar quasi neti ho gwahto tetro. Edschi ob to rlungdwienit mieno mingo – aun conte id effort kay eme id autobus, kaupe tiquets ed kwehre dwo hors itner. Is director mi hat nabahn. Bet quasi neti klusim iom. Dind is mi hat sayct : “Suppono yu vidskwte vies mater.” Ho staht ub aun sayctum ject ed is mi hat proghangen kyid dwer. In id drab, is mi hat explien : “ Hams intikalt iam do noster noster smulk morghe. Kay ne impremes impremes alters. Ielgs kun un pensionar pensionar mehrt, alters sont nerveus unte dwo au tri diens. Ed to difficileiht id service. » Hams tohrt un ghehrd quer eent maung rlaurjiens, balbelnd in smulka grupps. Tieyceer quando gwohmam pri. Ed apter nos, ia conversations rinkiep. Swohn kam un psitaken stupen snatter. Ant id dwer os uno smulk treb, is director me hat likwt : “Sran “Sranso so ud vos, vos, poti poti Meur Meursa saul ult. t. Vos Vos rema remano no beha behand ndet et in mien mien burea bureau. u. In pri princ ncip ipe, e, id dafa dafan n est est prev previs is pro pro dec dec saat saat aghy aghyer ern. n. Habm Habmos os mohn mohnen en yu ghehdsiete it wakhe iam mortu. Oin senst werd : kwehkiet od vies mater hat ops expr expres esst st ad sien sien sokw sokwis is id vans vansch ch os ses ses begr begrab abht ht reli religi gieu euss-ye ye.. Me ho maim maimou ouri riht ht med med id nece necess ssar. ar. Bet Bet voli volim m vos vos info inform rmee de.” de.” Ho dank danken en iom. iom. Mamma, aun ses atheiste, naiwo hieb mohnen gwiv de religion. Ho entren. Eet un baygh-ye clar kyal, blaychen med kalch ed covohrt med un stikelkrov. Eet meublet med stuls ed X-forme subdehmens. Dwo om ia, in id centre, tohl un jenasa covohrt med ids capak. Eent dyohrcta tik sem bleigu, payn dupt scruvs, stehlbe ep ia baurds kmehno med nuceglends. Prokwem id jenasa, eet un arab sanitara in albh kitel, un akster color chador ep sien cap. Ye tod moment, is bawab hat entret za me. Is hieb sollt curre. Is hat lyt balbalen : “Hams tohgen iam, bet dehlgo disscruve id jenasa kay yu ghehdte vide iam.” Is gwahsit prosch id jenasa quando ho halten iom. Is mi hat sayct : “Yu ne eiskwte ?” Ho antwohrden : “No.” Is hat se interrupen ed eem turben ob io khiss ne habiem dohlgen sayge to. Pos uno moment, is me hat spohcen ed me hat sprohct : “Ma ?” bet aun mambh, kamsei is istifsier. Ho saygen : “Ne woidim.” Tun, streikwnd sien albh moustache, is hat declaren aun spehce me : “Ghabo.” Is hiebit bell thark okwi, ed un lyt rudho teint. Is mi hat dahn un stul ed isswo hat sess ghom lyt apter me. Ia lieksuor hat stahn ub ed trohcen kyid udghang. Ye tod moment, is bawab mi hat saygen : “Ia hat un ghayn.” Dat io ne ghieb, ho spohcen iam sanitaru ed ho vis ia vohsit sub sien okwi un rica quod periembh ays cap. Ye id hoge aysios nas, ia rica eet platt. Tik id ielbhe ios rica eet vis in ays lige.
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Quando ia hieb abgwahn, is bawab hat baht : “Vahm linkwes vos mon.” Ne woidim qualg geste ho kwohrn, bet is hat nastahn apter me. Tod presence za me turbit me. Id kyal eet pleno med un bell fayront luce. Dwo crayks drohn protiev id stikelkrov. Ed khissim swehpen lambhnes me. Ho sayct ei bawab, aun volge kyom : “Ste yu ter diutos ?” Fauran is hat antwohrden : “Penk yars” – kamsei is habiet pon aiw intizart mien suwal. Dind, is hat balbeln balbeln maung. Habiet maung staunen sei ei habiet esen saygen saygen od is fine fineih ihei eitt ka bawa bawab b in id geros gerosdo dom m os Mare Mareng ngo. o. Is eet eet sixgi sixgimq mqua uarat rat ed parisian. Ye tod moment ho interrupen iom : “Ah ! Yu ne ste hetos ?” Dind ho mohmen od pre me duce bei director, is mi hiebit bahto de mamma. Is mi hieb sayct od ia tohrb ses begrabhta baygh oku, ob in id plain id weter est warm, besonters in tod gaivia. Tun is me hat manthihn od is hieb gwiwt in Paris ed od ei eet difficil myehrse to. In Paris, manmos con el mohrt unte tri, yando quar diens. Her yu ne habte id wakt, yu ne habte bad realisen to kun yu tehrpte ja curre apter id daunoswogh. daunoswogh. Eys gvibh hieb ei tun sayct : “Tayc, “Tayc, ta ne sont jects ad narre ad poti.” Is veut hieb erudht ed ouzert. Io hieb intervent kay sayge : “Bet no. Bet no.” Io pohnd quo is narrit prabh ed interessant. In id smulk morghe, is me hat manthiht is hieb entret id gerosdom ka nidehn. Dat is khissit se fit, is hieb-se propost pro tod place os bawab. Ho kauihn iom od in summ is eet un pensionar. Is mi hat saygen no. Me hieb ja ubfallt id weidos quosmed is sieyg : “i”, “alters”, ed rarer-ye “i veuts”, tolkend-ye dei pensionars ex qui sems ne eent ater quem is. Bet naturelika, to ne eet id sam ject. Is ge eet bawab, ed, unte un certaino meid, is hieb rects uper i. Ia lieksuor hat entren ye tod moment. Id vesper hieb gwohmen brusk-ye. Baygh oku, id noct hieb dusct uper id stikelkrov. Is bawab hat wohrten id mutaschalter ed ho est blins ab id stayg lucespreuz. lucespreuz. Is me hat invitet invitet ad gwahe id trapezariya trapezariya kay diner. Bet io ne hungher. Is hat tun bohdt mi bringhes un tasse cafee-au-lait. Dat meg kamo cafee-au-lait ed is hat riken sem moment serter samt un tepji. Ho poht. Ho tun dumskwn. Bet ho kungen ob io ne wois an io poiss kwehre to ant mamma. Ho daumt, to hieb neid importance. Ho daht un cigarette ei bawab ed hams dumen. Ye uno moment, is mi hat sayct : “Yu woid, ischi prients as Potnia vies mater vahnt gwehme ad wakhe iam. Est id swohd. Tehrbo vane stuls ed sword cofie.” Ho sprohct iom an oino iom lampes ghohd ses gwest. Id cand ios luce ep ia kwit murs me strakih. Is mi hat saygen od to ne eet possible. Id installation eet it kwohrn : eet hol au neid. Neti ho maung-ye kaurn de iom. Is hat salgen, hat gwohmen tsay, hat disposen sem stuls. Ep oin ex ia, is hat kwinuwen sem tasses ambh un cofiedostkan. Dind is hat sess ghom face me, ocolo mamma. Eem za iam lieksuor, lieksuor, iamschi in id bund. Io ne vis quo ia kwohr. Bet yeji id mov aysen brakhs, io ghohd credihes ia mohsg. Id weter eet mild, id cofie hieb warmen me ed unte id ghyanen dwer entrit un odor om noct ed flors. Credeihm ho lyt raflat. Un streip me hat protiebudt. Ob io hieb clus mien okwi, id kyal mi hat kwohcto dar kweitoster. Ant me ne eet skadh ed cada object, cada angule, vasya curves
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oiskip samt un okwiveurnend kweitert. Ye tod moment hant i prients as mamma entret. Eent in summ un decen, ed snohgeer silent in tod blindend luce. Hant sess ghom aun stulknar. Io vis i kam ho naiwo vis anghen ed neid detayl iren ligen au iren povestis oiskiep me. Yed io ne ieur i ed mi eet difficil credihes in iro realitat. Quasi vasyas gwens vohs uno mandile ed id spartako quod king ir lendvo dar meis-ye stehlbihsit ir kowko gventer. Io hieb naiwo bad kaun kam gwiw gwiwot otic ic ghoh ghohd d ses ses anua anuas. s. Quas Quasii vasyi vasyi wirs wirs eent eent bayg baygh h maig maighe herr ed dohr dohrjj cannas. Quo in ir lieks ubfiell me eet od io ne vis ir okwi, sontern un aunarg diutis medsu un raugen nest. Kun hant sedden ghom, pleisti me hant spohcen ed nuken zakhmat-ye, ir lipps alnos praedden ab ir aundento stohm, aun od io ghohd woide kweter me saluteer we lit de un tick. Credeihm anter od me saluteer. Ye tod moment ho io bedyohrcen od vasyi sess face me yaund-ye ir caps, ambh iom bawab. Ho haben unte un khvil id joking pondos od eent ter kay judce me. Pau pos, un gwen hat biplangen. Ia sess ye id dwot rang, kohlt ab oinu sienen sokwnias, ed io dusvis iam. Ia pliengit med lytil cries, regular-ye : mi kwohk od ia naiwo stopiet. Alters tengier ne aure iam. Spohceer id jenasa au ir canna, au quodquid, bet spohceer tik tod. Ia gwen eepiplanct. Io baygh-ye stieun ob ne gnohsim iam. Habiem iskwno neti aure iam. Yed ne dursim sayge ay to. Is bawab se hat cliht kyam, hat baht ay, bet ia hat scusso sien cap, hat naplanct samt id sam regularitat. Is bawab hat tun gwohmto nieb me. Is hat sess ghom prokwem me. Pos un destull-ye longo moment, is me hat istikhbaret aun spehce me : “Ia eet baygh bohnd’ con Potnia vies mater. Ia sayct od sa eet ays saul prientin her ed od nun ia neti hat anghen.” Hams remanen it unte un khvil. Ia kwehsters ed sleucta ias gwen bihr rarer. Ia maung-ye maung-ye snif. Bad ia hat swight. swight. Neti swohpskwim, swohpskwim, bet eem strak ed miena nugvers gvoleer. Taiper mi eet kados id silence tim quant leuds. Tik ex tid do tid, io ieur un aunsam blosk ed khiekim ghabe quo id eet. Fin-ye, ho vitarken od oiks bayna iens geronts sug id inner iren gians ed skapihr ta bizarre claps. Ies ne bedyohrc to tantghi absorpt in ira brens ies eent. Io hatta hieb id pondos od sa mortua, lyehgend medsu i, ne mieyn ject pro i. Bet nun credeihm od to eet un ghawo pondos. Wey quants hams pohn sem cofie, schohnken ab iom bawab. Dind neti woidim. Id noct hat passen. Mehmo od ye uno moment ho ghyanen mien okwi ed ho vis od ies geronts swohp duben ep se, ploisko oin qui, sieno mant ep id denwrnt sienen hands greipend sien canna, stier ad me kamsei is intizier tik mien gehren. Dind ho swohpyet. Ho gohrt ob miena nugvers semper meis gvoleer. Id dien slid ep id stikelkrov. Pau pos, oino iom geronts hat gohrn ed is hat maung-ye kwasen. Is spiu do uno mier careit handchirk ed ielg eysen spieumens eet kam un rehven. Is hat protiebudt alters ed is bawab hat saygen i dohlg abgwahe. Hant stahn ub. Tod negadab wakht hieb im dahn aschen liges. Salgend-ye, ed ye mieno megil staunen, vasyi me hant mussafahet – kamsei tod noct unte quod ne hiebam bahn hieb criscen nies intimitat.
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Eem strak. Is bawab me hat ducen do sien logement ed ho ghohdt me lave lyt. Ho iter poht sem cafee-au-lait quod eet baygh lecker. Quando ho sals, id dien hieb alnos wust. Uper ia clins qua separent Marengo ud id mar, id waurn eet reudhosplen. Ed id wind quod swohbh uper ia brigh hetro un odor os sald. Un bell dien se preparit. Io ne hieb gwahn rur diutos ed io khiss quod plaisure habiem habt sayranend-ye sei ne habiet esen mamma. Bet ho skohpten in id ghehrd, sub un platane. Io ann id odor ios fresch ghom ed neti swohpskwim. Ho mohnen dei bureau colleghs. Ye tod saat, stahr ub kay gwahe orbate : pro me tod eet semper id meis difficil saat. Ho namohnt lyt de ta jects, bet buim distract ab un clocko quod swohn eni ia trebs. Buit talasch apter ia fensters, dind hol hat sakwnascen. Id sol hieb stight lyt hoger in id waurn : id biwiermit mien peds. Is bawab hat tohrn id ghehrd ed mi hat saygen od is director bud me. Ho gwaht eys bureau. Is me hat signiht un certaino numer documenten. Ho vis od is eet sworddut samt uno maschruu pantalon. Is hat ghens id telephone telephone aurer ed is hat wohkwt me : “Ies daunos employeit employeitss sont ter pon un moment. Vahm budes ke gwehment ad clude id jenasa. Volte yu prever vide vies mater ye un senst ker ?” Ho saygen no. Is hat wohlen do id telephone khafyeihnd-ye sien voc : “Figeac, saycte ibs wirs poittent gwahe.” Dind is mi hat saygen is prispehciet id dafan ed ho danct iom. Is hat sedden ghom apter sien scribtable, hat crucet siena smulk jambs. Is me hat warnen od ego ed is esiemos saul, con iam dejour sanitaru. Per prabhil, pensionars ne poiss prispehce dafans. Is sis i tik wakhe : “Est un question os humanitat”, hat is kaun. Bet, ye cid fall, is hieb ijaben id autorisation os sehkwe id convoy uni veut prient as mamma : “Thomas Pérez.” Tun hat is director smihn. Is mi hat saygen : “Ghapte, est un lyt magvisk khisses. Bet is ed vies mater pau likweer mutu. In id gerosdom, eet scherzen de i ed saygen ad Pérez : “Ia est vies fiancee.” Is ge glih. To plaisit i. Ed in fact Potnia Meursaults mohrt hat iom maung affecen. Ne ho credihn ei refuse id autorisation. Bet sekwent id radh ios visitant liek, ei ho banen id ghestern wakht.” Hams remant silent destull diu. Is director hat staht ub ed hat spohct per id fenster siens bureau. Ye uno moment, is hat observet : “En ja iom pleban os Mare Mareng ngo. o. Is udwa udwakt kt.” .” Is me hat hat maun mauntt od tehrb tehrbie iemo moss ghan ghange ge mins minstt-ye ye tri tri quardels hor kay gwahe id kyrko quod est in idswo village. Habmos stighto ghom. Ant id treb eent is pleban ed dwo ministrant pwarns. Uter dohrj uno mijmer ed is pryster se clih kyom kay panges id longe ios argwrnten zangir. Quando hams arriven, is pryster hat stauto tsay. Is me hat kalt “mien sunu” ed mi hat sayct oik werds. Is hat entren; ho sohkwn iom. Ho glazt od ia scruvs ios jenasa eent dupt ed od eent quar kyehrsen wirs in id kyal. Ho aurt sammel iom director mi sayge od id wogho skohpt ep id strad ed iom pryster inkape eys prehgens. Ab tod moment, hol hat jinkdout baygh oku. Ies wirs hant gwahn perodh kyid jenasa con un drap. Is pryster, eysi chelds, is director ed ioswo habmos salgen. Ant id dwer eet un potnia io ne gnohsim : “Poti Meursault”, is director hat sayct. Ne ho aurn id nam tas potnia ed ho tik
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preten od ia eet delegeit sanitara. Ia hat inclinet aun smeiho sien ostic ed long lige. Dind hams ardehn-se kay sines id nayv prigwehme. Habmos sohkwn iens bertors ed salgen id gerosdom. Ant id dwor eet id wogh. Vernisset, oblong ed smeuk, id mehnih de un pennscrin. Ant id eent is diadehtor, smulk wir samt joking vesters, ed un skayvspeudo geront. Ho ghaben is eet Poti Pérez. Is vohs un fedora samt rundo tackya ed plaut leizd (is hat giowen id quan id jenasa hat gwohmen pri id dwor), un costume quos pantalon kriemp uper eysa schous ed un node ex swordo stoff pior smulk pro eys camisso samt mier albh colnier. Eys lipps trembleer ender uno nas comspergen med sword nuktas. Eys destull teun albh kayso sis prioscille curieus dusdacht aurs quom sehrgrudh color in tod pallo lige me ubfiell. Is diadehtor nos dahsit nies places. Is pleban proghieng, sohkwn ab id wogh. Ambh id ies quar wirs. Apter id, is director, ioswo ed, ye alaycaud, ia delegeit sanitara ed Poti Pérez. Id waurn eet ja solplen. Id bivyig uper id ardh ed id gvrens oku ieug. Io ne woid ma habmos skohpto destull diu pre bighange. Mi eet warm subter mien deusk vesters. Is smulk veut, qui se hieb rekufyet, hat iter giowt sien hat. Io hieb lyt volgen kyeys gon, ed eem spehcend iom kun is director mi hat bahto de iom. Is mi hat sayct od ops miena mater ed Poti Pérez ee-sayrane vespers tiel id village, hamrahn ab un sanitaru. Io spohc id rur ambh me. Per ta cypressen lignes qua duxeer ibs clins prokwem id waurn, tod ruoss ed glend ghom, ta rar ed suarissen doms doms,, io comp compreh rehen enss mamm mamma. a. Id vesp vesper, er, in tod tod land land,, soll sollit it ses ses kam kam uno uno melankholic tregv. Hoyd, id uperwarm sol quod trehsihsit id landspect id kwohr inhuman ed depremant. Hams bighanct. bighanct. Ye tod moment ho bedyohrcen bedyohrcen od Pérez mulayim-ye mulayim-ye claudicit. claudicit. Id wogh eegaissgaint syrat ed is geront eeleusleust plor. Oino iom wirs quoy periembh periembh id wogh se hieb sisen udgwahe ed ghiengit ghiengit nun nieb me. Eem surpris ab id okutat samt quod id sol stigh in id waurn. Ho bedyohrcen od ja diutos in id ruro drohn insectenkan ed grasreusa. Swoid srusit ep mien gians. Dat io ne hieb hat, hat, io me swins swins med mien handchirk handchirk.. Is daunos daunos employei employeitt mi hat tun sayct semject ne ho aurn. Sammel is tiersit sien ghalv med un handchirk is dohrj in sien levter ghesor, id dexter ayrend id rand siens kulah. Ei ho sayct : “Pardon ?” Is hat repetihto deikend-ye id waurn : “Gvereht.” Ho saygen : “Ya.” Lyt pos, is me hat sprohct : “Est vies mater ter ?” Ho iter sayct : “Ya.” “Eet ia veut ?” Ho antwohrdt: “Katha”, ob ne gnohsim id exacto ciffer. Dind is hat tayct. Ho volgen ed ho viden iom veut Pérez ye penkgimtia metern apter nos. Is hiestit se wipe wipeih ihnd nd-y -yee sien sien fedo fedora ra ye id bors bors om sien sien brakh brakhs. s. Ho spoh spohce cen n ioms iomsch chii director. director. Is ghieng samt maung decos, aun inutil inutil geste. Oik swoidghutt swoidghuttss perleer ep eyso chol, bet is ne tiers ia. Mi kwohk od id convoyo ieg lyt meis oku. Ambh me eet semper id sam gwayder rur uperpehldend med sol. Id diewarg eet nestehmim. Ye oino moment, hams uperghanct uperghanct un part ios strad quod hieb est nuper rekwohrt. rekwohrt. Id sol hiebit spragen id katran. Peds dub tetro ed likw idso smeuk pulp ghyanen. Uper id wogh, id hat ios cocher, ex yohst lieter, kwohk esus dighen ex tod sword slamm. Eem lyt
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lusen inter id blou ed albh waurn ed id monotonia monotonia tom colors, sleibic sword ios spragen katran, tarn sword iom povestis, laquen sword ios wogh. To hol, id sol, id odor om lieter ed spyra ios wogh, tod ios verniss ed tod ios timian, id strieke unios neswohpen noct, troublit mien spect ed mien idees. Ho vols iter meis : Pérez mi hat kwohct baygh dalg, lust in un gvrensnebos, dind ho neti dyohrct iom. Ho paursken iom med mien spect ed ho viden is hieb likwt id strad ed gwaht poldskeir. Ho constaten odschi ant me id strado tour. Ho ghaben od Pérez qui gnohsit id land kwohr id cortst itner kay navaxe iom. Ye id skamb is hieb jointo nos. Dind hams lusen iom. Dind is hat kwohryen itner poldskeir ed it plurs. Ego khiss mien sehrgo quod stus protie mien skolfas. Hol hat passarto dind samt tant precipitation, yakinia ed natural, quem neti mehmo ject. Tik oin : ye id entrat ios village, ia delegeit sanitara mi hat bahn. Ia hieb un aunsam voco quod ne dohbh ays lige, uno melodieus ed tremblant voc. Ia mi hat sayct : « Sei gwahms lent-ye, riskmos nrischay. Bet sei gwahms pior oku, transpirems ed in id kyrk nos forkheuldmos.” Ia sieyg prabh. Ne eet solution. Ho dar gwupt oik images ex tod dien : mathalan, id lige os Pérez quando, ye id senst ker, is nos hat joinen prokwem id village. Taungh dakrus om erghen ed pein rohn ep eysa gians. Bet, ob eys raugs, ne abdohneer. Ia se ster, joineer mutu ed skip un aqua verniss ep tod destruct lige. Buir dar id kyrk ed i villagers ep ia trotuars, ia rudha gerania ep ia tumbhs ios cimtier, id bayaldissen os Pérez (is kwohkit kam un disloquen marionette), id sehrgcolor ardh quod rollit uper id jenasa as mamma, id albh krewos iom raudhs qua se bliend ei, dar leuds, vocs, id village, id skehpten ant un cafee, id aunstop snarcen ios motor, ed mien joy quan id autobus hat entret id lucen nest os Alger ed kun ho mohnen vahsim lyehge ghom ed swehpe unte dwodem hors.
