RECORD OF RESULTS Version 1.0: From 2005 to 2012 The Magickal & Precognitive Results of Frater E.S.
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F O R E W O R D This foreword will be brief and only means to point out that these are but a few of the so-called “results” which have stuck out more than others. Just as well, the only reason this document is being put out is due to the requests of others, and it might, I suppose, give the aspiring magician a taste of what to expect upon the road of his or her own dabbling, increased awareness, and continued focus regarding the quality of his or her own consciousness. Although Out of Body experiences are listed in the book, they are not mentioned here, as I did not feel that they are exactly “occult” by nature, even if they may sometimes point to the receiving of information which could not have been known about otherwise. Considering that, this document will focus on some of the more “classical” results which a practitioner might encounter. This journal will likely continue to be expanded in the near future. The first segment details some of the experiences arrived at via the use of occult technique, ritual and otherwise, whereas the second part details a set of more recent precognition experiences.
1) During my first experiments with trance, I had utilized an inhibitory technique entailing long hours of meditation leading towards a wakeful, sustained altered state. The house I was staying in at the time was an old one, empty aside from myself, and upon my wandering through it and entering the bedroom on the first floor, encountered the distinct presence of something which I could not see, but hear – it muttered in a continuous low rumble but only during those times when I had held the thought of “what could this be?” within my mind, in other words, a form of engaged awareness of it, whilst, when not paying it any attention, there was silence. Being naturally curious, I chased the phenomenon. This felt presence continued its low, muffled muttering and seemed to back itself into a corner in the room, as if frightened by my acknowledgement of it. I then lay down on the bed in the room for a while, continuing to hold the desire to converse with whatever it was I had encountered. Not very long after, there occurred three incredibly loud bangs on the cellar door within the same room, as if there were a person behind it pounding upon the door with a tightened fist. A sense of anger issued forth from the door, and I took this as a signal that I was
intruding upon something I shouldn’t be. I decided to end the experiment, gathered myself from the trance, and left the room after a brief, though sincere apology.
2) During my youth, I became fascinated with Lucid Dreaming and Out of Body Experience, and so took upon myself a routine of regular practice in order to experience them for myself. Although I had never truly considered them out of the ordinary, and certainly not occult, it should be mentioned that there is still no explanation for why the mind should be able to become conscious during the dream-state just as it is during waking life, and both phenomenon (OBE in particular) are ofttimes outright dismissed and called impossible by some skeptics to this day despite their increasing, and objective accounts. There is a definite distinction between the states of Lucid Dreaming and OBE, the main one being that OBE lends itself to a literal feeling of being outside of one’s body, a sustained awareness and clarity much unlike even the Lucid Dream state, and the unshakable, though indefinable sense that the environment and entities being experienced do not originate from one’s own
dreaming mind. If such was however the case, then our own minds hold within them a power which we are scarcely able to determine or fit into any existing model; the ability to create a seamless reality at a whim.
3) Once upon a time while living in Brooklyn, I had become enraged by my mistreatment from a person whom I used to be in a relationship with. I had just begun working with Baphomet as my cardinal source of evolution and empowerment, sensing a similarity between myself and the symbolic representation of the Old, also mistreated, Horned God of antiquate humanity. So craving a form of revenge was I, and blaming the manipulative ways of my ex’s best friend for the breakup, that I set out to perform a ritual towards Baphomet at midnight that would serve to cause hatred and dismissal from her most beloved social contact; an eye for an eye. Although I had thought that it would have caused a break between her and my ex, it was rather a semifamous writer and interviewer whom she had known for a time, whom had also, perhaps through her own means of manipulation, included many of his belongings towards her in his will. Naught but a day after the ritual,
which specifically included the desire that she fall from high social standings, the semifamous writer called her out of the blue and swore off any further contact with her, causing her to weep furiously while on the phone with him. The ritual proved an immediate success, although herein was also learned one of my most valuable lessons, for in making the grave mistake of feeling pity for her after the fact, I had cast doubt upon the ongoing of my original desire, and so encountered a backlash in the form of the writer then picking up my ex as his new groupie. Although my own persisting feelings for her had previously taken her off the radar, I later realized and admitted that she herself was the only one to truly blame for the feelings which had served to fuel the ritual.
4) During the same place and around the same time as example three, I had increased my efforts. This was, after all, a period of grand experimentation. This time, it was in the form of an intuitively derived ritual, its exact origin unknown, but which served the sole purpose of disintegrating the relationship between two people. It, also, had proven an immediate success, and only
within a few days did the relationship between both my ex and her best friend, as well as the relationship between both of them and the writer fall apart without explanation. The ritual first arrived complete and with its own strange procedure and symbolism, the likes of which I have not encountered to this day. Years later, upon the request of a friend who was going through something similar, I had allowed him to borrow this rite, which manifested, for him as well, within but a few days. I have since burned all papers detailing this working, and have decided to never utilize it again for reasons which I will not describe here, although it remains stored, in whole, within my mind to this date.
