Angels of Chaos

This was when the being, myself(?) revealed itself/ myself to me. It was like it was beckoning me towards God-hood to form my own manifold and therefore, therefore, my own universe. Every person person was a part of one of these beings (HGA's?), they were many and  there are more others of As. like me, all part of him and he A. This is for all of humanity. The ineffable is; we must reach our own bliss.

 I was visited by a goddess tonight and it scared the living shit out of me. I finished   firing three sigils into the heart of Oblivion on the dance floor. I was placing p lacing the third  one by this "Dark" dancing woman's feet. She did not see me. She turned around and  came up to me in about a minute and took my hand and said, "Hello". "You know who I  am, right." It was FUCKING BABALON!!! Now believe me when I say that I have never   fucking seen a manifestation "in the flesh" of a deity. This weirded the shit out of me. She swept up my Desire into her being. She took me and a few others by the hand and danced  with us, at the dance club. She S he wanted to play a little also. I felt un-worthy, but quickly shrugged this off and played the game. She smiled and danced with me and a nd others. There was a form of telepathy (sort of). I think it was A., and he was telling me(sort of) about   BABALON and the factions. BABALON was a servant, sort of like a mayor of a city in comparison to a governor of the state. Each of these factions (gods if you will) each had  their own idea as to how the game should be played. She vanished after this and I knew she wanted me to partake of her bliss, instead of thinking on it.

 Now I speak of the VOID. This was terrifying. It was isolated, cold, bleak, black  and empty (all in one breath). It was here that things dwelled which were not and would  not be. These things were very much like the Chthonic Old Ones. They existed in another  universe that touched our manifold at every point. Magick is the ultimate language. There were things in the VOID which were not magick. This was very, let me repeat, very,

 scary, dark, hopeless, and dead  beyond any words I could use.