II Gehrnd-ye, ho ghaben ma mien bes hieb tengiet rhayr masrour quando hiebim bud buden en mien mien dwo dwo cung cungei eidd ddie iens ns ud iom iom : hoyd hoyd est est sabd sabd.. Io hieb hieb in druv druvee myohrsen to, bet stahnd-ye ub, to mi hat enfallen. Mien bes, alnos naturelika, hat mohnt habiem it quar ferias dien con mieno mingo ed to khiek plaise iom. Bet hois, to ne est mien fault sei mamma buit begrabht ghes vice hoyd ed ciois, habiem dact mien sabd ed mieno mingo zowngschie. Weidwos, to ne mi stambht comprehende lakin mien bes. Mi buit difficil stahe ub ob eem strakihn ab ghes. Menxu io me xur, ho daumt quod vahsim kwehre ed ho decis gwahe me balnye. Ho emen id tram kay gwahe id balnyen xitu ios port. Ter, ho mergen do id passe. Eent maung yuwencs. Ho retrohft in id wed Marie Cardona, un prever teipster miens bureau quam io hieb wohnt ye tod zaman. Iaschi hieb, credeihm. Bet ia hieb likwt lyt pos ed wey ne hieb haben id wakt. Ho hohlpt iam ad stighes ep un schamandura ed, unte tod mov, ho strifen ays pizda. Eem dar in id wed quando ia lyohg ja brous ep id
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schamandura. Ia hat volgen kye me. Ia hiebit sien kays in sien okwi ed ia glih. Ho glohmbern nieb iam ep id schamandura. Id weter eet khauris ed, kam per jok, ho sis mien cap ihes retro ed ho deht id ep ays gventer. Ia hat sayct neid ed ho remanen it. Io hieb id waurn in mien okwi ed id eet blou ed golden. Sub mieno neuk, io khiss Maries gventer bate mliak-ye. Habmos manto diu ep id schamandura, pwolswehpend. Quan id sol hat bihn pior akster, ia hat mergen ed ho sohkwn iam. Ho navaxt iam, ho deht mien hand ambh ays lendv ed hams comsnaht. Ia dar glih. Ep id quie, menxu wey turs, ia mi hat sayct : “Som bruner quem yu.” Ho sprohct iam an ia gwohmskwit do kino, hovesper. Ia hat iter gliht ed mi hat sayct ia wohnit smauter un film con Fernandel. Quando hams redut, ia hat tengien baygh surpris ab vide me samt un swordo cravat ed hat me sprohgen an eem traurnd. Ho sayct ay od mamma hieb mohrn. Dat ia gnohskwit pon quando, ho antwohrdt : “Pon ghes.” Ia hat lyt staut retro, bet ne hat nabaht. Ho wohnen ay saygen od to ne eet mien fault, bet ho halten ob ho mohnen io hieb ja saygen to mieni bes. To mieynit neid. Zowngschie, smos semper lyt faultic. Ye id vesper, Marie hieb myohrsen quant. Id film eet goil unte moments ed finye druve-ye pior cacavan. Ayso jamb eet protie mieno. Caressim ays pizda. Ambh id end ios smauter, ho kussen iam, bet khak-ye. Salgus id kino, ia hat gwohmto do mien hem. Quando ho gohrt, Marie hieb abgwaht. Ia hieb mi explien ia dohlg faungmoene sien tante. Ho mohnt od eet mingo ed to me hat plictisset : ne kamo mingos. Tun ho volgen in mien crovat, ho paursken in id bolster id odor os sald quod Maries kayso hieb likwn ter ed ho swohpen tiel dec saat. Ho dumto dind cigarettes, dar lyehgend, tiel middien. Ne obeddskwim bi Céleste kam adet ob, sigwra, mi habient iskwn werds ed ob ne kamo to. Ho pohkwt mi oivs ed ho ess ia ex idswo pliat, aun dvan ob io neti hieb sem ed ob ne stighskwim ghom kay kaupe sem. Pos obedd, me ho lyt plictissen ed ho erren in id appartment. Id eet gadab quando mamma eet ter. Nun id est pior miero pro me ed ho tohrben transporte do mien mien kame kamerr id meja meja.. Gwiv Gwivne neum um tik tik in tod tod kyal kyal,, inte interr ia stul stulss ex lyt lyt disstohven kalm, id schkaf quos specule est gohlben, id beauteitstable ed id cupern crovat. Id reste est diskaurn. Lyt serter, kay kwehre semject, ho ghens un veut journal ed ho list id. Ho bohrdto tetos un reclame iom Kruschen salds ed ho glimt id do un veut cadern quetro dehm ia jects qua me zalisse in journals. Ho yaschi laven mien hands ed, in id end, ho sedden ep mien balcon. Mien kamer uperspehct id magno strado ios suburb. Id posmiddien eet bell. Lakin, id pavement eet piwer, i leuds rar ed dar hirsic. Preter eent familias qua gwahr sayrane, dwo smulk pwarns in naut costume, ira brugs haltend uper ir genus, ed una smulka kweil samt un taungh pembo node ed sword vernisset schous. Apter i, un enorm mater, in rogv ex karag silk, ed is pater, uno smulk destull smiegd wir quom vidgnohm. Is vohs un canotier, uno muschdiemen ed dohrj un canna. Vidend-ye iom con eys gvibh, ho ghapt ma in id quartier eet saycto de iom od is eet mumtase. Lyt serter prighieng ies yuwens ios suburb, laquet kays ed rudh cravat, id jaquet baygh-ye kohmbert, samt un altiet pochette
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ed quadratborsa schous. Ho mohnt ies gwahr ia kinos ios centre. Itak abgwahr tem aus ed spohdeer kyid tram gleihnd-ye tem honar-ye. Pos iens, id strad hat bihn lyt ed lyt desert. Ia skaus hieb inkapt quantloc, credeihm. Eent ep id strad ne meis quem dukandars ed cats. Id waurn eet kweiter bet aunarg uper ia ficus ficus qua leizde leizde id strad. Ep id anti trotuar, is tabakdukandar tabakdukandar hat salgihn un stul, hat installen id ant sien dwer ed hat riden id kneigvend-ye med sien dwo brakhs ep ids clintor. Ia nuper uperplen trams eent quasi tuich. In id smulko cafee : “Chez Pierrot”, nieb id tabakdukan, is garson firschit kussut in id desert locanda. Eet druve-ye mingo. Ho wohrten mien stul ed ho placen id kam tod ios tabakdukandar ob ho pohnden to eet gadaber. gadaber. Ho dumen dwo cigarettes, cigarettes, ho vanen entro un schtuk chocolat chocolat ed ho riken edde id claus id fenster. Pau P au pos, id waurn hat bihn dengu ed ho credihn vahsam subihes un lient aumber. Hat lakin kwikwoityet. Bet id pertu iom nebsen hieb likwn ep id strad kam un seuy promiss quod hieb id kwohrn deusker. Ye penk penk saat saat,, tram tramvi vias as hant hant arriv arriven en hona honar-y r-ye. e. Brig Brighe heer er tsay tsay ex id subu suburb rb stad stadiu ium m grwo grwozd zdus us om spec specta tato tors rs perch perchet et ep ia ubgw ubgwad aders ers ed gale galend nders ers.. Ia sehkwnda tramvias hant brighen tsay iens leikers ho recognihn ob ir smulk valises. Ies hul ed sohngveer med plen pulmons od ir club ne nehciet. Plurs mi hant znaycen. Oino mi hat hatta criet : “Hams vicen iens.” Ed ho baht : “Ya”, neukend-ye. Ab tod moment, autos hant bistrohmt. Id sol hat lyt-ye stighto ghom. Uper ia tects, id waurn hat regwen ed, dat id vesp vesper er inki inkiep ep,, ia stra strads ds hant hant biht bihto o chep chepra ran. n. I spas spasse sere rers rs eere eereir irei eiken kent. t. Ho recogni recogniht ht iom mumtase mumtase poti poti medsu medsu alyens alyens.. I purts purts plieng plieng au se siseer siseer sehlke sehlke.. Quasi fauran, ia kinos ios quartier hant sikwen do id strad un flutt spectatoren. Bayna ti, i yuwencs hieb gestes gwaukaner quem biadet ed ho mohnen i hieb smau smaute tert rt un aven aventu ture ren n film film.. Ti qui qui rik rik ex ia urbk urbkin inos os arri arrive veer er lyt lyt sert serter er.. Kwohkeer graver. Dar glihr, bet ex tid do tid, tengier strak ed khayalend. Habent mane manen n ep id strad strad,, gwig gwigwa wahn hnd d ep id anti anti trot trotua uar. r. Ias Ias gwen gwenaks aks ios ios quart quartie ier, r, lutkays, dohrj mutu per ia brakhs. Ies yuwens hiebeer pliohgen prighange ians ed mlur scherza de qua ias glihr diswehrtend ir caps. Plurs ex ians, quans gnohsim, mi hant znayct. Ia fanars buir tun daght brusk-ye ed hant palliht ia prest istars qua wus in id noct. Ho khissen mien okwi strakasce ob spehce ia trotuars con ir onos menscen ed luce lucen. n. Ia lamp lampes es leuc leucih ihrr id smeu smeu pavem pavemen ent, t, ed ia tramv tramvia ias, s, ye regu regula lar r intervalls, glimmerihr uno smeuko kays, uno smeih au un argwrnten brakhlett. Pau pos, samt ia ja rarer tramvias ed id ja sword noct uper drus ed lampes, id quartier hat tuichasct rhayr kheissas-ye, hin el prest catis tohr lent-ye id iter deserto strad. Ho tun mohnen io tohrb diner. Me lyt gvolit mien coll ob manus diu kneigvend ep id clintor os mien stul. Ho stighen ghom kauptum dvan ed pasta, ho cocen ed ho edden stahnd. Ho dumskwt un cigarette claus id fenster, bet id air hieb khuldasct ed mi buit lyt srig. Ho cluden mien fensters ed reikendye ho viden in id specule un schtuk meja quer mien spiritlampe stahsit nieb
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dvanschtuks. Ho mohnen od to eet iter oin khatem mingo, od mamma eet nun begrabhen, od vahsim eme tsay mien orbat ed od, in summ, neid hieb changen.
III Hoyd ho maung orbaten in id bureau. Is bes hat est maedwn. Is me hat sprohct an ne eem eem pior pior strak strak edsc edschi hi is hat hat gnoh gnohsk skwt wt mamm mammas as oume oumer. r. Ho sayg saygen en “sixgimtiat”, kay ne rhalte ed io ne woid ma is hat tengiet ses rohmen ed aye to un khatem besoyn. Eet un kowp conosmenten conosmenten qua se kwinuw kwinuw ep mien table ed ho tohrpto tohrpto perilises vasy vasya. a. Pre Pre link linkwe wess id burea bureau u kay kay gwah gwahee obes obessu sum, m, ho lave laven n mien mien hand hands. s. Middiens, kamo tod moment. Vespers, me plaist minter ob id rollhandtuko quod neud neudmo moss est est alno alnoss madh madh : id hat hat daug daughe hen n unte unte id hol hol dien dien.. Ho saygen saygen tod tod remarke sem dien ad mien bes. Is mi hat antwohrdt is pohnd to regretet, bet od to eet lakin un aunahammiyato detayl. Ho salso lyt sert, ye middien trigim, con Emmanuel, qui orbat in id expedition service. Id bureau uperspehct id mar ed hams lust un khvil observend-ye ia cargonavs in id solgverehnd port. Ye tod moment, un onwogh hat arrivet samt un behngos om zangirs ed explosions. Emmanuel Emmanuel me hat sprohgen sprohgen “an gwahsam gwahsam tetro” ed ho bicurren. Id onwogh hat udiht nos ed hams inkapt apterdrahe id. Eem endermergen in blosk ed duil. Neti visim ject ed khissim tik tod aunaurdhen elan ios drahsa, medsu ia wincha ed ia machines, ia masta qua diens ant id horizont ed ia scrocks engwn qua gwahsam. Ho trohven sprijin ka preter ed ho priskanden. Dind ho hohlpt Emmanuel ad sedde ghom. Eemos exter annem, id onwogho gvohmb ep ia sanscha adoquins ios quie, medsu duil ed diewo. Emmanuel glih hina kwehse. Hams Hams arri arrive ven n upers uperswo woid idus us bi Céle Célest ste. e. Is eet eet semp semper er ter, ter, samt samt sien sien piwo piwon n gventer, sieno mandile ed sien albh moustaches. Is me hat sprohgen an “lakin io lit wal”. Ei ho saygen ya ed od io hungher. Ho mejen baygh oku ed ho pohn cofie. Dind ho gwirlayt, ho swohpt lyt ob io hieb drohnct pior vin ed, gehrendye, ho dumskwt. Eet sert ed ho curs kay kape un tram. Ho orbaten unte id hol posmiddien. Baygh gverehsit in id bureau ed ye id vesper, salgus, ho esen norocto de ghange dom lent-ye engwn ia quies. Id waurn eet glend, io me khiss masrour. Lakin, ho gwirlayn direct-ye ob mi yohsskwim kartoffels. Stei Steigh ghen endd-ye ye,, in id temo temost sto o drab drab,, ho prih prihur urtt iom iom veut veut Sala Salama mano no,, mien mien plornieber. Is eet con sien kwaun. Sont vis com pon oct yars. Is epagneul kwehndt un rudho dedru, credeihm, quod leuseiht iom quasi eys quanta drighs ed quod stehct iom med dedruks ed brun khassas. Pelu gwegwivus con iom, bo saul in uno smulko kamer, is veut Salamano hat vikwohken kam is. Is hat subrudh khassas ep sien lige ed eysa drighs sont gehlb ed rar. Is ge kwaun hat emen ud sien poti un sorte os wonk speud, sieno naster perodh ed xyangend. Tengient ex id sam genos yed detestent mutu. Dwis cadadien, ye oindem ed octd octdem em saat saats, s, is veut veuto o duct duct sien sien kwau kwaun n ad sayr sayran ane. e. Pon Pon oct oct yars, yars, ne hant hant
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changen ir itner. Ghehdent ses vis engwn id Rue de Lyon, iom kwaun tragend iom mensc hin is veut veut Salama Salamano no kwehlp kwehlpt. t. Is plact plact tun sien kwaun kwaun ed hakaret hakaret iom. Is kwaun rempt ob dekhschat ed se sint sehlke. Ye tod moment, zaruri est ei veuti trage iom. Quan is kwaun hat myohrst, is dreibht iter sien poti ed is biht iter plagen ed hakaren. Tun, bo mane ep id trotuar ed spehcent mutu, is kwaun samt terror, is mensco samt haines. Est it cadadien. Quan is kwauno minghskwt, is veut ne ei lasst id wakt pro ed tract iom, iom epagneul sehnd un sohlka smulken ghutten apter se. Sei kjiawxieng, is kwaun kwehrt in id kamer, tun is bih bihtt iter iter plac plact. t. To duren dureneu eutt pon pon oct oct yars. yars. Céle Célest stee semp semper er sayc sayctt od “to “to est est biedan”, bet, in druve, nimen ghehdt woide. Quando ho incontret iom in id drab, Salamano Salamano eet hakarend sien kwaun. Is ei sieyg sieyg : “Caltak “Caltak ! Lesch !” ed is kwaun gyiep. Ho sayct : “Sell vesper”, bet is veut nahakarit. Tun ho io sprohct iom quod is kwaun hieb ei kwohrn. kwohrn. Is ne mi hat antwohrden. antwohrden. Is tik sieyg : “Caltak “Caltak ! Lesch !” Io tierk iom, clihn uper sien kwaun, arrangend semject ep id zgarda. Ho bahn jaharer. jaharer. Tun aun volge, is mi hat antwohrden samt un sorte os arcto rage : “Est dar ter.” Dind is hat abghangen tragend-ye iom biest qui se sisit sehlctum kwetwerpod, ed gyiep. Just ye tod moment hat entret mien dwot plornieber. In id quartier, est saygen od eys parwarisch est gwens. Quan is est sprohgen de sien kasseb, yed, is est « magasinie magasinierr ». Daydey est pau kamen. Bet is mi tolct ops ed semkers oispendt un khvil in mien hem ob kleum iom. Pehndo quo is sayct interessant. Eti, ho neid sababo bi quod ne tolke ei. Eys nam est Raymond Sintès. Is est destull smulk, samt plaut omsa ed un boxer nas. Is est semper dut baygh correct-ye. Isschi mi hat sayct, tolkend-ye de Salamano : “Kam biedan to est !” Is me hat sprohct an to ne me mierz ed ho antwohrden no. Habmos stighen ed vahsim linkwes iom quan is hat mi saygen : “Ho in mien hem blutwurst ed dvan. Kwe yu eiskwte meje un schtuk con me ?...” Ho mohnen od to mi vergeihiet coce ed ho accepten. Isschi hat tik oin kamer, samt un aunfenster aunfenster cucin. Uper eys crovat, crovat, sont un angel ex albh ed pemb stuck, photos om champions ed dwo au tri clischees nogwen gwens. Id kamer eet murdar ed id crovato disstert. Is hat preter daghen sien tienhuy, dind is hat salgiht un destull dubieus plastire ex sien gep ed hat vulbht sien dexter hand. Ho sprohgen iom quod is kwohnd. Is mi hat saygen is hieb drauct protiev un type qui iskwit naos ud iom. “Ghapte, poti Meursault, ego ne som peigher, bet som elangver. Alter mi hat sayct : « Steigh ex id tram sei es un wir. » Ho sayct ei : “Hay, reman sakwn.” Is mi hat sayct od ne eem un wir. Tun ho stighen ex ed ho saygen ei : “Basta, est gohder pro te, sons’ vahm zrehle te.” Is mi hat antwohrden : “Quod tar ?” Tun ho birt ei oin. Is hat fallt. Ego vahsim hehlpe iom ad restahe. Bet is mi hat birt kalcs ghomtos. Tun ho birt ei oin genucutt ed dwo choyks. Eys enokwo sohrg. Ho sprohgen iom an is hieb sien conto. Is mi hat saygen : “Ya.”” Unte tod hol wakt, Sintès arrangit sien plastire. Io sess ep id crovat. Is mi hat saygen : “Yu vidte ne ho iskwn to. Is ge me hat prilipsen.” To eet ver ed ho
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recognihn to. Tun is mi hat declaren od, chiowdeo, is budskwit un radh ud me de tod re, od ego, eem un wir, gnohsim gwit, od io ghohd hehlpe iom ed od dind is esiet mien rafik. Ho saygen od to mi eet egal : is hat tengiet masrour. Is hat salgihn blutwurst, hat pohkwn id med id tanjar, ed hat stern glasa, talers, bestehg ed dwo botels vin. To hol in silence. Dind hams emen place. Mejend-ye, is hat mi binarren sien storia. Is preter kung lyt. “Ho gnoht un potnia... ghehdt ses sayct ia eet mien parika.” Is wiro protie quom is hieb katuet eet is brater tas gwen. Is mi hat saygen is hieb subvenen ays parwarisch. Ne ho antwohrden ject yed is hat addihn is wois quo eet saygen in id quartier, bet od eys ment eet netaraght ed od is eet magasinier. “Kay gwehme do mien storia, hat is mi ayt, ho bedyohrct eet venchen.” Is ay dahsit uno minimal parwarisch. Isswo pieygh id kira aysios kamer ed ay dahsit dwogim francs cadadien pro pieut. “Tricent francs pro id kamer, sixcent francs pro pieut, un pair chorapen ex tid do tid, to kwohr mil francs. Ed madame ne orbiet. Bet ia mi sieyg to eet gnebh, od ia ne nohs met quo ay dahsim. Yed, io ay sieyg sieyg : “Ma ne orbats tu unte un pwoldien ? Me suarehmies suarehmies pro ta quan’ smulk jects. Ti ho kaupen un ensemble homunt, tib paygho dwogim francs cadadien, tib paygho id kira, ed tu pohs cofie posmiddiens con tien prientins. Tu iabs dahs id cofie ed id suker. Ego tib dahm ia denars. Ho suaagen con te ed tu mi dusredahs to.” Bet ia ne orbiet, ia semper sieyg ia ne nohs ed katha ho bedyohrct eet venchen.” Is mi hat tun narren is hieb trohft un loterie bild in ayso sack ed od ia hieb khact ei explie quosmed ia hieb kaupt id. Lyt serter, is hieb trohven bay “un deiken” ios tangpfu quod pruv ia hieb enghigteln dwo brakhletts. Tuntro, is ne gnohsit id exis existe tenc ncee tom tom brakh brakhle lett tts. s. “Ho “Ho suav suavid iden en eet eet vench venchen en.. Tun Tun ho likw likw iam. iam. Bet Bet preter, preter, ho plact iam. Dind ho saygen mien vertats de iam. Ho saygen saygen od quanto ia volit eet glewos con sien ject. Kam ho ay to saygen, yu ghapte, poti Meursault : “Ne vids od id mund jalouset id noroc tib dahm. Tu gnohsies serter id noroc tu hieb.”” Is hiebit plageln iam tiel cruor. Prever, is ne eeplagelt iam. “Io plieg iam, bet tender-ye kay sayge ver. Ia lyt cricit. Io clus ia stavens ed to ens kam semper. Sekwent me, ne ho kafi punihn iam.” Is mi hat tun expliet od is nieudh un radh ob to. Is hat halt kay adjuste id swordaydend fitil ios lampe. Ego dar klu iom. Io hieb drohncto takriban oin liter vin ed mien skolfas baygh-ye gverehr. Io dum ia cigarettes os Raymond ob neti mi resteer sems. Ia sensta trams prirolleer ed abdribh ia nun piern bloska ios suburb. Raymond hat nabahn. Quo troublit iom, “eet od is dar hieb un sentiment de yehbhe iam”. Bet is punihskwit iam. Is hieb preter mohnen de duce iam do un hotel ed kale id moren police kay cause un scandal ed ardhmihes iam ka prostitut. Dind, is hieb wohkwn sem prients is hieb in id milieu. Ies hieb trohven neid. Ed kam Raymond me kauih to, ses member ios milieu hieb daught ei ka neid. Is hieb saygen ibs to ed ies hieb tun propost “marke” iam. Bet to ne eet quo is volit. Is vahsit namehne de. Prever, is oisprohcskwit me de semject. Eti, pre
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sprehge de, is gnohskwit quo io mieyn de tod storia. Ho antwohrden od mieynim neid de id, bet od to eet interessant. Is me hat sprohgen an io mieyn kwe eet venchen, venchen, kwe io pohnd ia dohlg ses punihn punihn ed quod kwehriem kwehriem instet iom, ho ei sayct od nimen ghohd aiwo gnohe, bet io comprehens is punihskwit iam. Ho drohnkyen lyt vin. Is hat daghen un cigarette ed mi hat aunstohgen sien idee. Is ay scripskwit un brev “med kalcs ed sammel jects kay regretihes iam”. Pos, quando ia reikiet, is yehbhiet iam ed “just ye id finmoment”, is oispieuiet kyep ays enokw ed dehiet iam extro. Ho ghi pohndt od, med tod weidos, ia esiet punihn. Bet Raymond mi hat saygen is ne khiss kabil os scribe id tohrben brev ed od is hieb mohnen de me kay redage id. Dat io sieyg neid, is me hat sprohct an mi eet nao kwehre to fauran ed ho antwohrdt no. Is hat tun staht ub pos drehnkus oin glas vin. Is hat arken ia talers ed id pau os srig blutwurst wey hieb etilikwn. Is hat kaur-ye tiergen id woxto sukno ios meja. Is hat ghenden ex un liachic sienios nocttable un schid os careit papier, un gehlb vulbh, uno smulk penkalem ex rudho dreu ed un quadrato divite os violetto tint. Quan is mi hat sayct id nam ias gwen, ho woiso sa eet una Maur. Ho kwohrt id brev. Ho script id lyt-ye towsraen, bet me ho strohnct ad contente Raymond, ob io hieb neid sababo bi quod ne contente iom. Dind ho lisen id brev jahar. Is me hat klun deumend-ye ed neukend-ye, dind me hat prohgen ke relises id. Is hat est alnos masrour. Is mi hat sayct : “Eem yakin tu woid quo gwit est.” Preter ne ho bedyohrct is me wohkwit med “tu”. Bad quan is mi hat declaren : “Nun, es un druv rafik”, hat me to ubfallen. Is hat repetiht sien jumla ed ho saygen : “Ya.” Mi eet egal ses eys rafik ed is druve-ye dr uve-ye tengicit wehne to. Is hat pechaten id brev ed hams drohnken id reste os vin. Dind hams remanto deumend unte un khvil aun sayge werd. Exo, quant quant eet sakwn, sakwn, hams hams aurt un prisne prisnehgen hgend d auto. auto. Ho saygen : “Est sert.” Raymond isschi mieyn to. Is hat kaut od wakt oku passit ed, in un sense, to eet ver. Swohpskwim, bet mi eet difficil stahe ub. Ho sollto tengie strak ob Raymond mi hat sayct od io ne dohlg neti kaure de meswo. Preter, ne ho ghaben. Is mi hat tun expliet is hieb matht mammas mohrt bet od to eet un jecto quod sollit tyehce ye sem dien au alyo. Toschi eet mieno mayn. Ho staht ub, Raymond hat me mussafahet nert-ye ed mi hat sayct od wirs semper comprehenseer mutu. Salgus eys hem, ho zaghyant id dwer ed ho mant unte un khvil in id temos, ep id drabplor. Id dom eet sakwn ed ex ia dubes ios nardban stigh un obscure ed madh blahsa. Io ieur tik ia bats os mien sehrgo quod drohn drohn protie mien aurs. Ho stahn stahn still. still. Bet in id kamer kamer ios veut Salamano Salamano,, is kwaun hat gyapto stump-ye.