5) Although one of the most strange and unaccounted for experiences, even in the consideration of those past, this particular one was had during an experimentation with various states of Gnosis, particularly those attained by emotional peaks. Whilst working myself up into a state of agitated, angry disposition, going through various thoughtful resources which I could readily evoke in the attempt to raise the state of frustration even higher, I came upon an
interesting thought during the midst of it, and decided to conduct a whimsical experiment. “What is magick?” I muttered while furiously pacing back and forth, “but the attachment of will upon some nonsensical act, such as ritual, thus enabling, by some unknown natural force, the noncausal manifestation of some desire through the avenue of a focused altered state?” With this thought, being largely composed of racing concepts relating to the Butterfly Effect and Chaos Theory, the alteration of subtle variables and the visualization of a line of dominos falling over, and with emotional peak in hand, I had decided to follow forth with the single-minded experiment from which I anticipated no actual result. I ended up using, and treating, a can of deodorant spray as the ritual tool, the intent being that I would have Chinese takeout, of all things, tonight for dinner, being the first off-hand thought that had entered my mind, if I had but moved the can of deodorant ever so delicately, and slightly, to the left whilst allowing my mind to be wholly vacuous during the action. It was not but ten minutes later that my roommate came knocking on the door with a Chinese takeout menu in hand, asking me what I wanted and offering to pay for it. Words can
simply not express the bright, buzzing, radiant confusion which filled me up in the moments after.
6) Although I had encountered brief moments of precognition in the past, no time was more potent than my last few weeks staying in New Jersey. Despite that I, along with my partner were facing the most stressful situation any modern human might expect to face, the dreams and even natural daydreams at the time were ripe and full with detailed accounts of events to follow, and down to the letter. Although I shall not give detailed accounts here, it was certainly a first for me and of such dead-pan accuracy even over subtle details that I could hardly keep myself together. This period of rampant “psychic” activity however broke when the tide of my stay did, and although I carried forth with a deep confidence, I have not encountered a period of such pure precognition since. These are but a few of many examples, not all of which we will cover here, although it may give the reader an idea of what to expect upon the road of his or her own travels into the occult.
Synchronicity/Precognition Report - The Past 4 Months: In Chronological Order, from the Journal of Frater E.S. 1) Using a trance technique with sparse aiding natural chemicals, I laid down and went into a daydreaming state with many flashing images and thoughts. These eventually coalesced alongside inspiration into an album idea. The album was titled "Voodoo Physics", and I had wanted to do it with Stephen Branch. The next morning, myself and Branch chatted, and he said that he had a dream the same night where he was working on a music track called "Voodoo Physics". Oddly enough, we later found that the term "voodoo physics" is a term used by scientists to describe any instance of spooky or untestable phenomenon, or phenomenon which claims to be beyond the norm, and is usually used as an insulting label to various forms of psuedo-science. Sweet irony, I am thy harbinger. 2) Using the same exact trance technique, I go into the semi-dreaming state while laying down, and eventually thoughts take shape. It was about how I really don't like the Comedy Central show "Key & Peel", and how I think it could be made better. I came up with a sketch in my head about one of their heads (the blacker guy, I'm not sure if this is Key or Peel), being
digitally put onto a small bulldogs body, and going on about how black people call each other "dawg" or some shit. It seemed funnier than most of their stuff. The next night after, I see a new commercial on Comedy Central advertising the show, and the commercial showed a few seconds of a skit where the same guy's head was on a small dog's body. The fuckers stole my idea. But not really, just another instance of precognition via trance. 3) My relatives were expected to arrive here the next day. That night, I had a dream where I saw Anton LaVey (Church of Satan founder) sitting on a stool in a corner in the kitchen. He was very kind, and had three large felines with him prowling the grounds: a tiger, a lion, and a jaguar. The jaguar was particularly friendly with me. I talked to LaVey some, though I can't recall the dialogue. He seemed very wise and understanding. Later in the dream, I saw the face of my Uncle (Father's brother), whom I haven't seen a photo of since I was very, very young, and even those, I don't remember. So the next day comes, and my Uncle looks exactly as he did in the dream, down to the letter. This wasn't that strange for me, but I didn't know what the deal was with LaVey. Just recently, however, my grandmother (who came to visit with him) has accused me of being a Satanist simply
because of my interests concerning the occult, despite that she herself was a member of a psychic/occult group for a while. Perhaps this was what the dream had meant; a sort of warning. Who can say. Not enough data in this example. 4) I was taking a walk on the usual long park trail. This day preceded a dream which I felt was very important, but won't go into that. While walking on the trail, I have the thought of an Indian woman in a pink dress who seems like she's tempting me into something, or at least being sexual about things. About 10-20 minutes later walking, I see a bright pink cloth on the side of the trail, neatly folded. It doesn't look like anyone dropped it, or else it wouldn't be so neatly packed. It's a place-mat sized pink cloth with unmistakable Indian designs all over it. --------------------------------------------------------Example 1 happened quite a while ago, about a few (4?) months. Example two perhaps 2 months ago, example 3 about a month ago before relatives visited, and example 4 being a few days ago. These are a few of the bigger hitters from my journal.