IV Ho suaorbat unte id hol hevd, Raymond hat gwohmt ed mi hat sayct is hieb yist id brev. Ho gwahn kino dwis con Emmanuel qui ne semper ghapt quo jinkdout ep id ecran ecran.. Tehr Tehrbo bo tun tun ei dahe dahe expl explic icat atio ions ns.. Ghes Ghes eet eet sabd sabd ed Mari Mariee hat hat
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gwohmen, kam hiebam dohbht. Ho baygh wohnt iam ob ia vohs un bell rogv samt rudh ed albh rais ed lietern sandals. Ays kaurd pizda eent tarkim ed id brun ud id sol ay dahsit un flor lige. Hams emen un autobus ed hams gwahn oika kilometers dalg ud Alger, ep un strand anght inter perwnts ed lizdt med neds ep landgon. landgon. Id sol os quar saat ne eet pior chald bet id wed eet tepid, samt long ed adriug smulk volns. Marie mi hat docen un leik. Wey tohrb, snahnd-ye, pohe ex id volnencrest, kowpe in sien stohm id hol skum ed lyehge dind ep sien regvo kay xubhes id waurntro. To kwohr tun un spoimic dantelle quod disparihsit in id air we nifiell ka tepid seuy ep id lige. Bet pos sem wakt, mien stohm eet prust ab id saldem. Marie me hat tun joinen ed hat glohmern engwn me in id wed. Ia hat dehn sien stohm protie mien. Ays dingv refreschit mien lipps ed hams rollt in ia volns unte un khvil. Quando hams redun ep id strand, Marie me spohc med bleigu okwi. Ho kussen iam. Ab tod moment, neti hams tolken. Ho dohrjt iam protie me ed buam urgen ad trehve un autobus, ad gwirlaye do mien hem ed ad nos xubhes ep mien crovat. Io hieb lassen mien fenster ghyant ed eet khauris khisses id lient noct srues ep nies brun corpsa. Todeghern, Marie hat mant ed ho ay saygen wey comobeddiems. Ho stighen ghom kay kaupe miems. Steighend-ye retro, ho aurn un gwen voc in Raymonds kamer. Lyt pos, is veut Salamano hat grinten sien kwaun, hams aurn un blosk om swauls ed noghs ep ia dreun stieupens ios drab dind : « Caltak, lesch », hant sals do id strad. Ho narren ad Marie id storia ios veut ed ia hat glihn. Ia vohs oino mienen pyjamas pyjamas quos armels ia hieb slahn ub. Quando ia hat glihn, ho iter wohnen iam. Uno moment pos, ia me hat sprohgen an io liubh iam. Ho ay antwohrden od to mieynit neid, ed od mi kwohk od ne. Ia hat tengiet yui. Bet preparend-ye id obedd, ed ob neid, ia hat iter tem gliht quem ho kussen iam. Ye tod moment hant ia bloska uns dispute udbrohgen in Raymonds hem. Hams preter aurt un acut voc as gwen dind Raymond qui sieyg : “Me has prilipsen, me has prilipsen. Vahm tib dikes kam est prilipses me.” Oik stumpa bloska ed ia gwen hat hulen, bet tem terrible-ye quem fauran id drabplor hat pohldt med leuds. Marie ed ego hams weyschi salgen. Ia gwen dar cricit ed Raymond dar plieg. Marie mi hat sayct od to eet terrible ed ho antwohrdt neid. Ia me hat prohgen ke vane un agent, bet ho ay sayct od io ne kiem agents. Yed hat arrivet oin con iom mustajer ios dwot etage qui est plumbher. Is hat studen id dwer ed neideti buit aurn. Is hat stus nerter ed pos uno moment, ia gwen hat planct ed Raymond hat ghyanen. Eyso stohm dohrj un cigarette ed is tengicit suave. Ia bent se hat precipiten precipiten kyid dwer ed hat declaren declaren ei agent od Raymond Raymond hiebit plagen iam. “Tien nam”, hat sayct is agent. Raymond hat antwohrdt. “Strag tien cigarette ex tien stohm quando me wehkws”, hat sayct is agent. Raymond hat kunct, me hat spohct ed hat kauct ex sien cigarette. Ye tod moment, is agent hat schamarno brutal-ye eyso giano med un teug ed gwaur latmah. Id cigarette hat fallt oik meters dalger. Raymond hat mutaliget, bet is ne hat sayct werd ye tod momento dind hat sprohct med un humil voc an is poiss
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ghende ub sien papiross. Is agent hat declaren is poiss ed is hat addihn : “Bet niebs’ ker, woidsies un agent es’ neis guignol.” Unte tod wakt, ia bent plieng ed ia hat repetihn : “Is me hat plagelt. Is est un pesvenke.” – “Poti agent, hat tun sprohct sprohct Raymond, kwe est in id loy, sayge sayge pesvenke uni wir ?” Bet is agent hat wohlen iom “clude sien muk”. Raymond hat tun volgen kyam bent ed ay hat saygen : “Skehpt, smulka, siem retrehve te.” Is agent hat ei saygen clude id, od ia benta dohlg abgwahe ed is mane in sien kamer skehptend-ye ses kyuken do id police station. Is hat nabahn od Raymond dehlgiet aygve ehgvus hina tremble kam is kwohr. Ye tod moment, Raymond Raymond hat ei explien explien : “Ne som ehgvus, poti agent. Men stahm her ant vos, ed io tremble, mi est dwight.” Is hat cluden sien dwer ed vasyi leuds hant diswaurs. Marie ed ego habmos zapreparen id obedd. Bet ia ne hungher, ho edden quasi hol. Ia abgwahsit ye oin saat ed ho lyt swohpt. Ambh tri saat, mien dwer buit studen ed Raymond hat entren. Ho nalyohct. Is hat sess ghom ep id leizd os mien crovat. Is hat remanen unte un khvil aun bahe ed ho sprohct iom kam hieb eys affaire passaren. Is mi hat narret is hieb kwohrt quo is iskwt bet od ia hieb ei birt un schamar ed od tun is hiebit plageln iam. Id reste hieb io vis. Ho ei saygen od mi kwohk od nun ia eet puniht ed od is sollit ses masrour. Toschi eet eys mayn, ed is hat observet quodkwe is agent kwehriet, is changiet neid ibs cutts ia hieb kwohnden. Is hat addiht is suagnohsit agents ed od is siegv circumvene iens. Is me hat sprohct an io hieb skohpten is apokwihsit id schamar ios agent. Ho antwohrden io skohpt khich eti od io ne kiem agents. Raymond hat tengien baygh masrour. Is me hat sprohgen an sielcskwim con iom. Ho stahn ub ed me ho bipohken. Is mi hat sayct io tohrb ei daughe ka weitwodd. Mi eet to egal, bet io ne gnohsim quo io tohrb sayge. Sekwent Raymond, kafi eet declare od ia bent hiebit prilipsen iom. Ho accepten ei daughe ka weitwodd. Habmos Habmos salgen salgen ed Raymon Raymond d mi hat schohn schohnken ken un glas glas liqueu liqueur. r. Dind Dind is hat licskwt licskwt biliard ed ho gnebh lusen. Is dind gwahskwit gwahskwit bordell bet ho sayct no ob ne kamo to. Tun hams gwirlayn lent-ye ed is mi sieygit kam masrour is eet ob kamyabus punihes sien parika. Iom pohndim baygh latif ed ho mohnen od to eet un khauris moment. Dalgtos, Dalgtos, ho dyohrct dyohrct ep id soyl iom veut Salamano Salamano qui tengicit tengicit taraght. Quando Quando hams gwohmen prosch, ho vis od is neti hieb sien kwaun. Is spohc bachimien, parvols, tentit transdyehrce id temos ios dikhliz, muticit aunsehkwa werds ed spoh spohcy cyit it id stra strad d med med sien sienaa smul smulk k rudh rudh okwi okwi.. Quan Quando do Raym Raymon ond d iom iom hat hat spro sprohg hgen en quod quod is ieg, ieg, is ne hat hat antw antwoh ohrd rden en faur fauran an.. Ho vagh vagh-y -yee aurn aurn is murmurit : “Caltak, lesch”, ed is eet nataraghen. Iom ho sprohcto quer eet eys kwaun. Is mi hat brusk-ye antwohrdt od is hieb abkwetwerpohden. Ed stayg is hat tolken volubil-ye : “Ho duct iom do id Champ de Manoeuvres, kam adet. Eet menegh, ambh ia balakhans. Ho halten kay smauter “iom Roy os Oiskapologia”. Ed quando ho abgwahskwn, is neti eet ter. Weidwos, diutos ei eekaupneuskwim
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un mint minter er mier mier zgard zgarda. a. Bet Bet habie habiem m naiw naiwo o credi crediht ht so lesc lesch h gheh ghehdi diet et skap skapee katha.” Raymond ei hat tun expliet is kwaun hieb ghohden se forkwetwerpehde ed od is vahs vahsit it gwir gwirla laye ye.. Is ei hat hat cite citett exem exempe pels ls kwaun kwaunen en qui qui hieb hieb andht andhto o dece decens ns kilometern kay retrehve ir poti. Nespekent to hat is veuto tengieto taraghter. “Bet iom ghendsient ud me, ghapte. Sei bariem semanghen preimiet iom. Bet to ne es’ possible, is marz’ vasyanghen ob sien khassas. Ies agents kapsient iom, sure.” Ho sayct ei tun od is tohrb gwahe id public kuneina ed od is ei esiet redaht po id payghen sems ujrat. Is me hat sprohct an tod ujrat eet alt. Io ne wois. Tun is hat grasbanasct : “Dahe denars po tom lesch. Ah ! nehctu !” Ed is hat bihakaret iom. Raymond hat gliht ed penetret id dom. Ho sohkwt iom ed hams likwt mutu ep nies drabplor. Sem moment serter, ho aurn id stieup ios veut ed is hat stus mien dwer. Quando ho ghyant, is hat manen unte un khvil ep id soyl ed is mi hat saygen : “Excuset “Excuset me, excuset me.” Ho inviten iom ad entre, bet is ne hat volen. Is spohc id bors om sien schous ed eys khassawent hands trembleer. Aun face me, is me hat sprohgen : “Ne vahnt ies ghende iom ud me, saycte, poti Meursault. Vahnt redahe iom mi. Sons’ quod vahm io bihe ?” Ho ei sayct od id public public kuneina gwup kwauns tri diens behandet ab ir potis ed od dind id kwohr timmed quo id volit. Is me hat spohct silent-ye. Dind is mi hat saygen : “Sell vesper.” Is hat cluso sien dwer ed ho aurn iom gwigwahe. Eys crovat hat cracken. Ed ob id bizarre lytil blosko quod hat tohrn id tabique, ho ghapt is plieng. Io ne woid ma ho mohnen de mamma. Bet io tohrb stahe ub aus posdini. Io ne hungher ed me ho cubhen aun diner.
V Raymond mi hat telephonen do mien bureau. Is mi hat saygen od oin eysen prients (is hieb ei tolcto de me) me invitit ad spende id mingo in sien bungalow, prokwem Alger. Ho antwohrden od gwehmiem gairn, bet od hiebim promitten mien dien uni prientin. prientin. Raymond mi hat fauran declaren declaren is invitit iamschi. iamschi. Ia esor eysios prient esiet baygh masrour os ne ses saul medsu un wiren grupp. Ho fauran enhancskwn ob io woid is bes ne kamt od nos sia telephonen urbtos. Bet Raymond me hat prohcto ke skehpte ed is mi hat sayct is habiet ghohdt mi transmitte tod invitation hovesper, bet od is me wiernskwit de alyo ject. Is hieb esen sohkwn unte id hol dien ab un grupp Araben bayna quens wohs is brater eysias prever parika. “Sei vids iom prokwem id dom hovesper gwirlaynd-ye, warn me.” Ho saygen od eem tamam. Pau pos, is bes me hat kaliht ed, unte tod moment, ho khissen zakhmat ob ho mohnen is vahsit mi sayge telephone minter ed orbate gohder. Nel-ye eet it. Is mi hat declaren is vahsit mi tolke de un dar baygh vagh project. Is gnohskwit tik mieno mayn de tod question. Is iskwit installe un bureau in Paris quod esiet besic med eys verslyn ep stet, ed direct-ye, con ia megil compagnies ed is
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woidskwit an eem suamenos de gwahe tetro. To mi permittiet gwive in Paris edschi safer unte un part ios yar. “Ste yun, ed mi kwehct od to est un gwit quod soll’ plaise vos.” Ho saycto ya bet od fin-ye to mi eet egal. Is me hat tun sprohgen an io ne eem interessen ab un gwit change. Ho antwohrdt od anghen naiwo mutagwiviet, od in quant fall quanta wirt mutu ed od mieno ter me nel-ye desplaisit desplaisit.. Is hat tengien rhayr masrour, mi hat saygen od antwohrdim antwohrdim semper goni, goni, od io ne hieb hieb ambiti ambition on ed od to eet desastre desastreus us in verslyn verslyn.. Tun ho riken riken orbate. Habiem milen ne miscontente iom, bet ne visim sababo bi quod change mien gwit. Suamehnend-ye de, ne eem biedan. Quan eem studyent, io hieb maung talg ambitions. Bet quando ho tyohgvt mien studyes, ho oku ghaben od to eet aun real ahammiyat. ah ammiyat. Ye id vesper, Marie me hat vanen ed me hat sprohgen an wohdskwim iam. Ho saygen saygen od to hol mi eet egal ed od maghiemos maghiemos sei ia volit. volit. Ia hat tun gnohskwn an io liubh iam. Ho antwohrden kam io hieb ja kwohrn oins, od to mieynit neid bet od aundwoi ne liubhim iam. “Ma tar wehde me ?” hat ia ayt. Ay ho expliet od to hieb neid importance ed od sei ia wohn, maghiemos ghame. Eti ia ge prohsc ed ego me contentim med sayge ya. Ia hat tun observet od gham eet un grave ject. Ho antwohrden : “No.” Ia hat swighen unte un khvil ed me hat spohcen spohcen silent-ye. silent-ye. Dind is hat baht. Ia mer-ye mer-ye gnohskwit gnohskwit an habiem acceptet acceptet id sam prehscen ud alyu gwen, quay esiem lika bohnden. Ho saygen : “Naturelika.” Ia hat tun daumen an ia me liubh ed ego, khiekim woide jecto de tod point. Pos alyo moment silence, ia hat murmuren od eem bizarre, od ia me liubh aundwoi ob to bet kad sem dieno marziem iam bi ia sam sababs. Dat io tieyc, habend neid addeihtu, ia hat ghenden mien brakh smeihnd-ye ed hat declaren ia snumpskwit me. Ho antwohrdt kwehriems to yant ia eiskwiet. Ho ay tun tolken de id behd ios bes ed Marie mi hat saygen ia kamiet gnohe Paris. Ho manthihn iam od io hieb gwiven ter unte un tid ed ia me hat sprohcto kam id eet. Ho ay saygen : “Est murdar. Sont pigeons ed temost ghehrds. Id cuit im leuds est pall.” Dind habmos ghangen ed tohrn id urb unte ids magna strads. Ias gwens eent bell ed ho sproh rohgen Marie rie an ia kieu to. Ia mi hat saygen gen ya ed od ia me comprehens. comprehens. Unte un khvil, neti hams tolken. Io lakin volim ke ia mien con me ed ho ay saygen od miegham diner bi Céleste. Ia suawohn to, bet ia hieb kwehrtu jects. Eems prokwem mien hem ed ho ay saycto do reviden. Ia me hat spohcen : “Ne gnohskws tu qua jects ho kwehrtu ?” Acceptim gnohe ia, bet io ne hieb mohnto de ed to tengicit ia mambhe mi. Tun, ant mien zakhmatwent wultu, ia hat iter glihn ed ia hat moven kye me sien hol corpos kay mi rege sien stohm. Ho dinert bi Céleste. Io hieb ja biess kun entrit un bizarre smulka gwen qua me hat sprohct an ia poissit sedde claus mieno meja. Naturelika ia poiss. Ia hieb saccadata gestes ed bleigu okwi in uno smulk apel-lik enokwo. Ia hat abdeht sien jaquet ud se, hat sess claus ed hat perilist febreus-ye id menue. Ia hat kalt Céleste ed hat hangjowt fauran eys quant pliats med un sammel precis ed hastic
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voc. Skehptend-ye ia hordovers, ia hat ghyant sien sack, hat salgihto tetos uno smulko quadrat papier ed uno molive, hat hissapt in avance id addition, dind hat tract ex un gussett, auct med id schabasch, id exact summ ia hat placet ant se. Ye tod moment, ay buir bright sem hordovers ia hat guraghen syrat-ye. Skehptendye id sehkwnd pliat, ia hat iter salgiht ex sien sack un blou molive ed uno majalah quod dik ia radiophonic programmes ios hevd. Meg kaur-ye, ia hat strichen ein pos ein quasi vasya irsals. Dat id majalah mathmounit decen pagen, ia hat nakwohrn tod orbat meticuleus-ye unte id hol chifan. Menxu io hieb ja zamejen, ia dar strich tem kaur-ye. Dind ia hat stahn ub, hat redun sien jaquet med ia sam precisa gestes as automat ed ia hat abgwahn. Dat io hieb neid kwehrtu, ioschi ho sals ed ho sohkwt iam unte un khvil. Ia hieb staht ep id trotuarpriem ed samt incredible syrat ed yakinia, ia kwohr sien itner aun se extrehpe ni volge. Ho vilust iam ud vid ed ho stiupt retro. Ho mohnt ia eet bizarre, bet ho myohrst iam destull oku. Ep mien mien soyl soyl,, ho troh trohft ft iom iom veut veut Sala Salama mano no.. Ho entr entrih ihtt iom iom ed is me hat hat mant manthi hiht ht eys eys kwau kwaun n eet eet forl forlus usen en,, is ghi ghi ne eet eet in id publ public ic kune kunein ina. a. Ies Ies employeits hieb ei saygen kad is hieb esen epterwohghen. Is hiebit sprohct an ne eet possible woide to in police stations. Ei hieb esto antwohrdt od solg jects ne eent recorden, ob wakyeer cadadien. Ho saygen ei veut Salamano is maghiet habe alyem kwaun, bet is hat bahn prabh kaueihnd-ye me od is swohd tom. Eem ahocken ep mien crovat ed Salamano hieb sedden ghom ep un stul ant id table. Is facit me ed eys dwo hands eent ep eysa genus. Is hieb navohsen sien veut fedora. Is giuter schtuks om jumlas sub sien gohlben moustache. Is me plictissit lyt, bet io hieb neid kwehrtu ed ne swohpskwim. Kay sayge semject, ho interroget iom de eys kwaun. Is mi hat sayct is hieb habt iom pos id mohrt siens esor. Is hieb ghamto destull sert. Unte sien yuwent, is hieb wohnen age theatre : in sien regiment is ieg in ia militar vaudevilles. Bet is hieb viorbaten pro ia railvias ed is ne regretit to, ob is nun hieb uno smulk pension. Is ne hieb esen norocto con sien esor, bet in summ is hieb dohbro viswohden iam. Quan ia hieb mohrt, is hieb khissen baygh mon. Tun, is hiebit buden un kwaun ud un atelier dust ed is hieb haben tom, dar baygh yun. Is hieb tohrben piutes iom med un deihbotel. Bet dat un kwaun gwivt minter quem unis mensc, ies hieb vibihn veut com. « Is hieb duspinseing, mi hat sayct Salamano. Ex tid do tid, nos phiegam con mutu. Men is eet lakin un sell kwaun.” Ho sayct is eet os bell race ed Salamano hat tengiet masrour. “Eti, hat is nabahn, yu ne habte gnohn iom pre eys dedru. Eys drigh eet quo is hieb bellst.” Ielg vesper ed ielg aghyern, pon is kwaun kwohnd tod dedru, Salamano ee-ehngwneut iom med meklemm. Bet sekwent iom, eys druv siuge eet geros, ed geros ne schifet. Ye tod moment, ho ghiht ed is veut mi hat mohldt is vahsit abgwahe. Ho ei saygen is poiss mane, ed od eem taraghen ab quo hieb wakyet eysi kwaun : is me hat danct. Is mi hat sayct od mamma kiemit meg eys kwaun. Tolkend-ye de iam, is kiel iam “vies orm mater”. Is hat emiss id supposition od sollim ses baygh biedan pon mammas mohrt ed ho antwohrden neid. Is mi hat tun saygen,
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baygh oku ed samt un zakhmatwent protiokwo, od in id quartier io hieb esto duskohnst ob io hieb dehno miena mater do id gerosdom, bet is me gnohsit ed is wois wois io kiem kiem bayg baygh h mamm mamma. a. Ho antw antwoh ohrd rdt, t, ne woid woidim im iter iter ma, ma, od ne eegnohneum tuntro od eem duskohnsen de to, bet od id gerosdom hieb mi kwoh kwohke ken n semj semjec ectt natu natural ral chunk chunkee io ne hieb hieb kafi kafi dena denars rs kay kay uper uperwa wakh khih ihes es mamma. “Eti, ho io nabahn, ia hieb diutos neti ject ad sayge mi ed ia se plictissit mon. – Ya, hat is mi saygen, ed in id gerosdom, anghen gain’ dustens.” Dind is hat-se excusen. Is swohpskwit. Eys gwit hieb nun changen ed is ne pior gnohsit quo is vahsit kwehre. Ye id prest ker pon gnohsim iom, med un discreto geste, is hat regen sien hand kye me ed ho khisst ia squams os eys cuit. Is hat lyt smiht ed pre abgwahe, is mi hat saygen : “Spehm i kwauns nien’ baue honoct. Semper credeihm est mien.”
VI Mingo, mi buit difficil gehre ed Marie hat tohrben kale ed scutte me. Ne hams edde edden n ob vola volam m nos nos baln balnye ye aus. aus. Io khis khisss alno alnoss tuic tuich h ed kwoh kwohnd nd un lyti lytill khaketha. Mien cigarette hieb un bitter gust. Marie hat goilt me ob ia sieyg io hieb un “dafan cap”. Ia hieb dun un rogv ex albh woibh ed lun sien kays. Ho ay saygen ia eet bell, io hat gliht ob plaisure. Steighend-ye ghom, habmos stus Raymonds dwer. Nos hat antwohrden is vahsit gweh gwehme me.. Ep id stra strad, d, ob mien mien stri striek ekee edsc edschi hi ob wey wey ne hieb hieb ghya ghyane nen n ia miechstavens, id diewo, ja pleno med sol, me hat placto kam un schamar. Marie skiend ob joy ed eebibaht id weter eet bell. Ho khisst waler ed ho bedyohrct io hungher. Ho sayct to ad Marie qua mi hat diken sien sack ex woxto sukno quetro ia hieb dehno nies dwo yukwis ed un katife. Io tohrb tik skehpte ed hams auren Raymond clude sien dwer. Is vohs un blou pantalon ed un albh camisso samt cort armels. Bet is hieb kufyet un canotier, quo hat glihiht Marie, ed eys bagus eent baygh pall sub sworda drighs. To me mierz lyt. Is oiswih steighend-ye ghom ed tengicit baygh masrour. Is mi hat saygen : “Salut, “Salut, veut”, ed is hat kalt Marie “potnika”. Perdini hiebam gwaht id police station ed io hieb weitwodden ia bent hiebit “prili “prilipsen psen”” Raymon Raymond. d. Ei buit buit inflig infligen en un warnen warnen.. Mien Mien affirm affirmati ation on ne buit buit controlen. Ant id dwer, hams tolcto de to con Raymond, dind hams decis eme id autobus. autobus. Id plaj ne eet baygh dalg, bet gwahiemos meis oku it. Raymond mohn eyso eyso prien prientt esie esiett masro masrour ur os vide vide nos nos arri arrive ve aus. aus. Vahs Vahsam am abgw abgwah ahee quan quando do Raymond, fauran, mi hat znayct spehce perodh. Ho viden un grupp Araben kneigvend regv-ye protiev id fassade ios tabakdukan. Spohceer nos silent-ye, bet ye ir weid weidos os,, nete neterr meis meis ni mint minter er quem quem sei sei esie esiems ms petr petras as au turs tursta ta drus. drus. Raym Raymon ond d mi hat hat sayc sayctt od is dwot dwot levt levtos os eet eet eys eys type type,, ed is hat hat teng tengie ien n beswurghen. Is hat nabahn od, yed, to eet nun un khatem storia. Marie ne meg suaghi suaghieb eb ed nos hat sprohgen sprohgen quod wakyit wakyit.. Ay ho sayct sayct ies eent eent Arabs Arabs quoy quoy
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pigher dia Raymond. Ia hat volen kem abgwahsam fauran. Raymond hat staun tsay ed hat glihn saygend-ye od wey tohrbam spehde. Hams gwaht kyid bus stop quod eet lyt dalger ed Raymond mi hat mohldt ies Arabs ne sohkweer nos. Ho volgen. Stahr dar ye id sam stet ed spohceer samt id sam sam indi indiff ffer erenc encee id loco loco quod quod hieb hiebam am just just likw likwn. n. Hams Hams emt emt id autob autobus us.. Raymond, Raymond, qui kwohk alnos rohmt, eeschischerzt eeschischerzt pro Maria. Ho khisst ia plaisit iom, bet ia ei antwohrd quasi neid. Ex tid do tid, ia spohc iom gleihnd-ye. Habmos stighen ghom do id suburb os Alger. Id plaj ne eet baygh dalg ud id bus stop. Bet hams tohrpto tehre uno smulko plateau quod uperkeiht id mar ed nist nisteu eurdt rdt dind dind kyid kyid plaj plaj.. Id eet eet tohg tohgen en ab subg subgeh ehlb lbaa petr petras as ed alno alnoss albh albh asphodels ender id ja kaurd azur ios waurn. Marie se zalissit med skendhes ir petals beirnd-ye mier cutts med sien sack ex woxto sukno. Hams ghanct inter massafs om smulk villas samt glend au albha barriers, sems bedohlven con ir verandas sub ia yilgins, alters bare medsu ia petras. Pre arrive ep id leizdo ios plateau, ja ghohd ses viden id still mar ed dalger un raflatic ed massive rass in id kweiter wed. Uno mulayim motorblosk hat ludt in id sakwn air tiel nos. Ed hams vis, baygh dalg, uno smulk trawler trawler quod fanzowit perodh, imperceptible-y imperceptible-ye, e, ep id argu mar. Marie hat karpen oika ghianshiek iris. Ud id kleitu quod stighit ghom kyid mar, hams vis eent ja oik balnyers. Raymonds prient wik uno smulk dreun bungalow ye id bors ios plaj. Id domo knigvit knigvit caud-ye protie perwnts ed id galgon quod stohm id front-ye ja miedh in id wed. Raymond nos hat presentet. Id nam eysios prient eet Masson. Eet un buland plautoms type, con un smulk schischmav ed latif esor, samt parisian accent. Is hat fauran sayct nos yowasce ed od eet un pisken friture qui is hieb yaghen todeghern. Ho ei saygen kam jamile io pohnd eys dom. Is me hat manthiht is eespendt ter sabds, mingos ed sien hol cungeiddiens. “Mien esor ed ego suabeidmos mutu”, hat is nabaht. Chiowdeo, eys esor glih con Marie. Ye maghses id prest ker, ho druve-ye mohnt vahsim ghame. Masson men nigvieskwit, eys de esor ed Raymond ne gwohmskweer. Wey tri habmos stighen ghom ed Marie se hat fauran xubhen do id wed. Masson ed ego hams lyt skohpten. Is ge bahsit lent-ye ed ho kaut is swohd complete quantum is swohrit med un “ed saycsiem meis”, hatta quando, fin-ye, is addih neid ei mayn os sien jumla. De Marie, is mi hat saygen : “Ia est perbleufend, ed saycsiem meis, khauris.” Dind ho neti kaut tod tick ob eem besic med spruves od id sol mi eet sislew. Id sand bichals ender ia peds. Ho dar kunct id wehnos io hieb os wed, bet ho visayct Masson : “Smad gwahe tetro ?” Ho mers. Is ge hat entren id wed mlia mliakk-ye ye ed se hat hat xubh xubhen en quan quan is hat hat luse lusen n id grun grund. d. Is bras brasse se-y -yee tem tem dussnahsit quem ho likwn iom kay joine Marie. Id wed eet srig ed eem masrour de snahe. Marie ed ego hams comsnahn dalger ed wey khiss tamam in noster gestes ed nies contentement. Apo, hams kwohrn el mortu ed ep mien waurnwort lige id sol ierk ia sensta wedkehlders qua sru do mien stohm. Hams vis od Masson ghohd tsay id plaj kay lyehge ender id sol. Dalgtos, is kwohk enorm. Marie hat volt ke comsnahsam.
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Me ho dehn apter iam kay kinges ays lendv ed ia snahsit perodh med id nerce om sien brakhs menxu io hohlp iam med mien pedbats. Id lytil blosk ios tuden wed nos hat sohkwt in id aghyern hina me khissim strak. Tun ho likwt Marie ed ho snaht retro suaannmend-ye regular-ye. Ep id plaj, ho lyohgen brous prokwe Masson Masson ed ho dehno mien enokwo do id sand. Ei ho saygen saygen od “to eet khauris” ed is mieyn id sam. Pos pau, Marie hat gwohmt. Ho vols kay spehce iam gwahe perodh. Saldwed alnos visk iam ed ia dohrjit sien kays caudtro. Ia hat lyigen sien flank protie mien ed ia dwo gvrensa aysios corpos ed ios sol me hant lyt swehpiht. Marie me hat scuss ed mi hat sayct od Masson hieb regwirlayt ub, wey tohrb obedde. Ho staht ub fauran ob io hungher, bet Marie hat mi sayct od io ne hieb kussen iam pon todeghern. To eet ver yed io wohn to. “Gwehm do id wed”, hat ia mi ayt. ayt. Hams Hams curs curs kay kay strah strahee in ia pres presta ta smul smulk k voln volns. s. Hams Hams tyic tyicen en oik oik brasses ed ia hat glohmert protie me. Ho khissen aysa jambs protie mien ed ho nafsanen iam. Quando hams rict, Masson ja kiel nos. Ho saygen od io baygh hungher ed is hat declaret declaret fauran sieni esor od plaisim iom. Id dvan eet lecker, ho praedden praedden mien part pisk. Eent dind miems ed pommesfrites. Wey quant ess aun bahe. Masson drohnk ops vin ed mi eeschischehnct sem. Ye id moment ios cofie, mien cap lytye dusiesc ed ho maung dumen. Masson, Raymond ed ego, hams kwenchaut comspende august plaji, ye smyohrt costa. Marie nos hat fauran saygen : “Yu woid quod saat id est ? Est oindem saat trigim. » Wey quanti stieun, bet Masson hat saygen od wey hieb mejet baygh aus, ed od to est natural ob id saat ios obedd, eet id saat kun anghen heunghert. Io ne woid ma to hat glihiht Marie. Cred Credei eihm hm od ia hieb hieb lyt lyt pior pior-y -yee droh drohnc nct. t. Mass Masson on me hat hat tun tun spro sprohc hctt an sayrienskwim con iom ep id plaj. “Mien esor semper siest pos obedd. Ego ne kamo to. Tehrbo ghange. Ay semper saygo to est gohder pro sieune. Bet, pos quant, to est ays rect.” Marie hat declaret ia maniet kay hehlpe Potnia Masson ad spules id vescell. Ia smulk Parisian hat saygen od pro to, ies wirs tohrb extro. Wey tri habmos stighen ghom. Id sol fiell quasi lodhseid ep id sand ed ids arg ep id mar eet nestehmim. Neti eet anghen ep id plaj. Ud ia bungalows qua lizd id plateau plateau ed uperkihr uperkihr id mar, eent aurn bloska om talers ed bestehg. bestehg. Anghen ann payn in id petra gvrens quod lud swoltos. Kay inkape, Raymond ed Masson hant tolcto de jects ed leuds io ne gnohsim. Ho ghapt od gnohr mutu diutos ed od ies hieb hatta comgwiven ye un tid. Hams trohcen kyid wedum ed engwn id mar. Semkers, uno smulk volno longer quem alter gwohm ad smues nies woibhen schous. Io mohn de neid ob eem pwolswehpihn ab tod sol ep mien bare cap. Ye tod moment, Raymond hat sayct semject ad Masson quod ho dusaurt. Bet ho sammel dyohrcen, ye id piernst bors ios plaj ud nos, dwo Arabs in overall quoy gwohm kyant nos. Ho spohcen Raymond ed is hat saygen : “Est is.” Habmos naghan naghangen gen.. Masson Masson hat sprohge sprohgen n quosme quosmed d ies habient habient ghohden ghohden sehkwe sehkwe nos
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tetro. Ho mohnt ies habient sollt vide nos eme id autobus samt un plajsack, bet ne ho sayct ject. Ies Arabs hieb ja stohmben meg proscher. Wey ne hieb mutaspudt, bet Raymond hat hat say sayct : “Sei Sei es’ es’ drau draug, g, tu, tu, Masso asson, n, ghen ghends dsie iess iom dwot dwot.. Ego Ego me maimoureihm med mien type. Tu, Meursault, sei alyos arrivet, is es’ pro te.” Ho sayct : “Ya” ed Masson hat deht sien hands do sien geps. Id uperwarm sando mi kwohk rudh nun. Stiupam regular-ye perodh kyens Arabs. Id distance inter nos hat naminct. Quando habmos stahn oika stieups dalg ud mutu, ies Arabs hant halten. Masson ed ego habmos nilento nies kadam. Raymond hat gwaht seid kye sien type. Ho dusaurn quo is ei hat sayct, bet alter hat simulen chuoke iom. Raymond hat tun plagen ye un preter ker ed is hat fauran kalen Masson. Masson hat gwaht kye tom qui hieb ei est kyust ed is hat placto dwis med sien hol vyige. Is Arab se hat stern do id wed, face protie bund, ed is hat manen oik secundes it, burbules peungend do id surface, ambh sien cap. Entrim Raymond isschi hat plact ed alters cap eet cruorwent. Raymond hat vols kye me ed hat sayct : “Vahs vide quo is vaht kwehnde.” Ei ho crien : “Zinhaar, hat un kniv !” Bet ja Raymond hieb sien brakh ghyanen ed sien stohm scidden. Masson hat klaupen perodh. Bet alter Arab hieb stahn tsay ed hieb-se placet apt apter tom tom qui qui eet eet arme armet. t. Ne hams hams durs dursen en move. ove. Hant ant stoh stohm mben ben ret retro, ro, spispehcend nos ed titehrgend nos apo med id kniv. Quando hant vis ies hieb kafi kafi plor plor,, hant hant mwau mwaung ngso sout ut bayg baygh h oku, oku, menxu menxu eest eestit itah ahmo moss sub sub id sol sol ed Raymond dier sien cruorgheuttend brakh. Masson hat fauran sayct od un liek eespendt mingos ep id plateau. Raymond hat gwahskwn tetro strax. Bet ielgs kun is eebaht, id cruor eysios vurnos eetyityeict burbules in eyso stohm. Habmos oistohmt iom ed hams rict ei bungalow oku possiblest. Ter, Raymond hat saygen eys vurnsa eent superficial ed od is ghohd gwahe bei liek. Is hat abgwaht con Masson ed ho mant kay explie iabs gwens quo hieb wakyet. Potnia Masson plieng ed Marie eet baygh pall. Me ge plictissit iabs explie. Ho viswighen ed ho dumen spehcend-ye id mar. Ambh oin saato trigim, Raymond hat riken con Masson. Eys brakh eet bandaget ed un plastire glimt ep eyso serkven. Is liek hieb ei saygen to eet neid, bet Raym Raymon ond d tengi tengici citt bayg baygh h somb sombre. re. Mass Masson on hat hat pit pit glih glihih ihes es iom. iom. Bet Bet is ne wohkwyit. Quan is hat sayct is oistighit ghom ep id plaj, Masson ed ego habmos saygen vahsam hamrahe iom. Tun, is hat grasbanascen ed nos hat hakaren. Masson hat declaren is ne tohrb ses balahn. Ego ho lakin sohkwn iom. Hams ghancto diu ep id plaj. Id sol eet nun uperkwehlmend. Id oisbohrst ep id sand ed ep id mar. Ho haben id pondos od Raymond wois quetro is gwahsit, bet to eet aundwoi ghaw. Ye id piernst bors ios plaj, hams bad arriven uni smulk iswor quod surc in id sand, apter un taungh perwnt. Ter hams trohven nies dwo Arabs. Arabs. Ies lyohg, in ir selpic overalls. Tengier alnos sakwn ed quasi masrour. Nies gumt hat changet neid. So qui hiebit plact Raymond spohc iom aun sayge werd. Alter blahsit do uno smulk ned ed eekikant, skeirspehcend-ye nos, ia tri notes is udann sib med sien bukin.
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Hol entrim buit ne meis quem id sol ed tod silence, con id smulk blosk ios iswor ed ia tri notes. Dind Raymond hat bright sien hand ad sien revolvergep, bet alter ne hat mot ed naspohceer mutu. Ho kaut od so qui kien flute hiebit hiebit sem bayghbayghye ghohncta doiks. Bet aun linkwes ud okwi sien duschman, Raymond me hat sprohct : “Nistrehlo iom ?” Ho mohnt od sei saygiem no is excitiet-se mon ed sigwra strehliet. Ho ei tik saygen : “Ne tib hat bad baht. Esiet cherkin strehle katha.” katha.” Hams iter aurn id smulk blosk om bog ed flute in id kerd om silence silence ed gvre gvrens ns.. Dind Dind Raym Raymon ond d hat hat sayg saygen en : “Tun “Tun vahm vahm haka hakare re iom iom ed quan quan is antwehrdsie antwehrdsiet, t, nistrehlsie nistrehlsiem m iom.” Ho antwohrden antwohrden : “Katha. “Katha. Bet sei ne salgeiht salgeiht sien kniv, tu ne poitts strehle.” Raymond hat inkapen se excite lyt. Alter dar kien ed bo observeer ielg geste os Raymond. “No, ho io ayn ad Raymond. Confronte iom face ad face ed dah mi tien revolver. Sei alter intervent, au sei swehnct sien kniv, iom nistrehlsiem.” Quando Raymond mi hat dahn sien revolver, id diewo hat lucen uper. Yed, hams dar stahto still kamsei hol habiet zaghyaht ambh nos. Wey spohc mutu bet ne ghom ed hol hielt her inter mar, sand ed sol, id double silence ios flute ed ios bog. Ho mohnt ye tod moment od poissit ses strohlen au ne strohlen. Bet bruskye, ies Arabs hant retrosnohgen apter id perwnt. Raymond ed ego hams tun retrostiupt. Is ge kwohk waler ed is mi hat tolken de id reiken autobus. Ho hamraht iom tiel id bungalow ed, menxu is bestigh id dreun drab ho mantum ant id presto stieupen, mien cap sturdiht ab id sol, schawngdanus ant id effort tohrben kay stighes do id dreun etage ed wehkwe iter ians gwens. Bet id gvrens eet solgo quemschi mi eet muschkil stahe still sub id blindend seuy quod fiell waurntos. Mane her au abgwahe viel id sam. Pos uno moment, ho ricto kyid plaj ed ho bighanct. Eet id sam rudh sprehngos. Ep id sand, id mar kwohs med id hol oku ed stupt annem om siena smulk volns. Io ghieng lent-ye kya perwnts ed io khiss mien chol oide sub id sol. Tod hol gvrenso knigv ep me ed diwid mien perodhghang. perodhghang. Ed ielgs kun eekheisso ids megil chald annem ep mien lige, ee-sehro mien dents, eecl eeclud udo o mien mien peun peungs gsta ta in ia geps geps mien mienss pant pantal alon on,, eete eetend ndo-m o-mee alno alnoss kay kay triumphe id sol ed tod opac medvia id mi sikwit. Ye cada luce eins gwohlen ex id sand, ex un blaychen kyonk au sem glas debris, mien ghyanus eecraspe. Ho ghancto diu. Io vis dalgtos id smulk deusk perwnto masse perambhen ab un halo blindend ob luce ed marduil. Io mohn de id khuld iswor apter id perwnt. Io wohn retrehve id murmure idsios wed, wohn fuges id sol, id effort ed id gwenen plang, wohn badye retrehve skadh ed ids rahat. Bet quando ho esen proscher, ho viden od Raymonds type hieb rict. Is eet mon. Is kihsit ep sien regv, sien hands sub sieno neuk, sien chol in ia skadhs ios perwnt, sien hol corpos in id sol. Eys overall dum in id gvrens. Buim lyt surpriden. Pro me, to eet un khatem storia ed io hieb gwohmen tetro aun mehne de.
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Yant is vis me, is ieyrit-se lyt ed dehsit sien hand do sien gep. Ego, naturelika, ho sohrno Raymonds revolver in mien jaquet. Tun, iter, is hat snohgen retro, bet aun oistractum sien hand ex sien gep. Eem destull dalg ud iom, ye decen metern. Io tierk eyso spect unte instants, inter eys pwolcluden lids. Bet opsst-ye, eys kwiter diens ant mien okwi, in id enflammet air. Id volnen blosken eet dar adriuger, sterner quem ye middien. Eet id sam sol, id sam luce ep id sam sand quod se prolongit her. Pon ja dwo hors id dieno neti eeleitneut perodh, dwo hors pon id hieb fundarn in un ocean ex yehsend metall. Ep id horizont, uno smulk vapor hat prifanzowt prifanzowt ed ho tarken idso sword gloi ud id leizd os mien spect, ob io ne hieb zaspohct iom Arab. Ho mohnt od io hieb tik ad abgires ed od to esiet khatem. Bet un hol solvibrant solvibrant plaj waurs apter me. Ho lyt stiupen kyid iswor. Is Arab ne hat mot. Nespekent quant, is eet dar destull dalg. Maghses ob ia skadhs ep sien lige, is tengicit glihes. Ho skohpt. Solpreus gaiss mien gians ed ho khissto swoidghutts kowpe in mien brovs. Eet id sam sol quem ye id dien kun hiebim hiebim begrabht mamma ed, kam tun, hassa mien chol me gvolit ed ids quant veines combiet sub mien cuit. Ob tod preus quod neti ghohdim tehle, ho mot perodh. Io wois to eet stupid, od niem abdehe id sol ud me movend-ye oino stieupo perodh. Bet ho stiupto perodh, tik oino stieup. Ed ye tod ker, aun se ayre, is Arab hat swohngen sieno kniv is mi hat anacen sub id sol. Luce hat gwohlt ep id stal ed eet kam un long tweiser miech quod hih mien chol. Ye id sam instant, id swoid kowpt in mien brovs hat srun ghom unte oin schtoss ep mien oklids ed hat covohrn ia med un tepid ed tegu kehlder. Mien okwi eent blinden apter tod cortin ex dakrus ed sald. Io khiss ne meis quem ia cymbals os sol ep mien chol ed, neenderkwit-ye, id argu skolm gwohlt ex id kniv dar face me. Tod preusend einso ghyanuit mien pecmens ed dohlv mien gvolic okwi. Tun hat quant vanken. Id mar hat carrien un teug ed ardent blahsa. Mi hat kwohken od id waurn ghyahsit unte sien hol aykwos kay sintum suyes piurn. Mien hol seso se hat tens ed mien hand hat craspen id revolver. Id abtrigher hat cedden, ho touchen id poliht gventer ios chung ed ter, in id sammel stump ed bodereihnd blosk hat hol inkapt. Ho scuss id swoid ed id sol. Ho ghapt od io hieb destruct id tula ios dien, id exceptional silenc silencee uns plaj quer io hieb esen esen noroct. noroct. Tun, ho strohl strohlyen yen quars ep un inert nayv nayv quet quetro ro ia glon glonce cess se sehr sehr aun aun kweh kwehke ke.. Ed eent eent kam kam quar quar bragv bragvaa cutt cuttss quommed io stus id dwer os bieda.
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DWOTER DEIL I Fauran pos mien arrest, buim interroget plurs. Bet lit de identitatsinterrogations qua qua ne hant hant duret duret diu. Ye id pres prestt ker ker in id police police stat statio ion, n, mien mien re kwoh kwohk k inte interes resse se nime nimen. n. Oct Oct dien dienss pos, pos, is sokj sokjud udce ce,, puno punor, r, me hat spoh spohce cen n samt samt curiositat. Bet kay inkape, is me hat sprohgen tik de mieno nam ed mien adresse, mien profession, id tarikhe ed id loc mienios gnahsa. Dind is hat gnohskwn an io hieb chust un advocat. Ho recogniht od ne ed ho ei suwalen kay woide an eet mutlak necessar habe oin. “Ma ?” hat is ayn. Ho antwohrdt io pohnd mien re baygh simple. Is hat smihn saygend-ye : “Est un mayn. Yed, loy est ter. Sei yu ne cheuste advocat, dikskyeussiemos oin.” Ho pohndt eet baygh-ye gadab od justice se maimourih med ta detayls. Ho ei sayct to. Is me hat approben ed hat concluden od loy eet suakwohrn. In-kap, ne ho ayt serieus iom. Is me hat primt in un kyal behancto med cortins, is hieb hieb ep sien sien scrib scribta tabl blee oin oin lamp lampee quod quod belu belucc id fote foteuy uyll quet quetro ro is me hat hat seddihno menxu isswo mien in skadh. Io hieb lisen samlik description in buks ed to hol mi hat kwohct un leik. Pos nies tolk, punor, ho spohct iom ed ho vis un wir samt teun traits, dupta blou okwi, buland, samt un longo greis moustache ed abundant quasi albh kays. Is mi hat kwohct baygh-ye kemall, ed, in summ, prientlik, nespekent oik nerveus ticks qua protietrieg eyso stohm. Salgend-ye, vahsim hatta rege mien hand kyom, bet ho mohmt barwakt od io hieb nicen uno mensc. Posdini, Posdini, un advocat advocat hat gwohmen gwohmen bi me in id prison. Is eet smulk ed gwiwotic, gwiwotic, destull yun, sien kays kaur-ye glehmberiht. Nespekent id gvrens (io hieb slahn ub mien camissarmels), is vohs un deusk costume, un stehcolnier ed un bizarre cravat samt taungh taungh sword ed albh streis. Is hat dehn ep mien crovat id brevsack is bohr sub sien brakh, se hat presenten ed mi hat saygen is hieb studyen mien dossier. Mien re eet delicat, bet is ne dwoyit de idso success, sei io trus iom. Ho danct iom ed is mi hat sayct : “Smad chehxe id merit ios topic.” Is hat sess ghom ed mi hat expliet od hieb esen istifsarn de mien privat gwit. Hieb esen woiden od miena mater hieb mohrno nuper in gerosdom. Hieb esto tun soct in Marengo. Ies sokars hieb mathen od “io hieb me beviden rhayr kheissas” ye id dien os mammas dafan. “Ghapte, mi hat ayto mien advocat, to me turbet lyt sprehge vos de to. Bet to est baygh important. Ed to sessiet un mier argument pro id accusation, sei ne trehvo ject antwehrdtu.” Is volit ke io hohlp iom. Is me hat sprohct an io hieb habt gomra ye tod dien. Tod question hat maung staunihno me ed mi kwohk od habiem esen meg turben sei habiem tohrben iskwes talg werd. Ho lakin antwohrdt od io hieb lyt lusen id adet os
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daume ed od mi eet difficil ei dahe istikhbaras. Aundwoi, io kiem mamma, bet to mieynit neid. Vasyi saun sesi hieb meis au minter vanschen id mohrto tim qui i kiem. Her, is advocat me hat interrupen ed is hat kwohken baygh agitet. Is me hat promttiht ne sayge to unte id audience ni bei sokmagistrat. Lakin, ei ho expl explie iett io hieb hieb un solg solg buhsa buhsa quem quem mien mien phys physic ic naudh naudhss ops ops oist oisturb urb mien mien khi khisses sses.. Ye id dien dien kun kun io hieb hieb daf dafanen anen mamma amma,, eem eem bay baygh stra strak, k, ed swohpskwim. Tem quem ne ho bespohcto quo wakyit. Quo io ghohd sayge sigwra, eet od habiem milt od mamma ne habiet mohrn. Bet mien advocat ne tengicit masrour. Is mi hat saygen : “To ne est kafi.” Is hat reflecten. Is me hat sprohct an is miegh sayge od ye tod dien io hieb uperwaldhen mien natural khisses. Ho ei saygen : “No, ob to est ghaw.” Is me hat spohcen bizarre-ye, kamsei inspiriem ei lyt marz. Is mi hat saycto quasi peigher-ye od in quant fall is director ed id personel ios gerosdom esient aurn ka weitwodds ed od “to ghohd mi kwehre un mier renk”. Ho kauiht iom od tod storia ne hieb sibia con mien re, bet is mi hat tik antwohrden od eet visible io hieb naiwo dilen con justice. Is abgwahsit tengiend-ye peighernd. Habiem protiedarskwn iom, ei explie io wohn eyso sympathia, ne kay ses meis suadefenden, sontern, sei magho sayge, naturelika. Bilhassa, io vis io bfuyowih iom. Is ne me comprehens ed pigher lyt dia me. Io wohn ei sigwre eem kam cadanghen, mutlak-ye kam cadanghen. Bet to hol, fin-ye, ne hieb megil utilitat ed ho tyohgven to ob xieday. Pau wakt pos, eem iter ducen ant iom sokjudce. Eet dwo saat ios posmiddien ed ye tod ker, eys bureau eet pleno med un luce payn krihn ab un sukno cortin. Gverehsit baygh. Is me hat seddihn ed, samt maungo curtesia, mi hat declaren od mien advocat, “sekwos un giutayo”, hieb khacto gwehme. Bet io poiss ne antwehrde eysims questions ed skehpte ke mien advocat ghohd assiste me. Ho saygen io ghohd antwehrde mon. Is hat touchen med sien fingher uno knop ep id table. Un yun graphion hat gwohmt ad se installe quasi za me. Wey bo hams yowascto do nies foteuyls. Id interrogation hat inkapt. Is mi hat preter sayct od eem depicto ka esend uns taciturn ed cazour pinseing ed is hat gnohswn quod io mohn de. Ho antwohrden : “Est ob ho naiwo maung sayctu. Tun tayco.” Is hat smiht kam ye id prest ker, hat recogniht od to eet id gohdsto sabab ed hat addiht : “Eti, to hat neid ahammiyat.” Is hat tayct, me hat spohct ed hat stauto tsay destull brusk-ye kay mi sayge baygh oku : “Quo me interesset est yu.” Ne ho suaghaben quo is mieyn ed ho antwohrden neid. “Sont jects, hat is nabahn, qua khako comprehende in voster geste. Som yakin yu vahte hehlpe me ad ghabe ia.” Ho saygen saygen od hol eet baygh simple. Is hat urs ei lehge mien dien. Ei ho lohcto quo ja io hieb ei narret : Raymond, id plaj, id balnia, id cheid, iter id plaj, id smulk iswor, id sol ed ia penk revolverstrehls. Ye cada jumla is eesayct : “Gohd, gohd.” Quando ho arrivet do id lyehgend nayv, is hat approbet saygendye : “Tamam.” Ego eem malalto de repetihes it id sam storia ed mi kwohk od naiw eebebahsim.
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Pos un silence, is hat stahn ub ed mi hat sayct is hohlpskwit me, od interessim iom ed od med Divs hehlp, is kwehriet semject pro me. Bet prever, is volit mi iskwes iter oik werds. Aun transition, is me hat sprohct an io liubh mamma. Ho sayct : “Ya, kam cadanghen” ed is graphion, qui tuntro tip regular-ye med sieno machine, hat sollt rhalte touches, seghi hat embarasset ed hat skult toipye retro. Semper aun apparent logique, is judce me hat tun sprohct an io hieb strohlt penkwes consecutive-ye med id revolver. Ho reflecten ed preciden od io hieb strohlt oins preter ed, pos oik secundes, quars dind. “Ma habte yu skohpt inter id prest ed id secund strehl ?” iey is tun. Oins meis, ho reviden id rudh plaj ed ho khissen ep mien chol id solpreus. Bet ye tod ker, ho antwohrden neid. Unte id hol sience quod hat sohkwt is judce hat tengiet se agite. Is hat sess ghom, hat snict sien hand do sien kays, hat deht sien olans ep sien scribtable ed se hat cliht lyt kye me samt un stragno protiokwo : “Ma, ma habte yu strohlen ep un nayv ghomi ?” Dar tun, ne ho wois quod antwehrde. Is judce hat passet sien hands ep sien chol ed hat repetiht sien questiono med un lyt alteren voc : “Ma ? Yu tehrpte mi sayge to. Ma ?” Io dar swigh. Brusk-ye, is hat stahn ub, hat gredden kyun bors os sien scribstable ed hat ghyanen un liachic in un classeur. Is hat tragen tetos un argwrnten crucifix is hat swohngen reikend-ye kye me. Ed med un alnos changen, quasi tremblant voc, is hat scrien : “Kwe yu gnohte tom ?” Ho saygen : “Ya, naturelika.” Tun is mi hat saygen baygh oku ed passionat-ye is ge credihsit in Div, od eys conviction eet od nel mensc eet kafi skultic kay Div ne al indulg, bet od el mensc tohrb med sien pischman bihe kam unis magvis qual atmen est tuich ed parat ad primes quant. Eys hol corpos eet clihn uper id table. Is agitit sien crucifix quasi uper me. Kay sayge ver, hiebim baygh dussohkwt iom do eys raisonen, preter ob gverehm ed ob eent in eys maktab piwoni musch qui lans ep mienum enokwum, ed obschi is me lyt bayih. Io sammel recognihsim od to eet joking ob, pos quant, ego eem is criminal. Yed is hat continuen. Io hieb edvas ghaben od ye eys mayn eet tik oin obscure point in mien confession, id fact os skehptus kay strehle ye un second ker med id revolver. Pro id reste, to eet baygh-ye gohd, bet to ghieb is ne. Vahsim ei sayge is ieg ghaw-ye se persteivend-ye : tod senst pointo ne hieb tant ahammiyat. Bet is me hat interrupt ed me hat exhortet ye un senst ker, staund unte sien hol buliende, sprehgend-ye me an credeihsim in Div. Ho antwohrden no. Is hat sess ghom indignat. Is mi hat sayct od to eet impossible, od vasyi mensci mensci credihr in Div, hatta ti qui disvols ud eys lige. Ets conviction conviction eet ter ed, sei is solliet aiwo dwoie de, eys gwit neti habiet sense. “Eiskwte yu, hat is exclamet, od mien gwit neti haba sense ?” Ye mieno mayn, to ne me betak ed ho ei sayct to. Bet uper id table, is ja pors iom Christ perodh sub mien okwi ed scricit bochengli-ye : “Ego som christian. Beudo pardon tienen skeulsen ud tom. Quosmed Quosmed maghs tu ne credihes od is hat paytten paytten pro te ?” Ho suakaun od is me wohkwit med “tu”, bet bactissim to. Id gvrens eecicrehsct. Kam semper, quando wehno abdehe ud me semanghen io payn kleum, ho tengien approbe. Ant mien
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surprise, is hat triumpht : “Vids, vids, iey is. Ne credeihs tu ed vahs confide bi iom ?” Aweis ho sayct no oins meis. Is hat fallen tsay ep sien foteuyl. Is tengicit baygh strak. Is hat remanen unte un khvil silent menxu id machine, quod hieb nasohkwt id dialogos, dar prolongit idsa sensta jumlas. Dind, is hat chohxen me samt lyt aytan. Is hat murmuret : “Ho naiwo viden atmen tem sakht quem voster. Ies criminals quoy hant gwohmt ant me hant semper planct ant tod image os gvol.” Vahsim antwehrde od eet chiowdeo ob lit de criminals. Bet ho mohnt od ioschi eem kam ies. To eet un idee quod io khiek biswehde. Is judce hat tun staht ub, kamsei is mi significit od id interrogation eet khatem. Is me hat tik sprohgen samt id lyt malalt wultu an regretim mien act. Ho reflex ed ho sayct od, anter quem druv regret, io spruv un certaino nao. Ho haben id pondos od is ne me comprehens. Bet bye tod dien jects ne hant liten dalger. In id sehkwo ho ops revis iom sokjudce. Lakin eem hamrahn ab mien advocat ye cada cada ker. ker. Eet Eet gran grance cen n ad prec precid idih ihes es me cert certai ain n poin pointts om mien mien prev prever er declaration declarations. s. We dar is judce discuss discuss ia charges con mien advocat. advocat. Bet in druve naiwo kieureer de me ye ta moments. Lyt ed lyt in quant fall, id ton iom interrogations hat changet. Kwohk od is judce neti se interessit de me ed od is hieb kamgvonc classen mien fall. Is neti mi hat tolken de Div ed ho naiwo revis iom in id excitati excitation on tos prestios prestios dien. Id resulta resultatt est od nies nies tolks tolks hant hant bihn bihn cord cordiialer aler.. Oika ika ques questi tion ons, s, lyt lyt conv conver ersa sati tion on con con mien mien advo advoca catt, ois ois ia interrogations. Mien re sohkwit sien druna, sekwent idswo wekwos ios judce. Semkers yaschi, quan id conversation eet os general aurdhen, io smyohr id. Io biann. Nimen, unte ta hors, eet peigher dia me. Hol eet tem natural, tem suapact ed tem tem sobe sober-y r-yee acto acto quem quem io hieb hieb id joki joking ng pondo pondoss os “ses “ses memb member er ios ios familia”. Ed ye id fin iom oindem munts tod sok hat duret, ghehdo sayge od io quasi stieun de naiwo ghawdus de alyojecto quem de ta rar instants kun is judce eeduct me tsay ei dwer sienios maktab teipend-ye mien oms ed mi saygend-ye samt samt un cordi cordial al wult wultu u : “Est “Est khat khatem em pro pro hoyd hoyd,, poti poti Anti Antich chri rist st.” .” Eem Eem tun tun upertragen ei waldh iom gendarmes.
II Sont jects de qua ho naiwo kamen tolke. Quando ho entret id prison, prison, ho ghapto pos oika diens io naiwo kamiem tolke de tod part miens part. Serter, ho neti trohven importance in ta protievols. In druve, ne eem real-ye in prison unte ia presta diens : io intizier vagh-ye sem nov wakya. Bad pos id prest ed wahid visite as Marie hat hol inkapen. Ex id dien kun ho recept ays brev (ia mi sieyg ia neti poiss gwehme ob ia ne eet mien esor), ex tod dien, ho khisst od mien hem eet mien cell ed od mien gwito stopit ter. Ye id dien miens arrest, buim preter dwerbohndt in un kamer quer eent ja plur deteneits, pleist-ye Arabs. Hant glihn vidend-ye me. Dind me hant sprohgen quod io hieb kwohrn. Ho sayct io hieb nict un Arab ed hant remanen silent. Bet un khvil pos, id vesper hat
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gwohmen. gwohmen. Mi hant explien explien kam io tohrb arrange arrange id matta quer dohlgim dohlgim lyehge. Rollen Rollend-y d-yee uter uter bors, bors, ghohd ghohd ses kwohrt tosmed tosmed un bolste bolster. r. Unte Unte id hol noct, kimons drahr ep mien lige. Oika diens pos, buim isolen do un cell quer io lyohg ep un dreun capchenmur. Io hieb un dayschawbien drug ed un isern leghenn. Id prison eet baygh atopp id urb ed, per uno smulk fenster, io ghohd vide id mar. Sem dien kun io grip id kankel, mien lige recto kyid luce, un cipire hat entret ed mi hat sayct io hieb un visite. Ho mohnen eet Marie. Yaghi eet ia. Ho apterghangen kay gwahe id parluar unte un longo corridor, dind un drab ed fin-ye alyo dikhliz. Ho entren un kielken belucen ab un vast leuxmen. Id sall eet separen in tri deils med dwo mier kankels qua segeer id in ids longe. Inter ia dwo kankels wohs un inter oct ed dec meters weru rewos quod separit i visitors visitors ud iens prison prisoners. ers. Ho dyohrc dyohrctt Marie Marie face me samt ays maschruu maschruu rogv ed ays bruniht lige. Ye mien gon, eet un decen deteneiten, pleist-ye Arabs. Marie eet perambhen ab Mauras ed wohs inter dwo visitricens : unu smulk anua samt sohrn lipps, sworddun, ed un piwon gwen samt lun kays qua bahsit baygh honar med maung gestes. Ob id distance inter ia kankels, i visitors ed ies prisoners skul bahe meg jahar. Quando ho entren, id blosk iom vocs qua antskiend protie ia mier bare murs ios kielken, id rauk luce quod sru waurntos ep ia schibs ed regwohl in id kielken, mi causeer un sorte os sturdition. Mien cell eet sakwner ed deusker. Ho tohrben oik secundes kay me adapte. adapte. Yed, ho vividen vividen ielgo lige nett-ye, enderkwit in id diewo. Ho observet od un cipire eet seddend ye bors ios dikhliz inter bo kankels. Pleist arabi prisoners tem quem ir familias hieb hocken vis-à-vis mutu. Ti ne crier. Nespekent id tumult, i ghohd aure mutu bahnd-ye baygh baygh khafi. khafi. Ir stumpo stumpo murmure, murmure, startus ghomtos, ghomtos, formit kam uno mussalsal bass ibs conversations qua se intercruceer uper ir caps. To hol ho io kaun baygh oku gwahnd-ye perodh kye Marie. Ja glehmbernd protiev id kankel, ia mi smih med sien hol gwis. Ho iam pohndt baygh bell, bet ne ho sagven sayge to ay. “Tun ? mi hat ia ayt baygh jahar. – Tun, eno. – Leits wal, has quanto vols ? – Ya, quanto.” Habmos swighen ed Marie dar smih. Ia piwon gwen hul kye mieno nieber, sieno mann aundwoi, un buland blondo type samt frank spect. Eet id sehkw os un ja inkapt conversation. “Jeanne ne hat volen ghende iom, cricit ia aksterst-ye. – Ya, ya, iey is mann. – Ho saygen ay tu reghendies iom salgend-ye, bet ia ne hat volen ghende iom.” Marie hat criet ud sien gon od Raymond mi vienschit sellamat ed ho sayct : “Dank.” Bet mien voc buit tohgen ab mieno nieber qui hat sprohgen “an is lit wal”. Ays gwen hat glihn saygend-ye “is hieb naiwo lit waler”. Mien levter nieber, uno smulk yuwen samt teun hands, sieyg neid. Ho kaun od is eet face iam smulk anua ed od bo spohc mutu samt intensitat intensitat.. Bet ne ho habt id wakt os observe i diuter ob Marie mi hat criet wey tohrbam spehe. Ho saygen : “Ya.” Sammel, io spohc iam ed io wohn sehre ays rogv epter ays oms. Io wohn tod teun wehbh ed io ne meg suawois quo tohrb ses speht exter id. Bet to eet baygh aundwoi quo Marie mieyn ob ia dar smih. Io vis ne meis quem id arg aysen
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dent dentss ed ia smul smulk k dipl diplas as ayse aysen n okwi okwi.. Ia hat hat iter ter crien rien : “Salc Salcsi sies es ed ghamsiemos !” Ho antwohrden : “Credeihs tu ?” bet to eet bilhassa kay sayge semject. Ia hat saygen tun baygh oku ed dar baygh jahar od siemos, od esiem acquiten ed od dar nigviciemos. Bet alter gwen hul ud sien gon ed sieyg ia hieb lasst un corbh in id graphionia. Ia rahsit quanto ia hieb dehn tetro. To tohrb ses chohxt, toghi hol costit dorgv. Mien alter nieber ed eys mater dar spohc mutu. Id murmure im Arabs continuit ender nos. Exo id luce hat kwohct oide protiev id leuxmen. Io khiss lyt sieug ed habiem abgwahskwt. Id blosko gvolit me. Bet ciois dar iskwim brunges id presence as Marie. Ne woidim quayt wakt hat passet. Marie mi hat hat tolc tolcto to de sien sien orba orbatt ed ia eesm eesmis isme meih iht. t. Id murm murmur ure, e, ia crie cries, s, ia conversations cruceer-se. Id saul pelegv os silence eet nieb me in tom smulk yuwen ed tam anua qui spohc mutu. Lyt ed lyt, i Arabs bihr abbrighen. Quasi quanti hant taycen yant is prest hat salgen. Ia smulk anua hat gwohmen proscher id kankel ed, ye id sam moment, un cipire hat znayct aysi son. Is hat saygen : “Do reviden, mamma” ed ia hat passet sien hand inter dwo stanghs kay znayce ay lyt, lent-ye ed prolongen-ye. Ia hat abgwaht menxu un wir entrit, hat in hand, ed emsit eys place. Un prisoner buit introduct ed bo hant comtolken chepran-ye, bet ye midvoc, ob id kyal hiebit rebihn silent. Mien dexter nieber buit vanen ed eys esor ei hat saygen aun bahe meis khafi kamsei kamsei ia ne hieb kaut od neti eet necessaro necessaro crie : “Suakaur de te ed dah attention.” Dind mien roig hat gwohmt. Marie hat znaycen od ia me kuss. Ho volgen pre disprehpe. Ia stahsit still, sien lige truden protiev id kankel, samt id sam kwetwerdilt ed craspend smeih. Pau pos to hat ia mi scriben. Ed ab tod moment hant inkapen ia jects de qua ho naiwo kamt tolke. Zowngschie neid tehrpt ses exageren ed to mi hat esen meis facil quem alyims. In-kap miens detention, yed, quo hat est id kaurdst, est od hiebim brens os leur wir. Mathalan, id wehnos lambhit me om ses ep un plaj ed stighes ghom kyid mar. Imaginend-ye id blosk iom prest volns sub mien tabans, id entren os mien corpos do id wed ed id leureihsa quod pohndim ter, io khiss fauran kam prosch ia murs miens prison hieb liten. Bet to durit oik munts. Dind, io hieb tik brens os prisoner. Io skohpt id cadadien spassere quod io kwohr in id ghehrd we id visite miens advocat. Me baygh suaarrangim med id reste miens wakt. Ho ops mohnen tun od sei anghen me habiet gwiviht eni un trunk os turso schajra, aun alyo besoyn quem id waurnakmen uper me, habiem lyt ed lyt biswohden to. Habiem intizart aven pertus au nebhenghats kam io skohpt her ia curieus cravats miens advocat ed kam, in alyo mund, io intizier tiel sabd kay stringes id corpos as Marie. Api, suamehnend-ye de, ne eem in un turso schajra. Eet Eet bied biedan aner er quem quem ego. ego. To eet eet eti eti un dayi dayi as mamm mamma, a, ed ia repe repeti tih h to ops, ops, quanto bihsit viswohden. Neghi litim tem dalgtro biadet. Ia prest munts hant esen kaurd. Bet chiowdeo id effort effort ho dohlcto dohlcto kwehre hohlp ad passe ia. Mathalan, Mathalan, eem aziyat ab id wehnos uns gwen. To eet natural, eem yun. Io naiwo mohn de Marie besonters. Bet io
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mohn tem de un gwen, de ians gwens, de quantas quans io hieb gnohn, de vasya circumstances kun io hieb liubht ians, quem mien cell pohld med vasya liges ed bihsit wiken ab mien wehnsa. In un sense, to me distulit. Bet in alyo, to exhieus mien mien wakt wakt.. Io hieb hieb viga vigais isst st id symp sympat athi hiaa ios ios cipi cipirere-ch chef ef qui qui eeha eehamra mraht ht ye chifansaat iom cucinpwarn. Is ge hat, preter, mi tolcto de gwens. Is mi hat sayct od to eet id presto jecto de quod alters schikiey. Ei ho sayct od eem kam ies ed od pohndim tod traitemento neprabh. “Bet, hat is ayt, est chiowdey pro to od ste enprisont. – Quod, pro to ? – Bet ya, lure est to. Ste beghsluriht.” Io hieb naiwo mohn mohnto to de to. to. Ho appr approb obet et iom iom : “Yag “Yaghi hi,, ho io ayn, ayn, sons sons’’ quer quer esie esiett id punition ? – Ya, yu ghapte jects, yu. Alters no. Bet virehment seswo.” Is cipire hat dind abgwahn. Buir Buir iasc iaschi hi ciga cigaret rette tes. s. Quan Quando do ho entret entret id pris prison on,, buir buir kapt kapt ud me mien mien yeusmen, mien schouspartaks, mien cravat ed quanto io bohr in mien geps, besonters mien cigarettes. In mien cell, ho prohcto ke ta mi buir redaht. Bet mi bui buitt sayg saygen en od to eet eet forbo forbohd hdt. t. Ia prest prestaa dien dienss hant hant esen esen bayg baygh-y h-yee kaurd kaurd.. Maghses to me hat meist-ye ajiziht. Sugim klaers io rohv ex id baurd miens crovat. Eekwikwehndo nausea unte id hol dien. Io ne ghieb ma eem beghsiht tod quod hiermit nimen. Serter, ho ghaben od toschi smyohr id punition. Bet ye tod moment, hiebim biswohdt neti dumes ed tod punition neti eet oin pro me. Apart Apart ta naos, ne eem pior biedan. biedan. Id hol probleme probleme,, iter iter oins, oins, eet passihes passihes id wakt. Me ho nel-ye viplictisset ab id instant kun ho ucen mehme. Semkers io bimohn de mien kamer ed, in imagination, ablitim ex oin kantun kay rikes tetro ranwnd-ye mental-ye quanto wohs pri mien itner. In-kap, to eet okukwohrt. Bet ielgs kun io eekwohrye, to eet lyt longer. Ioghi mohm ielg meuble, ed, pro ielg ex ia, ielg objecto quod wohs ter ed, pro ielg object, vasya detayls ed pro iaswo detayls, un gjiaungsian, un vron au un srakut rand, ir color au iro gran. Sammel, io pit ne luses id sehkw os mien inventar, inventar, perirahe id. Tem quem pos oik hevds io ghohd spende hors, tik ranwnd-ye quo wohs in mien kamer. It, ye meis io reflex ed ye multer misgnoht ed myohrsta jects io salgihsim ex mieno memoria. Ho tun ghaben od unis menscis quel habiet gwiven tik oino dien ghehdiet aun difficultat gwive cent yars in un prison. El habiet kafi memorias kafi ne se plictisse. In un sense, to eet un vantage. Eet idschi swehpen. In-kap, io dusswohp nocts ed nel-ye diens. Lyt ed lyt, miena nocts hant bihn seller ed ho ghohdt swehpe unte idschi dien. Ghehdo sayge od, unte ia sensta munts, io swohp inter sixdem ed octdem hors cadadien. Mi resteer tun six hors ad exhause med chifans, natural naudhs, miena memorias ed id storia ios Chekhoslovak. Inter mien khali ed id baurd ios crovat ho ghi trohven un veut journalgenpian quasi glimt ei stoff, gohlpt ed transparent. Id reliet sem fait-divers quos inkap mienk, bet quod hieb sollen wakye in Chekhoslovakia. Un wir hieb fortrohcen ex un chek chekh h vill villag agee kay kay bayg baygat atas asce ce.. Pos Pos dwog dwogim im-pe -penk nk yars yars,, rich riche, e, is hieb hieb gwohmen gwohmen tsay con un esor ed un purt. Eys mater eet creschmerin creschmerin uns hotel con eysu swester in eyso gnahweik. Kay surprindes ians, is hieb likwt sien esor ed
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sien purt in alyo xitu, hieb gwaht bi sienu mater qua ne hieb recognihn iom quan is hieb nistight. Per jok, ei hieb enfallen stajer un kamer. Is hieb deidict sien dena denars rs.. Unte Unte id noct noct,, eys eys mate materr ed eysa eysa swes sweste terr hieb hieb assa assassi ssine nen n iom iom med med hammercutts kay widuves iom ed hieb xubhen eys nayv do id rivier. Ye id aghyern, ia esor hieb gwohmt, hieb revelet aun woide id identitat ios mussafer. Ia mater se hieb hangen. Ia swester se hieb xubhta do un put. Ho sollen lises tod storia tusents. Hois, id eet rhayr mukhtmel. Ciois, id eet natural. Zowngschie, io pohnd is mussafer hieb lyt-ye stahalen to ed od anghen naiwo tohrb likes. It, med ia swehpenhors, id leisen os mien schtuk os fait-divers ed id alternance om luce ed skadh, wakt hat passet. Io hieb albatta lisen od id ghaben os wakt bihsit vilust in prison. Bet to ne hieb maung sense pro me. Io ne hieb ghapt kam samm sammel el long long ed cort cortaa dien dienss ghoh ghohd d ses. ses. Long Longaa gwiw gwiwtu tu aund aundwo woi, i, bet bet tem tem distenden quem vibihr upertrohdt ep mutu. Ter luseer ir nam. Ia werds ghes au cras eent ia sauls qua gwup ir mayn pro me. Kun sem dien, is cipire mi hat saygen od eem ter pon penkwe munts, ho crediht iom, bet ne ho fahamt iom. Pro me, id sam dien eeschischaut in mien cell ed nakwohrim id sam task. Ye tod dien, iom cipire abgwahvs, me ho spohcen do mien isern gamelle. Mi hat kwohct od mien kwiter remien serieus hatta menxu io pit ei smihes. Ho agitet id ant me. Ho smiht ed id hat gwupt id sam strehng ed trist protiokwo. Id dien ens ed tod eet id saat de quod ne tolcskwo, id aunnam saat, kun ia vesperbloska lud ex vasya etages ios prison in un cortege os silence. Ho gwohmt prosch id luckern ed, med id senst luce, ho contemplen oins meis mien kwiter. Id eet dar serieus, ed quod stauneihndo chunke, ye tod moment, eem itschi ? Bet sammel ed ye id prest ker pon munts, ho aurto distinct-ye id swon os mien voc. Ho recognihn id ka tod quod cliengh ja pon long diens ye mien aurs ed ho ghaben od unte tod hol tempos hiebim bahno mon. Ho tun mohnen quo ia sanitara sieyg unte mammas dafan. No, ne eet hassile ed nimen ghehdt imagine qua sont vespers in prisons.
III Ghehdo sayge od fin-ye lient hat baygh oku tayto lient. Io wois od con id gumt iom prest gvrensen wakyiet semject nov pro me. Mien re eet inscriben pro id sensto sensto session session ios Curt om Assise Assisess ed tod sessio session n endiet endiet con id munt jun. jun. Ia debats hant inkapt samt, exo, id plenitude os sol. Mien advocat mi hieb sigwren ne durient meis quem dwo au tri diens. « Eti, hieb is addiht, id curt sessiet hirsic ob ir re ne est id importantst importantst ios session. session. Est un patergvon patergvon quod gwehmsiet just pos. » Ye sept saat trigim todeghern, buim vant ed id swordmaria me hat ducto do id mahlbehrg. Ies dwo gendarmes me hant entrihto do uno smulko kyal quod odit skadh. Habmos skohpt, seddend prokwem un dwer apter quod ieuram vocs, kals, stulbloska ed un hol talasch quod me hat mehnihn tibs weikfests quer, pos id
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concert, id sall biht enaurdhto pre id dans. Ies gendarmes mi hant saygen wey tohrb skehpte id curt ed uter mi hant schohnct un cigarette io ho refusen. Is me hat sprohgen lyt pos to “an hiebim paur”. Ho antwohrden no. Hatta, in un sense, me interessit smauter uno mahel. Io hieb naiwo habt id waurmen os vide oin unte mien gwit : “Ya, hat saycto dwoter gendarme, bet to vistrakeiht.” Pos lyt wakt, un lytil frid hat clanght in id kyal. Hant tun giowen id hathkari ud me. Mi hant ghyanen id dwer ed me hant entrihn id accuseiten cuvoukel. Id pretorium eet uperplen. Nespekent ia scuras, id sol se infiltrit stet-ye ed id air eet ja steuvend. steuvend. Ia schibs hieb esto sista cluden. Ho sedden ghom ed ies gendarmes hant ambi me. Ye tod moment ho io dyohrcen un ligen roig ant me. Quanti spohc me : ho ghaben toy eent ies jureits. Bet khako sayge quo enderkwit iens ud alters. Ho haben tik oin pondos : eem ant un tramvia tramvia banquette ed toy quant aunnami mussafers spohc iom novgwehmer kay dyehrce quo is hieb joking. Ya woidim od to eet un belog idee chunke her ne pieurskeer id joking, sontern id crime. Lakin, id difference ne est mier ed to est in quant fall id idee quod mi hat enfallt. Eem lyt sturdiht ab ti quant leuds in tod clus kielken. Ho iter spohcen id pret pretori orium um ed ho ende enderkw rkwit iten en neid neid lige lige.. Cred Credei eihm hm ghi ghi od pret preter er io ne hieb hieb vighapt od quanti waurs kay vide me. Biadet, leuds ne eekaurnt de mien person. Ho tohrpt un effort kay ghabe od eem id cause tos hol agitation. Ho saygen ei gendarme : « Kam mult ! » Is mi hat antwohrden od to eet ob ia journals ed is mi hat dict un grupp quod wohs prokwem un table sub id jureiten benk. Is mi hat saygen : “Eni.” Ho sprohct : “Qui ?” ed is hat repetiht : “Ia journals.” Is gnohsit oino iom journalisten qui hat viden iom ye tod moment ed qui hat trohcen kye nos. Eet un ja at, prientlik wir, samt un lyt fradend lige. Is hat mussafahet iom gendarme samt maungo kerdwierme. Ho kaut ye tod moment od quanti ghiet, heckeleer ed wohkweer mutu, kam in un club quer anghen est noroct ob wassale con leuds ios samios mund. Mi ho explien idschi bizarre bizarr e pondos io hieb os ses in exceddent, lyt kam un intrus. Yed, is journaliste me hat wohkwno smeihd-ye. Is mi hat saygen od is spehsit od hol sualeiteit pro me. Ho danct iom ed is hat nabahn : “Yu woidat, hams lyt auct vies re. Lient est id tuich saison pro journals. Ed eent tik voster storia ed tod ios patergvon qua wirt semject.” Is mi hat dind dict, in id grupp is hieb just likwt, uno smulk bonem qui kwohkit kam un piwonen wisel, samt un enorm swordgastangh bril. Is mi hat saygen is eet is special envoyeit os un journal os Paris. “Is ne hat gwohmen pro vos. Lakin dat est maimour med reporte de id process ios patergven, buit budt ud iom sammel bayane vies re.” Ter iter, vahsim quasi danke iom. Bet ho mohnt od to esiet joking. Is mi hat lyt znaycen cordial-ye med sien hand ed nos hat likwn. Hams dar skohpt unte oik minutes. Mien advocat hat gwohmen, in robe, perambht ab maung alyens keiwens. Is hat gwaht kyens journalistens, hat mussafahet. Hant scherzt, gliht ed tengier alnos yow, tiel id moment kun id frid hat udclanghen in id pretorium. Quanti hant sedden tsay. Mien advocat hat gwohmen kye me, me hat mussafahen ed mi hat
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radhen antwehrde antwehrde bragv-ye ibs udclanghen udclanghen in id pretorium. Quanti hant sedden tsay. Mien advocat hat gwohmen kye me, me hat mussafahen ed mi hat radhen antwehrde bragv-ye ibs werds qua mi esient iskwn, ne eme initiatives ed truses iom pro id reste. Levter quem ego, ho auren id blosk uns retrotract stul ed ho viden un bulando teun teun wir, wir, rudhdun rudhdun,, vehsen vehsend d monocl monocle, e, qui sess sess ghom ghom diplis diplissen send-y d-yee sien sien robe kaur-ye. kaur-ye. Eet is procureur. procureur. Un bidal hat mohldt mohldt id curt. Ye id sam moment, dwo taungh ventilators hant bitorubowen. Tri judces, dwo in sword, is trit in rudh, hant entret con dossiers ed hant ghancto baygh oku kyid tribune quod uperkihsit id kyal. Id wir in rudh robe hat sess ghom ep id medio stron, hat posto sien toque ant se, tierso sieno smulko kalvo ghalv med un handchirk ed hat declaret od id audience eet ghyant. Ies journalistes dohrjeer ja ir kalem in hand. Quanti tengier sam-ye indifferent ed lyt spoctic. Yed, oin ex iens, maung yuner, vehsend greis flanela ed un blou cravat, hieb likwn sien kalem ant se ed me spohc. In eys lyt asymmetric lige, io vis tik eys dwo okwi, baygh-ye clar, qua me chohx attentive-ye, aun expremes jecto quod buit definible. Ed ho haben id bizarre pondos os ses spohct ab meswo. Maghses ob to, edschi ob ne gnohsim ia swehdsa ios loc, ne ho baygh suaghapt quanto wakyit dind, id lotten iom jureits, ia werds iskwn ab iom perodhsedd ei advocat, ei procureur ed ei jury (ielgs, vasya caps iom jureits volseer sammel kyid curt), un oku leisen ios act os accusation, quer io recognih nams om locs ed em persons, ed nov questions ad mien advocat. Bet is perodhsedd hat sayct is vahsit tyicihes id kal im schahides. Is bidal hat lisen nams qua hant attract mien attention. Ex eni tod nuper aunforme public, ho viso stahe ub ein pos ein, kay disprehpe dind unte un gondwer, iom director ed iom iom bawa bawab b ios ios gero gerosd sdom om,, iom iom veut veuto o Thom Thomas as Pérez Pérez,, Raym Raymond ond,, Mass Masson on,, Salamano, Marie. Sa mi hat dahn uno smulk anxieuso znayc. Io stieun dar de ne dyehrcus i auser, kun ye id kal sienios nam, is senst, Céleste, hieb staht ub. Ho recogniht prokwem iom iam smulku bonmu ios restaurant, samt eyso jaquet ed eys precis ed gwaukan wultu. Ia spohc me samt intensitat. Bet io ne ho haben id wakt os reflecte ob is perodhsedd hat biwohkwn. Is hat saygen ia druv debats vahr inkape ed od is credihsit inutil recommande ei public ses sakwn. Sekwent se, is eet ter kay direge samt rhayr-mutaasibia ia debats uns re is volit considere objective-y objective-ye. e. Id sentence sentence res ab id jury esiet emen samt diksmenos ed, in vasya falls, is evacueihiet id pretorium pos id minst incident. Id gvrens ieug ed io vis in id pretorium iens assistants oiswinde-se med journals. To kwohr uno smulk mussalsalo blosk os dlast papier. Is perodhsedd hat dahn uno znayc ed is bidal hat brighto tri schaenzius ex tricto kalm ies tri judces hant nudt fauran. Mien Mien inte interro rroga gati tion on hat hat inka inkapt pto o stra strax. x. Is pres presid iden entt me hat ques questi tion onen en samt samt sakwnia ed hatta, mi hat kwohct, samt uno nuance os cordialitat. Mien identitat buit iter budtum ud me ed nespekent mien irritation, ho mohnen od fin-ye to eet dest destul ulll natu natural ral,, ob esie esiett pior pior grave grave judc judcee un mens menscc inst instet et alye alyem. m. Dind Dind is
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perodhsedd hat lohgyen quo io hieb kwohrn, wehkwnd-ye me pos ielg trit jumla kay kay me spre sprehg hgee : “Kwe to bui buit it ?” Iel Ielgs ho io ant antwohr wohrdt dt : “Ya, Ya, pot poti Pero Perodh dhse sedd dd”, ”, sekw sekwen entt ia bere bereul ulen enss miens ens advo advoca cat. t. To bui buit long ong ob is per perod odhs hsed edd d brig brigh h maun maung g rlie rlienx nxie ieni niaa in sien sieno o narn narn.. Unte Unte tod tod hol hol tid, tid, ies ies journalist journalistes es scripseer. Io khiss ia spects ios yunst ex iens ed ias smulk automat. Id tramvia banquette eet alnos wohrt kyom perodhsedd. So hat kwasen, perlisen sien dossier ed hat volgen kye me swindend-ye se. Is mi hat sayct is dohlg nun bitraite questions apparent-ye alien ad mien re, bet qua maghses betak id meg prokwtos. Ho ghaben is vahsit iter tolke de mamma ed ho sammel khissen kam plictic to mi eet. Is me hat sprohct ma io hieb dehno mamma do id gerosdom. Ho antwohrdt od eet ob io ieu denars kay gweupihes ed ilajihes iam. Is me hat sprohgen an to mi hieb cost personal-ye ed ho antwohrdt od neter mamma ni ego exspectam sem meis ject ud mutu, ni hatta ud quelgvonc, ed od wey bo hieb viswohdt nies nov gwits. Is perodhsedd hat tun saygen saygen is ne volit insiste insiste ep tod point ed is hat sprohgen iom procureur procureur an is ne vis alyo werd ad iskwes mi. Eem pwol za tom qui, aun spehce me, hat declaret od med id autorisation ios perodhsedd is gnohskwit an io hieb riken kyid iswor mono neicskwnd iom Arab. “No”, ho io saygen. “Tun, ma eet is armen ed ma rikes kye tod stet chiowdeo ?” Ho saygen od to eet hasard. Ed is procureur hat noten samt un khiter accent : “To est khatem pro id moment.” Hol dind hat est lyt confus, bariem pro me. Bet pos sem gatolkos, is perodhsedd hat declaren od id audience eet pausihn tiel id posmiddien pro id auren im schahides. Ne ho habt id wakt od reflecte. Buim bright, stighihto do id swordmaria ed ducto do id prison quer ho obess. Pos baygh pau wakt, just kafi kay vighabe eem strak, buim revant; hol hat rinkapt ed ho wohsen in id sam pretorium, ant ia sam liges. Yed, id gvrens eet meg akster ed kam per daumos ielg iom jureits, is procureur, mien mien advo advoca catt ed oik oik jour journa nali list stes es behi behien end d yasc yaschi hi kalm kalm scha schaen enzi zius us.. Is yun yun journaliste ed ia smulka gwen eent dar ter. Bet ne se swinseer ed me spohc dar aun sayge werd. Ho tiergen id swoid quod stohg mien chol ed ho lyt reconscien id loc ed meswo tik kun ho aurn kale iom director ios gerosdom. Is buit sprohct an mamma schikiey de me ed is hat saycto ya bet od schikaye de ir nityens eet lyt id mania eysen pensionars. Is perodhsedd hat precidihn iom an ia miembhit mi dehvs iam do id gerosdom ed is director hat iter saygen ya. Bet ye tod ker, is hat addiht neid. Alyi question hat is antwohrden is hieb esen surpriden de mien sakwnia ye id dien ios dafan. Is buit sprohcto quod is awicit awicit med “sakwnia”. “sakwnia”. Is director director hat tun spohct id bors om sien schous ed is hat sayct od io ne hieb vidskwt mamma, od ne hieb hiebim im plan planct ct hatt hattaa oins oins ed od io hieb hieb likw likwtt faura fauran n pos pos id dafan dafan aun aun anam anamne nese sevs vs ep ays ays tumb tumbh. h. Oino Oino meis meis ject ject hieb hieb surp surpri riss iom iom : un daun daunos os employeito hieb ei sayct od io ne wois mammas oumer. Buit uno moment silence ed is perodhsedd iom hat sprohct an is ya hieb tolcto de me. Dat is director ne ghieb id question, is ei hat sayct : “Est id loy.” Dind is perodhsedd
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hat sprohct iom advocat-general an is ne hieb werd ad iskwes ei schahide ed is procureur hat scriet : “Oh ! no, bastet”, samt un talg arg ed un talg triumphant specto kye me quem, ye id prest ker pon pelu yars, ho stupid-ye wohnen plange ob ho khissen kam detestet io eem ab tens quant leuds. Pos oisprehgus id jury ed mien advocat an hiebeer eiskwtu werds, is perodhsedd hat aurt iom bawab. Pro iom kam pro alters, id sam ceremonial se hat repetihn. Arri Arrive vendnd-ye ye,, is bawa bawab b hat hat me spoh spohct ct ed is hat hat disw diswoh ohrt rt sien sien okwi okwi.. Is hat hat antwohrdt ibs werds qua ei eent iskwt. Is hat saygen od io ne hieb vidskwno mamma, od io hieb dumen, od io hieb swohpen ed od hiebim pohn cafee-au-lait. Ho khissen tun semjecto quod ubstohl id hol pretorium ed, ye id prest ker, ho ghaben od eem vinovat. Is bawabo buit prohgen ke repetihes id storia ios cafeeau-lait ed tod ios cigarette. Is advocat-general me hat spohcen med un ironic diutis in sien okwi. Ye tod moment, mien advocat hat sprohct iom bawab an is ne hieb dumt con me. Bet is procureur hat gvalt-ye ubstahn protie tod question : “Quoter est is criminal het ed qua sont ta methodes qua consiste murdarihes iens scha schahi hide dess ios ios accu accusa sati tion on kay kay mini minima mali lihe hess scha schahi hidi dias as qua qua rema remane ne laki lakin n uperkwehlmend ! » Nespekent hol, is perodhsedd hat prohgen iom bawab kem antw antweh ehrde rde ei ques questi tion on.. Is veut veut hat hat sayc sayctt samt samt un emba embaras rasse sen n proti protiok okwo wo : “Suawoidim ho ac’ neprabh. Bet ne ho durst refuse id cigarette quod Poti mi hat schohnken.” In sensto deil, buim sprohgen an io hieb neid addeihtu. “Neid, ho io antw antwoh ohrd rdt, t, tik tik od is scha schahi hide de sayc sayc’’ prab prabh. h. Est Est ver ver od ho ei scho schohn hnct ct un ciga cigare rett tte. e.”” Is bawa bawab b me hat hat tun tun spoh spohce cen n samt samt lyt lyt stau staune nen n ed un sort sortee os schakiria. Is hat kunct, dind hat sayct od is ge mi hieb schohnken id cafee-aulait. Mien advocat hat triumpht honar-ye ed hat declaret od ies jureits sient kehnse. Bet is procureur hat stohnen uper nies caps ed is hat saygen : “Ya, Potis jureits sient kehnse. Ed concludsient od un gospoti poiss propones cofie, bet od un son dohlg refuse id ant id nayv tas qua hieb gohnen iom.” Is bawab hat sedden ghom ep sien benk. Quando hat gwohmt id roig os Thomas Pérez, un bidal hat tohrpto stehme iom tiel id chancel. Pérez hat saygen is hieb hassa gnohno mienu mater ed od is hieb viden me tik oins, ye id dieno ios dafan. Is buit sprohgen quod io hieb kwohrn ye tod dien ed is hat antwohrden : “Ghapte, ioswo hieb pior pein. Tun, ne ho vis ject. ject. Pein Pein mi stabh stabh ad vide. Ob to eet pro me un meg mier pein. Ed hatta hatta ho bayaldiss bayaldisset. et. Tun ne ho ghohden ghohden vide Poti. » Is advocat-gener advocat-general al iom hat sprohct an, bariem, is me hieb vis plange. Pérez hat antwohrdt no. Is procureur hat tun sayg saygen en ep sien sien roig roig : “Pot “Potis is jure jureit itss sien sientt kehn kehnse se.” .” Bet Bet mien mien advo advoca catt hat hat bipighern. bipighern. Is hat sprohct Pérez, med un ton quod mi hat kwohken exageret, “an is hieb vis od io ne plieng”. Pérez hat sayct : “No.” Id public hat glihn. Ed mien advocat, slahmend-ye ub uter sienen armels, hat sayct med un peremptor ton : “En id image tos process. Hol est ver ed neid est ver !” Is procureur hieb cliht sien lige ed stohng ia titules om sien dossiers med uno molive. Pos penkwe minutes suspension unte qua mien advocat mi hat sayct od hol sualit meist, buit aurt Céleste qui eet admaheln ab id defense. Id defense eet ego.
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Céleste glaz ex tid do tid kye mien gon ed rollit un panama hat inter sien hands. Is vohs id jadide costume is eedut kay gwehme con me, sem mingos, ibs ekwenagens. Bet credeihm is hieb khacto knope sien colnier ob is vohs tik oin cuper buton kay dare sien camiss cluden. Is buit sprohgen an eem eyso client ed is hat saygen : “Ya, bet is eet yaschi un prient”; quod is mohn de me ed is hat antw antwoh ohrd rden en od eem eem un wir; wir; quod quod is awic awicit it tosm tosmed ed ed is hat hat decl declar aren en od cadanghen wois quo to mieyn; an is hieb kaut od eem cazour ed is hat tik recogniht od ne bahsim kay sayge neid. Is advocat-general iom hat sprohct an io pieygh regular-ye mien pension. Céleste hat gliht ed is hat declaret : “Ta eent detayls inter nos.” Is buit iter oisprohgen quod is mieyn de mien crime. Is hat tun dehn sien hands ep id chancel ed eet visible od is hiebit preparen semject. Is hat saygen : “Pro me, to est un bieda. Un bieda, bieda, cadanghen woid quo to est. To lasst vos aun defense. Tun pro me, to est un bieda.” Is vahsit nabahe, bet is perodhsedd ei hat saygen od to eet gohd ed od is eet danken. Tun Céleste hat remant lyt aun werd. Bet is hat declaret is dar bahskwit. Is buit prohcto ke kwehre bragv. Is hat iter-ye repetiht od to eet un bieda. Ed is perodhsedd ei hat sayct : “Ya, awiet. Bet smos ter kay judce ia biedas tos genos. Vos dankmos.” Kamsei Kamsei is hieb naken id end sienen science ed sell vol, Céleste Céleste hat tun vols kye me. Mi hat kwohken od eys okwi blig ed eys lipps trembleer. Is tengicit me sprehge quod is dar ghohd kwehre. Ego, ne ho saygen werd, ni ho motionen, bet ye id prest ker ho io wohnen glabe un wir. Is perodhsedd iom hat iter wohlto linkwes id chancel. Céleste hat gwahn sedde in id pretorium. Unte id hol reste ios audience, is hat manen ter, lyt clihn perodh, sien olans ep sien genus, sien panama hat inter sien hands kleund-ye quantum eet saygen. Marie hat entret. Ia vohs un hat ed ia eet dar bell. Bet io meis-ye suakiem iam samt ays leur kays. Ud id stet quer eem, io tierk id legvo vyige aysen pizden ed recognihsim ayso semp semper er lyt-y lyt-yee tumt tumto o nite niterr lipp lipp.. Ia kwoh kwohk k bayg baygh h nerve nerveus us.. Faura Fauran, n, ia buit buit sprohgen pon quando ia eegnohneut me. Ia hat diken id zaman kun ia orbiet in id sam firma quem ego. Is perodhsedd hat gnohskwn qua eent ays sambands con me. Ia hat sayct od ia eet mien prientin. Alyi question hat ia antwohrdt od eet ver od ia sollit snumbes me. Is procureur qui perlis un dossier iam hat sprohct bruskye quando hieb inkapen nies liaison. Ia hat diken id tarikhe. Is procureur hat kaut samt un indifferent wultu od ei kwohk od tod eet id posdien os mammas mohrt. Dind is hat sayct samt seem ironia is ne iskwit insiste un delicate situation, od is suaghieb suaghieb ia scrupules scrupules as Marie, bet (ed her eys accent hat murcht) od eys dohlg ay commandit ludes uper dabronia. Is ghi hat prohct Marie ke resume tod dien unte quod io hieb gnohn iam. Marie ne bahskwit, bet ant id insistence ios procureur, ia hat lohct nies nigviesa, nies gumto do id kino ed nies noct in mien hem. Is advocat-general hat saygen od sekwos Maries declarations unte id sok, is hiebit perilisen ia programmes tos tarikhe. Is hat nabaht od Marie iaswo saygiet quos film eet tun oismautert. Med un quasi aunton voc, iaghi hat diken eet un film os Fernandel. Silence eet hol in id pretorio quando ia hat zabaht. Is procureur procureur hat tun staht ub, baygh-ye baygh-ye grave ed med un voc ho pohndto druve-ye
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emot, pfehrstend-ye me, is hat articulet lent-ye : “Potis jureits, ye id posdien ios mohrt sienias mater, so wir nigvicit, inkiep un aunreul liaison, ed gwahsit glihes ant un comic film. Ho neti ject ad sayge vos.” Is hat sedden ghom, dar in silence. Bet, stayg, Marie hat bisluct, hat sayct od to ne eet it, od eet alyo ject, od ay eet dwighen sayge id contrar os quo ia mieyn, od ia me suagnohsit ed od io hieb kwohrno neid khiter. Bet is bidal, pos uno znayc ios perodhsedd, hat abniht iam ed id audience hat continuet. Est payn sei, dind, buit kluno Masson qui hat declaret od eem un honeste wir “ed od is saygiet saygiet meis, eem un brave wir”. Est payn dar sei Salamano buit klun quan quan is hat hat mehm mehmiihn od io hieb hieb esen esen sell sell de eys eys kwau kwaun n ed quan quan is hat hat antwohrden uni question de mienu mater ed de me saygend-ye od io neti hieb ject ad sayge ay mamma ed itak io hieb dehn iam do id gerosdom. “Tehrbmos ghabe, sieyg Salamano, tehrbmos ghabe.” Bet nimen kwohkit ghabe. Is buit abnihn. Dind hat gwohmen Raymonds roig, qui eet is sensto schahide. Raymond mi hat daht uno smulk znayc ed hat sayct fauran od eem innocent. Bet is perodhsedd hat declaren od ne kehnsens, sontern facts eent buden ud iom. Is hat iom invitet ad skehpte questions kay antwehrde. Is buit prohcto ke precide eys sambands con iom victim. Raymond hat brugen to kay sayge od is ge eet quom senter eehainneut pon is hieb schamart aysu swester. Is perodhsedd iom hat lakin sprohct an is victim ne hieb sababs bi qua haines me. Raymond hat saygen od mien presence ep id plaj eet id resultat uns hasard. Is procureur iom hat tun sprohgen quosmed hieb ubgwohmen od id brev quod eet id origin ios drame hieb esen scriben ab me. Raymond hat antwohrden od to eet hasard. Is procureur hat jawapt od hasard hieb ja maung agsa ep sieno ment. Is hat gnohskwn an to eet hasard kun io ne hieb intervent intervent quando Raymond hieb schamart sien parika, kun io hieb daughto ka weitwodd in id police station, kunschi mien declarations unte tod weitwoddia hieb obkwohct ses alnos khowyi. End-ye, is hat sprohct Raymond quod eet eys parwarisch, ed dat senter antwohrd : “magasinier”, is advocat-general hat declaren ibs jureits od eet notor od is schahide bugit ka kawwad. Eem eys complice ed eyso prient. Lit de un ayaric crime ios ghemstios genos, gurawno med id fact od eet dilen con uno moral monster. Raymond hat alecskwt ed mien advocat hat protestet, bet ibs buit saygen ies tohrb sines iom procureur ende. So hat sayct : “Ho pau ad addihes. Eet is vies prient ?” hat is oisprohct Raymond. “Ya, hat saygen so, is eet mien rafik.” Is advocat-general mi hat tun iskwn id sam werd ed ho spohcen Raymond Raymond qui ne hat diswohrt sien okwi. Ho antwohrden : “Ya.” Is procureur hat tun vols kyid jury ed hat declaret : “Is sam wir qui ye id posdien ios mohrt siens mater se levrit ei schamwents’ fawngtawng hat nic’ bi futil sababs ed kay liquide un nekweitet sexe scandal.” Is hat tun sess ghom. Bet mien advocat, leusus sien patience, hat scriet leivendye sien brakhs, tem ub quem eys nifallend armels hant aunstohgen ia diplas unios naschastiset camiss : “Bad, est is accuset ob dafanus sien mater we neicus un wir ?” Id public hat gliht. Bet is procureur hat staun tsay, se hat drapen in
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IV Hatta ep un accuseit benk, est semper interessant klues de se. Unte ia pleidoyeirs ios procureur ed miens advocat, ghehdo sayge od buit maung tolken de me ed magh maghse sess meis meis de me quem quem de mien mien crim crime. e. Kwe Kwe eent eent tem tem diff differe erent nt,, eti, eti, ta pleidoyeirs ? Is advocat liv sien brakhs ed plid mujarim, bet samt excuses. Is procureuro rexit sien hands ed denuncit jarim, bet aun excuses. Yed oin ject me turbit turbit vagh-ye. vagh-ye. Nespekent mien amiwa, amiwa, eem yando tentet tentet ad intervene ed mien advocat mi sieyg tun : “Taycte, to est gohder pro vies re.” Semkam, anghen tengicit tracte tod re exter me. Hol jinkdousit exter mien intervention. Mien beu beurt rt bihs bihsit it pact pact aun aun eem eem spro sprohc hcto to de mien mieno o mayn mayn.. Ex tid tid do tid, tid, io wohn wohn interrumpes quantens ed sayge : “Quis tar est is accuseit ? Est important ses is accuseit. Ed ho semject ad sayge. » Bet reflectus de to, io hieb neid ad sayge. Eti, dehlgo recognihes od id interesse trohft kay kwehre i leuds besic ne duret diu. diu. Mathal Mathalan, an, id pleido pleidoyei yeiro ro ios procur procureur eur me hat malalt malaltiht iht baygh baygh oku. oku. Tik fragments, gestes au hol tirades, bet lut ex id totalitat, qua me hant ubfallt au hant probudt mien interesse. Id budmen eysios menos, sei ho suaghapt, est od hiebim premediten mien crime. Bariem, is hat piten demonstre id. Kam isswo sieyg : “To preufsiem, potis, ed to kwehrsiem double-ye. Sub id blindend clartat iom facts preter ed dind in id deusk beleucen quod id psychologia tos skeulost atmen mi dadwsiet.” Is hat resumet ia facts ab mammas mohrt. Is hat mehmiht mien aunkheissia, mien ignorance os mammas oumer, mien nigviesa ios posdien, con un gwen, id kino,
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Fernandel ed bad id gwirlay con Marie. Ho tohrpt wakto kay fahame iom, ye tod moment, ob is sieyg “eys parika” ed pro me, ia eet Marie. Dind, is hat gwohmen do id storia os Raymond. Ho pohndt od eys weidos os aye ia wakyas ne ieu clartat. Quo is sieyg eet plausible. Io hieb script id brev bidt ab Raymond kay attr attrag agee ays ays pari parika ka ed prod prodah ahee iam iam ei dusm dusmua uama male le uns uns wir wir “os “os dubi dubieu euss moralitat”. Hiebim provoquen ep id plaj Raymonds duschmans. So hieb est vurnt. Hiebim budt eys revolver ud iom. Io hieb rict mon kay folossie id. Io hieb gvohnt iom Arab kam io hieb iskwt. Io hieb intizart. Ed “kay ses yakin od id opos eet suakwohrn”, io hieb strohlyen quar glonces, tawrlien-ye, ye roubaydh, semkam bemohnen. “Eno, “Eno, potis, hat ayt is advocat-gener advocat-general. al. Ho retracen retracen ant vos id sioul om wakyas quod hat duct tom wir ad nices alnos consciend-ye to. To insisto, hat is ayt. Neghi leit de un ordinar assassinat, de un nebemohnen act quod yu maghiete kehnse mildern ab ia circumstances. So wir, potis, so wir est intelligent. Yu habte aurn iom, ne ? Is sagvt antwehrde. Is gnoht id wirt om werds. Ed khact ses saygen is hat agen aun vighabe quo is kwohr.” Ego klusim ed ieur eem kohnst intelligent. Bet io ne suaghieb quosmed ia qualitats uns ordinar mensces ghohd bihe uperkwehlmend charges contra un mujarim. Bariem, to ghi me ubfiell ed neti ho klut iom procureur tiel id moment kun ho aurt iom sayge : « Hat is tik swohrn regrets ? Naiwo, potis. Ne oins in id druna ios sok hat so wir kwohken emoven ab sien abominable forfact.” Ye tod moment, is hat vols kye me ed me hat pfohrst continuend-ye uperkwehlme me aun od in druve io suaghieb ma. Aundwoi, io khiek mi stambhes recognihes is sieyg prabh. Ne maung regretim mien act. Bet tant forakwten staunih me. Habiem pitskwn ei explie cordial-ye, quasi samt affection, od io hieb naiwo ghohden regrete druve-ye semject. Eem semper lambhen ab quo vahsit wakye, af hoyd au ab cras. Bet naturelika, in id stand quetro io hieb esto deht, ne poissim sprehge anghen med tod ton. Io ne poiss me dikes preihplen, habe khalalia. Ed ho pit klues dar ob is procureur hat bitolcto de mien atmen. Is sieyg is hieb-se cliht ep id ed od is hieb trohven ter neid, potis jureits. Is sieyg od in druve, io hieb neid atmen, ed od neid human, ni oino iom moral prabhils qua gweupe id menscenkerd eet accessible ab me. “Aundwoi, nabahsit is, ne maghmos mambhe ei to. Quo is ne sagviet hassile, ne poittmos schikaye od is aut to. Bet quando leit de tod curt, id alnos negative virtut os tolerance dehlct se wernes do tod, minter facil, bet ubseller, os justice. Hassa kun id tuich ios kerd kam kam id biht biht auns aunsto tohg hgen en in tom tom wir wir biht biht un teho tehom m quer quer soci societ etat at gheh ghehdt dt succumbhes.” Tun hat is tolcto de mien attitude dia mamma. Is hat repetihn quo is hieb sayct unte ia debats. Bet is hat bahn baygh diuter quem kun is tolkit de mien crime, tem diu quem, bad, ho neid meis khisst quem id gvrens tos aghyern. Tiel id moment, bariem, kun is advocat-general hat halten ed, pos uno moment silence, silence, hat nabaht med un baygh khafi ed penetrant voc : “Tod sam curt, potis, vaht judce cras id abominablest om forfacts : id maurdh uns pater.” Sekwent iom, iom, imag imagin inat atio ion n sprud sprud retro retro ant ant tod tod atroc atrocee atte attent ntat at.. Is durs dursit it speh spehee od id
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menscenjustice puneihiet aun sliebe. Bet, is ne biey sayge to, id horror quod tod crime ei inspirit cess quasi ant tod quod is oispruv ant mien aunkheissia. Semper sekw sekwen entt iom, iom, unis unis mens mensci ciss quel quel nic nic moral moral-y -yee sien sienu u mate materr se excl exclus us ex id menscensocietato tem quem quel bir un katel hand sieni gehntor. In vasya falls, pre prete terr prep prepar arit it dwot dwoter erss agsa agsa,, el mohl mohld d ia semk semkam am ed legi legiti timi mitt ia. ia. “Som “Som persuaden ad to, potis, hat is nabahn jaharer, yu niete pehnde mien menos pior bolt, sei saygo od is wir qui seddt ep tod benk est mujarim yaschi ob id maurdh quod tod curt dehlcsiet dehlcsiet judce cras. Is dehlct ses punihn yinjier.” yinjier.” Is nu procureur hat tiergen sien swoidsmeuk chol. Is de hat saygen od eys dohlg eet gvolic, bet od is parkwehriet id darm-ye. Is hat declaren od io hieb neid ad diles con un societat quos essentialst prabhils io miskohgn ed od io ne poiss appelle tod menscenkerd quos elementara reactions io ignorim. “Beudo ud vos id cap tos wir, hat is ayt, ed id beudo ud vos samt un legv kerd. Seighi mi hat wakyen in id druna miens long carriere kupes mohrts kyasens, naiwo tant quem hoyd ho io khisst tod muschkil dohlg compensen, balancen, belucen ab id conscience uns iser iser dast dastur ur ed ab id horr horror or io spre spreuv uvo o ant ant un mens mensce cenl nlig igee quer quer leis leiso o tik tik monstrueus.” Kun is procureur hat sesso tsay, buit un destull-ye longo moment silence. Ego eem sturdihn ab gvrens ed staunos. Is perodhsedd hat kwast lyt ed med un baygh khafi ton, is me hat sprohct an io ne hieb ject ad addihes. Ho staht ub ed dat io wohn bahe, ho saygen, eti lyt-ye towsraen, od io ne hieb nicskwn iom Arab. Is perodhsedd hat antwohrden od to eet un affirmation, od tuntro is dusghieb mien system systemee os defens defensee ed od is esiet noroct, noroct, pre aure mien advocat, advocat, de habe habe me precide precide ia sababs qua hieb inspiret mien agos. Ho saygen saygen jaldi, jaldi, blandend-ye lyt werds ed vighabhend-ye mien joking, od to eet ob id sol. Buit gleimen in id pretorium. Mien advocat hat plex ed fauran pos to, ei buit permiss bahe. Bet is hat declaren od eet sert, od is tohrbit plur hors ed od is bud un pause tiel id posmiddien. Id curt hat consenten to. Ye id posmiddien, ia mier ventilators dar perieg id teug air ios pretorium, ed vasyi smulk multicolor schaenzius iom jureits agiteer-se samtro. Id pleidoyeir os mien advocat kwohk solle naiwo finihes. Ye un dahno moment, lakin, ho klut iom ob is sieyg : “Est er od ho nicen.” Dind is hat natolct med ton ton, saygendye “ho” ielgs kun is bahsit de me. Io meg stieun. Me ho cliht kyun gendarme ed ho sprohgen iom ma. Is mi hat sayct swighes ed, pos uno moment, is hat addiht : “Vasyi advocats kwehrnt to.” Ego ho mohnen od to eet dar arke me ud id re, me reduce do zero ed, in un certain sense, se mi substitue. Bet credeihm od eem ja baygh dalg ud tod sall os audience. Eti, mien advocat mi hat kwohken joking. Is hat plidt provocation baygh jaldi dind isschi hat tolcto de mien atmen. Bet mi hat kwohken od is hieb meg minter talent quem is procureur. “Ioschi, hat is ayn, me ho cliht ep tod atmen, bet, contrar-ye ei eminent representer ios procurature, ho trohven semject ed ghehdo sayge od ho list ter kam ex un ghyanen buk.” Is hieb listo ter od eem un honeste wir, un regular orbater, nestrakible, derv ei dom quod employit iom, kamt ab quantens ed mileus dia alyanghens bieda. Pro iom,
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eem uno model son qui hieb stohmt sienu mater tem diu quem is hieb ghohden. Fin-ye hiebim spehn od un gerosdom dahiet ay anua id comfort quod mien parwarisch khiek teulihes nos. “Stauno, potis, hat is addiht, od buit tem discuss de tod gerosdom. Badghi, sei un pruv ios utilitat ed ios megdos tom institutions tehrbiet ses daht, tun tehrbiet ses ya sayct od idswo Stat subvent ia. » Lakin, is ne hat tolcto de id dafan ed ho khissen to mienk in eys pleidoyeir. Bet ob ta quant long jumlas, ta quant aunfin diens ed saats unte qua hieb esen tolken de mien atmen, ho haben id pondos od hol bihsit kam un auncolor wed quer io dusiesc. Ye id fin, tik mehmo od, ud id strad ed per id hol space iom salls ed iom pretoria, menxu mien advocat nabahsit, id trompette os un swadglehdjenveneg hat clanghto tiel me. Buim hajoumen ab ia mehmens uns gwit quod neti bieygh me, bet quer io hieb trohft mien ormst ed mien dreghsta joys : lientodors, id quartier io kiem, un certain vesperwaurn, id gleimen ed ia rogvs as Marie. Quantum inutil io kwohr in tod loc hat tun stighen tsay do mien gurgule, ed ho haben tik oin hast, od to buit khatem ed od io rik mien cell swehptum. Payn ho io aurno mien advocat scrie, kay finihes, od ies jureits jureits ne yeisskwien yeisskwientt do mohrt un hone honest stee orbat rbater er lust lust ab oino oino minu minutte forl orleite eiten, n, ed bude budess milde ildern rnd d circum circumsta stance ncess pro un crime crime quos abadic abadic mentan mentangst gst,, ka wassic wassicst st azab, azab, io ja sohlk. Id curt hat suspens id audience ed is advocat hat sess ghom samt un exhausen wultu. Men eys keiwi hant gwohmen kyom kay mussafahe iom. Ho aurn : “Schungjin, dorgve.” Oin ex iens me hat hatta priwohkwt : “He ?” hat is mi ayn. Ho acquiescen, bet mien complimento ne eet sincere, ob eem pior-ye strak. Yed, id sol bisohnk exo ed id gvrens eet minter akster. Med ia oik stradbloska io ieur, io tierk id mliieke ios vesper. Wey quanti eems, ter, skehptend. Ed quo eems comskehptend concernit tik me. Ho spohcyet id pretorium. Hol eet in id sam stand quem ye id presto dien. Ho incontren id spect ios journaliste samt greiso jaquet ed ias automat gwen. To me hat mehniht od ne hiebim spohcen kye Marie unte id hol mahel. Io ne hieb myohrst iam, bet hiebim pior ad kwehre. Ho viden iam inter Céleste et Raymond. Ia mi hat daht uno smulk znayco kamsei ia sieyg : “Bad”, ed ho viden ays lyt anxieus lige quod smih. Bet io khiss mien kerd clus ed ne ho hatta ghohden responde aysi smeih. Id curt hat gwohmen tsay. Baygh oku, buit lisen ibs jureits jureits un serie questionen. questionen. Ho aurt “mujarim ob maurdh”... “premeditation”... “mildernd circumstances”. Ies jureits hant sals ed buim abnihto do id smulko kyal quer io hieb ja skohpt. Mien advocat hat gwohmen ad joine nosv: is eet volubil ed mi hat tolct samt meis trust ed cordialitat quem is hieb aiwo kwohrt. Is mieyn od hol sualeitiet ed od nehsiem samt oika yars prison au zindan. Ho iom sprohgen an eent chances os cassation in fall os bfuryowkhow judcement. Is mi hat sayct no. Eys tactique hieb est ne depones conclusions kay ne zayfihes id jury. Is mi hat explien od un judcement ne poissit ses cassen aun sabab. To mi hat kwohken evident ed ho sohkwt eys raisons. Considerend-ye srig-ye id re, to eet alnos natural. Sonst esiet
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pior inutil khartas. “Zowngschie est id aman recurs. Bet som persuas od id hassile sessiet ryowkhow.” Habmos skohpt meg diu, takriban tri quardels hor, credeihm. Pos tod tempos, un frid hat udclanghen. Mien advocat me hat likwn saygend-ye : “Is premier jureit vaht lises ia antwehrds. Yu sessiete entriht bad ye id enuncen ios judcement.” Dwer Dwerss hant hant clac clacke ken. n. Leud Leudss curs curs unte unte drab drabss de qua qua ne gnoh gnohsi sim m kwet kweter er eent eent prokwem au dalg. Quan id frid hat iter udclanghen, kun id dwer ios cuvoukel hat ghyahn, hant id silence ios pretorium luden kye me, id silence, ed tod aunsam sensation ho spruven quando ho constaten od is yun journaliste hieb diswohrten sien okwi. Ne ho spohcto kye Maries gon. Ne ho habt id wakt pro to ob is perodhsedd mi hat saygen in un bizarre forme od mien cap esiet tohmt ep un public place in id nam ios franceois popule. Mi hat tun kwohken recognihes id sentiment io lis ep vasya liges. Credeihm ya od eet consideration. Ies gendarmes ieg meg mliak-ye con me. Is advocat hat dehn sien hand ep mien runc. Io neti mohn de semquod. Men is perodhsedd me hat sprohct an io ne hieb ject ad addihes. Ho reflecten. Ho saygen : “No.” Tun buim io abniht.
V Ye id trit ker, ho refuset primes iom almujner. Ho neid ad sayge ei, ne wehno tolke ei, iom vidsiem kafi aus. Quo me interesset ye tod moment, est oiskape id mecanique, woide an id nevergible ghehdt habe un udghang. Ho est mithto cell. Ud tod, kun lyehgo, vido id waurn ed vido tik id. Mien quanta diens sont passen spehcend-ye ep ids lige id decline iom colors quod duct id diewo do noct. Lyehgend, dehm mien hands sub mien cap ed intizaro. Ne woidim quayt kers ho daumen an eent exempels nehcmakhkoumen qui habient skapen id implacable mecanisme, endermergen ant id execution, rupen ia roigs om agents. Mi tun miembhim miembhim ne dahvs kafi attention attention ad executionsna executionsnarns. rns. Anghen tehrbiet tehrbiet semper se interesse tibs questions. Nimen woid quo ghehdt wakye. Kam cadanghen, io hieb lisen reports in journals. journals. Bet eent sigwra special special wehrgs qua io hieb naiwo habt id curiositat os consulte. Kad ter habiem trohven evasionsnarns. Habiem matht od in minst-ye oin fall id kwekwl hieb stopen, od in tod irresistible premeditation, hasard ed chance, tik oins, hieb changen semject. Oins ! In un sense, credeihm to mi habiet est kafi. Mien kerd habiet kwohrn id reste. Journals ops bahr de un dulg dia id societat. Id tohrb, sekwent ia, ses payght. Bet to ne baht ad imagination. Quo contit, eet un evasionspossibilitat, un skand ex id implacable rite, un drahsa do follia quod porgiet vasya spehchances. Naturelika, id speh, eet ses gvohnen ye un stradwangwl, currend-ye, ed med un gastrohlto glonce. Bet suaaynd-ye hol, neid mi permiss tod luxe, quanto mi bien tod, id mecanique kiep me tsay. Nespekent mien khalalia, io khiek accepte tod insolent yakinia. Badghi eet un joking disproportion inter id judcement quod hieb sult id ed ids imperturbable
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jinkdousa ab id moment kun tod judcement hieb esen swohrn. Id fact od id sentence hieb esen lisen ye dwogim saat anter quem ye septdem, id fact id habiet ghohden ses alnos alyo, od id hieb esen reden ab wirs quoy mutakatane, od id hieb esen dehn ep id credit unios notion tem imprecis quem id franceois (au deutsch au chinese) popule, to hol mi suakwohk od to giowit maung serieus ex un talg decision. Yed, io skul recognihes od yant id secunde kun id hieb est emt, ids effects bihr tem yakin, tem serieus, quem id presence tos wall hol engwn quod io trud mien corpos. Ho mohmt in ta moments moments de un storia quod mamma mi narrit dayir dayir mien pater. Io ne hieb gnoht iom. Quanto gnohsim precis-ye de tom wir, eet maghses quo mamma mi tun sieyg de iom : is hieb gwaht visum execute un assassin. Is eet sieug ob mehne de gwahe tetro. Is hieb lakin kwohrn to ed gwirlayus is hieb vomihn unte un part ios aghyern. Nun io ghieb, to eet tem natural. Ma ne hieb io vis od neid eet importanter importanter quem un zanchou execution execution ed od, in summ, tod eet id saul druve-ye interessant ject pro un mensc ? Sei aiwo salgiem tod prison, gwahiem vide vasya zanchou executions. Iegim ghaw, credeihm, mehnend-ye de tod possibilitat. Kunghi mi enfiell me vide leur sem prue apter un roig om agents, ocolo semkam, ses is prispehcer qui gwehmt ad vide ed qui maghsiet vomi vomihe hess pos pos to, to, un flut fluttt os pois poison onen en joy joy stig stigh h do mien mien kerd kerd.. Bet Bet to ne eet eet kemall. Iegim ghaw me sinend-ye lites do ta suppositions ob, oin instant pos to, tem keapay-ye srigehsim quem me ahockim sub mien blanquet. Mien dents clieck aun od io ghohd enderwaurge ia. Bet, naturelika, anghen khact ses semper kemall. Ye alya kers, mathalan, io kwohr legbilds. Reformim ia schtrafs. Io hieb kaun od id essential eet dahe oin chance ei makhkoum. Oin ex mil, to eet kafi kay change maung jects. It, mi kwohk od un chemic combination ghohd ses trohft quos absorption neiciet el patient (io mohn : el patient) nev kers ex dec. El ge woidiet to, eet id condition. Suamehnend-ye ghi, aynd-ye jects samt sakwnia, constatim od quo eet defecto con id fallsater, eet od ter eet neid chance, mutlak neid. Oins pro quanta, in summ summ,, id daun daunet et al pati patien entt hieb hieb esen esen deci decide den. n. To eet eet un clas classi sifi fien en re, re, un suap suapag agen en comb combin inat atio ion, n, un boid boidos os quod quod ne poiss poissit it ses ses oist oistrag ragen en.. Sei Sei id cutt cutt gughohr, extraordinar-ye, eet retyicen. In id sehkwo, quo eet uno nao, eet od el makhkoum tohrb vansche id suawehrgen ios machine. Io sieyg od to est id defecto gon. To est ver, in un sense. Bet, in alyo sense, io skul recognihes od id hol secret uns gohd organisation eet ter. In summ, el makhkoum skul collabore moral-ye. Eet els interesse od hol wehrgiet aun giutayo. Io skul constate odschi tuntro io hieb habto de ta questions dayis qua ne eent exact. Ho diu crediht – ed io ne woid ma – od kay gwahe id guiliotine, anghen tohrb bestighes un scafold, stieupens. Credeihm od to eet ob id Revolution os 1789, mayno ob quanto mi hieb esen docen au skaun de ta questions. Bet sem aghyern, ho mohmen de un photographia publiet ab journals ye id waurmen uns kleumenwent execution. In druve, id machine stahsit merst-ye ep aykwo grund. Id eet meg angher quem quo io mohn. Eet destull goil od io ne mi hieb aviden to
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auser. Tod machine ep id clischee me hieb ubfallt ob sien aspect os precision over, finihn ed tweiser. Anghen semper exageret ia dayis os quo el ne gnoht. Dohlgim contrar-ye constate od hol eet simple : id machine est ye id samo nivell quem el menscis quel ghanct kyid. El joint id kam anghen ghanct kyant un person. Toschi eet uno nao. Id steighen kyid scafold, kyid waurn, imagination miegh antgripes to. Ter punor, mecanique trud quant : anghen bihsit xehntis discret-ye, samt lyt scham ed maung precision. Eent yaschi dwo jects de qua io semper mohn : id octent ed mien aman recurs. Lakin io me kemallihsim ed io pit neti mehne de to. Lyohgim ghom, io spohc id waurn waurn,, io me stro strohn hng g ad me inte interes resse se tei. tei. Bihs Bihsit it glen glend, d, eet eet vesp vesper er.. Io me strohngyim ad diswehrte id druna mienen brens. Io klu mien kerd. Io khiek imagine od tod blosko quod me hamrahsit tem diutos ghohd aiwo stope. Ho naiwo haben druv imagination. Io yed pit fiker un certain secunde kun tod kerdbat neti se prolongiet in mieno ment. Bet in vain. Id octent au mien recurs eent ter. Io mi visieyg od kemaller eet neti mi dwinghes. Ye octent eegwehment, io wois to. In summ, eem besic unte mien nocts med intizare tod octent. Ho naiwo kamen ses surpriden. Quando semject wakyet, prefero ses ter. Itak ho viswohpto tik lyt unte mien diens ed, unte mien hol nocts, ho intizart ke luce gnaht ep id schib ios waurn. Id difficils difficilstt eet id dubieuso saat ye quod gnohsim od eeagent. Pos midnoct, io skohpt ed waitim. Naiwo hieb mien aur kwahto tant bloska, enderkwito tem teun swons. Magho eti sayge od semkam ho habt nassib unte tod hol prist, chunke ho naiw aurto stieups. Mamma ops-ye sieyg od anghen eet naiw alnos biedan. Approbim iam in mien prison, quan id waurn se colorit ed un nov dieno snohg do mien cell. Obschi habiem ghohdt aure stieups ed mien kerd habiet ghohdt sprehnge. sprehnge. Esdi id lytsto sleiden xubh me ad id dwer, esdi, mien auro protiev id dreu, io taraghmen intizier hin io ieur mien wi annem, dekhschat ab pehnde braungh id ed tem lik ei kharkhar uns kwaun, pos to hol, mien kerd ne sprohng ed io hieb iter gaissto dwogim quar hors. Unte Unte id hol dien, dien, eet mien mien recurs. recurs. Credeihm Credeihm ho tract tract id sellst sellst ex tod idee. idee. Io hissieb mien effects ed obtenim ex mien reflexions id gohdst makhsoul. Semper emsim id khaksto supposition : mien recurs eet reject. « Tunghi mehrsiem. » Auser quem alyi, aweis. Bet cadanghen woid gwit ne valt ses gwiven. Fin-ye, suagnohsim suagnohsim od mehre trigimat trigimat au septgimat septgimat pau importit importit chunke, naturelika, naturelika, in bo falls, alyi wirs ed alyas gwens gwivsient, ed to unte tusents yaren. Neid eet clarer, in summ. Eem semper qui mohr, kweter nun we pos dwogim yars. Ye tod moment, quo me turbit lyt in mien raisonen, eet tod terrible klaup io khiss in me med med id bren bren gweh gwehmt mtur uren en dwog dwogim im yars yars gwit gwit.. Bet Bet io tohr tohrb b tik tik pnig pniges es id imaginend-ye quo esient mien brens in dwogim yars quando tehrbiem lakin gwehme gwehme do to. Kamkwe ed quankwe quankwe anghen mehrt ne importet, importet, aweis. Schowi (ed id difficil eet ne luses ex vid quanta raisonens tod “schowi” skip), schowi, io dohlg accepte id reject miens recurs.
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Ye tod tod mome moment nt,, bad bad ye tod tod mome moment nt,, io quas quasii pois poiss, s, mi dahs dahsim im semk semkam am id permission os kwenchaue dwoter hypothese : eem pardont. Id nao eet od io tohrb kwehre minter marwtic tod elan ios sehrg ed ios corpos quod pickit mien okwi okwi med med un bawl bawlaw awo o joy. joy. Io tohr tohrb b me stre strehn hnge ge ad redu reduce ce tod tod crie crie,, ad kemallihes id. Io tohrb ses natural hatta in tod hypothese, kay plausiblerihes mien resignation in preter. Quando io hieb kamyaben, io hieb gaissen oin hor sakwnia. To, lakin, eet ad considere. Ye un saml samlik ik mome moment nt ho io oins oins meis meis refu refuse se prim primes es iom iom almu almujn jner er.. Eem Eem lyehgend ed io tierk id proschgumt ios lientvesper med un certain blondet ios waurn. Io hieb reject mien recurs ed io ghohd khisses ia wands os mien sehrgo kwehle regular-ye in me. Io ne wien vide iom almujner. Ye id prest ker pon baygh diu, ho mohnto de Marie. Pon long diens ia neti eescribneut mi. Ye tod vesper, ho reflecten ed mi ho saygen kad ia hiebit bihn strak de ses ia parika unios nehcmakhkoum. Mi hat enfallt kadschi ia eet sieug au mohrt. To eet in id aurdhen iom jects. Quosmed habiem io wois to chunke exter nies dwo corpsa nun separen, neid bohndit nos ni mehmih nos mutu. Eti ab tod moment, id mehmen as Marie mi habiet esen egal. Daut, ia neti me interessit. Pohndim to normal kam io meg suaghieb od leuds me myehrsent pos mieno mohrt. I hieb neideti ad diles con me. Io hatta ne ghohd sayge od to eet kaurd mehntu. Ye tod precis moment hat is almujner entren. Quando ho vis iom, ho lyt-ye tremblet. Is hat bedyohrct to ed mi hat sayct mae baye. Ho ei saygen is swohd gwehme ye alyo moment. Is mi hat antwohrdt od to eet un alnos prientlik visite quod nel-ye dil con mien recurs de quod is wois neid. Is hat sedden ghom ep mien couchette ed me hat inviten ad gwehme prosch iom. Ho refusen. Io ei pohnd lakin un baygh-ye mliak wultu. Is hat remanen seddend unte un khvil, sien bagus ep sien genus, sien cap clihn, spehce spehcend-y nd-yee sien sien hands. hands. Ia eent eent teun teun ed muscle muscleus, us, me mehnih mehnihrr de dwo agil biestens. Is hat tyohrn ia lent-ye protie mutu. Dind is hat remant it, sien cap dar cliht, unte tem diu quem ho habt id pondos, sem instant, od io hieb myohrst iom. Bet is hat brusk-ye spohct ub ad mien face : “Ma, mi hat is ayt, refuset yu mien visites ?” Ho antwohrden od ne credihsim in Div. Is hat gnohskwn an eem druve-ye yakin os to ed ho saygen io ne tohrb daume de to : to mi kwohk un irrelevant question. Is hat-se tun clihn retro ed knigven regv-ye protiev id mur, sien pams ep sien bemerns. Quasi aun tengie bahe mi, is hat observen od anghen se credih yakin, semkers, ed, in druve, anghen ne eet it. Io sieyg neid. Is me hat spohct ed me hat interroget : “Quod maynte maynte yu de to ?” Ho antwohrdt antwohrdt od to eet possible. In quant fall, kad eem ne hatta yakin os quo me interessit druve-ye, bet eem alnos yakin os quo ne me interessit. Ed chiowdeo, quo is mi bahsit ne me interessit. Is hat diswohrten sien okwi ed, dar aun mithes position, me hat sprohct an ne tolkim it per excess os desperation. Ei ho expliet od ne eem desperat. Io tik biey, to eet baygh natural. “Div hehlpiet vos tun, hat is kaut. Quanti qui ho gnohn in
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vies fall vols tsay kyom.” Ho recognihn od to eet iro rect. To men pruv odschi i hieb id wakt pro. Ego de ne volim ses hohlpt ed chiowdeo io ne hieb kafi wakto kay me interesse ad quo ne me interessit. Ye tod moment, eys hands habent motionen irritat-ye, bet is hat sess ub ed hat arranget ia diplas os sien robe. Quan is finih, is wohkwit me kalend-ye me “mien prient” : sei is mi bahsit it, to ne eet ob eem nehcmakhkoum; ye eyso mayn, wey quanti eemos nehcmakhkoum. Bet ho interrupt iom ei saygend-ye od to ne eet id sam ject ed od, eti, to khiek ses, in cada fall, un consolation. “Albatta, hat is approbet. Bet yu mehrsiete serter sei yu ne mehrte hoyd. Id sam werd bihsiet tun iskwt. Kam bigwivsiete yu tod terrible ordeil ?” Ho antwohrdt od bigwiviem id exact-ye kam bigwivim id ye tod moment. Is hat stahn ub ye tod werd ed hat spohcen seid-ye do mien okwi. To eet un leik io suagnohsim. Me zalissim ops tosmed con Emmanuel au Céleste ed, daydey, ies diswohrt ir okwi. Isschi almujner suagnohsit tod leik, ho fauran ghaben : eyso spect ne tremblit. Ed eys voc hat neschi tremblet quan is mi hat sayct : “Kwe yu habte neid speh ed yu gwivte con id bren yu vahte alnos mehre ? – Ya”, ho io antwohrden. Tun, is hat cliht sien cap ed hat sesso tsay. Is mi hat saygen is me rahimiet. Is kohns to impossible tehltu ab un mensc. Ego ho tik khissen is biplictissit me. Ho disvolgen disvolgen ep mien roig ed ho gwahn sub id luckern. Io knigv oms-ye oms-ye protiev id mur. Aun suasehkwe suasehkwe iom, ho aurn is me sprohgyit. sprohgyit. Is bahsit med un anxieus ed urgent voc. Ho ghapt is eet emoven ed ho meis-ye suaklut iom. Is mi sieygit sieygit sien yakinia od mien recurs esiet accepten, accepten, bet io bohr id vyige os un synt quod tohrb ses abdehn ud me. Sekwent iom, id menscenjustice menscenjustice eet neid ed id justice os Div quant. Ho kaut od eet preter quod me hieb makhkoumiht. Is mi hat antwohrden id ne hieb, lakin, laven mien synt. Ei ho saygen od io ne wois quod eet un synt. Io hieb tik esen manthihn od eem uno mujarim. Eem mujarim, io kwih, neid meis ghohd ses buden ud me. Ye tod moment, is hat stahn ub iter ed ho mohnen od in tod tem angh cell, sei is se srohtskwit, is hieb neid cheus. Is tohrb sedde ghom au stahe ub. Io stier ad id grund. Is hat stiupt kye me ed hat halt, kamsei is ne durs perodh. Is spohc id waurn trans ia stanghs. “Yu rhaltte, mien sunu, hat is mi ayn, meis ghehdiet ses buden ud vos. Kad to sessiet buden ud vos. – Ed quod tar ? – Yu ghehdiete ses prohgen ke vide. – Vide quod ?” Is pryster hat ambispohcen ed is hat antwohrden med un voc ho pohnden stayg baygh malalt : “Ta quant petras oisweident gvol, to woidim. Ho naiwo spohcen ia aun angst. Bet, ex id bund os mien kerd, woidim woidim od i meist misers bayna vos hant viden un divin lige salge ir temos. Ste prohc’ ke vide.” Me ho lyt animet. Ho sayct od pon munts eespehcneum ta walls. Eet neter ject ni anghen io meis suagnohsim tienxia. Maghses, baygh diuper, hieb io paurscto ter un lige. Bet tod lige hieb id color ios sol ed id flamme os nafsania : eet tod as Marie. Marie. Hiebim paursken id in vain. Nun, to eet khatem. khatem. Ed in vasya falls, io ne hieb viso ject surrege ex tod petraswoid.
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Is almujner me hat spohcen samt un sorte os aytan. Eem nun alnos kneigvend regv-ye protiev id wall ed id dien srusit ep mien chol. Is hat sayct oik werds qua ne ho aurt ed me hat sprohct baygh oku an io ei permiss biuces me : “No”, ho io antwohrdt. Is hat volgen ed hat ghangen kyid mur ep quod is hat passen sien hand hand lent lent-y -ye. e. “Kwe “Kwe yu tant tant kamt kamtee tod tod ardh ardh ?” hat hat is murm murmur uren en.. Ne ho antwohrden ject. Is hat remanen destull diu disvolgus. Eys presence vyig uper me ed me irritit. Vahsim ei sayge abgwahe, me linkwes, quan is hat scrien fauran med un sorte os oiskal, volgend-ye kye me : “No, khako credihes vos. Som yakin vos hat wakyet vans vansch chee alyo alyo gwit gwit.” .” Ei ho antw antwoh ohrd rdtt od natu nature reli lika ka,, bet bet to ne hieb hieb meis meis impo importa rtanc ncee quem quem vans vansche che ses ses rich riche, e, snah snahee bayg baygh h oku oku we habe habe uno uno meis meis suakwohrter stohm. To eet ios sam aurdhen. Bet is ge me hat stopen ed is gnohskwit kam io vis tod alter gwit. Tun, ho ei crien : “Un gwit quer ghehdiem mehme tod”, ed fauran ho io ei saygen od bactissim to. Is dar mi tolcskwit de Div, bet ho gwaht perodh kyom ed ho tentet ei explie od mi restit pau wakt. Ne lusskwim id med Div. Is hat pit mithes topic me sprehgend-ye ma io kiel iom “poti” ed ne “pater”. To me hat erght ed ei ho antwohrden ei is ne eet mien pater : is eet con alters. “No, sunu, hat is ayto dehnd-ye sien hand ep mien oms. Som con vos. Bet yu khacte woide to ob yu habte un blind kerd. Gvehdsiem pro vos.” Tun, ne woidim ma, semject hat oisbohrsten in me. Ho bicriet med mien hol guragh ed ho hakaret iom ed ei ho sayct ne gvehde. Io hieb sizen iom per id colnier os eyso soutane. Io sikw ep iom id hol bund os mien kerd samt skacens blanden con joy ed grassab. Kwe is tengicit tem yakin, ne ? Yed, neid eysen yakinias wirt oin gwenkays. Is ne hatta eet yakin os ses gwiv chunke is gwivit kam uno mortu. Ego tengicim habe tuich hands. hands. Bet eem yakin os me, yakin os quanto, meis yakin quem is, yakin os mien gwit ed tos mohrt quod vahsit gwehme. Ya, io hieb tik to. Bet bariem, io dier tod vertat tem maung-ye quem id dier me. Io hieb agen prabh, io dar ieg prabh, io ieg semper prabh. Io hieb gwiven ye talg weidos ed habiem ghohdt gwive ye talg alyo. Io hieb kwohrn cio ed io ne hieb kwohrt to. Io ne hieb kwohrt solg ject menxu io hieb kwohrt tod alyo. Ed pos ? Eet kamsei io hieb intizarn unte semper tod minute ed tod lytil octent kun esiem justifien. Neid, neid hieb ahammiyat ed io suawois ma. Isschi wois ma. Ex id bund os mien future, unte tod hol absurd gwit io hieb act, un obscure annem stigh tsay kye me per yars qua ne hiebeer bad gwohmen ed tod annem egalisit pri se quanto quod mi eet tun propost unte ia ne meis realer yars io gwivim. Ne mi importeer altern mohrt, id liubh unias mater, ne mi importeer eys eys Div, Div, ia gwit gwitss anghe anghen n cheu cheust st,, ia mein meinyu yuns ns angh anghen en elec elect, t, chun chunke ke oino oino meinyun tohrb elege meswo ed con me milliards privilegeiten qui, kam is, sieyg ses mien swesgens. Kwe tar is ghieb ? Cadanghen eet privilegeit. Eent tik pri privi vile lege geiits. ts. Isch Ischii alte alters rs esi esient ent makh makhko koum umih ihn n sem sem dien dien.. Issc Isschi hi esi esiet makhkoumihn. Kwe importit sei, accusen ob maurdh, is eet executen ob ne plangus unte id dafan sienias mater ? Salamanos kwaun wirt tem quem eys esor.
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Ia smulk automatic gwen eet tem mujarim quem ia Parisian quam Masson hieb wohden au quem Marie qua wohn ke io wohd iam. Kwe importit an Raymond buit mien rafik tem quem Céleste qui eet meis wirtic quem is ? Kwe importit an Mari Mariee dahs dahsit it hoyd hoyd-y -yee sien sien stoh stohm m uni uni nov nov Meur Meursa saul ultt ? Kwe Kwe is ghie ghieb, b, so makhkoum ed od ex id bund os mien future... Io blus criend-ye to hol. Bet, ja, is almujner eet rohven ex mien hands ed ies cipires tohrg me. Is ge, lakin, hat sakwnihn sakwnihn iens ed me hat spohcen spohcen unte uno moment silent. Eys okwi eent plena med dakrus. Is hat disvolgen dind disprohpen. Iom abgwahus, ho retrohven sakwnia. Eem exhausen ed me ho xubhen ep mien couchette. Credeihm ho swohpt ob ho gohrt con stars ep mien lige. Rur bloska ludeer tiel me. Odors om noct, ghom ed sald refrescheer mien tempers. Id daumost pace tos swehpend lientios entrit me kam un schiau. Ye tod moment, ed ye id limite limite os noct, sirenes sirenes hant hulen. Ia mohld asimats kyuno mund quod mi nun eet proaiw egal. Ye id prest ker pon baygh diu, ho mohnto de mamma. Mi hat kwohken od io ghieb ma ye id fin uns gwit ia hieb emt un “spons”, ma ia hieb lict rinkape. Cer, cerschi, ambh tod gerosdom quer gwits gweseer, id vesper eet kam uno melankholic tregv. Tem prokwem id mohrt, mamma sollit khisses ter lurt ed parat ad regwive quant. Kamsei tod megil grassab me hiebit purget ud khitert, kenspeh, ant tod nocto kladen med signes ed stars, ghyahsim ye id prest ker ker ei tend tendeer indi indifffere ferenc ncee ios ios mund mund.. Ob oisp oispru ruve vess id, id, tem tem lik lik mi, mi, tem swesgenmenost bad, ho khisst io hieb esen noroct, ed od eem dar. Kay hol buit samp sampurn urna, a, kay kay io khis khisss mint minter er mon, mon, mi resti restitt vans vansche che kem kem esie esient nt maung maung prispehcers ye id dien os mien execution ed ke me preimient med haines cries.
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